KDGILOMEN's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KDGILOMEN KDGILOMEN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Learning about myself...maybe I can figure this out after all! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5257280 The past week has been a rollercoaster both mentally and physically. I basically just lost it. Lost my self control, enthusiasm, organization....it all just up and left me! So, needless to say I spent the better part of the week allowing myself to make really poor decisions and then beating myself up for it. Not cool. Why is it that I can do so great for a few weeks and then all of the sudden just completely fall apart? This question just kept popping up in my mind, so I decided to loo... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 09:51:24 EST BLC21 Goals and other stuff... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217882 Long day! I worked from home 7-1, then I did a bunch of quick stuff around this house and finally hit the road around 4. I drove about 250 miles to WI to attend training which starts tomorrow and goes through Thursday. So, I brought a laptop with me so that I can stay on top of things. Plus, I think that I am going to use it to find some workout videos too! It is going to be a nice break from the kids but I do worry about working out. There is a gym in the hotel that I am staying, but I... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 23:40:54 EST TNT Challenge 1/17/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5211184 50 crunches <BR> 40 squats <BR> 40 plank <BR> 30 wall sit <BR> 20 pushups (womens) <BR> 25 outer and inner thigh lifts (each leg) Thu, 17 Jan 2013 08:58:05 EST BLC21 is here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5209535 So, I am really trying to figure out how to log in and get all my stuff done in SP in under 30 mins, but I cannot do it! As of right now, I have been logged in for 50 mins! I am really excited about participating in BLC21, but I must figure out a faster system for myself so that I find this uplifting rather than cumbersome. OK, typed it out loud and now it's up to me to make it happen. Well, let the games begin and good luck everyone. Yee haw!! Wed, 16 Jan 2013 07:53:17 EST Sundays....aren't they supposed to be relaxing? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5205890 Hi all. Today was just about the longest day EVER! My 14 yo daughter had a volleyball tournament and we were there for 6 hours! Sorry to say, but her team is looking a little rough around the edges. Towards the end the girls starting doing a bit better, but they were quite confused about their positions and rotating (who am I kidding, they were confused about EVERYTHING) and unfortunately the coach seemed to be off in lala land for most of the day...not cool considering it cost about $500... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 23:11:06 EST Is it really Monday already?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5194188 So today was a rough one, but I made it through. One highpoint of the day was sledding with my kids and husband. We also had a really good family talk and things are looking up. But, I need to go to sleep now to refuel my brain...it is exhausted!!! Good night everybody. Mon, 7 Jan 2013 01:11:25 EST I am Back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5189669 Logged in ysterday and was inspired by the the BLC21 email, so I registered. I was reaallly tired and feeling kind of crummy yesterday, so I ate junk last night and felt pretty disappointed in myself. Finally got a decent nights sleep and woke up feeling pretty darn good. Jumped on the treadmill and walked for 20 refreshing mins. Then the best thing happened...I logged into SP and read a message on the BLC21 reg board from Yolanda and she totally got my head back into this with her motiva... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 09:17:43 EST Snap out of it!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5094844 So, the last 2 days I have been eating horribly. On Tuesday, it all started with a snack sized Twix. That lead to MANY bad food choices and I ate until I felt kind of sick. Then yesterday I did good till I got home and saw that my husband brought home deli chicken for dinner. I ate way too much and felt sick. Then to make matters worse, I didn't walk either day. I am not sure what is going on, but I hope that I can make it through whatever it is and get back on track. I know that I wan... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 06:24:32 EST Need to get my butt it GEAR today!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5092361 Last night I went on a really nice walk with my dog. I was jammin to my tunes and the weather was just perfect! I sort of wish that I could just hit the road and go on that walk again instead of going to work:-) Maybe it is just that I don't want to get ready for work....some days I just really get sick of doing hair and makeup and just want to roll out of bed, jump in my car and do what I need to do just as I am! Unfortunately, I haven't found a way to make that work yet, SO, on that not... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 09:02:59 EST WTH!!?