KRICH09's SparkPeople Blog KRICH09's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Almost giving up I have gotten myself in a funk. I have not been sticking to anything the last week. For one, my back has hurt that it was hard to get up or move at all. My anxiety has been at its worse. This morning has been bad but putting on my big girl panties and making the rest of the day a good day.I have felt like a failure and just giving up but I have to do this for my health and myself. <BR> <BR> Been thinking of my mom a lot lately. She has been gone for almost 3 years now. I watch my gra... Thu, 8 Feb 2018 10:10:36 EST Bad day - Eating my emotions Today has been a bad diet day. Didn't get my water in and went over my calories. Between my father in law having only 6 +/- months to live and helping my kids understand what has happened to their dad. My ex fell a few weeks ago. Can't move his legs. Had a tumor on his spine that was attached to his prostrate cancer, he didn't know he had. Now he is in acute renal failure. <BR> <BR> I am gonna try and go for a walk or just get up and move instead of eating my emotions. I drank more di... Tue, 23 Jan 2018 20:26:04 EST Got the munchies! I am having a real hard time today. All I want to do is eat. I'm trying to just drink water instead. I don't know if it th a steroids my doctor put me on or what. Hopefully I can get my mind in order over the weekend. Since starting this time I've actually lost weight. Before I would give up before even really starting. Fri, 19 Jan 2018 15:07:25 EST Weekends Weekends are my biggest challenge. On the go and not eating right. I did see this weekend that diet coke is not tasting good most of the time since I have been drinking more water. That is a positive for me since I was basically only drinking diet coke. My weight went back up a few pounds after I lost due to being sick but I was expecting that. Still down 8 pounds from the first of the year. Started off today with a bottle of water <em>91</em> and gonna try and get all my water in to... Mon, 15 Jan 2018 08:39:56 EST Last two days The last few days have been rough. Ended up having a stomach virus. <em>527</em> I was excited on Sunday because just from changing my diet and drinking more water I was able to lose 5 pounds. Now with this virus I lost another 5 pounds. So down 10 pounds. <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> Now I just have to keep this up and keep them numbers coming down. Back to work tomorrow. So sore from the stomach bug. Tue, 9 Jan 2018 19:11:19 EST Here we go again I get online with Sparks every New Years with good intentions every time. This time I am at my heaviest weight and my health is paying for it. I have 3 grandkids now and have no energy to really play with them. My daughter has learned my bad habits and along with her medication for depression is heavier than I am. I am dedicated to lose this weight and show my daughter that you can change your eating habits and enjoy it. Too much deep fried and not enough baked. My grandkids deserve a g... Tue, 2 Jan 2018 20:57:34 EST Can't Get Motivated!!! I keep telling myself that I am gonna stick to this diet. I promised myself and my hubby that I would lose 20 or more pounds by my birthday. I know I can do it but I keep sinking back into my bad habits and watch my weight keep going up. I turn 40 this September and really need to get myself healthy and happy so I can be around for my kids and husband. I know I still have the time to lose the weight I promised myself but just getting it started and sticking to it. I know I eat when I am ... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 22:58:16 EST Sunday Haven't had a good weekend. Eating wise I have done pretty good. The bad part was putting up with my daughter's disrespectful attitude towards me. If I talked to my mother the way she talks to me just say it would be worse than the punishment she usually gets. Momma is at her wits end and sometimes I feel like calling her dad and telling him to come and get her because I am done. This doesn't help with my weight loss journey but this weekend I have done better with not using food for com... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 22:22:06 EST Wednesday Hump Day Made it through the day. Did pretty good with the diet and went out and walked for awhile. It was so nice outside today. <BR> <BR> Was helping my daughter with her science fair project. It was about how much gas is in your favorite beverage. We used Milk, Tea, Juice and Diet Coke. Let's just say the only one that almost immediately showed gas production was diet coke. I really need to get off of drinking diet coke but not easy to do. <BR> <BR> My kids are home with us this weekend. I... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 20:32:51 EST First day of a new week Well, finally Monday is over. Kids are home and settled in from their dad's. Got a call from my daughter's school. Somehow she bent the nail on her middle finger completely back. Nurse said she was fine but was pretty white when she came in. Had to cut it clear back just to get the bend out of the nail - poor thing. She is a klutz this year of school. <BR> <BR> My eating went pretty well today. Weather wasn't right to go walking outside today and my hubby has my treadmill blocked. So... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 22:07:01 EST 3rd Blog Well missed blogging yesterday. Busy day but making up today by adding today and yesterday food tracking. I splurged today and finally got to have my birthday lunch at Outback with the hubby. So calories were way out there. Will get back on track tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Took daughter to doctor yesterday. Her BMI is right at the line between normal and overweight. She is 12. Told her that we were all going to start eating healthier. No more eating out, which we don't much anyways. Cuttin... Sat, 13 Oct 2012 21:48:50 EST Day #2 My 2nd day of blogging. I thought I did better today. I didn't snack as much as I usually do so that is good. I have to learn to cook healthier. Too bad eating healthy cost so much. Well me and my daughter have been getting along a little better. So stress level is down. My weakness is diet coke and I know I really need to get off the diet coke. <BR> <BR> I am going to try and start a walking program tomorrow. Have arthritis in my big toe and it has been hard to walk without hurting e... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 21:54:52 EST Daily Post I'm going to try and make a daily post starting today. <BR> <BR> I have been trying to lose weight for a while but I let other things get to me and instead of losing I have gained. I am the biggest I have been besides when I was pregnant. I have to focus on myself and stop letting everything else interfere. My daughter (12) is literally driving me crazy going through puberty and pushing all my buttons - doctor ended up putting me on 2 antidepressants to try and help. I am always giving i... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 10:50:22 EST No Will Power I am so tired of having no will power. I want to lose this weight to feel better but I feel like I have no control over anything. I make all these plans and buy the good food but I always find the bad for you food. The food I buy for lunch is just not appetizing after I take them for lunch and I always end up buying other food. I hate being this way. Just no self control. I am getting where I hate myself for being this way but I know I am the only one that can change myself. I will tu... Thu, 5 May 2011 21:53:48 EST Daughter Don't think I will ever be in the right mode to lose this weight. Everytime I want to start something sets me back. My nerves are at their ends right now. My daughter is driving me crazy. She is 10 and I don't know if it is hormones or something else. She is in a good sweet mood one minute and then it is like someone hits a button and she turns mean and nasty. It has been going on for a long time just getting worse. I end up eating things I shouldn't because I am so upset. Gonna try t... Sat, 29 Jan 2011 19:56:54 EST Bad Day Not usually one to blog but having a real hard time with the kids and when I have bad days I eat. Not good when trying to lose weight. Son is failing classes, not doing his work and just overall doing a lot of back talking. Of course he is 13, into teenage years now, but I am pulling my hair out. My daughter, who is 9, is just a very irritating and aggravating young lady. Nothing makes her happy. I just feel like crying daily so it is very difficult to concentrate on weight loss. My ne... Fri, 1 Jan 2010 22:32:30 EST