KGWINDER's SparkPeople Blog KGWINDER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Chapter 2 Put in a good week. Did a big push on the bike Monday with a strengthen session. Struggled with now getting to the gym, but got there. Spent Tuesday and Wednesday taking care of my Mother and Motherine laws needs (shopping, doctors appts etc) then back to the gym Thursday for another training session. But I felt the plug had been pulled from me. It was like I was half the person I was on Monday. I gave it my all, but just was under. <BR> <BR> Today Friday my plan was to do a marathon d... Fri, 10 Feb 2017 18:48:24 EST Chapter 1 Last Thursday was the official start of the Gold's Gym 12 week challenge. It was a hard day. Being weighed, measured and overall having someone else see me in scant clothing at the start. Now it is recorded and the real work can start. <BR> <BR> Part of my commitment to starting is to equal the effort of my trainers sessions, but doing the same on my own. I'm trying the best to give max effort in my training sessions. To show up early and warm up with outlined exercises given to me by m... Mon, 30 Jan 2017 19:06:42 EST Prologue I'm writing the book of the 2017 success story. <BR> <BR> The prologue of this book starts with the death of my favorite Aunt Patty September 2 and falling down the rabbit hole. I had the sense to join a grief support group and to get a personal trainer at a local gym. Things to distract my mind. <BR> <BR> I started training in November. The first session I weighed 211 pounds, but had no power. As I started to do some basics with weighs, I quickly started to feel light headed, dizzy and... Fri, 23 Dec 2016 04:01:12 EST Truck go boom :( First let's start with food and exercise today - calories 1253 (slightly higher but after logging I ate 1/2 can tuna to get my protein in range) and pushed a strolker around a farm today for 90 minutes so got a 200+ bit of exercise, so net balance 1053. Again confirming just slightly over 1000 being my maintaince range. <BR> <BR> So yesterday was taking my aunt for a blood transfusion. Driving along in a 40 mph zone. Oversize load semi trunk in front of me stops so I brake to stop, but he ... Thu, 30 Jun 2016 01:13:23 EST Has it really been 200 days since blogging? Stiff hands have made using my Kindle to blog nearly impossible and I no longer have a working computer. So I dropped into the library to print out some certificates that I have received from some continuing education classes that I took (and passed, yea still don't have dementia, lol). Thought I would check in. <BR> <BR> I have no idea how much I weigh now - I don't have a working scale and haven't been to a doctor in forever. My 3 day a week job has keep me moving, but I doubt I have ma... Fri, 24 Jun 2016 19:14:42 EST Hives So my day was good. I'm not tracking it as my computer is really slow and with the tracker not worth the frustration. But started the day with tuna, 1/2 banana snack, yogurt with fruit lunch, afternoon low fat latte, snack coming home 2 cups raspberries, dinner 1/2 banana and a peanut butter sandwich on whole grain. Pretty good right? <BR> <BR> Wrong - the last item was bad. I ate the sandwich and nearly instantly my mouth starts to tingle, then I felt bloated, bad gas, 10 minutes later ... Thu, 10 Dec 2015 00:51:01 EST Tracked my truth I tracked - that's good. <BR> I did everything I know not to do - not eating until later in the day, not getting protein early in the day and then exposing myself to a social situation (translated starved and stuffed down 4 cookies) without enough food in me. <BR> <BR> Good news the total calorie count for the day wasn't horrible, but the nutrition was less than great. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I will start with egg or tuna. I know from the past this works for me. I made a start and I can improv... Tue, 8 Dec 2015 21:25:03 EST 90 Days and Checking Back in I pretty purposely didn't check in over the last 90 days, as I for the first time in a few years started back working at a job. I knew it was going to take all of my mind and body to figure out how to make this work. <BR> <BR> My Job -- <BR> The first week was so incredible hard on my body. Simple tasks that no one else in this work would every think of as hard - opening a door with a load in one arm, carrying things up and down stairs, getting up in the morning and turning on shower handl... Tue, 8 Dec 2015 