KEEPGOINGEMILY's SparkPeople Blog KEEPGOINGEMILY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Got a little streak going! 4 days of exercise in a row! <BR> <BR> This morning I didn't work out, and I'd been getting it right out of the way within the first couple hours of getting up the last few days. I almost talked myself out of doing any, but I set aside the excuses and tried a couple new exercise videos on , after one of my sparkteam mates mentioned she uses their videos. I decided I will start a 30 day challenge program that they have over there, tomorrow: <link> Sat, 17 May 2014 17:32:42 EST New mantras came to me today... Feel better, do better. Do better, feel better. <BR> <BR> This one is a cycle, which I know is true. I feel better when I do better, and when I feel better, I want to do even better! Drinking water, getting exercise, getting my eating under control!!! <BR> <BR> That's been so ridiculously tough for me, just to eat reasonably. <BR> <BR> The second mantra: Don't let the perfect be the enemy of the good. <BR> <BR> It's kind of a metaphor, but my kitchen floor has been filthy dirty for we... Sat, 10 May 2014 08:23:22 EST Who wins when you are fighting with yourself?? Hint: NOT you! I have been stuck in a terrible cycle of binging, beating myself up for it, feeling stressed over it, and doing it some more. I've tried getting out of it any number of times, probably the majority of mornings I think, today I can break the cycle and do better. Then, I simply don't. I can't put my finger on why I think eating whatever whenever feels better in the short term than getting myself under control and out from under the awful guilt I'm imposing upon myself for this behavior. I've do... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 11:29:21 EST keeeeping goooing... What a slog this week has been so far! I was overly concerned with the scale, and thankfully it finally moved, but not by much. I am working on this phase 2 thing, and will get back to my workout routine tomorrow. Chris has been home the last 3 days, and I didn't want to kick him out of the living room to do my workout, or move my stuff upstairs. Kind of a lazy excuse, but we turned the house upside down cleaning and reorganizing today, so that was a lot of work and I counted it as my fitnes... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 19:10:03 EST I need to be more patient. The appeal of the south-beach diet for me, at first, were all the stories I'd read of the quick weight loss in the beginning. In that regard, it did not disappoint, I lost 6 pounds in the first 2 weeks. Pretty good! Over my 3rd week, wherein I've been reintroducing more foods into my diet, I've not lost any. <BR> <BR> I'm glad I've been using the nutrition tracker! I've got some idea what to tweak to try and get the scale moving again. Not that a week with no change is really such cause for... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 17:49:57 EST So HAPPY to be home! I went to house-sit for my dad while he was on vacation. My job was to keep the place warm, which conveniently coincided with a nice cold snap. He heats his home with wood, so that was a lot of work! It's funny the things you take for granted, I know I certainly appreciate the thermostat in my home, and the ease with which we can make the place warmer when we want to. The fact that the furnace kicks on more often when it's colder means more expense, but no extra actual effort. <BR> <BR> I n... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 20:18:30 EST Day 13, feeling like I'm back in the swing of things! What is it about delineating a new beginning, that makes things feel so motivating, fresh and good? It's probably day 774 of trying to get my weight in check, really! Haha but I guess it has more to do with focusing on the present, and leaving past struggles behind. Not that I haven't learned lots from them, but it's nice to make a distinction between then and now. <BR> <BR> I got myself doing more exercise this week, actually got back into the circuit-training routine the past couple of da... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 13:45:19 EST Day 11, still at it. Having a pretty good week! The first phase of my South Beach diet will be over on Monday, so that's going to be interesting. From there it's a trial and error thing from what I've read, to learn more about what foods will help keep me losing, and which won't. Looking forward to learning! <BR> <BR> I've been inconsistent with my exercise lately, but got a workout in today, so that was good. I need to buckle down and stop thinking it's okay to slack off, because it's not. I need to make some ... