KNMMOMMY's SparkPeople Blog KNMMOMMY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community The Most Frustrating Time I gained weight! HOW ... How does one who eats as healthy as me, workout as much as I do, GAIN WEIGHT! I should've never stepped on that scale today! Wed, 18 Jul 2012 17:37:10 EST 112 to go In June I set a goal of 200 miles on the bike by the end of July. Well, in Alaska our summers can be quite cold and unpredictable. And it didn't fail to disappoint (or rather it did disappoint) ... Recently my husband and I purchased a training indoor bike! WOOOOHOOO!! I'm back on track. <BR> <BR> Now just to making up lost time on the bike. It would've been so much easier to do 100 miles a month, but alas I'm doing 200ish in one month. <BR> <BR> I'm really proud of myself and super excit... Fri, 13 Jul 2012 19:51:06 EST Officially Official We purchased our tickets to Utah last night. I'm so nervous about this trip for more reasons than just standing next to my stick thin sisters-in-law. I have not spoken to my mom in over 3 years. I will see her on this trip. It is a very sad and rough situation that I am struggling with letting God control. <BR> <BR> My feelings have been deeply hurt by her. My trust for her is non-existent. The security that one should have with one's parents interacting with one's kids is gone. I'm really n... Thu, 31 May 2012 17:09:32 EST Once a month streak LOL!! I feel like I'm a once a month blogger on Spark! In reality, I am. Oh well. I am doing pretty good with eating healthy. The next step is consistent exercise. Since summer is here, we are getting out of the house more. My 6 y/o daughter has found a love in long distanceish (5ish miles) of bike riding with me. We ride to church on Wednesday nights, go on bike rides on the random trails around the valley, and even just for fun around our neighborhood. I want to instill in her the importanc... Tue, 29 May 2012 13:01:00 EST Food Management It finally clicked in my head that I really cannot eat any yeast products (i.e. bread), or any cow's milk products, even things that have cow's milk preservatives and derivatives. Which, btw, is EVERYTHING! BLAH! <BR> <BR> My stomach bloats out to the point where I look like I'm 9 months pregnant. My face breaks out as if I'm going through puberty all over. And my migraines just to just hang out a while instead of going away with the popping of medication. It's all annoying and frustrating. ... Wed, 4 Apr 2012 12:09:50 EST Awesome April I am happy to announce that Alaska is FINALLY melting! This means in just a short week or two, my running will move outside. I haven't been as diligent about exercising the past two or three weeks, but my body and brain are missing it. So it begins again tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Its amazing how clear and focused and patient I am with myself, aaron and kids when i workout on a regular basis. I sleep better, i make better eating choices. Im more positive. <BR> <BR> Working out regularly really af... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 01:04:49 EST Where does the time go?? I have had ups and downs the last month. But I can't believe I have forgotten to keep track. Guess it's true, you really do lose track of time when you have kids. <BR> <BR> It's my goal to keep track of everything I can on a daily basis. I will try my best to log in daily, read something inspirational, log my water, food, etc. <BR> <BR> I won't get down on myself if i fail. I will just try again the next day. Sun, 18 Mar 2012 00:51:13 EST Week 1 of my restart I think that it's fair to say that yo-yo dieting and roller-coaster exercising has been quite a normal thing for me in my life. I never stick to something for longer than a month or two. And I am typically discouraged if I do not see progress every week in one form or another. <BR> <BR> I am scared to commit to anything in life at the moment except my weightloss. I do not want to commit to anything for fear of failure. I'm a failure phobic person. I don't like it. It makes me very very sad. ... Mon, 6 Feb 2012 13:44:19 EST 28 Days to being coffee free So I know that we all, at some point, decide we can do something for a certain amount of days. Well I'm committing to 28 days of change. Everyday I plan to change something about that day, whether it be get in an extra 5 minutes on my treadmill, or less coffee, or attitude adjustments. There are number of changes that we could do to better ourselves. <BR> <BR> I do have one goal this month and that is to eliminate coffee from my diet. I drink far too much and I think it's a major contributin... Tue, 1 Feb 2011 19:36:48 EST Size M .. now if only the thighs would follow suit I purchased a size M sweater today!! I was so crazily happy! Never have I ever never been a size M in my whole entire life! I skipped that size. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> That's all! :) Sat, 15 Jan 2011 19:00:13 EST Before and so far So this weekend, we'll just pretend it didn't happen. Okay! Much better. NO really, it wasn't that bad, but I did have bread, both days. ACK! Oh well. new day, new week, new start (as of 5:50 a.m. when my son so lovingly woke me up) <BR> <BR> At any rate, I created a before and so far photo to remind me that I'm succeeding at this journey. I find it difficult at times to continue forward, because it doesn't register where I've been. But seeing how much I've changed in 27 lbs sure does help. ... Mon, 8 Nov 2010 13:49:38 EST Day 5: 20 and counting Today I seemed to have been craving breads and candy. I mindlessly tore off a part of my son's whole wheat tortilla .. you know the excess part that doesn't stick closed .. and ate it. Afterward I was like .. WOAH!! I do eat without paying attention to what I'm doing. <BR> <BR> I've always thought that I paid attention to what was going in my mouth. However, that moment was a very eye opening experience. It definitely could've been worse, but it made me realize that I'm not focusing on what... Sat, 6 Nov 2010 02:30:41 EST Day 4 PHEW Ok. Today was way more rough than yesterday. See when I make food for my kids, it's healthy. Like for instance, this morning, they had carrot pancakes and eggs. It's a healthier alternative for pancakes. I make them frequently with a steamed pureed vegetable in them, because well .. let's just be honest .. a 1 and 5ish year old are simply not interested in vegetables. So I hide them. <BR> <BR> ANYWAY the whole point saying all that is that it was ROUGH not eating those pancakes for breakfast... Fri, 5 Nov 2010 03:11:31 EST Day 3 Near miss Today was a bit of a struggle. Maybe not as much as I was expecting, and I might have set myself up for it being rough, but it felt rough. <BR> <BR> But the truth is I almost caved. I had a meeting this evening and these meetings always have tons of yummy goodies to eat. I stuck to the meat, cheese, veggies, with some artichoke dip, and a couple smallish mushrooms stuffed with something. Sounds like a lot of stuff, but my portions were rather small. But I did not have any of the pumpkin brea... Thu, 4 Nov 2010 02:33:16 EST Day 2 Excited! Today was day 2 of my carb detox (much better word). I've decided that this is a carb detox because it was a bad addiction. <BR> <BR> I feel great today. I know it's only day two, but I feel awesome. I feel less run down, less anxious, more focused. I don't know how carbs affect my brain and what not. But I'm feeling good. <BR> <BR> I am a bit anxious to see if I'm still able to carry this through tomorrow. The day 3 is always the scariest day of quitting anything. <BR> <BR> But I feel o... Wed, 3 Nov 2010 01:05:37 EST Day 1 Success So I decided that I was going to do a 25-day carb cleanse (I use cleanse because I can't really think of another word to describe what I'm doing). Anyway, I started today. Probably one of the worse days to begin thanks to my vicious aunt flow and spending 2.5 hours in Costco waiting for my new tires to get put on my Tahoe. BTW, if you have any questions about a location of a specific item there, I can tell you. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> So since we were there over lunch, I had to feed my oh so... Tue, 2 Nov 2010 00:23:32 EST 25 day cleanse begins tomorrow I am feeling pretty much back to my regular self. Only to over indulge in candies, sweets, breads, cookies, etc. the past couple weeks. :( <BR> <BR> However, tomorrow I'm beginning my 25-day cleanse. It is my goal to cut out breads and any unnecessary sweets for 25 days, as well as take in my water, complete exercise at least 3 days a week, not sit so much, and eat healthier. I will take a picture weekly and blog daily. I think the blog will keep me on track. <BR> <BR> 25 days is because o... Mon, 1 Nov 2010 02:22:17 EST Progesterone+2.5 lb weight gain+pain=frustration Okay, yes I know that the way to lose weight is through proper eating habits and exercise. I got that memo about 14 years ago. What I didn't get was that taking progesterone for 10 days to stop my 3-week menstrual cycle would cause me to gain 2.5 lbs. The frustrating part about this is it really takes me forever to lose 1 lb, now I have re-lose 2.5 lbs. GRRRRRR!! <BR> <BR> Only 2 more months until the hysterectomy. Sat, 23 Oct 2010 19:22:14 EST Some insight on the past 7 months At 28 years old I never thought I'd be uttering the words hysterectomy as a part of my life. It seems so young to be experiencing such a process, yet here I am. <BR> <BR> In life there are moments that define a person's integrity. Not that a hysterectomy has a lot to do with my integrity. What I mean is my life is full of moments that have prepared me for this transition into a different chapter. I am convinced our lives are books being written, chapter by chapter. The past 10 years has writ... Fri, 8 Oct 2010 17:49:09 EST 9.6 lbs and I'm forever out