KIYOSHI04's SparkPeople Blog KIYOSHI04's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Hating my new workout room Yesterday I blogged about the nephew and I appreciate the comments. I will just respond in saying that this hasn’t been a one time conversation. I’ve been trying to help the kids lose weight since they were like 13. There comes a point where I am wasting my time and my resources. I’ve helped him in the way that I show him what I do (I don’t do much. Workout and track my food in my notebook) And I’ve had more conversations about calories and etc than I can count. Until he’s ready he won’t do... Sat, 6 Jan 2018 06:27:35 EST I have workout clothes! Now I can workout. So as I’ve stated my nephew is here, living in the apartment above the garage and he has an eating issue as well as a weight issue. We’re talking sneaking food, hiding food, lying about food. We’re talking I can hear him breathing hard when he’s just sitting still, has bad sleep apnea and a fatty liver and all sorts of other things from Being overweight. I’m not judging. I was there. Hell, I’m still there. I may have lost over 150 pounds but I still have food issues, still Consider myself ... Fri, 5 Jan 2018 07:39:53 EST Self control Going okay. I got down to 126 because I was sick but back up to 129-130 which is okay for now. Kinda struggling with the workouts and food. When we moved, we moved into a bigger house but a different layout than our previous home so things had to be shifted. My workout stuff is now in our master bedroom sitting room and I don’t like it at all. There is no door so I have no privacy from the bedroom which means I can hear the husband snoring. Since my workouts take place while everyone is sl... Sun, 10 Dec 2017 07:27:34 EST “129 must be nice.” Move is complete. Down here in South Carolina in our new house. Despite it all—the moving, staying in a hotel, traveling, the stress from it all, I did end up tracking every day and working out. I left Virginia at 132 and am 129. That’s dealing with a 2 year old, a 22 year old nephew and the husband. And as Soon as we moved in, I got sick, the husband got sick and then the daughter got sick. E is still sick—croup. Husband is better, he got antibiotics. Me? I’m still sick because I can’t get... Fri, 24 Nov 2017 06:31:22 EST Movers are coming. Weighed in yesterday at a low 131. Movers come today to pack us up. We will be in South Carolina on Sunday. Till Friday the movers are here packing and loading. Got us microwave dinners since all our stuff will be packed. Keeping my tracking notebook to track my calories. Just found some online free workout videos since my bike and max trainer will be packed. Goal is to get an hour and a half workout in a day plus strength which will be body weight exercises since my weights will be pack... Tue, 31 Oct 2017 06:44:36 EST Staying the course during the move Moving in ...I don't know how many days. Movers come on Halloween. We leave November 5th. Not happy about the move to South Carolina. But holding up as well as I can. I actually made friends here. Like, friends. I felt like I belonged here and now it's all taken away. So we leave November 5th in the wee hours of the morning because the little one gets carsick and it's a 6 hour drive. And we leave here with no dogs that we came with since both had to be put down for very different reasons. ... Thu, 19 Oct 2017 06:18:35 EST Motivator of the day! But I'm barely here. Well I appreciate being motivator of the day. <BR> <BR> I'm not here often anymore. Ive been doing this for a long time now--9 years! So I don't have a lot to say. I do what I do with little deviation. <BR> <BR> I track my foods in my notebook I keep on the kitchen counter. <BR> Like always, I go over. <BR> Like always, most of my calories comes from chips or chocolate. <BR> Like always, I strive to do better tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I workout. I bike 10-40 miles a day and do the stepper we ha... Thu, 8 Jun 2017 22:22:29 EST 150 pounds lost. I'm weighing in around 134-132 pounds. <BR> Still busting my butt working out in the times I have "free." Early mornings, nap time and after e goes in her crib for the night at when I get my working out done. <BR> Still tracking food. <BR> Water intake isn't great lately but I don't have a lot of time to think about that stuff anymore. <BR> <BR> House is on the market. <BR> The stress of moving plus the day to day stress of having a toddler is sometimes overwhelming. <BR> <BR> I'm over trai... Mon, 5 Jun 2017 07:26:49 EST The obligatory year in review... It's been awhile