03:16:06 EST Update I really thought this crisis with a family member would be over by now. Today I got my first break, as they were readmitted to the hospital. <BR> <BR> So much as been happening. <BR> <BR> On my own front, had written on my calendar to turn the focus back to me. So tomorrow I will weigh in and see what has been happening. I have no doubt with lack of walking my weight is up, but I have been doing physical work so hoping that counts for something. <BR> <BR> I personally I'm really relieve... Fri, 31 Jul 2015 16:47:29 EST New Direction Last few days have taken a new direction. A family member is ill and I have been racing around with my husband meeting with doctors, occupational therapist and attempting to manage some aspects of their household. <BR> <BR> I have had extremely little time for rest, exercise or even being able to get on the computer. <BR> <BR> I also have been catching meals on the fly and maybe due to the stress craving sweet more. I have no doubt I have put on a few pounds. Honestly, I'm not going to o... Fri, 17 Jul 2015 00:16:42 EST Staying off - Day 27 of gratitude Fully expected the great progress of the last few weigh in days to correct a bit today. I was 205.5 yesterday and 206 today, so basically all is well. Still can't believe I have 7 off for the week. That is rather like the first week starting food changes. <BR> <BR> Just reflecting that my body tends to respond to change. A new environment, new exercise, change in diet seems to mix it up and result and a weigh change. I should put on my calendar a new type of exercise every 4 days just t... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 17:28:22 EST Hooked on sit ups - Day 26 of gratitude This is how myths begin. I have eaten over 1000 calories the last two days. Yet, yesterday the scale showed 5 lbs down and today I 2 more down. <BR> <BR> The only really health thing I have done is some sit ups. But let's be real, there is no way that sit ups can have that effect. <BR> <BR> My more rational mind knows about all the walking I did in Yellowstone park last week. It was like all day walking and not easy with going down into valleys and back out. If I've learned anything on... Sat, 11 Jul 2015 15:48:57 EST 5 more off - Day 25 of gratitude Ok, I'm realistic and know that at least three pounds of this is dehydration, yet even two pounds off since yesterday is a yaw haw moment. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, first thing in the morning I weighed 212.5 and today 207.5 <BR> <BR> I was a busy girl yesterday meeting with a contractor to redo my MIL's bathroom, then visiting her, finding a new charge cord for her cell phone (how do things like this disappear in rest houses?) and taking a few things for her to the dry cleaner (remind me to get ... Fri, 10 Jul 2015 15:46:11 EST Having a Holiday is Good I left feeling tired and unsure how I would do with my goals while on the road. <BR> <BR> It was a hesitant moment when I stepped back on the scales this morning. I was 212.5 - when I left my lowest weight in this current journey was 212. So I feel very good that even with free breakfasts (rolls, waffles, cheese omelets), a few ice cream treats (I would split with my brother), and meals out (we mainly did grocery store meals in motels); the results weren't as bad as I feared. <BR> <BR> I ... Thu, 9 Jul 2015 12:31:45 EST On Spark Vacation This feels very dangerous. I know what happens when I stop logging. <BR> <BR> The reality is however, between Now and August - I have so much going on. I have three graduation related events ( and just learned one is very formal and I quick need to get a dress ), I need to wash clothes and pack, maybe just one last house pick up?, trip planning, getting others on their way on their trips, me being on the road and getting ready for the new job. <BR> <BR> Wow the reality as I've been rushin... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 00:47:00 EST Sleeping bag - Day 24 of gratitude Many things happened today, but this one I wasn't expecting. <BR> <BR> I need a new sleeping bag. I happened to run into a store for a very different purpose and found a VERY high end hot weather/cold weather sleeping bag for 1/2 off. <BR> <BR> I'm grateful for good deals and a new wow top of the line sleeping bag. Sat, 6 Jun 2015 02:59:37 EST Cantaloupe - Day 23 of gratitude You may have noticed my attendence and logging have gotten blotchy. It was hard seeing the scales go up even if I knew it was mainly inflammation. But I also babied myself with a little extra food. I don't think this is necessarily bad, as when my body is off, I think it is good to give it a bit more nutrition to help it heal. <BR> <BR> It's not, however, necessary to baby myself forever. Yesterday and today I did a fruit vegetable blitzto get my body back to track. Today I started with... Thu, 4 Jun 2015 20:21:47 EST Food - Day 22 Gratitude It has been a long time since I have been shopping. I got fresh fruit and vegetables - so excited. <BR> <BR> Made a huge salad for dinner. Happy Dance. <BR> <BR> I'm grateful for food. Tue, 2 Jun 2015 02:51:54 EST Swelling Ok, as if I don't know this. Doing a lot for other people isn't a good formula for my body. My weigh bumped up three pounds. This isn't due to eating, this is pure inflammation. The fingers on my left hand look like little sausages, and my wrist is impinged enough that I have numbness there. <BR> <BR> I intended upon sleeping in and going to a 5pm evening service I just woke up (6:11pm). Inflammation completely trashes me. <BR> <BR> If I had rested the day after the furniture, I might h... Sun, 31 May 2015 21:14:40 EST Helping others - Day 21 of gratitude Spent the day helping others. <BR> <BR> Agreed to give one relative a ride tomorrow. <BR> Got flowers and arrangement them for another relative's badge ceremony. <BR> Spend much of the day putting together furniture and moving it. <BR> <BR> Tired, sore, but <BR> <BR> Grateful I still have some ability to help. <BR> <BR> (side note &)&#% left knee dislocated again, getting tired of this, at least I know I can yell really, really loud, lol) Sat, 30 May 2015 02:47:22 EST Progress - Day 20 of gratitude I know when I wrote about taking out the trash, it was tempting to wallow in what is was and all the emotions that come from a world that is out of sync with goals. <BR> <BR> I'm very proud of myself. I've really turned a corner to just walk away from negative situations. Which includes not rolling them around in my head, rethinking all the what if and if I only would have.... I just drew the line. Refocused and put my energy in the future. <BR> <BR> Sorry but that also included setting... Fri, 29 May 2015 02:00:58 EST Taking out the trash - Day 19 of gratitude Taking out the trash? Ok this one is going to take a bit of explanations. <BR> <BR> If your goal in life is to have a clean kitchen; you mop and scrub, you do the dishes, you put away the clutter and then you maintain it. But there comes a point where just staying in the kitchen would cut need to pick up that big bag, get on your tennis shoes and... <BR> <BR> If you goal in life is to have a good relationship; you listen and support, you compromise and give the benefit of the ... Sun, 24 May 2015 19:02:43 EST Family - Day 18 of graditude Well I didn't have caffeine today, so my good mood can't be blamed on that. I slowed down a bit today and now that the CPR is behind me, I worked to updating my resume and writing up my skill set for this job. Interview is Sunday. <BR> <BR> First time, I have had an interview in a casual setting, so how to dress has been a tricky bit, but I'm settling on black pants and a bright silk quality blouse. I somehow feel this is right. I haven't felt right about working for a long time. <BR> <... Sat, 23 May 2015 02:56:07 EST Innovation - Day 17 of gratitude You know this gratitude stuff is a pretty heady drug for the soul. At first behind the scene there are a few grumbles and not going so well moments. As you get into the rhythm of gratitude pretty soon you are seeing things all over the place and it is limiting yourself to which ONE thing will be the gratitude subject of the day. The grumble moments turn into "how can I over come this so it can be a gratitude point?" <BR> <BR> So yesterday was one of those....the scale isn't reflecting my ... Thu, 21 May 2015 18:35:55 EST Vitamins - Day 16 of gratitude So let me tell you a really really neat thing about vitamins and minerals when restricting calories - they don't have any!! <BR> <BR> The negative part of eating a low calorie ceiling each day, is it is super hard to get all your needs from food. For nearly four months now I have eaten under 1,000 calories a day - averaging about 870. That isn't a great deal of room for junk. Actually, no room for junk. About two months into this I ran out of my normal vitamins and switched