KELLY19770's SparkPeople Blog KELLY19770's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Scale is Not Moving- And I know why Last week I gained 0.5 and this week I lost it. But my decisions have crept into more bad than good. I am not aiming for a high number every week, but I do want to keep on around a 1lb loss weekly. <BR> There has been less thought behind my meal planning, still little exericise, and some sweets have happened. The good news is still little to no soda and have been going to the grocery quite often. I did not like some of my lunches I brought to work last week so that did not help. AND af... Mon, 8 Feb 2016 15:31:03 EST Rough Couple of Days I haven't ate the best the last 2 days. Still it was better than I would have been doing a year ago, and still averaging 1 Sprite a week and NO COCA COLA since beginning of year. Sprite doesn't hook me like coca cola does, and sometimes I want something other than water. Anyway, back to the bad eating habits... Until I got my gall bladder out a year ago I commonly dealt with periods of extreme hunger. Sometimes these would even sprout up 10 minutes after a large meal, and then I would ea... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 13:51:15 EST Better version of Me I always struggle losing weight. So many reasons. I used to compare myself to others, and since my hair will always be thin and my nose imperfect losing weight won't change that. I used to struggle every time with becoming obsessed about food when attempting to diet, and would naturally cave in. We all fall off the horse sometimes, but that would cause such feelings of guilt and hopelessness that I would be done again. Not meeting small goals would finish me off quickly. <BR> For some re... Wed, 3 Feb 2016 16:30:00 EST Sunday Funday I have eaten mostly poorly the last two days, but yesterday was a planned birthday celebration for the family at Maggiano's. Italian! They did post their calories, which was nice (and scary). Long story short, I got exactly what I wanted (fettucine alfredo) but ate half. Had one bite of the shared appetizer, NO SODA, and did eat the dessert that came with our meal. Our meal also came with a take-home pasta and I sent mine packing with my son :) I figure it's ok to eat what you want occas... Sun, 31 Jan 2016 13:50:05 EST Hello Thursday :) So far down 5 lbs in 3 weeks and 7 lbs from this time last year. I had a couple of days of slippage the past two. Oddly enough, it was my days off. Ok, not so odd, it happens every time. The best part was I was in a bad mood Wednesday. No really! I ate terrible for lunch, was in a worse mood later....but I stopped and thought about what i was doing then went to the grocery so I could have something to take to lunch at work these two days instead of eating out. I am also doing better abo... Thu, 28 Jan 2016 16:50:02 EST Small Steps and Attainable Goals I have lost 3.4 lbs in about three weeks since I rejoined Spark People. Really, my first goals were to get back on board, eat smaller portions, eat at home more often, and get soda out of my diet. My main goal is to lose 1 lb a week, since I have a trip to Ft. Lauderdale in late April that would be 16 lbs and under 200. I've done fairly well at this. I am thinking about everything I eat. There was a big slip-up last weekend, but I picked myself back up. I have eaten at home a lot, mainly... Fri, 22 Jan 2016 16:42:40 EST Back for More I have NOT been attending to my well being at all in the last 10 months since I have been on here. I am pleased to see I really haven't gained any since then. I feel like I have. I just don't feel that good overall, and this is a driving force in coming back. <BR> Last time I was on I just had my gall bladder removed and there was a lot of worry over my liver. Fatty-Liver gone wild! The doctor said I have time to change it and keep it in check before it scars up so much it could eventual... Fri, 8 Jan 2016 17:04:00 EST Week 2 Well, I only lost 0.6 lbs this week. I could have tried a lot harder, for sure. In fact, I mostly sat in front of the computer or in the chair reading. The first day last week I hurt myself doing some spring cleaning after that gall bladder surgery. That kind of spooked me. And I had (still have) a lot of homework on the computer to do for classes. The good thing is I feel great this week and the weather is supposed to be nicer. I have a lot planned this week before I go back to work n... