KRISTENSJOURNEY's SparkPeople Blog KRISTENSJOURNEY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community (Hopefully Temporary) Hiatus I kind of disappeared from Spark the last couple of weeks. No particular reason. <BR> <BR> This past week I have been bitten by a bug and was coughing, sneezing, and had a stuffy nose. I still have a bit of a cough, but otherwise feel much better. I haven't worked out in a week and definitely had some bad food days! I still lost .8lbs, which isn't much, but glad it wasn't a gain!! <BR> <BR> I am determined to get back to work. I am going to the gym tonight to keep preparing for my 5k. <BR... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 09:23:30 EST Dreams, Ideas, and More The other night I had a dream I was pregnant and gave birth to a baby boy. <BR> <BR> I've had these dreams before and they're pretty common for women. I'm not 100% certain I want children, but this night it seemed like the dream was trying to tell me something. I Googled some dream analysis and found that having a pregnancy dream could mean you're craving to nurture something, not necessarily a being, but you're wanting to do something creative. <BR> <BR> Right now I'm still working in reta... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 07:34:08 EST My Body Most of the time I really hate my body. Like, really hate. <BR> <BR> Then it does some nice things for me and I am slowly learning to like it a little more. <BR> <BR> I think my body has more faith in me that *I can* do this weight loss. <BR> <BR> The last week or so I have been eating mostly ok, with a couple of splurges here and there. I haven't really exercised in the last couple of weeks, even though my fitbit says I am. I wear it all of the time and where I work, I am on my feet run... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 15:42:18 EST Asking for some help here! This week I am going to register for the Dirty Girl Mud run! It's a 5k with some obstacles in between. I am really excited to do this and it gives me something to train for! <BR> <BR> The problem is I don't even know if I can walk a 5k! I mean, I know I can, but, it'll hurt. :) I am signing up at a gym this week so it'll help me prepare for it. <BR> <BR> The help I need is to know *what* should I be doing at the gym to help me best prepare for this? Obviously the treadmill - I want to start... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 12:46:30 EST I want to be a dirty girl! <BR> <BR> Indiana ladies - who is going to sign up with me? It's in May. Doesn't matter age or athletic ability..LET'S DO THIS! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>drunindianapolis </link> <link>GODIRTYGIRL.COM </link> Thu, 31 Jan 2013 13:43:09 EST Please help and share! If anyone knows anything about me, they know I'm passionate about animals! This is an auction that my sister and I am holding on Facebook where all proceeds will go to the Independent Cat Society in Indiana. It's a great cause! <BR> <BR><BR>3891980/ Wed, 30 Jan 2013 21:12:56 EST Some (small) NSVs! So I have only lost 11 pounds (16 since my highest) but I have definitely noticed some (small) changes: <BR> <BR> -Almost no heartburn! I used to have heartburn all of the time, and would have to take tums and/or pepcid every day. <BR> -Mood improvement! It could be finally seeing some light at the end of the tunnel or just seeing a number I haven't seen in a long time on the scale, but I have generally have been more happier and positive. Even my husband has noticed it.I also am changing ... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 08:09:14 EST Motivation Collage I made <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I saw other sparkers doing this and I thought it was a great idea. It may be ugly but it's mine! It's going in my bedroom so it's the first and last thing I see everyday. Mon, 28 Jan 2013 10:30:13 EST Finding what makes me tick (eat) I have found that whenever I am feeling overwhelmed I want to eat -and it’s not healthy stuff I crave. I want chocolate, pizza, anything greasy or sweet I can get my hands on. I’m not sure if the feeling of being full is what helps or if it’s the feeling of being in control. Why do I get like this? <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Today we had to take one of our cats to the vet and we really thought we were going to lose him. It was mostly disheartening was that we would be able to save his life if we... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 08:27:15 EST Misconceptions So, maybe I'm being over-dramatic, but something really just pissed me off! <BR> <BR> I am watching Dateline and they're showing lawyers during to jury selection process. Anyway, one of the lawyers says "And juror number XXX, she was overweight. Remember, overweight women tend to be unsympathetic." REALLY? This is the most ridiculous thing I have ever heard about being overweight. <BR> <BR> I mean on other shows too, overweight/obese people are always portrayed as lazy, ignorant, slow, stu... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 12:34:28 EST How did I get here? As a morbid obese person I realize I have no right to judge others who have the same problems. When I watch TV or see a person who is well over 4-500 lbs, I think to myself “How could they let themselves get that big? They can’t even walk! I would never allow that to happen to myself!” <BR> <BR> But then I look at the scale and I see my high numbers – almost 300 lbs. <BR> <BR> How did I get here? How could I allow that to happen to myself? I can’t even walk around without becoming winded!” ... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 12:29:07 EST Photo journal So I have been consistent with my food photo journal on my blog. I am proud of myself. Even had a bad night last night but still continued on with it! <BR> <BR> I's actually kind of fun.. and when I post a picture of each item I eat it, it actually has me take the time to really look at what I'm eating and think about it. The problem with overeating or eating poorly sometimes is that we tend to distance ourselves from food. Think about it, how easy is it for us to go through the drive-thru ... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 08:05:16 EST Blog <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yeah, that's me. <BR> <BR> I started a blog where I am going to post daily pictures of myself doing activities and everything I consume. This is a way to keep tabs on my journey and to have people keep my in check. If you want to follow, please do! I need all the support I can get. <BR> <BR> http://kristensbigfatjourney.wordpress.c<BR>om/ Wed, 9 Jan 2013 15:10:25 EST Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes.. Wow, I haven't used this site in quite a while. I fell off the bandwagon again, big time. I think it was mostly because I was overwhelmed with school, work, etc. I know those are bad excuses, and there really should be no excuses when it comes to my health... <BR> <BR> I'm going to get back on to the bandwagon again. I might do it slowly, because I feel that will be a good way to make the complete lifestyle change. <BR> <BR> I officially graduated from college this month! I am really excit... Wed, 19 Dec 2012 08:18:58 EST What I'm going to do when I'm not fat. Posted this new blog: let me know what you think! <BR> <BR><BR>06/27/things-to-do-when-i-lose-enough-<BR>weight-17/ Wed, 27 Jun 2012 15:49:08 EST Women's Fat Night So, I'm not sure if any of you have watched the show Ruby or not (I just love her!) <BR> <BR> Anyway, in one episode she puts together something called a "Women's fat night", Basically all of her overweight-morbidly obese friends get together from time to time and basically talk about what it's like to be fat, talk about weight loss, etc. I thought this was a neat's a support group in a way! I would love to do something like this in my area, just have no idea how to put something li... Fri, 22 Jun 2012 16:34:19 EST Little Triumphs I know this may not seem like much to many...but I did 30 minutes on the elliptical!! I started out a couple weeks ago only doing 15 thinking that's all I can handle, but today I did the full 30! I felt like I could have kept going but I felt icky with all my sweating :) <BR> <BR> I'm hoping in a few weeks I can work up to 45, or maybe even 60! Pretty soon I will even brave the treadmill... <BR> <BR> I know it's a silly fear, but I am terrified of falling off the treadmill! Anyone else have... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 06:54:30 EST My first 5k All right, so I am in no shape for running a 5K, but you can always walk right? I am thinking of signing up for one next month so that I have something to prepare for. I feel that if I tell myself I have to get better at walking for miles a time, having a date set for a 5K will help me. <BR> <BR> I'm not the fastest walker, but I know I can do it! and plus, the 5K next month is through the zoo, how fun will that be?? <BR> <BR> Do you think I will look ridiculous walking the whole thing? D... Wed, 6 Jun 2012 08:09:27 EST 10 lbs Despite us eating horrible for about 4 days, and me barely tracking my food/barely working out this week.. i lost another couple pounds. A total of 10 lbs! Woooo. Let's see what I can do next week! Sat, 2 Jun 2012 13:01:42 EST Need motivation, help! This week has been bad diet wise for me. It's not as bad as it was before, but I did eat bad food a couple of times this week.I didn't track all of my food, which often keeps me on track. Not only that, we didn't go to the gym. And, well, it's my time of the month and I'm bloated (TMI) I'm really not wanting to weigh - in tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Hitting the gym first thing in the morning. Keep telling myself this week is in the past, and nothing but moving forward.. right? Really could use som... Fri, 25 May 2012 07:13:55 EST A new week I'm feelin' pretty good right now! I already lost 9 lbs! I gave up soda, fast food (except the occasional visit to Subway's Fit and Fare menu), and been drinking tons of water. I've only hit the gym 4 times last week. <BR> <BR> I know it's probably just water weight I lost, but I still feel very good. Seeing that 3 in the beginning of my weight was enough to scare me! I'll never be there again! <BR> <BR> I am really looking forward to hit the gym this week and also to enjoy the weather! I c... Sun, 20 May 2012 11:26:34 EST Work-Out times When do you work out? <BR> <BR> My husband and I found that going to to gym at 5 am works best for us. We beat the evening rush, works around our schedules, and if we wait to go after dinner..we probably won't make it. <BR> <BR> However, going to bed at 8pm (When it's still sunny!) and waking up at 4 am is horrible. This morning we passed on going to the gym because our ferret woke us up at 2:30am sounding like he had breathing problems. I took him out and put him back a little after 4, an... Tue, 15 May 2012 09:29:17 EST Mother's Day Happy Mothers Day to all of the Mothers out there! <BR> <BR> This time of year is especially hard for me since losing my mom in 1997. I get a little jealous when people talk about what they're doing with their mothers on this day. Ever since I was a child, I had a hard time with this. <BR> <BR> On one hand, my mother is inspiring. She was a great woman who also struggled with weight loss. She was also a smoker. She passed away at 42 from a heart attack. This makes me scared because I am tur... Sun, 13 May 2012 11:45:10 EST Day 6 Holy cow. <BR> <BR> Today was our first day at the gym. I was only able to do about 15 minutes on the stationary bike without getting exhausted. To be fair, this bike was more like a normal bike and it hurt my butt! That's what happens when you have a giant butt! <BR> <BR> Afterwords we each tried 4 different weight lift machines. It looks so easy but it's really hard. I did 3 sets of 10 only lifting 30 pounds. <BR> <BR> Overall, it was an embarrassing first day at the gym. I have to kee... Sat, 12 May 2012 09:58:39 EST Day 5 Well the last two days, I sort of failed. :/ <BR> <BR> Wednesday I went to Indy to see a friend I rarely see (She has a kid now; lack of time). We had a lot of fun but we went out to eat. She chose to go to Bdubs, which I said I could find something there. I know I sure of stuck with my original intention of getting a salad but I craved a sandwich. I ended up getting a chicken wrap which I thought would be healthy. I later found out it was 1000 calories! that's ridiculous. <BR> <BR> Afterw... Fri, 11 May 2012 07:25:57 EST Day 2 Today we actually bought a scale. I actually weighed exactly to the pound what I guessed. However, I was hoping I was over-estimating. <BR> <BR> It's a little depressing to see that number on that scale. Like my husband said though, it'll be the last time I ever see that number. It really helps he is so motivating! <BR> <BR> We signed up at the gym last night and are doing our orientation Friday night. In the mean time, we are walking. Tonight we are doing a dance work-out video I bought a... Tue, 8 May 2012 19:35:53 EST Ready to change my life Hi everyone (or anyone who is reading this)! <BR> <BR> I am re-joining this site and hoping I stick with it. This time my husband is joining me in the journey and I hope we can keep each other held accountable. I am hoping to at least lose 100 pounds by next summer. I really hope this is feasible. I am tired of living my life being extremely tired, lazy, and depressed. I am ready for a change! <BR> <BR> We are signing up at a gym tonight. I am very excited! I will keep you posted! :) Mon, 7 May 2012 15:14:41 EST