KRYSTL719's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KRYSTL719 KRYSTL719's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Bike accident- june 28th, 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735561 Yes, the title is correct. I had a bike accident. It wasnt a motorcycle, a simple small mountain bike. <BR> <BR> So what happened? Here I will tell ya. <BR> <BR> I was at the beach, with the family. As ive been active a lot since getting healthy, we go outdoors a lot more. It was the 4th day in a row of going to the beach! Sooo i decided ill make it easy and take my daughters spare bike, because it would fit in the van a lot easier with the rest of our bikes. After one full round around th... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 19:50:52 EST Day after mothers day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5693374 (53lbs down-280.4) <BR> Hello, and Happy belated Mothers Day. We all know Moms should get more than one day of recognition, trust me. Mother is a small word for such an important person in all of our lives. (dad's too) <BR> <BR> Yesterday some of us met at my sisters for a cookout. Yes Im sure I probably over-ate, but not too crazy I hope. I didnt bother tracking the rest of the day was busy. I didnt get my regular exercise in saturday or sunday, so that bummed me out, but today is recovery... Mon, 12 May 2014 12:00:59 EST progress update 5/5/14 -49lbs or so down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687642 Hello. Ive been trucking right along sparking away. Its been the highlight of my year so far. I truly feel it in my soul that i am determined to get to a weight that i havent seen since i was young. Do you know that is a personal blessing i give to myself. I have seen what life is like to be obese for many years. Its so depressing, like before i heard about sparkpeople i barely wanted to live when i got to a certain weight. Now life has so much meaning. <BR> <BR> Each blog i will have to wr... Mon, 5 May 2014 01:06:27 EST A FEW DAYS OF HELLL-OOOO http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677293 I tried to prepare myself for this. I knew I had my Daughters 5th birthday, and The holiday the same weekend. I was busy, and now have leftovers after 2 days of not eating in range. There was no way to. Not only am I a food addict, but I didnt have enough money or time to shop for my regular healthy foods. Today is recovery day. Im not tracking but I am mentally preparing myself for a full tracking day tomorrow. <BR> <BR> BUT WHAT ABOUT ALL THE CANDY? Well, today I will have to gather up the... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 18:20:49 EST Okay, Im happy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670458 Where the heck a 5lb weight loss came from I didnt expect, but it has totally brightened my weekend. woohoo. Im on track, so much walking Ive been doing. <BR> <BR> Past all the crazy drama, I knew I would see what I accomplished. I mean my week was pretty crazy. I mean I secluded my 1 year old wild nephew in my livingroom, with a puppy who kept escaping and trying to pee in the house, and my own kids, no time to clean house until they went home. I was busy and STILL MANAGED TO GET LOTS OF WA... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 11:56:36 EST drama drama- :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668505 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/5/l859630012.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Hello. These past 2.5 days have seriously had me laughing. Not because they were fun, but because the drama has been so crazy, If I wasnt calm through it all, then I would have lost my mind. haha. Thank God I have been through worse in life, and being back on track for 2 weeks full force has been the best kick in the butt I could ask for. <BR> <BR> Last night I had to watch my 1 year old nephew OVERNIGHT, and that... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 20:15:13 EST i still love sparkpeople, and im going to stay a long time. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662050 I feel like i did when i first found sparkpeople. I am just so happy to be giving this my all right now. I feel better when i track my food because i know im paying attention and can be accountable. I love tracking my fitness because it encourages me to have a routine and to see a report over time of my hard work. I keep asking myself why i stopped, but you know what? It doesnt matter because im here and i have a long term goal this time. I want to find the real me underneath this unhealthy b... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 20:06:53 EST scale issues :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660626 I cant seem to find a spot to get the best accurate scale reading. Ive tried 3 spots. I bought a new weight watchers digital scale, and was hoping id have luck this time around. I went with a manual scale last time. Any input would be great. :) but all 3 results were good. I havent been able to weigh myself til i bought a new one, so i went with the higher weight and will just go from there. Mon, 31 Mar 2014 09:01:06 EST okay! ill vent :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5659277 I had a long talk with myself. For me journalling and writing is an amaz...... <BR> <BR> Actually. I'm just gonna say it... my kids are driving me up a wall just as soon as I got back on the health wagon. Why is that? <BR> This is insanity trying to get a break, to write and relieve stress but I cant even breathe for a full quiet moment. <BR> Also my desktop computer is so slow now and I miss just typing just as quick as I can speak on there. It builds up. But I'm here. Ive figured out how... Sat, 29 Mar 2014 11:47:15 EST Awesome holiday eating tips! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5550577 All credit given to INDYGIRL, she wrote this blog. <BR> <BR> We've started off a season of food galore! It's everywhere, and it is tempting, yummy, and full of memories and emotions. If you’re an emotional eater like I am, the memories (good and bad) and family gatherings will send you into a frenzy. Party tables lined with delicious and beautifully presented arrays of holiday favorites that would make Martha Stewart jealous are soon to come. Snacking on carrots and knitting to ward off bing... Tue, 26 Nov 2013 09:15:27 EST Where I am at http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5547847 Its been stupid things recently that have kept me slacking... like I would love using my big computer to log online to SP... and for the longest time things were changed on it and it made it soo slow...YES THAT IS THE WORST EXCUSE TO GET ON SPARKPEOPLE... HAHAHA IM LAUGHING AT MYSELF. <BR> <BR> but I at least have been walking still, I just have not been doing it as much with weather changes here in ohio, nor has my eating habits been doing well. but today I am here. <BR> <BR> I was startin... Fri, 22 Nov 2013 15:51:05 EST Just a quick rant blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5482926 So, Ive made it a great habit of getting atleast walking in everyday to and from my daughters school, or walks at a park that evening as well. I am happy and proud, and cant wait to start seeing better results. <BR> <BR> I was doing well tracking food until my boyfriends birthday party was last weekend, and of course I let myself slide then, and havent picked that part of my sparking yet. <BR> <BR> One of my downfall triggers is grabbing stuff that isnt so easy to track, like its that hard... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 16:59:49 EST August 23, 2013 =) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5463940 I am so happy to have the sparkpeople app to take on the go. it was hard to log in at first because i always logged in through facebook, but i found out how to get through that, and i was scared it wasnt going to work out. $3.99 for an app that will save my health isnt bad, lol. <BR> <BR> I have my daughter in 2nd grade now for the 2nd day. Its a nice break from the extra craziness, although i miss her. I have my other daughter here until I see if she is going to preschool. <BR> <BR> My ro... Fri, 23 Aug 2013 10:39:12 EST Hello hello http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5459992 I took a break from sparkpeople. I suppose I wasnt making myself a priority lately, but here I am, lol. <BR> <BR> Big news for me. I finally gave in and got an updated phone. I was always against updating because i honestly do not trust technology now a days. I know too much, because I do my research...lol. but I figured that it will not be anything too updated. So its got the android on it and I am able to FINALLYYYY GET SPARKPEOPLE ON THE GO NOW. <BR> <BR> I am so behind the times, and ... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 14:09:52 EST 5-8-13, moving right along http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5349623 I can say I am doing well. A lot better than I was when I went MIA from sparkpeople, and started gaining weight like crazy. That was a horrible feeling being too scared to come back and face what I did. I want you all to know, no matter how many times you stray, its never worth staying away, always come back.. <BR> <BR> Tracking my food intake has done wonders itself. It shows me I don't have to eat or mindlessly snack when i see that I have had plenty of calories, and I can't be starving...... Wed, 8 May 2013 09:54:45 EST aprils almost over already? here goes nothing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5335073 There is one good thing I found out today out of all this depression I threw myself into... Is that i did not gain every bit of weight back. I really felt like I did. I am a hair just under 300, which is technically in the 200's lol. Whatever helps right? The past few months I have dont nothing but hinder myself, stir up cravings, help others, gain weight, and be scared to see how much damage I did to myself. <BR> <BR> So, what do I decide to do? I wake up motivated and ready the day-the sa... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 09:26:37 EST Im back, and Mom is doing well! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5288145 For those of you who know of my last blog, where my Mom was mauled by a dog... well, she is recovering well. I still help her with her bandages, and not to get graphic or anything but her wounds have filled in very well. I am happy. She is back at her house, she still has the wound vac on to help regenerate tissue and such but still hasn't been to work. Were trying to let my siblings who are living with her foot most of the bills. <BR> <BR> Besides that many changes have arose. We have got a... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 20:55:13 EST Moms dog attack_ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5223102 Where the heck do I begin?.. <BR> <BR> <BR> My Mom is an animal lover. She would rather sleep in a cold van than to live without them if the landlord didn't want dogs. (That is a true story by the way). She has rescued dogs ever since I can remember, which is where I get it from. Unfortuneately, not all dogs can think like humans do, and some have had a past, an abusive upbringing, or there are medical issues making it irratable, etc. <BR> <BR> <BR> I get a phone call from my Brothers gir... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 13:13:48 EST 100 reasons to workout today... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5209783 This is a list of great reasons I copied off of Nicole Nichols article. Which ones can you relate with the most??? <BR> <BR> 100 reasons to workout today: <BR> ________________________ <BR> Because it makes you feel confident <BR> Because it helps you get stronger <BR> Because exercise helps combat depression <BR> Because you'll feel proud of yourself <BR> Because you have goals you want to reach <BR> Because you'll feel bad if you don't <BR> Because you want to move forward, not backward <B... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 10:13:49 EST 41lbs gone 1-15-13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5208157 I am feeling much better now that I see my ticker moving down the way again. I am not even going to focus anymore on the slip I had that made me gain a bunch of weight back from halloween til new years.....ugh -LOL <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> My starting weight was 333 when I first found sparkpeople, and I have lost 41lbs to date. <BR> <BR> I need to be proud. <BR> <BR> I am not perfect, I never will be, but for now I have finally gotten to the mark where I know I caught the fishing hook, an... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 10:36:15 EST 1-10-13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5200853 I never recommend going so long with out a decent meal, or decent nutrition. Ive just set myself up for failure because of a busy day. I will save myself with a sammich from SUBWAY or something healthier than standing in the kitchen gawcking at all the food i wanna eat... <BR> <BR> On top of a busy day, my routine is off, I didnt get to clean, exercise, and who brings home some pizza? yes my b/f... <BR> <BR> He didnt warn me. So I think If I can avoid even just 1 crumb of it, I will be prov... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 16:40:04 EST quick thought to myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5198318 When I slipped away from sparkpeople for the 2-3 months, I really thought I gained every pound of weight back. Thats how gross I felt about myself. I felt the weight gain. Yes I gained a signifigant amount back of what i lost, but it was only half of what I had lost. <BR> <BR> If I felt that bad, that heavy, that tired & slowed down with just half of that weight back.... It really opened my eyes to remember about how horrible it was when I weighed the full 333lbs, and back then I had no ide... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 08:27:46 EST Need tips for basic arm workouts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5194941 I am taking up a poll on people who have found arm workouts that burn fat and strengthen the muscle and are easy to do anywhere. no machines required. <BR> <BR> First hand experience only. <BR> <BR> My arms are bad, I cant stand it any more, so I am starting to find some workouts for them to get started. I hope to see results as I make progress. Please share any info if you come across this blog. <BR> <BR> Thank you and Happy Sparking! Mon, 7 Jan 2013 12:14:58 EST January 6th, 2013 =) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5193740 Wow, its 2013 already? wasn't that a date in Marty Mcfly's Back to the Future movie? Ha, IDK. <BR> <BR> Anyways, today I can't complain about anything. I mean, I can, but It could have been so much worse, I choose to appreciate what went right today not wrong. <BR> <BR> Instead of focusing on the fact I was kinda grumpy today, the kids are just off the hook sometimes giving me and the b/f headaches, lol, Its SUNday, bleh, and I am not looking forward to getting the kids dressed at 7:30am, l... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 20:04:56 EST Deep blog into my past 1-5-13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5191610 When your like me who grew up a bit unstable, sometimes when both parents out of the house, many siblings, and no food control---- or another scenario where food addiction has its firm grasp in your upbringing... then you may just relate to what I am about to say. <BR> <BR> I am a food addict. No I dont rummage the fridge 24/7 only peering out to see whose gonna steal my food, all the while having pudding and whipped cream dropping off my cheeks, Im just very familiar with how food and I are... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 13:12:10 EST Copy and paste after you read the answers... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5187292 "Copy and Paste into your own blog, change the answers to suit you. Get an easy three SparkPoints, and help your SparkFriends get to know you.” <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Where is my cell phone? <BR> Right next to me, lol. <BR> <BR> Spouse? <BR> Sleeping on the couch. <BR> <BR> Your hair? <BR> LONG Dark brown/black, waiting to get it highlighted... <BR> <BR> Your mother? <BR> I wish I could do more for her. <BR> <BR> Your father? <BR> umm, the great Mafioso? Hes around, but not as of... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 23:39:59 EST I am home-watching all of my SP friends hard at work. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5182152 There is no doubt that I am still going to make slip-ups and have a rocky beginning to my everyday routine, seeing as I was MIA for a while after my sister had a baby, but the feeling I have when I come to Sparkpeople and see all of you hard at work still... is JUST UNEXPLAINABLE. I love it. <BR> <BR> I still get that happy-go-lucky butterflies in my stomach knowing I am back on track, with the never ending line of support we all require for a happy & healthy weight loss. Trust me I am suc... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 11:57:27 EST Oh How I have missed my Sparkpeople lifestyle... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5169962 As with the best of us, and as with any addiction, we are always able to fall off the wagon, and yep. I fell hard. Not at first, I thought I would take a week off when my sister had her baby. I was just so excited. It wasn't even my kid, it was just the thought that someone I would have never thought to bear a child, had one, and I knew I wanted to give her all the proud krystl knowledge I had available. How the heck that turned into a 2.5 month offing IDK, but it started there- ALWAYS WITH G... Tue, 18 Dec 2012 09:43:15 EST What say you Sparkfriends? Ideas for my breakfast woes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5074173 I think it may be from weird hours I stay awake, but heres the deal. I stay up late, til about 2am-ish mainly because I greet my boyfriend when he comes back home from 2nd shift, the father of my 2 kids- the man I have been with 8 years... so I feel its natural to wait until he comes home so I can feel at ease to sleep, its not the problem. <BR> The problem for me is balancing my calories out. After months as a sparkpeople member, and tracked food a while to see my habits, I feel if I am go... Tue, 25 Sep 2012 09:45:13 EST recovering from food?, yes. lol http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5057355 My last blog gives just a tip of the iceburg of how dramatic things can be, especially when my aunt is involved. I have since then made my drama known, and have cleared up that, .....but it was in exchange for like 5 days of eating and not tracking, and soda, and pasta... ugh. I got a few days of minor exercise I am going to track, but not to seem blunt, but it was also that time of month, and I felt soooo unrooted. I wasn't myself, I even think the food consumption change helped with keeping... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 09:51:11 EST Omg, the drama... cant even name it all... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5048899 Im starting to lose my mind today. HA <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/0/l403813541.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I was doing so good today, I couldnt exercise by myself today at home because b/f had to run errands, so I fought through the exercise all while yelling at my 3 year old as she kept terrorizing the cats like Almira from tiny toons, and it wasn't fun... did you ever try to exercise while arguing? Its sooo aggravating, my god, but I got a great workout in despite all that. <... Fri, 7 Sep 2012 18:27:49 EST The blog which has no name; (supporting my journey) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5037221 Why do I care so much about the 50lbs loss I originally had a short term goal of? I mean, once I got to it, I started slacking off and lost sight of what I was doing. It's not like I had JUST 50lbs to lose, so why did I mentally feel like I was done? hmph! <BR> <BR> I believe I made it to like 53-54lbs total I have lost with SP. <BR> <BR> I slacked for the summer break, I let choices and stress control my food intake, and my fiance even continued bringing unhealthy food near me. Why did I f... Thu, 30 Aug 2012 10:13:07 EST A Father in my life? new to me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5035443 I never had anyone I could call Dad. That name has never rolled off my tongue. I grew up without my biological father, and had alot of resentment toward him. So do my 2 sisters. <BR> <BR> Over the years I have made my fair share of mistakes. I have grown from resenting him to understanding how easy it is to be afraid to take steps forward... not as though I am doing a job Fathers should do, but because somehow I think I understand because I have anxiety and addictions, and depression - and I... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 00:16:52 EST The routine I loved has come back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5026276 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/6/l964846496.