KGWINDER's SparkPeople Blog KGWINDER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Update I really thought this crisis with a family member would be over by now. Today I got my first break, as they were readmitted to the hospital. <BR> <BR> So much as been happening. <BR> <BR> On my own front, had written on my calendar to turn the focus back to me. So tomorrow I will weigh in and see what has been happening. I have no doubt with lack of walking my weight is up, but I have been doing physical work so hoping that counts for something. <BR> <BR> I personally I'm really relieve... Fri, 31 Jul 2015 16:47:29 EST New Direction Last few days have taken a new direction. A family member is ill and I have been racing around with my husband meeting with doctors, occupational therapist and attempting to manage some aspects of their household. <BR> <BR> I have had extremely little time for rest, exercise or even being able to get on the computer. <BR> <BR> I also have been catching meals on the fly and maybe due to the stress craving sweet more. I have no doubt I have put on a few pounds. Honestly, I'm not going to o... Fri, 17 Jul 2015 00:16:42 EST Staying off - Day 27 of gratitude Fully expected the great progress of the last few weigh in days to correct a bit today. I was 205.5 yesterday and 206 today, so basically all is well. Still can't believe I have 7 off for the week. That is rather like the first week starting food changes. <BR> <BR> Just reflecting that my body tends to respond to change. A new environment, new exercise, change in diet seems to mix it up and result and a weigh change. I should put on my calendar a new type of exercise every 4 days just t... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 17:28:22 EST Hooked on sit ups - Day 26 of gratitude This is how myths begin. I have eaten over 1000 calories the last two days. Yet, yesterday the scale showed 5 lbs down and today I 2 more down. <BR> <BR> The only really health thing I have done is some sit ups. But let's be real, there is no way that sit ups can have that effect. <BR> <BR> My more rational mind knows about all the walking I did in Yellowstone park last week. It was like all day walking and not easy with going down into valleys and back out. If I've learned anything on... Sat, 11 Jul 2015 15:48:57 EST 5 more off - Day 25 of gratitude Ok, I'm realistic and know that at least three pounds of this is dehydration, yet even two pounds off since yesterday is a yaw haw moment. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, first thing in the morning I weighed 212.5 and today 207.5 <BR> <BR> I was a busy girl yesterday meeting with a contractor to redo my MIL's bathroom, then visiting her, finding a new charge cord for her cell phone (how do things like this disappear in rest houses?) and taking a few things for her to the dry cleaner (remind me to get ... Fri, 10 Jul 2015 15:46:11 EST Having a Holiday is Good I left feeling tired and unsure how I would do with my goals while on the road. <BR> <BR> It was a hesitant moment when I stepped back on the scales this morning. I was 212.5 - when I left my lowest weight in this current journey was 212. So I feel very good that even with free breakfasts (rolls, waffles, cheese omelets), a few ice cream treats (I would split with my brother), and meals out (we mainly did grocery store meals in motels); the results weren't as bad as I feared. <BR> <BR> I ... Thu, 9 Jul 2015 12:31:45 EST On Spark Vacation This feels very dangerous. I know what happens when I stop logging. <BR> <BR> The reality is however, between Now and August - I have so much going on. I have three graduation related events ( and just learned one is very formal and I quick need to get a dress ), I need to wash clothes and pack, maybe just one last house pick up?, trip planning, getting others on their way on their trips, me being on the road and getting ready for the new job. <BR> <BR> Wow the reality as I've been rushin... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 00:47:00 EST Sleeping bag - Day 24 of gratitude Many things happened today, but this one I wasn't expecting. <BR> <BR> I need a new sleeping bag. I happened to run into a store for a very different purpose and found a VERY high end hot weather/cold weather sleeping bag for 1/2 off. <BR> <BR> I'm grateful for good deals and a new wow top of the line sleeping bag. Sat, 6 Jun 2015 02:59:37 EST Cantaloupe - Day 23 of gratitude You may have noticed my attendence and logging have gotten blotchy. It was hard seeing the scales go up even if I knew it was mainly inflammation. But I also babied myself with a little extra food. I don't think this is necessarily bad, as when my body is off, I think it is good to give it a bit more nutrition to help it heal. <BR> <BR> It's not, however, necessary to baby myself forever. Yesterday and today I did a fruit vegetable blitzto get my body back to track. Today I started with... Thu, 4 Jun 2015 20:21:47 EST Food - Day 22 Gratitude It has been a long time since I have been shopping. I got fresh fruit and vegetables - so excited. <BR> <BR> Made a huge salad for dinner. Happy Dance. <BR> <BR> I'm grateful for food. Tue, 2 Jun 2015 02:51:54 EST Swelling Ok, as if I don't know this. Doing a lot for other people isn't a good formula for my body. My weigh bumped up three pounds. This isn't due to eating, this is pure inflammation. The fingers on my left hand look like little sausages, and my wrist is impinged enough that I have numbness there. <BR> <BR> I intended upon sleeping in and going to a 5pm evening service I just woke up (6:11pm). Inflammation completely trashes me. <BR> <BR> If I had rested the day after the furniture, I might h... Sun, 31 May 2015 21:14:40 EST Helping others - Day 21 of gratitude Spent the day helping others. <BR> <BR> Agreed to give one relative a ride tomorrow. <BR> Got flowers and arrangement them for another relative's badge ceremony. <BR> Spend much of the day putting together furniture and moving it. <BR> <BR> Tired, sore, but <BR> <BR> Grateful I still have some ability to help. <BR> <BR> (side note &)&#% left knee dislocated again, getting tired of this, at least I know I can yell really, really loud, lol) Sat, 30 May 2015 02:47:22 EST Progress - Day 20 of gratitude I know when I wrote about taking out the trash, it was tempting to wallow in what is was and all the emotions that come from a world that is out of sync with goals. <BR> <BR> I'm very proud of myself. I've really turned a corner to just walk away from negative situations. Which includes not rolling them around in my head, rethinking all the what if and if I only would have.... I just drew the line. Refocused and put my energy in the future. <BR> <BR> Sorry but that also included setting... Fri, 29 May 2015 02:00:58 EST Taking out the trash - Day 19 of gratitude Taking out the trash? Ok this one is going to take a bit of explanations. <BR> <BR> If your goal in life is to have a clean kitchen; you mop and scrub, you do the dishes, you put away the clutter and then you maintain it. But there comes a point where just staying in the kitchen would cut need to pick up that big bag, get on your tennis shoes and... <BR> <BR> If you goal in life is to have a good relationship; you listen and support, you compromise and give the benefit of the ... Sun, 24 May 2015 19:02:43 EST Family - Day 18 of graditude Well I didn't have caffeine today, so my good mood can't be blamed on that. I slowed down a bit today and now that the CPR is behind me, I worked to updating my resume and writing up my skill set for this job. Interview is Sunday. <BR> <BR> First time, I have had an interview in a casual setting, so how to dress has been a tricky bit, but I'm settling on black pants and a bright silk quality blouse. I somehow feel this is right. I haven't felt right about working for a long time. <BR> <... Sat, 23 May 2015 02:56:07 EST Innovation - Day 17 of gratitude You know this gratitude stuff is a pretty heady drug for the soul. At first behind the scene there are a few grumbles and not going so well moments. As you get into the rhythm of gratitude pretty soon you are seeing things all over the place and it is limiting yourself to which ONE thing will be the gratitude subject of the day. The grumble moments turn into "how can I over come this so it can be a gratitude point?" <BR> <BR> So yesterday was one of those....the scale isn't reflecting my ... Thu, 21 May 2015 18:35:55 EST Vitamins - Day 16 of gratitude So let me tell you a really really neat thing about vitamins and minerals when restricting calories - they don't have any!! <BR> <BR> The negative part of eating a low calorie ceiling each day, is it is super hard to get all your needs from food. For nearly four months now I have eaten under 