of 200s! YIPPEEE! I cannot wait until I'm out of 200 lbs FOREVA! Tue, 7 Sep 2010 14:49:54 EST Needing motivation Today is Monday, August 23, 2010. I am 28 years old and weigh 212.5 lbs. I am unable to look in the mirror without seeing the bigger me and I am in need of motivation to get moving. I have lost weight for some reason over the past couple weeks with no effort, therefore making it even harder for me to find my motivation. I have officially 75 days left for my 29 by 29 goal. I have 19.5 lbs left to go on said goal. <BR> <BR> What is my motivation going to be? I really do love how I feel when I'... Mon, 23 Aug 2010 14:30:07 EST Back in action Wow was my summer jam packed or what!!! The past month was filled with camping, in-laws, and a trip to Las Vegas for my sister's wedding. In all that I didn't gain any weight. :) Which is a nice because I am still below the 220s. At 216/17. <BR> <BR> I realized something over this course of time, I need exercise. I need it to keep me sane. I need it to keep me healthy. I need it to keep my self-esteem up. I need it to lose weight. I need it to burn my extra energy. I need it for multiple me... Wed, 11 Aug 2010 13:25:20 EST Size 14 So I've been really good at my intervals on my treadmill. They are actually kinda fun. But then yesterday I woke up at 6 a.m. with a middle ear infection. Seeing that my balance was a tad off from being safe, I didn't do them last night. BUMMER!!! <BR> <BR> However, I woke up today and put on a size 14 pant. OMGEEZ.. Ok Ok .. it might look painted on, but the zipper zipped without stress. They are on and I'm sporting them. Now to work them to being too loose. <BR> <BR> Oh and tonight .. I'... Fri, 9 Jul 2010 20:28:43 EST 1.5 down .... 27.5 to go Ya know .. it's really hard to blog when there's so much going on around me. I'll be back later .. hold this thought. Tue, 6 Jul 2010 13:10:25 EST Needing a new goal: 29 by 29 So, in November I will turn 29. So what?!?! Right. Well let me give you a short blurp. As long as I can remember my dad has been 29 and holding. He never gets "older" as he hits his birthdays. Well this year it's my turn to be the same age as my dad. And I want to lose 29 lbs. <BR> <BR> I'm fairly confident that this is a goal I can achieve in 4 months. So here's to 29 by 29! Thu, 1 Jul 2010 23:34:07 EST 21 lbs. til under 200! It is my goal to lose 21 lbs. I figure it's going to take A LOT of hard work. And if I don't reach that goal, inches will be nice too. Toning up my abs and upper arms are going to be a major focus in this goal. I'm losing inches, but not pounds. I know that's important, but I'd like to see the scale move a tad. LOL!! <BR> <BR> I have gone from an 18 pant to 16 and an XL to L. I'm doing well. It's just taking a lot longer time than I was hoping. Time to buckle down and get with it! Sat, 22 May 2010 01:56:53 EST 3 months and counting Three months from today I'll be leaving for my sister's wedding in Las Vegas. I'm really excited about this wedding, but super anxious because I want to look good and feel good about my appearance in my bridesmaid gown. I'm super self-conscious about my arms. So I'm going to start working those out regularly. <BR> <BR> It'll be worth it for many reasons, not just the wedding. I'll be in better shape. I'll have more energy and I'll be less concerned about my appearance and more focused on my... Wed, 28 Apr 2010 14:22:44 EST 3 miles down Okay, so after my tendon injury and letting it recoup for two weeks I went walking Wednesday with a friend. It just wasn't enough. So, needless to say, when she said she wouldn't be able to go with me tonight I was a tad relieved because I wanted to jog a little. <BR> <BR> I did to the music -- jog one song, walk one song, jog one song, walk one song. This worked great. My foot didn't seem to be too bothered until I hit the last bit of my 2nd mile and WAM! Pain shot up my leg. I literally g... Sat, 24 Apr 2010 02:12:22 EST 5 more lbs gone and out of the 220s! I am beyond thrilled with my success this week even though I really haven't been eating that healthy. I totally thinks it's the water. I've been drinking more water. I injured my foot last week so I haven't been able to workout, so I've been playing more with my 24-lb son, which gives me quite the workout lifting him up and down and up and down. I've had a lot of digestional issues lately, so next Monday I'm going on a plant protien diet for two weeks to cleanse my liver, kidneys, GI tract, a... Fri, 16 Apr 2010 15:03:29 EST My Baby Turned 1 Today! Here I am 1 year later with my most handsome lil boy and still wondering what in life makes me want to change. I love my life. I have great kids, a great husband, wonderful friends and things to look forward to. But what is going to drive me to success with my weightloss? <BR> <BR> I get stuck in the ignorant bliss of pretending that my life is great, why would I need to change it? However, when I held my son this morning, my now 1 year old, I felt like I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be ... Tue, 30 Mar 2010 15:22:38 EST 30 or bust I did my workout tonight. 