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Could I really explain enough of how I am so happy at this moment? <BR> <BR> My Daughter started 1st grade today. I got up early, which I really dont like to do at all) and didnt have the urge to go back to sleep after we came back. My Daughters teacher looks wonderful, I think she will have a great time, although I did choke up a bit when I was leaving, OF COURSE! <BR> <BR> But, I had the best routine I could b... Wed, 22 Aug 2012 11:43:54 EST a couple pounds in exchange for getting on track- ill take it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5000600 I haven't weighed myself in weeks I'm assuming, and I was already aware I gained something. After all i wasn't using my favorite sparkpeople to track my food for a while. It turns out I did gain 5lbs. Thats within a few weeks of not tracking, and I already know i wasn't eating great foods. I could even feel my cravings starting back up again. BUT I have been drinking water. <BR> <BR> but Why am I happy? <BR> <BR> Because it was exactly what I needed to make sparkpeople a priotity again. I... Sat, 4 Aug 2012 11:17:45 EST hi Spark friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4988627 Ive had a busy summer so to say. I keep putting myself down that I haven't been able to track every day like i was in the beginning. BUT! ... Sparkpeople has taught me so much, that I haven't forgotten. Im not going anywhere, but I do take breaks from here seeing as I have been doing a lot. I do get active, this year has been so much more active than any other. YAY! and I went on a trip to Michigan, I have been keeping up with politics, I had 2 birthday parties, lol. July 19th I turned the bi... Thu, 26 Jul 2012 23:33:07 EST Geez Krystl, wheres your spark? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4948919 Okay, a few weeks ago I started slacking a bit on my sparkpeople tracker and haven't been the same since. Am I waiting for me to gain back 10 pounds before I get in gear? What are my excuses? hmm its usually because I eat complicated things that I cant track or i think its too hard lately. Sad excuse for now... Trust me I know: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/7/l978977802.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Ha! <BR> I've got to get out of this mix I am in, I havent even gotten to track ... Sat, 30 Jun 2012 12:16:43 EST Catch-up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4921434 Hi Sparkfriends. Its come to the time now, seeing as Im stuck at my 50lb loss for 2 weeks now, that I am ready to step up my discipline I have slacked off, which is normal. I haven't slacked off by much, I am still on the right track, but compared to the efforts I put forth in the beginning of my journey, I have seemed to let myself start eating not so wonderful foods, NOT EVERYDAY, or all day... I just dont feel as healthy as when I was stuffing my face with like 3 salads a day and stuff. ... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 10:42:55 EST BLC Goal BLOG -(halfway point) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4890352 Well, dearest team members, <BR> <BR> Looking back for the past 2 weeks of being on this spark team i originally set the goals to be a little more fit, drink plenty of water, 64oz preferred habit, and to lose atleast 10lbs- all in the 4 weeks of this challenge. So far I believe I am in good standing, losing already more than what I expected only halfway! <BR> <BR> I said i would atleast like to lose 10+ lbs, halfway i have lost 11lbs, so Thank God I am still on the right track. <BR> <BR> I... Sun, 20 May 2012 22:00:52 EST May 11th, 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4877344 Hi Spark Friends. today felt just sweet as watermelon. Perfect weather, not too hot, not cold. went for an hour bike ride in the metroparks trails. While riding I found a perfect picnic area to have mothers day picnic cookout this weekend. <BR> <BR> Also, got my exercise in, all while basking in the thought that I have lost a total of 44lbs! How the heck that happened, I dont know, but I feel blessed. My life has gotten so much better for the most part since I started taking care of myself..... Fri, 11 May 2012 16:38:04 EST Final destination real-life movie: you ready to read??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4866640 Where the heck do i start? yesterday I knew it was coming... <BR> <BR> Its always crazy right before a full moon, and right after. Usually I am happy on the days of... <BR> <BR> <BR> It first started when my mom called to tell me she found an abandoned kitten... a newborn! She didnt know how to help it, She tried buying it a can of soft food.. and it didnt know how to eat it. I told her to bring it to me, seeing as I am Katwoman, (I even have a tattoo of a cat in my forearm) I went to pet ... Fri, 4 May 2012 16:45:39 EST MY STORY- a more detailed recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4855054 Okay, from previous blogs, I have expressed a lot of who I was before i finally hit my bottom of weight gain... <BR> <BR> <BR> Lets recap some more: <BR> I seriously was the most helpless, negative, unmotivated, self-loathing, clinically depressed, lazy, unhealthy food addict. seriously. I just was so tired all the time, I just wanted to sleep all day. I would go back to sleep after getting my daughter ready for school, and sleep until noon. <BR> <BR> I had painful ailments that led me to... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 14:30:33 EST BLC #14 - Goal letter to self~ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4848586 Dear Krystl, <BR> <BR> The fact that you have taken on a new healthy lifestyle is just amazing. The person you were before to now is totally different. Your rarely showing signs anymore of being clinically depressed, and you try hard to not let your pain slow you down. <BR> <BR> You have been taking care of yourself much more, getting outside 90% more, and have been just a sponge learning everything. I am just proud of you. <BR> <BR> In 8 weeks of time, I expect: <BR> <BR> * that your m... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 17:33:08 EST Who has yet to still put a "before" picture up? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4842415 <BR> <BR> Not just any before pic, or just a head shot, but a picture that you know is hideous, or your "rock bottom" as they say. Your picture that was a turning point that pushed you to seeing yourself... maybe you have the best ones up already?, maybe your too scared to post it? <BR> <BR> ... but <BR> <BR> It holds you in reality. It grasps the right brain frequency to keep you focused ;) at least that's what I think. <BR> <BR> I have maybe 2 before pics, and am dreading finding the o... Thu, 19 Apr 2012 11:03:01 EST PROGRESS UPDATE (2.5MONTHS SP) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4833321 Okay. 1st of all, I have lost an approximate total of 36lbs, and it really hasnt hit me yet that I am losing weight... At least not like It should click in my head. <BR> <BR> I am so happy to know and be living proof that losing weight wasn't the hardest thing to do in my life. I put myself through so much agony, and challenges in thought, depression, loss of daily activities, torturing my fiance and my children, JUST BECAUSE I THOUGHT IT REALLY WAS HOPELESS. and its NOT! <BR> <BR> My life ... Fri, 13 Apr 2012 11:31:22 EST Stood up against my Mom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4829073 Yes, it's true. After a rough day with already crazy kids and the already Holiday guilt of what I can't keep eating.... my Mother walks in with a lrge size box of hostess donuts... One of my fav comfort foods I guess you can say. <BR> <BR> I just let my words roll off my tongue and I thought she seemingly took it better than I would, she just let it fester for a bit and then took off. <BR> <BR> I told her can you please stop bringing that junk food into the house? as she was already openin... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 17:19:09 EST Lingering left overs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4827116 Im not shy to the fact that I am a food addict, I can't exactly have food in my house and say Im not going to touch it... <BR> <BR> Yes there is plenty of food here. If my whole family didn't pitch in and make it, I would be happy to invite less fortunate people over for a decent meal... But I'm the only one in my house who is fussing about it being here and I have kids to feed as well... so that's out of the question... <BR> <BR> Yesterday, as I chopped up this ham for the oven, and felt l... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 13:24:18 EST A refresher for myself this week~ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4811959 Darn That Birthday party last weekend... I just havent been the same since with eating, although I still eat healthy, It struck up cravings for me that I have to deal with now. <BR> <BR> I thought, "hey I lost 30lbs, I am ready to have a decent cheat day" well, that choice went a lil too far, and I am so lucky I didnt actually gain weight this week, seriously. I kept my fitness levels up so thats what i am thankful for. <BR> <BR> I mean, my plan to get back on track, is to reread all my old... Fri, 30 Mar 2012 09:46:14 EST Once upon a time .. at the end of january 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4801671 I finally stuck dynamite up my rear and put my foot down (in dog poo) and decided i can either look at this positively and figure a way out....or keep getting fatter and fatter until i need to be hospitalized. <BR> <BR> The state of mind I was in before i started learning how to diet: <BR> I was sooo depressed that i didnt even think doctors could help me, <BR> I wanted to get a quick fix surgery to take away problems that i couldnt fix myself, <BR> I didnt want to be seen, go outside, or g... Fri, 23 Mar 2012 17:08:07 EST Good with the bad, or bad with the good~weigh in 3-9-12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4778816 First off I lost 4lbs. YAY!, I Every time I lose weight I want it to go so much faster and lose more, but im just excited that I did something right, and atleast I dont have to FEEL HORRIBLE I MISSED CARDIO YESTERDAY! UGH. <BR> <BR> AND i HAVENT BEEN STRENGTH TRAINING. So my goal for the week is to make it routine. <BR> <BR> Now for the frustrating blog you all may have noticed i was gonna post (>:D) <BR> <BR> I have to have a serious talk with my Mom. I feel like somehow she hears me, bu... Fri, 9 Mar 2012 09:26:43 EST