KRISZTA11's SparkPeople Blog KRISZTA11's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Second mini retreat - great run - running shoe inventory I took a day off on Friday to spend it on self-retreat in my mom and dad's house alone. <BR> It was quite different from last week. <BR> It was raining all day and night, except for about 45 minutes when I grabbed the opportunity and did my yoga outside on the patio. <BR> Otherwise, it was drizzling, raining or pouring. <BR> It did not bother me at all, as I had waterproof shoes, pants and jacket with me, and had long walks in the rain: one in the afternoon, and one next morning, before retur... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 16:23:58 EST Recollections on Beck Day 27 - Master the 7 Question Technique I read many interesting blogs of Beck Trekkers on this step, and remembered my own experience from Feb2015. <BR> This step was really really hard, the one that provoked the most resistance in me. <BR> The seven questions seemed too complicated and artificial, applying them in everyday life seemed rather annoying. <BR> But gave it a try anyway. <BR> #1: this is not going to work for me. I don't make thinking mistakes. <BR> #2: for a few days I wrote down all my sabotaging thoughts, filled like... Thu, 24 Sep 2015 02:34:40 EST 4th maintenance anniversary and my mini retreat Today is my 4th Maintenance Anniversary - it is really amazing, how time flies by! <BR> Thank you my dear friends for celebrating with me! <BR> <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> I started my 4 years just above my chosen goal weight, and had some problems with emotional eating. I did quite well during Christmas holiday, but many SP friends wrote about Beck Diet Solution, and got me curious. I had time on my hands, so bought the e-book edition. <BR> And the book dominated my first 6 months of 2015...... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 16:49:18 EST Challenging week I'm having a super busy week, the kind when I hardly have any time to do anything but work. <BR> On top of that, it has been a month since I stopped my daily Beck things (that is, evaluation of a to-do list spreadsheet and reading a few Response Cards daily) , and I did great... until Monday. <BR> That night I came home tired, to 2 slices of leftover pizza (my son left them) and also some cooked rice. I made steamed broccoli but lost track of how much I ate (about 300 cal+). <BR> Then on Tues... Thu, 17 Sep 2015 15:36:41 EST Beck recollections Day 1-12 I'm just lurking around the Beck Reboot challenge, <BR> I did join officially because I read the pink book recently and still practice actively. <BR> But reading the blogs about the program brings it all back. <BR> <BR> From the first 12 day, these were the most important to me, as being a long time Sparker, I already had many good habits. <BR> <BR> #3 Eat Sitting Down: huge impact. I noticed most of my unplanned eating was done standing, and all of it started standing in the kitchen. Actio... Fri, 11 Sep 2015 03:47:03 EST My morning Today I woke up too early, at 4:00. <BR> Oh well... I have to show up at the office early today. <BR> This usually happens when I take on new tasks that require new skills and different level attention. Thoughts start to proliferate, heart starts beating harder, no way to go back to sleep. <BR> So I decided to get up and do one hour sitting meditation. Followed my breathing, then noticed thoughts arising and passing away. Then uncomfortable tightness in chest and heart pounding, arising and ... Thu, 10 Sep 2015 01:50:55 EST Busy Saturday, Good Sunday My Saturday started with a long walk on the hills, in drizzling rain. Then I went shopping with my mom, got her a nice raincoat for her birthday. Then I did yoga on the terrace with DH and cooked lunch. <BR> Then spent the rest of the day with the forum discussion in our At Goal and Maintaining + Transitioning to Maintenance, as I was invited as leader Friday night. The discussion was great in terms of collective feedback about what the members think and how they feel about our team and recen... Sun, 6 Sep 2015 14:00:47 EST I feel uncomfortable about changes in At Goal + Maintenance + Transitioning to Maintenance Team Last night I saw the team name and picture of my favorite team "At Goal + Maintenance + Transitioning to Maintenance Team" and felt uneasy about it. <BR> I left a comment about it on the team thread and went to bed. <BR> But it still bothered me when I got up. I love the team as it is, why should it be changed? <BR> So I went back to the thread and posted this: <BR> <BR> I gave it some more thought during my morning run, and