KIBBLE55's SparkPeople Blog KIBBLE55's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Wow that was an interesting 6 months On the 1st July I was made up I had lost a fantastic 85lbs and was looking forward to a well earned holiday in Italy. I said to my family I'm going to enjoy myself and not worry about weight gain but when I get back I back on it to reach my goal of 120Lb total loss. <BR> <BR> We had an amazing holiday my favourite of all time - and ohh my goodness the Italians know how to do food. <BR> <BR> As expected and anticipated I put on 9 lbs - no surprise and well within my target. <BR> <BR> Retur... Wed, 14 Dec 2016 06:51:48 EST Erghhh I hate Plateauxs ERGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH <BR> <BR> Have a great day everyone Wed, 22 Jun 2016 06:52:56 EST a quarter of me gone Some one said to me your half the man you used to be - I assumed and hoped that I meant size not personality - I laughed and said not yet! - But actually I am officially 3/4 of the weight than when I started - that is frightening - I have lost a 1/4 of my size - staggering. <BR> <BR> I get many compliments at the moment and its great but I have to keep saying to myself your not done yet - it would be great if some of my friends and loved ones would actually say it too. Too much praise leads ... Fri, 17 Jun 2016 08:39:34 EST On Target and pushing I set a target for my 50th Birthday and hit it 5 days early - I am know 77 lbs lighter than when I started and am pushing hard to the next target. <BR> <BR> I have found that making excuses to create a target - Birthday, holiday etc etc id really important. The targets are never more than 10lbs away from the last so that when you hit a target the next target does not demoralise you too much. <BR> <BR> Come on June 4th and the big party just 6 lbs to go. <BR> <BR> Be safe be happy Tue, 17 May 2016 11:52:30 EST 50 and its decision time - Get fit and live long (hopefully) or stay fat and die young Until I was 30 I was very fit from 30 - 40 I was fit but getting a stomach. My 40's have been full of bad eating and little exercise with bursts of very little eating and heavy exercise for only the later to return resulting in me toping out at 336lbs in October 2015. <BR> <BR> I am 50 years old this year and I think like many approaching that milestone I took a hard look at myself and was frankly really disappointed in what I had let happen to my body. My mantra is get fit and live long or ... Thu, 3 Mar 2016 10:54:49 EST 1 Year on - not a good story 12 months ago I completed a 155 charity walk after losing 70 lbs in weight since then have I gone on and achieved my goal???????? <BR> <BR> Sorry only 30lbs away from it and I caved and guess what I am now 80lbs away from it. <BR> <BR> I obviously have some very serious issues with food - but for the love of anything I don't know why. <BR> <BR> 1. I am very happy - great wife great kids great job <BR> 2. I am sports mad played it all my life - rugby tennis squash badmington swimming all to... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 04:56:55 EST 2013 - A game of two halves - I won but only just In 2013 I lost 70 Lbs by July by December 31st 2013 I had only lost 35 lbs. <BR> <BR> At first I was devastated and hated myself for once again failing. It took me 10 days to kick my own backside and brave enough to congratulate myself for losing the 35lbs. <BR> <BR> I have tried to work out why and yes I was stressed with work and suffering as always with the dark nights (SAD) but I can not understand why I would let myself be so stupid. <BR> <BR> I worked so hard to loose the weight and ... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 10:01:41 EST On the cusp On the cusp <BR> <BR> Well I finished my big walk 3 weeks ago – and to be honest I am very proud of myself – I know you shouldn’t be that was huge for me. About 8 days ago I fund myself tucking in to a bread and potato crisp and ketchup sarnie at 11 o’clock at night. <BR> <BR> I suddenly realised that I had done this for 3 nights running – I realised that I was thinking at about 8 at night what I could have later tonight to eat. This has always been my demon and I couldn’t believe that that... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 05:37:23 EST Birthday Lbs banished I am lucky enough to share my Birthday with my daughter. So last Friday was the 18th celebration of when I delivered her in a panic in our bathroom before the ambulance arrived. <BR> <BR> Now my best friend makes his living by providing fine dinning experiences in your home - he did this for me and my daughter. Ohhh my wow the food was outrageous and yes i massively overdulged. <BR> <BR> On the Saturday we had a chinese meal and then on sunday we had all teh family round for a 5 course meal... Wed, 15 May 2013 09:37:32 EST Weekend control Another great week with a weigh in 2lbs lighter YEAH! <BR> <BR> However for the last three weeks I have reweighed myself on Monday and even after a very physically intensive weekend my weight has either gone up or at best stayed the same. (Gone up) <BR> <BR> So being slow to reasoning as always I have a weekend problem. <BR> <BR> Whats causing it. <BR> <BR> 1. Becasue I am exercising more (20 mile walks on Saturday) I self justify eating alot more because I need it. This may be true BUT... Fri, 26 Apr 2013 04:16:40 EST I'm a teenstoner - a self indulgent blog On Jan 2nd 2013 I weighed in at 330 lbs or 23 stone and 8lbs. <BR> <BR> Today i weigh 278lbs or 19 stone 12lbs - base camp 1 has been reached and I can see the top of everest. <BR> <BR> This means so much to me words are hard to find. <BR> <BR> Of course I have been here before and gone straight back to 330 lbs but this time it feels diferent this time i am desperate to go on there is no satisfaction with being just a bit less than 20 stone I have lost 52 lbs my target is 103lbs so I am ... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 08:07:53 EST Inner demons - diet depression Diet depression - if its not a recognised illness it should be. <BR> <BR> I have some stress at the moment all work related nothing that i can not handle quite easily normally (usually by eating badly) but because of the dieting it has hit me a lot harder. The calories have crept up sowly this week the odd thing here and there nothing much at the time but they add up. <BR> <BR> I am tired - very low in energy - short tempered - I am pleased that I can now recognise the symptoms I must not f... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 10:48:09 EST Small Targets To Achieve Big Goal I have found that when I think anout my target weight loss 106lbs its is so daunting. So now I only aim for the next small target that I'e set. <BR> <BR> Recently I smashed the under 300lbs target my next target is to be less than 21stone 296lbs my next target is to have lost 40lbs etc etc etc. <BR> <BR> This way I can focus on achieving that next target and not being scared our depressed bu the big hidden target lurking in the corner. <BR> <BR> Have a great day Wed, 20 Feb 2013 06:26:02 EST For all Lord of the Ring Fans I live in Shropshire England near a place called the Wrekin - the Wrekin is a hill all on its own and it is the place that JRR Tolkein used to walk and is said to have developed his stories on the Wrekin and its surrounding beauty. <BR> <BR> Anyway I walk this every week and here are two pictures showing off its majesty. <BR> <img src=""> <img src=""> Wed, 13 Feb 2013 11:04:11 EST Bullied by my kids. I have being doing really well (lost 26lbs in 2013) and yesterday was a full on day ending up with a great family dinner - so i had not carried out my usual good eating and high activity level on the day. <BR> <BR> At about 8 pm the last family members left and I was bushed and sat down on the couch and announced to no one in particular that that was me for the day. <BR> <BR> Wham bam bish bosh - my kids laid into me calling me names, lazy etc etc. <BR> <BR> Now you may ask is there no di... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 11:26:15 EST OMG - Losing weight is tiring and worrying Things are going great started again on Jan 2nd to date lost 24lbs and I am chuffed. <BR> <BR> But I am working really hard at it - Ive got to for me its the only way - But i worry about the burden of the lifstyle I have currently adopted - I am frightened of burning out - I get concerned that I am becoming obsessed - I am worried that will I give up again when stress at work becomes too high - How do I ensure that I keep going however tired I get. <BR> <BR> For those who have done it and ... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 04:13:43 EST Size matters Ive always keen a clean plate person - its was my upbringing - eat your dinner theres people who haven't got one etc parental pressure - I always empty my plate I don't like to see other plates not empty. (Yes i have in the past cleaned them up for others to) <BR> <BR> So as part of the change in my lifestyle I want to learn to leave things on my plate. Good i hear you shout. And yes I am doing it not everytime but I am some of teh time (big changes little steps) <BR> <BR> Now I should info... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 11:45:12 EST To eat a sausage to not eat a sausage that this the question Has anybody ever done this before. <BR> <BR> Last night just before bed (always a very difficult time for me) i went to the fridge for my cold glass of cordial and there was a plate of cooked sauasages. They looked gorgeous and the smell was to die for. Of course I succumbed picked up the sausage bit half of it onto my mouth. <BR> <BR> The texture the aroma the grease were fantastic - i started to a chew (thats unusal) and then i spat it out - I cant believe it me not eating a sausage this... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 04:22:38 EST Its Snow Joke this fitness lark I love the snow on the weekend it means fun laughter and a break from the norm - Monday to Friday I hate it. <BR> <BR> I run a car dealership and I take great pride that if anybody ventures out they will be able to see every car and walk on the site on snow free paths. <BR> <BR> This means that this week I have spent about 15 hours shoveling snow and it is exhausting. <BR> <BR> This was depressing me until - I added it to my fitness tracker - wow what a calorie burner - and yes at todays ... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 04:18:25 EST Walk fat boy - Update I wrote this blog a few weeks ago - just to update you my new approach of measured exercise is paying off - have lost 13lbs in 17 days and now do at least one 10 mile walk a week. <BR> <BR> The key to success is slow and steady! <BR> <BR> Good luck <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Started again recently and I have always been bull at a gate type person and would start exercising hard the inevitable would happen I would get an injury some strain pull or massive blisters and the will would fail. <BR>... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 04:28:11 EST I lost 3 lbs but it depressed me. I did my weekly weigh in this moning and am delighted to have lost 3lbs - however it has somewhat depressed me. <BR> <BR> For the last 2 hours Ive been trying to rationalise why it has. The answer of course is because Ive got so far to go and have got to keep eating like I am and exercising like i am for a long long time (possibly forever) and it is really hard. <BR> <BR> The thought has depressed me this morning when normally my positive attitude would banish all the negativity away today ... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 04:23:35 EST Wow my kids gone to University - Am i that old Its funny but even though I run a business have many responsibilities I have always thought that I was about 26 years old. Despite being overweight for the past 14 years I have been lucky enough to be strong fit and healthly. <BR> <BR> Despite a few minor health issues in the past 18 months (DVT) i still felt young and invincible. <BR> <BR> Well my eldest child has gone to university and is having a great time and my other child will be going in 6 months and at last the realisation that I ... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 03:57:51 EST Mourning and Eating My father aged 74 died in September. He was my best friend my mentor and my guide through life. We saw each other every day as we worked together growing our business. We never argued but only discussed things. I miss him so much. But though his life was too short it was not as bad as so many. At least his life was crammed full of experiences and happiness. <BR> <BR> Dealing with my grief has been as im sure it is with everybody very complicated. Trying to be strong for the family has often... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 04:22:44 EST Mourning and Eating My father aged 74 died in September. He was my best friend my mentor and my guide through life. We saw each other every day as we worked together growing our business. We never argued but only discussed things. I miss him so much. But though his life was too short it was not as bad as so many. At least his life was crammed full of experiences and happiness. <BR> <BR> Dealing with my grief has been as im sure it is with everybody very complicated. Trying to be strong for the family has often ... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 07:07:37 EST Walk Fat Boy Walk Started again recently and I have always been bull at a gate type person and would start exercising hard the inevitable would happen I would get an injury some strain pull or massive blisters and the will would fail. <BR> <BR> So this time I thought no take it easy and just start walking. Well I mapped out a 4 mile route mainly off road mostly flat with 2 half decent climbs and Off I set. The first time took nearly 90 minutes and was hard work. However after only 3 weeks I have it down to 5... Wed, 20 Jun 2012 07:59:59 EST What Stops Me Noticing! I am again starting all over no not true I am about 14 lbs lighter than my worse ever. However I have put on 50lbs from my best reduction. I know why I stopped (injury to my ankle was the excuse this time) but why did I not stop putting weight back on earlier. Why did I stop measuring myself. Why did I not listen tyo those who love me saying watch what you are eating and do you really need that. <BR> <BR> My question no Plea is to ask my fellow sparkers who have succeded what and how did y... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 11:58:17 EST Night Time Eating Strikes Again This is one I really thought I had cured but hell no. <BR> <BR> 3 days running I reckon I,ve consummed at least 500 calories just before bed. <BR> <BR> This has always been one of my biggest demons especially when feeling low but I worked so hard to fight it and I thought I was cured. <BR> <BR> The good news I suppose is that I've caught it early this time and can start the fight again. <BR> <BR> ANy good ideas - anybody done hynotherapy? <BR> <BR> Have a great and happy day <BR> Kibs Wed, 24 Aug 2011 06:49:22 EST Night Time Eating Strikes Again This is one I really thought I had cured but hell no. <BR> <BR> 3 days running I reckon I,ve consummed at least 500 calories just before bed. <BR> <BR> This has always been one of my biggest demons especially when feeling low but I worked so hard to fight it and I thought I was cured. <BR> <BR> The good news I suppose is that I've caught it early this time and can start the fight again. <BR> <BR> ANy good ideas - anybody done hynotherapy? <BR> <BR> Have a great and happy day <BR> Kibs Wed, 24 Aug 2011 06:49:22 EST Still struggling but still fighting I don't know why but I struggle with this healthly living thing. I'm either on it or I'm not I can't find the middle ground that the successfull people on this website seam to have found. <BR> <BR> When I'm on it I feel great I have energy look better and enjoy my life more. But I find it so easy to fall back to the old me eating crap and doing nothing I feel crap look crap and hate life. <BR> <BR> So why do I keep gravitating back to it. <BR> <BR> I have just spent to fabulous weeks wi... Tue, 23 Aug 2011 11:36:25 EST The cries of a desperate failure or I wish I drank or smoked I am desperate to report that I am now heavier than I was when I started Spark world. Having lost nearly 60lbs I really believed that I had finally mastered the overeating demon inside me. <BR> <BR> How wrong I was. A sports injury (achilles tendon) and work pressure and within 18 months all weight regained plus 1lb. <BR> <BR> I said to a mate the other day I wish I drank or smoked at least I might turn to something else. <BR> <BR> The injury that I still have (now having to were a protec... Mon, 9 May 2011 08:00:18 EST THE ONE THING ! Please give me the 1 thing that you have done that has helped you lose weight - there may have been many but what has been the one constant, the best. <BR> <BR> Remember only 1 <BR> <BR> Have a great day - and tell those you love that you do. Mon, 16 Aug 2010 10:31:40 EST Habitually Healthy At what point does the good way of living ie eating healthly and exercising more become the norm and not the exception. <BR> <BR> Sports science says that you need to do an action 10,000 times for it to become a habbit. <BR> <BR> By my calculations i need to eat well and exercise more for the next 27 years before I can trust myself. <BR> <BR> That's a bit scary - no thats a lot scary! <BR> <BR> But I don't believe this is true for us sparkers - I fell off the wagon badly during the wint... Thu, 13 May 2010 06:40:21 EST Worrying for others - is healthy I'm your typical bloke 44 in a few days time 2 teenage kids a stressfull ish job and I'm overweight and unfit. <BR> <BR> But really I would have to describe my life as fantastic - I'm well paid everybody is heathly my kids don't get in trouble but I've still got worries like everybody. <BR> <BR> It's when you interact with others like on this site that you actually realise that your worris are very small and that so many people are alot worse off than