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 16:36:38 EST Day 7 :D I am surprised how well this is going! I never thought I'd enjoy cutting out bread and other starches, but I don't even miss eating them! I am such a bread, pasta and potato lover. <BR> <BR> In the time leading up to deciding to try this out, I was really having a hard time controlling myself when it came to eating bread. We got a bread machine recently, and my goodness does it work delicously well! There's nothing quite so delicious as fresh bread slathered with butter. Yum. Disastrous for... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 19:50:18 EST Day 4! I'm still working the new plan, and even worked out today, woo-hoo! So glad I decided to try new workouts without having to buy more dvd's, hello 21st century and streaming videos!! You're so helpful. <BR> <BR> I'm enjoying the new menu selections, basically focusing on jacking up the veggie portions, which I've always enjoyed anyway. Almost time to restock my spinach "bricks!" <BR> <BR> Excited to log my weight tomorrow. I'm feeling positive again, hooray! Fri, 17 Jan 2014 18:18:14 EST Day 3... After entirely too many day 1's lately, I've made it to a day THREE! I came across a new diet book that I was considering buying, when I realized that I'd already bought one a long time ago, and still hadn't committed to trying the diet. Since I've been having such a struggle with my motivation, I decided that giving this a try might be a good way to get focused. So, I am on the South Beach diet which is nowhere near as restrictive or difficult to follow as I'd thought at first glance. <BR> ... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 12:47:56 EST Completing the triad. getting back on track My holiday "break" did a bit more damage to my progress than I'd hoped! It always seems to take me awhile to get myself back into the weight loss mode once I derail myself. I think back to when I was making great progress, and all the various healthy choices I'd make each day, then feel like I have to do them all, all at once! Overwhelming. We know we don't have to do "all or nothing," right? Right. <BR> So, drink some water today. Then, drink some more, get up to or over those 8 glasses. Su... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 14:22:43 EST Here we go again! Happy new year! Whoever you are, reading my blog, THANK YOU for being here! I'm so glad to have found Sparkpeople, and I'm willing to bet you are too! Just wanted to acknowledge that, it's so helpful to have a support network to reach out to. I have probably spent more time making progress over the past year than just wishing I had, so that's a step in the right direction. <BR> <BR> I'm working my way back on track this week, starting with the small steps of making sure I get at least 10 minutes of exercis... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 14:02:10 EST Hey 200, I must have missed you... December has been a slow let-go of all my healthier habits. So I gained weight, and today tip in at 200.4. My goal for the month was to lose at least 7 pounds, and instead I've gained 3. <BR> <BR> I have started writing a blog about dropping my effort a few times, and just stopped since it seems so futile to be sharing that "hey, I'm a quitter!" Because that's how it feels. What's the point of telling anybody that? I'm struggling with feeling the "right" thing about what's going on. I don't... Thu, 26 Dec 2013 09:11:38 EST Motivated by getting stronger. I'm so glad I embarked on this 30-day plank challenge!! <link><BR>0-day-plank-challenge/ </link> <BR> <BR> I just jumped right in and didn't even read the whole thing through. Yesterday, I looked all the way to the end of the calendar, and the challenge is to hold a plank for 300 seconds. That's 5 minutes!!! Intimidating, but as I'm going along, maybe it's not so far-fetched. Today is day 9 for me, and the goal is 60 seconds. Today, I did 90, then 95!!... Sun, 1 Dec 2013 13:04:40 EST Another fine day... Well, my weight is UP after Thanksgiving, I didn't do so well flexing those moderation muscles as I'd hoped! I am still going strong with keeping myself accountable though. I took a walk Thanksgiving morning, just for good measure. I really like walking, it's good me time but it's hard to get the motivation to get up and out in the mornings. So, I'll need to rely on videos or other activities I can do while I'm with Vanessa for my exercise most days instead. <BR> <BR> Plank challenge is goi... Sat, 30 Nov 2013 10:52:43 EST One step back, two steps FORWARD. I am slowly getting my eating back under control. I did pretty well yesterday, and then kept picking at dinner's leftovers as I was getting them packed up and put away. So, I ended up over my range yesterday. I know this, because I tracked it all! For the first time in quite a while, I tracked all my food for the day. So that's a small victory. Definitely a step in the right direction. <BR> <BR> Today, we visited an arcade as Vanessa's early-birthday treat, and ate pizza at their restaurant... Tue, 26 Nov 2013 17:10:40 EST DIY Challenge! End the year on a strong note! I found this thanks to a spark team mate, and thought it'd make a good blog along with my challenge submission on the team page :) <BR> <BR> My Challenge Name: Happy New Year! <BR> <BR> My Starting Weight : 194 <BR> <BR> Four Other things I will be measuring during this challenge & their current stats: <BR> 1. 