KERISSAK's SparkPeople Blog KERISSAK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Hello July/Goodbye July I actually can't believe it's almost August. I read this thing a few weeks ago basically stating that the reason you feel like time passes so quickly when you're older is because, technically, it does. You have more years to reflect on rather than when you were, say, six and a year was only 1/6th of the entirety of your existence. Isn't that crazy?! Anyway, all of that is to say happy July, but guess I'm a little late. <BR> <BR> I'm actually at work at the moment so I shouldn't be blogging, ... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 16:33:57 EST Now, I live in LA Hi everyone! <BR> <BR> Wow. A lot has happened since I've been on here. Not even in the actual time sense, but even in the amount of time I've been gone, there's been a lot packed into that period. <BR> <BR> I graduated college last month, moved to LA, and started a new job in my field and I am super happy. I'm currently looking for an apartment, which is very stressful and time-consuming, but I am working on it diligently everyday after work. I am lucky enough to have made amazing friends ... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 22:45:27 EST Gah, I love Trader Joe's. And other randoms. Hey guys! <BR> <BR> I finally have a day off to blog again and I wanted to update you all on my progress. So, I've been going through a pretty tough transitioning phase in my life right now. I'm finishing school in another state, which is now my new home, and I am working as an intern while taking classes at night. And now, I got a part-time job which is great because now I can get a car...but it's all been pretty exhausting. Oddly enough, my schedule being fuller has helped me plan my gym t... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 17:13:42 EST Finally injury-free, kale, and three years of spark I went to the gym for the first time in awhile, and the first time in LA, last night. It was pretty nice, admittedly smaller than the one at school, but workable nonetheless. I even swam after in the beautiful salt water pool in my complex after! It's especially nice because the pool is warm at all times - bonus that there's a jacuzzi. The salt water detail is great because I love swimming (and it's amazing exercise) but I can't risk my hair for chlorine. <BR> <BR> I did end last night snac... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 16:03:43 EST Sciatica, moving, and the "all or nothing" approach Once again, I stick my head in to say hey! <BR> <BR> I have to be honest, I haven't been working out much. I tried to really get back into it a month ago and I lasted one day. Not because I quit, but because I hurt my back so badly during a workout that I have basically been off and on with bed rest for about a month since it happened. Today is actually the first day that I've felt okay enough to walk even since and I'm super grateful for that. <BR> <BR> For awhile, I've had the condition ... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 11:28:31 EST Hump dayyy Once again, I've been MIA from blogging on here. I won't make any promises as to how often I think I can blog, but I *will* say I am getting pretty good at life recently (responding to personal emails, planning my days in my agenda and such) so you may hear from me frequently again. <BR> <BR> First of all, bless the bonus wheel because I got an incredibly welcoming amount of points! I used to spin that thing daily in my sparkpeople prime and I would cry about only getting two points lol. I g... Wed, 23 Oct 2013 15:58:41 EST Take me back please This is a weird entry because it's motivational and sad lol. <BR> <BR> I weighed myself this morning - 217. <BR> <BR> So many emotions happen when first I see the 2-prefix to my weight. I had said last year that after working so hard to get away from that, I would never see it again. And then I binged continuously and literally, and I mean literally, watched myself get bigger and bigger all summer. But it sucks letting yourself down like that, especially when you know you want so more much... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 10:26:44 EST Honesty I haven't had much time to blog on here but I want to use this free moment! <BR> <BR> I've been slacking - the gym hasn't seen me in a month and that's something I hate to admit. This job with orientation is a lot more demanding over those three days than I thought. I know I can't go to the gym on Wednesdays and Thursdays for sure, but I have found that Friday I'm out by about 4pm and I can make time to do so then. So, I still have five full days I can go to the gym, making Wednesday and Thu... