KIJIPEOPLE's SparkPeople Blog KIJIPEOPLE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Possibilities There's a part-time position open at the Central Library for a YA librarian. <BR> <BR> Pros: It's more money. 30 hours a week instead of 40 might allow me to take an additional class per semester and finish my degree sooner. It's a YA position, something I'm good at and I know a lot about; I love teens and their media. <BR> <BR> Cons: 30 hours a week knocks me from full-time to part-time, resulting in higher insurance and higher costs for gym membership. They might not consider me for ... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 15:19:18 EST Forward I'm still moving forward. I did really, really terribly yesterday, coming in at 2300 calories eaten. But I'm on track today and I spent 30 minutes on the elliptical yesterday and today. If I'm particularly careful, I won't mess up the week with one bad day, even with Arbys for dinner tomorrow night and parents visiting this weekend. <BR> <BR> I will remember to eat more greens than carbs and fat. <BR> <BR> I will remember that one is better than five. <BR> <BR> I will keep myself acco... Tue, 4 Jun 2013 13:00:09 EST Starting Out It's the new week and a new day. I slept really well, though that meant getting up a little later than expected. My iPod's been at work all weekend and was utterly dead when I got here, a disappointment for my workout after work, but I'll be okay. <BR> <BR> I need to hit the gym after work, then head over to Sam's club for cheese, coffee and FrontLine. Theo had a flea on him last night and Puff's been making short little forays into the front yard, so we need to protect them both from fle... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 11:04:47 EST Weigh-In So I weighed in this morning. Last time I'd weighed in was back in April and I was 162. This morning, I was 164. I'm pleased with this, honestly, because it means I haven't back-slid as much as I was afraid I had. This gives me a stable platform to launch back into my weight loss again. <BR> <BR> My goal is still 140, though I've considered trying to drop to 135. We'll see how I feel about 140, which will put me 1 point within a "normal" BMI for my height. Since Matt and Rachel's weddi... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 08:23:29 EST D&D and Indian Food I made black lentils and kidney beans for dinner tonight. Complete and utter success. Taste was out of this world, even if the sodium was kind of high. Great protein, great potassium, flavor that just wouldn't quit and a warm, buttery texture that I am in love with. Not so spicy as to hurt, either. I loved it, my husband loved it, my brothers-in-law loved it and one of my sisters-in-law loved it (she had two bowls and eyed a third!). The other sister-in-law and her little brother gave i... Sat, 1 Jun 2013 22:18:26 EST Impossible? It's been really hit and miss for me since the beginning of the year. I like to say it's just a day or just a rough week, but it's really been a rough six-months. It seems like since I hit 25 pounds lost, I haven't been as motivated to keep losing. I've been getting so much praise for how well I've done and how much better I look that it feels like I can coast a little. But if I'm going to reach my final goal, I really can't afford to coast. <BR> <BR> I'm over half-way there. I've reall... Fri, 31 May 2013 09:51:26 EST Hoping My aunt is supposed to come visit tonight, but has so far gotten turned around on a cloverleaf and may not make it now. I'm on pins and needles, not sure if I should be excited or not and wishing desperately that she manages to find the place without getting lost and giving up. I don't blame her for being frustrated, though. It's hard driving an unfamiliar area with nobody to co-pilot but the dog. Fri, 3 May 2013 12:46:08 EST Rough Day...again Just found out that all the things I need for a paper due on the 14th aren't readily accessible. I'm really stressed about trying to find sources for this paper, in addition to work deadlines and other class deadlines and exams looming on the horizon. <BR> <BR> But I'm so excited. My aunt Jane is coming to visit this weekend and can barely contain myself. I know there are lots of other things I should be doing with my time, but I can only think of shopping for pansies and potting some p... Wed, 1 May 2013 15:17:26 EST Day One Redux I've logged in. I've posted to SparkGroups. I've answered trivia. I'm writing my blog entry. <BR> <BR> I'm back. <BR> <BR> I had an appointment with my allergist today, just a check-up to make sure things are okay. He's concerned that I'm having such frequent bouts of bronchitis (two per year) and gave me a medicine to try for the next one that starts to creep up. I probably won't have to worry about it until the fall, but it's nice to have something there, as long as I remember to u... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 18:23:46 EST The SparkWagon I'm determined to get back on the SparkWagon. I fell off pretty hard in the last few months, especially during my bronchitis about a month ago. But I know I can do this, even if I won't do it by the wedding. <BR> <BR> I'm back to 162 and I've reset my weight goal to July 14th. I've still got Ian supporting me and the energy of the folks at work. <BR> <BR> I will make it. I know I will. <BR> <BR> One of the groups I'm in is searching for a leader and I offered to take over if she can't ... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 15:11:11 EST Falling on my face This weekend, my weight was up to 170. What the heck. <BR> <BR> *long sigh* <BR> <BR> I swear, I know I can do this. It's just frustrating to back-slide like this. Mon, 11 Feb 2013 14:44:09 EST Keeping On Bolted from the house and managed a mile and a half at the gym today. Matched my best time for the mile: 13:30. Feeling pretty good! <BR> <BR> Though I'm a bit puzzled. I've input my calories for the day and I'm coming up short. I had my normal breakfast and a salad for lunch with Special K pastry crisps (100 calories for a pack of two). Dinner is black beans with rice and orzo and chicken breast. I'm about 400 calories short for the day and it has me scratching my head. I'm not hungr... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 14:55:32 EST Blew it. Yes. I blew it. I even looked my husband in the eye and ate it anyway. <BR> <BR> I binged horribly yesterday at the Super Bowl party. I ate five pieces of pizza and I lost count of the chicken wontons Nikki brought. I ate WAY more calories than I needed and felt sick afterwards. <BR> <BR> I know I blew it. <BR> <BR> But I will be okay. <BR> <BR> Today, in spite of my hunger, I did not buy anything but the salad I walked into Kroger for. I have dinner planned for tonight (in my he... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 12:54:37 EST More Milestones My weigh-in this morning was 166. Ian reminded me that this was my weight when we got married, seven years ago. I'm back to my wedding weight! *happy* <BR> <BR> Tomorrow marks the first day of the Spring semester. I'm nervous about trying to get my gym-time in between papers and quizzes, but I'm hopeful. My workouts are feeling more efficient and I can usually knock two miles out in half an hour, which makes me feel better about still getting my exercise during classes. <BR> <BR> The h... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 09:59:39 EST 5k Milestone Or is that a Km-stone? I dunno. <BR> <BR> Anyway. I ran a 5k in less than 45 minutes today! I'm pretty excited, since that beats my old time. I went to the gym before work today and just kept going until I reached 3.11 miles. I've already crossed my 10k steps for the day, which also makes me feel pretty good. <BR> <BR> My sister-in-law (to be) asked me to be her exercise coach, since she wants to lose weight before her wedding. I agreed, though made her understand that I wasn't going ... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 14:56:54 EST Seriously, back on track. Okay, the whole week of Christmas was hard to deal with. I'm back, though, with a great chicken-and-cranberry salad and two miles ran/walked at the gym before work. We're at my mother-in-law's tonight (in spite of really wanting to just stay home) for the New Year and we're going to bail around 10:30. With Ian's long days and my full day of work, neither of us are planning on watching the ball drop tonight. Just as well, really, since we're planning on doing some stuff with the house tomo... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 12:53:24 EST Getting Back Okay, Christmas is over and I'm struggling to get back on track. I've been rolled along with the season and now I'm about a pound over where I wanted to be. I'm struggling but I know I can do this. <BR> <BR> Today, we went to Thai '99 for lunch to celebrate Tasha's birthday. I ate a half-portion of my entree and packed the rest for later, but it's really hard to guess what the contents were when the tracker doesn't have the restaurant. I hope I was at least close. <BR> <BR> I also star... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 13:18:31 EST Four months Our house is seriously on its way to being a reality now. The fullness of that struck me last night when I pulled up at 6:45 PM to no husband and no dinner on a Wednesday, which is usually our night for dinner together. He arrived in a whirlwind of activity, delivering lighting fixtures he'd bought and informing me quickly that we had to run over to his parents' house to pick something up and drop something off. I was still reeling when he packed me into the truck, drove next door and acqu... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 08:31:51 EST Cravings Yesterday, right around 3 PM, a craving hit me. <BR> <BR> When I binged, my biggest weakness was Little Caesar's pizza. There's a hot-and-ready location in our shopping center and it was the work of a few seconds to stop by, grab a soda and a pizza, hide out in my car and eat it. <BR> <BR> All of it. <BR> <BR> Every bit. <BR> <BR> I'd feel terrible afterwards, bloated and waddling and swear I'd never do it again. But it happened at least once a week. The guilt was incredible and I coul... Wed, 19 Dec 2012 09:55:39 EST Back on (the) Track It felt so good to hit the track last night. I warmed up, then did a mile and beat my previous record! 14'14" for the mile (previous was 14'50"). I kept walking to cool down afterwards and then headed home to finish up my contribution to the staff Secret Santa project. <BR> <BR> Had a good day and I'm ready to beat the next one ahead, too. Tue, 18 Dec 2012 12:41:25 EST Yum Why do the worst things have to taste so good? At Nam's last night, she gave me egg nog before I could refuse and when it's sitting there, staring at you, it's almost impossible to say no. It was only a 1/2 cup, but... so good. <BR> <BR> Tonight, I'm headed to the gym after work. Ian's going to kendo, so there's no pull to head home early. I'm gonna get my track on! Mon, 17 Dec 2012 08:54:50 EST To the track! After a week of postponing my exercise, I'm headed to the gym tonight. Ian's coming in for kendo, so there won't be any temptation to sneak home instead of putting in my time and I've really been hearing the track calling my name. I feel kind of bad about trying to cram most of my week's calorie-burning into a single session and I'm going to be careful with myself, but I really, really want to pound that track into submission. <BR> <BR> I'm excited. I really am! We're headed to Waynesbor... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 09:52:43 EST Keep pushing I'm going to take this day and shake it in my teeth. <BR> <BR> I am going to keep pushing. <BR> <BR> I'm going to take every minute and make it count. <BR> <BR> I am going to keep pushing. <BR> <BR> I know this day is harder than the last, <BR> <BR> but I'm going to keep pushing. <BR> <BR> Even if I smack my hand... <BR> <BR> ...yeah, I'm gonna keep pushing. Thu, 13 Dec 2012 11:01:13 EST Catching Up Well, I finished my exam for Math and I'm officially done with the semester. This should give me a chance to catch up with my blogging, my exercise and a lot of other things I've been putting off because of the end of the semester. I haven't been back to the gym yet, though I could have gone tonight on my lunch, but I'm definitely going Thursday and Friday night. Really looking forward to pounding some miles in after work. I've missed my running. <BR> <BR> I'm expecting a B in Math and a... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 17:31:07 EST Rising Hopes I've finished my classwork for the semester! There's one exam on Tuesday, but that's all I have left. I'm glad for the break coming up and will be ready and refreshed come the end of January and the Spring semester. <BR> <BR> Ian and I have been talking and thinking deep thoughts lately. Good ones, though scary. It's that kind of scary that comes with change but I feel braced and like we're making these changes together and with each other's support. <BR> <BR> With the lift in school ... Fri, 7 Dec 2012 15:04:33 EST Still Ending Well, I didn't get my rough draft finished last night, but I put about a third of it together on the site. I've got pictures and some of my rough ideas semi-organized and then hit a complete writer's block. I know what I want to write, but the words just wouldn't flow. I finished the dishes with Ian and bounced ideas off of him until I felt like I had a better grasp of it. I'll see if I can finish the rough work on my lunch and polish it Friday before the deadline. <BR> <BR> Tonight is m... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 11:13:19 EST Semester's end I've got less than two weeks left in the semester and I'm under an enormous amount of stress. There's a research project due Friday and the last major test (save the final) in Math due tomorrow. On the upside, the research project is finally clicking along and I feel like I'll have plenty of material to present in a fun and interesting way. I love projects that allow us to be more creative and I get to write from the perspective of a 1910s hooker from Storyville. Whee! <BR> <BR> I may no... Wed, 5 Dec 2012 15:18:12 EST Eyes skinny! Today, I challenged myself to do something I was afraid to do. I walked to my closet, pulled out the shirt I bought in January as incentive to lose weight (since it was too small then) and tried it on. <BR> <BR> It fits. <BR> <BR> Well, it mostly fits. It fits across bust and belly, where it was too small before. It's too long in the arms, which was before but is more noticeable now. I'm really excited, though, since this relieves a lot of pressure for me. This means I can expect to ... Tue, 4 Dec 2012 17:02:18 EST Rough Day I had hoped to start my week off well, but we had a really rough patch last night. I ended up not getting a whole lot of sleep and I'm emotionally drained and shaky now. I still have hope, but it's going to be an uphill struggle today. <BR> <BR> I decided to cancel my winter intersession class, since I've been under so much stress lately and really want to focus on family and relaxing during Christmas this year. There will be plenty of time for me to look at taking that health credit duri... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 08:57:30 EST New Day Today is my first day. <BR> <BR> Every day is my first day. Just taking each day, one at a time, working towards where I need to be, what I want to be, who I want to be. <BR> <BR> I'm taking my day a minute at a time. It's been crazy busy at the library and I'd rather be at home with Ian, but that will come. Right now is where I am and where I need to be. <BR> <BR> I'm taking my life a day at a time. <BR> <BR> I can do this. Sat, 1 Dec 2012 14:09:28 EST Uphill Today was a really hard day for me. I got some things done that I'm happy about, like finishing Matt's Christmas present and cleaning out my dresser. I got rid of some stuff I can't or won't wear anymore and unearthed some clothes I couldn't wear before. This is exciting. <BR> <BR> But I ignored some homework I could have been doing to keep myself on track. I knitted and watched movies instead of doing something I should have. I snapped at my husband when he rightly checked my hand when... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 22:36:09 EST Saboteur! In so many families, food equals love. My in-laws are no exception. My husband's mother and grandmother love to feed us to show us how much they love us. Thankfully, it's finally come to a head now and they know I'm trying to lose weight and how much weight I've already lost. Nam has started offering more salad and cooking smaller volumes when we come over and BB is more willing to accept "I love this, but really shouldn't have more" as real words, not a mask over "I hate your food." <BR>... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 08:30:48 EST Cookie explosion! Melissa, one of our library volunteers who comes on Wednesdays, always brings us cookies. Always. <BR> <BR> Always. <BR> <BR> Today, she brought chocolate-cinnamon snaps with walnuts (or pecans, not sure) on top. <BR> <BR> I've had three. I feel kinda bad about that, but at the same time, I have my whole day mapped out and realized I was short on calories for the rest of the day. They may not be the healthiest way to fill out my count, but they sure are tasty. And they have nuts on t... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 12:32:56 EST Dear Me, I am so proud of you! Look at how far you have come already! <BR> <BR> I know you don't think I'm sincere when I say this, but look at me and hear me. I am proud of you. I mean it, don't look away. You're almost a third of the way to your goal and that is huge. You're almost to your 10% mark and that is even more awesome. <BR> <BR> You're eating right. I know the cravings are hard and we all love pizza and cookies, but doesn't the salad taste better every time you eat? It's satisfy... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 10:33:01 EST Real Reasons What are my real reasons for making dietary and lifestyle changes? <BR> <BR> I want to feel better about myself. <BR> <BR> I want to have a better variety of clothing options. <BR> <BR> I want to live to a ripe, old age with my husband. <BR> <BR> I want to go back to kendo. <BR> <BR> I love the energy I've been gaining since starting to eat better and exercise more. The boost has been wonderful and I feel really good about myself (most of the time). I find myself more and more steady i... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 08:53:18 EST Thanksgiving The first words out of my mouth yesterday morning were "Happy Thanksgiving. I'm thankful for you." My husband has been so instrumental in this process that I can't even begin to thank him for his help, his encouragement, his faith and his pride. Nothing says, "I know I can do this" like seeing his smile, feeling his arms around me and his whispered, "I'm proud of you." <BR> <BR> That said, his family is trying to kill me. They're proud that I've lost weight, but OH MY GOD, the food at Th... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 16:38:59 EST Celebrations Last night, Ian and I went out to eat. It's the first time we've thrown out the calories completely since I started tracking again. We've had Panera a few times, but nothing like this. <BR> <BR> We had planned ahead of time to keep our intake low so we could have pie and coffee after walking the levee. When I got home, Ian hadn't started dinner yet and we talked a little about how little I'd eaten and how many calories I had left to eat. I had plenty, more than our usual dinner would cov... Thu, 22 Nov 2012 14:53:56 EST Victories A coworker gave me a pair of her cast-off work pants today. They're in great shape, she'd just shrunk out of them. They are 16 Petites. <BR> <BR> They're too big on me. <BR> <BR> Up until now, I've been wearing mostly 18s and XLs. I've been afraid to look at new clothes, even though I've lost 12 pounds now, mostly because I'm terrified of losing my momentum. Shopping for clothes, particularly pants, has always been a nightmare for me of finding cute clothes that never run into sizes... Tue, 20 Nov 2012 17:12:54 EST New Breakfast So I'm supposed to revisit my breakfasts in my blog post today. My usual breakfast right now is half a cinnamon raisin bagel with a tbsp of peanut butter, my multi-vitamins, coffee and creamer. <BR> <BR> I could probably switch to a whole-grain bagel and be better off for it, but I'm not sure how much else I could change about breakfast. My breakfast was one of the only meals I didn't have to revamp when I started this process and I don't even have to change it to keep to the new dietary r... Mon, 19 Nov 2012 11:52:34 EST Still Trucking The weekend is almost over and, as usual, it wasn't easy for me. I had moderate portions at all my family visits and did pretty well at resisting extra helpings or larger desserts. But I didn't get my steps in either day and I'm a little frustrated with myself for that. <BR> <BR> The good news is that, in this morning's weigh-in, I'm down another two pounds from last week! This puts me below 180 and only 7 pounds away from my first major milestone of 10% of my starting weight! My body me... Sun, 18 Nov 2012 22:47:27 EST Weekends Ahoy! Weekends are always the hardest time for me. If I'm not working, I'm likely to be sedentary and there's always more access to food than during the work week. This weekend, so far, is off to a better start than usual. Ian and I went antique shopping and then walked Lowes and Walmart. I'm near my usual step count for a regular work day. <BR> <BR> Food was hard today, though. As usual, we got hungry while at Walmart and Ian headed for the deli. We stood there looking at the chicken stri... Sat, 17 Nov 2012 14:33:41 EST Snacking Away Today's SparkCoach recommended seeking out a list of your favorite healthy snacks and listing the portions under various headings like "sweet" or "salty". Here are some of mine: <BR> <BR> Multigrain Pringles - Cheddar flavor (16 chips): 140 calories, 8 g fat. <BR> Cava Mezze hummus (2 tbsp): 30 calories, 1.5 g fat. <BR> Dried Cranberries (1/3 cup): 130 calories, 0 g fat. <BR> Fiber One Brownies (1 brownie): 90 calories, 3 g fat. <BR> Garden of Eatin' Blue Chips (1 oz): 140 calories, 7 g fat... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 09:56:39 EST Weightless If the world were weightless, I would know I am improving my health. <BR> <BR> My clothes fit differently. My pants hang differently from my hips and it's almost impossible to get them to stay up without a belt now. My shirts hang instead of clinging and my belt fits closer. <BR> <BR> I fidget. I crave movement and activity. Sitting still doesn't sound as appealing to me anymore. I still sit to type, for the most part, and I'm still sitting to watch TV, but I pace more, I fidget while ... Thu, 15 Nov 2012 09:58:30 EST Scared I have a medical test today. Totally unrelated to my weight loss progress or anything, but... it could mean the difference between fertility and being a crazy (married) cat lady. <BR> <BR> I can't even express how scared I am. I feel like my insides are tied in knots. I'm just glad my husband agreed to take time from work to come with me. He knows how scared I am and has promised to stay with me through all of this. <BR> <BR> It's probably nothing. It's probably just a "you're normal, ... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 08:57:51 EST Fresh Morning Tuesdays are one of the hardest days of the working week for me (I'm ignoring weekends). It's the one day a week when I go in to work at noon and leave at 9 PM. Of course, this means I either have to eat lunch before I arrive or wait until my first 15 minute break at 2 PM. When I usually eat breakfast at 9ish on Tuesdays, that's a long time to wait for another meal! <BR> <BR> It also means I have to pack both lunch AND dinner. Since lunch is usually the same every day, lunch isn't hard... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 09:55:08 EST In-Service Day The library was closed for In-Service Day/Veterans' Day. Which means I got paid to sit on my butt for six hours. It was SO hard to stay still. I fidgeted and wiggled and bounced my foot because I'm so not used to staying sedentary anymore. I'm used to pacing the desk or bouncing and dancing around the house. <BR> <BR> At least lunch wasn't too bad. I took a quarter of my cookie and passed the rest to Tasha and ate everything else (but the tomatoes, which give me bad indigestion). Eve... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 18:31:18 EST Monumental Milestone Today, my weigh-in blew my mind. <BR> <BR> Today, I stepped on the scale. Got off. Stepped on again. <BR> <BR> Today, I screamed with joy. <BR> <BR> I've lost ten pounds since starting over again. I sprinted into the bedroom, my hands over my mouth as I bounced crazily. I sat on the edge of the bed, watching Ian with tears in my eyes as I whispered, "I'm down ten pounds. I'm at 181." <BR> <BR> He grinned at me and pulled me into a tight hug and whispered back, "Congratulations.... Sun, 11 Nov 2012 19:33:40 EST Writer's Voice I was thinking about writing on my way in to work today, since I haven't been keeping up with my NaNoWriMo goals this year. Between work and school and exercise, I really haven't had extra time to pack 1666 words into a Word document this year. I'm okay with that. <BR> <BR> But it got me to thinking about writer's voice, character point of view and writer's base intelligence. If you write in first person, as many authors (especially of YA lit) are right now, you limit yourself, not only i... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 08:31:34 EST Meal Plans While I didn't like the host for today's SparkCoach segment, I'll admit she had some good pointers and tips (tortil-la chips? Really?) <BR> <BR> My usual breakfast doesn't adhere to the plate method, but I'm unlikely to change that, since it's fast and filling and gets me out the door for work: <BR> 1 cup coffee <BR> 1 tbsp CoffeeMate <BR> 1/2 Nature's Own cinnamon-raisin bagel <BR> 1 tbsp smooth peanut butter <BR> 1 multi-vitamin <BR> 1 calcium+D <BR> 1 cranberry pill <BR> <BR> No veggies... Fri, 9 Nov 2012 08:44:15 EST Little Steps I've made a goal to log 10,000 steps every day. After participating in a work walking challenge (our team came in 4th by only a few hundred steps!) I've gotten used to wearing a pedometer and have been working to take extra steps whenever I can. The only days I actually reach my goal are days I also do some other form of exercise (bellydancing, jogging, etc), but it's getting easier to reach that goal every day. <BR> <BR> It's not so much about pain or exhaustion (though I am on my feet fo... Thu, 8 Nov 2012 13:25:25 EST