KOOKYCRUMZ's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KOOKYCRUMZ KOOKYCRUMZ's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Looking for Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5394102 I have battled my weight for years now. I seem to do well and lose and get to feeling good and then suddenly I seem to slide and it's fast. I put on more than I lost and then some. <BR> <BR> My family tries to support me but being fit and healthy they can't truly understand the battle I am fighting. In their minds if I went for a walk today then an ice cream tonight is ok. They don't understand my body doesn't metabolize the tiny treat as theirs does. <BR> <BR> There isn't really anyplace... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 00:09:43 EST I didn't just fall off the wagon..I laid there as it backed up and ran over me again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4550116 They say when you fall back into your old bad habits that you have fallen off the wagon. Well let me tell ya, I didn't just fall off the wagon I also just laid there as it backed up and ran over me again! <BR> <BR> I have blogged before about family issues and stress levels. I guess I just let them all get to me. (It happens from time to time.) This time it just seemed to hit me harder than usual and I didn't bounce back as I usually do. <BR> <BR> I didn't realize how bad it had gotten ... Mon, 24 Oct 2011 01:31:37 EST Family isn't always by blood http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4011970 I was raised in a mixed family. By this I mean I was raised by my mother and step father. I also have 4 half brothers through my mom. I found my biological father 2 years ago and found that I have 2 half siblings through him. I hated hearing the words"step-child" as I was growing up. Even more I hated being treated different than the children born by blood into my stepfathers side of the family. <BR> <BR> I found my biological father as I said. When I first met him and his new family I thoug... Sat, 12 Feb 2011 13:11:30 EST The Month After Christmas! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3967478 <BR> THE MONTH AFTER CHRISTMAS! <BR> <BR> 'Twas the month after Christmas, and all through the house, nothing would fit me, not even a blouse. The cookies I nibbled, the eggnog I'd taste at the holiday parties had gone to my waste. <BR> <BR> When I got on the scales there arose such a number! When I walked to the store (less a walk than a lumber). I'd remember the marvelous meals I'd prepared; the gravies and sauces and beef nicely rared, the wine and the rum balls, the bread and the chees... Thu, 27 Jan 2011 22:15:49 EST I'm back and ready for action!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3967441 I had recently given up on myself. I had lost a close friend, was dealing with some family drama ( I always get dragged into the middle of things that I feel do not concern me), gained even more weight, and have been dealing with nightmares (more like flashbacks in my sleep) of abuse I suffered in the past. <BR> <BR> I had convinced myself that maybe all this just wasn't worth it. I was falling into a state of depression and headed no where fast. <BR> <BR> Then I was watching my family the ... Thu, 27 Jan 2011 22:03:26 EST Calgon take me away PLEASE!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3902341 It's been a very stressful week for me. Each of the kids have taken a turn getting a virus of one kind or another and the older ones were only sick a day or two at least. The younger ones like to have it hang around a little longer. The baby has been sick since Monday and I think I am going to go insane. One minute he is happy as a lark then out of no where he screams non-stop for 3 to 6 hours straight! Wednesday my oldest turned 17 which went well but the baby did decide to cry through part ... Sat, 8 Jan 2011 00:33:07 EST What I plan to accomplish http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3879326 So, once again the new year is upon us and it's time to make our resolutions. Here I go: <BR> <BR> 1. Be a better mother and wife. (My family deserves only the best!) <BR> <BR> 2. Forgive those who have hurt me in the past so that I can move on with my future. ( For those of you that know me you know what I've been through and how hard this one will be.) <BR> <BR> 3. To get into better shape whether I lose weight or not. (I have got to take better care of myself so I can be here for my fam... Sun, 2 Jan 2011 04:58:36 EST The ABC get to know me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3871741 A is for age: 36 <BR> B is for booze: I like a good slow gin fizz <BR> C is for career: I am now a stay at home mom again and loving it! <BR> D is for Dad's name: Gary <BR> E is for Essential items to bring to a party: music to shake my big booty to! <BR> F is for Favorite music or song: Guns N Roses ( yeah I know I am old lol) <BR> G is for Goof off thing to do: Walk through Wal-mart singing loudly my Christmas Carols in July! <BR> H is for Hometown: Cullman, Alabama <BR> I is for Instrument... Thu, 30 Dec 2010 12:36:56 EST Merry Christmas to everyone! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3857488 Deck the halls and jingle the bells <BR> Our home is filled with Christmas smells <BR> The cakes, the cookies, the pies are a bakin, <BR> Mistletoe with kisses for takin. <BR> Gifts are all wrapped and under the tree, <BR> Chioldren waiting impaintly. <BR> Family and friends from far and from near <BR> spreading love and Christmas cheer. <BR> Man I love this time of year! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Merry Christmas to everyone!!!!! Wed, 22 Dec 2010 11:29:56 EST Discussion with my scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3855632 I had been avoiding my scale lately. (You see she and I aren't always on good terms.) But I ran into her in the bathroom and she stood quietly for a moment before she said "I know you don't like to discuss your weight but have you weighed lately?". I just looked at her and shook my head. We both knew the answer before she asked the question. With downcast eyes I explained to her that I didn't like her. I told her she wasn't my friend. "Everytime I try working with you I don't like what I see.... Tue, 21 Dec 2010 10:59:45 EST My personal confessional http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3823937 I confess that: <BR> <BR> I hate what I see when I look into the mirror. <BR> <BR> I hate how I feel when I see my reflection. <BR> <BR> I am extremely more lazy that I thought I'd ever admit. <BR> <BR> It shames me and hurts when my teenage daughter won't eat for fear of looking like me. <BR> <BR> I hate how I feel when my husband notices someone else has lost weight and comments on how they are looking better. <BR> <BR> I need to make more time for me during the day and actually use i... Sat, 4 Dec 2010 16:51:47 EST LOVE THIS GAME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3807918 1. Who used to be your superhero when you were a child? <BR> wonder woman! <BR> <BR> 2. Most hated chore on the chore list? <BR> pairing socks <BR> <BR> 3. If you were to start your own restaurant what would it be called? <BR> Amy's All-Nighter <BR> <BR> 4. Is there anything pink within ten feet of you? <BR> Lol. yes, my fuzzy sock! <BR> <BR> 5. If you could only eat three things for the rest of your life what would they be? <BR> fried chicken, pizza, taffy (what? you thought it'd be hea... Sat, 27 Nov 2010 07:29:14 EST A few things about me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3807908 Ok am stealing this from Bella s page and adding my own answers so people can find out more about me. Let's play! <BR> <BR> <BR> WHAT WAS YOUR: <BR> 1.last beverage: sweet tea <BR> 2. last phone call: My mother <BR> 3. last text message: my son <BR> 4. Last song listened to: would have to ask teenage daughter the name lol <BR> 5. last time you cried: yesterday after my daughter(who was always told to tell me if she noticed) that I am getting fat <BR> <BR> HAVE YOU EVER: <BR> 6. dated someo... Sat, 27 Nov 2010 07:13:43 EST