1,000 calories a day - averaging about 870. That isn't a great deal of room for junk. Actually, no room for junk. About two months into this I ran out of my normal vitamins and switched to using up a... Wed, 20 May 2015 22:55:05 EST Coffee and Tea - Day 15 of Gratitude Ok for some coffee and tea are all about the caffeine. For me it is so much more. <BR> <BR> But first what is good (and bad) about coffee and tea? <BR> <BR> a) both are filled with antioxidants <BR> b) both have nutrients for nearly zero calories if you don't add, milk or sugar <BR> coffee: <link><BR>beverages/3898/2 </link> <BR> green tea: <link><BR>m/ </link> <BR> black tea: <link> Wed, 20 May 2015 02:01:27 EST Giving myself a day off - 14 days of gratitude Yesterday I didn't blog. I went to church after a night of not being able to sleep then came home to literally crash into bed. I've been running way past my body. The future of taking a job which the second interview is coming up soon, would freak me out if I let it. I just have to try I can take it one day at a time. I can already see what the future lokks like working crashing into bed and working again. Both hands are locked this morning. So yesterday was a day of rest and I'm going... Mon, 18 May 2015 11:20:09 EST Pants that slide over hips - Day 13 of Gratitude I went with my mother to the Museum of Flight today. It was after a night of not really being able to sleep well. It was so tempting to just roll over and try to get more sleep. But I'm really trying to get myself into a work like schedule. So I downed a cup of coffee and headed out to pick her up. <BR> <BR> Going back and forth in a museum and climbing the stairs to go through the planes was a perfect bit of exercise and I woke up as I went along. Loved having a return trip to see more... Sun, 17 May 2015 01:36:07 EST Bravery - Day 12 of Gratitude <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My husband bought me a new bathing suit to celebrate over 30 pounds off. He said I look like Marilyn Monroe - well, he has very generous eyes. <BR> <BR> But I put my very bravest self forward and got a picture taken today because: <BR> 1) I really love the colors and the sweet expression on the part of my husband (supportive!) <BR> 2) Just one step closer to being able to use our community... Sat, 16 May 2015 03:03:27 EST My Pet - Day 11 of gratitude After going to Costco, the dollar store, renewing my driver's license, renewing my professional society license, my husband and I decided to go for a walk. <BR> <BR> The target today was Medina Park (can you tell we are trying to mix it up). We took along rascally Cole dog, our Malinois/Mutt mix. He is settling down more at a little past 2 years old. We were expecting to walk him on leash. When we arrived however discovered they had an off leash area - Cole scored! It was delightful to w... Fri, 15 May 2015 02:53:25 EST Being Needed - Day 10 of gratitude Got a call around 5:30pm from someone in the working world that had an impossible deadline. <BR> <BR> I jumped in the shower and in 7 minutes left the house and showed up at their working place offering my help. <BR> <BR> We worked, laughed and keep on tasks and finished in 4.5 hours what might have taken all night. I was a wonderful experience of stepping back into the workplace and feeling I still had value. I could tell the thank you at the end was sincere (they will get some sleep, ye... Thu, 14 May 2015 02:57:20 EST Learning - Day 9 of gratitude I got in 3,900 steps today, which for after a day of walking is pretty dang good. Normally I'm inflamed the day after, which I was so I rested in bed until later, then got up and did a tiny around the neighborhood, inside did room to room pick up (heck that racks up steps quickly), then parked further away for going to the area science café and before coming in after the drive home did another walk around the block. <BR> <BR> So today was a trip down to Tacoma to attend another science caf... Wed, 13 May 2015 02:45:32 EST Fresh Air - Day 8 of gratitude Did you get outside today?? <BR> <BR> While doing errands (gas, bank, goodtogopass, community college to get my CPR renewed), we stopped at the very pleasant park in our area and took a walk. It was Bridle Trails - a park made for horses. So the trails are made wide, flat and soft - which is perfect for my knee. The greenery was amazing - nettles, fairybells, herb