I feel uncomfortable about changes in our At Goal + Maintenance + T... Fri, 4 Sep 2015 03:29:33 EST Beck summary and status at the end of 8th month I joined SP in June 2011, reached my goal weight in 3 months, maintained successfully and lived happily ever after... except that I still had a tendency to emotional overeating which really bothered me at times. <BR> <BR> I read many success stories of Beck readers, and noticed that in maintenance challenges somehow it is usually the Beck readers who dwell happily below their target weight. <BR> <BR> I started to read the Beck Diet Solution on 1st January, worked through the book, one chapt... Sat, 29 Aug 2015 07:23:30 EST Eating out, walking in the rain Last night was my mom's birthday dinner, all our family went to a nice restaurant. <BR> I looked up the menu online in the morning, and made my choice (grilled honey-chilly spare ribs with salad and baked potatoes, small portion). <BR> When we got there, I looked at the menu, considered alternatives (trout and pike) - but reasoned I ate enough fish in Croatia and we never grill ribs at home - so stuck with my original choice. <BR> It was delicious, and exactly the right size (as opposed to th... Thu, 20 Aug 2015 07:25:20 EST Busy Work is very busy again. I have a new project, and I have to learn many processes and details and then train others to do their part of the job. <BR> This includes travel to other cities. <BR> Today I gave a presentation to a group at 8:30, and as the city is 3 a 3-hour drive away, <BR> I drove there yesterday after work. <BR> I picked the hotel that was closest to the meeting location - and I was delighted to find out they have a lovely swimming pool that is open from 6 am to 11 pm! <BR> I... Tue, 18 Aug 2015 13:48:14 EST Vacation blog with pictures My vacation with my family and friends was wonderful. <BR> We stayed at a lovely hotel at the beach. <BR> This is the view from our terrace (early morning): <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yoga in hotel room: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Evening walk with daughter, son and son's girlfriend on the promenade: <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.... Tue, 4 Aug 2015 12:26:20 EST Quick vacation update The location, the hotel and the beach is beautiful, I'm so happy to be here! <BR> Lots of running, walking, yoga and swimming, <BR> and food is plenty and delicious. <BR> We are having a great time : )) Thu, 30 Jul 2015 11:54:42 EST Prepare for travel I'm on vacation next week and we go to a nice hotel at the Croatian coast. <BR> The hotel provides breakfast and dinner - this means I have to re-build my food plan for this week. <BR> I remembered there was a Back response card about travel, and that it said I should make a vacation eating plan one week ahead. <BR> I re-read the chapter and came up with this plan: <BR> - I expect a 2-pound gain <BR> - breakfast: hotel buffet, equivalent to my #1 breakfast out choice "3 eggs - ham - rye bread... Sat, 25 Jul 2015 07:08:40 EST Backsliding tendency alert I have a new project at work, and I have to learn a lot. <BR> It is like building up an imaginary city in my head and then remember each and every street, house, vehicle and traffic sign. I also have to collect lots of documents from people I never met, make appointments and get them do their part of training. <BR> I love this learning / startup phase, the feeling of sustained concentration all day, knowing what to do and doing it on time, keeping everything moving in the right direction. <... Wed, 22 Jul 2015 03:24:04 EST After finishing the Beck book - simplified tracking of food plan and habits I read the Beck Diet Solution in January-February this year. <BR> When I finished, I was so pleased with the results I was reluctant to stop writing daily abbreviated food plans and to do lists. It didn't take much time and it was worth it - but recording the same things every day was dull. <BR> I wanted to get rid of repetition but keep focus, so mid February I created a menu and a tracker, and I still use them. <BR> <BR> The menu lists the meals I eat 90% of the time, with amounts - I kno... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 04:05:39 EST This is where I walk on Saturdays - picture blog Saturday mornings I go to the north-west side of the hill, it is beautiful in summer sunshine. <BR> On the 4th picture there is a shiny dot on the top, that's a wooden ramp for paragliders to take off. The rest of the pictures are taken from there. <BR> Walking is fun, especially if there is a nice place to go. <BR> All you need is a tourist map and weather that is not totally horrible or dangerous! <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sat, 11 Jul 2015 06:43:52 EST June weight update and body fat % visualisation My weight has been fluctuating in quite a wide range in June, but the lows are same as in May, and the center is around 58.5 kg. <BR> For the International Biodiesel Day maintenance challenge I chose 59 kg as my goal weight of 59 kg. Perfect choice, as both my lowest and highest values were within range. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I'm very happy with this, as I didn't want to lose any more weight. <BR> <BR> I have bee... Thu, 2 Jul 2015 03:49:10 EST Second mini meditation retreat This time I was at my parents' weekend house from Saturday 1pm to Sunday 2 pm. <BR> Was just as peaceful and uplifting as last week. <BR> <BR> Again, nothing else then mindful activities, sitting and walking meditation, dharma talks, one long walk and one challenging hike. <BR> I chose a different path this time, and 30 minutes from the house I found a crossing of 3 other hiking trails. I chose the shortest one, and was it steep! 150 meters elevation on 800 meters (500 feet on half mile). Be... Sun, 28 Jun 2015 17:04:56 EST Hunger, cravings and success (not) eating out Again, this is a reflection on what I learned from the Beck book. <BR> <BR> This morning I read a Spark Friend's blog about fearing hunger, and in my comment I shared my experience, as I used to be anxious of getting hungry before my next meal and then blowing my diet because of that. <BR> The Beck book helped me to differentiate between hunger and cravings, and now I'm free from worries in regard to hunger. <BR> <BR> HUNGER: <BR> -I haven't eaten for at least several hours (usually before... Sat, 27 Jun 2015 05:01:20 EST Mini meditation retreat and old garden I have planned to do a mini meditation retreat alone for a while. <BR> Last week the time came: my parents went for a vacation, and so their weekend house was empty. It is only 15 miles away from my home, on a hill, next to a main hiking path in the forest, and there is a simple but lovely garden around. <BR> <BR> I drove out there on Friday after lunch, and did nothing else just mindfulness practice: <BR> sitting and walking meditation, yoga, mindful walking, listening to dharma talks. <BR>... Thu, 25 Jun 2015 14:46:53 EST My fourth Spark Anniversary My fourth Spark Anniversary was last Saturday. <BR> <em>506</em> <BR> I thought about this important date several times during the week, but had no time to blog during the busy weekend. <BR> <BR> I joined SP on 20Jun2011, and in the first 3 month of weight loss I used only the tools: nutrition and exercise tracker, exercise demos, articles, and worked my way alone. <BR> I really joined SP community when I reached my original goal weight on 16Sep2011, and wrote my first blog: <link>www.s... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 14:40:03 EST Sunday: good run, good sitting and relaxing day My 7 am morning run was great, 20 oC / 68 oC, light breeze, shades: heavenly for a heat alert day! <BR> I started a later than planned, as I dropped off DD at 6:45 at work. DS was unable to wake up, so I left him at home. <BR> <BR> It was still early for breakfast when I got home, so I inserted 30 minutes of sitting meditation. <BR> Managed to focus on my breath for several minutes at a time, and became aware of thoughts as they arose (rather than getting lost in long trains of thoughts). St... Sun, 14 Jun 2015 05:22:18 EST Half Marathon Relay cancelled I usually run alone, except for 1-2 half marathon relays with my colleagues. <BR> For some reason most races are in summer, starting around noon. <BR> Against all odds, the temps were OK at the 4 races we did so far, but this weekend it is 35 oC /95oF! <BR> The race organizer kindly informed us that we can cancel and get our money back, due to the exceptional heat. After some discussion we bailed out. <BR> I'm sure I could have finished it at a slow pace with lots of walking intervals, but I'... Fri, 12 Jun 2015 14:54:32 EST Half Marathon Relay cancelled I usually run alone, except for 1-2 half marathon relays with my colleagues. <BR> For some reason most races are in summer, starting around noon. <BR> Against all odds, the temps were OK at the 4 races we did so far, but this weekend it is 35 oC /95oF! <BR> The race organizer kindly informed us that we can cancel and get our money back, due to the exceptional heat. After some discussion we bailed out. <BR> I'm sure I could have finished it at a slow pace with lots of walking intervals, but I'... Fri, 12 Jun 2015 14:54:32 EST I'm Today's Featured