KRISKECK's SparkPeople Blog KRISKECK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Mountain Hiking in Park City Utah I had a beautiful week in Utah. I went for work and it was a productive week, but I also took every chance I could to hike in the mountains. What a lovely place! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And here is a beautiful picture of the last bit of snow on the high you can almost touch the sky! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> If i could hike in places like this all ... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 22:02:14 EST Accountability For a long time, my favorite report on the Spark website has been the Calorie Differential Over Time. I’m pretty good at tracking both exercise and calories consumed, and when I'm dong well, it is really satisfying to see consistent caloric deficits reflected in the report. And while I can fool myself daily and even weekly that I'm doing ok, when I look at the report over time, there is no escaping the truth. Right now, it’s pretty clear why I’ve barely been maintaining over the past 12 month... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 22:34:31 EST Back! After a few months of what seemed like uproar, things are more or less back on track. My kids’ dad survived triple bypass and aneurysm surgery, my younger son who was taking care of him full time is back home. We helped my older son move from an hour and a half south to 45 minutes north. Work is still crazy but not as much as it has been lately. Travel schedule has calmed down and I’m actually planning a two week vacation in August. Through all of that I was pretty inconsistent. Not awful. ... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 21:30:24 EST Live, Love, Give I was going to call this blog Belated February Assessment, March Update and Goals. Because that's what I was going to do. But I changed my mind. Given the stresses of the past weeks and in keeping with the reminder that life is truly and really quite short, I decided to go big! In the end, what do we really have? I am working on keeping things in perspective. <BR> <BR> My younger son came home from a visit with his father a couple weeks and told me that his dad was pretty sick, and over th... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 13:36:26 EST Self Control This week was even better than last week with consumption – I was more consistent about staying in my range and I averaged around 1500 calories a day. That’s been my general goal, and since I am burning around 2400 calories, I hope to see some results. Didn’t hop on the scale like I usually do on Saturday morning, but I feel like my jeans fit better than they did last week. If I don’t see any loss, I’ll adjust the calories down, but I have to say, I am feeling pretty good. And I think it’s ... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 21:18:58 EST Happy Valentine's Day! This week has been much better in terms of staying on track with calories. Why? I set my mind to it. Stayed focus on my goals. If I want this, I can’t have that. That simple. <BR> <BR> Now, I’m not necessarily saying easy ... But still simple! And it helped that after gaining a couple pounds at the end of last week, it came back down and then some after my long run on the weekend. Success always gives me that little extra inspiration! <BR> <BR> I have a nice dinner planned for tomorrow ... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 20:14:53 EST Scales Don't Lie and Some Positive Outcomes Just a quick reminder to myself that I can find all kinds of loopholes and excuses for doing the things I know are not taking me in the direction I want to go, but at the end the day (or week, in this case) there are specific measures that will let me know whether I am achieving my goals. And what one of those measures - my trusty scale - told me this week was "sorry Kristin, I know you were under a lot of stress but the bottom line is that you can't eat 4 big tasty cookies and drink a glass ... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 10:33:51 EST Tough week! It’s been a challenging week and I am having a hard time sticking to my plan. Exercise is almost on track but food not so much. Kind of a maintenance mode of eating so hopefully will not gain but definitely not losing this week. <BR> <BR> I had a pretty stressful day on Tuesday at work – a big meeting with lots of conflict and frankly most of it unnecessary. My boss was fantastic and totally backed me up, which was excellent. It turned out pretty well, but I wasn’t able to stay away from ... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 21:24:31 EST A Good Month! January Assessment and February Goals January is always one of my favorite months because it’s my birthday! I really like my birthday – good things usually happen to me around my birthday, and it seems like that’s the case this year too. It’s work-related but it’s not final, so I don’t want to say what it is yet, yet. Still, pretty good! <BR> <BR> My poor BF was sick with bronchitis and asthma so we didn’t do much working out but together we improved on the food front. Except for my birthday when he took me to an awesome resta... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 22:59:27 EST Quick Happy Blog and a Question This week I was successful in sticking to my exercise and nutrition goals, which was a real achievement considering that it was a pretty stressful week at work. Conflict abounded and yet I was able to stay focused on my goals and on my plan. It felt great. <BR> <BR> Also, this week I discovered that when you connect the food and exercise trackers, it gives you daily calorie intake goals based on calories burned. I am pretty excited about it, because I always feel like I want a little more w... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 21:40:22 EST Short Frustrated Blog The holidays are officially over today. Thank God. They were lovely in many ways, but they went on for just a little too long. And there was a bit of family frustration, in that a certain family member has some problems with talking responsibility, which spilled over onto me on more than one occasion during the past two weeks. Unusual, I know, to have things like this happen during the holidays… <BR> <BR> But it’s not him I’m frustrated with, it’s me. I let things get to me and didn’t do th... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 13:32:13 EST Morning Thoughts: Farewell to the Holidays, Willpower and Building Habits for Success Since I set my goals, we’ve had two more holidays (New Years Eve and New Years day) and another day when my oldest son, his girlfriend and my boys’ cousin who is visiting from Germany came for dinner and to spend the night. I have been cooking up a storm for the holidays and while I cook fairly healthy – reduce the butter and fat, don’t serve prepared products, not much in the way of desserts – it is still difficult to stay under a weekly average if 1550 calories/day. And last night was no di... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 09:03:05 EST Why I want to lose 25 pounds and get back in shape In looking back over the past year, I think I've focused too much on the mechanics of the process and not enough on the overarching goals. <BR> <BR> So when I set my goals for next month, I made sure I included something to keep me accountable and remind me what I want to achieve in the end. I decided to go back to weighing and measuring weekly, and reward myself at the end of the month if I'm able to lose one pound per week. <BR> <BR> And today I decided to remind myself WHY I want to re... Mon, 30 Dec 2013 13:25:25 EST December Assessment and January Goals Oy. Not so great this month. I would say that maintaining would be a victory in this month of food and busy-ness, but didn't even do that - I was a couple pounds up the last time I was able to face the scale. <BR> <BR> So, here is the assessment: <BR> <BR> 1.Track calories, maintain average caloric intake of 1550/day. <BR> <BR> Wow, did terribly on this one. Not for one week did that happen. Only one week under 1600 average calories per day, with tremendous binge eating two of those weeks... Sun, 29 Dec 2013 21:40:36 EST Setting Limits Work has been very stressful lately with a lot of negativity coming from my new boss. So as I sit here, getting ready to prepare for my next meeting, I just wanted to recognize that and try to build a wall around it. Because if I don’t, I end up letting the stress drive me. Better that I manage the stress. <BR> <BR> First of all, while I care about my work and love parts of it, my job is not my life. It does not define me. My boss’s opinion of me also does not define me. Which is different ... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 17:19:05 EST December Goals Hello friends! It's been awhile... <BR> <BR> After bouncing up and down on the scale for the past two years, I began setting monthly goals in early February 2013. Since then, each month that I set goals and scored progress, I lost pounds. July was the last time I set goals for the month…and it shows in my lack of progress. Between all the usual excuses – work, family, chores – and a bike accident over Labor day weekend that slowed me down for a bit, I’ve not been keeping up with anything ex... Tue, 3 Dec 2013 22:44:49 EST Back from vacation and swearing off sweets So, I haven't been blogging much this month, mostly because I haven't been stressing out much...vacation will do that when it works like it should! It was a wonderful time, visited a old friend on Cape Cod who is a elementary PE teacher and used to be a runner for Nike. She is really fast, even at 55! We had an active week of running (she runs really slow for me!), biking and kayaking, and of course, the beach. So awesome, I didn't think about work all week long. <BR> <BR> <img src="http:/... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 23:18:51 EST Paying It Forward and July Goals Last week I noticed a pattern: young people have been coming to me looking for guidance and assistance. I like that. When I was younger, I had some wonderful and helpful friends and bosses who helped me grow and develop, both personally and in my career. Now that I’m older, It makes me happy to be able to help these kids (I use the term loosely, mostly 20-somethings) figure out how to face challenges, set life goals and decide how best to achieve them. I feel like I’m paying it forward an... Sun, 30 Jun 2013 09:58:53 EST Quick Check-in Hi folks, just a quick check-in. I knew I hadn't been posting -- I've been struggling! But I didn't realize it had been so long. <BR> <BR> I didn't get the job I had applied for, and it really threw me. I knew it would be disappointing if I didn't get it, but it was worse than I thought. So many people had asked if I was applying for it and told me they thought it would be great. I did well in all the interviews, and the hiring manager told someone that I had the best interview with her, b... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 14:43:17 EST April Progress and May Goals Happy May! This is the blog in which I go back and see how well I met my goals for last month and set goals for this month. <BR> <BR> 1. Stress management: keep blogging a couple times a week to monitor stress and work through it. Meditate regularly. <BR> <BR> I think I did pretty well managing stress this month, haven’t been feeling super stressed out. I exceeded my calorie goals more often than I like, but it didn’t feel like stress eating, I was just super-hungry. I blogged 5 times ... Sat, 4 May 2013 08:36:40 EST A Month of Intensity With everything that's been going on in the world and in my own life, it's been a pretty intense month. Sometimes it feels petty and silly to be caring about whether I am down a pound or up 3 pounds... <BR> <BR> But I do! I've been frustrated because I feel like I am doing pretty much everything right and still the numbers on the scale keep bouncing between the same two numbers. I guess I'm toning up because I'm back in my favorite jeans....alright, just barely and as long as I take care to ... Sun, 28 Apr 2013 20:04:38 EST Om I am checking in today to document the fact that I've been awesomely on track all week! <BR> <BR> These are the things I did right this week: <BR> <BR> -- Strength training once <BR> -- Yoga! Ommmmm... <BR> -- 20 mile bike ride on Sunday, which was just perfectly beautiful <BR> -- two 4 mile runs early early early on Tuesday and Thursday <BR> -- stayed on track with calories all week <BR> -- had only one bite of chocolate cake at the "Opening Day" party at work today (our VP is a major ... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 21:20:16 EST Status Quo The last two weeks have not seem much progress and it is no surprise to me. But then again, I haven’t done too much backsliding. It’s status quo, treading water, running in place. <BR> <BR> The week before last I had two parties and a happy hour. I went over calories twice, but also exercised a lot, so no loss but no gain either. <BR> <BR> This past week I was a little depressed…my ex texted me and it was depressing, work was a struggle and it was depressing, and etc....I just had to wo... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 22:21:00 EST I want! I saw this on Senator9s page and I liked it so much I wanted to share it. <BR> <BR> I find myself spending a lot of time wanting this and wanting that, perhaps this list can help me keep things in perspective when I start doing this. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Cheers and have a wonderful weekend! <BR> <BR> Kristin Sat, 13 Apr 2013 13:43:53 EST Ups and Downs Kind of a stressful week. Not all bad, there were definitely bright spots, and yoga helped and exercise helped. <BR> <BR> I would like to wrap all the things that made me feel that way up in a neat package, tie them to a helium balloon and let them float away. Wouldn’t it be nice if it were that easy? I know it’s not but the thought makes me happy. <BR> <BR> So, here goes: <BR> <BR> At work, there is pervasive tension and anger due to unresolved conflict on a major project. And the hi... Sun, 7 Apr 2013 09:42:22 EST March Assessment and April Goals Looking back at my goals for March, this is how I did. <BR> <BR> 1. Blog twice a week to track progress and monitor stress in my life. <BR> <BR> I blogged 8 times this month, including this one. It was helpful in noticing when I was stressing and making sure I dealt with it in constructive ways like meditating and exercising. I will keep this up. I also did the Oprah Winfrey/Deepak Chopra 21 Day Meditation Challenge and have really gotten a lot out of it. It’s helped me relax and work ... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 21:08:04 EST Spring Meditation: Blossoming I feel really good today, so blessed and so fortunate to be exactly where I am. <BR> <BR> I got up this morning, and did my strength training and then got back to the Deepak Chopra/Oprah Winfrey meditation series that I started but neglected while I was in Florida. I really like meditating every morning, it calms me and strengthens me for the day. <BR> <BR> In each of the meditations, there is a mantra, and my favorite one so far is "Om Anahndam Namah" which means, "My actions are bliss... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 10:52:51 EST Checking In I just got back from Florida and while it was overall a good trip, I am so glad to be home. I went to visit my older brother and his family, and they are really struggling financially. And the stress is really showing on him, his wife and their two little kids. My heart is just breaking for them. I do what I can to help but it’s tough. I am saying a prayer that things get better. <BR> <BR> I managed to get my workouts in and only went over calories one day – Mexican and margaritas, it was... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 20:30:48 EST Giving Thanks This week was kind of stressful and I came home from work depleted and a little depressed tonight. It was one of those times when it would have been so good to have someone to come home to and that made me kind of sad too. Other times I might have stopped at the store and gotten a bottle of wine and had a couple glasses but I don’t want to make that a habit anymore. It’s not a good way to deal with sadness and stress… <BR> <BR> I had been planning all day to get to the gym for strength tra... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 21:31:45 EST The Theme of the Month is Luck! Last month's theme was Being My Own Valentine, and a very nice theme it was...I enjoyed the flowers and all...thank you, Kristin. <BR> <BR> So, in the spirit of March and St. Patty's Day and all things green, I hereby declare the theme of this month to be LUCK! <BR> <BR> When I started writing this, I thought, hmmm, last month's theme was a little easier to fulfill, being as I don't really need anyone or anything else to be my own Valentine. But luck? I'm not a leprechaun... <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 17:46:09 EST Victories and Challenges I weigh myself every Saturday and this week, what a great start to my weekend: I lost 2 and a half pounds. I don’t think I’ve ever lost that much in a week! Felt good. Also the week I started my strength training…coincident or no, I plan to continue with that. <BR> <BR> It was a busy weekend and after 6 straight days of working out, I took a rest day today. I needed it, my muscles were hurting! I mapped out my workouts for the next week and have a plan to stay on track, so I feel pretty ... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 22:14:55 EST Quick Check-in: Weights Today! Today I finally got to the gym to do my second New Rules of Lifting for Women workout and it felt pretty good. (the program is set up to alternate between two workouts for 6 weeks and then two new sets for the next period of time, etc). I didn't push it with the amount of weight (except on the lat pulldown argghh) but now that I have a baseline, I can step it up next time on both workouts. <BR> <BR> One thing I forgot was that the program calls for a hefty serving of protein just after the... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 22:05:16 EST March Goals I’m pretty happy with my progress in February. Actually, I am happy there WAS progress in February, unlike the month before when I pretty much lost my mind, stopped working out and ate everything in sight! <BR> <BR> But I think I can do better and make more progress… Just a little more discipline and I could be back my favorite dress by the end of April! But it’s not my only motivation. Yes, I want to look good, but I want to feel better too. I want to be light on my feet again, and I ... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 20:33:15 EST February Assessment So, how did I do in February? Let’s see… <BR> <BR> First, blog twice a week to track progress and check stress levels. <BR> Hmm, did well the first two weeks, but not so much the last two weeks. I’ll give myself a C on that. <BR> <BR> Next: Track calories and stay under my goal of 1550 for six days out of seven every week, with adult beverages not more than once a week. Let’s see… <BR> <BR> I checked the calorie report, and I went over significantly (200-300 calories) only 4 times BUT t... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 22:42:24 EST Checking in While this week flew by, it was really busy and somewhat stressful. But I managed it pretty well I think and I thank you for your support. It helped! <BR> <BR> I updated my resume and applied for a promotion within my department. I decided to get a job coach because a friend of mine had a great experience with a particular person. I met with her for the first time and we had a great talk which interestingly echoed some of the positive self-talk I've been doing lately. She said that our wor... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 08:27:03 EST Emotions Are Curious Things... Today I was feeling fine, working and getting things done and then a few little things threw me off. They were not major, a little hiccup with one of my colleagues who was being negative when I need him to get some things done, a comment from another person who seemed to suggest that a position I'm applying for will be filled from outside the company and then a somewhat negative comment I made about MYSELF. Totally unbidden it popped from my mouth. I don't usually do that. All of this togeth... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 20:06:51 EST I Am My Own Valentine It’s been a good week. I have been remembering to love myself, just for being myself. In the past I’ve given myself a lot of positive feedback for the good things I do – eating right, achieving goals I set, volunteering for our local charity, getting recognition at work – but not just for being me. Which means if I take a break or stop doing those things, I no longer have good things to say to myself or about myself. I am more than the sum of my accomplishments and I am trying to remember th... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 10:42:38 EST I Had a Revelation I learned that I need to love myself more! Which was a surprise to me... <BR> <BR> So, I decided to borrow an idea from PIXIE-LISCIOUS and be my own Valentine this month. Thanks, PIXIE! <BR> <BR><BR>_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229932 <BR> <BR> I will treat myself with OUTRAGEOUS KINDNESS! Maybe I will get myself some roses for Valentine's Day and take myself out to lunch. And do my nails and curl my hair far more often...and of course be sure ... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 21:00:01 EST February Goals Yesterday I graded my progress towards January goals and gave myself an “F.” Whoah, not good! This was based on my failure to fully achieve even one of my 4 goals, and on most of them, barely 50%. But today I decided that maybe that was unfair and I appealed the grade and asked myself for a review of that dismal assessment. Upon further consideration, I decided to raise the grade to a D, based on my ability to self-correct, figure out what I am doing wrong and CHANGE IT. <BR> <BR> Oh a... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 10:54:38 EST January Assessment Here’s an assessment of my January goals: <BR> <BR> Stay within my calorie range 29 out of 31 days in January (all except New Years Day and my birthday -- 2 streaks of 14 and 15 days each): I achieved the first half of the goal, but everything fell apart after my birthday. Badly. Went over calories by mammoth amounts. <BR> <BR> Track my weight and measurements every Saturday: Check (or at least recorded my weight). And saw a 3 pound weight loss during the first two weeks followed by regain... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 23:12:00 EST Disappointed in Myself This week, not so great in terms of meeting goals. <BR> <BR> I had planned to go out on my birthday and not worry about calories, but unfortunately one day turned into 4. It was a very celebratory week, some of my dear friends had birthdays too and then there were happy hours. Still, I could have done much better. Can't celebrate for 4 days in a row without seeing the consequences. Which I did, one and a half pounds up. Grrr! <BR> <BR> Exercise suffered for similar reasons. Busy in the e... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 08:44:35 EST Quiet Weekend After the past week, it was good to have a quiet weekend. Other than going to my first painting class -- which was very interesting although we didn't touch paintbrush to canvas yet -- I pretty much rested. I think I was emotionally exhausted after the past week. I also talked to my ex and he was feeling better, after being seriously ill over the past two weeks. <BR> <BR> Progress towards goals this month so far: I went over calorie goals once this week (although not by much) and I only di... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 21:12:48 EST Tracking Stress I KNOW these blogs are pretty boring. Sorry to anyone who is reading! But I made a commitment to keep track of my stress and how it affected my eating and exercise habits and now I am torturing mySparkfriends by keeping it! <BR> <BR> So, to catch up on my jerky colleague who pissed me off yesterday. I talked to him. And her thanked me for letting know he was acting like a dick. Yes, that's what he said. Well, that was pretty accurate, so I said you're welcome. <BR> <BR> And my ex tex... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 20:47:38 EST Eight Day Streak and Hot Yoga I am on an eight day streak and of eating less than 1550 calories per day and it feels great! <BR> <BR> I also went to a hot yoga class and it was really challenging. The heat really loosens up the muscles and it feels good to sweat it out. <BR> <BR> In other ways this has not been a fabulous week, work has been stressful and I have some other worries but being in control of eating and exercise felt good. <BR> <BR> I think I am too accommodating of other people's bad behavior. One of... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 08:09:38 EST Today was better than yesterday... Today, thankfully, was better than yesterday. I kept to my plan to work out this morning at the gym and thought about what I needed to do to resolve work problems (see yesterday). <BR> <BR> And then I went into work and had a talk with my boss, asked for definitive feedback on why I was not able to achieve the top ratings that I had worked so hard for, and got no definitive answer. I know I made my boss somewhat nervous and uncomfortable, which was not my intent, but I think it was a reaso... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 22:27:14 EST Lots of Stress So, today sucked. I was really angry at work when I got my annual review and it was not what I expected and hoped for. I had a major project last year for which I was promised top reviews and bonus if I performed well. Which I did, by all objective measures. And today I was told that I did not get the top reviews or the bonus I had hoped for. <BR> <BR> I have this really crappy thing I do when I get really angry: tears come to my eyes. I managed to state that I was disappointed and leav... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 21:02:25 EST Stress Today was tough, emotionally. Recent breakup with SO, and a day we would have spent together doing fun and familiar things. I knew it would be difficult so I prepared. Monitoring stress and trying to be proactive, as I promised myself… <BR> <BR> So, I planned for it, emotionally and physically. I believe that it was right for both of us and I reminded myself about the reasons why... and I still thought it was right for both of us. I prepared and tracked my food and drink ahead of time,... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 19:41:31 EST January Goals I really need a kick start so I decided to set some basic goals for this first month of the year. They are pretty minimal, since I think that's what I need right now, what with slower than expected recovery from knee surgery, a lousy cold and lingering emotional "stuff." <BR> <BR> I will: <BR> <BR> Stay within my calorie range 29 out of 31 days in January (all except New Years Day and my birthday -- 2 streaks of 14 and 15 days each) <BR> <BR> Track my weight and measurements every Satur... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 15:51:15 EST Holiday Update: Back On Track Again! Well, I can't say I've been very successful in consuming fewer calories over the past months, or losing weight either. Actually gained 3 lbs but I hate, hate, HATE to move the tracker. Isn't that silly? It is what it is, so I may as well admit it, right? <BR> <BR> Ok, if it still is what it is on Sunday, I'll move it. Who knows, maybe it's water weight... <BR> <BR> And I'm back on track now, eating right and logging it all in without too much damage done, so I'm not going to regret a l... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 17:27:40 EST Just the Basics For a long time, I was in the business of setting myself a lot of goals which were wonderful and idealistic, but I was never able to fully achieve. I had a whole lot of things on my list like creating art and getting a masters degree that I thought I had to do to be a successful and happy person. For a number of reasons, I thought this was the way a person was supposed to live. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to achieve all of them...and that made me feel less than successful. <BR> <BR> So ... Wed, 7 Nov 2012 11:47:26 EST