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 11:30:08 EST I don't even know what day it is here in Boston Being in Boston during this extremely stressful and horrific week has had me off my game. I've been either not eating or stress eating; sleeping all day to avoid the news or not being able to sleep at all... <BR> <BR> I hate to start my habit over, but it's necessary. I'm glad I will be able to start living my "normal" life again now that they've caught the suspects, but it's going to take some time. One day at a time. <BR> <BR> Thankful to be alive and so appreciative and proud to be a pa... Fri, 19 Apr 2013 22:37:20 EST Day 4: Yikes. First of all, I pulled my back brushing my teeth this morning. <BR> <BR> My luck is nottt there. I have a pretty weak lower back (I've had it since I was 16 and started working; basically so many hours on my feet my body wasn't used to it I guess and it's always hurt ever since). I've been meaning (for years) to go to a chiropractor but not enough money to spare or time. So this summer I AM doing that, but of course I had to have another episode before that happened. It's my lower back muscl... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 10:16:30 EST Day 2 I love Tuesday mornings! I don't have class until 2pm and I have the entire morning and some of the afternoon to get my life together slowly. It reminds me of a Sunday sort of. <BR> <BR> This morning, I'm going to the gym with my friend Leila since we wanted to catch up and we rarely hang out - generally just text to keep in contact. Figured it would be a nice way to kill two birds with one stone! She wants to go to Panera after, so I've already planned to get a UP2 with half black bean sou... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 10:06:01 EST Womp womp womp. Day 1. I hate to tell you guys, but I have to start the habit again today. Not much time to write and explain, but long story short: <BR> <BR> I went on my retreat as I wrote about Friday-Saturday and there were no regular eating times or good, healthy choices to really get through other than plain salad. And with the amount of hours I would go without eating, I didn't think it would be smart to just feast on salad. So long story short, it was carb city to hold me over :/. Excuses, excuses I know. ... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 15:27:17 EST Habit: Day 2...and are you doing it? Question: is anyone else going to try to do something regarding habit? Even if it's just a habit of taking a huge water bottle around and having it all gone by a certain time? I think it's a cool thing to try because it really works if you do it daily for three weeks! Just curious if I'm the only one <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> It feels sort of weird writing in the daytime since not much has changed since my last entry. I did eat a bit of fried food last that sucks but overall, my d... Thu, 4 Apr 2013 13:05:52 EST Habit: Day 1 Right after the entry I posted about a week ago, I got sick. Awesomeee. <BR> <BR> I haven't done anything all week except sleep and eat, or sometimes not be in the mood to eat at all (at least in the first few days of my cold), which are both equally detrimental in this whole weight loss/healthy lifestyle thing. I didn't want to eat, and so when I did feel like eating, I sort of let myself eat what I could tolerate to make up for it. It was mainly and I stayed in bed and slept... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 16:18:57 EST This is going to be a longgg one Good morning sparkers! <BR> <BR> I'm really glad to be back on the site and back to working toward my original goal: mastering a healthy lifestyle and maintaining a healthy weight simultaneously. Where do I even begin? <BR> <BR> I know I said some of this stuff before, but for the sake of me feeling like I'm doing something cathartic, let me repeat in case I didn't haha. Trust me, I have to shed all of this and be honest with my spark friends in order to move forward. So I went home last su... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 10:33:19 EST Has anyone heard of the lean legs pyramid? No? Here it is. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And you're welcome. And I'm sorry at the same time lol. Do the jumping jacks only once, but everything else is once down, then once up! <BR> <BR> I'm so sore from this thing, and I always complete it but not without cussing relentlessly the second round. Determined to make it a breeze by the time spring break hits! <BR> <BR> If you do end up doing it, let me know how you did :) Sat, 19 Jan 2013 00:04:13 EST What I'm learning during round two Hello all! <BR> <BR> I've been super busy recently between a few exams I had and then turning 21 in NYC! Let's see, the basic rundown is this: the second time around is harder than the first. Let. Me. Tell. You. I'm personally really surprised at this realization and I wondered if I was going to continue to fail forever. I'm practicing will power more now, but it's pretty difficult. I did myself a serious disservice over the summer by allowing myself to binge daily and fall off working out b... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 14:57:34 EST You never regret the thing you didn't eat I love that saying - I say it to myself about once a day. I also love, "You only regret the workout you didn't do." It's so true! Have you ever eaten a piece of fruit of a plate of veggies and thought, "Man, I'm gonna regret this tomorrow"? Of course not! <BR> <BR> I say these things because these last two days, I've been tempted and tested, almost failing. Yesterday was strange...I really just wanted to eat anything. I didn't care what, I wanted it all. I didn't go outside of my not eating... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 23:08:13 EST I messed up :( I'm having a bit more trouble this time around, for some odd reason. I've made all my weight goals thus far, but I had a binge last night :( It amounted to about 1500 calories over, and it was just a bad decision on my part (I went to a friend's get together and just let it happen...ugh). I logged it all, painfully, but logged it nonetheless. I had one binge the first time I started in January the whole time (at the beginning) and for almost four months after, I didn't have anymore. I'm hopin... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 12:06:29 EST Ladder of torture So at some point this week, most likely tomorrow morning, I am going to do the unthinkable. <BR> <BR> I asked my friend (and I am asking you guys - covering my bases here and on my status) to give me intense arm and leg workouts. <BR> <BR> Her suggestion? Try the CrossFit Ladder of Torture. <BR> <BR> What is that you ask? Well... <BR> <BR> 25 squats <BR> 100 lunges <BR> 50 squats <BR> 75 lunges <BR> 75 squats <BR> 50 lunges <BR> 100 squats <BR> 25 lunges <BR> <BR> No, there were no typos... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 23:20:27 EST Sunday funday Good morning everyone :) <BR> <BR> I started my morning off with a walking workout. I was feeling pretty crappy all day yesterday - energy level was low, not really in the mood to do homework, blech. I never planned on skipping the gym, of course. I had planned to walk instead of do the bike though, so that I was still doing SOMETHING. But when I got there, I decided it would be a good endorphin kick to just do the bike for about 5 or so minutes less than I normally do, just to sweat out the... Sun, 23 Sep 2012 12:25:38 EST The wagon was rickety, but it's stable again Hey guys! <BR> <BR> I have some downtime finally and wanted to get on here and write a lil' somethin' somethin' lol. I've been super busy between work and school, and working out! I'm so happy to be in the gym regularly. It's been interesting finding new times to go because my old schedule was so set in stone. Now, the gym is more in the early morning, forcing me to wake up earlier than I would have to for class. But I like it because it makes me get more out of my day instead of just sleepi... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 19:09:59 EST First weigh in back and other thangz Good morning spark fam! <BR> <BR> Okay I have a lot of exciting news and updates and I'm thrilled to share them. As you know by now I'm back in Boston at school. I feel really good about this year. I usually have this thing where I have a breakdown when I get to school (it seems like freshman and sophomore year, I just couldn't hang lol) at least once a semester. But this year, I don't have any distractions back home or elsewhere. I'm all in it. I think it's also great that I'm taking course... Sat, 8 Sep 2012 11:07:29 EST Updates (kinda) and spring break! Good morning everyone! <BR> <BR> I just wanted to update you guys on my plans, goals, and happenings this coming week. <BR> <BR> So as I've been talking about, I messed up pretty bad this summer (as you can see from my weight updates on my main page). I wanted to be honest with you all, which was being honest with myself. For awhile I didn't update the numbers because that would make it real, but then I realized that but not facing the music, I was hurting myself because I wasn't looking at... Sat, 25 Aug 2012 11:08:38 EST