KAT321123's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KAT321123 KAT321123's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ "We're the kids in America, everybody live for the music-go-round" - Kim Wilde http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726673 I was lucky enough to be a kid growing up in Suburbia in the US in the 80s. I stayed out until dark with my friends (and by friends I mean every single kid in the neighborhood). We'd ride bikes and play tag. We'd find magic in everything from the ice cream man to lightening bugs. <BR> <BR> But we grew up. <BR> <BR> Tonight, after a long day of travel for work and a hard (for me) goodbye at yoga, I met some friends for dinner. I had a mini splurge, but was able to keep things in check ... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 21:41:05 EST "Now there's no looking forward, now there's no turning back" -- Pat Benatar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714825 I feel strong and proud. <BR> <BR> The scale has yet to recognize my efforts, but it will come in time, no doubt. And my body is definitely changing. <BR> <BR> Since my last blog, I started working really hard to reach my goals and very quickly that hard work became habit. It’s amazing how quickly our positive behaviors can really help shape our thoughts and feelings and create room for new behaviors. <BR> <BR> I haven’t been perfect. I traveled a few weekends in a row and allowed mysel... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 09:40:33 EST "Here I am, rock you like a hurricane" - Scorpions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5700608 On 5/12, I re-dedicated myself to my SparkJourney after a bit of a detour. I know it’s only been a week and a half and that it’s fairly “easy” to commit for the short-term, but already I’m feeling my strength – mental and physical – returning, which is helping me remain motivated. <BR> <BR> In looking back over the goals I’d set for myself, I’m also feeling pleased with myself… <BR> <BR> ~Get back into tracking. Stay within my calorie range every day, allowing for going a few hundred cal... Thu, 22 May 2014 09:31:18 EST "You've been hiding, never letting it show, always trying to keep it under control" -- Heart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5695267 Yesterday was one of those work days that was long, difficult, and stressful. There have been a lot of those lately (aside from when I was on my amazing vacations, of course). In the best of times, I'm usually snacky mid-afternoon but on *those* days that snackiness is to the nth degree. <BR> <BR> But being back "on track" for the second day and being realistic, I came armed. <BR> <BR> So when the snackiness hit, I made some popcorn and unsweetened chocolate chai pu-er tea (which is bas... Wed, 14 May 2014 22:48:11 EST "I don't know what to do - I'm always in the dark, living in a powder keg and giving off sparks" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5693414 --Bonnie Tyler <BR> <BR> ________________________ <BR> <BR> It’s funny to look back on where I was at in terms of health a year ago and see where I’ve been the last few weeks. My blogs about putting one foot in front of the other and “fake it ‘til you make it” seem so far away. My recent, rare blog entries have focused more on the struggle. <BR> <BR> I’ve been away for most of the last two weeks for fun travel and while I’ve tried to exercise (hard to resist free yoga on the bay in Miami... Mon, 12 May 2014 12:51:13 EST You should know, everywhere I go, you're always on my mind, in my heart, in my soul" -- Chicago http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5680853 This time last year I did my first two timed 5Ks. The first I choked and walked a good part of. The second was a fundraiser for the agency I work at. I had trained, I was determined. It was incredibly difficult, but I made it! It was amazing! I don't think I'll ever forget how I felt as I saw the race-timer and then crossed the finish line (and subsequently almost threw up...haha). <BR> <BR> I had planned on doing the run again this year, but I really haven't been running. I made othe... Sat, 26 Apr 2014 11:04:36 EST "Anticipation's running through me, let's find the key and turn this engine on" – Eddie Money http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670468 I've written before about how I feel after a long run. My energy is high and I feel like, no matter what happens, I've had success in my day because the hardest part of my day has been complete. I feel like nothing can stop me. <BR> <BR> That is the feeling of grabbing life by the balls and *really* living. <BR> <BR> I was reminded of this yesterday when my husband commented that he is unstoppable and that nothing can mess with him. (He's been living a very, very healthy lifestyle in the... