KNAPSPLASH's SparkPeople Blog KNAPSPLASH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Help! I need somebody... I think the Beatles said it best right? More on that later.... <BR> <BR> Anyway, here I am!!! Lots has happened since my last blog! Hmm, let's see...I did my final triathlon for the was a shorter one and I'm not sure how I placed but it was a beautiful day and I felt GREAT! The swim was in a lake, that wasn't cold, so I was able to forgo the wet-suit and the accompanying difficult removal, making for a very quick transition. I had been doing a lot of interval training on my ... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 20:12:34 EST The Text from Hell Yesterday I received a text message that sent my head into a spin and started my heart palpitating. It read: <BR> <BR> “What are they paying you? I want you to run {Anonymous business}”. <BR> <BR> It was from one of the area managers of the company I used to work for; let’s call him Joe. The very same company that had me toiling away for up to 12 hours a day, missing time with friends and family, getting fatter and sicker yet paying me great money. I’m choosing not to mention the name o... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 20:45:10 EST Stuff is Fun Again That is a terribly vague title for a blog but it very much sums up how I feel right now. <BR> <BR> Last night my husband and I were watching TV after a busy day of work, doggies, bike rides and making dinner. I found myself flipping through channels, "boring, dumb, booorrrring, blech". I stopped and muted the TV. <BR> <BR> "TV sucks," I said to my husband. <BR> "Yup, it's all crap," he replied. <BR> <BR> (DISCLAIMER: I cannot say that ALL TV sucks...I have a couple particular programs... Thu, 29 Jan 2015 21:54:45 EST My Second Olympic Distance Triathlon **Warning, this is another long one** <BR> <BR> Timaru, New Zealand <BR> January 25, 2015 <BR> <BR> Friend: "Timaru, eh? Isn't it quite hilly there?" <BR> Me: "I don't think so, why do you say that?" <BR> Friend: "I just don't think Timaru is as flat as Christchurch or Ashburton" <BR> Me: "Oh it can't be that bad, it's a triathlon, the courses have to be flat, right?" <BR> <BR> Oh how wrong I was. <BR> <BR> Timaru is a town on Eastern Coast of New Zealand just over two hours south of ... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 23:08:50 EST My First Olympic Distance Triathlon Ashburton, New Zealand <BR> December 20, 2014 <BR> <BR> I wanted to document this experience for a number of reasons. I hope to one day look back on this and think of how far I have come. I also want others to believe in themselves and realize that anything is possible. <BR> <BR> If you've read my previous blog "The Life you Envisioned for Yourself" you would have seen that I decided to enter this triathlon with only 6 weeks to train, when I was in the worst shape of my entire life. Need... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 19:11:18 EST Is Happiness Worth $80,000? No. <BR> <BR> It's worth more. <BR> <BR> $80,000 is the cut in pay that I took to leave my old job and end the cycle of madness that I had subjected myself to for nearly 6 years. Was it worth it? Yup. Would it be worth more? Yup. Happiness is priceless, don't let anyone ever tell you otherwise. <BR> <BR> Money for me was a funny thing. When I started in the "adult workforce" my goal was to progress to a point where I was earning big bucks--at least 6-figures. It wasn't until I h... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 22:48:22 EST The Life You Envisioned for Yourself ***Note: This is a long blog but I really hope that you take the time to read the whole thing. I promise it's worth it.*** <BR> <BR> A lot has happened over the last few years, which probably explains why I have been absent. Not just absent from Spark People, but absent from my life. I suppose the biggest shift came in October of 2014, but I'm getting ahead of myself. <BR> <BR> In September of 2013 I took on a new role at my company. At the time it seemed like an awesome idea: "Hell ye... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 22:15:43 EST 69 and feeling fine Weighed in at 69 twice this week! Really pleased about it. Ate some fish and chips last night (tasted awful, that won't happen again for probably another year if ever) and some cookies today (didn't taste awful by I made them)...mainly for my father in law for helping us renovate our home but of course I had some too. More than necessary but I still tracked to stay accountable. I ran well today....faster pace than normal and clothes are still loosening up more and more. Next step is to to... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 06:16:31 EST Just checking in Just a wee blog to say "hi" to everyone and check in. It's been a couple of weeks since I last wrote/checked in and it's been a bit busy. I've stagnated a bit but knowingly. I feel a bit ick right now as I ate a BUNCH of mac n cheese just now and it's sitting heavy in my tummy. <BR> <BR> Things have been good, I haven't lost weight and I haven't really gained. Had a big weekend and didn't rack like crazy nor did I eat like crazy either. I guess you could say that I was eating normally I... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 05:50:14 EST Sick but tomorrow back to it. I've spent the last three days sick. Not working out. But I feel as though today it's starting to come right so tomorrow back on the horse. Eating hasn't been awful nor amazing...I've paid attention to my food as opposed to saying "we'll I'm sick I'm just going to eat whatever I want" because that's a slippery slope. <BR> <BR> So instead I'm going to tighten things up a bit, be a bit more strict until I get to my goal and then I should actually be able to live a similar lifestyle to, we... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 07:06:46 EST Days are getting harder, why??? So the last week or so has been tough. Real tough. Like really, really, really tough. Just trying to emphasize that. I went over my calories today because for the first time since I re-started back in April I actually felt, well, a little defeated to be honest. <BR> <BR> This is how I've felt the last week or so: <BR> <BR> I feel hungry and tired ALL THE TIME. This happened last time around at this point in my sparkpeople effort and people suggested I wasn't eating enough or I was wor... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 06:15:30 EST 10 French fries made me feel sick... I ate about ten French fries at a work function tonight and felt ill afterwards. Not sure why as I still treat myself to rich foods every now and again (mainly ice cream though). Maybe it was the grease? Anyway it wasn't nice. And the same thing happened after that "amazing" meal I blogged about last week. Was great at first but then that night and the next day I felt so ill. Heartburn, bloated and almost like I had a weird food hangover. I hadn't even overeaten. <BR> <BR> Maybe this ... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 06:20:32 EST I ate what I wanted at dinner tonight.... ....and it was great! Well, that's a bit of a strange statement. I eat what I want most every night but tonight was different. We went out to dinner and I had one of my favorite meals. I came home and tracked it (estimated it is more like it) and while I was shocked to see how many calories was in said meal (the same amount that is in my normal daily intake!) I also didn't feel guilty. I went to this restaurant, which we haven't been to in a very long time, and I intended to have a great... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 05:46:03 EST Week 4/5---Scale you're going the wrong way!!! :-P As I was away in Week 4, I'm really blogging about 5. Not great. Put a kg back on so was a bit bummed about that. My first week of not losing weight. <em>28</em> But it's motivated me to refocus. As per previous blogs there were stumbles along the way last week. So my goal is to just keep truckin'. I'm really making up for any missteps I had while away and I keep thinking, if I hadn't been so good in Hong Kong it could have been MUCH worse! <BR> <BR> After running some errands th... Fri, 31 May 2013 17:46:41 EST Really pleased This won't be a long entry. Just a journaling of sorts. I just needed to put in writing that I feel I have made huge progress with my self-control. As those of you who have been following me on here know I just returned from a trip away. Now while I wasn't perfect on my trip I wasn't dreadful either by thinking the old thought "what the heck I'm on holiday, I'll eat what a want." What used to follow that old behavior would be 2-3 days or even weeks of "getting back into it". I'm pleased... Thu, 30 May 2013 06:51:45 EST Hong Kong report card Well I'm sitting here in Hong Kong airport ready to come home. I've just had a skinny latte from Starbucks and I'm contemplating the last six days. If I were to rate my success here in HK in terms of a school report card I think I would give myself about 75%. Here is why: <BR> <BR> Day 1: The day that we left/arrived I