you. By hearing their stories and thei... Wed, 5 May 2010 04:38:44 EST I'M SORRY - but I'm back I feel ashamed writting this blog - <BR> <BR> I really thought I had cracked the problem - I had this food obsession beat - I've lost 50lbs and the next 50lbs are going to be easy. <BR> <BR> December 15th 2009 - Treadmill sharp pain where the achilles attches to the heel - soon goes - April 28th 10 lbs heavier and diagnosis which means no running for 12 months. <BR> <BR> The thing I'm ashamed about is that when I had no choice but to reduce the exercise what did I do - did I reevaluate m... Wed, 28 Apr 2010 06:40:18 EST I cant track - why For teh first time in ages I actually recorded my fitness on the system this week and I got a reward for going over 1250 minutes of exercise - I do that every fortnight - I like tracking it keeps you focussed - but I hate doing it - how can it be easier - I've tried a diary - a note pad - erghhh <BR> <BR> FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS - ME FIRST ME FIRST ME FIRST Wed, 10 Mar 2010 06:08:44 EST The 14 day LIE Well I am very proud of myself that I have lost 56 lbs so far a great achievement but I need and want to loose another 50lbs - so why have a lied to myself for 2 weeks. <BR> <BR> <BR> Plateau my backside <BR> <BR> I am not on a Plateau I,m not working hard enough at it. <BR> <BR> The next 50lbs will be a lot harder I know that and I'm frightened of it. But now is the time to take control again and stop pretending at doing the job. <BR> <BR> The last few weeks have proved that I still do... Fri, 5 Feb 2010 05:09:38 EST SPARK GUILT When people who haven't seen me for a while say "wow you,ve lost weight - how have you done it" I reply by eating less and exerciseing more and with the help of my friends. <BR> <BR> The reality is that my friends are ok but my Spark Friends are fantastic - without the spark community I would not have achieved what I have. <BR> <BR> The problem with this is that I feel guilty when I'm not behaving myself and feel that I'm letting the community down. Stupid I know but i am english. Then I st... Tue, 26 Jan 2010 03:39:46 EST There's cracks in the rails and the train is wobbling For 6 weeks I have been treading water - One day on programme the and the next I'm using a shovel to eat with. One day I'm doing 2 hour gym sessions and the next my ass is superglued to the chair. <BR> <BR> I have still managed to lose 2lbs in these last 6 weeks - but 2 lbs is a joke even with Christmas / New Year I should have lost 10 lbs. <BR> <BR> So time to be honest with myself again. <BR> <BR> Despite great success since August I have realised that I am not cured (I doubt I ever will... Mon, 25 Jan 2010 04:25:37 EST Best mates challenge One of my best friends for 30 years has enjoyed taking the urine out of me for years as I became less fit and fatter than him. <BR> <BR> We don't see each other often so at Christmas at our get together I took great pride in being able to call him fatty for a change. <BR> <BR> He sent me a text last night challenging me to a race to lose 2 stone. <BR> <BR> The question is should I accept this childish challenge or should I be taking my weight loss more seriously. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <... Wed, 6 Jan 2010 11:33:59 EST 50Lbs Done - Relaunch Ideas Needed Well I've broken the 50 pounds barrier - and its time to relaunch the programme. <BR> <BR> I need my spark mates to give me some advice or ideas how to relaunch or revitalise the weight loss programme. <BR> <BR> A part of me is startingt o relax about it - I recognise this early danger sign from diets of the past - Come on tell me what to do get on and drive again. <BR> <BR> I feel like I need to start again clean - almost taking this current weight as the starting position and forget the... Mon, 7 Dec 2009 08:08:55 EST My Personal Motivator <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I hope this pic has come out all right - this horror show is what motivates me on a daily basis - this is glued in my desk diary is on the wall in my bedroom and is burned onto my brain for all time - I just love colouring in one of the boxes. <BR> <BR> Sorry to ruin your lunch Fri, 27 Nov 2009 08:03:55 EST Make us laugh I really find that when I laugh I feel great for some time to come after - it's a real boost to the way I feel. <BR> <BR> So much so that I will not watch depressing drama's on the goggle box anymore. If my wife wants to watch something depressing - I'm out of there. <BR> <BR> So come on sparkers