Robert, bracken and sword ferns, trapper's tea, dogwood, devil's club, trillium, bunch berry, miner's lettuce, vanilla leaf, f... Tue, 12 May 2015 01:29:31 EST People that Mother - Day 7 of gratitude To all people that care, look out for and nurture the human spirit. <BR> <BR> Plan for special touches on holidays. <BR> Encourage others to explore to explore new skills. <BR> Support and love even in failure. <BR> Seek to add more than they take. <BR> Discover the secret gifts hidden within. <BR> Smile at the dreams of others. <BR> <BR> A huge thanks for and my hats off gratitude to all those in my life that have displayed the wonder of embracing life and lifting it upward. Mon, 11 May 2015 02:58:33 EST Food Inspectors - Day 6 of gratitude If you ever wanted to be encouraged to make good, fresh homemade meal - today I found that motivation. <BR> <BR> Several month ago I had an experience at an ethnic grocery store of finding rat dropping and urine covering a package. I brought it to the attention of the store manager and because there didn't seem to care, I called the store management the next day. The respond "that wasn't rat dropping, that was black sesame seeds". Oh right! I did rat lab taking care of 100's of rodents at... Sat, 9 May 2015 22:21:29 EST Good News - Day 5 of gratitude No surgery for my knee. The doctor is willing to work with me on getting a PT to show me home exercises to strengthen the medial knee muscles. So since my budget is limited, today I'm grateful for Good News. Sat, 9 May 2015 02:55:08 EST Honest - Day 4 of gratitude You can't change if you don't know what reality is and lying to yourself can be the worst. <BR> <BR> Today I covered my grief with food. It is surprising how often this is a pattern with me. If you would have asked me if I was an emotional eater, I would have said no, but over and over I have discovered that in bad news situations I feel justified to eat myself silly. <BR> <BR> I was tempted just not to log the day. But I forced myself to. Was it a great day? No. I consumed about 2,70... Fri, 8 May 2015 02:24:10 EST Flowers - Day 3 of gratitude Whether you are smiling or crying, flowers have a special place in our heart and health. <BR> <BR> The exchange and use of flowers has been recorded in Chinese, Roman and Greek history. Even further back archeologists have found the pollen of flowers in grave sites. As far back as 13,700 BC off the Mediterranean coast (Raqefet cave) flower pollen was found in graves. The types used were things like mint and sage, that made researches believe the original purpose was to cover smell. Howeve... Wed, 6 May 2015 16:16:19 EST Emotional Perspiration - Day 2 of graditude (If you read Day 1, the suggestion was to smile, so put a smile on your face time) <BR> <BR> Inspiration in taking in air - broken down from Latin "in" "spirit". Literally, breathing fills our spirit. <BR> <BR> But what about those days when the spirit has caved inward, the worlds demands are super high, or like my this Thursday - super sad - saying good bye at a funeral for a friend. <BR> <BR> Some times smiling just doesn't work. Then it is time for some emotional perspiration. Latin "... Tue, 5 May 2015 20:39:44 EST Smile - Day 1 of gratitude (Humor me and try to keep a smile on your face as you read this) <BR> As a child I would play a game with my cousins. As we rode in the camper bunk above the cab we would smile and wave at people we passed. If we could make them smile we got a point, wave 2 points and honk 5. <BR> <BR> Today I went to IKEA with my mother (and as I pushed the cart my knee was not happy, so I decided to "grin and bear it"). People started smiling at me. So I decided to purposely play the smile game. You k... Tue, 5 May 2015 02:05:57 EST Pulling Back the Throttle I'm back on track today. I think all the stress had just been building in me. <BR> <BR> There are something things I haven't shared - like a funeral I will be going to this Thursday, looking for a job and now getting interviews and my self doubt of my body holding up to it, having my roomer graduating in 5 weeks and the lose of income which has been my food and gas budget and finally the results of the MRI which mean surgery and needing to figure out how to pay for it. <BR> <BR> My plan is... Mon, 4 May 2015 02:28:46 EST Boiling Kettle So I'm normally more positive that most - so if that is the type of blog