KSHIELDS519's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KSHIELDS519 KSHIELDS519's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Week 4: Single Serving Portions of Everything... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5245715 So I completed the third week of this detox with a few slip-ups. It wasn't that difficult to give up pork or alcohol. I slipped up on the red meat because I wasn't thinking about what I was putting in my mouth. I overcompensated for the "missing food" by eating outsized portions of everything. This week, I'm making a commitment to change that habit. I'm eating one serving of any food that I put in my mouth. In the event that there's no real measurement, I'm going to eat one half of what... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 22:28:10 EST Step 3: Dump the Red Meat, Pork Products, and Alcohol http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5235275 Okay! So I did a pretty good job with the no fast food challenge from Week 2. I stayed out of the drive-thru and I didn't eat any of the foods at my job. (I did go a bit overboard with the restaurant eating, though.) I'm going to continue on my detox by getting rid of red meat (beef and veal), pork products (pork sausage/pepperoni/etc.), and alcohol. I'm going to continue to stay away from caffeine, nicotine, and fast food this week. My primary focus, though, is getting off of the things... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 05:22:54 EST Step 2: Get Rid of Fast Food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5225179 Okay, so I did a pretty good job with Step 1. I had no nicotine for the whole week and I was caffeine-free for six of seven days. My goal this week is to get rid of the fast food. This means no McDonald's, no Wendy's, no B.K., none of that. I am allowing myself to eat at a sit-down restaurant twice this week, but I can't go anywhere with a drive-thru. That means that I cannot eat at the bagel shop where I work. It's not good for me. It's never been good for me. And I believe my body wil... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 05:25:33 EST Meeting My Needs First? What? Me First? Wow. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218163 I skimmed through a book yesterday called "The Secret Law of Attraction" (or something like that) by Talane? Somebody (sorry, I don't remember her last name, but there's a photo of a cute blonde chick on the back of the book). It was about attracting good love and finding a healthy relationship by meeting your own emotional needs - the right way - first. The author thinks that many of our bad habits like overeating, spending too much, etc. come from unmet emotional needs. <BR> In society,... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 07:57:08 EST Step 1: Get Rid of Caffeine and Nicotine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5215140 For the next two weeks, no obvious caffeine or nicotine. Since I'm not a smoker, the nicotine part shouldn't be that difficult. The coffee part I'm really going to have to be careful about. I work part-time at a bagel shop with an espresso machine and I love to drink my work! LOL! <BR> **I've decided to shorten this goal to tackle more important addictions/cravings. I'll do no caffeine and nicotine for one week and then move on to something else next week.** <BR> <BR> 1/20/2013 - Yay! I'... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 06:37:23 EST Been here since 2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5205256 Ha! I'm back again. I've been on Sparkpeople since 2010 and I haven't made very much progress. I'm a "sporadic sparker". I'll be consistent for a few months at a time and then completely disappear. This time, I've been gone for over a year. It's amazing to me that the Sparkpeople website is still here and that there are so many people who continue to participate. There's always a chance to start fresh, lose the weight, and get healthy. I'm tired of starting over, though. I want to get ... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 15:53:11 EST Shortcuts take Longer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4494670 So I'm the queen of shortcuts and "cheating" and little white lies about my food. But in the end, all of my bargaining and little white lies cost me precious time and peace of mind. Giving myself permission to skip out on exercise may cost me days of life on down the road, when I age. Usually, when you do something the quick way, you end up having to do it all over again because the work is shoddy and poor quality. Or, if you buy something really important at a bargain, you find later th... Tue, 20 Sep 2011 11:23:22 EST Does God Exist? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4491910 I don't know for sure. I have no concrete physical proof. But I do know that contemplating a world without a Higher Power of some sort is extremely depressing. I know that the size and scale of the Universe are probably beyond any human power of conception (any single human being, at least). I don't, however, claim that only one person's concept of God is right. It's a bit egotistical to claim to have the market "cornered" as far a God is concerned. God defies human definition. Just my t... Sun, 18 Sep 2011 22:42:15 EST You are what you actually do, not what you intend to do. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4459733 I knew the above intellectually, but not in practice. I would make wonderful plans to eat healthy meals, exercise for 2 hour blocks, and get to bed on time. I wouldn't do what I had planned most of the time, but then I was truly boggled by the fact that I never lost any weight. So imagine my surprise when I would let myself have a "cheat day" (after all of this hard planning) and would step on the scale to find I had actually gained weight instead of maintaining. <BR> <BR> I'm an intell... Thu, 1 Sep 2011 00:34:41 EST Moving Forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4441517 I used to despise the phrase "moving forward". A former boss that I had a strained work relationship with would overuse it. When she wanted to know what needed to be done in a particular situation, but didn't want to let us know that she didn't what to do, she'd say something like, "...moving forward, I'd like you to put together a list of available funding..." or "...moving forward, I'd like you to develop an action plan...". She'd interrupt, wouldn't offer suggestions or a remedy, and u... Mon, 22 Aug 2011 10:29:34 EST Life Happens http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4420052 I just needed to say that life happens. Good and bad. I made the decision to leave my job today and it definitely wasn't an easy decision to make. But it's a choice. I made it instead of waiting for circumstances to get even worse. I trust that my Higher Power doesn't want me suffer through life. I made the most loving choice I could - for myself. Like I said before, the decision to leave wasn't easy, but it was the HEALTHIEST thing that I could do. I have to trust that something bett... Thu, 11 Aug 2011 01:34:49 EST Thoughts... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4367282 1. Acceptance of my life and my body as it is now is key. I don't have to like it, but I do have to acknowledge reality...and keep living. <BR> <BR> 2. I can't "white knuckle" abstinence from compulsive eating. I've tried to force myself to change before and it never lasted. Choosing abstinence and healthy eating must come from a place deep within and ultimately be more rewarding for me than pigging out at the drive-thru. <BR> <BR> 3. Acceptance of my status as a single woman is also ke... Sat, 16 Jul 2011 23:24:35 EST Relapsing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4308644 Well, I'm back into the food. The difference this time is that I'm going to write about it. I'm going to tell the truth about it instead of ignoring the fact that I've thrown all of my good eating behaviors to the wind for the last two months. <BR> <BR> The only way I can lose this battle with weight is to stop trying. <BR> <BR> I envision myself at 150 pounds, healthy, with a flat stomach, not skinny, but with slightly muscular, well-developed curves. I am well-dressed, take care of m... Sun, 19 Jun 2011 15:26:11 EST Living with Integrity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4181262 "...we are no longer ruled by a fear of admitting our mistakes. We have the integrity to show the world our true selves. No longer needing to appear to the world as perfect people, we can live more fully, having the courage to face up to our mistakes and test our strengths in the challenges of life." (p. 104) <BR> <BR> Also, "pobody's nerfect" (I love this one!) <BR> <BR> <em>306</em> Thu, 21 Apr 2011 10:15:48 EST A Messy Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4179108 Right now, it looks as if everything in my life is messy, disorganized, cluttered, and unattended to. <BR> <BR> That's because it is. <BR> <BR> Failure (or perceived failure) in one or two areas of my life gives me reason to become depressed and just give up on everything else. <BR> <BR> I stop trying to become healthier and eat whatever I want. <BR> <BR> I stop doing chores (washing dishes or clothes) or anything not absolutely necessary to my survival for several days. <BR> <BR> I may ... Wed, 20 Apr 2011 11:36:46 EST Self-Acceptance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4131965 Yesterday, I was made to feel like no matter how well I dress myself, no matter how cute my hair is, how wonderful my personality, or how intelligent I show myself to be, that because I don't have the right body shape and because I'm not the correct weight, that I'm less than a woman who is an average weight with a nice body shape with all of the above mentioned characteristics. <BR> <BR> Needless to say (but I will say it anyway) that I felt like someone had reached in my chest and ripped m... Thu, 31 Mar 2011 14:19:06 EST My Unpredictable Body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4086443 After 7 days of not so good eating, I