You guys make my weight loss life! lol I love this site, I love you guys! <BR> <BR> Honestly it's so nice to get on here and be honest about my struggles and triumphs and not feel alone, but feel like I have cheerleaders. You guys are such great support! I feel like when I get on here and log my numbers truthfully (not that before I wasn't but I'm just saying), it helps me grow because I have to face the fact that I'm not making the progress I want to be making. In real life, I can make excuses or have people tell me that I look ... Thu, 2 Aug 2012 08:32:48 EST Well, that was hard. It was pretty hurtful to have to update all of my weight information and see exactly what I did to myself this summer. I'm so ready to be back at school, and if working out in the sticky FL heat is my main point of contention, the least I could do is not eat like a pig. So for now, I'm going to take it slow and eat less and healthier. I will definitely incorporate working out, but one step at a time. I need to get back into some working shape because I'm signed up for one of the most intense ... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 08:18:20 EST ...well hello again lol Alright guys, let me just do this honesty hour thing because I have a lot of confessions. <BR> <BR> Since I've been home, as I have previously confessed, I've had a lot of changes to deal with that really weren't conducive to my weight loss. I've gained about 8 lbs back since I've been home. If you're counting, that puts me at a round 200 again. <BR> <BR> Remember what I said - I would NEVER go back to that? I am so pissed at myself. But this is not something I can dwell on. I refuse. I kno... Mon, 2 Jul 2012 15:11:23 EST Weight gain Experiencing my first gain from my vacation week back home. <BR> <BR> 3 lbs even. <BR> <BR> This will put me back a week, but it could have been worse. I'm not happy about it or complacent with it by any means, but I did a green smoothie detox yesterday to jump back into it and it made me feel a ton better (literally). I just wasn't surprised - since I ate terribly and still worked out of course but I do know it's not something I want to make a habit of. I woke up early this morning to walk... Sat, 19 May 2012 11:29:37 EST How to recover from a binge With my new weight of 192 (54 lbs since last summer, 40 lbs since I officially started in January), I decided that it would be cool to write about a struggle instead of all about triumphs. I love my triumphs, of course I do! But anyone who has lost weight knows that it's not all roses the whole way through. It goes without saying that it's a lot of "dedication, focus, and hard work." I think one thing I wish is that I had more tools from the BEGINNING to help me through the tougher times. I d... Fri, 11 May 2012 16:16:42 EST SUMMMMMMMERRRR! I have officially finished all my exams and everything and am currently packing up my room! I go home Saturday, so I have some anticipation to build up still - but I'm still DONEEEE! Here's a picture of my today from my oral defense: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Thu, 10 May 2012 17:44:58 EST I did all 20 miles! I did the 20 mile walk for hunger today! Like I said, I decided on a whim last night and I am so glad I did. I didn't realize that my 900 or so overage was gonna be burned within the first 2 hours, and 5 hours would follow lol but I definitely ate enough over my allotted calories to make up for it. I'm too tired to detail everything, but let me just say, I am so proud that I did it. It was my first big event since losing my weight, and I got so many different compliments about either my speed... Sun, 6 May 2012 19:27:30 EST Overeating and 20 miles Had an overeating PMS episode tonight - a healthy binge...but A LOT of calories. Plus it was late. And I had a shake, but I replaced the milk with soy. BUT I don't think the restaurant did! I feel like I drank milk and I'm not too happy about it because I'm all stuffy and my head hurts. BAH I hate milk! <BR> <BR> To remedy this whole night, I had an angel sent to me to tell me that the 20 mile walk for hunger is tomorrow. What better way to pay off a binge but with a 20 mile walk?! AND for a... Sun, 6 May 2012 00:38:40 EST Saturday weigh in Good morning! <BR> <BR> So this week I was thinking about doing an official zig-zag plan; not just one because I messed up and needed to turn my week into that. I like the plan I came up with, and to be honest I'm a little worried about doing it the week before I go home. I mean, you see two 1800 calorie days and you gotta be a LITTLE leery. But as we all know, the body goes off of calorie average for the week, and