to using up a... Wed, 20 May 2015 22:55:05 EST Coffee and Tea - Day 15 of Gratitude Ok for some coffee and tea are all about the caffeine. For me it is so much more. <BR> <BR> But first what is good (and bad) about coffee and tea? <BR> <BR> a) both are filled with antioxidants <BR> b) both have nutrients for nearly zero calories if you don't add, milk or sugar <BR> coffee: <link><BR>beverages/3898/2 </link> <BR> green tea: <link><BR>m/ </link> <BR> black tea: <link> Wed, 20 May 2015 02:01:27 EST Giving myself a day off - 14 days of gratitude Yesterday I didn't blog. I went to church after a night of not being able to sleep then came home to literally crash into bed. I've been running way past my body. The future of taking a job which the second interview is coming up soon, would freak me out if I let it. I just have to try I can take it one day at a time. I can already see what the future lokks like working crashing into bed and working again. Both hands are locked this morning. So yesterday was a day of rest and I'm going... Mon, 18 May 2015 11:20:09 EST Pants that slide over hips - Day 13 of Gratitude I went with my mother to the Museum of Flight today. It was after a night of not really being able to sleep well. It was so tempting to just roll over and try to get more sleep. But I'm really trying to get myself into a work like schedule. So I downed a cup of coffee and headed out to pick her up. <BR> <BR> Going back and forth in a museum and climbing the stairs to go through the planes was a perfect bit of exercise and I woke up as I went along. Loved having a return trip to see more... Sun, 17 May 2015 01:36:07 EST Bravery - Day 12 of Gratitude <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My husband bought me a new bathing suit to celebrate over 30 pounds off. He said I look like Marilyn Monroe - well, he has very generous eyes. <BR> <BR> But I put my very bravest self forward and got a picture taken today because: <BR> 1) I really love the colors and the sweet expression on the part of my husband (supportive!) <BR> 2) Just one step closer to being able to use our community... Sat, 16 May 2015 03:03:27 EST My Pet - Day 11 of gratitude After going to Costco, the dollar store, renewing my driver's license, renewing my professional society license, my husband and I decided to go for a walk. <BR> <BR> The target today was Medina Park (can you tell we are trying to mix it up). We took along rascally Cole dog, our Malinois/Mutt mix. He is settling down more at a little past 2 years old. We were expecting to walk him on leash. When we arrived however discovered they had an off leash area - Cole scored! It was delightful to w... Fri, 15 May 2015 02:53:25 EST Being Needed - Day 10 of gratitude Got a call around 5:30pm from someone in the working world that had an impossible deadline. <BR> <BR> I jumped in the shower and in 7 minutes left the house and showed up at their working place offering my help. <BR> <BR> We worked, laughed and keep on tasks and finished in 4.5 hours what might have taken all night. I was a wonderful experience of stepping back into the workplace and feeling I still had value. I could tell the thank you at the end was sincere (they will get some sleep, ye... Thu, 14 May 2015 02:57:20 EST Learning - Day 9 of gratitude I got in 3,900 steps today, which for after a day of walking is pretty dang good. Normally I'm inflamed the day after, which I was so I rested in bed until later, then got up and did a tiny around the neighborhood, inside did room to room pick up (heck that racks up steps quickly), then parked further away for going to the area science café and before coming in after the drive home did another walk around the block. <BR> <BR> So today was a trip down to Tacoma to attend another science café... Wed, 13 May 2015 02:45:32 EST Fresh Air - Day 8 of gratitude Did you get outside today?? <BR> <BR> While doing errands (gas, bank, goodtogopass, community college to get my CPR renewed), we stopped at the very pleasant park in our area and took a walk. It was Bridle Trails - a park made for horses. So the trails are made wide, flat and soft - which is perfect for my knee. The greenery was amazing - nettles, fairybells, herb Robert, bracken and sword ferns, trapper's tea, dogwood, devil's club, trillium, bunch berry, miner's lettuce, vanilla leaf, f... Tue, 12 May 2015 01:29:31 EST People that Mother - Day 7 of gratitude To all people that care, look out