KRISKECK's SparkPeople Blog KRISKECK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Quick Blog Once again, having a tough time losing. Although if I were maintaining, I’d be doing great! But that’s not where I want to be. I am mostly sticking to my plan, but not always. And a couple days over the past two weeks, I’ve failed to plan my meals and snacks, with the expected outcome. I need to get my checklist out and start reading the green Beck book again. It meanders a bit more than the pink one, and the bar to move from one stage to the next is pretty high. Checking every singl... Tue, 7 Apr 2015 13:48:14 EST Long Week! This has been a long week in which I have been up and down with my ability to stick to my plan. Lots going on, work busy but positive and many changes happening in my life. We started the week with a family celebration of my engagement at my older son and his girlfriend’s house, for which my younger son came up to Baltimore from his new home in DC. So many changes! It is very touching how much they like my fiancée. I am planning to move in a few months so beginning to do all of things nee... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 06:28:23 EST And...a Pound and a Half Down This Morning! As if to demonstrate how hard it is to predict how any individual act will affect my weight at a given time, I am down a pound and a half down after yesterday's chicken pot pie blowout! (and no, KALIGIRL, I don't think it was healthier than Marie Callenders - which I also love!)... <BR> <BR> Definitely a reminder that it's not any one act but the average consistency of multiple actions, be it healthy food choices, exercise, credit given and calories tracked, that make for success. <BR> <BR... Tue, 17 Mar 2015 11:23:51 EST Disappointed I am disappointed with myself. I did well with eating this weekend (even going out to dinner!) and then totally blew it at lunch when I ordered chicken pot pie instead of the light sandwich I had planned to order. Why did I do that? I was so convinced that I had this, that I was back on track and on my way to losing those last 6 pounds. Beck has a list of questions she calls the cheat sheet to help figure out what happened and prevent future mistakes. <BR> <BR> First, what was the situ... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 14:43:07 EST Normalcy Returns After a few days of celebrating, I am back on track. And strangely, my body seems to like the weight I am - overindulging (although not much) is sending the scale up only temporarily and then it pops back down to 146. <BR> <BR> But while my body may like this weight, I don't. As far as I am concerned, I have 6 more pounds to lose, and I am back at it. I kept below my goal of 500 calorie deficit yesterday, although I did go off plan a bit. I did everything else though. I am working hard to ... Sat, 14 Mar 2015 17:17:44 EST Big News! This week was wonderful – the man I love asked me to marry him and I said yes. I feel like the luckiest woman in the world! We are so right for each other and I feel so lucky to have found him. We spent much of the week sharing the happy news with friends and family and the response was just so wonderful for both of us, together and separately (if a bit overwhelming for two people who are basically introverts!) My grown sons love him and their responses to the news had both of us tearing up.... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 09:46:38 EST Yoga and Challenges It’s been a busy week and I am grateful for the weekend. I went to hot yoga class this morning and it was challenging. I am happy to do my own practice at home but having the opportunity to learn new things and remember old things with a teacher is a special pleasure. Today I was reminded of a pose I used to be able to do called Bird of Paradise which I could do a few years ago, but can’t do now – I’m not strong enough or flexible enough. Something to aim for! <BR> <BR> Another thing I lik... Sat, 7 Mar 2015 14:26:27 EST Quick Blog and a Question It's late and I'm tired so this will be short. It was a good day and I mostly stuck to my plan, although I had to make a quick adjustment at the end of the day when I got out of work late and had to stop for dinner rather than going home in order to get to the Costco before it closed. But it was healthy so no tears there. And now I'm ready for the storm. Let it snow! <BR> <BR> I've been reading Stage 2 in the Beck Diet for life and I am not sure I can do it as written. <BR> <BR> The firs... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 00:12:48 EST A Good Day I was back on my plan today and feeling pretty good. <BR> <BR> Here is my Stage 1 checklist for today: <BR> <BR> I motivated myself by reading my Advantages deck and my response cards. <BR> <BR> I weighed myself and I was up 1.8 pounds from my lowest weight! But that's not surprising given the past few days and hopefully will come off quickly... <BR> <BR> I ate everything slowly while sitting down, and enjoyed every bite. <BR> <BR> I gave myself credit for all my healthy behaviors. ... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 21:44:53 EST Questions and Answers and Catching Up Between the busy weekend and computer problems I haven't posted a blog since last week, and I've missed everyone! But I'm back and I finally have a new computer! Or at least a New To Me happy! <BR> <BR> We had a ton of things going on: a trip to a college event for my BF's daughter who was accepted to her first choice college. She's a great kid who's had some real challenges so it was great to see her happy and excited about college next year! And spending some time with my s... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 23:10:22 EST Broke My Streak After 6 days of successfully staying on plan, I went off track 2 days in a row. Why? Could be rebelliousness. Or maybe poor planning. Both days I was going out to dinner and both days I had an extra glass of wine. Neither day did my calories consumed exceed my calories burned. So, I am conflicted. Why am I holding myself to this standard? What is wrong with planning for that extra glass of wine? (And BTW, it was a second glass, not the first glass, I had already planned that!) So, perhap... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 10:41:30 EST A Perfect Sunday Today was just a perfect day, easy and relaxed. Even the part where I ran 3 miles on the treadmill. Ok, maybe not the part where I paid bills and balanced my checkbook, but everything else. <BR> <BR> I finished my Distractions Box, the thing Beck suggests you put together to distract yourself when you feel like eating but you know you shouldn't. In addition to nail polish and my journal, I filled it with a great big list of things that need doing including sewing buttons on and declutterin... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 21:23:50 EST The Sun Came Out! Hallelujah! The sun finally came out today! <BR> <BR> This will be a short blog for yesterday - Istayed up a little too late last night binge-watching Game of Thrones and am having to be very stern with myself to not do it again today… <BR> <BR> But it really was a great day…I stayed on plan with my eating and I got a workout in, Jillian’s 20 minute Shred and Shiva Ray yoga. They’re both great and I didn’t even need to leave the house. Which was helpful since it snowed like crazy all day... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 10:47:18 EST Snowy Day For the third time this week it’s snowing! But for the first time, I’m home and hunkered down…what a wonderful thing! I went to the grocery store and got home just as the snow started. First order of business is relaxing…planning to catch up a bit on Game of Thrones which to me us simply enthralling. And then a few tasks… <BR> <BR> First I plan to put together my Distractions Box for Complete Beck. She suggests putting a number of things that you can use to distract yourself when you have ... Sat, 21 Feb 2015 12:37:53 EST Home Again I’m home again after a two day business trip and I am giving myself big credit for making a plan and sticking to it! I love the feeling of strength I get when I am able to maintain control of consumption. <BR> <BR> I was responsible for running a session today and I started to get a little nervous. I wanted to grab something sweet at breakfast and stuff my feelings down but I resisted the urge. I calmed myself down with some deep breaths and positive self talk: you can do this – you’re go... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 20:55:45 EST Successful Day I’m in Dallas at a work meeting with folks I work with from all over the country and having a good time. But as always, sticking to my plan while travelling is challenging. However, other than an unplanned couple of bites at dinner, it was a successful day! <BR> <BR> I was too tired to fill out my checklist last night, so here is my Stage 1 checklist for yesterday. <BR> <BR> I motivated myself by reading my Advantages deck and my response cards once. <BR> <BR> I weighed myself for the ... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 08:16:34 EST Still Working Through Complete Beck Stage One First of all, it was a wonderful long holiday weekend that seemed to go on and on. What a happy thing! <BR> <BR> I’ve been working on the Complete Beck Diet for Life for a week and a half now, and while I’ve had a number of days when I was able to check every box, I haven’t yet been able to check every box for a week. And that’s what Beck recommends before moving to Stage Two. But I am making progress and learning so I’ll keep going. <BR> <BR> I am almost done with doing the exercises for ... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 21:43:16 EST Valentine's Day Checklist, a Day Late Valentine’s day was wonderful. My BF is the sweetest guy, so thoughtful and kind every day and loves special occasions. Cards, flowers and chocolates. We have so much fun. He is totally supportive of my goals and gives me lots of compliments …. <BR> <BR> Had a little fun yesterday trying to figure out what fit and what didn’t for a nice dinner out. My favorite dress almost fits -- 5 or 6 more pounds! The dress I got for our first date (I just had a feeling) DOES fit again, so I wore that ... Sun, 15 Feb 2015 10:29:56 EST A Very Short Blog: Confession After I blogged last night, I had an extra glass and a half of wine that was NOT on my plan. I'm giving myself credit for not giving in to the urge to snack after that, however. Back on track today! Sat, 14 Feb 2015 10:23:01 EST Quick check in today…. Here is my Stage 1 checklist for today. <BR> <BR> I motivated myself by reading my Advantages deck and my response cards on the Metro this morning. <BR> <BR> I weighed myself and I was at the lowest weight in almost 3 years. This went into my Memory box. This feels great. <BR> <BR> I ate everything slowly while sitting down, and enjoyed every bite. <BR> <BR> I did a good job at giving myself credit. For getting up early, getting to the gym, eating a healthy breakfast slowly while si... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 21:42:36 EST Kettle Bells and a Non-scale Victory For my birthday, I gave myself sessions with a trainer and I love it! I am learning all kinds of new exercises – the TRX straps, the assisted pull-up machine, another machine I don’t know the same of…and kettle bells! It was a challenging workout and I definitely expect to feel it tomorrow. Between the training and the running, I’m starting to feel like myself again. <BR> <BR> Oh, and a non-scale victory yesterday: I put on one of my skirts, looked in the mirror and couldn’t figure out wh... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 21:03:31 EST Working on Beck Success Skill #6 In Complete Beck, instead of the day by day approach, there are success skills that must be mastered before moving on to the next stage. <BR> <BR> In Stage 1, Success skills 1-5 were pretty easy for me. Motivating myself, weighing every day, giving myself credit, eating slowly while sitting down and enjoying every bite and exercising, all pretty easy (although I do need reminders on reading the cards and giving myself credit – but at least I am not fighting myself on those things. Success Sk... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 22:27:14 EST Starting the Complete Beck Diet for Life! I started reading the Complete Beck Diet for Life a few weeks ago but didn’t start the program until today, because I didn't get all the things I needed together until this past weekend. Also, I still have not finished reading Stage One. But since I am still practicing the Beck strategies I learned from the pink book, I am feeling good about where I am. <BR> <BR> I like the approach the book takes but I’m glad I did the other one first. The “one day at a time” approach was great for starti... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 23:17:53 EST Slow Learner or Rebel? Last weekend was my boyfriend’s birthday and we went to the Brandywine valley in Pennsylvania to celebrate. It’s a really beautiful place and we had a great time. I had decided to give myself the weekend off from planning (but not tracking), and I’ve decided I won’t do that again for a long time. It’s just too hard to get myself back on track. I can feel that “giving in” muscle getting stronger. <BR> <BR> And of course predictably I am up almost three pounds. Which is discouraging even know... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 09:51:37 EST A Few Tough Weeks The last few weeks have been very challenging for a number of reasons. <BR> <BR> While I’ve continued planning my meals and usually stick to the plan, my exercise has suffered. And a few times I fooled myself into thinking that it’s ok to eat and drink things I hadn’t planned to and allowed myself to be swayed by food pushers. <BR> <BR> It didn’t help that everything that makes it easier for me to stay on track broke, along with a bunch of other things too. Like, my fridge (under warrant... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 13:02:36 EST Short Birthday Blog It’s been a really, really tough week. But I am leaving it all behind because today is my birthday and I am celebrating! <BR> <BR> Celebrating my good fortune to have such a good and happy life, with such wonderful friends and family – including my friends here on Spark! Thank you for continuing to encourage and inspire me, teaching me so much along the way. I am truly blessed! <BR> <BR> It was a really tough week at work (who invented two day meetings?) and as some of you may have notic... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 15:48:22 EST Happy New Year! I hope everyone is enjoying the New Year! It is a time of year when people usually focus on goals and resolutions. But on Spark, most of us seem to do that on a regular basis, so it’s not a once-a-year occurrence! <BR> <BR> That being said, I’m feeling good looking back over the last part of 2014 and seeing some movement, and I’m determined to get to my goal weight in 2015. I’m continuing to use my Beck strategies, including the daily checklist, and plan to begin the Beck green book this... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 22:50:15 EST The Sixth and Final Week of the Beck Diet Solution I finished the 6th week of Beck – as I said in an earlier blog - just in time for the holidays. I was armed with the strategies and skills I needed to make it through all the holiday temptations with a minimum of overindulgence. I continued to plan, allowed myself extra calories and although I ate and drank some things I hadn’t planned to, I didn’t go over by much and was able to get back on track. <BR> <BR> I cooked a lovely roast and a lot of vegetables, including squash, sweet potatoe... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 21:09:25 EST Christmas Was Awesome. Now I’m Getting Back on Track I hope everyone had a great Christmas! Mine was lovely …lots of family and my BF and his children, all at my house for dinner. It was wonderful, if a bit overwhelming at times! <BR> <BR> I think it will be remembered by most of us as the Christmas of the dogs….my older son’s two dogs, my youngest sister’s two dogs and my mother’s dog too. I stayed home with my mom, my younger son and a nephew to cook, while the rest of the family took the dogs to the dog park for a long afternoon workout... Fri, 26 Dec 2014 10:58:12 EST Finished the Beck Diet Solution Just in time for the holidays, I finished the Beck Diet Solution! Truthfully, I think the holidays would have looked a lot different if I hadn’t done this program for the past month and a half. <BR> <BR> I wouldn’t be planning my meals. Instead I would be eating things I know I shouldn’t eat, with the excuse that it would be “just this once” or “it’s the holidays!” <BR> <BR> I wouldn’t be sitting down to eat every time, eating slowly and mindfully. Instead, I would be grabbing treats on t... Tue, 23 Dec 2014 06:42:20 EST Happy Holidays It was a long and challenging week but I made it through successfully and lost another pound and a half. Yes! <BR> <BR> Work was intense and I caught a cold on the flight back from London, so basically all I had time to do was sleep, work and keep up (for the most part) with the Beck program. I made sure I took the time to keep planning my meals, using my response cards and reading the chapters (almost) daily. I don’t like to exercise when I’m not feeling well, but I made sure I held my ... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 10:21:46 EST Belated Beck: Week 5 I finished week 5 of Beck before I went on vacation but didn’t take the time to blog about it. And it seems to help burn the learning into my brain, so I want to go back to that before moving forward. <BR> <BR> Week 5 is about Overcoming Challenges. The daily challenges that we never escape and the ones that pop up every once in awhile. And I even had a chance to take the travel strategy for a test drive! <BR> <BR> Day 29: Resist Food Pushers. I really have no problem saying no to food... Sat, 13 Dec 2014 21:46:14 EST Beck on Vacation: Success! At midnight last night I got back from an amazing week-long trip to London. What a fantastic journey! My BF had invited me to come along on his business trip, so we had a great weekend together and then 5 days of museums, sightseeing and shopping on my own. Together we saw a mind-blowing Rembrandt exhibit, some really interesting art at the Tate Modern and a Christmas concert at a beautiful old church, St. Martin in the Fields. And on my own, I saw lots more Impressionist and Renaissance a... Sat, 13 Dec 2014 10:52:31 EST London! I’m going to London for a week of vacation! I’ve never been there before and I’m excited, a whole week of sightseeing, museums