30 minutes of working out on the treadmill. I'm constantly changing my goals. And this time, at least this week, it's to see how far I can go in 30 minutes and go from there. <BR> <BR> Sometimes I wonder why I'm trying to do this, when I don't see the results. Others see that I'm losing, but I don't. When do you start to see the results you are working so hard for!?!? It's so disturbing at times. But I love working out. I love how I feel the next day, and I love th... Wed, 17 Mar 2010 02:47:02 EST 30 or bust I did my workout tonight. 30 minutes of working out on the treadmill. I'm constantly changing my goals. And this time, at least this week, it's to see how far I can go in 30 minutes and go from there. <BR> <BR> Sometimes I wonder why I'm trying to do this, when I don't see the results. Others see that I'm losing, but I don't. When do you start to see the results you are working so hard for!?!? It's so disturbing at times. But I love working out. I love how I feel the next day, and I love th... Wed, 17 Mar 2010 02:46:25 EST Cross Country Skiing Friday was our 5th wedding anniversary. So in celebration my husband and I ditched our kids and dog with a friend Thursday and took off to Homer, AK. (For those of you that don't know, it's really not a big trip as we live in driving distance of Homer.) So anyway, we took the 5 hour drive down, stayed in a cabin and slept in. WOW that was awesome! I don't know how long it has been since we slept in until 10 a.m. <BR> <BR> We had rented some nordic skis from REI and took off on the groomed cr... Sun, 14 Mar 2010 17:39:45 EST Feeling much like a masochist! Or however you spell that word. <BR> <BR> Do I challenge myself to see failure or success? What is the real reason I'm running? Is it to something or from something? What's my measurement of success? How do I feel when I don't succeed? Why do I continue to set goals that I'm not achieving? Do I just like to feel pain? <BR> <BR> I did my workout today, but not in the normal fashion. I simply wanted to see how far I could go in 30 minutes on my treadmill. And while I did my fastest mile the f... Wed, 10 Mar 2010 18:31:33 EST Still chuggin along I'm still stuck in the week 4 training, but I'm still working on it. Tonight I was able to accomplish 9 minutes and 20 seconds of 16 minutes of the running part. I felt pretty accomplished that I was finally able to do a solid 5 minutes. I am just getting frustrated that my brain isn't over powering my body yet. <BR> <BR> How do you convince your body that running is a mental thing? I'm still stuck at the "physical exhaustion" have to stop point. Legs get all wobbly and so I have to hop off.... Tue, 9 Mar 2010 01:51:13 EST W4D2 do-over I am redoing week 4 because I didn't really accomplish it last time I attempted it. Pretty much I gave up because that second day (today) sucked and it really damaged my confidence in the program. <BR> <BR> Again today, it was rough. I didn't complete it and my body shut down. But this time I'M NOT GIVING UP! <BR> <BR> Cheers Thu, 25 Feb 2010 00:48:19 EST Lady Gaga and Week 4 I went back to week 4 after deciding I need to mentally get back in the game. And though I was able to more easily get through the first 20 minutes of my legs literally gelled down and I couldn't run anymore. I'm going to attempt the workout again tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I found that Lady Gaga is a great workout partner. Her music is high energy and went with the flow of my run. I encouraged myself to get some music in my ears. It helps me to think less about what I'm doing and just do it. <BR> ... Tue, 23 Feb 2010 01:12:06 EST Up 3.8 lbs, Down one pant size. I've had a couple of weeks where I've been lacking in focus for my end goal. I've found it interesting still that I'm not turning to food for comfort. I'm really just not doing anything. Well I'm attempting to workout. But if your mind isn't in it, will you really see the results you desire? I think not. <BR> <BR> I think on this journey that I'm really scattered with my goals, my priorities, and my mental focus. I have had such a hard time rallying myself back to the ultimate focus; the hea... Sun, 14 Feb 2010 20:19:29 EST I did it I did workout. Not in the fashion of the C25K program, because I'm really kinda bored of it. So I did my own 26-minute blast on the treadmill. And I haven't felt sooo good after a workout in a couple weeks. It was hard too. My legs were burning, my tummy was itchy and I could feel the muscles just chugging along. THAT is the type of workouts I love. <BR> <BR> I need to feel my body burning. I need to feel the muscles pulling all their energy to working. It's not that I'm good at running. It... Thu, 11 Feb 2010 19:59:10 EST Not interested