Motivator! : ))) <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <BR> I feel so honored to be chosen Today's Featured Motivator! <BR> I'm happy and surprised! <BR> <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> I made a screenshot of SP Community Home page so that I can see later that my page was really there : )) <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Fri, 12 Jun 2015 03:47:05 EST Aversion and desire Our city has been by many random and poorly planned road reconstructions and traffic jams are really annoying. <BR> I have been reading an book about one of the Buddha's most famous discourses, and one interesting thought is that a lot if suffering / discontent comes from wanting not we don't have and not wanting what we have (rather than accepting present as it is already here, whether we want it or not - It doesn't say that we don't need to make plans / take action to change our future). <... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 03:22:12 EST More calories for 20 days - calculation It has been 20 days since I added back calories to stop weight loss, and I see a sideways trend - there have been many periods like this in the past 5 months so I don't declare reaching balance yet. <BR> My body got used to the larger portions: the unpleasant fullness is rare now, so I'm glad to accept this state as balance. <BR> <BR> Here is my weight chart, in kilograms. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> There... Thu, 4 Jun 2015 14:32:30 EST My insights on amount of food and satisfaction After more than 3 years of maintaining my weight within goal range, with tendencies of creeping up, recently I got into a second weight loss phase, and settled into a lower maintenance goal range. <BR> My experiences made me think a lot about amount of food and perceived satisfaction. <BR> I list them in order of decreasing amount. <BR> <BR> 1. extreme overeating: <BR> it is easy to eat the double of needed calories or even more, but no amount is high enough to prevent cravings. <BR> At las... Sat, 30 May 2015 05:13:32 EST I did the math part well Thank you dear Spark Friends for your input on my last blog, your comments helped me put my "problem" in perspective. What I'm doing is right or very very close to right, I just need to accept transition is harder than steady state. <BR> <BR> Our local online news portal featured this calorie calculator this morning: <BR> <link><BR>r.html?ctype=metric&cage=47&csex=f&che<BR>ightfeet=5&cheightinch=10&cpound=160&c<BR>heightmeter=170&ckg=59&cactivity=1.725<B... Sat, 23 May 2015 04:32:05 EST Eating more and whining while transitioning back to maintenance Today is day 6 of eating about 12% more than before (2150 cal), in order to stabilize my weight. <BR> I still don't like it, because <BR> - I feel a bit more full than pleasant and longer than pleasant <BR> - I never feel that my stomach is empty, so it is weird to eat again <BR> - I suffer from mild indigestion <BR> <BR> On the previous, 1900 calorie food plan I felt perfect. <BR> - my meals were satisfactory <BR> - I felt adequately empty before and adequately full at the end of each meal ... Fri, 22 May 2015 04:01:06 EST Blood donation and eating more There was a mobile blood donation station at my workplace. I took low dose iron pills in the past 2 weeks, drank a lot in the morning, and managed to have it done before my 11 am meeting. My blood counts were good, but lower than last time, half year ago. I keep taking iron for a few weeks. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I already ate the increased calorie menu, and it made no difference. <BR> <BR> Today those +250 calories felt like a lot, but ate my food as planned anyway. <BR> Breakfast: 440 calo... Mon, 18 May 2015 14:49:44 EST +250 calories I planned to wait out till my weight plateaus naturally, as the Beck book promised, but it doesn't seem to happen and I really don't want to lose more. <BR> I was 57.7 kg this morning, and 58 was my psychological barrier. The new clothes I bought recently show that I'm content with the weight. <BR> DH already told me a couple of times that I should eat more, and today DD told me I was too skinny. <BR> <BR> Backside of not tracking: now I had to evaluation my menu items one by one, and I fou... Sun, 17 May 2015 06:14:11 EST First craving of 2015 I have been following the Beck Diet Solution for 4 and half months now, <BR> that means I have a food plan for each day and I follow it, no ifs, ands or buts. <BR> My goal was to get rid of cravings and overeating, and it is really working. <BR> When I do follow my plan and eat no unplanned food, I have no cravings – I believe sticking to my plan protects