KIMBERLY0916's SparkPeople Blog KIMBERLY0916's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 08/24/2014 where is my energy? so today in Athens there's a Tony Hawk and Birdhouse skate demo at the local skatepark .. it starts at 2p. I have no idea how popular or busy it'll be ... but I really want to go .. i'm hoping the weather cooperates b/c i don't really do well in extreme heat and humidity <BR> <BR> but this isn't the time for whining or negativity <BR> <BR> i have my Sunkist will travel ..hehehe <BR> <BR> seriously though .. it's probably time for a pain med .. some stretching .. some jumping jacks .. a ban... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 11:53:48 EST 08/22/2014 it's about time so today will be busy .. i got to sleep in .. after waking up to lightning at 230a, closing windows, calming Tuna, taking more meds ... <BR> <BR> today will be fun! I've already painted my nails, about to the whole getting ready thing and spiking mohawk and whatnott ... <BR> <BR> tip: don't drink 2 Sunkist while painting fingernails unless you have a large bladder with mucho control!! <BR> <BR> i'm happy today b/c i choose to be .. and bc i get to see some friends and my bf (who has propos... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 13:53:13 EST 08/21/2014 slave to the caffeine so even after lazily laying and stretching in bed for about 1.5 hours ... i still think .. oh it's cooler outside today - YAY <BR> <BR> .. so don't want to waste it with no energy .. or pain <BR> <BR> .... so i take a pain med knowing it'll kick in in about 20 min <BR> <BR> and then when I get to the kitchen .. and grab a banana <BR> <BR> I'm still like OOOOOhhh caffeine!! and grab a Sunkist <BR> <BR> I even told my bf yesterday he'd probably have to teach me the ways of the coffee soon ... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 11:17:54 EST 08/20/2014 reassurance when needed so i've been pretty emotional today ... for whatever reason <BR> <BR> just accept it and deal with the moments as they come and go <BR> <BR> ... thankfully i went on a great walk (pushed twice as long and faster than I had planned) <BR> <BR> ... was assertive enough to explain to my bf why i was upset about certain conversations (could explain why i was upset, why feeling upset made me feel like crap, and why that triggered guilt) .. guess what .. he still loves me .. hhehe .. i say that a... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 22:07:03 EST 08/20/2014 I feel this way too often so I sent this text to my bf earlier ... <BR> <BR> I feel a little bit like I'm not accomplishing much today. . But really I've given blood sample, bought groceries, fixed breakfast, lunch, snack, dealt w kitchen drain, pooped, updated meds list, printed it, updated doc list and timeline, checked the mail and post office, cleared more email... <BR> <BR> then added this part and sent it all to a friend: <BR> <BR> I should be proud of myself for what I have done.. Not what is still to do <BR... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 16:37:52 EST 08/05/2014 DBT skills (event interpretation) warning: English and me aren't getting along today ... i feel like I'm stuttering, stammering, and making my own weird sentence structure when I talk or write... so there's your warning :) <BR> <BR> one thing we do in DBT are event recognition exercises ... there's a wheel diagram <BR> <BR> event ... your interpretation of the event ... your feelings about the event ... action urge (what you instinctively feel like doing) ... action (you actually take) .. the result of that action <BR> <BR... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 18:51:44 EST 08/05/2014 making progress i am feeling a teensy bit better today ... took pain meds so I could start tackling the unpacking and organizing of stuff .. i have too much stuff again .. I will DEFINITELY feel mentally cleaner when the rooms are clean and stuff put away <BR> <BR> i'm grateful for the gorgeous weather we had today in SE Ohio. I got a few misc walks in. <BR> <BR> I didn't do so hot on the healthy food front but I was lazy and just fixed a frozen pizza thing. i sprinkle the healthier stuff throughout the da... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 18:04:04 EST 08/04/2014 returned to DBT so today was full of nerves and anxiousness and reconnecting and reading <BR> <BR> i got to rejoin my DBT group today. it was great to catch up with friends and see new faces alike. i was anxious to sit in the waiting room .. wasn't just gals from the group but other folks waiting on their counselors and docs and such.. so sometimes tense <BR> <BR> i loved getting back into group and getting to chat and practice, again, all the things that helped me once before <BR> <BR> my daily gratitude... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 21:00:23 EST 08/03/2014 i'll just leave these here i've been feeling blah and sickly and dealing with pain as usual ... these help <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sun, 3 Aug 2014 19:50:33 EST 07/30/2014 live and learn I saw that during my time away my progress story motivated some folks.. I'll respond directly soon. I promise. <BR> <BR> i'll try to keep this brief and add other blogs to go more in-depth on some topics when I have more time. <BR> <BR> it's been a crazy year ... was sick the first two months of 2014; enough so that i had to withdraw from art school and move home (talk about traumatic) <BR> <BR> it took about 2 months to recover from that sickness and then a few days later mom and I had t... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 11:18:27 EST 06/11/2014 a day in the life so i fell asleep pretty easily bc of a muscle relaxer [my fibro pain was horrible yesterday probably bc of exhaustion and rain] ... but i had nightmares and I fought everyone and everything within reach :-( <BR> <BR> woke up at 530am pretty angry and still horribly sore :-( sometimes i really want to rip my muscles out.. shake them out like a dirty rug and think about putting them back in *ugh* <BR> <BR> got up and fed the cat, did stretches and some cardio to try to loosen up, lazily check... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 11:58:27 EST 06/04/2014 i've come a long way baby earlier today i posted this pic on Facebook with caption: <BR> <BR> Gonna wash that man... errr gray. .... err bleach outta my hair. ... #SLCPunk #PunksDead fun begins slowly <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> ... and i saw it just now as I scrolled through my feed and I thought ... <BR> <BR> so WOW ... looking at this pic kind of makes me realize just how much weight i've actually lost .... 105 pounds number wise is one thing .... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 15:25:02 EST 05/27/2014 beautiful chaos so it kind of feels like i've jumped down the rabbit hole ... i think it's because I did <BR> <BR> i can't quite remember what I've written here ... but the last week of April ... Thur evening April 24 to be exact mom and i found out the apartment we'd been planning to move into in mid June was no longer going to be available.... but if we could move beginning of May then we had a place. ... so for those of us lacking basic math skills ... we went from almost 2 months to move to having less ... Tue, 27 May 2014 10:34:36 EST 05/14/2014 inspiration I've actually been told this and it's quite possibly the most genuine compliment I can receive and believe. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Wed, 14 May 2014 08:36:58 EST 04/03/2014 SparkAversary - 2 years i joined this site 2 years ago. For the first 6 months I just spun the wheel for points b/c it was something different and fun. <BR> <BR> Then when I couldn't walk (toenail injuries) and then couldn't eat (bad nerve ending in a tooth I didn't want pulled out) ... I started losing weight. and thought I should probably try doing it in a healthier way <BR> <BR> ... well I decided to start reading the info about walking and nutrition <BR> <BR> ... here i am now 100 pounds lighter for awhile n... Fri, 18 Apr 2014 23:07:47 EST 04/18/2014 proactive instead of worry! so i've been a bit (UNDERstatement) overwhelmed lately. i seem to have either no thoughts, trouble thinking (focusing), or zillion thoughts at once. <BR> <BR> i'm excited to plan for the move in June (i like new things and new scenery and new adventures), SLC Punk sequel concert scene trip in June, mom and dad's birthdays in May, setting up new phone (yay free), giving necessary places my new #, baseball game in May (yay Groupon), and a concert in July, then i get hung up or caught up in thi... Fri, 18 Apr 2014 17:10:47 EST 04/16/2014 trying something new in order to find new purpose so I've been quiet on here lately ... I've been in a funk .. in a rut ... eating poorly ... not socializing .. etc <BR> <BR> i almost stayed in bed all day today b/c i was cold and i hurt ... well i can only fantasize so long about floating in a sea of molten lava to warm up ... my muscles don't relax ... they just constantly hurt from the bone outward <BR> <BR> and there's things to be done .. life to live .. places to visit .. .new friends to make .. etc <BR> <BR> i got my new phone .. i... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 21:03:21 EST 04/08/2014 taking those small steps so yesterday i managed to sleep in a little bit b/c of the gloomy weather. that's 2 days in a row. so of course i hurt A LOT. <BR> <BR> well i attempted to get some walks in but every time i went outside it poured within 30 seconds. then it'd stop like 5 min later. finally i just gave up trying b/c i didn't want to keep (literally) running back inside. <BR> <BR> i got part of the living room organized and almost ready for us to pack stuff and did that for almost an hour. and yet none of it ... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 04:15:07 EST 04/06/2014 it matters quote i said earlier “Addiction is a process of buying into false and empty promises: the false promise of relief, the false promise of emotional security, the false promise of fulfillment, and the false sense of intimacy with the world,” writes Craig Nakken in his book “The Addictive Personality.” --- <BR> <BR> this quite why i choose to pick up a drink .. i've tried sober/clean for almost 20 moments some few years ago. i ended up treating treatment and meetings like my own addiction sup... Sun, 6 Apr 2014 02:26:29 EST 04/03/2014 keep trying i have been thinking i'm pretty OK .. even really thrilled with my body at this 170 weight ... sure i might go up a bit every now and then but i'm pretty used to intestinal issues that cause the flux. <BR> <BR> so i put my SparkPeople settings on maint mode ... if i lose more terrific .. if not .. i'm happy with that <BR> <BR> i need to read <link><BR>s_articles.asp?id=1754 </link> article a few more times to get all the message out b/c i only skimmed ... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 20:18:29 EST 03/28/2014 blog before social media thought i'd blog before i check any social media or email before starting my day <BR> <BR> i slept!! wait that deserves caps .. I SLEPT!!!!! it was wonderful. i did laundry last night so I washed my sleep mask that I thought I'd lost while at school.... i forgot how much it helps! yaayyy.. i'm still awash with sleepy happy glow <BR> <BR> i feel lighter today ... so i took some measurements !! WOWZER ... guess i've lost some girth but didn't realize the #'s ... i don't think my waist has EVE... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 12:27:18 EST 03/23/2014 every little bit helps forgiveness isn't exactly in my bag of tricks ... but today i was looking at my wrist tattoo and decided i had gotten it for many reasons. and well one of those is to appreciate every minute ... i suppose others should have the same possibility <BR> <BR> even those that decide to get my anger to rise up ... there are many reasons and many ways they could ... but i decided today wasn't going to belong to them. i suppose they deserve to think of a particular day for different reasons than i re... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 21:40:00 EST 03/23/2014 maybe soon i re-read my previous blog and fixed a few typos... i realized ... getting that diploma from HS and OSU were the only two major things in life i think i've started and seen to fruition. that's something (sarcasm mixed with truth). and that lawyer didn't call. i called in and got it rescheduled for Mon but it still may not happen. <BR> <BR> i'm possibly ready to shake loose of this downward spiral. i'm still not sure where i'm headed. i definitely didn't want to get out of bed today. and the ... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 14:51:03 EST 03/20/2014 how to begin again (this ended up being a tell-too-much) i'm not ready yet ... it gets more difficult each time .. how many more times will i have figure out what to do with my life <BR> <BR> it seemed so easy as a 3rd grader or whenever i decided before that .. that I was going to be a podiatrist <BR> <BR> i proceeded towards that goal <BR> <BR> - through grade school (and 2 hour one way bus rides that started before dawn) <BR> - through being better friends with my bus driver than my classmates <BR> - through being teased for being a tall, scr... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 00:30:51 EST 03/20/2014 spiral it'd be nice to say things are getting better .. i suppose in some regards they are ... but i've lost a lot and still feel lost .. and i've definitely been in self-loathing mode .. and i can't seem to stop eating <BR> <BR> i've also been really enjoying a Justified marathon <BR> <BR> wonder when i'll figure out a next step Thu, 20 Mar 2014 16:24:01 EST 03/15/2014 moderation or celebration? a lot of people say everything in moderation .. and of course i can agree with that ... it's very helpful <BR> <BR> for me I also know I love to celebrate! and i haven't gotten to properly celebrate St Patrick's Day since 2011 ... and i'm already getting ready <BR> <BR> i hit 170 pounds this morning which i believe now makes it officially tracked 100 pounds lost! WOOT WOOT <BR> <BR> now just in time for lots of beer and pizza and peeps ... but ya know what ... i planned for it .. i won't c... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 16:13:16 EST 03/11/2014 the future .. the present ... accept the past so a lot is up in the air right now ..... <BR> <BR> i was attending art school (at least the bags and art supplies tell me so .. bc quite honestly it feels like it was a dream) and I was working (albeit very very briefly and only part time) and I was making friends (hopefully we'll stay in touch). i was contemplating a job at a Cincy restaurant downtown and it would have been a blast! <BR> <BR> and now that's gone. <BR> <BR> i had an unknown illness that gave me a 100* fever for a few mont... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 13:17:19 EST 03/10/2014 gratitude so in case ya missed me plastering it everywhere yesterday - LOL - i was a featured Success Story <BR> <BR> <link><BR>st=kimberly_dropped_100_pounds_and_bea<BR>t_ibs_fibromyalgia_and_bipolar_disorde<BR>r_with_healthy_eating_and_exercise </link> <BR> <BR> i am beaming with pride and reading all the comments are fun. <BR> <BR> i never started out this journey to be an inspiration ... but WOW does it feel GREAT to be one Mon, 10 Mar 2014 09:46:09 EST 03/08/2014 life will always (yes always) throw exceptions i wouldn't be a great scientific mind / coder / logical person if I didn't plan for exceptions or contingencies. .. notice I said plan for .. not expect ... although these days even as optimistic as I am or can be ... i tend to expect the oddball reaction or circumstance .. but not always <BR> <BR> i don't really mean to speak in riddles but my addled mind is fluent in puzzles and logic ... this includes use of always, never, sometimes, most times, etc .. b/c while some ppl may remember some... Sat, 8 Mar 2014 12:14:40 EST 03/07/2014 finding positives so i'm not in school anymore ... but i continue to find the positives from a less than ideal situation (My DBT leader would be beaming with pride :-) <BR> <BR> - i can sleep whenever I want/can <BR> - i can sleep how ever long I want/can <BR> - minimal time obligations <BR> - can relax and take my time with something <BR> - can fix healthy meals at home <BR> - can go for a walk anytime I want <BR> - can go for a walk for any distance i want <BR> - i can wear pajamas ALL THE TIME!!!! <BR> - i... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 21:11:50 EST 03/05/2014 if you stumble make it part of the dance great seeing all the motivation in one place!! --- i just read that as part of TIME2BLOOM4ME's blog (I don't know how to link names) ... and one that stuck out that i often have liked ... if you stumble make it part of the dance <BR> <BR> today is going to be hard for me emotionally (withdrawing from school and saying bye to some friends i've made over the past 6 months) ... a LOT of them fully believe in me, my abilities not just as an artist but as a friend and motivator, and more <BR> <B... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 08:18:54 EST 03/04/2014 decision so i can finally tell people .... <BR> <BR> tomorrow won't be easy. I've been sick too long. too long to make up the work I've missed this quarter at school. We are going tomorrow with a cargo van. I will withdraw from school and come home and get well. temporary setback! <BR> <BR> at least that's what i keep telling myself so that I'll believe it! <BR> <BR> some want me to apply for disability again with a lawyer. i'm def not ready for that. <BR> <BR> i'm not giving in. i'm not giving up... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 20:57:13 EST 02/28/2014 struggling so today was ... tough <BR> <BR> I've learned it helps me to talk things out ... or type as the case may be <BR> <BR> a week or so whatever ago (time management is gone to me) i bought a car from a friend. well i had an oil change done on that car and then an inspection... that inspection basically told me the brakes were shot and tons of other repairs ... costs upwards of $1800+ <BR> <BR> so amidst the school stress and sickness stress (I've been feverish and fatigued since end of Dec wit... Sat, 1 Mar 2014 02:38:35 EST 02/27/2014 perhaps decisions so it's really hard to make decisions when a 100* fever persists ... but .... on i push <BR> <BR> today i got a shirt .. for less than the sticker price ... and with more motivation than the mere words screened on <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> -- things aren't certain yet ... but i believe I will be working on only an Associate's Degree instead of a Bachelor's Degree .. <BR> <BR> mainly b/c of cost, b/c i already have a bachelors, b/c th... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 23:36:52 EST 02/24/2014 contemplation time so apparently i've been sick .. LOL .. understatment <BR> <BR> not only did i listen to a couple of my favorite band's (Green Day) songs but it took me a min or so to realize it what song and what band OY!!! OY !!!! <BR> <BR> then mom pointed out that I work at Wal-GREEN's .. LOL <BR> <BR> and keeping with SparkPeople theme .. the back of my work shirt says <BR> <BR> "Every day I help people Get, Stay AND LIVE WELL" <BR> <BR> how awesome is that!! <BR> <BR> so as i'm starting to get my ... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 18:20:30 EST 02/23/2014 I wonder what it feels like to exist without pain a conversation started with this simple status update I made last night..... <BR> <BR> someone said they'd trade with me b/c then maybe they'd feel something instead of being numb ... these were some of my responses <BR> <BR> -- -- <BR> <BR> i wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy .. ok well maybe a few of the worst ... <BR> <BR> <BR> there are much better things to feel that pain. i've been there done that .. don't know how i survived ... cept i know i got sick of being sick and tired a... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 10:07:44 EST 02/19/2014 synchronicity here's another one for the books <BR> <BR> i realized today that the Walgreen's Balance Rewards card symbol is an infinity ... i've been allured by that symbol almost my whole life <BR> <BR> and as i went through training on pharmacy, photo, history, etc .... i learned quite a few remarkable things like foundation of rotary club principles, be well, bringing retail health and daily living to everyone, health center with staffed RNs and almost no wait times <BR> <BR> Walgreen's invented fir... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 21:12:04 EST 02/1/2014 weird day so today has been overall good .. but it was rough getting through it .. let's see if i can remember it all ... and no i don't know why i'm sharing it all here ... but it is what it is ... i always feel talking or writing about something helps me to accept and heal. <BR> <BR> ... woke up in agony b/c i have fibromyalgia and cold air/weather makes me freeze up and hurt... well my bed is underneath a vent .. someone had turned the central heating down to 45 instead of the 80 it's usually set t... Tue, 18 Feb 2014 22:11:26 EST 02/17/2014 here's something new for me ... GOALS i kind of suck at setting, making, keeping goals ... i tend to think of it as room for error ... room for failure .. and i don't like leaving that door open. so ... i just do what i can as I can for as long as I can and see what becomes of it :-) <BR> <BR> so the Question of the Day in one my groups was what are your mini-goals (for now) and here's my response: <BR> <BR> i've been hovering in the 170s for awhile. but i've also been really sick until today ... so short term .. get back to he... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 19:59:19 EST 02/15/2014 how do i stand? question: tomorrow is my second day at Walgreen's ... I have to basically stand with some walking around for almost 7 hours (with two 15 min breaks) ... <BR> <BR> i have basically been at a desk job or sedentary for the majority of my life ... exceptions being a decade ago ... and recently with lots of walking and stretching stuff <BR> <BR> so..... tips and tricks for standing that long? <BR> <BR> thankfully we are allowed to wear sneakers i wore my walking shoes on the first shift. b... Sat, 15 Feb 2014 17:51:19 EST 02/15/2014 i survived i survived yesterday. it was actually easier than i thought but i thought it was going to be awful so that's why comparisons aren't good. <BR> <BR> i used my DBT skills almost every minute to focus on the present moment. <BR> <BR> to not worry about years past of historical awfulness. <BR> <BR> to think how i'm doing right now. today. this minute. <BR> <BR> to not worry about tomorrow or this week or this quarter or the future and how much rides on me being healthy and doing well in schoo... Sat, 15 Feb 2014 08:53:04 EST 02/11/2014 know your limits so i've basically had some assortment of illnesses since the beginning of the year (yes this is now Feb) ... it sucks <BR> <BR> well this weekend i finally started feeling better .... which means i over did it some... with cleaning, vacuuming, organizing (my closet looks AWESOME), and grocery shopping (a necessary evil).. <BR> <BR> anyways ... i have felt this mountain of school work piling up . i get extensions TO today b/c i had doc notes for last week. but that doesn't make the load any ... Tue, 11 Feb 2014 05:42:58 EST 01/27/2014 ... and exhale so i think some things are finally looking promising <BR> <BR> today we looked at the apartment i already knew was kind of disastrous... then we walked a couple buildings down compare another place. it was spotless (YAY) and hopefully the few days they have between now and our move-in will give them time to wrap minds and emotions around having roommates again already. i pointed out that it might be nicer to know who was moving in than get random strangers. we got the keys from housing offic... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 19:24:38 EST 01/26/2014 finally realized It took me awhile but I've finally realized I've been trying to please everyone but myself lately. I definitely need to change that. And I need to work on improving my reaction/noticing time. I've adapted to noticing other stuff pretty quickly ... but there's always room for improvement in several areas of life. <BR> <BR> part of my realization now comes to light that I'm here attending a college again for ME. not friends. not family. not classmates. I need to do what is healthy for ME and ... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 19:29:07 EST 01/25/2014 not happy - need help letting go of emotions so this weekend (today actually) my first roommate and I were supposed to be moving into a new apartment. it's a LONG VALID list of reasons for us to move. We've been asking to move since mid-December. i know the better option is to just breathe and let things work themselves out this coming week but they've been saying they'd get us two in to a new place since mid-December. and something always seems to come up to change the circumstances or options mid-sentence... <BR> <BR> at this point ... Sat, 25 Jan 2014 11:13:24 EST 01/23/2014 omg i feel fat (not really, sorta, maybe, kidding, not really) so if you're keeping up with my blogs you know that before I started winter quarter here at school I went shopping for some new pants. <BR> <BR> well all women can testify to this ... some days we are just heavier than others ... AND womens clothing DESPITE the number on the tag are just ALL made differently!! hence we have to try on EVERYTHING before we can actually buy something. some love it. i personally do not. <BR> <BR> and because it's RealFeel -6F this morning .. yes that is a NEGA... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 06:24:57 EST 01/22/2014 yesterday was exciting yesterday was a big day! in no particular order here's the fun stuff <BR> <BR> I learned my admissions rep was promoted to head of admissions for a Texas AI and her last day here was Fri... (so sad but so happy and excited for her!) <BR> <BR> I signed paperwork to get a BFA instead of just an AAS ... (i think it'll add a year to my time in Cinci .. and i think something like 4 classes xferred in from OSU and either additional 4 or 8 from Berea) <BR> <BR> I dropped the intense Color Theory ... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 13:19:23 EST 01/20/2014 what do you choose today? i debated about the blog entry title .. either "consequences" or "no regrets" .. I've started with the former but will probably change it to the latter by the time I write this out. <BR> <BR> I try to live my life without regrets. No, this doesn't mean I'm perfect by any stretch of the imagination. It means that I'm willing to accept the consequences of my actions for better or worse. <BR> <BR> I'm reminded of this often, especially this weekend as I am dealing with medical issues that I th... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 11:27:14 EST 01/17/2014 be careful what you wish for as i was enjoying all the compliments and accolades of weight loss and honor roll and such .. some health issues snuck up on me and have waylaid me for a bit. none of it is new but it's been at least a decade or longer since I've dealt with some of these consequences. <BR> <BR> so .. be careful what you wish for .. there may be unforeseen consequences <BR> <BR> i'm stressed out and exhausted so i'm going to bed until tomorrow hopefully.. Fri, 17 Jan 2014 18:14:23 EST 01/11/2014 i'm done so after days, weeks, months of various "friends" ignoring me or giving me one-word answers or straight up only talking to me if they needed something .... i have decided I am done. I am done with these part-time friends. <BR> <BR> friendship and relationships are two-way communication, are two-way caring, are two-way asking how someone is doing, are two-way being interested in activities and such <BR> <BR> i am not here to only be your amusement <BR> <BR> i am not here to only be your pla... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 13:54:47 EST