KIM_POSSIBLE77's SparkPeople Blog KIM_POSSIBLE77's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Graduation Day I finally got onto my laptop so I thought I would share my daughters BIG day. I still can't believe that she is all done with HS, the time really did just go too darn fast! The day was perfect (besides the humidity). This weekend we are having her graduation picnic. Thanks to the tropical storm coming up it looks like we maybe moving the day to Sunday and not Saturday....but either way she will be surrounded by those that love her to pieces! <BR> <BR> Sam and Mom <BR> <img src="http://photo... Thu, 22 Jun 2017 10:01:36 EST Bounce Back.....Goodbye baggage! It simply is amazing how differently one can feel after letting go. Yesterday's blog was me letting go of some feelings that I had been hanging onto for a long time. It is hard for me to open up sometimes and I'm glad that I was able to do that yesterday. <BR> <BR> Even today when she tells me that "you should drink more green tea, because it will help you burn fat".....I just smiled at her and said, "Your right, I will have to buy some".....mind you I usually drink a cup or two a day when ... Wed, 21 Jun 2017 13:59:27 EST Body Image Looking at me you would see a strong and confident woman. At least that is what I portray. What you wouldn't see is the struggle I have sometimes daily to find the beauty within. After years of childhood abuse both sexual and mental abuse, there are times I fight to find my worth. Through the years I have gotten VERY good at tucking away the voices that pop up and tell me I'm not good enough, that I shouldn't wear something because someone may see my back fat, or big hips and thighs. I have c... Tue, 20 Jun 2017 09:01:23 EST Monday Monday This has to be the best Monday ever....only two and a half days of work and I am going to be off work for two weeks! I can't wait to just mentally unplug from my job. While I will be logging on each morning to keep the emails at bay, I won't be doing any work and will be delegating! So even with this heatwave we are in I'm ok with it, as once Wednesday hits the temps will be go back down into the "acceptable" levels and I can enjoy some time with my Mom and daughter! My weekend was good, re... Mon, 12 Jun 2017 07:47:16 EST Where has this week gone? I just realized that I have not blogged in a couple days. No worries I am still working hard on myself and my goals. Tuesday I did two workouts and got in all my steps. MAN did I feel that yesterday when just opening my eyes hurt! Ever workout so hard that the next day (OK maybe the next two days) your actually thanking God there is a handicap stall in the bathroom at work so you can use the bars to help you up and down.....YES that has been me! <BR> (side note: I wonder if my family would m... Thu, 8 Jun 2017 13:28:06 EST Never Miss a Monday Looking back at yesterday I can really say....DANG I was in a total funk. After I wrote my blog I didn't do much, vegged and relaxed. Ended up walking in place and still didn't get in all my steps for the day. I was ok with that because I also told my husband what has been bothering me. I honestly believe that opening up here helped me to open up to him. Today I woke up refreshed and honestly for the first time in a long time I was wide awake before I even had a sip of coffee! I read some p... Mon, 5 Jun 2017 21:17:20 EST Sunday....letting go of some venting. So far today I have been busy cleaning my house and getting it ready for another family to come and see it....and hopefully be the ones that want to buy it. At this point our house has been on the market for a little over a month and the pressure is starting to build. The only good thing is that my house is literally the cleanest it has ever been. It is like a constant state of picking up and cleaning every day. <BR> <BR> While I love it cleaned to the max, it is also a pain in my bum. I sa... Sun, 4 Jun 2017 13:05:27 EST Finding begins There have been so many things going on in my life. My baby is graduating in just a couple weeks and it has really put me in a tail spin. I am excited and happy for her, but until this week I didn't understand the depression it has put me in. Due to this I have been eating has been insane and workouts to an almost zero level. <BR> <BR> Talking with my BFF I realized what I was doing, and while I'm still sad...I have put my foot down. I cannot continue to let myself keep living... Sat, 3 Jun 2017 16:04:05 EST Ups and Downs and All Around I've been in a crazy circle of life. Work has been busy with meetings and the gym gets skipped. It's like a horrible cycle that always seems to get me when I'm in