KRISTI2661's SparkPeople Blog KRISTI2661's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community It Can Be What You Dream It To Be I am so excited about my life and am very much looking forward to the future. When I tell people that my life changed on January 12, 2011, I really mean it. That’s the day I realized that I meant more to myself, to my family and to my friends than I was giving myself credit for. That’s the day I joined SprakPeople. That’s the day I figured out it is possible to eat healthy and exercise and it feels good to do it. It’s not about deprivation and hating how my life is going, which is how I viewe... Sat, 28 May 2011 21:41:49 EST A Personal Thank You To All Of You When I read other people’s blogs on Spark, I kind of go into this fantasizing realm. I read the blog, look at their page, check out their pics, and try to imagine what their life is like. What does it look like where they live? Is the sun shining today? Are they watching the same shows on television that I do? What did they eat for breakfast? And, the big one –how did they end up on Spark? <BR> <BR> People ask me that last question all the time, and I truly don’t remember how it all started.... Thu, 19 May 2011 15:02:39 EST You Can Spread the Spark at Work - I Do! I’m a Nurse Practitioner and I supervise a staff of medical professionals. You would think, being medical professionals, that we are well aware of healthy living practices. Well, I think we are, but do we practice what we preach – not all the time. So, here’s what’s all abuzz in the office today – healthier living and how SparkPeople can help! <BR> <BR> It all started early this morning when one of the secretarial staff brought in strawberry-rhubarb cobbler – yummy! We started talking about ... Tue, 10 May 2011 22:54:58 EST What an Amazing Day - with pics! This has got to be the best Mother’s Day ever! I had a goal that I set months ago, and I accomplished it AND got to spend some unforgettable fun with my kids and grandkids in the process! <BR> <BR> Back in March I decided that I wanted to try to run a 5K. So I checked out the races that were coming up locally and picked one that seemed like it would be far enough out that I could actually be ready to do it. When I noticed that it was on Mother’s Day, I thought, “how cool is that – I could do... Sun, 8 May 2011 22:52:45 EST What's Happened To Me? I haven’t blogged in awhile. I’ve wanted to, but felt like I needed something meaningful to say or it wasn’t important. Well, maybe this is or isn’t meaningful or important to anyone else, but it is to me, so here goes….. <BR> <BR> I’ve been a member of Spark for almost 4 months now. <BR> <BR> I’ve lost 45 pounds. <BR> <BR> I exercise almost every day and love it. <BR> <BR> I am registered to run my first sanctioned 5K this Sunday (my Mother’s Day present to myself.) <BR> <BR> I will... Thu, 5 May 2011 14:46:06 EST Kristi's Jazzercise Emarrassment For Today When I was getting dressed to go to Jazzercise this morning, I decided to try on a tank top and see if I felt comfortable enough in it to wear. I looked in the mirror, and to my surprise, my shoulders looked kind of good! They were more square instead of round and fat like I remembered them being a couple of months ago. I was pleasantly surprised and thought to myself “Wow, this stuff is working!” I was so excited, that I decided to go ahead and wear the tank top to class. <BR> <BR> Now, I s... Wed, 30 Mar 2011 22:10:22 EST My Weight Loss Visual I had read on SP about how some people have a visual to look at that represents the weight they have lost. I thought it was a great idea, so I came up with this one for myself. I wanted something colorful and wanted it in a conspicuous place that I couldn't (and others?) overlook it very easily. Here's what I came up with: <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> It's just little multi-colored post-it notes that I actual... Wed, 23 Mar 2011 13:57:17 EST I Am Strong, Healthy and Competent I am so confused. <BR> <BR> Why do I keep feeling like the changes I’ve made two weeks into 2011 are what my life is like and the way it will be? Can it be real, or is it all a dream? I’ve said this before – when will the other shoe drop? When will I go back to only wanting to sit on my butt, eat crap and drink too much alcohol? Be depressed, have my blood pressure through the roof, be mean and sarcastic? It’s what I’ve always done before, gone back to those old, destructive ways of living ... Fri, 18 Mar 2011 23:34:12 EST Seriously? 3,150 Calories in ONE MEAL! When I saw this on Yahoo News, I couldn't resist reading it. Not only can't I imagine that many calories in one day - but one meal! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>_stew/post/Could-you-down-Tim-Lincecum<BR>-s-usual-order-at-In-?urn=mlb-wp675 </link> Thu, 17 Mar 2011 11:41:46 EST Realizations About My Negative Attitudes Toward Myself I’ve been thinking a lot lately about things that may have contributed to my attitudes toward food and my relationships with it over the years. It’s really become somewhat apparent as I’ve been caretaker to my mom, who has Alzheimer’s. She’s gotten a lot worse lately and pretty consistently thinks I’m around the age of 12-14, although often she’s not really sure who I am. <BR> <BR> Mom consistently talks about how fat she is. How what I fix us to eat will cause us to be “sitting on it” to... Mon, 7 Mar 2011 19:42:53 EST Accomplising my mini-goal So, I've been having a real trial lately with my employment and how it's effecting me emotionally. I've done fine with sticking to my healthy eating and exercise plan, even though