and shopping! And a little bit of work, too much going on to completely unplug but great that I can do it remotely. <BR> <BR> I just finished the 5th week of Beck… I haven’t had time to blog about it yet but will soon. However, it did include a chapter on making a travel strategy – very timely. As always, a lot of good ideas. She talks about different approaches ... Fri, 5 Dec 2014 00:08:15 EST Beck Solution Week 4 I am feeling happy and proud: I’m at my lowest weight yet this year! I’ve been losing weight this month at a faster rate than I normally do, and while I get that’s not necessarily a good thing, it feels really good right now…It’s the day after Thanksgiving and my jeans are comfortably loose! <BR> <BR> Thanksgiving was good. I woke up to a quiet house and did yoga, then went for a run before starting to cook. My house was full of family and friends. I was able to stick to my plan, which ... Fri, 28 Nov 2014 23:10:57 EST A Short Thankful Blog Happy Thanlsgiving to all my wonderful Sparkfriends! On this day of giving thanks (for the Americans among us, at least) I want to give thanks to all of you for your help, support and insights. You make such a difference in my life! <BR> <BR> I'm thankful also to have my family and friends in my home sons and my older son's girlfriend, my boyfriend and his two children and my granddogs, their company is what I will take pleasure and give thanks for today... <BR> <BR> As far as th... Thu, 27 Nov 2014 10:22:04 EST Beck Diet Solution: Week 3 In three weeks, I’ve learned a lot from the Beck Diet Solution, and I’m continuing to follow the plan. Last week was tough, really busy at work and tons of temptation, with a working lunch meeting, cupcakes at a morning meeting, a reception with tons of amazing food, and drinks and dinner with friends on Saturday night. <BR> <BR> For the most part I was successful in staying on track. For the lunch meeting, I checked with the meeting organizer on the menu and decided in advance. At the cu... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 22:12:46 EST Beck Solution: Week 2 Week 2 of Beck was helpful. Some tasks were things I already do. Other days were more challenging, but every day there was some piece of advice that was helpful. Overall, the strategies and responses to specific situations are the most valuable pieces of the program for me. They are already helping me when I’m struggling. Much better than before, when I would find myself caught in the moment, reacting to stress and cravings with a blindly emotional response. <BR> <BR> I’ve been writing in... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 21:44:59 EST Feeling Happy Today! Over the past few years, I get on the scale once a week with the intention of recording my weight, whatever the result. It's my way of keeping myself honest. And this morning I am happy to report that I am down 2.2 pounds since last week. What a happy thing! I attribute it to following the Beck plan closely and also the fact that I'm in my third week of a new ST program. <BR> <BR> I'm very happy about the loss - of course! - but also happy that I've found a program that makes sense and is... Sun, 9 Nov 2014 11:17:21 EST Giving Myself Credit! Yesterday was a tough day. especially towards the end. I got out of work late and was already hungry. The commute towards home was long and I needed to stop at the pharmacy to pick up a prescription. The pharmacy took forever because the kid couldn't seem to locate the thing and then didnt bother to call me when it was filled. By the time I got home I was ravenous and irritated. And the loud whirring sound of my (new!) refrigerator, which is on the verge of breaking down while we wait for the... Fri, 7 Nov 2014 14:35:07 EST Beck Diet Solution: Week One I’ve done 7 days of the Beck Diet Solution now, and I like the approach. It makes sense to me and it feels sustainable. Two very important points. It has become clear to me over the past few years that the piece that’s not working is in my head, and changing the way I think about eating is essential to losing and keeping it off. <BR> <BR> The book aims to teach you how to think like a thin person. I think I can do that. When I was younger, being hungry didn’t bother me. I didn’t spend a... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 23:52:11 EST A Great Big Thank You and a Fresh Start The other day I posted a blog with my new November goals. Another effort to kickstart my weight loss. <BR> <BR> And then I started reading success story blogs as I so often do. I think I have some of the pieces I need but I am always looking for inspiration and new ideas. (Because doing the same things over and over and expecting different results is the definition of insanity...) <BR> <BR> So, on Watermellen's Sparkpage, I found great inspiration - THANK YOU, WATERMELLEN! <BR> <BR> She... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 22:41:10 EST November Goals I’m going back to my old practice of setting monthly goals and then assessing my progress at the end of the month. Because when I work it, it works! <BR> <BR> I’ve struggled over the past few years, setting too many goals and not being focused. So once again, starting from scratch. And trying to keep it simple! <BR> <BR> Here are my new and simple long term goals: <BR> <BR> • I will lose 20 pounds, which is just over 10% of my weight, by March 6th, 2015. <BR> • When I've lost 20 poun... Tue, 28 Oct 2014 20:38:38 EST Ready to Race Again! I was checking my previous years' race results on Athlinks, a site that tracks race results. I started running in 1997 and ran my first race in 2001. That was a 10 miler, and I loved it, so I kept running. Since then, I've run 16 races for a total of 127 miles. Wow - what a happy surprise to see those numbers there! I've run 2 half marathons, eight 10 milers, one 10K, two 4 milers and three 5Ks. <BR> <BR> I am psyched about training for races again, now that my knee is feeling pretty goo... Thu, 23 Oct 2014 16:09:14 EST Mountain Hiking in Park City Utah I had a beautiful week in Utah. I went for work and it was a productive week, but I also took every chance I could to hike in the mountains. What a lovely place! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And here is a beautiful picture of the last bit of snow on the high you can almost touch the sky! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> If i could hike in places like this all ... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 22:02:14 EST Accountability For a long time, my favorite report on the Spark website has been the Calorie Differential Over Time. I’m pretty good at tracking both exercise and calories consumed, and when I'm dong well, it is really satisfying to see consistent caloric deficits reflected in the report. And while I can fool myself daily and even weekly that I'm doing ok, when I look at the report over time, there is no escaping the truth. Right now, it’s pretty clear why I’ve barely been maintaining over the past 12 month... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 22:34:31 EST Back! After a few months of what seemed like uproar, things are more or less back on track. My kids’ dad survived triple bypass and aneurysm surgery, my younger son who was taking care of him full time is back home. We helped my older son move from an hour and a half south to 45 minutes north. Work is still crazy but not as much as it has been lately. Travel schedule has calmed down and I’m actually planning a two week vacation in August. Through all of that I was pretty inconsistent. Not awful. ... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 21:30:24 EST Live, Love, Give I was going to call this blog Belated February Assessment, March Update and Goals. Because that's what I was going to do. But I changed my mind. Given the stresses of the past weeks and in keeping with the reminder that life is truly and really quite short, I decided to go big! In the end, what do we really have? I am working on keeping things in perspective. <BR> <BR> My younger son came home from a visit with his father a couple weeks and told me that his dad was pretty sick, and over th... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 13:36:26 EST Self Control This week was even better than last week with consumption – I was more consistent about staying in my range and I averaged around 1500 calories a day. That’s been my general goal, and since I am burning around 2400 calories, I hope to see some results. Didn’t hop on the scale like I usually do on Saturday morning, but I feel like my jeans fit better than they did last week. If I don’t see any loss, I’ll adjust the calories down, but I have to say, I am feeling pretty good. And I think it’s ... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 21:18:58 EST Happy Valentine's Day! This week has been much better in terms of staying on track with calories. Why? I set my mind to it. Stayed focus on my goals. If I want this, I can’t have that. That simple. <BR> <BR> Now, I’m not necessarily saying easy ... But still simple! And it helped that after gaining a couple pounds at the end of last week, it came back down and then some after my long run on the weekend. Success always gives me that little extra inspiration! <BR> <BR> I have a nice dinner planned for tomorrow ... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 20:14:53 EST