all this does is confuse it to keep weight loss consistent. If I do in fact c... Sat, 5 May 2012 11:39:32 EST Two awesome stories: First: <BR> <BR> My friend's mom who is basically my mom was talking to me on the phone today, and she interrupted the flow of conversation to say that in all of the years she's known me, she has never heard me this happy. That was one of the best comments I have heard throughout this journey. I FEEL happier and the fact that she has yet to see me (she will in a week!) but can hear in my spirit that I'm truly happy...that made me tear up. Everything is different about how I treat myself now,... Fri, 4 May 2012 21:57:56 EST Before and *during* picture I just realized I don't update my pictures so often. I decided to take my official fat picture from last summer and take a picture in the same dress of me now. By the way, I hate this dress. Even losing weight and it still is NOT a flattering cut on the stomach! <BR> <BR> 246 vs. 196 <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sun, 29 Apr 2012 22:23:30 EST ONEderland!!! I am beyond thrilled to be writing this blog right now, my hands are like shaking! <BR> <BR> I made it to ONEderland, and I didn't just make it. I BLEW into it. I'm officially 196.8, down from 201 last week! I can't even begin to describe this feeling - I haven't been this weight since freshman year of high school. And I look even better than I looked then because it's more muscle than fat. I don't even know what to say other than I feel so blessed to have made it this far. My journey is FAR... Sat, 28 Apr 2012 11:00:59 EST SO close to ONEderland! Happy Saturday! Honestly I love doing blogging on Saturday because it's the weekend, I have the time to, and it's so relaxing lol. <BR> <BR> I weighed in this morning and lost my 2 lbs! I'm really excited because this week had its tribulations and I was super busy. It was hard to keep healthy working with these kids and having to watch them eat my favorite snack - cheezits! Lol luckily it's not completely real cheese so it doesn't affect my nondairy too much and it has no cholesterol - which... Sat, 21 Apr 2012 12:20:28 EST Friday!!! Oh my gosh, I literally woke up this Monday and questioned why I spread myself so thin this week. I had the kid's camp (happens twice a year, I take off my normal work to work the camp because I love kids...and it's more hours with higher pay - holla!) and I had this group project to wrap up. Normally the group project wouldn't be a problem because at my normal job, I can type up papers all day without consequence since it's so easy. But being that I took on this camp, I had NO time because k... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 23:27:00 EST It's the weekend! Thank God it's Saturday. I actually ended up going to bed at about 12 last night, pretty early for a Friday night. And then I woke up at 9am! Wompp lol. I'm glad I got a start on my day though, I love mornings oddly. I had plans initially, but as people often do, they cancelled at the last minute. It was especially annoying because I cut my gym time from 1 hour to 40 minutes to make sure I was on time getting back home and dressed, and luckily I didn't make it to getting dressed before they c... Sat, 14 Apr 2012 12:56:19 EST Personal day and update from Saturday So I'm really happy to get on here with a much different attitude than I had on Saturday morning (or Saturday mourning haha). I wasn't very much like myself as I'm sure anyone (hopefully someone lol) who reads my blogs pretty regularly could tell. I was really just disappointed in myself about my mess-up. It seems like I was letting myself just mess up once a weekend, and my intention isn't to zig zag. I had let it slide before because I made it through my weigh ins with no problem and I know... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 16:10:19 EST :( Honestly this is not going to be an uplifting blog. I almost want to cry as I write this because I am so disappointed in myself. I have let myself really mess up these past few weekends, and it's because I end up losing every Saturday anyway. I didn't even want to weigh myself today because I gorged last night, I even ate fried eggs from the pan with my friends. I had so many compliments yesterday on my weight too, and I cannot believe I just messed up so badly last night. Yes, hopefully zig ... Sat, 7 Apr 2012 08:48:58 EST The NEW 5 second rule I've made a new rule for April: if my dorm elevator is going to take more than 5 seconds to come down, I have to take the stairs. I live on the 8th floor. I did it for the first time just now coming back from a project