since I've been here. My iPad broke and I couldn't blog with my phone but the husband gave me an iPad for Christmas so here I am. <BR> <BR> Well, the little one is now 19 months almost. Walking, talking little girl. How did this happen? <BR> <BR> I don't remember, last time I blogged, my weight. But I'm 145 today which is okay. <BR> I'm still 8lbs shy of pre-baby weight but it's the season for snacking so I'm just not too concerned. <BR> <BR> I bike 15-20 miles per day an... Sat, 31 Dec 2016 06:55:59 EST how to show my daughter I love my body So, e is now over a year old. I am exercising daily--I get in 15 miles on the bike pretty much daily. There will be maybe 1-2 times a month I don't bike this much but mostly I do. I do 300 abs/arms/legs strength training per day. As of last week, I've been getting in the water. And I've been trying to make better food choices. I still track my food daily. If you know me at all, you know there won't be a day I won't have a cupcake or a candy bar. Just won't happen. But I've been eating a lot... Sun, 12 Jun 2016 07:07:49 EST i'm becoming a cliche i am feeling down right now and my six month old--really, i have a six month old--is asleep for now and i actually have internet so i thought id blog. <BR> <BR> lots of things going on. <BR> <BR> i began the pregnancy at 138 pounds. <BR> i was induced at 192 pounds. <BR> today i am.. well, i dont know, but yesterday i was 168 pounds. <BR> <BR> most days, i get up before e wakes up and get some of my biking done. i bike at least 6 miles a day but most days 12 but the goal is always 15. some... Tue, 24 Nov 2015 20:05:06 EST had a child.. well, i was due may 26th. <BR> i had esmerelda jeanne on may 2nd. <BR> <BR> during the whole pregnancy, i had my typical low blood pressure. it was extremely low. and then all the sudden it went high. <BR> and then higher. and then higher. <BR> i was hospitalized twice, released, and then during a check up, was hospitalized with the dr. saying we are inducing you, you are getting too sick with pre-eclampsia. <BR> so i stayed in the hospital and the medicine to induce did nothing. my blood p... Tue, 2 Jun 2015 16:56:13 EST ...4 months, 30 pounds. unfortunately, not to the better. <BR> <BR> i am 5 months pregnant. <BR> <BR> it is difficult. <BR> i am frazzled and not in a good place. <BR> <BR> i went off of birth control in july and in august, i got pregnant. <BR> we had begun trying, obviously, since i had went off birth control. <BR> i just, you know, didnt think it would happen in a month. <BR> <BR> the husband and i, though only married coming up on two years, have been together for 16 years. i was looking forward to you know,... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 11:52:05 EST That don't impress me much! (Oh wait, yes it does!) Not much to say. Been a long time since I've blogged. <BR> The kitchen remodel is still going on, although (I hope) the hard part is done. The new cabinets are in. <BR> Now it is waiting for countertops. And then at a later date, the floor will be done. <BR> <BR> The husband took off a week and two days of work and I was concerned it would throw me off. It's a lot with the mess and cooking two extra meals a day and especially with a remodel, there's a lot of "hand me this," "paint that"... I... Fri, 12 Sep 2014 10:22:56 EST What happened to me??? And in loving memory of Walter.. So, I've been struggling these past few months. Obviously. What with the house remodeling and antibiotic and ugh. <BR> <BR> We put Walter down. The vet said he would deteriorate pretty quickly. He might recover but once we saw the signs of internal bleeding, we knew. He was vomiting and not himself on that Monday night. I knew it'd be my last night with him. I slept downstairs with him, knowing that I might wake up to find him gone. He wasn't... But we took him in that day. I won't watch som... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 10:34:34 EST Cue excuses: now! It is suck suck sucking lately. <BR> We had floor refinished and I thought it was going to be an awesome few days... Upstairs with the dogs, biking. Except that didn't happen. They had to be downstairs and we took my bike down there but the fumes from the floor being refinished stopped me from working out since I had a pounding headache. I also had no access to a bathroom until they left around 6/7 pm so that stopped me from drinking water. <BR> It sucked. <BR> Floors look awesome so it was... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 19:21:26 EST Guess what happens when you don't work out for weeks? You get a fat ass. <BR> <BR> It's been rough here. So rough. <BR> <BR> To begin with, I went to the dermatologist about face and demanded to come off of the antibiotic that was seriously causing me to be so fatigued that I could barely move. He said no. <BR> I am now on half the dose and feeling much much like my old self. A little fatigued but nothing like I was. <BR> <BR> The house is in a constant state of chaos. <BR> Gah. <BR> Got bedroom painted. Got dining room painted. Got family ... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 21:56:28 EST if i didnt know what the scale read, would i be happy? so, everyone knows about the face wash debacle that has scarred my face, im thinking for life since its now been 2 months... and the antibiotics that i have to be on.. <BR> <BR> it is still sucking majorly with them. so fatigued. <BR> i begin each morning waking up more tired than before i went to bed. but i plan to make it a great day. and then i end up sitting on the couch saying that i cant do it. <BR> <BR> having serious heartburn related issues as well. swallowing is extremely painful... Wed, 7 May 2014 10:46:58 EST and so it goes.. im still here. <BR> <BR> so last time i was here, it was 4/2... at least, last time i was here blogging. <BR> <BR> the days leading up to the 10th were rough--husband's sister and her family were coming down on their way south for the night. that meant that i cleaned entire house top to bottom. the 10th was the husband's birthday and also my doctor appointment about my face. [more on that in a minute.] <BR> <BR> the 10th and 11th were okay. i was cooking and cleaning. i didnt eat much. <BR... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 12:04:44 EST the crumbling balance and the struggle.. its been rough. <BR> ever since we got back from vegas, ive been a sloth. <BR> i just cant seem to do this any longer. <BR> <BR> the working out is severely lacking. i havent strength trained. <BR> barely working out.. <BR> well, thats not exactly true. most days i get in a 5 mile walk if not more. <BR> but its a struggle. <BR> <BR> i know that the antibiotics im on have a side effect of extreme fatigue, so im guessing that is it. also i just got glasses and they have been causing headach... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 18:20:57 EST the best laid plans....apparently dont happen in vegas. lets begin with my face... thanks to everyone for the kind words, goodies, etc.. <BR> my face is doing okay. the swelling from the sores from the face wash have gone down and only in one place can you see where they cut me to drain the infection... <BR> drs. said that my skin wont look close to normal for at least a month. <BR> have to be on antibiotics for at least another 2 months.. <BR> <BR> so, we went to vegas for our anniversary. our one year anniversary. <BR> sunday we packed and took... Tue, 25 Mar 2014 09:18:30 EST how a face wash has derailed me.. yes, it is possible. so, our one year anniversary is coming up and my face has been breaking out. <BR> last week, i got a face wash to try to clear it up and well, ..... <BR> it burned me and took off two layers of skin. <BR> and then i got a horrible infection that spread because i couldnt get to the dr in time for antibiotics. <BR> <BR> when i went to the doctor, he had originally wanted me to see a plastic surgeon. <BR> but because they have waiting lists that are long and i needed treatment NOW, they called ... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 20:55:10 EST unexpected news: size six pants and dr. said what???!! <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> my mind is a muddle. <BR> <BR> first, i needed new pants. i had an interview and all of my black dress pants were big exceptionally too big. one pair was passable but i went to kohls to expect great things. hahahahahaha. <BR> and i was right to! <BR> <BR> on their clearance rack, i found a pair of 4$!! jeans. 4$ <BR> the only problem was they we... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 08:35:52 EST m&ms... its been...slow, i guess. <BR> <BR> we had company friday evening through sunday morning and that time found me doing nothing and i mean pretty much nothing but cooking. <BR> thankfully it was the husbands friends and most of it was meat so i couldnt eat it anyways, but i did make chocolate chip cookies and funfetti cookies and a cheesecake. and my favorite biscuits. <BR> <BR> thankfully i dont like sugar cookies and i had one slice of cheesecake, and i did have about 7 cookies over 2 days.... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 09:40:04 EST 150 pounds in photos. <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=" Fri, 21 Feb 2014 20:58:17 EST losing 150 pounds. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> thats right. <BR> i have lost 150 pounds. <BR> <BR> today was not a good day. <BR> woke to no power. <BR> and no water. <BR> <BR> i can deal without television. i can deal without internet. <BR> i cannot deal without water or heat. <BR> with dirty dishes that had been soaking from last night's dessert. <BR> with having to give the dogs bottled water. <BR> <BR> ugh. <BR> i did okay. i mean, couldnt eat much s... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 20:25:22 EST just keeping on. not much is going on. <BR> today i was 136lbs which isnt terrible considering. <BR> considering what....? <BR> the overwhelming stress and anxiety i feel, the fact that it was valentines day and the fact that we ate out yesterday. <BR> <BR> valentines day found me cooking most of the day. <BR> the husband gave me a box of ferrero rochers as my gift and i ate the whole box. well, thats not true. there were 12 in the box and i ate eight. the other 4 were coconut [ugh] and i hate coconut. <BR>... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 20:14:40 EST 149 pounds down. thats right i weighed in at 135 today. <BR> <BR> i have worked for that 135. <BR> past few days ive been walking 5 miles, biking 24 miles and doing strength training. plus at night going for a walk with the husband and dogs. <BR> <BR> today, well, i woke up to hell. <BR> okay, its not that bad. <BR> but ....its not been a good day. <BR> <BR> major stuff with the husband's work that everyone has probably seen on cnn. <BR> who knows if it will affect him or how...but its not good. <BR> and ... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 16:34:10 EST the embarrassment of being fat. i lead a very small life. <BR> i have my immediate family of husband, two dogs, mom, dad, three sisters, one sister in law, three brother in laws, 6 nephews and 3 nieces. <BR> my extended family is huge with my mom being one of 16 kids, most who had at least 2 or more kids... and my dad is one of 9 kids, again, all who had at least two children. <BR> <BR> i have a best friend who i met here, on spark.. <BR> and i have two pretty good friends.. one who i met here on spark and one from high ... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 09:43:23 EST stop relying on motivation. ive spoken of this before. <BR> how it irks me when people blame everything on their lack of motivation. <BR> as if that explains everything. <BR> <BR> ive heard from sister, etc. how they wish they had my "motivation." <BR> how they need my "motivation." <BR> how it must be nice to be so "motivated." <BR> <BR> do you think that when i get out of bed in the morning, my day depends on my motivation level? <BR> if i went by that, i'd be 284 pounds still..or higher. <BR> <BR> it is habit, no... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 14:46:37 EST addiction. on a different blog, i had mentioned my dis-taste of people using the phrase they fell off the wagon or need to get back on the wagon... for a weight loss website that promotes "lifestyle" changes, on the wagon should have no place here. <BR> <BR> a comment on the blog about how one person hadnt heard that around here and that "on the wagon" refers to being sober.... left me thinking about the parallels of food/weightloss to drug/alcohol issues. <BR> <BR> as well as another comment which wa... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 08:56:27 EST life is too short to count calories... my cousin put on facebook that she was making cookies and tagged me in it, thinking i would like them. few days later, she was talking about the cookies and i responded that i looked at recipe, looks good, but havent made them yet due to calories... <BR> <BR> she responded that life is too short to count calories, that no one gets out alive anyways. <BR> <BR> now, i know that it was meant to be funny and not a jab at me or anything but it did get me to thinking about it.. <BR> <BR> what i ... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 16:57:52 EST there is no wagon. there is just life. few things irritate me about this site more than having it proclaimed that we are not here for a quick fix, this is a lifestyle change etc etc and then in the next breath talk about how we need to "get back on the wagon." <BR> <BR> for me, there is no wagon. there is just life. <BR> and i think that puts me at a distinct advantage. <BR> <BR> let me digress... <BR> before the holidays, i was down to 135 or 136. not sure. <BR> and by holidays, i mean christmas and new year.... <BR> <BR> the ... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 08:45:41 EST if you cant reach your goals, are you a failure? my body just seems to want to stay at 140. well 139, 138, 137... 140. <BR> i am working out 2-4 hours a day... mixture of biking and walking. <BR> getting in 16 cups of water if not more per day. <BR> getting in strength training usually 2-3 times a week--all 3 zones. usually 500 to 1500 reps worth of exercises. never less than 500. <BR> tracking my food--trying to stay around 1600-1700 calories. sometimes it works. sometimes it doesnt. <BR> <BR> i think that maybe this next week im going t... Wed, 11 Dec 2013 08:42:10 EST one step forward, two steps back. i havent blogged since october. insane! <BR> <BR> so, without the stories involved, i will just say that the food is sometimes okay, sometimes not okay. <BR> sometimes higher calories than id like. <BR> <BR> workouts still good. pretty good, id say. <BR> 2-4 hours a day mixes of biking and walking. <BR> strength training still doing pretty well at. <BR> <BR> i was alone--yes completely alone--for thanksgiving this year. <BR> i was not supposed to be alone which is why i was upset. <BR> lon... Wed, 4 Dec 2013 09:08:15 EST just two photos. <img src=""> <img src=""> Mon, 21 Oct 2013 08:56:29 EST what does loading up 1200 pounds of wood get you? a sore back. so the husband and i have been cleaning the yard up. said before the previous occupants of this house worked at the circus so there is a lot of trampoline like stuff buried in the backyard with trees and we have huge rocks and ive been loading all that stuff up. plus weeding. <BR> <BR> the husband went to the dump and they weigh it in. i loaded up 1200 pounds of wood, rocks, weeds...all by myself. he had not loaded one since stick on that trailer. <BR> <BR> which is why for the past week an... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 11:08:20 EST sometimes, all you want to do is workout. or: when am i done? ive been doing much better. <BR> head is for sure back in the game. <BR> <BR> sometimes i dont notice my own progress. <BR> i am wearing size ten around the house. <BR> that is a big deal because i like my pants to be very loose. <BR> so i think im a size 8. <BR> i havent found any cheap 8 jeans yet so ill just keep on with a belt. <BR> <BR> yesterday i had such a great strength training workout planned. <BR> and then drama happened. <BR> drama that saw me on the phone w 911 in new york fo... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 08:34:48 EST she thought she could. so she did. <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> after a month of floundering.. a month of feeling woe is me. <BR> a month of feeling tired and exhausted and run down.. <BR> i put it into perspective and guess what? <BR> <BR> i feel much better. <BR> <BR> i reworked the workouts--heck of a lot of emphasis on strengt... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 09:37:41 EST perspective. so after my woe is me pity party yesterday, i thought and then planned my workout. <BR> i didnt weed or anything yesterday--just cleaned inside and got the laundry all caught up from the weekend. <BR> <BR> i got in one heck of an arm/ab strength training session [1000 exercises total for arms and abs.] changed my biking routine to higher resistance but slower pedaling and boom. <BR> <BR> today i feel so much better. <BR> today i feel sore, yes, but my head is in the game again and instead o... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 09:22:16 EST where i am. so, ive been more than irritated with myself and although i am, that has not prompted me to DO anything. <BR> i must not want it bad enough at the moment. <BR> <BR> i am tracking food, staying above 2000 calories most days. usually 1700-1900 or thereabouts. <BR> im working out but find myself so physically tired from the stuff around the house that im not pushing myself. <BR> just walking an hour is effort. <BR> i go to bed exhausted and wake up exhausted. <BR> <BR> that being said, the h... Mon, 9 Sep 2013 09:01:47 EST im going to be "that" girl for a moment. bear with me. <img src=""> <BR> everyone knows its been a rough summer with guests here. <BR> let me just skip to the facts: in july, i was down to 136 for about 3 seconds. <BR> today i am 140. <BR> <BR> which isnt bad. i mean, 140 is a respectable number. <BR> BUT <BR> where the hell did 136 go? <BR> <BR> i mean, i know where it went. my ma came down and that was a week of eating out every single day. and then his sister came down and then his frie... Thu, 29 Aug 2013 09:15:59 EST summertime just might kill me. i love family, right? and it has been since christmas since we've seen anyone. but i am so tired. <BR> <BR> june 21-june 31st: nephew/sister/nephew/brother in law combination of people staying here. <BR> <BR> july 20-july 27th: my mom was here and also met with my dad/nephew/sister both july 20 and the 27th. <BR> <BR> this weekend is the husband's sister and her kid[s?] <BR> next weekend is the husband's friends. <BR> the weekend after that is the husband's step mom and his 3 nieces and p... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 09:32:33 EST eating out every single day. lets see. <BR> it has been busy! <BR> friday, july 19th, i weighed in at 136.2 <BR> that is correct, 136.2. <BR> that was a 2lb loss, a little more. <BR> <BR> saturday, 20th, we went to wilkes-barre pa to pick up my mom. <BR> met at dennys, where i made good choices! <BR> i had a cheese quesadilla and a bagel. <BR> came home, had lasagna for dinner and garlic bread. <BR> <BR> sunday, we didnt do much.. went to the monkery up the street here to see monks, got some fruitcake from them, went ... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 09:31:27 EST tough week...even tougher one coming up. this week kinda sucked. <BR> we had door installers here monday-wednesday [had 6 sets of french doors replaced plus the front door.] they were here 9 am to about 7/8 pm every day. which really messed with me. <BR> messed up the food and the workout. <BR> <BR> however, it actually kinda worked out because turns out i couldnt work out anyway. i had a really really bad sore on my leg--i mean bad. feverish, could barely walk, lightheaded. numerous times i debated on going to urgent care. <BR> th... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 21:15:31 EST finally someone says i look good and not sick. ive been doing pretty darn good, if i do say so myself. <BR> and i do! <BR> <BR> this week i weighed in at 138....8? im not sure. i think .8 <BR> it was an off week, however, so i will take that loss! <BR> <BR> bird left monday. monday i got in a 2 hour workout, short abs/arms/legs strength training and the rest of the day i slept. <BR> tuesday was much the same but only cardio. <BR> same wednesday but short cardio. <BR> <BR> wednesday we went to our local city for dinner and fireworks. <B... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 22:03:06 EST the results are in: how i did with a week off track. <img src=""> <BR> friday, june 21st: nephew and sister came down. <BR> sunday, june 23: sister left, nephew stayed. <BR> sunday, june 30: brother in law and other nephew came down. <BR> monday, july 1st: brother in law and both nephews left. <BR> <BR> it was a week of food, food and more food. <BR> i just attempted to blog about the nephew and food but it got sucked into the black void of cyberspace.. <BR> <BR> but thats probably for th... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 09:50:42 EST sick of being told i look sick. <img src=""> <BR> bird is here this week. <BR> means lots and lots of food and not really working out. <BR> <BR> except...this time, its different. <BR> i am 140.2 this morning. <BR> last friday, when they came, i was 139. <BR> can i complain? <BR> nope. <BR> nope nope nope. <BR> <BR> i have mostly been tracking my food--a bite here and there but mostly not. <BR> ive forgone dessert and just had chips or something. <BR> <BR> i am PROU... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 21:03:57 EST i will ALWAYS be the fat girl. so, friday saw me for the first time in history in the 130s. <BR> i probably was there in high school but that wouldnt have been that big of a deal. <BR> anyways, that put me at 145 pounds down. <BR> <BR> nephew and sister came down--nephew will be here for the week. <BR> so of course, my eating and exercise are off. <BR> i do not track and do not get chuffed when family comes or when there are family events, etc. because it is just a few days and i know i can and will get right back to it. ... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 21:40:33 EST what did i do?!! i almost fell off the scale. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> i dont have time to write a full blog because bird is on his way and i have to cook and clean. <BR> <BR> but, as you can see, i am in the low 139 area! <BR> i missed 140 completely! yesterday i was 141! <BR> <BR> 145 pounds down. <BR> i now weigh less than my dog. Fri, 21 Jun 2013 07:48:54 EST