KLUTERACOON's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KLUTERACOON KLUTERACOON's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Detox day 11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6166127 I'm down a total of 4 lbs in 11 days!! It feels amazing to finally be getting somewhere. It's so nice just to feel good again. I've been grocery shopping at the fresh market and it's made a huge difference in the food I've been eating! The best part is that I'm not bombarded by junk food and soda the moment I walk through the front door. In fact I don't even think they carry Oreos at all. It's so much easier to cook healthy when the grocer you shopping is easy too. Their prices aren't even ba... Thu, 19 May 2016 08:39:33 EST Detox Day 8 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6163852 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/30e48c6b-d689-44ba-b406-a3c7e0fba110.jpg"> My energy levels have been significantly better. I've been finding myself with better moods and actually being productive. It doesn't sound like a big deal but the last 6 mo I've barely had any energy to do anything so I would end up on the couch every night falling asleep. The last week I've been coming home cooking dinner, and washing dishes, even completing a few projects around the house. My sleep ... Mon, 16 May 2016 05:45:52 EST Detox day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6160612 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/6fb92883-e5fd-4c38-9cee-01487e7b269a.jpg"> So I started a detox, it's a 30 day program with 7 hormone resets. I'm only on day 3 but I've already noticed a huge difference!! I haven't had this much energy in a long time. Also I haven't felt this good in a long time. I've spent the last 6 mo with my stomach upset one way or another. I feel amazing and it's incredibly encouraging. Also I've dropped 2.5 lbs in 3 days. I'm really not doing anythi... Wed, 11 May 2016 07:01:11 EST News http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6121180 So yesterday I went to see a doctor to discuss my issues of not being able to lose weight despite eating healthy for the most part and increasing my activity level, in addition to lack of energy, and nausea. Turns out my thyroid is enlarged, and bloodwork from 1 1/2 years ago showed my levels as high. So it looks like I'll be starting treatment for hypothyroidism. They're also checking into other things. It's a relief to know that I'm not crazy and that my struggles aren't totally due to ... Thu, 17 Mar 2016 06:09:22 EST Progress! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6115116 So I have a surge fitbit now, which I hopes encourages my activity level. I am noticing that I might not be eating enough calories, and then at that, I'm not eating a balanced diet. This weekend will be dedicated towards more food changes such as preparing for making smoothies for breakfast, as well as making sure I have healthy snacks. <BR> <BR> I did go to the gym last night, and did 30 min on the elliptical, not a huge deal but it's most definitely better than nothing. My plan is a walk w... Wed, 9 Mar 2016 11:22:17 EST New information = impowerment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6110020 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9519f02f-b8d8-4638-96b4-f752256ddea4.jpg"> I started reading this new book yesterday and to be honest it's not the first time I've read a book like this. I'll start with the theory and then I'll give the books. The theory is this: especially women, our bodies are out of hormonal balance due to many things prevelant in our modern lives. The number one culprit being stress with cortisol production. From there progesterone, estrogen, androgens, a... Thu, 3 Mar 2016 06:14:32 EST New snacks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6108241 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/45959307-488f-4016-94ae-443147e32886.jpg"> I recently moved and now live closer to a variety of grocery stores. I am an avid Winn Dixie shopper but with wanting to eat healthy I've been finding pre made salads a life saver. I'll be honest the amount that I spend on the pre made salads in the end is probably the same or at least close to if I bought all the ingredients myself. Come to find out target has my favorite salads so far. There's a vari... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 06:19:31 EST Lately http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6107508 It's been an on going struggle to lose the weight. About 4 years ago I lost almost 35 lbs and I've been able to keep that off but I've been stuck with the remaining 35-40 lbs. It's hard because I can look across the table at my significant other and he can stop drinking soda and lose 10 lbs. He can eat 2nds and 3rds and not gain nearly as much as I would. All he has to do is stop snacking and stop drinking as much soda and beer and he loses 20lbs easy. I on the other hand have to carefully... Mon, 29 Feb 2016 10:49:51 EST If someone would have told me... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5994434 If someone would have told me and I mean really told me how quickly life starts to fly by as you get older I may have slowed down more to smell the roses. <BR> <BR> If someone would have told me that as much as being single is nice, it's really hard to do life on your own. I might have fought harder to make sure the person by my side was supposed to be there. <BR> <BR> If someone would have told me that money does not equal happiness BUT being stable most definitely makes it possible to str... Wed, 9 Sep 2015 22:39:04 EST Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5977911 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/048738b5-2f82-4c0d-aabb-4c2119c71352.jpg"> So I didn't want to go to the gym this morning... I get up at 4:30 am to go the gym at 5 am with a friend. But I went! Not only did I go but I pushed harder than the days that I want to go. Needless to say I spent an hour on he floor afterward stretching my oh soo good sore body :) It's what you do on the days you don't want to go that prove this time is different this time I will change, this time I ... Fri, 14 Aug 2015 14:27:30 EST Day 1... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5977119 So I know I keep posting that I am starting over but then haven't been following up. Life has been absolutely crazy!! However I am on the right track. I am in week 3 of getting up at 4:30am to go to the gym. I have had my gym membership since the end of June and am finally going on a regular basis and my motivation to keep going keeps on growing. I'm just now starting to look at my food choices again, not that I eat all that unhealthy but we know eating healthy isn't only about what we put in... Thu, 13 Aug 2015 09:08:26 EST Where the Wind Blows http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5929864 Soo many things have changed over the last 5 years. Even just over the last 2 years. I finally feel like I'm moving forward. I feel like I have been picking up the pieces and putting them back together the last few years. It's crazy to see what time does. <BR> <BR> With all the changes I've been thinking about it and there are somethings that I hope don't ever change. <BR> <BR> 1. I hope that music will forever have the effect on me that it does. Music is everything to my soul. I live by ... Sun, 17 May 2015 22:38:38 EST I'm Sore and I've had a lot to do and time to think. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928275 Anyone that knows me will tell you I am ALWAYS thinking. I'm always taking a step back wondering if this is how it should be, is this what I want, where am I going with this. I will be 25 next month and this is the first time that I have things to do and no one to answer to. I can go out dancing and there's no one to judge me for it. I can workout and don't have to hear about how I don't spend time with them. I can do what I need to do as far as work goes and I don't have to listen to how I p... Thu, 14 May 2015 20:43:57 EST It Was a VERY long Weekend. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5926483 As exciting as New beginnings can be they're also full of many other emotions. Fear, uneasiness, doubt... <BR> <BR> This last weekend was really hard for me. I was kinda like a vase that shattered finally that you thought would shatter sooner than what it actually did. Music is my ultimately therapy. When I find that song, that fits soo perfectly with what I'm feeling it can be exactly what I need to fall apart. I'm a firm believer that in order to put the pieces back together you have to f... Mon, 11 May 2015 17:11:06 EST Fresh Beginnings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5923262 Hi, <BR> <BR> I'm back! Crazy to think about how long it's been. Starting over again and that's ok. So where am I at? <BR> <BR> ...Well I've been sitting pretty solid 168-175 lbs now for the last two years. I started the Advocare Cleanse and Challenge. Seems to be helping so far. I'm slow to start working out again but it's always been a little bit of a process. Making a sincere effort to drink more water and eat healthy and most importantly take care of myself mentally. <BR> <BR> I'm in ... Tue, 5 May 2015 20:03:33 EST Hypocritical Much!?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849532 This is my first blog in well over a year. I'm not ok with the person I have become over the last year. I've stopped trying to genuinely become a better person. I'm starting to judge those around me too much, and I'm starting to make excuses for my wrong doings than actually taking responsibility and changing my behavior. <BR> <BR> I knew that my weight was going to be an issue. I know that it's been an issue my whole life. Why is it human nature to make excuses? Is it human nature or is it ... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 13:28:03 EST The Now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5563090 It's soo easy to get caught up in the now of things. I want this tshirt now, I want this brownie, so often do we either forget about the consequences or just consciously choose to deal with the consequences later. Something as little as deciding whether or not to have one or two deserts or none at all says soo much about the type of person we are in that moment. Do we rationalize our decision or flat out say "I don't care?" <BR> <BR> Yea that brownie today might not do a whole lot but what ... Thu, 12 Dec 2013 19:07:16 EST So where do I start? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5553496 Well... I graduated Naval Bootcamp November 15th. Now I'm getting ready to go to school in Florida. I lost about 12 lbs being in bootcamp! WooHoo. It was definitely an experience. One I don't really want to repeat but was truly invaluable. I learned a lot about myself. Some of the things I was struggling with before I left, I'm no longer struggling with. I'm still just as self conscious as I was before but I give it less power. I guess showering with 40 women will do that to you. <BR> <BR> I... Sat, 30 Nov 2013 14:13:45 EST HEY!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5553395 Hey guys I'm fresh outta bootcamp and life is awesome!! If any of you want to send mail my new address is <BR> <BR> AN Klute, Danielle <BR> 230 Chevalier Field St. BKS: George Washington <BR> Pensacola, FL 32508 <BR> <BR> I'll post an actual blog later! Sat, 30 Nov 2013 11:28:52 EST Danielle's basic training address. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5516490 Hi all, <BR> My name is Joe Taylor and I am Danielle's boyfriend (soon to be fiance hopefully) and she asked me to add her basic training address to a blog on this site. So here goes! <BR> <BR> SR Klute, D.M. <BR> Ship 02 Division 901 <BR> 3600 Ohio Street <BR> Great Lakes, IL. 60088-7105 <BR> <BR> I'm sure she would love to hear from you all; thanks everyone in advance for any support you can give her. Also, feel free to wish me luck on my proposal :) <BR> <BR> Thanks, <BR> <BR> Jo... Thu, 17 Oct 2013 22:13:57 EST How I can do this. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5465531 I think some people forget that I'm scared out of my mind to leave. But I'm still doing it. How? Because I can trust in it. I know it won't kill me. I have only three weeks left. Which seems insane. When I think about where I was last year and where I pictured myself for this year, they aren't the same as where I am at. <BR> <BR> Last year I was getting ready to start school again. I was nervous because I had done so poorly prior. I didn't think I was leaving for the Navy yet. The paperwork... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 08:54:15 EST DBF is grocery shopping for me... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5462201 Oh boy.. this should be interesting. I don't believe I've ever let anyone go grocery shopping for me before. I guess I'll see how he did when I get off of work tonight, he did go with a list so there's not much that can go wrong. <BR> <BR> He offered. Feels weird sharing the reponsibilites. Wed, 21 Aug 2013 16:35:08 EST Completed my first 5k!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5460148 Yesterday I ran the Dirty Girl Mud run. It's a 5k with 13 obstacles through out the course. I completed it in 40min, and ran the whole thing! I will say I was slightly dissapointed because I thought that I would have felt more accomplished afterward if that makes sense? Don't get me wrong I am proud of myself, but I feel like it should have been harder, so maybe it's my bad for not pushing myself harder? <BR> <BR> So I'm on the final countdown 29 days left till I leave! OH MY!! :D Mon, 19 Aug 2013 16:55:19 EST Only 4 more weeks!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5457914 It's getting down to that time! Only four more mondays and then I'm gone. YIKES!! But I'm soo incredibly excited. Things have just been amazing! Yesterday the DBF and I went out to Port Washington and walked along the beach, and he fished while I laid in the sun and it was an incredible day! We spent a lot of time talking and it was good. We talked about the move after I get out of A-school and about getting married and a whole bunch of other things. <BR> <BR> I feel soo blessed to have him... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 09:44:49 EST The next 30-days were supposed to be a cake walk. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5455537 Go figure that wouldn't last long.... <BR> <BR> So walking away from the house apparently is going to be as easy as it was supposed to be. Go freaking figure. So I have to do a bunch of paperwork to keep it from foreclosing or else I CAN'T leave in 30 days! GAH!!! Well Paper work is filled out anyway, just need to fax it over to the right place. So maybe this won't be soo bad? I have some people already lined up to rent the house. One more hurdle, guess it's only fitting considering the last... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 22:35:39 EST I'm not perfect, and I know that. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5452571 So my last blog on here was pretty heavy. I was dealing with some really hard things. That night DBF and I had what started out as a fight but then turned into a pretty insightful conversation. <BR> <BR> Most people forget that I am only 23. I'm soo much more mature than that but despite that I still can be quite niave at times. I was feeling jipped in my relationship. He wasn't doing the things he used to and I felt like his fishing and his time out with his friends was more important than ... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 08:49:22 EST Yep 2nd blog of the day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5448237 I've blogging really abnormally lately, I guess is the best way to put it. Which I guess I shouldn't be surprised with me leaving for basic training so soon. Sometimes I think people forget, I'm not just preparing to go to bootcamp, I'm preparing to leave my whole entire life behind. <BR> <BR> Things are tough, relationships are strained and decisions are having to be made more quickly than maybe they would have been otherwise. Keep in mind, many times I'm writing these blogs more for mysel... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 23:11:59 EST 5 1/2 more weeks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5447965 Tomorrow I weigh in... I'm really hoping the scale will be down because I took my measurements today and those are still the same. I've been eating much better and I've been working out pretty intensly. I know it takes some time for your body to adapt to the changes but I'm soo freaking impatient right now. <BR> <BR> I have 9 more lbs to lose by Sept 18th. Which is compeletly doable. If I can't lose all nine lbs I at least need to shrink a few inches because as of this momement if I can't ge... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 18:36:20 EST Feeling Proud and Strong!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5445015 I feel amazing right now!! I can see some of the changes in my body. Losing the extra weight I gained on vacation and the results of working out. My arms are becoming more defined, my stomach sucked in and my shoulders pulled back. It's funny to me when I put on pants now. I still have a muffin top but it's changing its starting to be more skin and I can tell I have abs underneath because the fat is its own layer. My legs feel strong. I don't weigh in until Thursday... I'm getting anxious, I ... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 09:24:04 EST Think I've found the heart of it all. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5443796 You know I keep wondering why I've always felt soo restless. And I have one million reasons for joining the navy, but I think I've uncovered the heart of it all. I'm sitting here at a party where ppl are drinking and doing drugs and im miserable. I'm underneath an amazing sky full of beautiful stars and all I want to do is cry. Why? Because I want to finally be somewhere where I fit in. And this isn't it. I want people that think like I do and challenge me to dig deeper. As much as I want to ... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 02:16:41 EST Yep it's all starting to come together. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5443095 So I have 44 days till I leave!! AHHHH!!! I'm soo excited :). And everything is coming along quite well. Everything has been moved out of the 10x20 storage unit and into a 10x10 to save me $20 per month. I have 1 more request for SCRA benefits to make otherwise all the requests have been made and just waiting back to hear whether or not they have been approved. Bills will get paid in just a few short weeks and then it'll be a matter of setting up automatic payments for when I'm gone. <BR> <... Sat, 3 Aug 2013 09:53:35 EST Less than 50 days! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5438411 Yep... OMG!!! Freaking out a tad. I can't believe it's almost here. Not much time left to get my butt in gear. Soo much left to finish up and loose ends to tie. Tue, 30 Jul 2013 10:09:27 EST I've been blogging less... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5435138 I don't really know what to say... Theres soo much going on. Relationships are getting more and more tense the closer it gets to me leaving. I'm scared, nervous and excited all at the same time. Still have 10 lbs to lose, could be less after today's weigh in. I'm ready for this massive change in every way that I'm not. <BR> <BR> I never thought I would be leaving behind someone that I feel in love with soo bad. It's a huge new adventure that unfortunately no one can come along with me. Peopl... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 11:04:12 EST Feel like I should have died last night.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5431028 So the amount I slept last night, I feel like I should have died. I think I fell asleep somewhere around 6pm... didn't wake up until 9:45pm fell right back asleep and didn't wake up until 9am this morning!! So needless to say I didn't get a work out in last night but I did today. I have gotten quite a bit done though between today and yesterday. <BR> <BR> So I've come to the conclusion that working out on the treadmill is quite useless. Yea sure I may be able to run 1.5 miles that way in 15... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 20:58:22 EST I'm tired... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5429328 Been a long weekend full of ups and downs. Lost 2 lbs. Which is good. I still have 10 to lose in 8 weeks which is more than doable. Today starts my running to the gym instead of driving, which will actually save time because my warm-up will be out of the way by the time I get there. I started my mini workouts yesterday. I was able to do 40 situps and 15 pushups. I think I can bump the pushups to 20. I'm shooting to hit my "max" situps and pushups every morning and night as far as Navy standar... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 11:57:38 EST Weigh In... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5427258 Tomorrow is technically my day to weigh in but since I won't get to the gym tomorrow, I'll be doing it today. Kinda nervous even though I'm sure I will be fine. This whole last week, I've been good about eating and I got 5 days in of really intense workouts. <BR> <BR> Plan for this week: <BR> <BR> Well tonight I'm swimming, and tonight will also start my regime of sit-ups and push-ups everyday before bed and when I wake up. I don't have a specific number in mind because I want it to be ab... Sat, 20 Jul 2013 10:51:25 EST Not working out hard enough. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5426207 This is the first time in a very long time I have gotten in 5 days of a workout. I was supposed to workout today too but I have to workout saturday because I won't be able to on Sunday and I need a day of rest. In terms of Navy standards I have a long way to go, and a short amount of time to do it in. So I'm thinking that I'll go one more week of 6 days working out and then I will be bumping it up to 2x/day workouts. Running distance in the mornings with strength and intensity training in the... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 09:10:31 EST Why does the little stuff have to be soo painful! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5424624 So today is day 4 of consecutive working out and I have shin splints... and on top of it I've got an awesome blister.. <BR> <BR> The blister I got, from having the bright idea of working out w/o socks because I got to the gym and didn't have any. Well yesterday I wore one of those blister bandaids with the medication on them, well the combo of the heat and running at my job fused the bandaid to the blister, so when I went to take the bandaid off to give it some air... it took the skin off...... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 21:32:11 EST Don't even recognize myself lately! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5423427 And not exactly in a good way.... <BR> <BR> I realized today I've been complaining all day... about everything and anything. It's hot, my moms bugging me, people at work are bugging me, my bra is bugging me... like really?!? If it was someone else talking to me I would have told them to just shut up already. <BR> <BR> What is going on with me? the BF and I have been fighting all week. I think I've uncovered the mystery. He made the comment the other day that "You need to start taking car... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 20:38:25 EST Just another day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5420569 Just another Sunday, stayed up way too late last night, and had to come into work too early. Still sore from navy PT on thursday, going swimming tonight to help. I'm really excited for swimming and the hot tub they always feel soo good on my muscles. I would say my eating habits are improving... still eating out too much, but eating less overall. <BR> <BR> I've got 8 weeks left of working at my job then I've got off for 2 1/2 weeks before I actually ship out. I'm getting really excited and o... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 10:01:08 EST Hindsight is 20/20? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5417204 Today reminded me very well, that I still have a long way to go before I have healed some of those wounds. It's funny how some things in life you can see coming from a million miles away and others you just get blindsighted by. It's not fair but such is life. Do you think we create the frieght train? <BR> <BR> Today also made me realize how different my writing is from what actually comes out of my mouth. Now don't get me wrong these blogs don't exactly contain the secrets of my soul but m... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 21:55:22 EST Just not for me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5415982 There are many people that can lose weight by tracking their calories. I am not one of them. I know that when you strip everything else away the basis of weight loss is less calories + activity=weight loss. But it's not that simple especially with women's bodies. For the last few years I've become a very holistic person. I believe that all areas of life affect one another. So emotional state also affects the way weight is or isn't stored. For example When a person is stressed out their body r... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 21:19:34 EST Ugh... let me sleep! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5413106 I don't know if it's my allergies kicking my butt right now, or if I'm getting sick. Either way I'm completely exhausted, granted I haven't gotten much sleep the last two nights. And to top it off, Joe's been sick for the last week. And since he's been sick he's been sweating like crazy so his room has felt like a freaking igloo and work right now isn't any different. <BR> <BR> The more weight I lose, the colder I get. Kinda annoying. <BR> <BR> I went over my calories yesterday by 500-600... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 10:00:17 EST Really starting to see the other side to life! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5412332 I have to say that even though it's technically far from over, this has been the best summer I have had probably in about 7 years. There are many reasons for that but I think it's because I'm happy. Even though I have tons of things to get done, I'm starting to see that those aren't always important. They can wait, they will still be there tomorrow. <BR> <BR> There are different time markers for me. One of them I just passed on July 4th of it being a full year since I had stood up for mysel... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 11:35:21 EST Time to start over again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5410040 So I'm down to 2 1/2 months till I leave for basic! I'm also done with vacationing... Which is fine but it really means I need to really get back into an exercise program and eating properly. <BR> <BR> I have not been eating the way I should for a while now. I blame it on moving in with my parents and being around my DBF soo much. It may be an excuse but it is the truth. We eat out far too much and because I can't cook and store food the way I would like to that and I don't have a consisten... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 21:41:04 EST Fluidity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399534 So I've come to the conclusion that I haven't been writing much lately because through out any given day I go through so many thoughts and emotions that even I can't keep track of them all. <BR> <BR> After reading a blog of another member I started to think about the phases of emotions that I go through and I told them that I don't track them nor necessarily understand the pattern of them. Through out the day we encounter soo many different things that can affect who we are and how we see t... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 21:19:44 EST One Full year. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5398263 In about 12 hrs it'll be a full year since my ex asked for the divorce. It's a little weird to think about. I feel soo removed from that life. Almost like it happened to someone else. It's funny last night as I was thinking about it, I had tons that I wanted to say... now it's as if the words have left me. <BR> <BR> I'm starting to resort back to some old habits. I think it's why I've been so short in my blogs, causing my block, I don't want to admit to them. I've gotten soo hard on myself w... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 12:36:37 EST Life has been crazy. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5393728 Overall I am happy to report life is good. I think I'm finally coming off all the extreme stress. Bills are getting paid and eliminated. My ratio of gym vs no gym is increasing on the side of gym. And my weight has stayed constant at 170lb which is niether good nor bad. <BR> <BR> Last night was the last time I ever have to talk to my ex for any reason. Which makes me extremely excited. Now I just have to get rid of the rest of my bills which I can get rid of everything except the car paymen... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 18:36:35 EST Life has been crazy. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5393727 Overall I am happy to report life is good. I think I'm finally coming off all the extreme stress. Bills are getting paid and eliminated. My ratio of gym vs no gym is increasing on the side of gym. And my weight has stayed constant at 170lb which is niether good nor bad. <BR> <BR> Last night was the last time I ever have to talk to my ex for any reason. Which makes me extremely excited. Now I just have to get rid of the rest of my bills which I can get rid of everything except the car paymen... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 18:36:12 EST You haven't worked out until you've worked out with a Military recruiter. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5382243 That was 2 days ago... and I still wanna go die. Totally worth it but I still wanna go die. So the workout break down: <BR> <BR> planks 30 sec <BR> sprint one side of the gym and back 3x <BR> 30 pushups <BR> sprint to one side of the gym and back 3x <BR> 30 situps(only easy part) <BR> Sprint to one side of the gym and back 3x <BR> 4ct flutter kicks 25 <BR> sprint to one side of the gym and back 3x <BR> 8 count body builders 10 <BR> Sprint to one side of the gym and back 2x <BR> 4ct jumping j... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 09:18:51 EST