make us laugh tell a funny or embarrasing story and share with all your spark friends. <BR> <BR> Like when I took a flight to Cyprus last year and had to stand up for the whole flight imbetween ta... Mon, 23 Nov 2009 11:00:51 EST Base Camp 1 - reached In england we measure weight in stones there are 14lbs to the stone so my starting weight was 23 stone 4lbs (326) lbs. <BR> <BR> My first target or as I like to call it base camp 1 was to weigh less than 20 stone. <BR> <BR> I have worked so hard at my weight all week and refused to check the scales - but this morning I succombed and with trepidation put the left and then the right foot on the messenger of doom and to my enormours pleasure it came out. <BR> <BR> 19 stone 12 lbs (278lbs) <BR... Fri, 20 Nov 2009 08:07:38 EST What does Spark People Lack Humour - come on folks make us laugh - it is the best tonic the best lift the best motivator. <BR> <BR> One of the reasons why I embarked on my journey came about last year when I went flying with one of those shove you in airlines and I got stuck in the seat. After take off I managed to get out and stood up for 4 hours until I was told to sit down for landing. My kids thought it was hilarious - so do i ------- now. Thu, 12 Nov 2009 11:10:32 EST Keeping Going I've been working so hard at my lifestyle for over 3 months now and I can feel myself starting to flag a little. <BR> <BR> By writing this I know I will reenergise and go again - but its getting harder to keep doing this. <BR> <BR> I suppose what is slightly dissapointing is that the good things I've been doing have not become habits they are things I keep doing. <BR> <BR> I am starting to realise that being unheathly is a bit like being a reformed alcholic I will never get rid of the prob... Tue, 10 Nov 2009 11:17:08 EST I Burnt I recently left a message and the question was "do i burn my clothes or do I keep them as a memento of how big I was." <BR> <BR> All the advice was don't keep them but don't burn them give them to charity. <BR> <BR> Well sorry folks - of course your right I should have given them away. <BR> <BR> But it was Guy Fawlks night last week and we used the clothes to make a huge Guy and it felt brilliant to see the old me go up in flames. <BR> <BR> Baby it burned big and long. <BR> <BR> Have a... Tue, 10 Nov 2009 11:05:49 EST Backside Kicked Well you know whats it like in life when you get some success all of a sudden your the greatest the one who can do anything etc etc. <BR> <BR> Well my weight loss has so far been fantastic and to honest i thought I've cracked it. <BR> <BR> Well this morning I got a size twelve full on kick up the backside. <BR> <BR> Despite two nine mile walks this weekend I put on 2lBS. I couldn't believe it. I went to the toilet stripped off again and was still 2lbs heavier. <BR> <BR> I took the batter... Mon, 2 Nov 2009 09:59:10 EST End Of Summer Time - Here comes Depression / or does it! Every year when the clocks are turned back in Britain I get really depressed - Not being one who thinks everything needs a label I scoff at the idea that I'm a S.A.D. suffer (seasonal adjustrment disorder). <BR> <BR> But this change when the clocks get put back and its dark by 5pm messes with my mental state. The next three months are the weight putting on part of the year - I get deprerssed I eat, I feel low I eat, I cant go out because it's dark I eat, I can't go in the garden so i sit and... Tue, 27 Oct 2009 09:56:12 EST OMG 40lbs Well blow me down with a feather duster - 10 weeks ago I never thought I would be like I am today. <BR> <BR> I was in a rut - fat - lazy - and feeling erghhhh <BR> <BR> Today 40lbs down - starting my running programme - looking for excuses to do more exercise - starting to take care in my appearance - manic about getting to my goal weight - energy energy energy. <BR> <BR> I'm starting to worry that when I get to my goal weight that the days will not be long enough to cope with my energy. ... Fri, 23 Oct 2009 06:18:15 EST What I love about Americans I have been to the states 6 times - every time I have loved it. <BR> <BR> It is such a beautifull country with the wild of Yuma arizona - the slickness (and girls) of san diego - the greenness of Florida - the awe ispiring grand canyon to the down right silly Las Vegas. <BR> <BR> But what is amazing is the people. <BR> <BR> Using spark people has confirmed what I already new - All Americans are brain washed at birth to being positive. Its fantastic all americans want you to do well, they e... Thu, 22 Oct 2009 04:38:25 EST