ended up losing about a pound. I don't understand it. I have been eating pretty well over the last month or so and then last week I went on an emotional bender for a couple of days. I've just started eating mindfully again and I was surprised that I hadn't gained an additional 5 pounds. I guess the workings of my body, how she gains and loses weight, are more of a mystery to me than I thought. <em>38</em> Sat, 12 Mar 2011 14:17:19 EST Learning Consistency http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4051489 Being consistent is the key to any long-term success, I think. <BR> <BR> I am learning how to manage my thoughts and emotions so that I can become more consistent. <BR> <BR> When no one else is watching, consistency is a very difficult thing for me to manage. <BR> <BR> If no one else is looking, I will not hold myself accountable for ANYTHING. <BR> <BR> I would excuse myself from any work to be done. <BR> <BR> I would excuse myself from exercise. <BR> <BR> I would excuse myself from co... Sun, 27 Feb 2011 12:35:39 EST Numbers = Information Only http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4029955 I am learning how to use numbers as information only. Numbers like calories, the inches around my waist, and my weight are simply informational. They should not be used to judge my worth as a person. Same with my blood pressure and cholesterol, those numbers are also there to alert me to what's happening inside of my body and (if need be) motivate me to take action. There is no need to be afraid of numbers. They are inanimate objects with no voice or mind of their own. So why do I get s... Sat, 19 Feb 2011 11:12:44 EST A Strange Brunch http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4014827 So what does it mean when I am angry that I didn't enjoy my usual Sunday brunch routine? <BR> <BR> This morning, I planned to skip my usual Sunday brunch at a certain local breakfast spot. <BR> <BR> Within myself, I was not happy with that choice, so I planned to go anyway, but maybe to order something different (with fewer calories) than my usual. <BR> <BR> I went to the restaurant and had a disturbing experience. <BR> <BR> I ordered my usual with coffee and then a family with a mentally... Sun, 13 Feb 2011 18:48:36 EST Fighting in Egypt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3986989 Please send up prayers for all of the fighting going on in Egypt. This has been going on for awhile now, and I hope that it doesn't escalate any more. Thu, 3 Feb 2011 12:08:32 EST Becoming "Un-Independent" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3971421 I have a tendency to only trust my Higher Power to handle the smaller, more manageable "issues" in my life. The big things, I tell myself, I must handle all alone. In my mind, losing weight is to be done on my own without any assistance from anyone. <BR> <BR> The task is so big that I get overwhelmed at the sheer enormity of what needs to be done. I avoid the work through procrastination. I tell myself that "I have time, I can begin later", or, "I'm doing a little bit at a time". <BR... Sat, 29 Jan 2011 11:20:02 EST In Time, It Will Come... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3949088 I am guilty of setting unrealistic goals and creating crazy deadlines concerning my health and fitness. I've been doing this for as long as I've been trying to lose weight. My impossible goals are usually set after particularly heinous episodes of overeating. For example, I'll eat half of a pizza by myself and then promise myself that I'll begin working out daily to take off the extra weight that I just added to an already overtaxed frame. <BR> <BR> I've just joined a different type of ... Sat, 22 Jan 2011 00:52:10 EST More Ratings... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3450335 Okay, so call me flighty, but I like to try new things. After awhile, doing the same old treadmill or bike routine does get stale as old broccoli and I need something new in the mix. Here are my opinions on a few more classes I've tried this summer: <BR> <BR> Zumba - YAAAY! It's the closest I can get to an Afro-Latin dance party without buying a plane ticket to Miami...or Puerto Rico...or the D.R. There is high-energy music from several different types of Latin dance that makes you want ... Tue, 20 Jul 2010 10:01:30 EST Rating New Types of Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3391523 Okay, so during the summer I have a little extra time during the day and I've decided to get back into the gym and try some new forms of exercise. I do group exercise classes at my gym (24 Hr. Fitness) and here are the ones I like so far: <BR> <BR> Kickboxing Class: While I've done kickboxing videotapes before, taking a class with an instructor and a group of dedicated kickboxers is a whole different experience. I thought that I'd be able to get through the class pretty easily because I'd ... Fri, 2 Jul 2010 00:54:25 EST Setting Up Systems http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3006226 Since I do everything on autopilot, including