KMRJPR's SparkPeople Blog KMRJPR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Day 1 As part of my plan for 2017, I want to get back to journaling. I have this book called Better Each Day And it has a life lesson for each day of the week. My plan is to read this each day and journal about it. I may not always journal or blog here....but my plan is to actually use one of my many blank journals I have. I collect journals. But then don't wamt to use them because they're too pretty. Well...I want to start using them. I have a lot of things to work through, feelings, thoughts, ... Sun, 1 Jan 2017 23:13:21 EST Entered in 2 half marathons So I decided to do something radical. I entered in two (2) half-marathons. One for the ASPCA and one for Alzheimer's. <BR> <BR> Both are causes near to me as I'm an avid animal lover and protector. I've tried to save every stray I've ever seen. But more importantly, the act of animal cruelty or neglect makes me sick. I'm not on a moral high ground or lecturing or trying to make anyone feel badly. It's just how I feel. Animals cannot help themselves, it's up to us to help them, care fo... Wed, 22 Jul 2015 12:40:48 EST Wonderful weekend! Wonderful Cause! This past weekend, here in Los Angeles, was a ride to benefit our fallen officers. It's called the 10-33 ride. The funds raised go to the families of those officers who have lost their lives in the line of duty. <BR> <BR> There were over 3000 bikes and we had full police escort as we rode through LA, Long Beach, Hawthorne. Riding in a group of that size requires tremendous coordination. I thank the officers who gave us the security of the escort. <BR> <BR> Most importantly, I thank th... Mon, 11 May 2015 16:36:01 EST Dealing with the hard stuff When writing my last blog, I mentioned getting help to learn how to deal with some of the things that have and are keeping me overweight. I also want and need help dealing with stress. <BR> <BR> Well, I've started that journey and oh my is it hard. Why is it at 46, I've never dealt with these things and feelings before? What have I been waiting for? <BR> <BR> It's not resolved or fixed by any stretch of the imagination, but my mind is open now to think about the hard things. The thing... Sun, 8 Mar 2015 21:09:45 EST Challenges and Stress and Strange Source of Motivation This past week has been incredibly difficult for me. There's been an overwhelming amount of stress and anxiety and depression. It culminated in really poor choices and has led to gaining back the 2lbs I just lost. <BR> <BR> As a former or recovered (so to speak) emotional eater, I found myself not caring about anything and just ate junk. I realized at that point, once an emotional eater--always an emotional eater. I knew after I finished eating the junk and felt sick what had happened.... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 12:15:22 EST Knowledge is power So I've been talking about revamping my program/routine for months, have I done it yet? Not completely. But I'm much more inspired and aware and willing to really put in the work now than I've been in a while. <BR> <BR> Have I worked as hard at this as I should? Sometimes yes, sometimes no. Have I seen the results I want? No--not yet. <BR> <BR> What am I doing about it? Re-reading books, SP articles, listening to books on audiobooks, etc. I'm relearning things. Clearly what I've do... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 20:54:23 EST Inspired, motivated and moved I just watched the most amazing video. These things happen to me when it seems like I need to hear the message. I dare you to watch this video and not be moved or inspired: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ark-videos-detail.asp?video=32 </link> <BR> <BR> I have some chronic pain issues and sometimes it flares up making it really difficult and painful to work out. however, I realize that I also use this as an EXCUSE to not work out far too often. Arthritic pain... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 17:28:25 EST Time for changes Can you believe it's almost Thanksgiving!?! The holidays are officially upon us. Where did the year go? <BR> <BR> Once again, it's time for me to reevaluate my progress and make some changes. <BR> <BR> One thing I definitely know, I do not work out as hard or as often as I want/should. I say should because I read an article that said to lose weight I should be working out to the tune of 300 minutes, minimum, per week. I do about half that right now. It's more when I'm attending pilate... Wed, 12 Nov 2014 22:50:00 EST Time has flown by I can't believe it's fall already. Time has just flown by lately. As usual for me this time of year is extremely busy with work. One thing I'm doing differently--I REFUSE to not be a priority. The only way I can keep up with work and all the other responsibilities is to carve out time for me. <BR> <BR> I've been attending pilates classes at least 2 times per week for the last 2 months. Sometimes these are regular pilates classes and sometimes they are Lagree pilates, which is a higher p... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 15:16:20 EST Recovering yet again 2 weeks ago, I underwent an extraction of the tooth that has been problematic for the past year. I underwent a complex root canal and had a cap placed after a complex cleaning, several rounds of antibiotics for an infection at the root level that had also entered the bone. All of these treatments failed and during the complex cleaning (use of laser treatment included), my cap came off. This was a permanent cap, so it wasn't supposed to do that. After more x-rays and much discussion, it ap... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 15:07:59 EST why? Last June, I had a severely infected tooth, underwent a root canal, months of antibiotics and a crown. Six months later the infection came back. I underwent another dental procedure to help....sadly I found out two weeks ago, there's another abscess forming at the roots. We now gave to pull the tooth, clean the pocket and undergo bone morsel implants in preparation for an eventual dental implant. <BR> <BR> Why does it seem like every time I make progress on anything, something happens and ... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 23:05:27 EST Gearing up....again Two weeks ago, I came down with a cold. After it progressed to a cough and possible respiratory involvement, I went to the doc. He indicated I had a bad virus. Not much for me to do other than rest, drink lots of water, rest, rest, rest and eliminate as much stress as possible. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> In my head, I said all of this to my doctor. <BR> <BR> What I actually said was, how? How do I not stress out? I'm the primary bre... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 19:48:50 EST Mindfulness This week, I'm focusing on mindfulness. Being mindful of what I eat, how much I eat, how I feel when I eat. If I'm eating without being hungry and why. <BR> <BR> What I have learned recently, or perhaps have always known, is that I eat too fast. Studies show those who eat faster consume nearly twice the calories of those who eat more slowly. Hence, the reason for focusing on mindfulness. <BR> <BR> I frequently eat while working, which means, I eat in front of a computer. I know this ... Sun, 18 May 2014 20:06:45 EST scary night My DH had a close call last night. While riding to meet some friends for dinner he was rear-ended. He was on his Harley at a stop sign when the woman behind him failed to stop. He flew off the bike and landed on his bike. His bike flew in another direction, the side bags came off and are damaged beyond repair, the seat flew in another direction and is torn up. My DH is, thanks God, ok. Bruised, sore but ok. God certainly watched over him. <BR> <BR> What a stressful night for our famil... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 22:32:02 EST Weekend left me exhausted My husband and I love to ride our Harley. And this past weekend was a beautiful weekend! <em>537</em> (ok so this isn't a Harley--but it is a motorcycle, lol). <BR> <BR> A friend invited us for a short ride down to Long Beach to watch the Grand Prix on Sunday!!! <em>226</em> This was an absolutely amazing day! So much fun to watch all the cars and trucks racing! <BR> <BR> It involved more walking than I believe we've done all year (kidding...sort of) <em>342</em> . We walked... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 17:03:16 EST Visit with family now over Had a nice visit with my sister. An unplanned visit but still nice. Enjoyed a few days with her. Sad to see her leave, but glad to get back to my routine and SP. <BR> <BR> Enjoying a rainy evening. <BR> <BR> <em>521</em> <em>27</em> <BR> <BR> Wanted to share a great article I read tonight too! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>-lose-20-pounds.aspx?pos=1&xid=nl_Ever<BR>ydayHealthWomensHealth_20140326 </link> Wed, 26 Mar 2014 23:41:28 EST Happy St. Patrick's Day <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today I made my first ever corned beef and cabbage. Normally family members would cook or we'd go out to eat. When I lived in PA and was closer to my extended family, my Gram would cook. Boy could that woman cook. So glad I spent so much time with her learning all her recipes. <BR> <BR> Gram's birthday is today--she would be 93 (possibly 94--we stopped counting 70 years ago lol). She was a wonderful woman. S... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 23:30:33 EST Contract for Success I just read a great article on accountability. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ion_articles.asp?id=748 </link> <BR> <BR> Spurred into reading articles and various posts by others, I stumbled across this particular article and just love it! <BR> <BR> I decided at the beginning of my journey that I was going to be brutally honest with myself. I own my decisions whether they are good or bad. This article takes that a step further and suggests writing down fav... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 01:36:20 EST Love Spark People I just read a great article about getting organized for weight loss. Reminds me that everything in life is linked in some way or another. Makes complete sense that being organized in life helps with weight loss. I think I'll spend time this week organizing a few things, creating a weight loss notebook for the articles I liked so much I printed, recipes, etc. I also have cloud journals and notebooks. <BR> <BR> The article reminds me that being disorganized in life leads to disorganizati... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 23:34:23 EST Let the streaking begin! So, I found my pedometer...and discovered it stopped working about the same time I did last year...thankfully my husband found a battery and he's managed to bring the pedometer back to life. That being said, I will begin wearing it with regularity again so I can track my steps and 'compete' against myself to log as many steps as possible each day. <BR> <BR> When I returned to SP this year, I wasn't sure how active I was going to be on the site...turns out I'm pretty active again and I'm thr... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 15:01:47 EST not doing well Valentine's day was a BAD day. Woke up at 530am to a dying pet. My sweet baby Topaz, a corn snake not yet a year old died suddenly shortly after I awoke. I don't have kids, so my pets are my babies. I'm heartbroken by his sudden death. I'm in a sad and sometimes angry mood. I haven't had much appetite so I'm not worried to much about that. Although Friday I did back slide and engage in some emotional eating. But I knew what I was doing and openly acknowledged I wanted to fill the hole in my ... Tue, 18 Feb 2014 01:41:47 EST I'm back! After a long hiatus due to work, I'm returning to SP. I'm glad to be back. I've learned that I absolutely MUST make myself and my health more of a priority. I'm also proud that I managed to maintain my weight while gone. It was only during the holidays that I regained a few pounds. <BR> <BR> so now, I'm returning as I need the help and support I find in SP. <BR> <BR> <em>521</em> Sun, 9 Feb 2014 23:05:28 EST Busy is good, right? So I've started a new project with work and it's is the staff we've brought on. I will have basically two full time jobs and one part time for the next several months. Thankfully, a large portion of my time is working from my home office. I'd rather be busy than not...but I'm looking at a lot of working. <BR> <BR> I'm not very good at putting myself first and exercising. And this week as I've worked hard to get all the training materials written, scheduling the training, getti... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 23:22:42 EST I am worth it I just read a post from someone and it inspired me. I'm sitting here today still feeling tired from last night and the heat we're having. I've been debating for 2 hours about going to the gym. The post I read said, I am worth it! And I am. I'm worth the time it takes to work out. I'm worth the time it takes to read articles, blog, journal, chat with SP teams. I'm worth whatever effort is required to change my health. <BR> <BR> Back in January, I purchased several Living Social deals ... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 15:30:27 EST On the mend Finally feeling better. I've been up and active for most of the day now and will return to work tomorrow with a very brief audit. Then resuming full days on Wednesday. <BR> <BR> I still sound like a barking seal when I cough....but it's good for two things 1. clears the room...2...gets everyones attention. <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> My back muscles and my ribs are sore from the coughing...wonder if there are activity points in there??? Kidding about the points. I'm going to stretch toni... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 23:10:26 EST still sick Well I went to the doctor today as I've now been sick for a week. Lucky me I have both an upper respiratory infection and bronchitis. I now have antibiotics and hope to be much improved by Monday. I did walk for 10min while waiting for my meds to be filled. And now I'm exhausted so I plan on taking a nap. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone else is enjoying their weekend! Sat, 22 Jun 2013 20:46:18 EST Honesty So...I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. This was all 'sparked' by something Sheryl said to me a while back....yep it's still inspiring me Trooper1961! <BR> <BR> Going back to my blog on 5/29/13, I owned up to my weight. I felt free in doing so, but I also felt more empowered and in control than I had in a very long time. I've continued that momentum by being honest with myself, my logs and entries into SP. <BR> <BR> I decided honesty with myself is of utmost importance. If I can'... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 00:14:39 EST What an exciting week so far I've been at a conference since Sunday. It's been a great few days for me professionally and personally. The speech went AWESOME!!!! It was well received and that makes me very happy. My mentor was thrilled with it as well. I'm moving forward with my plans to obtain another credential and will be able to get help from my mentor in training and possibly financial assistance with it as well (it's very expensive). We've been able to spend quite a bit of time together the last couple of day... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 01:04:08 EST The most motivating story This weekend my husband and I watched a documentary on ESPN about Dewey Bozella. He was convicted of a murder he didn't commit. He refused to accept plea deals and continued to profess his innocence of the murder. He was in jail 26 years before being exonerated. For 26 years he continued to profess his innocence. On an appeal, he was offered a plea deal but he refused to sign paperwork saying his was guilty of a crime he didn't commit. The jury found him guilty again...before his eventu... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 02:00:23 EST Ugly Number...I own you Last night someone pointed out something very important for me....and that was I needed to own my weight. It's a number and it is what it is. I realized that I don't like acknowledging the number, don't like speaking about it, don't like seeing it on the scale and I certainly don't want to publish it anywhere. So by hiding from this number, I have failed to own it. I have done myself a HUGE disservice. Dr. Phil says (I'm paraphrasing) you cannot change what you do not own. Well...I own ... Wed, 29 May 2013 23:42:43 EST Feeling mentally exhausted today Today has not been a good day and I'm left feeling sad, mentally exhausted and drained. It started off ok and very quickly went to hell in a hand basket. After an overly emotional afternoon, I'm left questioning so many things. <BR> <BR> As I sit and wallow in my own sadness, CNN flashes footage of Oklahoma and I'm instantly reminded that my life is not so bad. I have a home with four walls and a roof....not as CNN put it twigs and bricks. I have a husband and pets...I have not lost any... Tue, 21 May 2013 22:01:13 EST Thought Provoking Medifast commercials So recently I've seen the Medifast commercials where the overweight self is talking with the thin self...and I've got to say (and this hurts because I hate commercials) that I think it's an ingenious idea. <BR> <BR> Imagine what we would say to ourselves? Imagine where you are today talking to the 'where you want to be' person. What would you say? What words of encouragement would you offer? What advice? <BR> <BR> I have been thinking about this and I think it's a great journal entry ... Fri, 17 May 2013 03:07:32 EST something great happened! My husband and I ride a Harley. We belong to a group and attend periodic meetings. We went to a meeting last night and one of the members and I were talking when she stopped and said "are you losing weight?" I was thrilled and said yes. She said she could tell...said it was noticeable and said the shape of my face had also changed! <BR> <BR> I am so excited that someone noticed and commented! What a boost to my ego AND to my motivation! <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> <BR> <em>345</em> <BR> ... Wed, 15 May 2013 03:38:59 EST back from a mini vacation Recently some family came to town. Most of my family is in better shape than my sister and I. I had a few days where the level of activity was pretty high for me. Nothing made me reevaluate myself than hiking and walking and a trip to Sunny Jims Cave in La Jolla. I was so hot and was just awful and uncomfortable. It was an AHA MOMENT to be sure. Looking at my family as they stood cool and calm and realizing I was dripping made me see how much work I need to do still. <BR> <BR> My... Wed, 8 May 2013 20:41:46 EST Having another off week The weather here keeps fluctuating between being warm/hot to cold and overcast which messes up my sinuses and causes me to be or feel tired no matter how much sleep I'm getting. <BR> <BR> This is also causing a feeling of laziness and lack of motivation to be active. <BR> <BR> It's hard to achieve the goals to even keep them in my mind day in and day out. it's hard to stay motivated to remember that I must go to the gym and must eat healthy in order to achieve what I want. It's so much ea... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 15:36:48 EST achieved a small victory today! 8 years ago I had an artificial disk inserted in my lumbar spine. The procedure was a pretty big deal and I had to learn to walk again due to the trauma and disease leading up to the surgery. <BR> <BR> I lost a lot of weight...but unfortunately I gained it back because I stopped taking care of myself. I decided I was done neglecting myself. I don't want to wake up 5 years from now and have to do this again, so I embarked on a total life makeover. <BR> <BR> I am exercising regularly, losin... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 01:36:05 EST Read some great articles today I read some really good articles on Spark today: <BR> <BR> 1. 100 reasons you should work out today By: Nicole Nichols, DailySpark Blogger <BR> 2. Talk yourself into reaching your goals-- By Dean Anderson, Behavioral Psychology Expert <BR> 3. Why do we beat ourselves up-- By Mike Kramer, Staff Writer <BR> <BR> I gained valuable insight into some of my behaviors in addition to getting points for reading the articles. <BR> <BR> As a woman, putting myself first on the priority list is tou... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 22:02:51 EST not giving up I sometimes don't follow through with things but that doesn't mean I'm giving up. <BR> I may have to take a few days off, but that doesn't mean I'm giving up. <BR> I may get overwhelmed with life and all the hard work I must do to achieve my goals but that doesn't mean I'm giving up. <BR> You may try to thwart my progress or sabotage me....but I'm not giving up. <BR> No matter what...I'm not giving up. <BR> I will succeed because I'm not giving up. <BR> <BR> <BR> Sun, 7 Apr 2013 01:20:52 EST