KIYOSHI04's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KIYOSHI04 KIYOSHI04's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ What happened to me??? And in loving memory of Walter.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5745609 So, I've been struggling these past few months. Obviously. What with the house remodeling and antibiotic and ugh. <BR> <BR> We put Walter down. The vet said he would deteriorate pretty quickly. He might recover but once we saw the signs of internal bleeding, we knew. He was vomiting and not himself on that Monday night. I knew it'd be my last night with him. I slept downstairs with him, knowing that I might wake up to find him gone. He wasn't... But we took him in that day. I won't watch som... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 10:34:34 EST Cue excuses: now! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5730811 It is suck suck sucking lately. <BR> We had floor refinished and I thought it was going to be an awesome few days... Upstairs with the dogs, biking. Except that didn't happen. They had to be downstairs and we took my bike down there but the fumes from the floor being refinished stopped me from working out since I had a pounding headache. I also had no access to a bathroom until they left around 6/7 pm so that stopped me from drinking water. <BR> It sucked. <BR> Floors look awesome so it was... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 19:21:26 EST Guess what happens when you don't work out for weeks? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716797 You get a fat ass. <BR> <BR> It's been rough here. So rough. <BR> <BR> To begin with, I went to the dermatologist about face and demanded to come off of the antibiotic that was seriously causing me to be so fatigued that I could barely move. He said no. <BR> I am now on half the dose and feeling much much like my old self. A little fatigued but nothing like I was. <BR> <BR> The house is in a constant state of chaos. <BR> Gah. <BR> Got bedroom painted. Got dining room painted. Got family ... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 21:56:28 EST if i didnt know what the scale read, would i be happy? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5689692 so, everyone knows about the face wash debacle that has scarred my face, im thinking for life since its now been 2 months... and the antibiotics that i have to be on.. <BR> <BR> it is still sucking majorly with them. so fatigued. <BR> i begin each morning waking up more tired than before i went to bed. but i plan to make it a great day. and then i end up sitting on the couch saying that i cant do it. <BR> <BR> having serious heartburn related issues as well. swallowing is extremely painful... Wed, 7 May 2014 10:46:58 EST and so it goes.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5679462 im still here. <BR> <BR> so last time i was here, it was 4/2... at least, last time i was here blogging. <BR> <BR> the days leading up to the 10th were rough--husband's sister and her family were coming down on their way south for the night. that meant that i cleaned entire house top to bottom. the 10th was the husband's birthday and also my doctor appointment about my face. [more on that in a minute.] <BR> <BR> the 10th and 11th were okay. i was cooking and cleaning. i didnt eat much. <BR... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 12:04:44 EST the crumbling balance and the struggle.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662857 its been rough. <BR> ever since we got back from vegas, ive been a sloth. <BR> i just cant seem to do this any longer. <BR> <BR> the working out is severely lacking. i havent strength trained. <BR> barely working out.. <BR> well, thats not exactly true. most days i get in a 5 mile walk if not more. <BR> but its a struggle. <BR> <BR> i know that the antibiotics im on have a side effect of extreme fatigue, so im guessing that is it. also i just got glasses and they have been causing headach... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 18:20:57 EST the best laid plans....apparently dont happen in vegas. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5656033 lets begin with my face... thanks to everyone for the kind words, goodies, etc.. <BR> my face is doing okay. the swelling from the sores from the face wash have gone down and only in one place can you see where they cut me to drain the infection... <BR> drs. said that my skin wont look close to normal for at least a month. <BR> have to be on antibiotics for at least another 2 months.. <BR> <BR> so, we went to vegas for our anniversary. our one year anniversary. <BR> sunday we packed and took... Tue, 25 Mar 2014 09:18:30 EST how a face wash has derailed me.. yes, it is possible. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5643918 so, our one year anniversary is coming up and my face has been breaking out. <BR> last week, i got a face wash to try to clear it up and well, ..... <BR> it burned me and took off two layers of skin. <BR> and then i got a horrible infection that spread because i couldnt get to the dr in time for antibiotics. <BR> <BR> when i went to the doctor, he had originally wanted me to see a plastic surgeon. <BR> but because they have waiting lists that are long and i needed treatment NOW, they called ... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 20:55:10 EST unexpected news: size six pants and dr. said what???!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5641138 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/9/l491582157.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2065199747.jpg"> <BR> my mind is a muddle. <BR> <BR> first, i needed new pants. i had an interview and all of my black dress pants were big exceptionally too big. one pair was passable but i went to kohls to expect great things. hahahahahaha. <BR> and i was right to! <BR> <BR> on their clearance rack, i found a pair of 4$!! jeans. 4$ <BR> the only problem was they we... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 08:35:52 EST m&ms... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5635103 its been...slow, i guess. <BR> <BR> we had company friday evening through sunday morning and that time found me doing nothing and i mean pretty much nothing but cooking. <BR> thankfully it was the husbands friends and most of it was meat so i couldnt eat it anyways, but i did make chocolate chip cookies and funfetti cookies and a cheesecake. and my favorite biscuits. <BR> <BR> thankfully i dont like sugar cookies and i had one slice of cheesecake, and i did have about 7 cookies over 2 days.... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 09:40:04 EST 150 pounds in photos. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5630419 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2083421826.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l35320546.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1751196946.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1187915820.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1170213421.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l348916308.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/3/l8324... Fri, 21 Feb 2014 20:58:17 EST losing 150 pounds. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5629565 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2142982911.jpg"> <BR> <BR> thats right. <BR> i have lost 150 pounds. <BR> <BR> today was not a good day. <BR> woke to no power. <BR> and no water. <BR> <BR> i can deal without television. i can deal without internet. <BR> i cannot deal without water or heat. <BR> with dirty dishes that had been soaking from last night's dessert. <BR> with having to give the dogs bottled water. <BR> <BR> ugh. <BR> i did okay. i mean, couldnt eat much s... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 20:25:22 EST just keeping on. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5626774 not much is going on. <BR> today i was 136lbs which isnt terrible considering. <BR> considering what....? <BR> the overwhelming stress and anxiety i feel, the fact that it was valentines day and the fact that we ate out yesterday. <BR> <BR> valentines day found me cooking most of the day. <BR> the husband gave me a box of ferrero rochers as my gift and i ate the whole box. well, thats not true. there were 12 in the box and i ate eight. the other 4 were coconut [ugh] and i hate coconut. <BR>... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 20:14:40 EST 149 pounds down. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5623281 thats right i weighed in at 135 today. <BR> <BR> i have worked for that 135. <BR> past few days ive been walking 5 miles, biking 24 miles and doing strength training. plus at night going for a walk with the husband and dogs. <BR> <BR> today, well, i woke up to hell. <BR> okay, its not that bad. <BR> but ....its not been a good day. <BR> <BR> major stuff with the husband's work that everyone has probably seen on cnn. <BR> who knows if it will affect him or how...but its not good. <BR> and ... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 16:34:10 EST the embarrassment of being fat. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5613810 i lead a very small life. <BR> i have my immediate family of husband, two dogs, mom, dad, three sisters, one sister in law, three brother in laws, 6 nephews and 3 nieces. <BR> my extended family is huge with my mom being one of 16 kids, most who had at least 2 or more kids... and my dad is one of 9 kids, again, all who had at least two children. <BR> <BR> i have a best friend who i met here, on spark.. <BR> and i have two pretty good friends.. one who i met here on spark and one from high ... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 09:43:23 EST stop relying on motivation. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5612200 ive spoken of this before. <BR> how it irks me when people blame everything on their lack of motivation. <BR> as if that explains everything. <BR> <BR> ive heard from sister, etc. how they wish they had my "motivation." <BR> how they need my "motivation." <BR> how it must be nice to be so "motivated." <BR> <BR> do you think that when i get out of bed in the morning, my day depends on my motivation level? <BR> if i went by that, i'd be 284 pounds still..or higher. <BR> <BR> it is habit, no... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 14:46:37 EST addiction. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5603126 on a different blog, i had mentioned my dis-taste of people using the phrase they fell off the wagon or need to get back on the wagon... for a weight loss website that promotes "lifestyle" changes, on the wagon should have no place here. <BR> <BR> a comment on the blog about how one person hadnt heard that around here and that "on the wagon" refers to being sober.... left me thinking about the parallels of food/weightloss to drug/alcohol issues. <BR> <BR> as well as another comment which wa... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 08:56:27 EST life is too short to count calories... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5583238 my cousin put on facebook that she was making cookies and tagged me in it, thinking i would like them. few days later, she was talking about the cookies and i responded that i looked at recipe, looks good, but havent made them yet due to calories... <BR> <BR> she responded that life is too short to count calories, that no one gets out alive anyways. <BR> <BR> now, i know that it was meant to be funny and not a jab at me or anything but it did get me to thinking about it.. <BR> <BR> what i ... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 16:57:52 EST there is no wagon. there is just life. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5580453 few things irritate me about this site more than having it proclaimed that we are not here for a quick fix, this is a lifestyle change etc etc and then in the next breath talk about how we need to "get back on the wagon." <BR> <BR> for me, there is no wagon. there is just life. <BR> and i think that puts me at a distinct advantage. <BR> <BR> let me digress... <BR> before the holidays, i was down to 135 or 136. not sure. <BR> and by holidays, i mean christmas and new year.... <BR> <BR> the ... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 08:45:41 EST if you cant reach your goals, are you a failure? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5561937 my body just seems to want to stay at 140. well 139, 138, 137... 140. <BR> i am working out 2-4 hours a day... mixture of biking and walking. <BR> getting in 16 cups of water if not more per day. <BR> getting in strength training usually 2-3 times a week--all 3 zones. usually 500 to 1500 reps worth of exercises. never less than 500. <BR> tracking my food--trying to stay around 1600-1700 calories. sometimes it works. sometimes it doesnt. <BR> <BR> i think that maybe this next week im going t... Wed, 11 Dec 2013 08:42:10 EST one step forward, two steps back. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5556627 i havent blogged since october. insane! <BR> <BR> so, without the stories involved, i will just say that the food is sometimes okay, sometimes not okay. <BR> sometimes higher calories than id like. <BR> <BR> workouts still good. pretty good, id say. <BR> 2-4 hours a day mixes of biking and walking. <BR> strength training still doing pretty well at. <BR> <BR> i was alone--yes completely alone--for thanksgiving this year. <BR> i was not supposed to be alone which is why i was upset. <BR> lon... Wed, 4 Dec 2013 09:08:15 EST just two photos. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519171 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1629912727.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2046454148.jpg"> Mon, 21 Oct 2013 08:56:29 EST what does loading up 1200 pounds of wood get you? a sore back. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513143 so the husband and i have been cleaning the yard up. said before the previous occupants of this house worked at the circus so there is a lot of trampoline like stuff buried in the backyard with trees and we have huge rocks and ive been loading all that stuff up. plus weeding. <BR> <BR> the husband went to the dump and they weigh it in. i loaded up 1200 pounds of wood, rocks, weeds...all by myself. he had not loaded one since stick on that trailer. <BR> <BR> which is why for the past week an... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 11:08:20 EST sometimes, all you want to do is workout. or: when am i done? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5489967 ive been doing much better. <BR> head is for sure back in the game. <BR> <BR> sometimes i dont notice my own progress. <BR> i am wearing size ten around the house. <BR> that is a big deal because i like my pants to be very loose. <BR> so i think im a size 8. <BR> i havent found any cheap 8 jeans yet so ill just keep on with a belt. <BR> <BR> yesterday i had such a great strength training workout planned. <BR> and then drama happened. <BR> drama that saw me on the phone w 911 in new york fo... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 08:34:48 EST she thought she could. so she did. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5483526 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1770836753.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/2/l822530877.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1373745059.jpg"> <BR> <BR> after a month of floundering.. a month of feeling woe is me. <BR> a month of feeling tired and exhausted and run down.. <BR> i put it into perspective and guess what? <BR> <BR> i feel much better. <BR> <BR> i reworked the workouts--heck of a lot of emphasis on strengt... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 09:37:41 EST perspective. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5481449 so after my woe is me pity party yesterday, i thought and then planned my workout. <BR> i didnt weed or anything yesterday--just cleaned inside and got the laundry all caught up from the weekend. <BR> <BR> i got in one heck of an arm/ab strength training session [1000 exercises total for arms and abs.] changed my biking routine to higher resistance but slower pedaling and boom. <BR> <BR> today i feel so much better. <BR> today i feel sore, yes, but my head is in the game again and instead o... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 09:22:16 EST where i am. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5480322 so, ive been more than irritated with myself and although i am, that has not prompted me to DO anything. <BR> i must not want it bad enough at the moment. <BR> <BR> i am tracking food, staying above 2000 calories most days. usually 1700-1900 or thereabouts. <BR> im working out but find myself so physically tired from the stuff around the house that im not pushing myself. <BR> just walking an hour is effort. <BR> i go to bed exhausted and wake up exhausted. <BR> <BR> that being said, the h... Mon, 9 Sep 2013 09:01:47 EST im going to be "that" girl for a moment. bear with me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5469702 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1390170915.jpg"> <BR> everyone knows its been a rough summer with guests here. <BR> let me just skip to the facts: in july, i was down to 136 for about 3 seconds. <BR> today i am 140. <BR> <BR> which isnt bad. i mean, 140 is a respectable number. <BR> BUT <BR> where the hell did 136 go? <BR> <BR> i mean, i know where it went. my ma came down and that was a week of eating out every single day. and then his sister came down and then his frie... Thu, 29 Aug 2013 09:15:59 EST summertime just might kill me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5439539 i love family, right? and it has been since christmas since we've seen anyone. but i am so tired. <BR> <BR> june 21-june 31st: nephew/sister/nephew/brother in law combination of people staying here. <BR> <BR> july 20-july 27th: my mom was here and also met with my dad/nephew/sister both july 20 and the 27th. <BR> <BR> this weekend is the husband's sister and her kid[s?] <BR> next weekend is the husband's friends. <BR> the weekend after that is the husband's step mom and his 3 nieces and p... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 09:32:33 EST eating out every single day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5437096 lets see. <BR> it has been busy! <BR> friday, july 19th, i weighed in at 136.2 <BR> that is correct, 136.2. <BR> that was a 2lb loss, a little more. <BR> <BR> saturday, 20th, we went to wilkes-barre pa to pick up my mom. <BR> met at dennys, where i made good choices! <BR> i had a cheese quesadilla and a bagel. <BR> came home, had lasagna for dinner and garlic bread. <BR> <BR> sunday, we didnt do much.. went to the monkery up the street here to see monks, got some fruitcake from them, went ... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 09:31:27 EST tough week...even tougher one coming up. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5421094 this week kinda sucked. <BR> we had door installers here monday-wednesday [had 6 sets of french doors replaced plus the front door.] they were here 9 am to about 7/8 pm every day. which really messed with me. <BR> messed up the food and the workout. <BR> <BR> however, it actually kinda worked out because turns out i couldnt work out anyway. i had a really really bad sore on my leg--i mean bad. feverish, could barely walk, lightheaded. numerous times i debated on going to urgent care. <BR> th... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 21:15:31 EST finally someone says i look good and not sick. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5412742 ive been doing pretty darn good, if i do say so myself. <BR> and i do! <BR> <BR> this week i weighed in at 138....8? im not sure. i think .8 <BR> it was an off week, however, so i will take that loss! <BR> <BR> bird left monday. monday i got in a 2 hour workout, short abs/arms/legs strength training and the rest of the day i slept. <BR> tuesday was much the same but only cardio. <BR> same wednesday but short cardio. <BR> <BR> wednesday we went to our local city for dinner and fireworks. <B... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 22:03:06 EST the results are in: how i did with a week off track. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5408388 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/8/l787381951.jpg"> <BR> friday, june 21st: nephew and sister came down. <BR> sunday, june 23: sister left, nephew stayed. <BR> sunday, june 30: brother in law and other nephew came down. <BR> monday, july 1st: brother in law and both nephews left. <BR> <BR> it was a week of food, food and more food. <BR> i just attempted to blog about the nephew and food but it got sucked into the black void of cyberspace.. <BR> <BR> but thats probably for th... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 09:50:42 EST sick of being told i look sick. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5403948 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1052693298.jpg"> <BR> bird is here this week. <BR> means lots and lots of food and not really working out. <BR> <BR> except...this time, its different. <BR> i am 140.2 this morning. <BR> last friday, when they came, i was 139. <BR> can i complain? <BR> nope. <BR> nope nope nope. <BR> <BR> i have mostly been tracking my food--a bite here and there but mostly not. <BR> ive forgone dessert and just had chips or something. <BR> <BR> i am PROU... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 21:03:57 EST i will ALWAYS be the fat girl. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5400665 so, friday saw me for the first time in history in the 130s. <BR> i probably was there in high school but that wouldnt have been that big of a deal. <BR> anyways, that put me at 145 pounds down. <BR> <BR> nephew and sister came down--nephew will be here for the week. <BR> so of course, my eating and exercise are off. <BR> i do not track and do not get chuffed when family comes or when there are family events, etc. because it is just a few days and i know i can and will get right back to it. ... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 21:40:33 EST what did i do?!! i almost fell off the scale. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5397063 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/6/l969309878.jpg"> <BR> <BR> i dont have time to write a full blog because bird is on his way and i have to cook and clean. <BR> <BR> but, as you can see, i am in the low 139 area! <BR> i missed 140 completely! yesterday i was 141! <BR> <BR> 145 pounds down. <BR> i now weigh less than my dog. Fri, 21 Jun 2013 07:48:54 EST weight loss is such a mind game. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395001 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1599695001.jpg"> <BR> this was me on our wedding cruise--i had just come back from the gym and i wasnt even aware that this photo existed until we got home. <BR> holy butt! <BR> im not complaining--just, my butt has always been flat. <BR> it is not flat now!! <BR> <BR> not much to say. <BR> getting in usually 30-90 minutes biking, depending on the day. <BR> and always at least an hour walking. <BR> <BR> i have been doing so very much arou... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 09:53:01 EST rubbing pepperoni to lose weight. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380256 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1086646449.jpg"> <BR> so, back to a few blogs ago, when i was ranting about wls, the husband had said to me that i had a choice. that i dont have to work out, that i dont have to track food, etc. <BR> and i had responded with: that worked out great for me before! <BR> <BR> and what i had said to him was that it is so easy. <BR> it is easy to lose weight. <BR> no one believes me that hasnt done it themselves, but it is. <BR> <BR> there are... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 11:22:16 EST i have lost 142 pounds. i weigh 142 pounds. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5373725 so, ive been bellyaching about the scale not budging from 144 despite a LOT of hard work both intentional and around the house and the scale finally moved. <BR> i saw 142.2 today. <BR> <BR> not just 142. <BR> 142.2 <BR> <BR> i worked for it, man. this week i was in beast mode. <BR> it wasnt intentional--i wasnt thinking, damn you scale, move! <BR> <BR> monday i walked 2 hours, 10 minutes and did 50 minutes biking at the gym. we had company so i didnt track my food but i did fine. <BR> <BR... Fri, 31 May 2013 13:54:00 EST i will try to say this nicely: im envious. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5371321 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1226565802.jpg"> <BR> apologies in advance if this offends anyone. <BR> <BR> so, i have some facebook friends and family members who either have had lapband or gastric bypass or are getting it... <BR> <BR> i have ranted more than once to the husband about this but i just feel irritated and therefore, im going to blog about it. <BR> <BR> it irritates me to see them looking incredibly thin and seeing status updates about being too tired to ... Wed, 29 May 2013 10:15:05 EST not working hard enough. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5370142 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1035463091.jpg"> <BR> im not sure exactly what im doing wrong... <BR> other than apparently not working hard enough. <BR> <BR> on paper, i seem to be doing awesome, you know? <BR> i didnt search farther than april 28th, a month ago, but i have worked out for at least an hour--usually more--every single day since then. <BR> <BR> i am continuing doing strength training and even have been doing a set routine for the past two weeks where ever... Tue, 28 May 2013 09:16:10 EST if i can, you can: 140lbs gone in photos. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5344514 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1262714537.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1789034128.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/9/l991782453.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1856623373.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1919811210.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l947584695.