full swing. Then I get pissed for not working out, and of course turn to food...because after all that should just cure it all! I know that's not the case, but that is the merry go round I am on. A month ago I was able to finally spend time with my Sister/BFF. We spent a day in Seattle and it was SO much fun. I got to see her litt... Sat, 15 Apr 2017 08:04:10 EST They Say a Picture is Worth a Thousands Words Last Friday I think I had a thousand words for a picture of myself and not one of them was a nice word. I was captured at a Super Saturday event by the even photographer. I was excited to see that I had a picture of myself.....until I clicked on the link and this picture popped up on my computer screen! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It instantly pulled me into the depths of self hate. I looked at it and felt... Mon, 23 Jan 2017 12:11:10 EST Friday the 13th It is totally Friday the 13th! I forgot my chicken meatballs for my veggie soup, and then I realized I forgot all my workout clothes at home! Yup, the Friday the 13th vibes attacked me today! However it is alright, Hubby is totally down with going to the gym tonight and I went out to lunch with some coworkers and we were able to let off some steam! You know that is good for the soul! LOL <BR> <BR> So an update on how I have been doing....well I have been kicking some major BUM! Seriously it ... Fri, 13 Jan 2017 14:59:21 EST Monday, la la la la la Well so much for workouts this weekend, that is unless you count the little bit of snow shoveling I did. Saturday after I got home from my event, which I left early because of the snow, all I did was rest. It was like my body was totally wore out and I could not get enough sleep. I am not sure if it was my bodies way of fighting off what ever bug is going around my office. So then my plan was to workout on Sunday after I got done at the grocery store that morning. Only to then stand in line a... Mon, 9 Jan 2017 12:28:38 EST is FRIDAY!!! I cannot even start to describe how happy I am that not only is it Friday, not only am I going to this amazing Beachbody event tomorrow, Not only do my Seahawks play in the first playoff game tomorrow....but I am just a half hour away from completing day 12 of 21 Day Fix!! I am over half way done with this program and I am just over-joyed! I cannot even remember the last time I completed a full program......wait, it might be around the last time I dyed my hair (thank goodness the last time wa... Fri, 6 Jan 2017 13:27:28 EST Cheesecake Factory and Leg Day Today was our make up birthday lunch. The girls at my work celebrate our birthdays by going out to lunch and the person(s) who we are celebrating does not pay anything. Just a fun way of caring about the people that we work with. Well today was our lunch at Cheesecake Factory. Won't lie I had a slice of cheesecake....and MAN was it worth it! Figured I would burn it all off tonight at the gym, but then I get home and the husband has a headache so no gym tonight. However I am not going to let t... Wed, 4 Jan 2017 19:08:20 EST Never Miss a Monday! It sure has been nice having the last two Mondays off from work. Has made getting in my workouts easy and put that spark into the start of every week. I can understand why they say "Never miss a Monday" as you get this one in and it sets you up on the right track for the week. <BR> <BR> I have sat down today and put down my goals for the year. While I knew from my birthday in December that I wanted the next year to be my healthiest I did not actually write down my goals until today. <BR> ... Mon, 2 Jan 2017 16:29:37 EST New Years Eve....goodbye 2016 In just a few hours we will be celebrating the New Year. I do not remember looking forward to a New Year so much as I am this one. While there have been some great times I have had with my family this year, it was also one of the hardest years we have had. Losing my mother in law and watching my husband break down in my arms is something that I will never forget. It was even harder when I lost my ex-mother in law who I was still very close with. So close that she would spend holidays with me,... Sat, 31 Dec 2016 18:02:34 EST Like a Kid in the Candy Store! This morning I came into work and it was raining and cold. However I was feeling pretty great about things. It is mornings like this that remind me of home. For the last couple mornings my BFF has been on my mind. Not in a bad way, but in the "a song comes on and I think of her" kind of way. Yesterday it was Bad Day that came on. It reminded me of the days of sitting on her porch drinking Starbucks and chatting away as the girls played in the yard. Today it was