you want to read, turn the page - today I'm letting off some steam. <BR> <BR> Truthfully the day has been a wonderful mix or fantastic and growl feelings. <BR> <BR> I got less hours of sleep than needed, but managed to get up in time to get to an author's book club meeting at 10 a.m. The day here was super sunny. I felt carefree driving there. It was good to see some friends. I super enjoyed listening to the author... Sat, 2 May 2015 23:33:01 EST Tear Tear as in lateral meniscal knee tear, but I do not have a tear in my eye. <BR> <BR> I was so afraid the MRI report would come back showing nothing. There is also something up with the cartilage of my patella (knee cap). Going to wait to hear what the doctor says is the interpretation of the report I read. <BR> <BR> So I will continue to be careful. I did seated jumping jacks today - that will get you aerobic. <BR> <BR> Weight is slightly up, but think I have that handled by eating more... Sat, 2 May 2015 02:07:43 EST Counting my Chickens They say not to do this. Jump ahead. Run ahead with your imagination. <BR> <BR> You are suppose to "live in the moment" - taking each step as they come, not getting ahead of yourself. <BR> <BR> I get not living in the past. Why beat myself up over mistakes that are done? Can't change the past. I always call that black hole energy. You put energy and time into thinking of the past and no light gets reflected. <BR> <BR> I get not living in the future. It can easily turn into a game of... Fri, 1 May 2015 01:15:54 EST Nice get well gift For the last three days, I have felt uck and low energy. So I just worked on staying hydrated and allowed myself some licorice which helps settle my stomach. What I love now when I get a "treat" I'm still being able to stay with in the walls of calorie restriction. <BR> <BR> Every day is a new beginning and everyday is a chance to push away temptations to over do. Even on low energy days, it is more important due to the lack of activity to be focused on what is put in the mouth. <BR> <B... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 22:33:46 EST ongoing uck methotrexate hit me hard this time with nausea. I used Pepto-Bismol yesterday, today I'm just holding off on eating hoping it passes. <BR> <BR> So tired. My plan on eating is soup. I made some homemade stock. I will still try to do 20 minutes of exercise - I just will spread it out in 5 minute segments. Trying just harder. Tue, 28 Apr 2015 16:05:44 EST My day of rest Got some sunlight and did some reading, but mostly a sore resting day. My weight was the same this morning but I'm expecting it toI be up tomorrow for two reasons: <BR> 1) I ate more - because I was sore, I know my body is repairing muscles, so I packed on the protein so they could be repaired well. <BR> 2) I ate a banana - under a normal diet these are ok but with calorie restriction a banana packs in the calories for what you get in return, however I wanted to lessen muscle cramps and the... Mon, 27 Apr 2015 02:37:03 EST Pool Productive So put in a lot of work pressure washing the walkways around our homeowner assocation pool. Also lifted up the covers for the drain that circumscribe the pool, getting out all the needles, beetles, spiders and winter muck. <BR> <BR> Got some sun and exercise and am now pretty sore. Yet after yesterday's long work out and drinking 3.5 liters of water I lost a pound in a day. So crossing my fingers to have some of the same effect soon. <BR> <BR> It is almost like my body has adjusted to tr... Sat, 25 Apr 2015 20:43:20 EST Collection of Knee-less Exercises When you are overweight, it is wonderful to get up and start moving. As you do the pounds roll off. However, as I have discovered the impact to your feet, ankles and knees can be life changing in a huge negative fashion. So I'm put together a summary of exercises to be done that have minimal effect on the knees. With hindsight I wish I had not just been inspired by Biggest Loser as I have to wonder how many of those ended up having knee replacements. Mixing in Knee-less exercises earlier... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 19:56:55 EST Cheetos Lessons in listening to your body: <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I was craving Cheetos all day long - yes I was also craving ice cream and a doughnut (which by the way doughnuts have always been disappointingly unsatisfying when I finally break down and have one, never rewardwise worth it) - anyway to the Cheeto craving way not just "I want this" but "I ready to get redressed, jump in the car, buy the biggest bag and eat it all myself". To my credit, I powered through. <BR> <BR> Today I was look... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 17:31:56 EST Good Choices Going out to a restaurant has gotten easier for me. I look for the leanest protein and all the options for vegetables. I seek nutritional information and most of all I ask servers to help lead me to the best options. <BR> <BR> Today I had a bigger challenge. I was invited to a luncheon in a home. The hostess had put a lot of effort into making a beautiful, gourmet lunch. So it was about me doing well, but also not insulting the hostess. <BR> <BR> It started with a prawn, mango, avocado... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 02:41:33 EST Under 100 kilograms This is like working on a treadmill where you work on rounding off steps to a solid number and then a bit more for a round number on calories burned. I've been working in pounds, but what the heck, how fun to jump on my smartie scale and have it praise me for being under 100 kilograms. So a pound off officially after the false start of just .5 off yesterday. <BR> <BR> I got a call back on my referral for the ortho doctor for my knee. Originally they quoted May 11 for an appointment, but a... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 03:06:16 EST Step one of house cleaning. Dug in big time on cleaning up. Voted. Organized. Took my hubby out to a frugal dinner. Under ate on calories today. My weigh in was only .5 lbs off should have been 1 lb, so forcing the decrease. <BR> <BR> No doubt my body's metabolism is off. Message into the doctor but no return call. I did get in for an appointment for my hand this Thursday (another issue). So progress. Tue, 21 Apr 2015 02:56:10 EST I will adapt I don't except can't. Not an option. If I'm going to finish this journey it can't be just about eating (although the majority of my progress is all about strict calorie restriction), yet I need muscles to increase my calorie burning furnace. With my knee being extremely unstable a lot of walking or my nustep is out. <BR> <BR> Laying around is just not an option. So I did my typical upper body video with Nicole only I adapted it to sitting on the bed and really bouncing via my behind as h... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 01:54:49 EST Gentle Walking Friend picked me up today for a ride to see the last of the tulip fields. Have some gentle walking and sun. <BR> <BR> When I got home sat down to rest. When I went to get up my knee dislocated again. But because I was standing I was able to use gravity to click it back into position. Dang dang dang. Will need to see a doctor on this. Sun, 19 Apr 2015 02:53:49 EST Insert swear word I went out and did some yard work. I was just sitting and clipping, I went to get up and dislocated my left knee. I couldn't move for over an hour without screaming in pain. My husband was willing to take me to ER but I couldn't get into the car only 5 feet away from me. <BR> <BR> So sent the husband in for some muscle relaxers (haven't taking these in a long while) to help the muscle from guarding so he could put it in position. Finally my nephew used a gentle hand and lifted my heal ... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 22:17:12 EST Keeping on track I let my body rest yesterday. I felt like doing that more today. But I got up and got on my Nustep and exercised for a little over an hour. I'm keeping on target with my eating. <BR> <BR> So for a day where I normally would have allowed a rest day to stretch into day two - I cut it off and got right back on track. Thu, 16 Apr 2015 23:44:26 EST Where is gets hard Yesterday was a super busy day. I helped my husband with a task in the morning and then finally convinced his to go to a nail salon to have a dead nail removed (I was so relieved it was looking pretty bad). He was so surprised to learn there was a good nail underneath. I think and even enjoyed the foot massage. <BR> <BR> Then I drove quite a distance to help my niece do one of her American Heritage Girl badges - yes we got it all done. We explored where the water comes into the house and... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 01:27:33 EST