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l115... Fri, 3 May 2013 14:44:06 EST gotta work harder: 139 pounds lost. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5336693 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1350493732.jpg"> <BR> not much going on. <BR> i stepped up the workouts this week, i think. <BR> did one hell of a strength training workout on ...wednesday. <BR> it propelled me down, though.. today i am 145.6, a full pound down. <BR> not much, but it is something. <BR> <BR> i am seeing major, major changes in my body. <BR> i can see my ribs!! when i stretch. <BR> my pelvis area looks ....concave. i did a freaking triple take this mornin... Fri, 26 Apr 2013 19:14:22 EST getting back to normal. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5332642 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l649821893.jpg"> <BR> not much going on. <BR> the past few weeks i have struggled with strength training. last week my goal was two days for arms/legs/abs. <BR> i ended up doing 2 days strength training legs, 3 days arms. <BR> <BR> yesterday i did arms and abs. today will be legs. <BR> i thought that i would be going back to the bridge to 10k today but im putting that off until next week. again. ugh. <BR> i am so very very very sore today. ... Tue, 23 Apr 2013 08:37:22 EST what im doing right. what im doing wrong. and what im not doing. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5325411 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1863331724.jpg"> <BR> i am still hovering at 146. <BR> today it was 146.2 <BR> yesterday, the same. <BR> ugh. <BR> <BR> im tracking food. <BR> getting in my water. <BR> calories range 1200-2100, depending on the day but ive been averaging 1500 or so. <BR> working out. <BR> <BR> what im doing wrong: not enough fruits and vegetables. <BR> although saturday did find me eating 2lbs of strawberries. <BR> yes, 2lbs. <BR> i absolutely love st... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 15:44:20 EST quick update! donuts and injuries! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5316345 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l342490836.jpg"> <BR> <BR> not feeling great at all lately. <BR> sore throats, headaches and dizzy still. <BR> i know its sinus related but its still torking me off. <BR> <BR> friday, we went to dinner at our movie theater. [saw evil dead] <BR> i suggested hummus with pita and vegetables for an appetizer rather than what i really wanted: fried cheese sticks. <BR> and i decided on pizza rather than a veggie burger and fries. <BR> the next d... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 20:35:12 EST 138 pounds gone....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5312386 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l118128350.jpg"> <BR> thats right, this morning i weighed in at 146.6 <BR> i was hoping to have seen 145 on the scale this week but three days the scale was stuck at 147.0 so im okay with 146. <BR> <BR> 146. <BR> i am 2 pounds away from losing 140 pounds. <BR> i literally have lost the weight of another person. <BR> and i am 6 pounds away from being in the 130s. <BR> 130s. <BR> it is absolutely positively mind blowing that i am near the 130s... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 09:32:27 EST just the days after getting back from honeymoon. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5308553 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1305902759.jpg"> <BR> last i posted, i was down to 148. <BR> friday, i was 147.2 <BR> <BR> it was a very long week for me last week. <BR> thursday, the husband went to a basketball game after work in dc so i didnt see him till almost 2am. <BR> friday, after work, he came home and slept on the couch since he was tired from being up till 2.30 or so. then we went to bed at about 10. <BR> saturday, we had a few errands and then he went to anot... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 08:47:36 EST did i lose or gain weight on my wedding/honeymoon cruise? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5301691 so, before i commence with a photo, which is what i know everyone is waiting for, some things: <BR> <BR> the trip began pretty badly with the airline losing our ONLY BAG other than my garment bag with my dress and his with his suit. everything was in that bag.. a weeks worth of clothes for both of us, both of our personal items such as shampoo, etc. all of our shoes, including my wedding heels and wedding corset and slip... his pills that he NEEDS daily. <BR> it got to us after 11am and we ... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 08:21:21 EST my last blog as a single lady.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5288224 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1618568728.jpg"> <BR> been doing okay. <BR> dizziness is still here but usually only when i bend down or put my head down or something. <BR> <BR> i began doing c25k again this week. <BR> finished it up. <BR> the day i finished it, which was running for 30 minutes straight, i decided that i wanted to begin bridge to 10k so i did that right after. <BR> which means i ran 30 minutes straight and 40 minutes in 10 minute increments. <BR> <BR> to... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 22:18:22 EST