meeting, and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be! Last year I did it, and I was winded and speechless. Today, I broke a nice sweat (which I LOVED lol) and made it to my room quickly :) It's a small change, but who knows what it will do. Mon, 2 Apr 2012 17:57:57 EST Zig Zag and updates Happy weekend everyone! I hope everyone's week was good, or at the very least tolerable, and if it wasn't, it's over now! <BR> <BR> So my last few blogs were about binging, and I decided to blog about my experience afterward this time around, as far as results on my subsequent weeks' weigh ins. I want (not WANT but would be more of a role model) to say that my weight loss was incredibly stunted. But not only is that not true, and not only did I make my goal for this week...I lost 2 extra lbs... Sat, 31 Mar 2012 10:03:43 EST Finals week, ANOTHER mess up -_-, and insanity I'm so stressed out with finals; working out is literally the perfect remedy to that stress. I take out all of my aggression on that bike, I tell ya lol. <BR> <BR> I'm happy to say that I'm on level 14 of the stationary bike! I started at 8, and I remember feeling like THAT was impossible at first. I want to say congrats to all the sparkers right now. I don't comment on every blog I read unless I have time, but I take so much pride in being on the same site with you guys. You make such big m... Tue, 27 Mar 2012 13:44:43 EST Compliments and changes Hey guys, <BR> <BR> I haven't been blogging much since my blogs get no love anymore! Well, a little love lol but no really, I just have been busy with school (but still, blogs need love!). Anyway, I've had a really good week getting back into my normal workout routine, and I'm happy to say that I cheated and weighed myself today just to get a preview of tomorrow morning and I'm 211.6! That makes my goal set for tomorrow, and if somehow I get workout the .6 tonight at the gym that would be e... Fri, 23 Mar 2012 13:42:38 EST The little things Good afternoon and happy Saturday! <BR> <BR> This marks the last official morning of sleeping in for me this break, but Saturdays aren't so bad because I know that it's my weigh in day! I'm always like a little kid on Christmas, because I never know what I'm going to wake up to. Obviously I'm hoping to make my weight goal lol but ya know. <BR> <BR> Today I DID! This goal is extra special to me because I made it while out of town. I was really worried about keeping on track, and as my last b... Sat, 17 Mar 2012 12:46:41 EST Binge! I'm on vacation, and so far I've kept up with my healthy lifestyle and exercising when I should. It's been awesome, I've lost a lb being here, so I knew I was going to be fine. But last night I had a binge, and painfully had to put it in my calories. 1100 over <em>39</em> what do I do? I want to cut my calories to the minimum I should eat for the next like 3 days to make up for it (that way I'm within my range but not starving myself, and working out harder too to make up for it). Is that a... Thu, 15 Mar 2012 11:10:37 EST Sundays are awesome I'm glad I have days like Sundays. So relaxing and just time to meditate. <BR> <BR> I do have a paper due Friday that I wanted to finish this weekend; yesterday was a fail lol and today I'm going to crank out two pages. I'll do four more over the course of the next few days and I'll be done well before Friday. <BR> <BR> I've had a really great week fitness-wise. I was worried because I was holding a lot of water weight from my period, and I was so nervous to weigh in yesterday because Frida... Sun, 4 Mar 2012 12:28:36 EST Oh, I can't, can I? I told my sister that this month when I go home, I would like to ride my bike to the mall every once in awhile for that extra boost of energy. Yes, Florida is scorching over summer. Yes, the mall is approximately 8 miles away. But I said it so happily, and true to form she tried to shut me down. Our whole life has been a competition, for her. She would never admit it (why would you admit that you try to quietly compete with your little sister, fearing one day she is gonna outshine you?) but s... Wed, 29 Feb 2012 22:45:17 EST I'm on a roll posting :) Hey guys, happy Monday! <BR> <BR> I decided to take a procrastination break from studying for my exam to update this a bit. I was going to take off working out tonight and switch it with Thursday's off day, but last minute I decided to throw on my running shoes and just go to the gym. I'm so afraid of myself, as weird as that sounds. It takes 21 days to make a habit, and I am well into that stage. I love working out, how it makes me feel, how it makes me look, and even how it makes me eat, b... Mon, 27 Feb 2012 23:13:41 EST