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 11:16:54 EST One week after gall bladder surgery When I weighed in last Monday, I was at 215 lbs- my highest ever! I have lost 4 lbs this week, BUT I had gall bladder surgery and did not feel like eating for half the week. I can not say I have made the best choices the second half of the week. At the same time, my eating capacity is smaller. I am not on an exercise plan yet and attempting to do some serious spring cleaning set me back down after 45 minutes. I'm not in too much pain from the surgery but doing a lot of up/down or twisty ... Tue, 24 Mar 2015 11:01:06 EST I'm here :) I think I restarted Spark last Sunday and I must admit I have made little real progress. But I have made a bit of mental progress. My mood is better, in part to better weather I'm sure. I haven't felt bad either. I have not made great choices, but have tried to be very aware of what I was eating and why. I did eat some smaller portions and subbed salads two or three meals this week. I also paid attention to how I was feeling, hunger level, desire for certain food, etc. <BR> Exercise ... Thu, 12 Mar 2015 12:08:15 EST It's been a year I haven't used Spark People in a year....and gained 13 lbs. I noticed my clothing getting tighter even befor the holidays. <BR> So why am I back now? I have had a rough month and turns out I have gallstones and am getting the gallbladder out next week. Also, I had abnormal liver tests due to fatty liver disease. They are doing a biopsy at that time, too. The doctor says it's generally reversible but I have to make better choices. So here I am. <BR> I put on more weight in that last y... Sun, 8 Mar 2015 13:30:04 EST Holding Steady Not doing so well eating. Haven't felt the best on and off for a month now. I am having some sort of outer ear infection for the past week. Haven't made it to the doctor yet. <BR> My willpower always slips when I don't feel well. But, I can't say I have just went completely haywire. I've drank maybe 4 sodas in 6 weeks and a handful of beers (and one super yummy margarita). Mostly it has been water, unsweetened tea, and black coffee. I went through a drive thru after work to pick up s... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 12:10:40 EST Bad week I made bad eating choices with very little exercise last week. I also gained 1.5 lbs back. And two sodas! One was planned with my son's birthday party.....the other was not. But, I have done well besides in talking myself out of soda. <BR> Reasons I have been slacking: general bad attitude, switch up of one week on my work hours really screwed me up, and yet ANOTHER cold. Still dealing with the cold, third illness this season. <BR> I think the work hours and feeling a tad ill contri... Tue, 18 Mar 2014 12:43:19 EST 6 weeks until Vacation/6 more pounds to lose Only 6 weeks until Vegas and I REALLY want to lose another 6 lbs to make it 1 lb every week. <BR> The last few days I haven't done as well. Not particularly bad, just not as good as I have been. Interestingly enough, I have added some walking in when I can in the last week. But the eating has been borderline. NO SODA though :) <BR> Tim (husband) is joining in, so that is going to help. <BR> We went to the local casino twice this week (more on that in a second) and they serve free sodas ... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 16:01:13 EST Figuring things out and it's going good! First, I lost another 1.6 lbs from Monday. Because of my work schedule I won't be able to weigh again until a week from Saturday, if I want to weigh in at the same time every day. And I do want to keep it consistent. So that's 3.2 lbs in 3 weeks. Right on track for my lose 1 lb in 1 week until vacation in April. <BR> Second, my husband is seeming to get on board. He wants to do a low carb thing. I don't. Which is fine. As long as we are trying, and now I have someone to talk to IRL ... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 08:57:22 EST Measurements I measured myself today. I mean to do that the first week of every month, but forgot to last month. <BR> At first I was deeply disappointed in how many more inches I had on most of my body since the last I checked (Oct 2012). But after I ran the reports, I realized that Oct was the least I weighed in 2 years. My measurements were very close to what they were in August 2012 when I first started Spark. <BR> The only big problem was the crunches. Pushups were still somewhat close. Crunche... Mon, 3 Mar 2014 10:37:01 EST Right on Track My mini-goal when restarting Spark was to lose 8 lbs in 8 (and a half) weeks. I am going on vacation to Vegas then, and want my clothes to fit decently. It's been 2 (and a half, lol) weeks and I have lost 2.6 lbs. I am at 199.8. In Onederland once again. I looked up my weight from the last two years on here and last summer was the first time I hit 200. My highest weight logged was 202.4lbs from 2 weeks ago. But I know my scale said 206 in early January, but I hadn't logged it. <BR> I... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 17:15:42 EST Not doing too bad Oooh boy I've been busy. Trying to catch up with the Friend Feed on here. <BR> <BR> I have kept my word and had no soda for a week now. I've eaten smaller portions, too. I went to the grocery today, but did not have a plan so I didn't so a great job. Still, we have things to eat at home now. I did buy the makings of a salad and am going to have that with tuna burgers tonight. If you read my previous blogs, then you know I eat out. Every meal. I still have for two the last three wee... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 12:50:32 EST Better Day Blog The last blog I posted was full of self-pity and I was genuinely having a rough day. I want to thank everyone who read it and posted. My husband and I had a nice long talk the next day and smoothed everything out. I found out something that just happened at his work that put a lot of stress on him. Also, he fixed my car that I damaged when I hit the trash can. <BR> I have made much better choices since then. Not perfect, but better. I also re-lost the 1.5 lbs I gained last week. I th... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 14:54:16 EST Bad, Bad Day Blog I already blogged once today, but I am just having such a bad day :( <BR> <BR> First, I woke up to my parakeet having died. Poor thing. It was old and anti-social. I knew last night, so I sit and talked to her for a while. <BR> Then, my husband and I had a continued "argument." More like I got my feelings hurt on Valentine's Day and for some reason needed to bring it up again. He is a horrible gift giver and was beyond cheap this year. I love him to death but he is the pits on gifts. ... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 15:39:21 EST Confession I gained 1.4 lbs from last week. I started out great last week and then...... <BR> I drank soda, ate whatever, no exercise, no going to the grocery store. <BR> <BR> It's not all bad. I have reflected, yet again, on why I sabotage myself. And I still came back to SP to look around today. <BR> What I came up with is I have very limited time and need to organize the time I do have better. Also, there was a lot of stress for me the latter part of the week. <BR> I'm not a stress eater. I... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 09:44:31 EST Just checking in i haven't logged on the SP for a few days. Very busy with work and appointments and life. I have made a few good choices in the past few days and some not-so-good ones. Namely, I had a few sodas yesterday. <BR> But, it's not been all bad. And today I will be making out a grocery list so hopefully next week has a much better look to it. Fri, 14 Feb 2014 11:56:06 EST Short Term Goal Hard to make a plan without a goal, right? <BR> I am going to Vegas in 8 weeks and I want to lose 8 lbs in those 8 weeks. Ok, I would LOVE to lose 20 lbs, but I am trying for a realistic goal for myself. Since my new mantra is Something is Better than Nothing, I am not going to let myself get discouraged over obtaining small loses or little slip-ups. This is what gets me every time: Go, go, go! Lose 10-15 lbs and then Bam! The thrill is gone and I am back to my old ways. I need small ch... Tue, 11 Feb 2014 15:53:33 EST Sick I've come down with a nasty cold. Ugh. And I haven't made good choices since then either. Not sure if my willpower goes down or if I am trying to eat things to make me feel better. I didn't go overboard, just bad choices like Ramen noodles. <BR> On the upside, the first thing I do when I get sick is drink a ton of liquids. Mostly water, hot tea, coffee, and some orange juice. It's the only thing I've found that seems to make a difference in how I feel. <BR> My husband said he will try... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 09:59:39 EST Something is Better than Nothing So I decided on Thursday I was going to do this. Of course I worked on Friday (work is an all day affair for me), so I didn't have the correct tools to start. But, my new mantra is something is better than nothing. Normally it's all or none for me. <BR> So yesterday I had two pieces of thin crust pizza with ground beef, onion, and green pepper with water and a jello pudding for dessert. Normally this would be 3-4 pieces of probably not thin crust pepperoni with a coke. I also had oatmeal... Sat, 8 Feb 2014 10:59:41 EST Been a Long Time I haven't been on this site in over 6 months. Winter is always hard on me, and my teenage son was having a lot of issues that were pulling me down. I did end up getting some anti-anxiety medicine and some stomach meds from my doctor. I felt better until January and all of this snow and cold from winter just put me into such a foul mood. The stomach medicine was a life saver though. After 15 years of antacids and constant problems I feel the better than I could have imagined (Protonix is ... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 10:30:47 EST This time of year Although it's mid-August, it's slightly chilly out. Very fall like. This is the time of year that I always feel so motivated. Every time I lose weight, it's during late summer and fall. Winter depresses the hell out of me so it's everything I can do just to stay sane. Then in spring I am so thankful winter is over, it's everything I can do just to stay sane. And early summer I'm even further out in orbit with happiness. But, autumn........I feel so grounded and serene. <BR> Now comes... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 10:27:24 EST Time for an Update Ok, first, I weighed myself yesterday and it is the most I have weighed....ever. By 0.4 lbs. So much for cutting out doughnuts for breakfast and soda. I have gained 4 lbs since then. <BR> BUT, I am feeling really, really, really positive right now (and even the day BEFORE I have to work all stinkin' weekend). I started to write a blog yesterday, but it was whiny and negative and I just deleted it before I hit save. But, it was nice to get those thoughts out of my head. <BR> Why am I po... Fri, 26 Jul 2013 10:55:06 EST Back from a week's vacation.....and soda I had a great week off. We spent two days in southern Indiana with family at Holiday World. Other than that, just puttering around the house, enjoying summer and not being at work. <BR> <BR> Soda. <BR> I had told myself on May 11 that I would not have a soda until July 3, knowing I was going to a theme park (which has free sodas, how cool is that? And free sunscreen). I also said that I wouldn't have anymore soda after July 4th until ??? <BR> To be honest, I tried really hard not to ha... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 15:48:36 EST Weight and Age A friend told me last night of a lady who passed away in her sleep last week. She hired in with me at my job 14 years ago. I knew her but wasn't close to her, and several years back we went to different plants many states away from each other. When he told me of her passing, I remembered a lady who was by my guess mid-50s and somewhere between 300-400 lbs (in 1999). He told me she had the weight loss surgery a few years back and looked totally different. So, I checked the obituary expecti... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 12:30:14 EST Irritated with Myself and the Scale Well, here I am at 200.6 lbs. I started this last year at....201 lbs. My highest weight ever, and here I am again. My pants are incredibly tight, half of my shirts don't fit, and I am angry at myself and life being unfair. I'm going to start my blog with the unfair part of life and then move on to what I can do. <BR> Unfair: <BR> I have been soda/sweet tea free for over 6 weeks. Also, I changed my breakfasts at work from being 50% doughnut (I don't even like doughnuts but getting up befo... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 11:07:18 EST Good choice A few nights ago we went to the local fair and was thirsty. The husband wanted a Lemon Shake-Up and I said nooooooo. He said "It's not soda!" Nope, but has got to have even more sugar than one! So, I got a water (and he reluctantly drank it, too). That wasn't too hard since I didn't have 30 days of soda free under my belt. <BR> Last night I came home from work and wanted to go to Gene's Rootbeer stand for Spanish dogs for dinner. And as we were walking out the door I nearly cried and s... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 13:22:27 EST One Month Soda Free! Yep, that's me! 30 days and And only twice did I really have to think about it. Only two accidental sweet-teas (I ordered un!). There were a handful of beers in there (and one caramel kahlua drink). Just a few glasses of crystal light lemonade, because I am NOT trying to swap sugary drinks for fake sweeteners. The rest was black coffee, unsweetened tea, and water, water, water, and more water. In fact, I am drinking water right now. <BR> The bad thing is I gained one po... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 21:01:44 EST Change nothing and nothing changes Well, I am down 0.8 lbs. Which is easily just a daily fluctuation ALTHOUGH I did not weigh- in first thing this morning. <BR> Eating is still the same. Minor changes here and there, but they are minor and fleeting. For some reason, I have been so very hungry in the last couple of months. I'm not sure why either. <BR> <BR> But the soda challenge is stilllllllll going strong! <BR> For 24 days: <BR> Soda: 0. I think I have had maybe 3 times where I really wanted to give in, but didn't. ... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 13:45:27 EST Up 0.2 lbs :P No surprise. Other than cutting out soda and adding just a little walking and salad to my life, nothing has changed. <BR> <BR> Self Soda Challenge Since May 12: <BR> Soda: 0 <BR> Sweet Tea: 2 (really one and two sips of another) AND BOTH of them were when I wanted unsweetened tea and got sweet tea instead (and had already left the drive-thru). The first one wasn't tooooo sweet, so I drank it. The second time my husband and I were splitting it and it was sickenly sweet, so neither one of u... Thu, 30 May 2013 13:47:57 EST Positive Blog after a Negative One I am trying to make sure I post something fairly positive after having posted negatives ones. We all have whines and bad days, and I want to make sure I keep it even with good thoughts, too. <BR> <BR> I still haven't weighed myself, and I don't think in 2 weeks anything much has happened. I have eaten *nearly* the same, except the lack of sugary drinks + a salad here or there. And I have walked a whole lot more. <BR> But let me give you a run down on the NO SODA from May 12- July 2 (I am... Wed, 22 May 2013 11:16:06 EST Phobias and Panic attacks I don't know if I ever blogged about it before, but I have some serious phobias that are increasingly putting limits on my life. To the point: A major fear of interstates, bridges, driving in the snow, and heights. <BR> I have been commuting 60 miles to work each way since 2002. Most of the time has been with a carpooler or two (and in a month or so I won't have one anymore). We drive the country routes, although used to take an interstate for part of it. Because of the carpoolers, I ha... Tue, 21 May 2013 21:32:41 EST Feeling Better My last blog entry was very negative, albeit true. And it was very effective in getting a lot of thoughts swirling around in my head about my weight. I feel lighter, happier, and more positive. And the best part? I didn't run out and buy all good-for-you foods. I didn't throw all the junk out of the house. I did not cancel all future plans that may put me in front of a tough food choice. I did decide to take it slowly. It's always been about black and white, yes or no, on or off for ... Thu, 16 May 2013 09:20:35 EST No scale and other honest ramblings. Let me just start off with confession: I *think* I weigh as much as I did when I started Spark last year. I have not ate healthy in quite a while. I don't deal well with change and there has been a TON of it this year, both at home and at work. And when things change I fret and worry and get agitated and eating healthy is the first thing that goes out the door. Why? Maybe because I truly don't like those healthy foods? Maybe it's because I find myself with less time so I choose fast foo... Mon, 13 May 2013 13:01:30 EST Small Steps Ok, I am nearly up to where I started from. I only lost 10 lbs when I decided to call it quits. Ok, I didn't really decide that, but it's what happened. And I've gained 6 of them back. <BR> I wanted to start a new this week since my vacation was over and spring was here, and I just didn't. I don't know why I didn't. <BR> On a positive note I did cut out ALL soda and ALL sweetened tea (minus two mindless sips of a coke before I realized what I was doing and switched to water) for 5 day... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 13:51:29 EST What to do, what not to do Ok, first let me admit I am doing the horrible thing of "I will start next week." We have a vacation planned in a week, and to be honest, since I have not been keeping up with this I can't see that I will gleefully adhere to cutting calories while in Vegas. Also, this lingering winter (it is supposed to snow ANOTHER 6-10 inches this weekend!) is putting me in a seriously depressed state. This is a major reason I quit attempting to eat right and exercise through the winter months. I hate w... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 10:18:50 EST Long time, no blog. It's been a really, really, really long time since I blogged. It's also been a really, really, really long time since I ate healthy or exercised. <BR> All is not lost though. I have spent a lot of time this year thinking about why I do the things I do. I have worked out some past issues and some present issues. I am still working on a lot of those, too. I don't want to jump back in this only to fail again. I want to find out WHY I eat too much, gamble too much, am afraid of EVERYTHING, ... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 12:54:23 EST Blog time! Ok, it's time to get serious! I have done some serious thinking, and I think even on the last blog I mentioned back to baby steps. So, today I am going to start over like it is day one again. First step is meal planning! And grocery! Two of the hardest things for me to keep after. Yesterday, I did not eat very good at all. Had breakfast at 9am and was starving by 7pm when I finally decided to eat dinner! So, I didn't make good choices then. <BR> I have a terrible headache today and ... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 10:05:43 EST Just checkin' in I've been having a lot of bad eating days, and quite a few good ones, too. I have been eating more veggies than ever. I've discovered that I don't hate all veggies like I thought I did. The blame for this is my mother and the schools, lol. Both of them used canned veggies that tasted like crap. Lately I am discovering if I eat them raw or from frozen that I like a lot more than I thought I did. Even chopped up broccoli really fine in a salad and ate it. Exercise is still non-existent th... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 09:41:04 EST I'm feeling more Sparky! It's been a loooooong while since I've even began to pay attention to my weight, as in a few months. Winter is always hard for me. But, my husband and I have been talking (he needs to lose weight, too), and it's time. <BR> A real problem for me is wanting to put it off because I have something coming up. As in, tonight I am making my husband a late birthday dinner of chicken pot pie and a dessert. Also, this weekend we are going to Ruth's Chris with family. And a week from Thursday we ha... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 08:13:09 EST Gotta get that Spark back! Hi everyone! I have been missing pretty much for a couple of months now. I don't know why, although I think with being busy at the holidays and feeling blue because it's winter may have something to do with it (My husband got me a SAD lamp to try to help combat the winter blues, but I haven't had time to try it yet). Oh, and that's another thing: lack of time. Not an excuse, but that is usually the reason I fall into not taking care of myself. <BR> I miss reading about everyone on here. ... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 07:26:19 EST Been "busy" Quick post to say I'm still kickin'. Not feeling it lately. And I'm not really sure why. <BR> There are a couple of people's blogs on here that I really liked reading, always very interesting. And I noticed that not a one of them has posted anything new this month. Weird that no one is interested? Hope all is well. Mon, 26 Nov 2012 14:53:23 EST Weight Loss Survey Stole this from someone else because I found it interesting. Here are my answers: <BR> <BR> When did you start gaining weight? After I had my son at 18. I was 90 lbs before that (only 5ft tall) <BR> <BR> What was your highest weight? 201 lbs in August of this year, and maybe for the last two years since I haven't weighed myself. <BR> <BR> What diets have you been on? Always low calorie and exercise. Lost 30 lbs once, 25 lbs once, and gained it all back plus. <BR> <BR> Is your goal a nu... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 16:34:23 EST Haven't blogged in a week...oops! I gained 0.2 lbs last week. October was horrible for food and exercise. Not sure I am out of that funk yet. Not sure why I'm in a funk to begin with, lol. I think I did lose like 1.8 lbs for October. November is going to be a tough month. I have next week off with my husband, and we are doing a lot of fun things. Plus, my birthday and a birthday dinner for my 90 year old grandmother. Later in the month is some more time off with my husband, shopping with my mother and aunt, and then T... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 10:57:54 EST Quick Update and -0.8 lbs I lost 0.8 lbs for the week, which puts me back over 10 lbs lost. I have not eaten well or exercised much this whole month. Overwhelmed and super-busy. But, I know I was busy in Aug and Sept, too. I just made this more of a priority. And that's what I have to get back to. Luckily, I have my friends at SparkPeople to keep me tethered so I don't drift too far. <em>334</em> <BR> For some reason I have been mega-hungry all month long, too. And when I get really hungry I tend to make ba... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 14:37:13 EST