KELLIEBEAN's SparkPeople Blog KELLIEBEAN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Baby We Were Born To Run Well no I wasn't born to run, it has taken some work but I did a lot of running this weekend. <BR> <BR> This weekend alone bumped the Chicago area into one of the snowiest Novembers making two races in one weekend doubly challenging! <BR> <BR> Friday, I met my local running group for a Friday Night Lights 5K. Beside my headlamp and shoe lights, I picked up some lighted sticks to make into bracelets and necklaces and some blinking lighted earrings. <BR> <BR> You can't tell in this picture ... Sun, 22 Nov 2015 14:02:18 EST Challenges Today is I LOVE TO WRITE day. I'm no Bill Shakespeare but I'll celebrate the day with a blog about the week. <BR> <BR> I belong to many fitness challenges which are easy to participate in since they involve workouts I already perform. <BR> <BR> My fitbit automatically updates It's a nice surprise when I shop there and the cashier asks if I’d like to use my rewards coupon I have earned through my steps. <BR> <BR> At any given time, I belong to maybe three challenges on the Ma... Sun, 15 Nov 2015 07:27:57 EST Back to the Future Quick blog about my day as I am melting into my couch as I type. <BR> <BR> This morning I ran a 5K with the running group to which I belong. We met at a local outdoor mall and began running at 1:45 am. That's right ladies and gentlemen, AM. Since today was the end of daylight savings time, our end time was BEFORE our start time. <BR> <BR> The run benefitted the Michael J Fox Foundation for Parkinson's research. One of our running group members is currently battling this debilitating disease... Sun, 1 Nov 2015 19:09:18 EST Rebounding Those of you that read my last blog know it was a challenging week with a sinus infection. Blogging about it and reading other's blogs helped me get a grip. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling much better today. While watching yesterday's disappointing Cubs game, I did a couple Spark videos and isometric exercises. <BR> <BR> Today I pulled myself off the couch after watching a disappointing Bears game and went for just a short, slow run to see how I felt. It was good for the soul! <BR> <BR> I returned... Sun, 18 Oct 2015 23:16:10 EST The Fritos Made Me Do It What goes up must come down right? I had a pretty great week last week and now I'm sliding downward. That's life, ride the waves, blog about the good, bad and the ugly. <BR> <BR> This has been the worst allergy season for me yet. I've been through a few OTC meds and have been eating everything in sight the past two days. Whenever I have any kind of upper respiratory or sinus thing, I become RAVENOUS and nothing fills me up. DH has been buying treats lately which has not helped. UGH! <BR> <B... Wed, 14 Oct 2015 21:03:13 EST A surreal weekend! Friday evening was my first non-trial class at the new fitness center I recently joined. Coworker did not show. Small panic attack on the inside. Breathed deep, got my heart rate monitor on, with the help of the female trainer, and got on a treadmill to warm up. <BR> <BR> Class starts, dimly lit room, heart-pumping music, trainer on a microphone headset. 20 minutes or so on the treadmill (I have workout amnesia) at varying speeds and intensities. <BR> <BR> Occasionally peaked up at the boa... Sun, 11 Oct 2015 18:33:27 EST ROCKtober I'm coming to terms with the fact that summer is gone and October is here. <em>24</em> I like fall, I really do. I just wish there was more sunlight hours. <BR> <BR> Overcast days are great days though for running. Last Monday, I met my running group for a run along a local tree-lined path. Work was tiring and I had zero energy. It was slightly humid and overcast but a slight breeze as the sun started to set. <BR> <BR> I put on my slow-paced playlist and got behind a couple women that ... Sun, 4 Oct 2015 17:27:41 EST Half Century Some cool people turned 50 this year... Robert Downey jr, Brooke Shields, Viola Davis, Jeremy Piven, Diane Lane and Dr. Dre. <BR> <BR> Oh and me. Yep, got my AARP card in the mail the other day. What more could a girl want on a day she hits a half century right?! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Before a recent 5K, my daughter said "Wow, you're gonna be 50, how does that feel?" I broke into my best Sally O'Malley (from Saturday Night Live) impression and said, "I like to kick, and st... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 07:51:53 EST The Weekend That Was Whew! I need a day to recover from this weekend! At the moment, I am curled up on the couch with the labrador watching the Bears game. I may take a nap... hopefully not before I finish this blog. <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> So Friday.... busy day at work, came home to an empty house, storms moving in.....AHHH, I thought, sit down and relax. Then thought no, I pulled up a kickboxing workout. Now THAT'S how to wrap up a week! <BR> <BR> My sinuses woke me up at 4:15 Saturday morning. Ugh! But ... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 15:20:23 EST I May Join A Gym I have belonged to gyms in the past. I was a regular at Bally with my daughter years ago. I remember being SO self-conscious. It was a great feeling when I finally realized nobody cared what I looked like or what I was doing, they were all focused on themselves. <BR> <BR> A couple years ago, I joined Xsport and was quickly talked into six months with a trainer who by the way was young enough to be my son and pushed me less than I pushed myself. I was too nice to complain. I’m the dinosaur... Thu, 17 Sep 2015 08:53:27 EST The Highlight Reel Well, we're winding down the labor day weekend. Where did the summer go? We had so much rain in the beginning of summer, that I feel like we just got started. <BR> <BR> Fall is not without its charms. I'm looking forward to jeans, sweatshirts, the fall colors and fall races. I just wish I could keep longer daylight hours along with the beauty of fall. Such is life. <BR> <BR> So I've been busy. There have been projects at work, some successful, some not. I'm thankful for the stress, it means... Mon, 7 Sep 2015 15:52:51 EST Sunday Coffee Talk Okay, it's almost noon but I needed another cup of coffee. I'm in slow motion today. I'm Facebook friends with a woman I met in 8th grade. We haven't actually seen or talked to each other in many many years. <BR> <BR> She put out a general invitation to see a band that covers AC/DC, Aerosmith and Van Halen.The bar was in my area and they came on at 10pm, the hour I turn into a pumpkin. But I thought that it might be fun. DH was going there after work so he was thrilled I would finally meet ... Sun, 16 Aug 2015 13:00:45 EST Runnin South On Lake Shore Drive A day of adjectives.... <BR> <BR> Relief.... My back is finally better YAY! Two weeks of stretching every evening, short walks and some Aleve helped me get to the other side of pain. <BR> <BR> Spectacular..... Spent the morning with my daughter..... some walking, some running along Lake Shore Drive, brunch and shopping. Today's sweltering heat and humidity was not going to get in my way! <BR> <BR> We walked a bit, ran some, walked a bit again. It felt amazing to be out there sweating and ... Sat, 18 Jul 2015 20:09:08 EST Bad News, Good News Hi all! Happy July! <BR> <BR> It's been a while since I have written a bad news, good news blog. Most of you know that I usually try to write positive blogs. Well, I'm not Pollyanna, gotta put the good and bad out there right? But I always work at looking at the bright side so here goes.... <BR> <BR> Bad news......I weigh over goal for the first time in over 2 1/2 years. I am ashamed to admit i made a nasty gesture at the scale this morning. How did this happen??? Hmmm, I'll spare you the ... Sun, 5 Jul 2015 21:54:33 EST Reader's Digest Well, the end of May. Where has the month gone?! Here's the latest... <BR> <BR> I had a routine blood test that showed I may be borderline anemic. Me? Anemic? I put a half cut of spinach in my smoothies every day. <BR> <BR> I added iron to my nutrition tracker and eeeyikes! I do not get anywhere near enough iron. So it's education and adjustment time. I'm reading about iron sources and adjusting my eating habits. We never stop learning. <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~~~~ <BR> <BR> I ran a 5K the beginni... Sat, 30 May 2015 19:56:40 EST Small Acts of Power I heard Chris Downey talk about small acts of power back when there used to be Spark Radio. He said the best way to get on track after a slump was to commit a small act of power, do a ten-minute workout, get a piece of fruit or glass of water. <BR> <BR> That has stayed with me and come in handy many times when I got lazy and slid down the slippery slope into old habits. <BR> <BR> Last week I went for a run after work when I was a little drained; I almost didn't go. I got it done and came h... Tue, 5 May 2015 22:02:31 EST Hump Day Run I got 'er done! I'm really working on not letting work get to me. Come on Kel, I told myself as I packed my gym bag this morning, everybody has draining days. No reason to veg on the couch. <BR> <BR> It was quite a chilly, blustery day but it was dry so no reason not to get out there. I love the path near work, slight inclines, uneven ground. The wind would make it that much more of a workout so what's not to love.... except I just wanted to go home, get in my sweats and spend quality time w... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 22:36:54 EST The Week That Was Tomorrow is Monday again already? How did that happen? <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> It was a very busy week. I'm in the middle of leading two projects at work, a role I am not very comfortable with but I'm powering through. How do you handle a frustrating day? Pop on a red rubber nose. I had this on during a frustrating phone call. Hard to get irritated looking like this. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Not much opportunity for regula... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 08:25:41 EST Dancing Queen It was a beautiful spring day here in Chicagoland. I could not stay inside! I took the dog for a 15 minute walk after breakfast then back outside for a 3 1/2 mile run. After some housework, I went for a bicycle ride and took the dog for another walk after dinner. <BR> <BR> I almost forgot about the challenge I posted on my One Day Challenge team about the Better Posture video on Spark so I got that done. My posture can always use some work! <BR> <BR> This beautiful spring day put me in the ... Sat, 11 Apr 2015 22:36:28 EST Weekend Tidbits Easter shopping… Talk about procrastination. I started Thursday and finished Saturday afternoon. My kids are adults, my sisters kids are in their teens. It gets harder as they get older. <BR> <BR> I went through all of the first holidays since my mom’s passing last year and yet, I still felt deflated as Easter approached this year. I gave myself a good talking to about life going on. <BR> <BR> 5K… First official 5K of the season was Saturday morning. It was a lot colder than I had h... Mon, 6 Apr 2015 16:53:39 EST Room For Improvement May 9, 2015.... The Quarryman 5K.... The website states "Visit our community and run one of the most challenging, unique and scenic road races in the Chicago area." <BR> <BR> The last three runs I've done have been on a course I mapped out near my house that included a significant incline in preparation for this challenging race. I know the town in which this race will be held. I knew it would be challenging for me but I wanted it. <BR> <BR> Early this morning, the organizers held a second... Sat, 28 Mar 2015 21:36:48 EST Chips, Dip and a Mexico Trip Just got back from four days in Mexico with a local radio station.. anyone out there in the Chicago area? We went with The Mix radio station. I've been listening to them I think at least 15 years if not longer, and I've always wanted to do this trip but never thought I'd be able to afford it. <BR> <BR> It was an amazing trip! I'm a bit of a groupie, meeting anyone even remotely famous is really thrilling for me. I once made a huge fool of myself with James Young from the rock group Styx when... Wed, 18 Mar 2015 12:54:09 EST I've been hacked again I have heard stories for a few years about people getting hacked and always wondered when it would be my turn. <BR> <BR> Well, I've been hit twice this year! Right after the holidays, someone did a little shopping on me out of state. The credit card company notified me before I knew it happened and took care of everything. <BR> <BR> In my last blog, I wrote about my first official 5K of the season coming up this Saturday. Well, that is not going to happen. <BR> <BR> Last week I thought it... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 12:40:35 EST American Dream (marvel comics) My first offiicial 5K of the season is next weekend. It's the Super Hero 5K benefitting the neighborhood's economic growth, enhanced natural beauty, and promote it as a world-class tourist destination. <BR> <BR> They encourage participants to dress as a super hero. I did an internet search a few weeks ago and saw pictures of women with big hair and other big "attributes" in skimpy attire. REALLY? <BR> <BR> Today I stopped in my local Party Store to browse around the costume area. I saw bat ... Sat, 28 Feb 2015 19:29:13 EST What Was and What Will Be Happy Sunday to all. Well last week was tiring but I'm standng upright and completing sentences. <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Two demanding projects at work! I will be doing a major happy dance in April when these are both done.... fingers crossed. <BR> <BR> The weather is getting to me. It hasn't been as bad as last year and by far not as bad as the Boston area so I'm thankful, yet still stir crazy. So I decided to have fun with the temperatures for last week, double them and get ... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 11:13:20 EST What to do It's mid-February in Chicago, biting cold, gusty winds. The five-day forecast shows the warmest day will hit a high of 22, not including wind chills. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> What to do? <BR> <BR> Step thankful I do not live in Boaton and never complain about winter again! <BR> <BR> Step two...set a goal. I will use the frigid temps to my advantage. I will look at each day's high temps, double it and get active in s... Sun, 15 Feb 2015 00:04:57 EST THE SICK AND THE TIRED It was finally my turn. I have been around sick people since November. Each person near me that came down with something caused me to be on pins and needles waiting for it to grab me but I kept dodging the bullet. <BR> <BR> It was finally my turn. Two people at work continued to come to work with a cough and cold. This is unfortunate since we have the ability to work from home. <BR> <BR> Last Friday, out of nowhere I started coughing, felt fine otherwise, just a persistent dry cough. Satur... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 20:04:15 EST A Winter's Run The running store where I shop hosts group fun runs throughout the year. Many times when I hear of these events, I'm busy or feel awkward about going alone. None of my friends or family members run. My daughter runs but she lives over an hour away so it's tough to get together sometimes. <BR> <BR> I registered for today's 3-mile Super Bowl shuffle. I watched the ominous weather reports the last couple days and my resolve began to fade.....snow starting the night before, (Saturday) and should... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 21:26:16 EST Living Lean Program Review As I mentioned in my last blog, I was nearing the end of a video series as part of our health initiative at work. It's called Living Lean with Lou Ryan. It trains you to reduce snacking, overeating and changing your relationship with food. I can do this for free through work but this on-line training is available to all for about $200 and yes, it is a training. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I finished the series a couple days ago and I have to ... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 08:33:54 EST The Windmills of my Mind Welcome to deep thoughts (or not so deep) by KELLIEBEAN! Just some things rattling around in my brain. <BR> <BR> Snacking <BR> <BR> I’m going through a video series for one of our health initiatives at work about living lean. There are assignments after each session and get this, I have to create snacking urges every day?! WHAT?! When I do this, I have a creed I have to read each time I look at my snack. <BR> <BR> I had my doubts and was just going through the motions to get credit for the... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 15:30:19 EST Make Mistakes I read a quote this morning by Neil Gaiman.... <BR> <BR> "I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes. Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You're doing things you've never done before, and more importantly, you're doing something." <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~~~ <BR> <BR> Look at Abraham Lincoln. He was born into poverty, lost eight elections, failed in business twice ... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 08:23:49 EST Excuses Busted I registered for next year's Hot Chocolate 5K last night. I accidentally clicked that I run a 9-minute mile. I hang more in the 10:30 neighborhood. I read that I have until October to produce race results proving my time. 'challenge accepted!' I thought to myself at 11:00 last night. <BR> <BR> I looked at the weather before I went to bed and saw today would be the best weather all week for a run. Sunny, low 30s and dry. The rest of the week, frigid with rain and snow. <BR> <BR> When I got u... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 18:31:11 EST December in Adjectives I guess I could wait until after new year but ahhh, no time like the present to wrap things up right?! <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Facing the end of the year without my mom..... heartbreaking. She LOVED Christmas and wanted nothing more than a Norman Rockwell family. She never got that but we always tried. <BR> <BR> My cousin's annual cousin Christmas party... bittersweet. Mom and her sisters (one passed last year, one didn't come due to her diminishing mental capacity) were alway... Tue, 23 Dec 2014 21:33:33 EST I Swear I Lived This is my new favorite song. I had a very challenging day, drained the life out of me but I still went to yoga. Driving home I heard this song by One Republic. I hope the video works for you. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ydSolwU </link> <BR> <BR> There is a quick ad in the beginning then the video starts with a young man getting ready for a bike ride, talking about living with cystic fibrosis and how he doesn't let it get him down. <BR> <BR> As of the making... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 22:39:34 EST This Day In History 1859 Charles Darwin published "On The Origin Of Species" <BR> 1932: The FBI (Federal Bureau of Investigation), officially opened a Scientific Crime Detection Laboratory (better known as the FBI Crime Lab) in Washington D.C. <BR> 1941 - Pete Best was born, (drummer from the Beatles) <BR> 2014 - KELLIEBEAN reached two years maintaining a weight loss and healthy habits. <BR> <BR> In the past, I couldn't maintain a weight loss longer than a couple months. I remember when I reached one year of m... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 23:31:55 EST Update In yesterday's blog I talked about my bad mood and my stiff back. I talked myself into a better attitude and better mood and decided to go to yoga since you all made me see it would be good for my back. The day went along nicely. Until... <BR> <BR> Let me prefice this by saying everything is fine now. <BR> <BR> My dad's girlfriend called about 5:30pm that she hadn't heard from my dad since he left for his doctor appointment, 40 miles away, at 12:30ish. He won't give up his doctor since he ... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 09:04:57 EST Don't Judge the day by the Weather The forecast calls for frigid temps today, too early for this weather in my book. My husband kept me awake off and on through the night with his snoring, I have a full day ahead of me trying to kick off a project with people dragging their feet on commitments and my back suddenly went stiff for no reason this morning making me rethink yoga class tonight. It all makes me feel like yelling, WHY ME?! Or “Well, it’s definitely a Monday, I need more me time.” <BR> <BR> So often when the weather i... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 08:35:06 EST The Weekend in Adjectives Day off of work Friday for packet pickup.... Fun. Spent a fun day with DD at the convention center. <BR> <BR> Afterward visited my aunt back in my old neighborhood....sentimental. She's my late mom's last living sibling. She still lives in the same house from when I was small. I drove by the apartment I grew up in, my elementary school, library and the park I played in as a kid. <BR> <BR> Saturday.... hectic. I knew I'd be tired after the race today so I tried to get a weekend's worth of ho... Sun, 9 Nov 2014 20:43:57 EST Fit2Feast/Hope/Goal Reached Happy Sunday in November. Just a few tidbits knocking around my head today. <BR> <BR> I am doing the Spark Fit2Feast challenge again this year. Last year it really kept me in the right frame of mind to stay healthy into the holidays. <BR> <BR> For this year's challenge, I will add 10 minutes of activity in addition to whatever regular workout I have planned. For rest days, it will be at least 10 minutes of stretching/yoga. <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> <BR> From the movie Ho... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 09:46:09 EST A Thank You Note I've waited 11 years I think and it's finally happening. DH and I are going to Mexico in March with a local radio station. Every year they invite listeners to travel to a different resort in Mexico to hang out with them and watch them broadcast live on a beach. <BR> <BR> Every year I listen to it as I drive to work on cold, dreary March mornings and say to myself that I will get there one day, never really believing I ever would. <BR> <BR> Over the years, I have lost a significant amount o... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 09:22:18 EST The Weekend That Was I joined a fitbit challenge to accumulate more weekend steps than normal so that was the focus for this weekend... keep moving. <BR> <BR> I got off work early Friday, changed right away and took the dog for a walk. After dinner, I kept moving, started some laundry and some housework that kept me up and down the stairs many times. I had been able to squeeze in two walking breaks at work so I was hoping to see 20,000 steps when I checked my fitbit about 8:30 pm. <BR> <BR> Instead of seeing my... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 08:18:26 EST What to do, what to do? Insert dramatic movie trailer music and deep, overly dramatic movie trailer guy voice.... <BR> <BR> In a world with so much work to be done and meetings to attend, there was no time for her walking breaks, no time for stair runs. <BR> <BR> She leaves her workday to find another rainy evening and DH cooking pot roast and mashed potatoes. How she would love to sink into the couch after a large dinner. <BR> <BR> A glance at her fitbit tells her she needs over 5000 steps to reach her goal. W... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 22:37:45 EST Friday baby! We are sliding into the weekend. I need to shake off that last blog and get the weekend started. <BR> <BR> Good things that happened this week...... <BR> <BR> I shaved 10 seconds off my best 5K time on Sunday, giving me a new PR. <BR> <BR> My dad is feeling well after his hospital stay. <BR> <BR> I ate smart in the hospital cafeteria when I was overtired and stressed. <BR> <BR> My adult son that moved in with us recently, unloaded the dishwasher twice during the night. He's a night owl. ... Fri, 10 Oct 2014 08:56:52 EST Rough day Today would have been my mom's 76th birthday so excuse my emotional rant. <BR> <BR> Sunday evening we received a call from the independent living facility where my dad lives that he passed out and an ambulance was there. We rushed to the hospital, same hospital where my mom died earlier this year for a long evening in the ER. <BR> <BR> I noticed a shiny, new ring on dad's left hand. It was red, white and blue. Looked very naval. I asked about it and he pointed to his girlfriend with a smile... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 21:20:17 EST Pant For the Pantry 5K I can't resist a 5K for a good cause. Today was the Pant for the Pantry 5K for a local food pantry. This morning, I woke up way too early with a headache and stiff all over. We went from almost 80 degrees and humid to 30s and 40s inside of a week. <BR> <BR> I did the Spark Rise and Shine stretches routine, took some ibuprofen, had a light breakfast and I was ready to go. It was a crisp 43 degrees at race time but at least it was dry. <BR> <BR> After I parked, I realized....insert scary musi... Sun, 5 Oct 2014 20:21:07 EST Time For a Sing Along I once changed the lyrics to Mary Poppin's A Spoonful of Sugar. So kids, today's singalong is to the tune of If You're Happy and You Know It. <BR> <BR> If you’re Sparkin and you know it spin the wheel <BR> If you’re Sparkin and you know it spin the wheel <BR> If you’re Sparkin and you know it <BR> Then Spark points are gonna show it <BR> If you’re Sparkin and you know it spin the wheel <BR> <BR> If you’re Sparkin and you know it track your food <BR> If you’re Sparkin and you know it trac... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 13:18:48 EST Da Zoo Run Run A great day for a 5K to benefit a local zoo. I met my daughter (my 5K buddy) and her boyfriend (who did not run today) at the train and we headed to the zoo. This is the zoo I took my kids to many many times when they were small. Tons of memories. <BR> <BR> A little brisk this morning but the rain held off so perfect running weather for me. We started out taking goofy pictures and then headed to the corral area where the DJ was playing some good dance music from the late 80s/early 90s. I was... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 18:55:13 EST House Chips or Fruit Salad I’m getting into my usual end-of-summer reflective mood. True, summer isn’t technically over in my corner of the world but close enough. So welcome to the reflective pond that is my blog. <BR> <BR> Some things I learned about myself recently…… <BR> <BR> Stop thinking “I can’t”. True, I am not super human, there are things I cannot do BUT, I must stop letting that be my first thought. Last week I was asked if I wanted the house chips or fruit salad with my sandwich. I had intended house chi... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 10:44:53 EST A Letter To Myself To Myself on October 1st, <BR> <BR> Well, August really flew by. By the time you read this, that project at work that has been like riding an insane roller coaster should be live and going smooth. It's a shame it caused us to wish away the the summer, looking so forward to Fridays, an empty house and comfy clothes. <BR> <BR> Hopefully Anthony moving back in is still going well. True he can be moody at times but I have been really happy to have him back. Every once in a while, I can still s... Sun, 31 Aug 2014 23:10:02 EST I told Ya So.. ..... i have said to myself many times when I know better but I do it anyway. <BR> <BR> It was a fine Wednesday morning, yeah a little worried about dad but he'll be fine and I had my emotions in check and I felt like it was going to be a productive day at work. <BR> <BR> I bought a little bag of chocolate covered raisins in the cafeteria early this morning for a snack for later. I had a chocolate craving and it was a smart portion. I have this under control. I'm not feeling emotional, jus... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 17:35:15 EST