KNLILLA's SparkPeople Blog KNLILLA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Mantra / Positive Affirmation "I am at peace with my own feelings. I am safe where I am. I create my own security and I love and approve of myself." Thu, 13 Mar 2014 14:39:19 EST Quinoa, chicken breast, salad <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Here's a pic of a lunch/dinner that tastes really good and is very healthy. Is it a big portion guys? I don't know, maybe, but it's the quantity I eat right now so I didn't want to make it smaller for the photo's sake. <BR> <BR> Cooked quinoa (this article explains how to cook it the right way, the only thing I'd like to add is that you need to season it with salt or Vegeta or green spices or anything you can ima... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 14:23:50 EST Day 0 Video Blog This is my first video blog, I'm planning on uploading quite a few in March to motivate myself and keep myself accountable! Here's for a good month!!! <BR> <BR> The link I mention in the video:<BR>ion_articles.asp?id=1940 Fri, 28 Feb 2014 18:16:30 EST AMAZING!! You guys gotta watch this video, I was hooked after 2 minutes! <BR> It's called how to live to be 100+, it's amazing!! <BR> <BR><BR>w_to_live_to_be_100 Thu, 27 Feb 2014 23:16:01 EST Check in I thought I'd check in and write a short blog just to keep my promise of blogging, even though I don't feel like having much to say! <BR> <BR> I'm still waiting for a letter from my girl Ali (yes, you!! :)) ), a good friend visited us unexpectedly and stayed the night, we talked a lot, it was great. <BR> <BR> My boyfriend is gonna stay at home for the next month, it's a long story but this is the essence of it. <BR> We'll visit friends in the middle of March for about 8 days, they live clos... Tue, 25 Feb 2014 20:08:37 EST HEADSPACE! I just wanted to let everyone know of a really cool thing that I have found a couple of (maybe 2?!) years ago, forgot about it, and now I rediscovered it and am planning on trying it again. <BR> <BR> So it's the website ! It's daily, assisted meditation! Short meditations, I think it's 10 minutes every day. And even after the 10-day trial it's 5 British pounds (8 US Dollars) a month if you sight up for a year. <BR> <BR> And I know that there's a lot of free stuff on You... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 23:09:46 EST Is it mean to be glad that your boyfriend went back to work? :) <BR> <BR> So my boyfriend took time off from his work, three weeks only, and today is the first day he went back. And my question is: is it mean of me to be kind of glad about it? :) I love him, but being at home alone right now feels so good (well, his sister is here, but she's in the other side of the house so practically I'm alone)! <BR> <BR> It's not a big deal, we didn't fight or anything, that's not why I'm glad that he's back at work, I just like being alone at home right now! <... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 15:38:21 EST Totally motivated by this right now!! And it's so true!!! <img src=""> Fri, 21 Feb 2014 16:21:06 EST 9 Luckily my overall mood has gotten much better over the past 2-3 days, so I could stick to my goals - kind of. I ALWAYS overeat! Just a little bit, I probably still end up with a calorie deficit for the day, but it's still so stupid of me that I can't control myself. <BR> <BR> BUT I don't want to beat myself up about it as long as I end up with a deficit. I don't want to pull myself down and be negative. I'm trying to stay positive and so far it's working well. <BR> <BR> But speaking of ne... Fri, 21 Feb 2014 15:54:17 EST 8 I had a pretty good day today thankfully. I have exchanged pretty long e-mails with a good friend, ALI, we talked about everything from religion to music, and it felt so good to connect with someone and encourage her but also pick myself back up in the process. Anyway, I made a list yesterday of things that I want to do today for myself. Nothing huge, mostly spiritual things. <BR> It was: <BR> - if the weather's nice go for a walk (anything from 15 minutes in the park nearby to a longer walk)... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 16:32:30 EST 7 I took a long walk, I figured I needed some clarity and thinking and just walking. I realized how very deep the roots of my problems have started in my life, and in my case it has never been only about food. i don't want to get into it, relationships, parents, heartbreaks, no one can fit their life story into one blog, and I'm not even sure I want to put it out anywhere. <BR> ANYWAY, I'm trying to be kind to myself and I'm trying to think of what would be good for me. I gave a similar advice ... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 19:45:32 EST 7 So it's safe to say that I've fallen off the wagon, so to speak, because I'm practically working against myself and my goal that I have set for myself less than a week ago. I'm just stuffing so much food inside me, I must look like a lunatic. I pity myself, I'm angry at myself, I hate the world and other people, it's crazy how things can change in two days!!!! <BR> <BR> I have this feeling of restlessness ... and laziness at the same time, is that possible together? Wed, 19 Feb 2014 16:59:41 EST 6 I had a huge argument with my boyfriend the day before yesterday, I don't really want to get into it here, but weight loss-wise I didn't do too good yesterday. Everything went well until night came and I felt like thing after the other...I made myself a second plate of oatmeal, I ate an apple, french fries with dipping, all of this AFTER tracking all the other food and realizing that I already went over my calorie goal of 1200-1500 kcal (BEFORE eating all of these foods I was at ... Fri, 14 Feb 2014 08:56:05 EST 5 It's kind of surprising for me, but I actually made it yesterday! I stayed within the calorie range that I've set to myself. Of course there was a little bit of late night snacking, but minimal. Thinking back of the plates and plates (as in more than just one!) of food that I used to have for dinner just a week ago, that's progress baby! <BR> <BR> I donated blood today, too. 430 milliliters, baby! :) It's the stupidest thing, but after giving blood I always (okay I donated three times so fa... Tue, 11 Feb 2014 18:38:15 EST 4 For the first time in a long time I did a nutrition plan for today. 1200 calories, adding protein powder to my smoothie so I take in enough protein, it's good. I haven't done this in a long time, I was surprised how easy it was. I will stick to it today, I don't think it will be hard because the foods I will eat today are filling and nutritious, I don't think I will be hungry. <BR> <BR> On a totally different note, David (my boyfriend) got a letter after a blood test that he's got mild hyper... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 08:06:01 EST Activity In the past year and a half, since we moved to Wales, I worked a job (up until a month ago) that was relatively active. I had to STOW in a big Amazon warehouse. This means that you have a huge building full of these long-long aisles that are full of shelves everywhere with billions of items from DVDs to 10 kilo dog food, and I had to put these items from my trolley that I was pushing around to the shelves. When my trolley got empty, I went to the end of the aisle and I was handed a new troll... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 20:38:23 EST Tooth I have serious problems with my teeth. I don't want to get waaaay deep into this subject, the problem is that 2 of my teeth, both on one side of my mouth, are very sensitive to hot and cold. Every time I eat, it starts hurting. Every time I go out into the cold and then come back into the warm house or go into a warm shop or store, it starts hurting. And it's not just a little bit of pain, it's full on, half-of-your-face-gets-numb type of pain. I went to a dentist who has been an immense disa... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 19:56:59 EST Hello Hello everyone! <BR> <BR> It's funny that I'm saying hello at all because my intention with this blog entry is to pick MYSELF back up, I feel like I want to write this for myself, it always gives me clarity when I write everything out of myself. <BR> So in September 2012 me and my partner moved to Wales, Great Britain from Hungary, Eastern Europe. Our hope was to find work, put some money aside, and then maybe a few years later go back home and buy a house and start our life. We found a job ... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 19:44:32 EST 9 ways to stay motivated <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I love the idea of accomplishing one thing in the morning!! It REALLY makes you have momentum and dedication on that day! Other than that, all the other steps can be done using Sparkpeople: reading about the 'future' (SP) articles, writing about our challenges (blog post), showing off your progress! Tue, 10 Sep 2013 04:22:39 EST Healthy sweet treat idea! I 'invented' this yesterday night when I wanted something sweet sooo0 badly but only had unhealthy choices in the house. So in the midst of despair :) I came up with this: <BR> <BR> Take a teaspoon (about 5 grams) of unsweetened cocoa powder, mix it with stevia and little by little add unsweetened almond milk or water (I didn't have the almond milk so I chose water and it still tasted good; you can, of course, add milk, I'm avoiding dairy but the quantity of liquid you put in is sooo little,... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 11:13:34 EST Today's workout looked like this: I had a great workout today! :) <BR> <BR> I'm still on my home vacation, so I have the time to do all of this, don't be jealous I am going back to work in a few days and I surely won't have time for 2 hours a day of workouts after that. :( <BR> <BR> So today I tried to mix it up, I tried to make it fun, I tried to burn as many calories as I could without hurting my knee (with which I have problems...), I tried to work on flexibility, and booooy did I succeed! :) <BR> <BR> My plan is to do ... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 09:22:38 EST Today I'm thankful for ... Soooo I'm starting a new "I'm thankful for..." blog, writing one positive thing daily that I am thankful for on that day! I decided to start a new one, instead of just continue with the previous one, because the last time I posted into that one was in March LAST YEAR! Yes, that is 2012! It just seemed wrong to continue a year-old blog post! :)) I can't believe how much time has passed while I didn't log in to Sparkpeople! So much good has happened in the meantime, and a little bad too but tha... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 10:24:38 EST World Humanitarian Day Add your voice on this year's World Humanitarian Day, on 19th August 2012! Join the United Nations - and Beyoncé - and help us send the biggest social media message in history!! <BR> <BR> Visit ! Fri, 17 Aug 2012 04:26:36 EST I'm thankful for... ...the peace in my present life. I know it's not even close to perfect but it's much better than before. <BR> <BR> ...the existence of the person I can proudly call my love. <BR> <BR> ...all the things my sister did for me. <BR> <BR> ...the effort my parents made to help me learn English. :) <BR> <BR> ...the beauty of spring, the nature and the sky! :) <BR> <BR> ...the awesome trainer who trains me! :) <BR> <BR> ...having opportunities in my life, for being able to use them! <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 8 Mar 2012 04:48:49 EST July calorie deficit, here I come Yupp, I'm at it again! <BR> I'm posting my calorie deficit each day, it helps me stay on track. Nuff said! <BR> <BR> MODEL <BR> <BR> July , <BR> BMR + Calories Burned = 1860 + = <BR> Calories Consumed = <BR> <BR> Calorie Deficit = <BR> <BR> ___________________________________ <BR> <BR> July 1, Friday <BR> BMR + Calories Burned = 1860 +700 = 2560 <BR> Calories Consumed = 1800 <BR> <BR> Calorie Deficit = - 760 <BR> <BR> [I felt a little hungry before going to bed, which usually makes ... Sat, 2 Jul 2011 13:23:29 EST Theraphy! :) For me, there was no big beginning. I don't remember ONE day when i decided that i need to do something to lose weight. I remember feeling a 'little big' as a child, i remember my mom telling me not to eat this or that, or too much of this or that. I remember feeling less attractive than the other girls in school. I remember looking in the mirror back then, in about 6th-7th grade and feeling that i'm relatively allright, but i wish i had thinner legs, a flat stomach and thinner arms. I consta... Tue, 21 Jun 2011 14:01:11 EST new weight New weight: 74.4 (from 75) kgs. :) <BR> <BR> Not much but makes me very happy! :) Sat, 18 Jun 2011 06:36:08 EST - I went down to 75,0 kgs last week from 75,6 kgs. I only measures higher weights than 75 since then but i'm stepping it up a little so i'm confident that i'll keep on seeing weight loss (and self-esteem gain)! :) <BR> <BR> Happy day y'all! :) Mon, 23 May 2011 14:05:12 EST reward :) I WILL do this! I WILL keep on losing weight and feel better and better about myself with each pound lost. <BR> From now on i'm rewarding myself for each kilogram lost!!! <BR> Starting with today, because i went from 76,2 to 75,6 kgs, i crossed the 76-mark, so here's my reward: shopping for something nice! <BR> Yaay! :) Sun, 17 Apr 2011 05:27:13 EST New diet regimen for hubby = easier for me too Something happened that is potentially good. But lets start at the beginning. In the past few weeks i have been lacking energy and willpower. Eating was eating (I mean i was eating a lot) and exercising was hard (i mean i didn't exercise). I decided to let go of exercise and focus on the food part (i know exercise is important but it's 80% nutrition and 20% exercise, so i decided that with the little energy that i have, i should pick the more important one sice doing both is verwhelming). Bu... Sun, 27 Mar 2011 16:22:05 EST Day 2 was stupid but kinda funny! :) So i planned my meals for 3 days - this was 3 days ago! :) <BR> <BR> Day 1 was great! I wasn't hungry and i stayed in range! <BR> <BR> Day 2 was bad. It started with me not being able to eat my breakfast+lunch (although i prepared it religiously in the morning) because i was busy (i only had my smoothie) and i ended up eating something not-so-good. This wouldnt've been a problem YET because i could've managed the rest of the day well BUT when i got home i got in a fight with my boyfriend an... Wed, 23 Mar 2011 03:09:28 EST I want results!!! I've planned my meals for monday, tuesday and wednesday just now. I skipped tomorrow (sunday) because we'll dine at a restaurant and their menu's not on the internet so i have no idea what i'll have. I'm planning on consuming 1120 kcal on those 3 days. I'll eat the same menu on all three days. I'll