30 day plank challenge, best time so far: 51 seconds! <BR> 2. Energy level, currently fairly low <BR> 3. Mood, pretty cranky a lot of the time! <BR> 4. Getting back into trackin... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 20:25:13 EST Not much for progress, but a pic all the same :P Ho hum. Still bumbling along, I'm not losing but not gaining either. So here is this month's dress pic, at 194 pounds. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 15 Nov 2013 12:23:54 EST Wow, that was easy! Since Chris needed to study this morning, I decided to take Vanessa outside to play for a while. We went down to the park near our house, and walked around, looked at the river, played silly games and stuff. At one point we were playing tag and running around together. <BR> <BR> I was jogging around really gently and playfully, it felt so easy and fun! In the moment I just really appreciated how well my body was working for me, and I didn't even feel all that winded! I kept going and going... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 13:26:37 EST Sweat equity, the best investment. I have this annoying habit of thinking I need to spend money on motivation, or to help me get going, or whatever. I've bought equipment, clothing, dvd's, I was even recently on a personal trainer's website thinking, hmm, maybe.... <BR> <BR> You can't buy it, but you sure can earn it! Motivation. Self-respect. Happiness, even. I'm still on a super-slacker kick, and yesterday I did a little exercise just to break the recent negative inertia of doing no exercise, day after day. I was surprised... Thu, 31 Oct 2013 12:00:29 EST Not stressing it. This past week or so, I've been slacking. No tracking my food. I've been moderating though, and paying attention to making sure my food choices were fairly good. No random binges, well, maybe a couple, but it's all a far far cry from my "off the wagon" type of behavior when I have decided to stop tracking before. <BR> <BR> I've not been exercising dutifully, but have been kind of active in general. My dad came for a visit, so I spent a while getting the house spiffed up. Since it's all pret... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 16:48:25 EST Early update :D (progress photo) So I had originally intended to do this on Tuesday, but decided to get it over with today since it's better timing for me. <BR> New dress photos! I need a boost in motivation this week! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I even zipped the thing up a little this time! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I'll do it again in another month. Sun, 13 Oct 2013 11:40:44 EST They can see me! <BR> <BR> Instead of going down the more rural roads that I usually walk, today I walked busier streets. That meant more traffic, and more people seeing me go. For me, when I see someone walking as I drive along, I think, "Go you!" and mentally cheer them on. When I think of someone else seeing me walking along, I sometimes wonder what they think. Maybe I'm getting a little mental cheer! Maybe they're thinking, "you're gonna have to go faster than that, fatty!" They're probably not thinking... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 14:44:03 EST Walk this morning? I awoke this morning to gray skies, but when I looked outside the street was still dry. Good, I thought, I can still get my walk in. As I drank my coffee, I checked the weather forecast. Cool and rainy today, starting after 10am. Good, I thought, I can still get my walk in. Got my second cup of coffee, and noticed the street was wet. Drat, I thought, I don't want to walk in the rain! <BR> <BR> I debated whether I'd go or not, got my shoes on, my hat on, and my headphones. I started walking,... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 10:08:21 EST It's been a pretty good week! The easy as 1-2-3 approach has gone well this week, I'm feeling pretty good that I'm working on it and not over-complicating it. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I took a rest day, and this morning I didn't get up in time to take my walk. I did a video instead. I really really didn't want to! Haha I used the "snooze button" approach, once I got past 10 minutes I talked myself into 5 more minutes, 5 more minutes, until I was up to 30 and I just didn't feel like doing anymore. <BR> <BR> Today my eating ... Sat, 5 Oct 2013 16:37:22 EST October. RESET Goals. Hello, shiny new month! I've been sputtering stop and go all of September. I managed to take off 4 pounds though, so I guess that's not nothing, right? :) Funny how I think I suck and then I look back and see progress after all! I just deleted all my prior goal info, so today's a clean slate, no more yellow goal line that's outdated and way below where I actually am! That's bugged me forever, so I got rid of it. Goal line starts from today! <BR> <BR> The past couple days I've been taking wa... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 14:21:27 EST Vicious cycle! On a whim, we went out to lunch on Tuesday. I carelessly ordered what I wanted, and tracked later. Holy moly, I had no idea it would tally up so high!! An amazingly huge lunch for a normal-sized plate, over 2000 calories and 100 grams of fat! So I chugged water, took a walk, and tried not to berate myself. Tomorrow's a new day, after all. <BR> <BR> So yesterday I took my daughter to the movies, which is also a restaurant and I splurged on lunch there, too. Plus popcorn, at least we didn't g... Thu, 26 Sep 2013 09:14:06 EST Friday Doing good today, but feeling cranky! Ugh! Haha I got my exercise done though, and my eating is on track. I am still not sleeping too great, but hoping that works itself out as I get my exercise habit more established again. <BR> <BR> Since you can't really tell what the dress looks like that well from the pic in my other blog, I found this stock photo for continued inspiration! <link><BR>image;_ylt=ArbU7eR1Fp9jr8_Vc3yQr_LJlsU<BR>u?id=779604542 </link> Fri, 20 Sep 2013 16:13:32 EST 4 month recap Tomorrow is the 19th, the random day I decided back in May I was done being a quitter when it came to working on my weight loss. I've had my ups and downs, and haven't been entirely consistent the entire time. Most of this month, my effort has sucked. I'm still here, and still working on it! I can't give up, I've come too far! <BR> <BR> I'm still eating too much too often lately, and having a hard time getting that under control. I had stopped exercising for 10 days or so, and what CRAP I f... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 19:12:44 EST So I bought this dress I love going into secondhand shops, you never know what you're gonna find! Yesterday I went to a few with my mom, and we found this dress. It's so simple, and pretty, and I think I'm going to get married in it. As long as nothing goes wrong with the dry-cleaning. <BR> Behold, my $12 wedding dress <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It is a size or 2 too small, so I have a new source of motivation as I get myself back on track! It's so fla... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 15:01:19 EST Rawr. I can do it I can do it! Today, I'm working on getting back on track. Chris decides today's a good day to bake muffins and make pudding with Vanessa. And buy huge delicious steaks! Lol it's not going to be a very on track night for eating, but I WILL TRACK it!!! <BR> <BR> I went for a walk, and it felt so good. So, so relaxing, I loved it! I need to do such things more often, but it takes so long, blah blah excuses. :) I'm shooting for 10 minutes for like the next week, as I get my eating back to where it needs to ... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 14:55:14 EST In the crappy part of my pattern. I've been stumbly ever since recovering from my nasty cold, and have fully fallen off the wagon over the past week. It started with a "rest day," then I didn't bother to track my eating that day. Next morning, I skipped breakfast since we were going to the fair, to "save up" my calories for all the junk we'd be eating there. Or something. Since then, I've deliberately been eating crappily. I did talk myself out of going to McDonald's yesterday, but stopped at Dunkin' Donuts about 10 minutes l... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 18:37:09 EST Delicious. Darn it. Food is so tasty. Food can be so difficult to enjoy in moderation! <BR> <BR> I'm struggling with overeating these past few days more than usual. Not as in eating tons and tons of food willy-nilly, but just sticking to the range. I've eaten past the top of the range by a couple to several hundred calories a few times this week. I'm seeing the scale creeping up ever-so-slightly rather than down. I still need to eat dinner and I've almost hit the bottom of my suggested eating range already. It... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 17:31:20 EST Doing it. I'm back on track. YEAH. Happily it was not a long intermission. I'm feeling good again, although my cough is still hanging on. I decided to buy a sleep aid, since falling asleep has just been so hard for me lately. Getting enough sleep is important for overall health, and I think lack of rest was part of the reason why I got so sick. Also why the dumb cough is still hanging on. <BR> <BR> My workout routine is going pretty well, I'm still enjoying how quick the 30-day shred workouts are! Ju... Fri, 23 Aug 2013 15:48:20 EST Nice day today! I am so excited!!!!! <BR> <BR> Today has been a great one for staying on track, did my workout video that I'd taken a week off from doing, since I got sick. Also got my eating under control, and did pretty well with that today. So, overall I'm taking those good steps that always make me feel good about my progress for the day! <BR> <BR> The exciting thing is that we found our wedding spot! Not too far from our house is this amazing garden, that I've driven by a hundred times but never visi... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 19:59:43 EST Down, certainly not out I'm feeling crazy in the head. I may have mentioned this once or twice. Since recovering from my illness last week, I've just not had the motivation to resume. It's aggravating! I am super moody and just want to slap myself to snap out of it! Today I did a 20-minute walking video, after putting it off until lunchtime. I'm feeling better for having done it, but I'm still beating myself up. <BR> <BR> My eating yesterday ended up being terrible. I didn't even track it. I gave myself permission... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 13:26:24 EST Finally feeling better! I'm so glad this cold is starting to loosen its grip at last! I'm still super-congested, but I got some decent sleep last night so that makes all the difference. Hopefully another night of great sleep, and I'll be good as new. <BR> <BR> Did a little exercise this morning, just to do something for the day as opposed to the nothing I've done all week! I'm nervous to full-force launch back into it, so I just did some of my walking video to start with. I can just keep my calories low while work... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 12:37:51 EST Still sick, so frustrated. Day 4 of this baloney, I'm getting impatient to be feeling better! <BR> <BR> This morning I thought I did feel better, but my energy level is just not there at all. On the "bright side," I've lost like 3 pounds in the past 4-5 days! Haha I'm not really excited about this, it's too much in too short a time for it to be a healthy or "permanent" loss. I don't know. <BR> <BR> I just want to get back to working out, I was on day 5 of 30 day shred, and was really enjoying it! I'm keeping my foo... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 18:35:07 EST Determined Today I saw, for the briefest blip of a second, the 1 on my scale as I weighed in and then it disappeared. Woo-hoo! I'll see it again soon I'm sure. My eating hasn't been the greatest, and today I started feeling like I have a cold. So kind of a yucky day! <BR> I decided to take a rest day, and I was careful not to eat too much. My appetite kind of wasn't there anyway. So for the healthful choices, today was pretty good! <BR> I'm happy it feels important to keep making the choice to track a... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 21:51:42 EST Wedding planning **VENT** I am feeling so overwhelmed! <BR> <BR> There is so much to planning a wedding. So many questions to answer and decisions to make. We wanted to try and keep the budget reasonably affordable for us, but even then it seems inevitable that we will spend way more than we originally thought. Lesson learned! <BR> <BR> We are keeping it small, just the most important loved ones are on our guest list so far, with a bit of room to add others if needed. One thing I don't want to skimp on is photogra... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 11:52:22 EST Ball is rolling once more! I've been terribly inconsistent with my eating the past week or 2! It's taken me extra long to get that next pound off, but number 20 is finally gone, woo-hoo! My sleep has been very disrupted the past couple of nights, I'm so tired! We are getting going on wedding planning, and my imagination is kicking into overdrive thinking about how we're going to pull this off! <BR> <BR> So my new exercise video is pretty tough, but I know once I notice some changes I will love it! I've done it 3 days... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 19:28:24 EST Thank goodness today's a new day! What if it had been pre-owned? Home from trip 3 this summer! I tracked the first day but not the other 2. So, just as the scale goes up for dumb weird reasons, it occurred to me this morning that sometimes it goes down for dumb weird reasons, too. I'm reserving "judgment" on my weekend's weight outcome for a couple days, since it evened out pretty quickly after I came home from the trip last time and I kind of freaked out that my weight was up! It is not up this time, it's even down from where it was before I left, which d... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 10:53:37 EST Hello, August! Hooray, it's a new month! Haha so my new goals have to wait a bit, since a certain online seller has screwed up my order and my new video has yet to arrive. BOOOO!!! So today I was at a loss for what exercise to do. I started doing my same old vid, but 10 minutes in I just wasn't feeling it. So I put in my Sparkpeople's "Fit, Firm & Fired Up" video instead. I really didn't do this one much yet, so it was a nice switch up. I ended up doing 2 workouts off of that, and done. Maybe I'll do someth... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 12:11:12 EST Busy busy! I just realized I'm not going to have an "un-busy" day again until next Monday! Mostly summer fun, but that's exhausting. Excited! <BR> <BR> I took the plunge and ordered the Jillian Michaels 30-day shred. My circuit training in July has gone really well, so I'm looking forward to a shorter workout and a new challenge. Change is good. <BR> <BR> After 2 days of weirdly little eating, I thought today was the one to get me back on track, only to eat to the opposite extreme instead! Haha that... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 20:30:40 EST Weird I don't know why I'm being strange the past few days, but I have been unwilling to eat early in the day. Like breakfast is a banana and my morning coffee. I'm hoarding all my calories until the end of the day! & then when I'm having dinner, I can't eat enough to hit the bottom of my range because I get full. So weird. <BR> <BR> Today, I knew this was a terrible idea but I did it anyway. As of 1pm, I'd burned about 700 calories off from exercise, and had barely eaten 100. I had a hard time c... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 16:47:25 EST Reflecting again I finally got rid of pound 18! I was surprised to see though, that 19 went right behind it, bonus!! <BR> <BR> So I have my calendar that I printed out at the beginning of the month to map out a fitness plan. I decided to log my weight on it too, every day. As I marked my new number on the square for today, I looked back over the month to see where I started. I was at 210, and now 203, nice work!! I was so excited to see that. <BR> <BR> What a great boost! I think I'll do the calendar agai... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 15:22:35 EST Pound # 18 I've started thinking of each pound individually, as I lose it, and celebrating its departure! Pound number 18 is taking forever to take a hike!!! Haha I've been working on it all week, and it's going, but ever-so-slowly. <BR> <BR> Muscle weighs more than fat though. I have been weight training so I'm sure I've built a little new muscle. You don't get to up the weights on your workout without it, right? That's still so exciting. I did an elbow plank for 30 seconds the other day, that's a b... Fri, 26 Jul 2013 09:07:29 EST Fiddling with ranges... My initial activity level/weight loss goal put my calorie range in the bare-minimum bracket: 1200-1550. This is easily doable! But then my fitness goals changed, and when I adjusted it on the fitness tracker, my calorie range went up. More food and still losing? So worth it!! <BR> <BR> So then I got curious: how much more /less activity warrants a calorie-range adjustment? I tweaked the fitness goals up and down, then checked the revised (or not) nutrition goals, just to get a feel for it. ... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 19:04:38 EST Doing well! Today has been MUCH better than yesterday was! I got a great sleep, and have been overall following the steps needed. I read an article last night about form while exercising, so I tried to pay better attention to that during today's workout. I am more sore than usual! Funny. It was such a simple thing today to just do it, and that makes me happy. <BR> <BR> I had a job interview today for cleaning a gym. I think we could use the extra money, but I'm nervous to be "selling sleep." A perk of... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 19:47:10 EST