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 12:07:49 EST “I'm addicted to you, baby. You're a hard habit to break” -- Chicago http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5635367 It’s remarkable how well pattern creates habit. <BR> <BR> I remember in September of 2012 completing the Health Starts Here 30 day challenge, more in support of a friend who was coordinating the challenge than anything else. 30 days of no oil, no sugar, no dairy, minimal meat (I’m a vegetarian, so no worries there!), whole grains (no simple grains) and no salt. With the exception of one planned meal off from the challenge, I stuck with it for the full 30 days. After the challenge ended, I... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 14:43:38 EST "Although I'm not making plans, I hope you understand there's a reason why" -- Fleetwood Mac http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5630810 Lao Tzu said, “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be." <BR> <BR> I have a 5K today. <BR> <BR> For each of my other timed runs, my time has gotten consistently shorter and shorter. That may not happen today. <BR> <BR> Usually before my other 5Ks I have rituals of sorts. Certain things I eat and drink and when I do so. Laying out my clothes the night before. Certain ways I exercise the week before. Getting "serious". <BR> <BR> Well, truth be told, I haven't really felt c... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 11:45:35 EST "Every rose has its thorn, just like every night has its dawn" - Poison http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5623496 A gazillion excuses crossed my mind today when I left work. "I don't want to get home so late." "I'll go for a walk when I get home instead" (side note -- that never would have happened). "The on call phone could go off." <BR> <BR> Sure, I was also thinking "I do adore the 6:00 teacher" and "You never actually regret going" but the excuses were winning. <BR> <BR> "You left work too early. You're going to have to sit in the parking lot for 1/2 hour or sit in the waiting room looking li... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 21:58:02 EST "Come on around and get yourself together, won't you come on around and hold an old friend's hand" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5619453 ~Tiffany <BR> <BR> ____________________ <BR> <BR> As I've mentioned, the last few weeks have been extremely difficult for me. After my last blog entry I did, indeed, get moving in the right direction and am feeling pretty proud of my progress over the last week. <BR> <BR> Last week I went for a walk around the lake by my house. We had a "storm" the week before and I'd been worried about how that had impacted the waterfowl at the lake as they're not used to freezing temperatures that ki... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 13:03:18 EST "There's something good waitin' down this road, I'm pickin' up whatever's mine" - Tom Petty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5613020 Lao-tzu said, "a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step". When things get hard or busy or *whatever* we can lose sight of that. It can be all too easy to forget that even small changes can make a big difference. <BR> <BR> As I mentioned in my last blog, I have lost focus of my goals and stopped prioritizing my health. Times got hard and my energy was focused on other things. Yes, excuses, but everyone has been there at one point or another. <BR> <BR> This morning I woke u... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 12:30:23 EST "If you are confused, check with the sun; carry a compass to help you along" - R.E.M. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5608389 I am derailed. <BR> <BR> If you've read my journal entries before, you know I'm all about moderation and, because of that, am gentle with myself if I have a less-than-perfect day or two. But this? This isn't moderation. This has been a month or so of less-than-stellar decisions. <BR> <BR> If I listened to my own advice to others, I'd fake it 'til I make it. I'd put one foot in front of the other. <BR> <BR> But I'm not listening. <BR> <BR> I have lots of excuses. I've been traveling... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 15:58:55 EST "Everybody's going off the deep end, everybody needs a second chance" - Loverboy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5581889 I've been doing a lot of dreaming. <BR> <BR> As a child, I remember having dreams of what I wanted to be when I "grew up". When I was little I wanted to work at Dunkin' Donuts or be a neurologist (my mom was very ill, so I knew some neurologists even at 3 and 4 years old...and the doughnuts are self-explanatory!). As I got older I wanted to be a vet until I got to dissections in school and realized that I'm a bit squeamish. <BR> <BR> Then I became an adult. As adults we tend to get set i... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 12:47:48 EST "And you can change your life- it'll change your mind" -- Men Without Hats http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5577851 I don't make resolutions for the new year. I don't believe they work and do believe they tend to lead to people feeling disappointed in themselves. My yoga instructor said yesterday that the average resolution lasts 3 or 4 months, but I would guess that's a huge exaggeration. <BR> <BR> That doesn't mean I don't believe in change and bettering oneself. I just don't believe that a new year has to be the time to do that. I believe now, whenever "now" happens to be, is the time to make chang... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 12:35:30 EST "You're burning, yearning for somebody to tell you that life ain't passing you by" - Kenny Loggins http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5568586 I’m 34 years old and hope to live for another 50 or 60 years (more would be fine, too!). It is unrealistic to expect myself to exercise and track my food consumption every day for the next 60 years. <BR> <BR> I say this because – confession time – I have not been doing my best. <BR> <BR> Reflecting back, I’d say I started losing sight of my goals mid-November. Since then I’ve traveled 3 times and had visitors once. I’ve also had an injury. It’s also the “holiday season”. I knew this... Fri, 20 Dec 2013 09:48:05 EST "Said woman, take it slow and it'll work itself out fine. All we need is just a little patience" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5562846 ~Guns N' Roses <BR> <BR> ___________________ <BR> <BR> The last few weeks have been a really interesting learning experience for me. As I mentioned in my last blog, I’ve been experiencing some physical discomfort on my right leg. My exercise routine has changed significantly while I’ve tried to figure out what is going on – I’ve gone from burning about 3,000 calories per week from exercise to burning about 800. While I feel like I haven’t run in a month, it’s"only" been 12 days, but tha... Thu, 12 Dec 2013 11:21:15 EST "For goodness sake, I got the hippy hippy shakes" - The Beatles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557596 (covered in the 80s by The Georgia Satellites) <BR> <BR> A little over two years ago I fractured the fourth metatarsal (foot bone) of my right foot by basically tripping over my own feet while wearing some lovely red heels that have since gone into retirement in my closet. This was at a time when I was exercising frequently and having to change my routine while healing was extremely challenging both emotionally and physically. Not one to sit back and watch life pass me by, I probably did m... Thu, 5 Dec 2013 12:22:58 EST "Yeah I wanna see those eyes in the mirror full of fire again" - Starship http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5553416 Today was my first race since April and the longest one (4 miles) that I've done. I've trained with a few 4 mile runs and a 5 mile run and was feeling excited and prepared. I told myself that time isn't everything and that as long as I completed it without walking I'd be happy, but that ideally I'd break 12 minute miles. <BR> <BR> Anyone who runs knows that most of the challenge is mental. I remind myself of that often and have figured out ways to combat any negativity and self-destructiv... Sat, 30 Nov 2013 11:59:04 EST "My, my, my, whiskey and rye, don't it make you feel so fine?" - Joan Jett http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5552738 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1681074197.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I've had an incredible last few days and while I am sad to see them go, I am excited about the next few days ahead. <BR> <BR> I stopped spending Thanksgiving with my family around 8 years ago. I adore my family, but it always felt stressful and I really try to cram as much R&R into my days off as I can typically, since the rest of my life tends to be rapidly paced. Instead my best friend and I started celebrati... Fri, 29 Nov 2013 11:23:21 EST "Now she's starting to rise, take a minute to concentrate, and she opens up her eyes" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5546518 ~Talking Heads <BR> <BR> _________________ <BR> <BR> After exorcising some demons in my blog entry from yesterday, I woke up feeling a bit cleansed today. I really contemplated deleting my negative, downer entry, but if I want to be authentic -- and I do (usually) -- I have to acknowledge the fact that I'm not upbeat and happy 100% of the time. Afterall, I'm human and this week is a particularly stressful week in my life. <BR> <BR> With that said, I had an amazing yoga class today that I... Wed, 20 Nov 2013 22:42:38 EST "You bring feeling to my life, you're the inspiration" - Chicago http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5545639 I think this may be the longest I’ve gone without blogging since I started in April. <BR> <BR> I’ve been busy. <BR> <BR> I’ve been in a rut. <BR> <BR> I’ve been uninspired. <BR> <BR> I