for and nurture the human spirit. <BR> <BR> Plan for special touches on holidays. <BR> Encourage others to explore to explore new skills. <BR> Support and love even in failure. <BR> Seek to add more than they take. <BR> Discover the secret gifts hidden within. <BR> Smile at the dreams of others. <BR> <BR> A huge thanks for and my hats off gratitude to all those in my life that have displayed the wonder of embracing life and lifting it upward. Mon, 11 May 2015 02:58:33 EST Food Inspectors - Day 6 of gratitude If you ever wanted to be encouraged to make good, fresh homemade meal - today I found that motivation. <BR> <BR> Several month ago I had an experience at an ethnic grocery store of finding rat dropping and urine covering a package. I brought it to the attention of the store manager and because there didn't seem to care, I called the store management the next day. The respond "that wasn't rat dropping, that was black sesame seeds". Oh right! I did rat lab taking care of 100's of rodents at... Sat, 9 May 2015 22:21:29 EST Good News - Day 5 of gratitude No surgery for my knee. The doctor is willing to work with me on getting a PT to show me home exercises to strengthen the medial knee muscles. So since my budget is limited, today I'm grateful for Good News. Sat, 9 May 2015 02:55:08 EST Honest - Day 4 of gratitude You can't change if you don't know what reality is and lying to yourself can be the worst. <BR> <BR> Today I covered my grief with food. It is surprising how often this is a pattern with me. If you would have asked me if I was an emotional eater, I would have said no, but over and over I have discovered that in bad news situations I feel justified to eat myself silly. <BR> <BR> I was tempted just not to log the day. But I forced myself to. Was it a great day? No. I consumed about 2,70... Fri, 8 May 2015 02:24:10 EST Flowers - Day 3 of gratitude Whether you are smiling or crying, flowers have a special place in our heart and health. <BR> <BR> The exchange and use of flowers has been recorded in Chinese, Roman and Greek history. Even further back archeologists have found the pollen of flowers in grave sites. As far back as 13,700 BC off the Mediterranean coast (Raqefet cave) flower pollen was found in graves. The types used were things like mint and sage, that made researches believe the original purpose was to cover smell. Howeve... Wed, 6 May 2015 16:16:19 EST Emotional Perspiration - Day 2 of graditude (If you read Day 1, the suggestion was to smile, so put a smile on your face time) <BR> <BR> Inspiration in taking in air - broken down from Latin "in" "spirit". Literally, breathing fills our spirit. <BR> <BR> But what about those days when the spirit has caved inward, the worlds demands are super high, or like my this Thursday - super sad - saying good bye at a funeral for a friend. <BR> <BR> Some times smiling just doesn't work. Then it is time for some emotional perspiration. Latin "... Tue, 5 May 2015 20:39:44 EST Smile - Day 1 of gratitude (Humor me and try to keep a smile on your face as you read this) <BR> As a child I would play a game with my cousins. As we rode in the camper bunk above the cab we would smile and wave at people we passed. If we could make them smile we got a point, wave 2 points and honk 5. <BR> <BR> Today I went to IKEA with my mother (and as I pushed the cart my knee was not happy, so I decided to "grin and bear it"). People started smiling at me. So I decided to purposely play the smile game. You k... Tue, 5 May 2015 02:05:57 EST Pulling Back the Throttle I'm back on track today. I think all the stress had just been building in me. <BR> <BR> There are something things I haven't shared - like a funeral I will be going to this Thursday, looking for a job and now getting interviews and my self doubt of my body holding up to it, having my roomer graduating in 5 weeks and the lose of income which has been my food and gas budget and finally the results of the MRI which mean surgery and needing to figure out how to pay for it. <BR> <BR> My plan is... Mon, 4 May 2015 02:28:46 EST Boiling Kettle So I'm normally more positive that most - so if that is the type of blog you want to read, turn the page - today I'm letting off some steam. <BR> <BR> Truthfully the day has been a wonderful mix or fantastic and growl feelings. <BR> <BR> I got less hours of sleep than needed, but managed to get up in time to get to an author's book club meeting at 10 a.m. The