Ok. So I'm still interested in losing weight, but I've hit this uninterested road block of exercising. I thought maybe I just needed to change it up a bit, but that's not helping. I really have no desire to workout. Strange I know because I was all about it for 5 weeks, but then I hit last week and my life got super busy suddenly and then this week, just not interested. Maybe it was that break. I don't know. <BR> <BR> What do you do when you hit a road block like this? Thu, 11 Feb 2010 11:56:59 EST Week 5 day whatever I am so not into this program anymore. I get bored really easily and it doesn't feel challenging.. it feels like it's killing me. I feel more like I'm struggling to get through the workout than actually working out. I need to feel my body work. Not tire. <BR> <BR> Not sure what I'm going to do. Tue, 9 Feb 2010 18:59:37 EST Good news .. Bad news. So I've been doing the C25k training. This week is week 4 for me, but my 5th week of exercising and training. I was going to do a terrific marathon training program, however, when I saw that it was having me run 10 minutes already in week 3 I was out. So here I am. <BR> <BR> The good news: I am able to run longer than 3 minutes. How much longer? Not sure because this weeks training cuts you at 3 minutes and then makes me walk. If it didn't make me walk at that point I would've been able to c... Tue, 2 Feb 2010 00:09:41 EST Weigh-in .. I think the scale lies. Ok .. so according to my first two weights on the scale I've lost 5.6 lbs. in about the last two weeks. However, when I went to weigh myself a few minutes later the scale says I gained 7 lbs. I'm so confused. But I'm keeping the lower weight because it's a better motivator! LOL! <BR> <BR> What do you do when your scale lies 1 out of 3 times? Sun, 31 Jan 2010 14:26:11 EST Beginning of week 5 evaluation. The past 4 weeks I've been working out pretty hard and following my training program as best as I can. I lost 10 lbs right from the start and then gained back 2.2 lbs. This frustrated me to say the least. <BR> <BR> From that point on I have been unable to lose. I think this is a plateau. So I'm looking at my diet and exercise program as well as what I'm doing during my down time. I think I am going to make some major changes. <BR> <BR> 1) I need to pay more attention to what is going in my... Sat, 30 Jan 2010 17:59:40 EST Today sucked My 4 y/o daughter Kara nearly strangled herself today with her cords from her blinds. It was the most awful experience of my life. Hug your kids tighter tonight if you have any. <BR> <BR> So once my husband got home from work I breathed a sigh of relief. He then left for a meet and greet with a prospective governor of Alaska candidate. The anger fueled inside me as I fed, cleaned and bedded the kids. I mean I had just been through hell today and he leaves as soon as he gets home for a stupid... Sat, 30 Jan 2010 01:37:04 EST Shin splint and calf muscle knot Today's run will be interesting! Fri, 29 Jan 2010 14:47:47 EST Sexy legs So this morning as I was bending over to help my baby boy .. I glanced at my calves .. and though I know that the angle affected the view .. I'm not wiling to waiver that I am creating sexy legs. <BR> <BR> It makes me super confident in knowing that this summer when I wear shorts, skirts, or capris, I won't have those awful fat ankles and weird fat rolls. This workout is great. <BR> <BR> It came at the right time in my life and I've never been more dedicated. <BR> <BR> Cheers. Thu, 28 Jan 2010 13:52:37 EST Is it me ... Or did this week's workout get so rough? But next weeks is harder. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling stronger .. I think one day this week I'm going to gauge my progress with doing one day from the past couple weeks. <BR> <BR> I'm really struggling on the days I work to get my water. I need to make a better effort. <BR> <BR> Wow this blog is short. <BR> Cheers. Thu, 28 Jan 2010 01:50:54 EST Third and Final Blog for the day! Ok .. really I wasn't in the mood to workout. I wasn't going to do it. In fact I had reserved to just not do it tonight and do it tomorrow. Then a friend posted on her facebook that she just got home from the gym and felt so much better. I was like .. WHY!!! So I did the workout. And it kicked my butt! HOLY FREAKING COW!!! <BR> <BR> My legs are jello .. my shoulders are burning ... and I feel drunk from all the endorphins that run through my body while exercising. <BR> <BR> I am so glad th... Tue, 26 Jan 2010 00:49:36 EST On the up side! Even though I'm not noticing movement on the scale. I am for sure noticing it other places. While out on our date night Saturday night with friends, a friend took a picture of me and my hubby. And tho it's a bit fuzzy, I was AMAZED at how little I looked in the picture. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I was surprised and in awe. All my hard work is paying off. Mon, 25 Jan 2010 12:40:09 EST