eating bad foods, I figure that it might be helpful to set up systems that steer me toward "automatic" successes...sort of like paying your bills on time because of an automatic withdrawal from your checking account each month. (I don't want to, but it's a must, and I'd rather not have to worry about it.) <BR> <BR> What are some systems I could set up to make myself successful on this journey to a healthier body? <BR> <BR> 1. A system for healt... Tue, 16 Mar 2010 11:05:55 EST Slip Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2980003 So I had an eating spree that started this weekend and hasn't yet ended. I start out well in the mornings, but it's after work or school that I do the most damage. I ate so much one day, I didn't want to track my food. The task was too tedious. But instead of giving up on myself in the beginning of this journey on SparkPeople, I'm going to continue to blog, track, and weigh in because taking care of my health is a long-term thing. Tue, 9 Mar 2010 21:30:55 EST The Difference http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2961737 For me, the difference between success and failure is simply my belief in whether or not I can get a thing done. <BR> <BR> If I believe (or know) that I can do something, then I will do it without much thought or trepidation. EX: Eating a cheeseburger - I have absolutely no worries about whether or not I can polish off a cheeseburger, I KNOW for sure that I can. <BR> <BR> If I believe (or know) that I CAN'T do something, then I probably WON'T do it. Even if I TRY to do it, there will be so... Fri, 5 Mar 2010 10:52:39 EST Calming Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2957546 I've been tracking consistently since I came back (about 2.5 weeks). I've also been cleaning up my sleep and work habits. I am beginning to feel more calm about my life now that I'm beginning to do things differently. I was brutally honest at work without being disrespectful, and it's brought about a lot of good changes so far. I am saying "No" to men who do not have my best interests at heart. I am not so angry with myself all of the time for overeating. Now that I record what I eat, I... Thu, 4 Mar 2010 11:22:59 EST The Best Within You http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2930938 In the name of the best within you, do not sacrifice this world to those who are at its worst. <BR> <BR> In the name of the values that you keep alive, do not let your vision of man be distorted by the ugly, the cowardly, the mindless in those who have never achieved his title. <BR> <BR> Do not lose your knowledge that man's (woman's) proper estate is an upright posture, an intransigent mind and a step that travels unlimited roads. <BR> <BR> DO NOT LET YOUR FIRE GO OUT, spark by irreplacea... Fri, 26 Feb 2010 11:48:58 EST Who Counts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2926314 It is not the critic who counts, nor the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done better. <BR> <BR> The credit belongs to the man (woman) who is actually in the arena; whose face is marred by dust and sweat; who strives valiantly; who errs and may fail again, because there is no effort without error or shortcoming... <BR> <BR> -Teddy Roosevelt Thu, 25 Feb 2010 10:44:08 EST Simply Tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2920333 Today, I have two sets of bags under my eyes because: <BR> <BR> I'm tired of telling my students to "be quiet", "focus", and "listen". <BR> <BR> I'm tired of being single. <BR> <BR> I'm tired of working for people who don't know what they're doing. <BR> <BR> I'm tired of having to do everything at home by myself; I'd like some help. <BR> <BR> I'm tired of being either too much for a man or not enough, but never just right. <BR> <BR> I'm tired of my bad habits. <BR> <BR> I'm tired of b... Tue, 23 Feb 2010 23:25:18 EST Funny Business http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2911248 I've found that people who have a good, healthy sense of humor are a joy to talk to and a pleasure to be around. <BR> <BR> I ate breakfast at a little diner close to my house and had a great conversation with a 60-year old woman I'd never met before. She was full of wisdom and gave great advice about being a teacher. But the advice wasn't the best part. What made the conversation great was that she was ridiculously funny and I laughed out loud several times during the course of our conver... Sun, 21 Feb 2010 23:41:55 EST The Numbers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2906099 So I signed up for SparkPeople at the end of January at the suggestion of a friend who's an M.D. Then, I disappeared until today. I've never liked tracking my food intake, water intake, or how much exercise I do each day, because the numbers don't lie. <BR> <BR> I hate doing things routinely. I like spice, I like it when things are fresh, free, and a little bit unpredictable because that's how life is. <BR> <BR> HOWEVER <BR> <BR> I'm learning that in order to achieve goals and to acco... Sat, 20 Feb 2010 16:25:59 EST