KATRINAKRAUT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KATRINAKRAUT KATRINAKRAUT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Where to begin..Again! Looking for an ostrich hole... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5632864 For the past few months I have been making my way around the world eating and drinking and making Merry. My nest is empty for the first time in 22 years and it was time to get out of Dodge. The empty nest thing has been great except now I return as a giant Condor trying to fit into a hummingbird abode. (As evidence by my recent shopping trip to find a "LITTLE" black dress!) The only thing I have in common with a hummingbird right now is my desire to suck down sugar in some way, shape or form ... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 20:49:15 EST I lost my MoJo... and the fall out of a stressful June. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5402981 Kaboom. The explosion of June followed by the Fall Out. Unfortunately the Fall Out attached itself to my body. Eight pounds in four weeks. Yeah. I lost my MoJo to say the least. Just when I thought I was in my groove. Things were happening. I was working it. It was clicking. The momentum was going my way. And then, BAM, I became untethered. I floated about eating chocolate and chips and fountains of wine trying to weigh myself down. June was busy. There was prom and then graduation and then... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 23:11:20 EST Have to buy new lingerie...things are heating up in the bedroom! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5360199 Well it happened. I lost weight and things started to heat up in the bedroom. For years I have worn Lanz flannel granny gowns. Sexy? No..but they provided good coverage and were not revealing in the least. I was comfortable in them. But now I have lost weight and things are heating up in the bedroom. My first thought was to tear off my nightgown but I still have kids in the house and did not think that was a prudent move. So I headed to the mall. OMG, all of these wandering, wondering men an... Sat, 18 May 2013 12:38:55 EST It fits. It fits. It fits. AND IT IS SUNNY!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5345314 I am doing my inner Snoopy dance because it fits! It fits! It fits! Actually, THEY all fit!. All of those lovely little sundresses in my closet which NEVER get to go out because the weather is usually too crappy in the Pacific Northwest AND because, since I moved to the Pacific Northwest, I had gotten too fat to wear them! (Yes, the weather really impacts me). But now they fit AND we might break records temperature-wise this weekend. And the sky is blue. The birds are singing. The grass is ... Sat, 4 May 2013 12:28:55 EST The Sun, the sun, the sun....and WHAT a difference it makes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5327793 I just got back from four fabulous SUNNY days in San Francisco and Napa. It was awesome! First of all, SFO can hold its own against any city in the world. And yes, we dined and drank and walked all over the place. Then I headed to Napa on my own. It has changed so much over the years. I no longer go there to do the wineries (at $25-$50/tasting, it is simply too expensive) but I still stayed in Calistoga, rented a bike and rode my bike zig zag across the valley. But therein lies the fun.....be... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 16:23:23 EST The Easter Bunny or the Monty Python Bunny of Caerbannog? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5307503 The Easter Bunny did me in. More like the Monty Python Killer Bunny of Caerbannog! First he plied me with wine...then cheese...and the chocolate! Before I knew it, I had entered the battle and succumbed to the feast. Foil wrappers littering the table. Decapitated bunnies on their sides. Plastic grass shreds strewn about the placemats. What began as pretty and pastel and awash with sunshine, ended up a dark brown chocolaty mess. Finally there was no choice. We pushed our chairs away from the... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 12:24:47 EST Wondering if I will sleep this year...kids and college choices. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5291905 To send your child, not even your first born, to the opposite coast for college is tough. To send your child who has a potentially life threatening health condition to the opposite coast for college is tougher. To send your child who has a potentially life threatening health condition across the country to play soccer in college is toughest and perhaps requires more fortitude and faith than I have. I wonder if I will sleep this next year. I had assumed, wrongly I might add, that if he got in... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 03:38:30 EST It is all downhill from here....my first gray hair. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5269238 There it is, an almost translucent filament pinched between my finger tips. I am momentarily silent. Shocked. My eyes must be playing tricks on me. It has to be the lighting. Yes, that's it..bad lighting. Gingerly I move into the next room, fingers still pinching the invasive tress. Seriously....Is that really a strand of gray hair on my head? Say it isn't so! It has taken me years to adjust to the transformation from blonde to mousy brown which accompanied my move to the Pacific Northwest an... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 01:00:31 EST What is eating me? Ridiculous eating today.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229538 I don't know what is eating me but I tried to eat it, and eat it all...and then some. We always have chips and cookies and candy and icecream in the house but I could care less about them. They usually don't tempt me or have appeal.. But today they were not only enticing but they were the neon lights of Las Vegas in my face messaging me, " Carbs"..."Sugar"..."Fat". "Eat me! No, eat me first! No, Eat us all!". And so I did. What the heck? So now I am stuffed. Yup, tummy protruding. Buddha bel... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 23:34:24 EST To our Australian friends, my heart and prayers go out to you... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5222845 Between the floods and the fires, you are being challenged. My heart and prayers go out to you. <em>51</em> Fri, 25 Jan 2013 10:21:24 EST WHEN can I exhale? My child......ITP http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5197445 About a year ago my son went in for his physical. He had just turned 17. They did a routine blood draw. The results were unsettling. His platelet count was well below normal ( meaning his blood was not clotting properly). Since then my son has his blood drawn anywhere from every other day to every other week and is now followed by a hematologist at Children's hospital. They suspect he has Idiopathic Thrombocytopenic Purpura (ITP). In his case it appears he is producing platelets but his body... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 18:05:11 EST Listening to my inner child...and she is having a tantrum! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5182576 You hear about it. The inner child. The voice of wisdom. So I set out to listen to her and, Whoa Nelly..that girl was having a tantrum! She was screaming that she was scared...that she doesn't like going to the doctor. So this is what is eating me?! Yeah says the Super Nanny. Your dog got into the Christmas chocolate. Sleepless night. Next day he suffered a soft tissue injury and the Vet said he has to stay on a leash for the next 4-6 weeks. You shipped your oldest back to college and he has ... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 17:21:43 EST Holidays push my buttons. Looking for the reset button. Life with a narcissistic parent http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5180756 Holidays will do that. Push your buttons. Family gatherings. Being thrown back into a role you no longer want to assume. Work gatherings. Fine lines and determining acceptable boundaries. Gifts where you wonder,"What the he11?" And try to remind yourself that it is the thought that counts (but what were they thinking?). Or even worse, they tell you exactly what they were thinking......"maybe this will help you lose weight". Geez. Thank you. Just what I wanted....for the entire Holidays to be... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 10:51:43 EST Thought that I had but wished that I had not..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5177818 Yup. I thought that I had but wished that I hadn't gained weight over the past week. I weigh myself once a week and today happened to be the day. Up 2.8 pounds. Ahh well. Time to get my mojo back. Thu, 27 Dec 2012 14:32:29 EST Snow flakes make me insanely happy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5167549 I saw snow flakes today and the smile just started to spread across my face until I was grinning from ear to ear. My heart was singing. Oh Snoopy, where for art thou? I am ready to do the dance with you. Linus strike up the piano! Charlie Brown! Bald is beautiful. Come on everybody let's dance! Then, a few minutes later, curse you Red Baron! The flakes returned to the dismal fat raindrops we get on a daily basis and from which I cannot escape. So about face and back up in elevation. Tongue ou... Sat, 15 Dec 2012 18:32:56 EST My plan? Sustainable living. Green living. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5130123 Ok. Sustainable living. It makes sense. Green living. That makes sense. So sustainable, green living is my new plan. Part of the challenge of my previous approach was that I felt left out and deprived in social situations. I want to go out with my friends and enjoy a glass of wine or a fabulous dessert when we are together. And so now I do. A weekly weight loss of 2-3 pounds was not sustainable. And it sure as heck was not any fun. And so now rather than 2-3 pounds/week, I shoot for 1 ... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 00:03:29 EST Do you feel left out? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5119345 The majority of social situations involve and revolve around food. Nothing wrong with that . But it is hard not to feel left out when you are trying to shed some pounds and you seem to be the only one who chooses not to indulge. At least it is for me. I know all of the tricks (alternate wine with sparking water, bring a healthy appetizer, eat something before you go so that you don't arrive in starvation mode, ya-da, ya-da, ya-da). BUT I don't like feeling left out and that is how I feel. S... Wed, 31 Oct 2012 16:48:31 EST How to stay on track during the upcoming Holidays.....a quote to live by: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5089549 People are so worried about what they eat between Christmas and the New Year, but they really should be worried about what they eat between the New Year and Christmas. – Author Unknown. <BR> <BR> <BR> Sun, 7 Oct 2012 00:24:32 EST I have lost over 100 pounds! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5056535 Don't get too excited. I HAVE lost over 100 pounds BUT the reality is that I have lost the SAME 5 pounds at least twenty times! Last night at book club I saw my girlfriend and she had lost twenty-five pounds over the summer. Twenty-five pounds!!! That is my "in a perfect world" goal. And I saw what a difference a twenty-five pound loss made on her. And my other book club friend took off on a month long pilgrimage trek on the El Camino de Santiago in France/Spain and returned 15 pounds lig... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 18:49:27 EST Rocky mountain high.....Colorado! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4922338 I thought I would never get away from the dreary, rainy, cold Pacific Northwest. Last weekend I sat on the soggy sidelines of my son's soccer field counting the hours until I could see the sun, feel the sky and enjoy the moment! It was a bumpy plane ride coming in to Denver but I am back in the mountains of Colorado! How can I explain it.... It is like going from a room with oppresively low popcorn ceilings from the 1970's to a room with a vaulted cathedral ceiling. Breathing space. Everybo... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 21:31:37 EST Life with ITP..a game changer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4909911 I have been off the radar for about 6 months. We lost my mother in law in November after a fast 3 week "diagnosis to death" battle with cancer. Then a few weeks later my 17 year old son went in for his yearly physical and they did a routine blood draw and discovered that his blood was not clotting properly and his liver was not functioning properly. Fast forward 6 months and he is a patient at Children's Hospital and has a blood draw anywhere from every couple of days to every other week. He... Sun, 3 Jun 2012 11:44:28 EST A frisky pat down by another woman! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4727733 The whole uniform fantasy thing, doesn't do it for me. The boob squeeze? Well that was just painful. So what was it that made you single me out from the crowd? Was it the underwire contraption which holds these gargantuan boobs in place so that I don't get knocked unconscious while exercising? Really Ms. TSA agent, did you honestly have to noogie my every crevice right after I had just passed through the TOTAL body scanner? I mean, what's left to the imagination? If it is a strip search you ... Tue, 7 Feb 2012 19:28:05 EST I am going to exercise today as though I didn't overeat last night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4716810 Last night was dinner out with the girls to celebrate two January birthdays. Thai food. Normally I would order a Thai ice tea but I chose to have water instead. That was a good decision BUT I ate more than I needed to. And when I overeat, I feel sluggish and Today I have been feeling sluggish and dragging through my exercise routine. I was hoping that the forecast of sunny, blue skies might mitigate the slug mode but it is gray and wet as usual. I swam my laps (you are supposed to be w... Wed, 1 Feb 2012 15:22:31 EST " Does this dress make me look fat.?" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4710482 Ouch! I know the answer. Categorically yes because I am overweight. I have had a lot of functions lately (fund raisers, dinners, etc) and so I have had to stand in front of my closet full of clothes and figure out how the few outfits which actually fit ( due to elastic waists which truly should only be reserved for toddlers in diapers and old people in diapers) can be worn to 4-5 different events and not have people notice that I wore the same thing last night, last week,etc.. I have hea... Sun, 29 Jan 2012 15:13:41 EST Enough is enough! How does one lose weight when entering menopause? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4706223 I daresay, enough is enough! Surely I get enough exercise. I walk the dog five days a week (off leash) over the river and through the woods for 35-40 minutes at a time. I swim laps three days a week. I go to the gym 5 days a week (three days of weight training and two days of pilates or tai chi and 15-25 minutes of elliptical each visit). So how in the world do I get rid of this Buddha belly? I have been tracking my food daily for almost three weeks. Yes, I sometimes exceed my calorie range... Thu, 26 Jan 2012 23:25:29 EST It is a journey...but "Are we there yet?!" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4676312 I get it. It is a journey but I am trying to find the state of Mind on a map because this morning I wanted to ask, "Are we there yet?"( and It'is day four or starting over!). So I ate my grapefruit and thought about Florida. I wonder how my sister is doing. Swimming with the manatees was AWESOME (but the wetsuit caused butt rumpus and there was a little alligator swimming about) . And I ate my string cheese and thought about Wisconsin. I wonder how my sister (a different sister) is doing . ... Thu, 12 Jan 2012 14:04:06 EST Anybody want to go streaking? I double dog dare you! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4669112 How much fun was that! Your two minutes of fame while you streaked across somebody's lawn in your bare banubies? Or how about pool hopping on a hot summer nigtt? And the daddy of them all on the fun-meter was skinnydipping! But I guess "streaking " is no longer what it once was and the "skinny" is all out of this body. According to Spark People, to "streak" is to sustain a positive activity for a period of time. So I am challenging myself to this new age streaking activity but keeping ... Mon, 9 Jan 2012 15:22:39 EST I don't wanna'! I don't wanna'! I WANT TO HAVE MY my "cake" AND still lose weight! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4664151 <BR> Growl. What a crushing blow! I know, I know, I know. (But I don't like it!). I want to put my fingers in my ears, cover my eyes and make it all go away. I don't wanna' change things up. (Is that Dr. Phil I hear in the background asking, "So how's that working for you?"). I don't like being told what to do. I don't like rules and portion sizes and feelings of deprivation. I don't want to examine myself from the inside out. I don't like to be weighed. I don't like people knowing that I ... Sat, 7 Jan 2012 13:57:33 EST My fat cat is snoring.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4660834 My cat is fat. And my fat cat is snoring. And watching my fat cat snoring is anything but boring because I adore her. But my fat snoring cat is also getting old. Her bones seem to ache when it's cold. Her fur is getting matted but she still likes getting patted. I scratch her under her chin and it always makes me grin because I ADORE my fat, snoring cat. I touch her little paws but try to avoid her claws because she will let me know when she has had enough which makes it kind of tough b... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 22:55:20 EST Diary of a MAD housewife http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4649945 Yup. Diary of a MAD housewife (or should I flip it and say, diary of a DAM(n) housewife. Either way the sentiment stands. Who is this person? "Attention Walmart shoppers....mediocre housewife on aisle 8". OMG, I am one of THEM. Overweight and exhausted. I AM a frumpy housewife. I am a GRUMPY HOUSEWIFE. I don't want to stay at home anymore. I don't want to be there for everybody and everything. I don't want to live where I am living. The "walk the dog, go to the gym, shop for groceries, do... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 23:11:49 EST May your heart be filled with loving kindness...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4633813 "Today may there be peace within you. May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith in yourself and others. May you use the gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be content with yourself just the way you are. Let this knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us." <em... Wed, 21 Dec 2011 09:49:34 EST Check out your shopping cart. Is there nutrition in there? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4629481 I had to do a grocery run today and while waiting in line, I glanced into people's shopping carts. I watched what went down the belt and into bags. I watched what was wheeled out and loaded in and driven home. The vast majority of people were extremely overweight. Overweight and undernourished. Check out your shopping cart. Is there nutrition in there? Sat, 17 Dec 2011 19:19:54 EST Sitting in a dark hospital room http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4569004 My dear mother in law is dying of cancer. It has only been three weeks since her diagnosis but she collapsed after her first chemo treatment ten days ago and has been in the hospital ever since. Bedridden. In a diaper. Last night they put in a feeding tube, but she pulled it out this early this morning. Her deterioration has been exponential. Cancer sucks. Cancer really, really sucks. Especially when it takes you like a tsunami and drags you out to sea. Today the palliative services grou... Fri, 4 Nov 2011 22:51:45 EST The good news. The bad news. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4553160 The good news. I am a Ninja. A warrior woman. I singlehandedly sliced and diced it. It refused to topple. Frustrated and tired, I wiped the sweat off of my brow, gave a blood curdling scream and gave it one heck of a wallop. It shuddered. So I sat down on my bottom and continued to kick it. One kick after another. I pummeled it. Harder and harder. I was out of breath and sweat was trickling down my back. But then it toppled into the dirt and so did I. A ninja woman. Next to me lay the ro... Tue, 25 Oct 2011 20:36:57 EST The Seoul train...back in Korea for a visit after 25 + years http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4532741 My husband has a business meeting in Seoul and so I tagged along. This is probably my 4th or 5th visit to Seoul. I used to come here quite often when I worked in Kumamoto, Japan and needed to buy clothes and shoes etc.. Seoul has changed tremendously. First of all, it is a lot more expensive. Although there are still bargains to be found, lunch or dinner out in a decent restaurant will cost about the same as in the states. I do " back alley eating" as well and I have had great fun in my di... Wed, 12 Oct 2011 20:25:59 EST Surrounded by candy wrappers....I am stuck. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4495563 The sin bin. I have to stand on my toes to reach it and CAREFULLY skootch it forward so that I can slip my fingers over the edge and grab a mini Heath bar...or three. Damn! When I finally "came to", I was on the sofa surrounded by 3 candy wrappers ( and I would like more). The sofa...Ahh Yes, tell me about your childhood. What possessed me for those few moments? I have no idea. The weather? It was sunny. (The cloudy grey skies often have me singing the blues.) My mother stepping on my toes? m... Tue, 20 Sep 2011 20:39:43 EST Starting Organic Liaison tomorrow...And time to purge! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4478837 I have ordered and received the Organic Liaison kit. Now that I have read through the materials, I have an idea how the program works and what I need to do to work the program. My other goal is to go through every room in the house/garage and to de-clutter and reduce the amount of stuff which has accumulated. I have always loved to get rid of things and to give them away. My feeling is that we all have too much stuff and there are so many things in my house that don't particularly bring me an... Sun, 11 Sep 2011 13:29:28 EST The Joy of Swedish Soap... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4473418 This morning there was a bar of Swedish pine-scented soap in our shower! I bought it as a Christmas gift for my husband. Expensive. How happy I was to find it there for me to enjoy. For a moment I was transported to the pine forests of Europe and I was delighted and craving a European breakfast. Simple pleasures. Again I am reminded that where I am is more important than what I do there. I had a wonderful solo drive from Colorado via Wyoming, Idaho and then back to Washington. Traffic jam... Thu, 8 Sep 2011 11:08:22 EST Kirstie Alley's "Organic Liaison" Products? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4397542 Has anybody tried these products? Thoughts? Sun, 31 Jul 2011 12:44:44 EST The sweet smell.....of cow poop.. Horse poop, etc. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4386000 What makes you tick? Poopie Caca....or specifically, the sweet smell of the barn or the rodeo grounds etc.. So here I am sitting by the river. Sunny. Warm. Watching tanned, toned people floating down in kayaks, inner tubes, whatever. And I am completely happy. Of course I do have a gin and tonic in my hand, and I have not imbibed in weeks. But as I walk home, I smell the sweet smell of horse poop and cow poop,and this makes me happy, because it reminds me that I am exactly where I want to b... Mon, 25 Jul 2011 21:15:39 EST Low thyroid and what I did it..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4381090 When I went to the doctor a couple of months ago, she said that my blood panel showed: low thyroid, high cholesterol and a variety of other things. She said low Thyroid and high cholesterol are related. She wanted me to redo the screening in 3 months. FYI- I exercise daily, I don't eat beef, pork or lamb and I have a weird blood sugar ( high when I fast and low when I do a 30 day non-fasting test) . Anyway, I did some research and started taking a micro-algae supplement made by Earth's Harves... Sat, 23 Jul 2011 13:12:19 EST Always something....problems, worries....looking for fair winds and following seas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4371135 Nobody ever said life is easy. Nobody ever said that having kids was easy. Nobody said that growing old was easy. So...why did I think I might get let off of the hook? That which doesn't destroy you makes you tougher? I won't go into detail. Suffice it to say that I am busy "reframing", trying to put things in perspective when everything is swirling chaotically around me. I need to be able to deal with one problem at a time and not be on a "one a day" program. I want to jump off for a bit an... Mon, 18 Jul 2011 20:59:22 EST Descending a mountain... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4343506 I walk alone down the mountain. Hyper-vigilant and aware of the smells , the movement and my surroundings. The Green Goddess of late Spring has adorned the slopes with a riot of wildflowers . A bear bell jingles at my side with each rhythmic step, calling to the living, "She's here! She's here !". A mountain bike grinds down the trail as if the mountain were fresh meat and not the dust of those who have gone before. I enter a glen of quaking Aspens. The breeze rustles their leaves and warn, ... Tue, 5 Jul 2011 21:33:41 EST Travel is like adultery.......". Do you have wanderLUST? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4304001 Wanderlust: A strong and irresistible impulse to travel. I am the embodiment of wanderlust. I started reading Elisabeth Eaves' book, "Wanderlust: A Love Affair with Five Continents". She is me. I am her. She traveled for love and loved to travel. I understand the inevitable dissatisfaction with being "stuck", whether it is being stuck in your body or stuck in your mind or stuck in a place in time or in a physical boundary. I enjoy the rapture and freedom of travel. Like Ms. Eaves, I have ... Fri, 17 Jun 2011 00:12:40 EST Waiting to exhale...and trying not to inhale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4175114 I'm in a holding pattern and I am holding on to Dear Life. One more test to go. So far so good. Sort of. My thyroid is out of whack. Poke, prod and open wide. Whoa girl, I want out of these stirrups. Blood tests, pap smears, mammograms, dental appointments, etc. . I am waiting to exhale and finish up all of the tests that accompany my annual physical (plus the "Extra" tests you get for reaching the age of 50!). But in the meantime, I am trying NOT to inhale food without thinking. But I stil... Mon, 18 Apr 2011 19:22:59 EST Learning to think....Outside the box...Kraft box, cereal box, bread box, etc. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4141646 I have to learn to think, especially when I am tired. I have to learn to think outside of the box. A lot of really crappy foods come in a box. Macaroni and cheese. Sugary cereals. I don't eat most of the foods that come out of a box but, at the moment, I am tired of cooking and so I am contemplating purchasing one of Pandora's sin bins. I mean, it all looks good...and easy....and they are so happy. Vegetables and fruits never look that happy unless they are garnishing a Bloody Mary or are se... Mon, 4 Apr 2011 14:15:01 EST Naked with a man who isn't my husband... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4073887 I was naked with Pascual. Wow.He was great. French. An earthy wine-drinking, hands- on French male. We did it by candlelight. Soft music in the background. And I paid for it. "Harder?", he asked. "Yes please", I groaned. So he kneaded me, like dough...and for over an hour my french masseur and I did it all! Ok, so Pascual happens to be the French therapist at Thousand Waves Spa in Santa Fe and the "nose to toes" treatment happens to be the most relaxing treatment I have EVER had. A salt ru... Mon, 7 Mar 2011 17:12:06 EST Tear. Cut. Rip.Shred.Grind. Saw...the root of the problem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4056079 Today I was happy to TEAR, CUT, RIP, SHRED, GRIND AND SAW all of the INVASIVE weeds/trees/plants in my yard. I also took a whack at the invasive weeds in my life. I took out Holly trees, blackberry vines, laurels, ivy, etc.. It feels amazingly good to declutter my lawn. More sun coming through. The grass IS greener on the other side. Those plants ended up here because a bird or a raccoon or a deer decided to poop in my space. I did not invite them to put down roots. AH-HA! Let me take a loo... Mon, 28 Feb 2011 23:38:11 EST The Cheerleaders inside of my head...and the wildest horseback ride ever! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4042134 I was in the pool this morning, doing my regular lapswim when I heard a voice, "Rock on Katrina! You go girl! You are strong...healthy...keep it up". Uh oh... where was the voice that usually coaches/chides me? The one that berates me for oozing out of my swimsuit? The one that says, "Look at your thighs! Yuck! Crater Lake!". Where did this new voice come from?Was it due to the fact that I had just spent a week at 7,000 feet above sea level and I was now back down to elevation 100 and was h... Wed, 23 Feb 2011 17:14:53 EST Four pounds in a month and a half, so I am NOT the world's biggest loser http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4013992 Four pounds in a month in a half might not seem like much. Some people lose that much in a week. I am NOT the world's biggest loser! Ok. Take it another way. I AM NOT THE WORLD'S BIGGEST LOSER!!!! I hear it now. I am not what I have pegged myself: frumpy, 50 year old suburban housewife. I actually kind of rock. I am getting my groove back. So while I might not look it, I am starting to feel it. Like I belong. Last week I was leaping from boulder to boulder in a canyon in Mexico. I was scramb... Sun, 13 Feb 2011 11:46:12 EST