ate very well. I tracked that full day and while I did go over my daily limit for losing weight I stayed within my limit for maintaining. I also used this day as a rest d... Sun, 26 May 2013 06:41:55 EST Week 3, Another kg and some hairy situations Yay! I lost another kg and am almost to my "first goal" weight of 71kg. Only 2 more kg to go before I get there and then onto goal number 2 which will be 65kg. <BR> <BR> Things were pretty good spark-wise this week. It's getting easier to work out, I don't feel as though I NEED to anymore but that I WANT to which is awesome. Eating has been pretty good though I've gone over my calories about 10 or 30 cals a few times, I've also gone over my exercise though on those days as well so it b... Sat, 18 May 2013 05:30:52 EST Moving from New Zealand to America---advice??? I've been here in New Zealand for nearly 8 years. Long story short I left America when I was 22 to come here for a year, met a New Zealander, fell in love, got married and now will ring in 30 years old here in good ol' kiwi-land. My husband and I are planning to move back to America though in the next year or so and I need some advice, some thoughts, anything because I am terrified. <BR> <BR> We have a pretty comfy little life here. Good jobs, nice home, the country has a public health ca... Mon, 13 May 2013 05:59:15 EST Week 2 over and Done So week 2 was another success! I've managed to not only hold the 4 kg weight loss from week 1 but to drop another full kg! I'm very happy about that and already my clothes are feeling bigger on me. Such a great feeling to be on my way. A few things though have been running through my brain today though which have me a little concerned and I'd love some feedback if anyone out there feels they want to give it. <BR> <BR> First of all, today, all day, was really tough. I felt tired, oh so t... Sat, 11 May 2013 05:45:14 EST Successful Night out with Work Every month my work hosts a "buzz night" which is a get-together of all of the employees from all of the stores in our area. This can be anywhere from 50-80 people depending on who is on leave, sick, working that day, etc. It's part awards ceremony, part catch up and part boozey party. For myself and nearly anyone in my company who is trying to lose weight these are some of the hardest nights to get through. All you can drink and all you can eat after a busy day is hard to resist. But t... Wed, 8 May 2013 05:58:00 EST Holding strong after week 1 I know it's only been a week and I could look at it like that, but I'd rather look at it like this: It has been a WHOLE week and I've done it! I've stayed within my calories, worked out the right amount (if not a little more) and planned for every single day to ensure success. And I had success. On April 27th I weighed myself in at 79kg, my heaviest ever. A week in on the 4th of May I weighed in at 75kg. A bit surprising to lose 4kg in a week and I reckon I may not have a big loss this ... Sun, 5 May 2013 05:22:05 EST March 2010 best month ever? Arguably it was. Work, although demanding and difficult proved incredibly rewarding. Our shop had the highest transfer month ever in the history of the store, I had my highest transfer month personally and the highest anyone at the store has ever had as an individual. I reached my main targets and have earned a spot on the plane to Las Vegas in July for our global ball. I ran a 12km road race in 1:15 and to top it all off I got engaged to my best friend and love of my life on Monday. The... Wed, 31 Mar 2010 14:41:23 EST Work is getting busy and i am struggling so so much. have not missed work outs. in fact i did 12km the other day (75 minutes)! so it's really good...but the thing is my eating has not been that good. i have been having to stay late, going to training sessions, etc etc. I am just worried that i won't be able to get control of things. I am so tired from working such long hours and i know that the healthier eating I do the better I will be but it takes time and hard work to prep meals and sometime i get home s... Wed, 27 Jan 2010 03:58:04 EST Fallen off the wagon OK, so life got a bit busy and I am making excuses again. Not the best past few days and i need a bit of inspiration. I am still working out like a fiend, training hard and regularly. However, my eating has been lacking. I have no excuses that are worth making. For instance, I haven't tracked in a couple of days because I knew that it would take a very long time to actually track things...I've eaten out twice this week and even though I tried to stay "healthy" wound up having dessert. I... Tue, 19 Jan 2010 02:57:01 EST Away for the week Hey all, <BR> <BR> I have been a bit absent as I've been away to Auckland for work this week. I"ve been doing ok. Eating ok...had two pieces of pizza and some gelato tonight and i haven't really been tracking. i don't have comp access up here for more than ten minutes because our work doesn't want us screwing around on computers. anyway, the good news is that yesterday i ran 10k on the treadmill...a full hour. and today i ran for 20 minutes and biked for 20. so even though my eating wa... Thu, 14 Jan 2010 03:03:00 EST Getting a bit tired So it's been just around ten days since I really started going hard with the proper eating and proper exercise. Before the new year hit i was working out regularly, but not eating really well (in fact not well at ALL). and now that i've begun tracking and working hard to keep my cals within range, it is getting a little bit harder. for instance, i was soooo tired today at the gym and whether it's because i have been working out really hard or life has just been a bit tiring lately but man i... Sat, 9 Jan 2010 04:51:12 EST Marshmallows make a little too much Ooops, went over my cals by a bit today. Ate lots of fruit and veggies but I can see where I could afford to cut some things. I'm going to remember that the little things add up...which is what happened today. I've been on a weird marshmallow kick for the past two days and even though they are light and fluffy and i only had ten there was about 200 or so cals in them. so had i not had them, i would have been within my calorie range. lesson learned! <BR> <BR> other than that, great day... Thu, 7 Jan 2010 02:33:31 EST Treading with caution So today was again another good day for the calorie intake. I've tracked everything, but there is something that makes this day even a bit better. It was my first day back to work and I ate soooo well. Like I've said before, I work in an industry which doesn't exactly promote health. They promote drinking and eating to celebrate achievements. Boxes of chocolate or cookies, cake and lots of alcohol to say "well done". Well, I'm glad to be making a change to that for myself at least and h... Mon, 4 Jan 2010 02:05:16 EST Mid-Work Blog Just at work on my lunch break gang and doing well so far. I feel inspired and not even tempted today. Keeping strong!!!! :-) Sun, 3 Jan 2010 18:45:50 EST Avatar Incredible movie...everyone NEEDS to see this, in 3D if possible. <BR> <BR> On the downside I went over my cal intake by 300 by eating crap at the movies. That means that not only I went over my cal intake bc of crap, but most of my daily nutrition came from movie crap...which means there really wasn't any nutrition. So while that is bad, I'm trying to take the good. What could be good about making such poor eating choices: <BR> <BR> 1) I feel ill....which hasn't happened recently due ... Sun, 3 Jan 2010 04:30:57 EST Nervous about tomorrow I went to the gym this morning and did an hour of good, hard cardio. I just finished eating my tasty breakfast of blueberry pancakes and pineapple. And yes, I tracked it all. I've got a few things to do today and then Craig and I are off to see Avatar...apparently it's supposed to be good. <BR> <BR> Despite all the positives I've had in the past three days I have to say I am very very nervous about tomorrow when I go back to work. I've had a long weekend (three days off) and when I go ... Sat, 2 Jan 2010 18:15:17 EST Berries! I used to pick blueberries with my mom and dad back home in upstate New York and I haven't done it in ages. Then I saw on the news that a lot of people in NZ were going back to picking their own berries because it was cheaper and they would then have berries in winter (our food is so seasonal down here). So I figured "why not". We picked nearly 5kg of blueberries and another 4kg of strawberries. Enough to last us through some of the winter. I plan to either freeze a lot of these or go ba... Sat, 2 Jan 2010 00:24:29 EST New Year Went running with the man, 70 minutes of 10 minute intervals...on/off run/walk. 40 minutes ended up being running, 30 minutes of walking. not too shabby. Gym for a lift and swim tomorrow, Sunday either a ride or another swim. Eating is ok, a bit heavy so far on the treats and things that push the calories up too quickly (ie avocado and mayo) but I've tracked everything and am conscious of what I've eaten and can eat the rest of the day. 2010 is going to be a good year. I'm going to thri... Thu, 31 Dec 2009 21:20:26 EST Update