be traveling on thursday so that will need planning but my wednesday will be free so i'll have the time to plan. <BR> I realised that i'm basing too much on exercise and i end up not doing my exerc... Sat, 19 Mar 2011 10:53:46 EST Every day is a new start So i was off track for a few days but i measured my foods religiously today, i just introduced them to the nutrition tracker and found out that i'm a little over so although it's almost 10 o'clock i'm off to burn 500 calories! Fri, 18 Mar 2011 15:52:03 EST Tonight, you better sleep like a baby, because tomorrow... When you see the total weekly fitness minutes showing a bigger and bigger number... <BR> <BR> When you see the ticker on the weight bar moving more and more to the right... <BR> <BR> When you realise that you committed yourself to something and you're still in it after 4 days (which, for some people - like me - is plenty of time to give up 8 times...per day!...) ... <BR> <BR> That's when you feel you could cry from joy! Although it's not a big deal, right? I am aware that it's not a big ... Sun, 13 Mar 2011 17:23:09 EST Lazy warm saturdays I constantly keep on having mood swings but it's not too bad, it doesn't destroy my day or anything like that, it just makes me a little moody but i'm okay with that for now. I'm on track with my nutrition but i'm starting to feel stat working out in my home isn't gonna work for me because giving up after 15-20 minutes is very easy. However, i'm not putting the "Not working" sign on working out at home just yet. It's all a matter of willpower, right? :) <BR> I planned a 650 kcal deficit for y... Sat, 12 Mar 2011 09:06:35 EST I'm not a morning person. Or am I? I decided yesterday that I'm gonna blog each day (at least that's the plan), so here i am, excited actually to write this blog because it's only 8.30 in the morning and 3 great things have already happened. <BR> First of all i gotta start with yesterday: I was tracking some food i ate, i had no plans to check out anyone from the community, i only tracked my food. Then i noticed a cute status message posted by teeny-bikini about Denzel,! :)) Well anyways, i checked out her sparkpage... Fri, 11 Mar 2011 02:08:26 EST What's working and what isn't? It's been almost a year and a half since a very hard period in my life ended - and i'm still not fully recovered. Will i ever be? I'd like to think that i will. I know i will. But it's probably not happening by itself, i gotta work for it. And lately i didn't work for it - on the contrary: i worked against it. <BR> <BR> I used to be focused on "how much" and "by when". Now all i care about is to stay on track when it comes to weight loss. Stay on track day after day: consume 1600 kcal, burn ... Thu, 10 Mar 2011 11:08:28 EST Deficit MODEL: <BR> <BR> February , <BR> BMR + Calories Burned = 1890 + = <BR> Calories Consumed = <BR> <BR> Calorie Deficit = <BR> <BR> ********************** <BR> <BR> February 19, Saturday <BR> BMR + Calories Burned = 1890 + 615 = 2505 (burned 615 kcal with 1 hour of aerobics at home, tracked with my awesome new Polar watch) <BR> Calories Consumed = 1840 <BR> <BR> Calorie Deficit = - 655 kcal <BR> <BR> I've been away for weeks because I felt that I'm too weak to do this. Well, I'm not! In f... Sat, 19 Feb 2011 14:42:32 EST Week 3 (January 17-23) calorie deficit = - 2740 kcal!! So I had a great week last week. I ate things you wouldn't usually consider eating while on a diet, but i tracked everything and if i indulged i then compensated with the next meal being very light and low-cal but still nutritious. I discovered tofu (i know you know it too well in the States but here in Romania it's not a traditional thing so it's not sold in each deli just the bigger supermarkets). I eat it with light ham and whole wheat bread and veggies and i la la looove it! Tastes great ... Mon, 24 Jan 2011 15:20:17 EST Week 2 (January 10-16) calorie deficit = -1385 kcal! So i had a system so far in which i added up all the calorie deficits and surpluses for a WHOLE MONTH. And i just realised that it's better if i track it in weekly periods (just like my workouts) rather than in monthly periods because...if i mess up a little it pisses me off that one bad day or days messes up the whole month's number. But if i make weekly totals not monthly totals i can start each monday from zero and that works better for me...maybe some of you don't understand but this is h... Sun, 9 Jan 2011 09:24:24 EST Week 1 calorie deficit (January 3-9) = - 420 kcal This is my model that i love using for my calorie deficit and water intake tracking. <BR> Those of you who are interested in this type of tracking can calculate their BMRs here: <BR> <BR><BR>rie_calculation101.asp <BR> <BR> MODEL: <BR> <BR> January , <BR> BMR + Calories Burned = 1740 + = <BR> Calories Consumed = <BR> Cups H2O = <BR> Calorie Deficit = <BR> <BR> ********************** <BR> I didn't track my food intake on January the first because.... Mon, 3 Jan 2011 