I didn't really want to, but have felt super vulnerable because of it. So I decided to set a mini-goal that really needed to be accomplished that I knew would make me feel SO much better about myself - I cleaned my bedroom! Here is the pictorial saga: <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sat, 5 Mar 2011 00:21:42 EST Maybe writing the blog will help? I’m pretty upset right now and have been since yesterday morning. I’ve had such a positive outlook on life lately, but this has brought me down to levels that feel almost unbearable. Then I look at what others have to deal with and feel like I’m being selfish feeling sorry for myself. <BR> <BR> So, here’s the abbreviated version: <BR> <BR> I started a new job on Tuesday. Spent the day doing organizational-type orientation. It went well. <BR> <BR> Didn’t have any orientation scheduled for ... Thu, 3 Mar 2011 19:24:15 EST No Longer Unemployed I start my new job tomorrow. I've been going to grad school for the last 4 years to accomplish this and it's finally happening. I am scared. I am excited. <BR> <BR> I'm glad I started this process of improving my life with the help of SP over six weeks ago. I feel like I have gained some of the tools I need to keep this ball in the air while I deal with the addition of the new job and all that entails. I have not only lost 25 pounds, but have gained so much knowledge about myself. I feel li... Mon, 28 Feb 2011 22:21:31 EST OK, SP Friends - you must read this! 95 year old runner! <link><BR>sets-running-record/story?id=12960251 </link> Wed, 23 Feb 2011 14:00:43 EST Not Good Enough So, I've been saying that I have a goal to be out of the obese BMI and into the overweight BMI by the first of March. I know my weight loss has been good, but it's just never good enough for me, so I thought I would try to change my focus. One week ago I took my measurements - something I've just never felt was a useful tracker of my success. <BR> <BR> Today I just felt thinner. I was excited, so I weighed myself - NO LOSS! I was not happy. When I got dressed, the jeans that I wore last week... Mon, 21 Feb 2011 21:22:36 EST I'm Not Sure I can't believe I'm actually telling anyone this, but I trust you guys. Shhhh . . . I have a date tomorrow. With a man. I haven't done this in ages. I haven't even wanted to. I felt so badly about myself, I felt like I didn't deserve it. I'm not sure what to think. <BR> <BR> When I began the process of changing my life just after the first of the year, I didn't really expect the changes that have happened. It's not so much the weight loss, although that has happened, but it's the change in m... Fri, 18 Feb 2011 19:10:09 EST Looking Forward to Another Good Day I bit the bullet and joined Jazzercise this morning. Went to to 5:30 AM class (I had tried it out on Sunday and LOVED it.) I don't go back to work for another 10 days, so was a little worried about spending the money right now, but feel like this is an investment that will pay off in SO many ways! I'm excited about it. <BR> <BR> I also just read another members blog where they mentioned "The Beck Diet Solution." I bought this book years ago and never opened it - so I've gone to the bookshelf... Wed, 16 Feb 2011 12:40:15 EST It's Happening Again I am feeling on top of the world! I just can't believe how making these changes in my life have altered my attitude about so many things. <BR> <BR> Today I went to a Jazzercize class for the first time. It was so fun and I am looking forward to going again (gotta wait until I have the money.) I love feeling the soreness in my muscles. I am looking forward to running again tomorrow. I stuck to a healthy eating plan all day. I feel like a real person! The coolest thing is - days like this kee... Mon, 14 Feb 2011 00:10:21 EST Today's Spark emails I go through my Spark emails every day, excited to get the points and to hopefully come across some ideas or advice that are going to interest me. Today's email article "5 Secrets of the 5%" was great. Here's the big take home that I really needed and that, I hope, will speak to you, also: <BR> <BR> "(They)…Allow Themselves To Fail. It’s a guaranteed certainty. Every one of the 5% has failed at some point along their weight loss journey. The difference is that they learned to forgive setback... Sat, 12 Feb 2011 11:08:49 EST An Evening Out Leads To . . . I’ve been debating all day about how to say this, because I want to be in denial, but I just CAN’T do that. <BR> <BR> I slipped up BAD last night. I went to an event and had a couple of glasses of wine. I had planned on doing this, and made sure it fit into my plan for the day. Then I came home and drank a couple more (which was NOT part of the plan.) The wine apparently lowered my inhibitions to food, and I started snacking and didn’t stop until I went to bed. <BR> <BR> At first my snack... Thu, 10 Feb 2011 22:29:44 EST Going Back to Work I am going back to work on the 25th. I am really glad to finally have a job in my career of choice after spending the last 4 years working on my graduate degree, but these last two months off sure have been nice. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Now, my big concern is - will my diet, exercise and Spark time go to the wayside? I've been thinking of ways to try and fit it all in, but let's face it, for the last month, my life has revolved around getting my healthy lifestyle in order. <BR> <BR> And ... Tue, 8 Feb 2011 13:35:51 EST Out of town this weekend I am going out of town today. My sister (yes, the same one from the previous blog that couldn't believe I would rather have a salad than a sausage sandwich) is taking me to visit my two brothers in Portland for the weekend. It's my birthday on Sunday, so they have made some "plans" to surprise me. <BR> <BR> I'm thinking "Oh great, a challenge for my birthday" but at the same time, I'm looking forward to it. I have been thinking of how it could be fun to see how I can pull this off and still... Fri, 4 Feb 2011 10:12:29 EST What's Next? I am on the next to last day of my learning to run program. I had originally thought that is was “run 30 minutes in 30 days” but I just discovered that it is “run 30 minutes in 3 weeks.” <BR> <BR> Today’s plan was supposed to be an easy run/walk, but I found myself getting carried away without realizing it and running for a longer stretch of time than what I was supposed to, per the plan. It felt wonderful! I can’t wait until tomorrow to see how I do on the “final test.” <BR> <BR> There i... Mon, 31 Jan 2011 15:00:23 EST Amazing I did my run this morning and it felt AMAZING! Almost effortless, and I felt like I could have gone even longer, but am trying to stick to the program as outlined in order to do it right this time and hopefully make a change that will last. <BR> <BR> I invested in a MP3 player last night and downloaded some music. Listening to the music while I ran was energizing. I also remembered that when I was in nursing school (back in the dark ages) I would listen to music while I exercised and it made... Sun, 30 Jan 2011 14:16:54 EST Another Day Living My New Life It has been a great day. It wasn't anything monumental, just living my life with a healthier attitude and a healthier body - which felt amazing. <BR> <BR> It's hard for me to even realize that a few short weeks ago I was eating myself through a huge depression. I feel so good today, I never want to go back to that dark place again! Sat, 29 Jan 2011 23:48:06 EST Day 16 Today is day 16 of my "run 30 minutes in 30 days" program. This was the first day that I felt like I might actually be able to accomplish this! I also discovered that if I do these "runs" early in the day, my stamina is much better - of course, I should have known this, it only makes sense, but actually FEELING it was amazing. <BR> <BR> I am looking forward to continuing this program and then, who knows, maybe once I can run 30 minutes, I will start working on running even longer! Thu, 27 Jan 2011 16:58:31 EST Goal So I haven't really set any short term goals, I've just been looking at the big picture. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy with the progress I've made and am confident that I can do this, but here is my first short term goal. <BR> <BR> I want to be considered overweight instead of obese according to my BMI. That is only 12 pounds away! I think I can do this by March 10, so that is my first goal: <BR> <BR> Lose 12 pounds by March 10!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>252</em> Wed, 26 Jan 2011 18:35:01 EST Rough weekend - good Monday For some reason I had a tough weekend emotionally. I searched and searched, trying to figure out why, but couldn't come up with anything in my life that is different than usual. Yes, I'm unemployed. Yes, I care for my mother who has Alzheimer's. Yes, my adult son is going through a heart wrenching separation from his wife. Yes, it's life as usual. So, I was depressed a bit, I am human and have a right to feel that way now and then. On the other hand, I did not eat over it, which just a few sh... Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:19:16 EST Happiness I was awakened way too early this morning - it didn't make me happy. The dog peed on the floor - it didn't make me happy. The clothes dryer was full of clothes AND shredded kleenex - it didn't make me happy. I struggled to try to figure out how to do something on my Blackberry - it didn't make me happy. I wanted to scream and stomp around, but instead took a deep breath, centered myself, and took a walk around the block. <BR> <BR> Progress = happiness! Fri, 21 Jan 2011 10:23:59 EST What do I say? I just can't believe how good I feel since beginning this journey. I know it's only been a week, but believe me, I was having thoughts of giving up on my life completely. It's not that it was so bad, I just felt like it wasn't good enough and I wanted more, BUT, I wanted it to come easy. <BR> <BR> Anyway, one week into it and I'm down 10 pounds (I know - that first week is lots of water weight, but those numbers definitely motivate me, it's just who I am) and I am wearing a pair of jeans tha... Wed, 19 Jan 2011 15:16:07 EST A good day What a day so far! I've been busy finding, printing, and organizing paperwork for a mortgage assistance program. I've been unemployed for the last few months and that, along with eating junk, drinking too much and just being a slug, I've been pretty depressed. I didn't even have the energy to think about getting all of the necessary paperwork together. <BR> <BR> Fast-forward to today, and I have energy, feel like I can take on the world and the depression is lifting - and now I have an appo... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 15:07:06 EST I've never blogged before Since I've never tried this, I thought, what the heck, this is as good a time as any. <BR> <BR> I can't believe I let myself gain back so much weight! All I could think about was food. I started stopping at the fast food drive thru again, eating in my car and throwing away the evidence so no one would know. Drinking WAY too many empty calories (latte's, mocha's, beer, wine, sugar soda.) When I finally had to start buying those BIG clothes again, I knew I had to do something. Besides, I'm su... Sat, 15 Jan 2011 22:44:16 EST