KERMAKAKKU's SparkPeople Blog KERMAKAKKU's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Disappointment Yeah. So the past few weeks have been... well a mess. I've been eating my way through pretty much everything and drinking way too much. And it shows. I reached the red zone, the weight that must not be passed. I gotta turn this around again and get a grip! <BR> <BR> Thankfully I know I'll be able to do just that. And this will work and next week I'll have so much more energy and I'll feel so much better. <BR> <BR> Yeah that's it for now. Sun, 22 Sep 2013 04:12:27 EST Here I go again So summer sucks. Not that I don't love it and everything (I love how everything wakes up during the summer and people are all just so happy!) but being on vacation is really not good for my health or my psyche. <BR> <BR> I gained a few pounds, so now I had to sort of start dieting again. It really is very difficult since I have no routines or even anything to do all day. This means that I sit at home and cannot get my lazy ass out the door. Hopefully I will be able to do something about thi... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 03:38:27 EST This is the hard part Never realized maintaining would be so hard. <BR> <BR> Interesting. So over the last week I gained back two pounds, but I'm not really very surprised about it since I have been eating excessively. I was at camp and had no say in WHAT I ate, only the portion sizes. This was so not a good thing since I couldn't keep on track and eventually sort of gave up and ate whatever I wanted to. <BR> <BR> Next week will be VERY different. Thankfully I've got two days at home to get back on track and ga... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 00:20:08 EST I DID IT! I reached my goal weight!!!! <BR> <BR> I'm beyond happy! This was such a surprise since last week was weird and my eating was a bit off all week so I was just hoping for no weight gain this week. Instead I'd lost nearly two pounds! This is AMAZING! <BR> <BR> Best start to the day! AND to make it even better my best friend told me that she's coming in to town today and is gonna be staying with me while she's here! YAY! <BR> <BR> While being ridiculously excited about reaching my target weig... Fri, 24 May 2013 00:31:38 EST Not a good start for the day. Argh I'm SO mad right now! Like ridiculously pissed off! Another week and no weight loss! This is so frustrating!! <BR> <BR> This week was good, but the thing that kills me is the weekends. Last weekend it was the camp and all the food there and this weekend it's going to be going home and eating there. Argh! And I'm really pissed off at myself for not doing any exercise this week (although I did work all week and therefore I was exhausted when I got home). <BR> <BR> So mad at myself AND ... Thu, 9 May 2013 21:34:23 EST So close So my goal date is on Sunday. I won't make it in time. <BR> <BR> I've got two more pounds to go, and three more days of uncontrolled eating. Though obviously I'm gonna try and do my best, I have a feeling I should just give myself another week to try and get to my goal weight. <BR> <BR> I just don't know... all I do know is that I'm disappointed in myself. I should have been stronger this week and not eaten all that crap. This was not a good week in terms of weight loss. (Though at least I... Fri, 3 May 2013 02:56:13 EST Where did my sunshine go? Isn't it funny how something so small can totally wreck your whole day. It's something that you usually wouldn't mind, but at that right time it just hits you. And no matter how hard you tell yourself that it's ok, it's nothing, don't care, it follows you around ALL day. <BR> <BR> This morning I had two things that bugged me, which then resulted in a sh*tty day. First off, I woke up to a BEAUTIFUL morning, sunshine and blue skies, and was full of energy and really motivated. Then I decided ... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 14:08:34 EST Life after easter So easter came. And easter went. And the scumbag left me with two extra pounds. And a VERY bloated feeling. <BR> <BR> But I guess life isn't worth living unless you get to enjoy is occasionally, so now all I gotta do is get back on track. Though I do have an infected toenail which keeps me from hitting the gym. (Never thought I'd say this, but I actually miss the treadmill!) But at least I've got the eating under control again, and since it's back to normality around here, I do get my daily ... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 13:53:43 EST Way too early... So getting out of bed this morning was excruciatingly difficult. <BR> <BR> It is WAY below freezing outside, and I've got to walk a mile to uni just so that I can sit in a semi-useless lecture for an hour and a half and then walk back. So right now I'm REALLY just hoping that time will go by quickly and soon I'll be back home. <BR> <BR> Cause today I'm also supposed to hit the gym (though right now that seems pretty unlikely) since tomorrow I'll be heading to my hometown for a family gathe... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 01:21:22 EST Running success! So this morning I woke up way early (which sort of blew since it's my day off) and decided that instead of wasting my time trying desperately to go back to sleep, I should just get up and hit the gym. <BR> <BR> Now this is something I've never done before, and just last night I was saying how I honestly don't understand people who work out in the mornings. But it was AWESOME! I totally get it now! It's only 11am and already I've done my workout for the day, gone grocery shopping and I'm wide... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 05:05:23 EST New goal So I'm back to the weight I was before my birthday, which is good. <BR> <BR> I set a new goal on my birthday -- a goal that I really want to meet. I've never felt this good about my body though, so technically I'm already a winner. But I still have that one major goal to meet. The one that I've had since like... forever. I want to weigh what my mom weighed when she was my age. To do that, I've still got 8lbs to go. <BR> <BR> I also want to get my abs straight. For as long as I can remember... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 15:02:43 EST Birthday girl So my birthday is just around the corner and today, my best friend in the whole world is coming to town for a visit. <BR> <BR> I am beyond excited to see her! It's been nearly two months! And she's never come to stay over at my place, I've only ever gone over to hers. So there's a lot that I'm really nervous about, but then I remember that it's HER, not some stranger. And then I smile. <BR> <BR> Today will be a bust in my diet program, I already know it. But I honestly don't care. I WILL e... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 01:45:35 EST Another one down SUCCESS! <BR> <BR> Another (nearly) two pounds down, even though I went out twice (!!) this week AND stuffed myself at a brilliant restaurant on Valentine's day. <BR> <BR> This week I discovered the joy of dancing. Like... REALLY dancing at a club instead of a) getting wasted or b) spending all night trying to find someone to hook up with. I am super excited about this new discovery! It allows me to go clubbing more often because I don't drink as much (so it's cheaper) and it counts as car... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 02:48:29 EST College success So on Thursday there was this party. <BR> <BR> <BR> So I went... and ended up drinking far more than my fair share. The positive thing is that I also ended up dancing at a night club for several hours. Also I didn't binge eat either at night after the club closed or the next day! That was such a massive success for me! <BR> <BR> And the very very BEST part of it was that this morning I got on the scale (like every Saturday) and I had still actually lost weight! Only like ½lbs but STILL. It... Sat, 9 Feb 2013 04:06:01 EST First one - whoah. So yeah. I've actually been using SparkPeople for a while now but haven't created a sparkpage yet. I've been thinking about it for a while now so then I just decided to go for it - what do I have to lose? <BR> <BR> Anyway today is the mid-point of week 5 for me, and so far I've lost 6 pounds. Still 12 more to go before I reach my goal. <BR> <BR> Last week was rough. I went clubbing with a friend on Friday and we ended up going to McDonald's at around 3am and bought a ton of food. And as if... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 00:37:17 EST