Ok pretty good start so far. didn't stuff myself last night. did eat a bit more than i should have but baby steps as i said before. the one thing that was bad was that i ate a wee little mint brownie type thing when i ended up working a bit late. i knew i shouldn't have done it but i did and i know when i am vulnerable to that kind of stuff. <BR> <BR> this morning have started with eggs and toast and some canned pears. a bit more calories than i should have started the day with but since... Fri, 9 Oct 2009 16:44:27 EST 26 years old and needing change ohhh LORD i have let myself go. I don't even know if my spark friends are still on this website...but this is probably the third or fourth post over the past year where i've gone "blah blah blah i'm back and need to get my butt in gear" well it doesn't seem as though i have gotten into much of a gear...unless it's reverse. ugh. <BR> <BR> so let's update: <BR> <BR> new job that isn't really new now...i got it in March...but it still feels new everyday because new challenges arise allll ... Thu, 8 Oct 2009 04:11:01 EST Good day yesterday was awesome. i don't have much time to write as i am off to work but i did really well. went for a half hour walk at lunch instead of just sitting on my butt. then went to the gym after work and came home and had a healthy dinner. i did have some shortbread cookies and tea after but it was wayyyy better than usual. small steps. celebrate the little victories until we win the war!! <BR> <BR> today will be just as good i know it. Tue, 26 May 2009 16:04:53 EST Not the best day, not the worst either As you have all told me, small steps are key. So first of all, thank you all for your support and letting me know that it's ok to be back and to still looking to you for that continued support. I trust you all know you can do the same with me. <BR> <BR> Small steps began really well today and tapered off to "not the best" towards the evening. I had a great morning, healthy lunch, slightly less healthy dinner (with a little too much cheese) and then three snacks before bed (frozen yogurt, ... Sun, 24 May 2009 07:43:47 EST How do you get back into it? So it has been a while...another long long while. And I feel guilty. I don't even feel like I"m worthy of using this website anymore. I feel like a bit of a failure in that I got down to such a great weight and place with my body and have lost it...going back to old habits and gaining weight again. i'm disappointed and embarrassed. So what is the solution? How do I recapture the passion and motivation I once had for my body and health. I've been through a lot this year. A break up wit... Fri, 22 May 2009 02:34:55 EST Minestrone I LOVE Minestrone. Honestly, I think it is my saving grace when it comes to "topping off" my evenings. As most of you have noticed I have issues with eating at night. Tonight was no different. I had eaten really well all day, have worked out, etc etc and still had 200 calories left in my calorie bank. I knew that if I started to eat "crap" ie low fat ice cream (that my flatmate and I call chemical ice cream because it tastes so horrible) or a piece of toast and jam I was going to just kee... Thu, 6 Nov 2008 02:27:49 EST am i eating enough? Oh my GOD i have had a spastic week! haha. it's all ok though. but my body took a firm stand last week and said "NO!" i was exhausted and i'm not sure i was eating enough. i listened to my body and took a couple of days off, got some better sleep which helped immensely. and then i ate a bit more...and then a bit more...and oops i think i ate a bit too much. i'm still toying with the scale between too much and not enough. i've also been a bit concerned after reading a post from a fellow... Mon, 3 Nov 2008 02:46:35 EST Still here I had a great day of eating today. I was well within my calorie count, knew I was going to meet a friend for a beer this evening so I made sure to budget for it during the day. I went for a fantastic run (hauled butt to be honest) and am trying to stay focused. It's good because I haven't been the best this week. Went over a little last night and a little the night before. Probably maintained but didn't lose. I have my next assessment with my trainer tomorrow morning..i know i have lost... Thu, 23 Oct 2008 04:36:37 EST A bit of a setback Oh man I was so bad tonight. I really need to get back into tracking every single thing I eat. i also think I need more variety as i am getting very bored very quickly with my meals. Will have to be better. May have a sleep in or may get up to work out tomorrow but