me. <BR> The plan used to be a short list of what was going to eat next day, in the past month it is just a generic menu of 3 meals + 2 s... Sat, 16 May 2015 07:21:28 EST Wonderful vacation at home Today is the tenth, last day of my vacation - it was wonderful! <BR> I really like staying at home <BR> I'm well-rested and happy and did everything I planned, <BR> avoiding both mindless activities and exhaustion. <BR> <BR> -exercise: a yoga workout + a run or a walk each day, some yoga and one walk with DH and 2 forest runs with DS <BR> <BR> -food and weight: followed the Beck principles, ate everything slowly, sitting down, no unplanned eating, no munching standing in the kitchen, nev... Sun, 10 May 2015 05:33:10 EST Wonderful vacation at home Today is the tenth, last day of my vacation - it was wonderful! <BR> I really like staying at home <BR> I'm well-rested and happy and did everything I planned, <BR> avoiding both mindless activities and exhaustion. <BR> <BR> -exercise: a yoga workout + a run or a walk each day, some yoga and one walk with DH and 2 forest runs with DS <BR> <BR> -food and weight: followed the Beck principles, ate everything slowly, sitting down, no unplanned eating, no munching standing in the kitchen, nev... Sun, 10 May 2015 05:33:06 EST Holidays finally! I survived the 4-day long inspection at my second client too - again, there were no major problems and I'm so relieved! <BR> <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> I walked or ran every morning, and after work went for a short walk again while sun was still up, and did my yoga in the evening. <BR> By now my teammates understood I don't like to go out for dinner, and they didn't invite me anymore : ) but we had breakfast together and spent the entire day together, and they got to see the sunny relaxed sid... Sun, 3 May 2015 04:54:15 EST Neuroplasticity and letting go - long blog warning In 2014 I read many books about mindfulness and about how human brains work. <BR> One of them was "Buddha's Brain: The Practical Neuroscience of Happiness, Love, and Wisdom" by Rick Hanson. Among so many things new to me, the most interesting one was the theory of neuroplasticity: if I change the activities and the thoughts I spend time on, there will be structural changes in my brain, and the changes will show up special brain images. <BR> "Neurons that fire together wire together." <BR> <... Sun, 26 Apr 2015 04:14:41 EST Back home for 2 days One of the 2 inspections was successfully finished on Friday - I'm so happy! : )) <BR> As I hoped, the process itself was less stressful than the preparations, and it was held strictly 8:30-5pm on all the five days. <BR> This meant I had to reschedule my days, but it was easy: on Monday I went to bed at 9:30 and woke up at 5. So I had time to run or walk each morning and do yoga each evening. <BR> I packed my sandwiches for dinner, and did not go out to eat with the team (they already got use... Sat, 25 Apr 2015 14:51:34 EST Hard week and good choices again This week was mostly like the previous one, 3-day client visit with two supervisors, making corrections and translating back and forth from Hungarian to English non stop. <BR> I followed my meal plan, did my workouts as planned, some meditation, and I was rewarded by deep restful sleep and good mood. <BR> This time I didn't go out for dinner with the supervisors, instead I went to my room, ate my sandwiches and veggies, did yoga and went to bed early. This made me feel a lot better than the d... Sun, 12 Apr 2015 03:51:19 EST Credit to myself for good choices Three exhausting days of inspection preparations behind me! <BR> Sitting all day with 2 supervisors reviewing quality of client's data and processes. <BR> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> I made many good choices and now I give myself credit for them. <BR> <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> -brought water and a lot of fresh fruit and for all of us <BR> <BR> -packed lunch and dinner for 2 days for myself (to avoid ordering food) <BR> <BR> -wrote a food plan in advance and stuck with it, with very few re... Thu, 2 Apr 2015 03:38:43 EST Good week and weight trends This week was good, office days Mon-Fri, and I'm working again today on Saturday. <BR> Working 48 hours in 6 days is much better than covering the same amount of work in 5 days, and I will get a day off for this, so I'm fine with it. <BR> I made good progress, and only some peaceful paperwork is ahead of me today. <BR> <BR> I was able to exercise every day, no skipped workouts, and did my meditation and deep relaxation too. My sleep is deep and relaxing and I feel OK. <BR> <BR> Eating went ... Sat, 28 Mar 2015 05:09:50 EST A better work week and a peaceful weekend Work was more reasonable this week. <BR> The ceaseless requests for documents slowed down, and though I worked long hours, I will absolutely not do any work or even think about it during the weekend - two long days! <BR> <BR> Today I had my long forest walk and a nice workout with DH outside on the terrace. <BR> Yoga is always good but it is wonderful under the open sky. <BR> It was sunny but windy, 12 oC / 54 oF a bit chilly at start, but the sun salutations warmed us up. <BR> Then I cooked... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 14:46:02 EST How cognitive therapy helps In the past week I noticed I wish to blog more often, maybe to organize my thoughts. <BR> Your kind supporting and encouraging comments help me a lot, I appreciate them so much! <BR> <em>247</em> <em>247</em> <em>247</em> <BR> <BR> Spent Monday in crossfire of conflicting tasks and obligations. Once I almost cried. <BR> It really can't get any worse, unless I'm transferred to a coal mine to work under the earth 12 hours 6 days a week ; ) <BR> To make it worse, I made a foolish dec... Tue, 17 Mar 2015 03:48:09 EST First overeating episode of 2015 I woke up well rested today, ran in the forest, did yoga, and cooked lunch with DD, my parents visiting. <BR> The first signs of "I don't care" emerged during cooking: I wished to taste a few bites, and I did. <BR> Mental note for future: Don't Do It! <BR> So I blew my 70-day streak of Eat Sitting Down at all times. Yikes! <BR> <BR> I planned to eat a bit more than usual for lunch, and 1 slice of apple cake as afternoon snack. <BR> I did well at lunch but I ate 3 slices of cake, I knew it wa... Sun, 15 Mar 2015 18:46:37 EST Working on Saturday I don't have to, I chose to. <BR> Tuesday morning at 8:30, while I was peacefully sparking and having breakfast, the project lead girl saw I was online and called me to discuss what documents she needed immediately. <BR> Then it clicked: however hard I try, I cannot manage the inspection preparations for project A and meet my other important deadline in project B by end of business Friday. <BR> Once I realized this, I felt relieved. <BR> Decided to go in on Saturday and finish tasks for proje... Sat, 14 Mar 2015 04:41:06 EST Stress reduction: from "unbearable" to "highly annoying" If at all possible, I have 2-3 hours of calmness and peace every morning before work to myself: meditation, play with cat, run or walk, yoga, shower, breakfast... and then it's showtime! <BR> During this time I gently push away all work related thoughts, and focus on what I feel, see and hear. <BR> This makes perceived stress level go from "unbearable" to "highly annoying". <BR> Work has been crazier than ever. <BR> On top of usual high workload, I had to jump in and make an important present... Thu, 12 Mar 2015 04:26:00 EST Under the weather and high workload Two weeks ago DH and DS had flu with high fever, and they are still coughing. <BR> I escaped without high fever, but I got the congestion, sore throat and bronchitis, with mild to moderate fatigue. Not a good combination with crazy work schedule. <BR> I didn't miss a day at work, but decreased exercise intensity: walk instead of running, and easy restorative yoga sessions instead of the usual vinyasa yoga. <BR> This is day 10 of no running, I just don't feel like it. <BR> This night was the f... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 04:00:42 EST Still losing Today I hit a new low weight: 59.9 kg / 132 pounds. <BR> I haven't been below 60 kg once during my SP journey, and the last time I was about 18 years ago, when my daughter was two. <BR> I'm 6 kg / 13 pounds over my pre-pregnancy weight. <BR> <BR> The old "before-Beck"me would say "Yippee! I'm doing so well I really deserve some spontaneous eating a.k.a overeating!" <BR> Now I know better. <BR> I eat around 2000 calories, my meals are delicious, I feel satisfied after each meal, I have no cr... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 03:39:34 EST Cat Sabotaged my Morning Yoga I have a start of a head cold, so decided to do a restorative yoga session after my morning walk. <BR> So I did, and after 15 minutes, just when I was about to come off a lying pose, I felt the cat got on my belly, curled up and started to purr sweetly... <BR> I didn't have the heart to push him off, so I wiggled into a more comfortable position, and stayed on the mat for another 20 minutes, felt the weight and warmth of purring cat, every breath lifting him up gently. I felt my abdominal ao... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 04:04:39 EST