05:36:22 EST I'm down 1 kg (2.2 lbs) :) So I'm down 1 kg! :) I'm glad about it of course but I'm also surprised because in the past few days I overate. It was mostly because of stress. I have this thing that when I'm stressed eating a bigger amount of food (foods like pizza, pasta, meats, etc) calms me....BUT now that I have an extra weight of 50 lbs (only 48 now :D) it actually worsens my mood because I get more stressed 'cause I sabotaged my weight loss. So it's a vicious circle. <BR> What I did well in the past few days was not ... Sat, 18 Dec 2010 02:54:36 EST - So i had 3 bad days in a row... i got back to almost NO kcal deficit for this month and of course it makes me angry and kinda like to wanna cry. Stupid food. Stupid me. No i know i can't say this. I'm smart and able to make this...but I sooo wanna see a smaller number on the scale. I've never been this heavy IN MY LIFE. EVER!!! I wanna feel that i accomplished something. Losing the first pounds should be easy. I HATE that i think too much of food. I feel a little obsessed about it. I start f... Thu, 16 Dec 2010 17:01:33 EST December calorie deficit MODEL: <BR> <BR> December , 2010 <BR> BMR + Calories Burned = 1740 + = <BR> Calories Consumed = <BR> Calorie Deficit = <BR> <BR> ********************** <BR> <BR> I plan to have a daily deficit of 700 kcal when i go to aerobics class (this means i'll consume 1600 kcal) and a deficit of 540 when i don't (consuming 1200 kcal). <BR> <BR> December 11, 2010 - Saturday <BR> BMR + Calories Burned = 1740 + 560= 2300 <BR> Calories Consumed = 1825 <BR> Calorie Deficit = -475 <BR> <BR> December 12 ,... Mon, 13 Dec 2010 19:28:21 EST This was my "introduction text" This was my "introduction text" on my Sparkpage at the beginning of 2010. I had big goals and i didn't work for them hard enough - i didn't reach them. I'll make 2011 different: less goals, one to be specific (ACHIEVE 126 LBS!), more work put in. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> I'm Lilla, 23 years old. My journey with weight (loss) has been a long one, just like for the most of you guys. Ups and downs (literally), that feeling called 'I hate myself' and more. <BR> <BR> I'm 5' 4'' tall, sometim... Sat, 11 Dec 2010 08:58:16 EST Great morning, great goals I set the alarm last night to 9.00 for this morning, to go to aerobics class to 10. When it rang to wake me up I immediately hit snooze, then again...and again. I didn't want to go. But my sweetie woke up and he started waking me up gently, with kisses, hugs and a backrub :),so i woke up, and after 30 minutes of morning rituals and prepping off i went to the gym. Man it felt so good afterwards...I did well on the aerobics class, I was strong and fit in those 60 minutes, maybe stronger than du... Sat, 11 Dec 2010 08:38:33 EST Yeah... Although I decided to track my food in this month...i didn't start that yet. Everything was hectic, i even had a small car accident, my honey takes the exam for his driver's license tomorrow and i'm trying to learn with him as much as i can... <BR> I did eat less today until a little too much sweets tonight but that's a start too... <BR> I NEED to stop being negative, i need to stop hating myself, i need to TRY every day - if i'd succeed only half of the time that would be good for a start - ... Thu, 9 Dec 2010 14:43:28 EST December calorie deficit = -995 kcal so far I decided to start tracking my food again. It won't be simple because my daily schedule is hectic but I will try my best. I hve to plan meals - and most importantly - stick to the plan!!!! <BR> My BMR is 1740. I go to aerobics classes 5 times a week and I'm gonna track those too but I'm not sure which type of exercise to choose. The tracker has general aerobics: both low and high impact, and step aerobics, also low and high impact. I go to a class that does step too but not 100% of the time..... Mon, 29 Nov 2010 14:59:26 EST I feel it! Hi everyone! Since the last time I wrote - 2 weeks ago - I had one rough week and one good week. The rough one was the first in line, i only went to aerobics class once, on monday, instead of the 5 times i planned. And i didn't do anything good on the nutrition field either. This past week was much better though, i went to the aerobics class the whole 5 times. I've got trouble eating less though. If i get hungry i eat, sometimes even when i'm not completely hungry too, i don't plan meals, i d... Sun, 21 Nov 2010 07:59:33 EST Blog #2 Hello everyone! <BR> I wrote a blog entry 2 weeks ago after I decided that I'm gonna post blog entries on SP again more regularly. Although I want to write more often than 2 weeks I just didn't have enough time and when I had I forgot about it. <BR> SO. <BR> I can confidently say now that I've been going to my aerobics class regularly. We do one hour of simple or step aerobics and it's really intensive, I sweat a lot and my muscles are sometimes sore but I already feel that I can do more with... Sun, 7 Nov 2010 02:08:19 EST