Bob Marley - Everything's Gonna... Thu, 29 Dec 2016 12:19:16 EST The world of INSTANT I tell my daughter all the time that her generation is full of "instant" wants and desires. It is like they want to graduate and be instant CEO's and not have to work to get ahead in the ranks of a company. The hard work that needs to be put in, the time that it takes to build up that career is foreign to them. <BR> <BR> Then we go to this morning....when I was looking at myself in the mirror. Now I have been working out for two days (today marks my 3rd strait day) and here I was looking in... Wed, 28 Dec 2016 11:36:41 EST Time Flies.... I sit here and read some of my older blogs and honestly just shake my head. I'm trying to figure out at what point was it that I gave up. I have such plans, I map it all out, do perfect/or close to it and then......BOOM right back up on the scale and starting all over again! <BR> <BR> So where is the point that I stop? Where is it that I decide processed foods and candy out weigh my desire and WANT to be healthy and no longer overweight? I feel one obstetrical I have is that I begin to get ... Tue, 27 Dec 2016 15:56:07 EST My Story....My Why! I just shared the below "story of my life" in a fitness challenge group on Facebook and just knew it was time to share it here. I think that I had shared a little of this prior, but I know at the time I wasn't free of the demons that kept me from being the person I am today. I want to share this because if ANYONE else out there has had any of this happen to them I want them to know they aren't alone. <em>3</em> <em>3</em> <em>3</em> <em>3</em> <em>3</em> <em>3</em> I see ... Fri, 21 Aug 2015 14:50:26 EST Finding my Spark has moved to FOUND my Spark! When I look at my page I see the "Member Since 9/2/2009" listed there, honestly it used to make me sad. It made me sad because for almost 6 years I struggled with starting and continuing on the path of healthy choices and working out. I failed to find the inner spark I needed to really be inspiring or motivational to anyone. I can remember being intimidated by that date because I should have been so much further.....I should have been done with my weight loss journey and living the life of ma... Wed, 19 Aug 2015 16:36:02 EST I may be away from here....but I'm still kicking bottom! I thought that I would make a quick blog and share all that has been going on. <BR> <BR> 1)In my works biggest loser challenge I won 3rd place (I was .74 away from 1st place) <BR> 2) I started my Masters program this week. (woohoo school time) <BR> 3) I finished STRONG with my 1st round of 21 Day Fix. I lost 12lbs and 20.5 inches. <BR> 4) Started a weight loss challenge with my husband (7/1/15-8/25/15 eight weeks). <BR> 5) Started a 21 Day Fix/Combat combo on 7/1/15 to 8/25/15. Will be do... Thu, 2 Jul 2015 13:48:38 EST National Walk At Lunch Day So far I am knocking my weekly goal of 3+ miles out of the park! I drove my daughter to school today so I walked into work. That was 1.2 miles in and 1.2 miles back (uphill). Today is also National Walk At Work day. Working at a health insurance company does have it's perks as I got a longer lunch and was able to walk around one of the most beautiful little parks in Center City Philadelphia. Three trips around and I got another 1.6 miles in, That will give today a total of 3.10 miles just dur... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 15:48:37 EST Monday...and I got in my 3+ miles! I am so proud of myself. I took today off just to give myself one more day to make sure I was well enough to head back to work. So because of that I did not want to give up on my 3+ miles that I would get in by walking my round trips from my car/home...I went to the gym. <BR> <BR> I kept putting it off all morning until one of my girlfriends posted her mileage/time and it actually helped me to get my bum off my chair and out the door. It also pushed me to beat her time which I did! I also g... Mon, 27 Apr 2015 16:44:01 EST Stomach Flu = Detour Last week was a total off week for me. I was so tired all week. I blamed it first on the crazy neighbors keeping us up until midnight with the crazy drama and cops being called. But I now know it was because I was getting sick. Friday morning at 3am it all came to a head with me running to the bathroom and me "tossing my cookies" for 2 hours. After that it was just a bathroom-sleep kind of day. I joked with my girlfriend that I should have days like this before my weigh in days as I was down ... Sun, 26 Apr 2015 11:29:14 EST Down's a good place to start Down 3 pounds this week and I have to admit I'm shocked. My workouts were not as great as I would have liked and my food choices were a little better than normal. I think however it is because of all the water that I was able to get in this week. My water intake has been right on point! <BR> <BR> I just started a second round of Biggest Loser at work and really want to rock it this time. Now that it is getting nicer my main plan is to stop parking in the garage at the train station and get ... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 08:30:12 EST I scream, you scream....we all scream for Ice Cream! Do you have that one food that no matter what you will eat it? I mean you will fill yourself SO full of it that you are on the edge of being sick? You the whole container?!?!? <BR> <BR> Well that is totally me and Ice Cream. <BR> <BR> I love it, I love all flavors and will eat a whole pint and still want more. Its crazy really! I used to be this way with M&Ms too, but giving up sweets for Lent this year really helped cure me of that addiction. But ice cream....oh goodness is i... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 10:58:29 EST Happy Easter Happy Easter to everyone....... <BR> <BR> What a wonderful weekend this has been. Today marks my 4th year wedding anniversary and 8 years with my husband. I have been so blessed to have such a fantastic person to share my life with. He spoiled me this weekend with a wonderful Mickey Mouse clock and a hour couples massage. We topped it with dinner and a movie with our kids. <BR> <BR> Today we went shopping and then I spent the day food prepping for the week. I'm all set now for the most suc... Sun, 5 Apr 2015 19:54:42 EST Sunday Funday Had a wonderful night last night with my husband. I was able to get all dressed up which is every girls favorite thing. We both looked fantastic and had a blast catching up with friends that we work with for the youth sports leauge. But I also got to talk about how much I love Shakeology with a friend and share my journey with it. <BR> <BR> Today has been a relaxing day, and little running around. Gearing up for a busy week at work. We have Friday off so that means putting in 5 days of work... Sun, 29 Mar 2015 14:51:31 EST 10 Reasons I have an assignment for one of the Challenge groups I'm in and that is to write down 10 reasons I want to lose weight. So here are my reasons in no defined order.... <BR> <BR> 1) Self Confidence.....I want this back. Losing weight won't give this to me automatically. However as I get stronger and the more workouts I complete that is what is giving me this back! <BR> 2) Accountability....I want to make the commitment and stick to it. I want to be accountable for what I put into my body and t... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 09:49:01 EST Getting back on track! Isn't it amazing how quickly we can let a little success put us into a false reality. I know that I have FAR more than 15 pounds to lose and after the 21 day fix and dropping that weight I thought I knew it all. I figured that I could just bounce in and out of the Combat workouts, miss a day here and there and be fine. NOT!!! <BR> <BR> While I have not gained the weight or inches back, I am not moving forward at the speed I would like to be moving at. Bottom line is that I'm doing it to mys... Sun, 15 Feb 2015 09:28:52 EST 21 Day Fix....Almost Done What a great week I have had. Once I got over the cold I got right back on with my workouts. I was not able to double up this week like I wanted to. However I was able to workout daily so I will take that over not working out. Last Monday when I got on the scale I was down 13lbs in the first 2 weeks of the program. I was totally shocked but goodness SO happy at the same time. <BR> <BR> This weekend I am pushing hard and doing 3 of the workouts each day. Today I did Upper and Lower Fix and I... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 15:14:11 EST What a week! I've been sick this whole week. Yesterday was my first day back to work and I was so worn out by the time I got home that I had a "cheat meal" of tacos from TB. I've been 100% on track today and hoping to have energy when I get home to get in my cardio fix workout. Still behind a couple workouts for this week, but with the long weekend I'm hoping to get them all made up and to get back to myself!! <BR> <BR> Next Monday starts my last week with the 21 Day Fix. I cannot believe how quickly the... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 16:01:48 EST 21 Day Fix...Results after one week Yesterday was day 8 of the 21 Day Fix so I weighed in again and retook my measurements. I am so PROUD to say I am down 6.2 pounds and lost an overall total of 9 inches (2 of them off these hips!!) <BR> <BR> I was NOT perfect, I missed workouts thanks to this cold but out of 100% I was about 90% there....that is a lot more than I was before the program so for me my week was fantastic. I am still not feeling good, however I'm trying to stay on track as much as I can. I'm not stressing the wor... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 13:25:17 EST 21 Day Fix Week One Monday started my journey of fitness in 2015. My BFF (aka Sister from another Mother) and I decided that after doing the c25k program...and actually finishing it...that this year we would finish as many Beachbody programs as possible.....Because after all we have a video library full of them! <BR> <BR> Well Monday we started the 21 Day Fix, and for anyone that is looking for a program I can tell you this one is AMAZING. (and NO I'm not just saying that as a Beachbody Coach) Not only are the... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 15:36:30 EST Happy New Years 2015 Well I sure did end 2014 in such a great way. I finished the C25K program with my BFF HOPEFULHIPPO and was rewarded with this beautiful new workout shirt! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I also ended the year under 200lbs so I'm excited about that. In Nov I set a goal and I reached them both. Now the goal for 2015 is to finish all my (or almost all) of my Beachbody programs I have. I want to earn as many shirts as I can for finishing... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 22:18:10 EST Pushed myself today! Today I needed to do day 2 and 3 of my running program.....and I did! I ended up getting in 4.39 miles in 1 hour and 13 min! I was and still am SO happy. My feel hurt tonight because of the longer time, but through the pain will come the results so I will deal with them. Today was the first run in days that I felt back to myself and that felt GREAT! <BR> <BR> Will be interesting to see if I lost this week. I really just wanted to drop what I had gained last Monday. Of course I will be happy... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 18:05:46 EST The start of getting back to me! Well it's been a few days now from my car being stolen. I'm no longer crying at the thought of it and can talk about it without tears coming down. It is funny how something like this will hit you. I'm still praying that they find it and we can get it back without a lot of work that needs to be done to it. It was so hard to deal with it over the weekend. I went to the gym on Friday night with my son and husband and ended up swimming. It was great to be in the pool and just be weightless and fe... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 14:03:29 EST Do In-Laws have to get along? Vent Blog A few weeks before Thanksgiving my son came to me very upset and asked if his girlfriend and her son could come to our house for dinner. Both my husband and I said yes, goodness they have been dating for years now so why would it bother us. My son then starts to tell me about how he was originally going to go up to her parents house (where she lives) and have dinner there but after a recent fight she had with her parents he wasn't going to do that. Of course this peeked my interest and I want... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 15:25:00 EST Photo Blog - Seahawks vs Eagles <img src=""> <BR> Pre-game Selfie <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I'm no longer at home....I entered enemy territory! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Had to bring out my SB flag in the stadium that has yet to get one! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Jersey is's time to get... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 17:47:22 EST Week 5 in review Doing my week in review a day early because tomorrow I will be busy getting ready for my football game. My beloved Seattle Seahawks will be here in Philly and I bought tickets to go see them. I can't wait because it's been over 7 years from the last time I saw them. YES there will be pictures. <BR> <BR> So this week was a hard one for me, I slacked on the runs until the end of the week and then ended up doing the first two days in back to back days. I have day 3 set to do early tomorrow mor... Sat, 6 Dec 2014 19:23:59 EST I hate my BFF right now..... Ever have one of them friends that is so positive that is just sucks you in??? Well that is my BFF, in fact we are so close that I really look at her like a sister. So this all started yesterday when I get a text from her telling me to go read her blog. I log onto Spark and go to her page only to see a blog titled "I hate my bestie right now" WHAT?!?!?! <BR> <BR> She brought tears to my eyes and I click into it and worry about what I possibly could have done from 3000+ miles away for her to ... Fri, 5 Dec 2014 14:48:31 EST Week in Review (a day late) My goodness what a holiday weekend....and what a week last week was. I was so busy at work that I didn't have time for much. You have to love pushing 5 days of work into 3, but in the end having an extra day off is worth it. Especially when I got on the scale this morning and I'm down 2.8 pounds for a total of 11.6 pounds for the month of November! (What a perfect Birthday present that was). <BR> <BR> Looking back my eating was very good. I worked out Thursday, Sat and Sunday. It did take me... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 11:07:36 EST Week in Review I am really starting to love my Sunday reviews of my week. I haven't been disappointed in myself or my goals so far. Finding the positive in my weeks are getting easier for me to do and I focus on the bad things. For me I look at the week in a full and if I have more good moments that is a WIN of a week for me. After all this is not a diet, this is my life and I'm living it!!! <BR> <BR> One of the best parts this week was my run yesterday. Going into it I really thought that I was going to b... Sun, 23 Nov 2014 10:49:39 EST The Chicken Lady This is going to be a "What happens at the gym...WILL be shared!" kind of blog. I love to people watch. Normally this is something that I love to do, however when I'm running on the treadmill I like to be in my zone. I like to put in my music and zone out on myself. Most days I always luck out and there is always a machine between me and the next person. This is nice so that I do not become distracted. Well today I was not so lucky....Today I was stuck next to the Chicken Lady. <BR> <BR> I ... Sat, 22 Nov 2014 22:05:28 EST How to measure success Last night I was talking to my husband and I started to think about how we all measure our success. What is the key ingredient that we see daily or weekly that is that “ah-ha” moment that gives us that gratification of success? <em>250</em> <BR> <BR> Is it the numbers on the scale? <em>192</em> <BR> <BR> Is it the fitness minutes that we get? <em>316</em> <BR> <BR> Is it not eating sugar, or staying perfect on our meals? <em>550</em> <BR> <BR> Have you ever stopped to think wha... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 13:11:26 EST The Inner Skinny Girl....she is there! Lately I feel like I have this secret life that my family doesn't even know about. I feel that while they are supportive of everything that I do they just really have no clue of how badly I want this weight off! I want to be the healthy girl....I'm so tired of being the girl that has the heart of a healthy girl and the body of the fat girl. I know that this is a journey and I am loving the journey, but I just can't wait for the day that my outside body catches up with my inner healthy girl. ... Sun, 16 Nov 2014 09:01:50 EST Loving this thing called RUNNING Last Monday my run was hard for me so I took some time this week and did not rush myself back into the gym. I have learned that it is important to listen to my body. The BEST thing about the gym and the runs is that they will always be there. If I do not listen to my own body I can ruin it and then there will be NO more runs, or workouts. <BR> <BR> So yesterday I went into the gym thinking I would just run slow as my BFF keeps telling me. Mind you I am not a fast runner at all. I have never... Sat, 15 Nov 2014 16:29:30 EST My start to the week Yesterday was good day for me. I lost weight for my weigh in and got in my run. I also was able to work from home in the morning and afternoon as I had an off site meeting. My run wasn't the best I've done. For some reason my right calf seemed to tighten up on me and even with a little extra walking I had to push myself through it. So I finished but it was much lower in miles. Figure tomorrow when I run I will make sure to put on my knee brace. Don't know if my stride is off because I'm landi... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 12:14:56 EST Dirty Little Secret Is OUT! Last Monday I had my wake up call. I had just started my C25K running program the Saturday before and after getting on the scale that morning I knew I had to stop and make some changes. As hard as it was to admit to myself that I was failing myself by living my life I currently was. I did it....I looked in the mirror and saw the person I was, the person that I let myself become. <em>204</em> While I love the person I am, I DO NOT love the "extra" of this person I saw. It was in that moment... Sun, 9 Nov 2014 09:10:48 EST