since I've not had a sleep in in weeks, nor have I had a very good sleep in weeks (many nightmares) I'll see how I feel tomorrow. Anyway, the point is that I'm just not doing my absolute best for whatever reason. I need to ge... Sat, 18 Oct 2008 05:25:18 EST "Serious Error in Judgement..." ...Was the phrase that kept going through my mind as I ran up Rapaki Mountain Bike Track. For those of you not familiar with NZ and Christchurch in general, there is a trail called Rapaki. It is a four wheel drive track, not very narrow, but can get pretty steep and very rocky in places. Anyway I ran yesterday...up it. And I ran at 3pm. Big mistake. It was probably the hottest day we've had so far since spring began. What was my big error? I didn't feel the need to wear my hydrapack. ... Wed, 15 Oct 2008 01:08:19 EST I am back (hopefully for good this time) I am slack. Yes I have to admit it and then move on. There, done. <BR> <BR> I have been making excuses and NOT doing anything that I need to do in order to be healthy, let alone stay trim. Here are some stories of my horrible habits over the past few months. <BR> <BR> As I think I said in previous blog entries, everything turned to custard when I went home to the US. Upon returning to New Zealand, I was up and down (still working out regularly) but things went bad. My trainer went aw... Sun, 12 Oct 2008 03:30:40 EST Realistic Goals I am thinking that I need to be more realistic. Not that I can't get down to 58 kilos...or 128 pounds, but I think my body won't be too happy there. And I think it will be really hard to maintain that. Instead, 132 sounds more realistic for now. Something achievable and closer to reach for. I've never even been 60 kilos, so 58 seems a bit of a stretch. That being said I've changed my goal to 132 pounds. I have been up and down with my eating...yesterday being a shocker of a day. I kno... Thu, 7 Aug 2008 20:45:29 EST Keeping it going So I said i would blog about what my day ended up being like yesterday. I didn't go to the gym for reasons completely out of my ex had the car which had a bunch of files i needed for a business meeting that i was going to directly after the gym, so i had to go get the car from him by biking back into town. I decided, since I was meant to be at the gym doing a leg workout, to take the really really long way around to get back to town. So in total I ended up biking for an hour y... Mon, 4 Aug 2008 18:39:37 EST Small Successes Yesterday went really well and I'll tell you why. I stayed in my calorie range AND did a 35 minute run even though I had a splitting headache and really did not want to workout. I got home, had a healthy dinner and really wanted a small ice cream sundae (my healthy one) but unfortunately it was not in my calorie range for the day. So I passed and had a piece of gum instead. Which is great. Got 8 hours of sleep as I desperately needed it and today has been equally successful. I had a heal... Sun, 3 Aug 2008 20:18:02 EST Positive I'm trying to take the good from the bad, the positive from the negative. Last night I hung out with friends. They bought a bag of chips, i had a bag of low fat popcorn. it was a good step. i'm been really demotiaved to go to the gym. so instead i rode the long way to work making a 15 minute bike ride a 25 minute bike ride, two ways that's 50 minutes! which is better than nothing. craig is moving out really tomorrow, so i am struggling with it a bit. kind of sad, get going... Fri, 1 Aug 2008 22:15:09 EST trying I am really struggling here and I have some thoughts as to why but I'm not sure if they are the true case or not. Obviously my main thought is this break-up with my boyfriend. He moves out in a couple of days and as the time grows nearer I feel as though i lose motivation to do anything resembling exercise. i made the decision about a week and a half ago and we have still been living together and it has been so hard. I'm really scared though that my lack of motivation is not the break-up.... Thu, 31 Jul 2008 16:42:27 EST Doing well So I weighed myself this morning and I'm down to 63.7 kg which is around 140 pounds. Not bad considering i haven't been super strict but I Have been working hard with the exercise. I am glad to see the scale start moving and I went back through my mind and tried to remember all the things i used to do to help me lose weight and stay on track. And now thinking about them i think "duh why didn't i remember to do THAT?" for instance, eating my tuna in a pita instead of between two slices of ... Thu, 31 Jul 2008 00:46:38 EST