day here was super sunny. I felt carefree driving there. It was good to see some friends. I super enjoyed listening to the author... Sat, 2 May 2015 23:33:01 EST Tear Tear as in lateral meniscal knee tear, but I do not have a tear in my eye. <BR> <BR> I was so afraid the MRI report would come back showing nothing. There is also something up with the cartilage of my patella (knee cap). Going to wait to hear what the doctor says is the interpretation of the report I read. <BR> <BR> So I will continue to be careful. I did seated jumping jacks today - that will get you aerobic. <BR> <BR> Weight is slightly up, but think I have that handled by eating more... Sat, 2 May 2015 02:07:43 EST Counting my Chickens They say not to do this. Jump ahead. Run ahead with your imagination. <BR> <BR> You are suppose to "live in the moment" - taking each step as they come, not getting ahead of yourself. <BR> <BR> I get not living in the past. Why beat myself up over mistakes that are done? Can't change the past. I always call that black hole energy. You put energy and time into thinking of the past and no light gets reflected. <BR> <BR> I get not living in the future. It can easily turn into a game of... Fri, 1 May 2015 01:15:54 EST Nice get well gift For the last three days, I have felt uck and low energy. So I just worked on staying hydrated and allowed myself some licorice which helps settle my stomach. What I love now when I get a "treat" I'm still being able to stay with in the walls of calorie restriction. <BR> <BR> Every day is a new beginning and everyday is a chance to push away temptations to over do. Even on low energy days, it is more important due to the lack of activity to be focused on what is put in the mouth. <BR> <B... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 22:33:46 EST ongoing uck methotrexate hit me hard this time with nausea. I used Pepto-Bismol yesterday, today I'm just holding off on eating hoping it passes. <BR> <BR> So tired. My plan on eating is soup. I made some homemade stock. I will still try to do 20 minutes of exercise - I just will spread it out in 5 minute segments. Trying just harder. Tue, 28 Apr 2015 16:05:44 EST My day of rest Got some sunlight and did some reading, but mostly a sore resting day. My weight was the same this morning but I'm expecting it toI be up tomorrow for two reasons: <BR> 1) I ate more - because I was sore, I know my body is repairing muscles, so I packed on the protein so they could be repaired well. <BR> 2) I ate a banana - under a normal diet these are ok but with calorie restriction a banana packs in the calories for what you get in return, however I wanted to lessen muscle cramps and the... Mon, 27 Apr 2015 02:37:03 EST Pool Productive So put in a lot of work pressure washing the walkways around our homeowner assocation pool. Also lifted up the covers for the drain that circumscribe the pool, getting out all the needles, beetles, spiders and winter muck. <BR> <BR> Got some sun and exercise and am now pretty sore. Yet after yesterday's long work out and drinking 3.5 liters of water I lost a pound in a day. So crossing my fingers to have some of the same effect soon. <BR> <BR> It is almost like my body has adjusted to tr... Sat, 25 Apr 2015 20:43:20 EST Collection of Knee-less Exercises When you are overweight, it is wonderful to get up and start moving. As you do the pounds roll off. However, as I have discovered the impact to your feet, ankles and knees can be life changing in a huge negative fashion. So I'm put together a summary of exercises to be done that have minimal effect on the knees. With hindsight I wish I had not just been inspired by Biggest Loser as I have to wonder how many of those ended up having knee replacements. Mixing in Knee-less exercises earlier... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 19:56:55 EST Cheetos Lessons in listening to your body: <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I was craving Cheetos all day long - yes I was also craving ice cream and a doughnut (which by the way doughnuts have always been disappointingly unsatisfying when I finally break down and have one, never rewardwise worth it) - anyway to the Cheeto craving way not just "I want this" but "I ready to get redressed, jump in the car, buy the biggest bag and eat it all myself". To my credit, I powered through. <BR> <BR> Today I was look... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 17:31:56 EST