KITTY775's SparkPeople Blog KITTY775's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Starting over again I restarted my goals today. It was time. I've been on a bad trajectory for the past few month, bad eating habits, not enough exercise, weight climbing. I having been posting to my blog, either, so it's about time I started again. <BR> <BR> I've been reading though. I've been on Spark People every day for 326 days, even when I'm not doing anything else. I've been there because I have been trying to keep the connection with my weight loss goals, even though I haven't been doing anything about... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 14:31:47 EST Baby steps toward a new life I was inspired by 111BUTTERFLY111 and her New Year's blog about goal-setting. But I have found myself struggling and thinking over the course of days about how to set my own goals. Establishing goals does not come that easily to me. <BR> <BR> Of course, I have my big goal. Lose all this weight and go on to live the fabulous, energetic and athletic life I originally set out to have before I allowed this huge weight barrier to get in the way. But getting from here to there just seems to stret... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 18:45:40 EST Like a vegan My husband gave me that look when I told him I think I need to follow a vegan diet. The look said, "We are meat eaters." <BR> <BR> It is true. I like a good steak or a hamburger with cheese and lots of mustard. I enjoy chicken, cheese, yogurt, baked goods with whipped cream on top. But I am learning that my body doesn't like them as well and I am starting to think all this itching and what not is its form of rebellion. <BR> <BR> "I never thought I would be married to a vegan," my husband... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 14:06:46 EST A growth moment I think I am growing a bit in my willingness to be accountable for my weight. <BR> <BR> Let's put it this way, I've been having a bad week -- REALLY bad -- as far as diet is concerned. They have been rolling out the holiday cookies at work and I have done a poor job of limiting my intake, not to mention Christmas parties where I have overindulged from the food table. <BR> <BR> I have felt like a stuffed Christmas goose and I have been more puffy from water retention, plus long holiday dead... Mon, 24 Dec 2012 11:48:37 EST Up to scratch I promised to report back on that diet-related itching problem I was having. It has been over a week and I do believe moderating my diet has helped. <BR> <BR> It is hard to know exactly what has been successful though, because I was so extremely desperate to reach an end to the itching I tried several different things at once. A true scientific inquiry might have resulted in more specific results, but I think my approach meant quicker results, Which were more important to me. Things I tried... Sat, 22 Dec 2012 13:43:27 EST A month down the road I had my one month anniversary on Spark People yesterday. I didn't realize it had only been such a short time, so much has changed in my life. <BR> <BR> I had been so disillusioned by other diet attempts that for a couple of years I had pretty much given up. I thought I would be obese for the rest of my -- undoubtedly abbreviated -- life. Like many of the other people in my family, I expected to die of heart disease or stroke at a relatively young age. At my weight, I knew I wasn't far away... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 09:05:17 EST Itching for an answer I have an inexplicable itching problem. I have had it for several years now and there is no clear reason for it. No one food seems to cause it. It happens more often at night, but not always. It happens most often after dinner, but sometimes not. <BR> <BR> I have rosacea, but the itching is more often on my back arms and worst on my chest and neck. One sign that it is starting is that my body seems to exude a sticky substance in some of the areas where I itch the worst. It can be tortuous. ... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 10:13:28 EST Keeping it real Yesterday, my husband said, "You seem to be doing better on this diet than some of the others." <BR> <BR> It's true, I don't seem to be having the kind of anxiety I have felt with other diets. I have been on a lot of diets: cabbage soup diet, food combining, Weight Watchers and most recently juice fasting, even a few methods I made up myself, even the Pepsi and Baby Ruth bar diet a friend of mine made up a long time ago. <BR> <BR> My husband has watched me try and fail and try again. He kn... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 16:09:52 EST Expensive junk My husband and I are particularly good at spending money. Without a budget system in place, we would quickly and easily spend on the latest impulse gadget, music, books and apps from the iTunes Store, a cute shirt or any other trivial thing that comes along. Our impulse control could be much better. <BR> <BR> So we give ourselves allowances for discretionary spending from every paycheck. It is about $100 every two weeks, which should be plenty to play around with. My strategy is to save abou... Sun, 25 Nov 2012 14:25:33 EST Water baby Sometimes I think I am part otter. I think I could live my entire life In the water. When I was young, i used to look forward every summer to romping every day in the city pool. So when it came time to get back on a regular exercise program, water aerobics seemed the best answer. <BR> <BR> I'm not a big fan of sweating. When I work out on land I tend to get red-faced and swell up like a puffer fish -- yuck. I also tend to wheeze and gasp from having to carry all my weight around. In the wat... Thu, 22 Nov 2012 11:54:09 EST The defiant one Starting a new diet is an interesting and exciting phase for me. I've taken the first step. I have started eating more in moderation. I am exercising again. I feel strong in mind and body (well I'm getting there anyway). I feel I have the power to succeed. My sense of food defiance is at its height. <BR> <BR> The leftover Halloween candy waiting for someone to eat it may tempt me, but it does not control me. The same goes for the potato chips stored conveniently for my husband's lunch-makin... Sat, 17 Nov 2012 20:59:53 EST Hungry for the first time I woke up feeling hungry for the first time in a very long time today. I don't feel that's a bad thing. I have actually been looking forward to the feeling a bit. It is one way to feel in tune with my body, and my body and I have been out of touch for far too long. <BR> <BR> I have wrestled with my situation of overeating and lack of strength over food for quite some time now and how it parallels the terrible situation in our nation. We are a nation of excess in which millions are hungry an... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 07:58:13 EST