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5090952 So I was all excited cuz I reached my first goal of 20 pounds lost, BUT, since then I have gained 2 back. Not cool! I will have to get that nipped in the bud like right now!! I am not going to get down on myself though. As long as I come here and track my calories and exercise and keep it real, I know that I will be just fine. Happy Monday all! Mon, 8 Oct 2012 08:35:45 EST Sunday Already?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5090047 Well, been a busy weekend. Yesterday, my daughter Rachael competed in her first ever Invitational Swim Meet for diving. I am really proud of her because she is only in 7th grade and she is doing awesome!!! Then went shopping with my other 2 daughters. Last night took the dog on a 3 mile walk...it was very chilly, but nice. Today, we are off to Walmart, and then a movie. Later today, boatloads of laundry to do...woohoo. And then sadly, off to bed so that I can go back to work tomorrow. ... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 13:30:19 EST I accomplished my first goal of losing 20 lbs...WOOHOO!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5089037 Today's weigh in was AWESOME because I finally made it to my first goal of 20 pounds!! So, I am going to set myself another goal which is to lose 10 by Thanksgiving. I think that is totally attainable and I can't wait to get started!! <em>248</em> Sat, 6 Oct 2012 14:07:41 EST Kind of Anxious http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5087517 There has been so much going on at work and I am starting to get a little freaked out cuz I just can't get to it all fast enough. Today I hope to finish up a couple of big issues that I have been working on. If that can happen, I will jump for freaking joy!! Then, make it through a big long meeting/wrap-up session for another big project and finally have time to finish up all of the other bjillion things!! So, there it is...my plan for the day. And then at the end of the day, leave it al... Fri, 5 Oct 2012 07:42:14 EST Don't want to... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5086272 I am having one of those days where it is tough to get going. I know it is cuz I didn't get enough sleep, but I am working on that. So, despite the fact that I am not motivated at ALL, I still need to get my butt ready for work and hit the road. I know once I get to work and get into doing what I need to do that I will feel better. Happy Thursday <em>41</em> Thu, 4 Oct 2012 08:50:19 EST Wednesday already? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5084758 Time sure flies! I am feeling good today. Got me some good sleep, walked 3 miles last night, lost a pound today...yay!! Wed, 3 Oct 2012 07:34:39 EST The spark is within me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5083418 On August 21st, I felt so big and gross and sad. Then I logged into Sparkpeople and found a glimmer of hope. I have known for a really long time that my way of life needed an overhaul, but for some reason I just couldn't figure out how to go about it. Sparkpeople has opened my eyes to the fact that I need to plan things out. At first, planning was difficult and I kind of dreaded doing it because it took me a long time. But, I have learned to save meals as groupings and can just plug them... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 08:21:45 EST Lots to do! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5080404 My goals for the day: <BR> 1. Plan out weekly meals <BR> 2. Make grocery list <BR> 3. Drive daughter to guitar group <BR> 4. Go to grocery store <BR> 5. Shop around for outdoor pots for a couple of plants that need to come inside <BR> 6. do laundry <BR> 7. catch up on Boardwalk Empire...3 episodes <BR> 8. finish book...book club meets tomorrow night and I have about 200 pages left. LOL, yea right, cuz that's gonna happen!!!! <BR> 9. go on walk/jog with my little dog...hope my daughter ... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 10:15:25 EST I ate like a maniac yesterday..today is a new day!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5079480 Well, the inevitable moment finally arrived...the moment that I swung through Mickey D's drive thru! BUT, it didn't end there....after polishing off the Crispy (yes crispy) Chick Club and med fries in the parking lot, I decided to quick stop at the grocery store and pick up a half gallon of choc/pb ice cream. I almost ate the whole thing by myself while catching up on DVR'd X-Factor. I felt absolutely DISGUSTING from being so full. I finally convinced myself to do the 5 min lower body vid... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 11:49:27 EST Friday, yay! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5078019 I am really glad it is Friday. It has been a long week and now it is time for a little R&R!! No weekend plans, other than to finish a book, do a ton of laundry, clean my house, plan meals and grocery shop for next week, go to a football game tonight, drive my daugter to guitar tonight....well, that is about as relaxing as it gets for me I guess!! I am sure that most moms out there can relate to that:-) Happy Friday peeps Fri, 28 Sep 2012 07:14:09 EST Frustrated with Myself! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5077706 Every month, right before I get my friend, I eat like a pig and lose all motivation to exercise....why!!??!! I was doing so good and now this. I never really noticed this pattern until I started tracking in SP. I haven't had that "stuffed" feeling in over a month until today. It is a really gross feeling. I just need to make it through the next week and I will be fine. <em>234</em> Thu, 27 Sep 2012 22:02:08 EST I think I spend too much time on SP in the mornings! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5076769 So, I noticed that I am obsessed with accumulating points and in order to do this, I have to complete all of the tasks. Well, this takes time and before you know it, I am running totally late and things that need to get done don't!! I need to find a happy medium, or get some kind of ritual down to make my time on SP well spent. So, I think that today I will come up with things that I will do in the morning and things I will do at night, and try to streamline it a bit. I just really enjoy... Thu, 27 Sep 2012 08:22:54 EST Too Too Tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5075310 I CAN'T SLEEP....EVER!!!! I was looking through my sleep report today and I have only slept 8 hrs on 2 nights in the past month. It is not that I don't want to sleep, I just can't seem to make it happen. I have a really hard time falling asleep and staying asleep. Plus, I really enjoy the peaceful time to myself after my kids go to bed, and in the early mornings before the house wakes up, so many times I am my own worst enemy! But there are times that I go to bed early, only to toss an... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 07:05:08 EST Tuesday, shmoozday... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5074974 I wish I had some fabulous stories or deep thoughts to share, but I just don't have it in me today. Somehow, I need to conjure up the will to get off my butt and go for a wog. My dinner seemed ginormous, and I feel like I had better nip it in the bud right now. So, on that note I am off to wog my dog!!!! Tue, 25 Sep 2012 21:31:24 EST Thank you Rachy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5073473 My daughter, Rachael, is such a great exercise buddy! For the past week we have been walking/running a 2.5 mile route together. We have been working on running more each time and have improved our time from 45 mins to 35 mins. She is super patient and sets little goals along the way. It is a lot of fun and I know I wouldn't be able to do this without her. Love you little Rach:-) Mon, 24 Sep 2012 20:12:58 EST 15 Pounds Lost, Yay!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5071340 I am happy to report that I am down 15 pounds and have almost accomplished my first goal, which was to lose 20 by Halloween. I figure that I can easily lose 5 more between now and then. In the past, I would get go down on myself if I didn't lose weight every single day. In fact, I would do really ridiculous things to try to make the scale show even an ounce less, like breathing all my air out!!! Or re-weighing like 5 times to see if I could get lower. Even typing that makes me feel embar... Sun, 23 Sep 2012 10:42:49 EST Day 1 of 28 Day Boot Camp...yep, I bought the video! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5070228 Hey...made it thru day 1. It is Saturday, and now that exercise is done I have lots to do. Enjoy the day everyone! Sat, 22 Sep 2012 10:53:45 EST TGIF....I think http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5068867 I think I am glad it's Friday. My kids have sure conjured up a lot of plans though and I believe that I am the driver for most of them. Yay. Tonight I think one is wanting to go to movies and one wants to go bowling and my youngest will probably just hang with me. Then tomorrow, Valley Scare, which is fun but 30 miles away! So, I don't really see much relaxation in the cards for me this weekend. One positive, dinner is already made and ready to be heated for dinner tonight, so one less ... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 09:07:10 EST I love SP! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5067363 Today marks a month since I first logged in (well I logged in a few times in like 2007, but that doesn't count!) and I am still feeling just as motivated as that first day....maybe even more! For whatever reason, I get kind of excited to start off each morning by logging into SP...it's a nice little routine:-) I am inspired by others messages of motivation and success, but also can completely relate to folks that are having a tough time. It is just nice to know that I am not alone and that... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 06:56:26 EST Day 2 bootcamp http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5065971 On day 2 of 7 day bootcamp, I liked this 10 min vid. It felt good to stretch my legs and back. Anything that helps my flexibility is a good thing cuz I am terribly stiff all the time. My lower back has always compensated for my lack of abdominal strength, and I find that as I get older, it is really becoming painful. Earlier this year there was a point where I couldn't bear to stand and do dishes, or even walk for a block because my lower back would burn and ache so badly. But, through p... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 08:35:39 EST OMG...I was actually able to do the Burpees and Mt. Climbers today!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5064442 I woke up...or should I say I got out of bed at 5 this morning. I could not sleep at all! I decided to log into SP and do my ritual and today chose the day 1 video for the 7 day bootcamp. I kind of groaned when I realized which one it was because I have done it before and remembered that I couldn't do the dang Burpees and Mt. Climbers. Well, surprise surprise...I was able to do them today! It wasn't pretty, but hey who cares:-) So, I am now feeling motivated to keep doing this. Little ... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 07:27:26 EST Monday already? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5062636 Well I ate too much at dinner last night and the scale shows it. Today I will work on making better choices and move forward. No reason to beat myself up, just need to focus on the good and have a good day today. Have a great day! Mon, 17 Sep 2012 06:44:40 EST Yay Saturday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5060267 I woke up early today...really early: 5:00 A.M. But, I decided to make the most of the time and I got a lot done. All of the next weeks meals are planned out, a grocery list is in place and now I just need to get ready and go to the store. I also decided today was the day I should try Zumba...yikes! I found this video on Youtube and I lasted 28 minutes. Zumba takes a special kind of hip action that I am not very good at....I felt very uncoordinated and clunky!! I suppose with practice I... Sat, 15 Sep 2012 11:06:46 EST Tough day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5059745 Well, it is nearly bed time and I am just now getting this in. My whole day was discombobulated...but I have to be happy with myself for eating well, tracking my food and calories, going on a walk, and eating the lunch I brought from home while sitting at Chipotle with co-workers. Guess I need to focus on the good to get through the bad. Night everyone. Fri, 14 Sep 2012 22:25:37 EST Happy with myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5058401 Today I went to happy hour with some friends from work and I was worried that I would lose control and eat like a maniac, but I actually did really well!! When I got home I tracked all of my calories and went for a long walk to burn off the extra calories. I am pretty okay with myself today...what a nice change. Thu, 13 Sep 2012 23:27:46 EST Exercise is not my enemy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5055559 The SparkCoach topic today was the importance of just 10 minutes of exercise each day. I love this concept and have to admit that this may be the key to a whole new me! In the past I would sign up for gym memberships, and never to go due to time constraints, the self-conciousness I felt, etc. Plus, the fatter I got, the more of a hermit I became, so I didn't even want to leave my house let alone hit a gym full of physically fit people! This made me feel like a failure and a fool because ... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 07:39:35 EST Frustrated mom today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5053970 Hi all. Alright, so first and foremost, I love being a mom. I have 3 daughters, ages 13, 12 and 9, and they are really good kids. I am sure you can sense that I am building up to vent a little, and if so, you are correct! Since school has started, I feel like I am more of a maid/shuttle bus/disciplinarian/project coordinator/schedule juggler than a loved mom. My girls seem to expect all of these things and don't stop to appreciate, or even consider, how hard I have to work and go out of ... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 08:22:32 EST Pooped. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5052055 My daughter Rachael actually came in and woke me up today...thank goodness she did that cuz I shut off the alarm and would have kept on sleeping. I really need to get to bed earlier each night. The problem is that I like to have time alone to unwind and I can't stop playing around on the computer. I need to stop this darnit!!!!! Well, onward towards another day of chaos (I secretly like a little bit of chaos I think)! Now, to get the oomph to do a video and get ready for work. Happy Mon... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 07:40:32 EST Wrote down my goals today...very enlightening!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5051025 Hi all! So the topic on Sparkcoach today was goal setting. Now prior to watching Coach Nicole's video (I just love her, she is so cute and motivating) and reading the articles that were posted, I thought I had fairly reasonable goals set for myself. Well, I ended up writing them all down again today and saw that I needed to kind of revamp my whole way of thinking! I think that my new goals are kind of exciting and motiviating, and most importantly, attainable! <BR> <BR> Here are my new g... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 13:15:33 EST Busy Saturday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5049448 Good morning world! I enjoy gettting up early, drinking a cup of coffee and having my "me time"...it's relaxing and helps me gather my thoughts for the day ahead. Today is going to be busy. I have to plan out meals for the next week, put together a grocery list and go to the store. That may be happening later, we'll see. I have to go and pick up my daughter Rachael from a slumber party, and then run my daughter Rylie to a parade (she is dancing in it and is very excited). Then I am mee... Sat, 8 Sep 2012 08:28:06 EST Sweating like a maniac, but feeling great! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5048206 So I finally did it...I chose a 20 min cardio vid today instead of the usual 10 min one. Although it was intense, I was very pleasantly surprised that I was able to keep up. It is amazing how quickly the body becomes more physically fit with just 10 mins of exercise each day for a couple of weeks. When I initially started doing the videos a couple wks ago, I could hardly keep up, so I am very motivated by today's results. Happy Friday peeps:-) <BR> <em>381</em> Fri, 7 Sep 2012 08:39:31 EST From now on I will be nice to myself! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5046635 Sometimes I am my own worst enemy..well, I may as well be honest and admit that most of the time I am my worst enemy. For example, I woke up and immediately starting thinking about work. One thought that runs through my head repeatedly is me sitting in a meeting with a lot of other people not having a clue about what is going on. It actually makes my heart palpitate when I do this to myself, and I do it all the time. So, I am really trying to give myself the pep talks and this morning one... Thu, 6 Sep 2012 07:19:33 EST Crying like a baby!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5045165 I just finished working out and decided that I better get a blog in. But I decided to read somebody else's blog first! OMG, you have to read the blog that LINDAKAY228 attached in hers today. It moved me so much that I actually cried while reading it!! If you do, you will be inspired for the whole day, promise!! Wed, 5 Sep 2012 08:27:00 EST My body aches...will it ever stop? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5043465 Good morning world...it is almost 6 am already! So, I have been making sure to get at least 10 minutes of exercise in each day. I have done this for the past couple of weeks and somedays I have done more than 10 minutes. One would think that I would wake up refreshed, energized and ready to go, right? Wrong. I ache all over! My body is protesting and I am wondering if it will always feel like this...I have never stuck with an exercise program long enough to know LOL! Seriously though, ... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 06:47:04 EST Cleaning like a mad woman!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5042241 Well, today is the last day of summer and I have so much to do. I don't know about anyone else, but I have what I lovingly refer to now as "Mt. Washmore" heaped in my laundry room. It can acutally be dangerous to climb at times to get to the washing machine! But, the really cool thing about doing all of the laundry at once is that my kid's feel like they have a whole new wardrobe again! So, I am going to get it all done today. I would like to get the clothes actually put away nicely, oth... Mon, 3 Sep 2012 10:24:32 EST Planning ahead is gonna be good! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5041022 So, I finally got all my meals planned, and went to the grocery store yesterday. I made a SP recipe for dinner last night, and might I add that it was pretty tasty! My biggest obstacle with planning at this point is that I am so slow at it. It is not realistic for me to spend 3 or 4 hours planning out what my family will eat for the next week. I am hopeful that I will get better at this the more I do it. For example, I saved 3 groups each for breakfast and lunch and found that once I did... Sun, 2 Sep 2012 10:36:48 EST Today is the day I become food organized! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5040044 I have really been winging my food selections for the past week, and the food tracker has informed me that this IS NOT the way keep my calories in check. So, today I am taking some time to plan out the next week, and that means filling in breakfast, lunch, dinner and snack in the tracker for the next week, printing a grocery list, and actually GOING to the store! My kids start school on Tuesday and I know that the daily chaos is only going to get more chaotic, so I think that having the me... Sat, 1 Sep 2012 13:30:05 EST Got a case of the blahs today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5037511 Okay, I am not feeeling it today. BUT, I am determined to stick with this, so even though today is not panning out to be the best for me, I will not stop. I am finding that tracking my food, exercise, water, etc. is the only way that I stay honest with myself. It is amazing the amount of calories I consume on a day when I don't think about it. And I always wondered why I couldn't lose weight!!! Well, happy Thursday all. Thu, 30 Aug 2012 13:14:19 EST