KELL724's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KELL724 KELL724's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Starting a new chapter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5665088 I can't believe it has been that long since my last update!! Time has really flew by lately I am back to work, had to leave my son at Advocate because my FMLA was up, it was the most heartbreaking time in my life. I only go up for weekends now I can tell you that this experience has shown me a lot of things good and bad( even in Nicks "family" ) but that's ok we are a few days away from going to rehab at RIC in Chicago, Nick can't wait to get out of here he has been in the hospital almost 4 m... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 14:20:47 EST Getting there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628606 Well I only have 2 more weeks left of my FMLA with my son, I am happy to say he continues to be an inspiration, that is words taken out of all his nurses and doctors. We have the whole left leg that is now grafted and a small amount on the right so we have had 2 skin graphs with 1 more to go, then possible orthopedic work on the right and the last will be urology but that will be more like in June. He will be going to rehab without me which is going to be horrible, it's the same feeling I had... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 19:22:56 EST Hello Everyone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5607376 Coming to you from the freezing town of Park Ridge. The skin graphs and femur bon fix are healing quite well, my son is such a strong guy and for the most part has kept a positive attitude thru all this, he does have his down times when it all gets too much and that is what I am here for. I did go home to Wisconsin this past weekend, my ex came from Georgia with his wife so I did go home and seen my furbabies. I can't believe how Itty is so much like my Pippen and how big Emmie is getting, As... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 16:35:41 EST Big Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5596961 This is a big day for us, my son was critically injured on Dec 9th when he was at work an excavator ran over him crushing him from the pelvis down. He lost his right calve and foot and his left leg the femur bone was crushed among a lot of other injuries. His pelvis and left leg was held together by hardware. He is now in surgery to repair this leg, the Ortho team has fixed his femur and his pelvis was fixed by the hardware holding it in place for the last 6 weeks, the Orthon team is now done... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 12:07:46 EST We are still here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5591977 Just an update as I've been off for a while, Nick is coming along slow and steady. We are now on the 7th floor intermediary care. ICU. He has had countless surgeries with many more to go but we are lucky because he is still here with us . Thank you for all the prayers and keep them coming Mon, 13 Jan 2014 07:32:56 EST continued.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5564922 Thank you to everyone who have contacted me and praying for Nick. He is holding holding his own. He has been running a high fever but it has come down so I'm thankful. Sun, 15 Dec 2013 14:24:43 EST My worst nightmare http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5564286 To all my sparkpeople friends I will be absent from this for long periods of time as my middle son Nick had a severe work injury on monday, he was run over by his company excavator, he has lost his right leg just below the knee and we are fighting to save his left leg as it was broken in 3 places and severely damaged. His pelvic was crushed and too many other horrific injuries to list, I am thankful to the Lord for saving his life as I was told that 90% of people with this do not. I am thankf... Sat, 14 Dec 2013 14:34:46 EST Head spinning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5544116 Well it is Monday, my favorite day as I can "Start my diet" "Be Good" and many other versions of that. Now I have "Started my diet " on every day of the week with the same result, I have tried every kind of diet there is, ones with deprivation, eat certain foods only, Weight Watchers, Nutri System, Atkins you name it. I believe it has to be a balance, no food should be " off limits" or that you can never have it again. I have been incorporating the teachings of "The Secret" and "Law of Attrac... Mon, 18 Nov 2013 09:21:04 EST Feeling Better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5490862 Well I can say that I am feeling better, I have not ate better yet still working on that but I am resolving my financial status and even though I don't want to have decided to file bankruptcy , I just can't do it anymore with my medical bills and cards and loss of income I just have to. One thing positive is next Friday I am going to start volunteering at Petco during the week ,on my way home to feed and play with the kitties, I am so looking forward to that, like a way to honor my Pippen f... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 07:32:46 EST Difficulty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5486963 I have not done well for such a long time, facing financial hardships trying to hold on to my home. Still having a very hard time with the person I work for, he is the worst boss I have ever had but can't find anything else and to top every thing I lost my best friend in the whole world my cat Pippen( he is the bigger grey cat in my pictures) I won't get into it all but he slipped outside and we didn't know it and got attacked by a dog who killed him, my son found him the next day. The pain i... Mon, 16 Sep 2013 08:26:43 EST I am trying to come back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5421752 I have fallen off the face of the earth on this site, been having a really rough time with everything and having a very hard time coping, gained all weight back plus a little extra. Been seriously depressed. Trying to start new everyday, very hard... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 11:30:09 EST Needless to say http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5292718 Well I have not wrote in here since March 8 so of course I am struggling again, had really bad days at work, really tired and over ate. I am trying everyday to turn it around and not give up hope. I am happy to report that I found a different healthsystem and a new Cancer Doc( the facility I was at dropped me because I still owe them money and was not paying enough anymore, not that I missed any payments they just felt I should pay more now??) I was in a panic and at least got that resolved, ... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 17:38:26 EST A step in the right direction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5278387 Well yesterday was a mini break thru for me, after a hard day at work (they have all been that way lately) I was stopping by fast food places on my way home, one of my fave's was Micky D's Angus Bacon Cheeseburger meal, had such a craving for that, but I was listening to music and a song came on that I used to listen to when I was 42, in shape and looking good and I remembered that feeling and I ended up driving by. When I got home I took my baby girl Asha out for a walk, not a real big one b... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 06:13:10 EST Still Standing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5277113 To say that I have been struggling is an understatement, I have not been able to pull it together yet. I have been under a lot of stress at work, the hospital that I went to for my Breast Cancer refuses to see me know because I can't pay more on my bill and trhu me into collections, now I have not missed a payment on the arrangement that we previously had and they feel since I'm " Recovered" I should be upping my payment, they forget that they are not my only debt, that I have a house payment... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 08:57:39 EST I am a work in progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5263371 Well after having a good run at being good again I fell short due to my emotional eating monkey that is on my back. My job has become extremly stressful and given the fact that I work alot of hours and some other smaller things I turned to food and gave in. I did track my food for the most part but on the weekends it's harder due to my home computer being on the fritz. I knew I over did it and my 7 lb. gain showed it..ugh. I am not giving up I will work on the root of this which is not enough... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 12:28:31 EST Wow what a difference a year makes. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5250034 A year ago I was in radiation for my Breast Cancer, in a verbally abusive relationship( always called me ugly and fat), being cheated on( course I didn't know it) and in my ex house. Fast forward now I'm in a great relationship with a guy who told me on the first day we met that there was nothing wrong with me, that my ex was crazy and I am discovering that for myself. I have my own house, which I love, and I have a beautiful husky( ex hated huskys, said they were bad dogs, idiot) Asha and m... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 07:33:45 EST WOW was that good. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5247643 Well not only do I have a love affair with peanut butter, I have the same going on with anything raspberries, so I got some of the light and fit Greek yogurt that is 80 cals, added some frozen raspberries, a little stevia and this no calorie rasp.coffee syrup put them together and let sit a couple of hours in fridge to blend, YUMMY. Now my heads spinning on what else I can put together, gotta get something for peanut butter so I don't use Ice Cream. <em>30</em> Tue, 12 Feb 2013 10:56:31 EST Still Trying part 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246138 Well I woke up today in a much better place than I was the past 2 weeks, sure I still have the same problems but I fell in a better place to be able to deal with them, no reason why, just woke up this way. As I said I am an emotional eater and a true peanut butteraholic so that is my comfort food but I am determined to get in shape by this Spring/Summer!! Mon, 11 Feb 2013 09:14:51 EST still trying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238209 Well I have not stuck to the program with my food or exercise program at all, the only positive that I have is that I've logged in everything so I can see the damage it has cost me, also can feel it with the pounds I have put on. I've been under a lot of stress lately and I turn to food to cope. I have not given up everyday I get up with the attitude that I will get back on track today so as long as I feel like that I will make it happen again, I have not lost faith in me, I am a fighter, I a... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 05:58:18 EST Another Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231770 Well I have yet to get back on track, but I am keeping track of everything I eat. With the horrible weather the last 2 days I ended up getting water in my basement to add to the list of problems, it's not the whole basement thank goodness so I have that going for me. I am really trying to get back to a more positive light. Looking forward to the weekend and some sleep in time. Thu, 31 Jan 2013 13:27:47 EST Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5226741 Well my "bad" streak continued thru the weekend but the good news if any is I tracked it so I am seeing for the first time how much it cost me in calories to behave this way. I am an emotional eater, almost always at night, last week has some issues and I went back to my old ways of dealing with it. I am going to change this. I guess the good news also is I shoveled my driveway and that was a work out. Mon, 28 Jan 2013 08:49:59 EST Well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5223986 Well...had a couple 3 days now that I ate over limit, the first 2 days were not bad and I can accept that but yesterday I really over did it, the good news is I tracked it and I am able to see the damage it cost me in calories,carbs,fat etc. I have had some things that have upset me and I am an emotional eater and it's usually at night due to the fact that with my financial situation I currently live at work with no end in sight but I am determined to beat this too, hell I made it thru cancer... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 07:35:58 EST A little bit off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221703 Well last night I was over for the calories and carbs and didn't exercise either, got home too late, the same will be tonight as far as the getting home but I am gonna keep it with in the program. I think I am learning as if this happened in the past I would have said " The hell with it" and go off for weeks, now I have been able to have days off and then be able to pick up where I left off. It will be harder to get back in the swing with exercise because as it stands..I don't like it at all... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 13:32:38 EST Tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220028 Well I upped my treadmill to 10 whole minutes and did some floor exercises which total time was 20 minutes, I figure as long as I keep moving upwards I am doing good. The only problem is exercising so late has interferred with falling asleep so I am dragging today. I was good again with eating tho so over all I am pleased. <em>41</em> Wed, 23 Jan 2013 11:42:49 EST Excited http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218766 Well I always watch the Biggest Loser on TV and they had a thing on there about their 5K walk/run and they have events all over so my friend and I have agreed to do the one in Racine, Wi in Sept and her and I also do the Making Strides walk in Chicago but this year we decided to also do the one in May in Milwaukee, I am really excited to start training for these:-) Tue, 22 Jan 2013 14:23:40 EST It's Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5216761 Well I did have some bad eating this weekend but it's not stopping me from keeping a positive focus on what I want to accomplish with my life and health. I watched Oprah and her Super Soul Sundays and watched about the Law of Attraction( which I believe in) and affirmations so I wrote some down and started that today as well. Mon, 21 Jan 2013 09:41:43 EST So glad it's Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212901 Well I have managed to stay to plan this week with only 1 bad day, so that is a positive thing. I still have to figure out this hospital thing and/ or get a new doctor, not sure which route to go yet, gonna do some serious thinking this weekend on alot of issues, that will be one. I am positive for the most part, one of the reasons is the awesome animals I have at home, I have 2 full grown cats ( sammie 15 and Pippen 10) and a 3 month old kitten( Itty) that we rescued when it was 5... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 11:23:25 EST Dusting my self off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5211174 Well had a bad day yesterday that started with work, then followed me home. I was suppose to go and have my 3 month check up and get blood results, well my caring hospital left me a message that said unless I pay 20% of my hospital bill ( which is 2000) and work out a payment plan that THEY approve you see I have been paying 50.00 a month to them which was an old agreement when I was still in treatment, well now that is not good enough. I have told them that it is all I can afford but again... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 08:48:54 EST Still going good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5210066 Well I was able to go on the treadmill last night, not for long but it was a start so I am happy with that, it will have to be at night because I tried to get up earlier to do it today and that was a no go, before 3:00am just isn't gonna cut it. I go to the cancer doc for my 3 month check up, it is always in the back of your mind, the uneasiness of it all, I am so looking forward to my 5th year check up then I believe I will feel better about the whole thing, it seems like a lifetime ago( 201... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 13:12:14 EST Doing ok so far http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5207972 Well I have behaved my self now for a couple of days but still not gotten into any exercise yet, got the treadmill to the house Sunday but I am always so tired after working 12.5 hrs a day plus my 40 minute commute both ways that I just want to snuggle with my animals and go to be, really hard to get motivated. I would like to do it in the morning but I get up at 3am as it is so that's not gonna work and I don't get home until about 6:15pm so I don't know but I will figure this out. I am a al... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 08:26:23 EST I'm still trying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5205270 Well even tho I dedicated this to my friend, I still fell off a bit Friday& Sat. but today I am doing good. Today got my boyfriends treadmill from his old house so we're gonna get it hooked up and then I have no excuses not to do some sort of exercise every day. Still feel positive <em>41</em> Sun, 13 Jan 2013 16:00:20 EST 1/11/2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5201853 I was finally good with my program yesterday and it was due to the promise I made a former co-work who passed away suddenly, he had a weight problem and was quite heavy contributing to this. I want to honor his memory by taking better care of myself. In Honor of Tom DiPuma 1958-2013 R.I.P. my friend. <BR> Kar-Bear Fri, 11 Jan 2013 09:39:37 EST New Year New ME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5199983 Well a lot has changed since I last did this, I am finally out of the abusive relationship I was in and have a house of my very own, a new boyfriend, more animals( ha) and have been working a lot of hours because thats the only way I can afford my place. I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer in 2010, fought thru it with 4 surgeries, chemo, 2- 6week rounds of radiation and cleared of cancer March 21 2012 and the very next day my ex broke up with me, found out he had been cheating etc but it is al... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 07:14:31 EST Where Did Summer Go? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2358595 I have been busy working and going up to the cabin a few times as ell but did no losing at all this summer. I just got one of those big cover all dresses that go over the bathing suit, saw pic's of my self and thought "that is not me". I can't remember the last time I like my picture taken, I usually just delete them. <BR> I keep saying it's gonna change byt when?? Sun, 30 Aug 2009 14:20:48 EST I am BACK http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2031271 5/4/09 A lot has happened lately, we bought a cabin up in Adams County Wis, just bought a speed boat yesterday so now I have to get my butt in shape. I don't want to go out o the lake like this. Mon, 4 May 2009 10:41:56 EST 10 Lbs and Eliptical http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1757144 1/30/09 <BR> I have lost 10 lbs and bought a eliptical, did 10 cardio and some strength training. <BR> I can't believe how out of shape I am, By june 1st I have to reach my goals, to be thinner and have a new house of my own. The stress here is killing me. Sat, 31 Jan 2009 16:34:31 EST 1/4/09 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1651519 Made it thru another day, kinda hard to type kitty on my lap :-) I followed my diet pretty good so far lost a lb yesterday so going ok. I have to add working out today. Sun, 4 Jan 2009 10:08:15 EST 1/3/09 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1647623 Well things are better, we have made up and I lost a pound. still focused on a better life which is up to me to do, no one else can do this and it's nobody fault but my own if I don't make it happen. Sat, 3 Jan 2009 11:35:33 EST 1/1/09 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1640577 I am at a very low point in my life, I am very unhealthy, just broke up with my boyfriend as of today and miserable. It can only get better. Thu, 1 Jan 2009 18:15:33 EST