typically have tried to write when I’ve had something (I felt was) meaningful to share, but I haven’t really had that feeling in the last 10 days since I last wrote. I’ve started blog entries in my head but none have really gone anywhere. So two days turned into a week turned into 10 days. <BR> <B... Tue, 19 Nov 2013 22:03:24 EST "I'm not aware of too many things, I know what I know if you know what I mean" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5535936 - Edie Brickell & New Bohemians <BR> <BR> ___________ <BR> <BR> As I may have mentioned before, my old meditation instructor, someone I truly admired and respected, used to use the phrase, “Hot Buddha sweats, cold Buddha shivers.” He would talk about this a lot and how different our experiences can be if we take the judgment away. To simplify, if you’re hot or cold you will have that physical experience, but once you put judgment on it (“I hate being cold” or “I love getting hot and swea... Fri, 8 Nov 2013 15:30:09 EST "If you say run, I'll run with you. If you say hide, we'll hide." - David Bowie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5531964 This will likely just be a random, incohesive, check-in. <BR> <BR> I’ve been struggling a bit with my eating. I think it may be due to 1) Allowing myself to have some extra sugar last week around Halloween and 2) Increasing my exercise and being extra hungry. It hasn’t been anything terrible – in the last week I went over my calories by about 700 total – but considering the fact that I haven’t really lost weight in two months, I should probably try to reel it in a bit. <BR> <BR> With tha... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 13:06:15 EST "I been everywhere, and I'm standing tall; I've seen a million faces and I've rocked them all" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5527402 ~Bon Jovi <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/1/l711223491.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I’ve been thinking a lot about motivation lately, particularly because I’ve felt very motivated with my health. Working in the human service field and doing a lot of work with parent education, I’ve been through and facilitated a lot of trainings about motivating children to make behavioral changes. We’re really no different as adults. <BR> <BR> I read a lot of blog entries about rewarding o... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 12:03:28 EST "But don't forget, it's me who put you where you are now, and I can put you back down, too" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5525530 -Human League <BR> <BR> ___________________________________ <BR> <BR> I had a dream last night that my husband kept bringing home bags of potato chips. In my dream I had told him that chips were my “trigger food” and I felt simultaneously upset that he kept bringing them home and also that he was eating them, which meant that I couldn’t. In my waking life, chips are probably the only food I won’t buy a whole bag of because I do, for whatever reason, lack self-control with them. <BR> <B... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 12:32:00 EST "Around and round, you're turning me upside down" - Diana Ross http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523953 I've heard it said that life begins when we step out of our comfort zone and let go of our fears. <BR> <BR> By nature and through my life experience, I've learned to be cautious. It's not that I don't trust myself so much, but I definitely have learned not to trust life. I thrive on stability and comfort. I've been called a control freak. That's not all bad -- it means I'm the one who is *always* there to catch others when they fall -- but it also does create some challenges. <BR> <BR> ... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 14:09:30 EST "And your friends don't dance and if they don't dance well they're no friends of mine" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5516921 -Men without Hats <BR> _______________________________ <BR> <BR> Several years ago I was a shy, quiet person. I still have some moments of being introverted, but overall I’ve turned into a bit of an extrovert. Anyway, back when I was shy and self-conscious, I turned to the internet. Most of my “closest friends” were people I hadn’t met. There isn’t anything good or bad about this and I recognize that we’re all incredibly different socially and get social fulfillment in different ways. <B... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 11:38:26 EST "Moving forward using all my breath" - Modern English http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5515040 This is a followup to the entry I posted on 10/14 about physical lessons I’ve learned related to running – the entry got too long, so I split it in half. <BR> <BR> This morning I woke up completely unexcited about going for a run. I was tired and cranky and while I know a lot of people do their best exercise when they’re in a crabby mood, that doesn’t work for me. I got outside anyway and it was drizzly – the kind of cold rain that you can barely notice but then you realize you’re getting ... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 10:14:05 EST "They don't know where they wanna go, but they're walkin' in time" - The Go-Gos http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513176 This morning while I was running, I thought about some of the lessons I’ve learned about/from running. I never ever thought I’d be a runner and now that I am, I’m so eager to inspire others to run! Hoping that some pointers based on my experience might help others! So here are some of my observations/tips. Please keep in mind, we all have different minds and bodies, so your mileage may vary (pun intended!). <BR> <BR> I started this blog entry and realized it was 2 ½ pages in MS Word. Oo... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 11:41:54 EST "I let you go for so long. It's a nice day to start again -- come on!" - Billy Idol http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5511444 Sometimes you just need a regroup. A reminder of what you're working for and working toward. <BR> <BR> As I've been posting about all week, I've been a bit "off". It started with a weekend when I gave myself permission to ease up on healthy eating and continued with feeling sick and came to a head with a pretty major disappointment/stressor which led to plenty of tears and some coconut ice cream. Last night, while over-snacking on cookies and tortilla chips (both "healthy" versions, but s... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 10:48:32 EST "I need some time off from that emotion; time to pick my heart up off the floor" - George Michael http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5508987 I'm not going to lie -- it's been a rough few days! I tend to blog more when I have inspiration or intelligence to share, and I know I'll get back to that place, but in the meantime I'm just trying to keep up =) <BR> <BR> I had the best of intentions of getting back on track after wedding/family weekend and tried my best to be mindful during the wedding/family weekend. I certainly wasn't perfect and did go about 1,800 calories above what I should have over a total of 4 days. However, I so... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 13:05:24 EST "Gonna free fall out into nothin', gonna leave this world for a while" - Tom Petty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5504536 So I knew traveling was not going to perfectly complement my SparkPeople lifestyle -- it never does. And I'm fine with that. <BR> <BR> My husband is in a wedding tonight, which has meant me hanging out with the bride and groom and wedding party. And lots of celebrating (read: drinking and eating). I'm having SO much fun, making terrific new friends, and my phone is definitely keeping super busy with my tracking! Lots of food to input! <BR> <BR> So there's the plus side. I'm keeping m... Fri, 4 Oct 2013 15:11:55 EST "I am, I am, I am superman and I can do anything" - REM http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5500369 So usually I try to make my blog posts somewhat cohesive and poignant. This is not “usually”, apparently =) <BR> <BR> Man things are coming together! I love it! <BR> <BR> I’ve been continuing on my running and yoga but additionally have added strength-training to my routine. I really have always disliked strength-training, but I think it’s time. My arms still feel incredibly weak and yoga is only helping so much. Weirdly enough, I LOVE feeling sore the day after lifting weights! It's ... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 13:24:40 EST "Let me cover you with velvet kisses, I'll create a look that's made for you." - Madonna http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5495766 I have a fairly important meeting tomorrow that I just found out about yesterday. I work in a business casual environment, definitely closer to the “casual” end of things, but for the meeting I need to dress up enough that I look closer to the “business” end of things but not so much that I stand out to my colleagues. I wasn’t sure what I had at home and figured I might need to do some shopping today. I did a little preemptive shopping yesterday and wound up with nothing (always the way th... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 10:33:11 EST "I get up, and nothing gets me down. You got it tough; I've seen the toughest around." - Van Halen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5493782 This morning I set off to do Week 6, day 1 of Couch to 5K. This workout has a particularly rough reputation - you run 5 minutes, walk three, run 8, walk three, run 5. No, it doesn’t sound brutal. However, you’re coming off of running 20 minutes straight (2ish miles) and are feeling like you can conquer anything. What people don’t talk about is how it can be much easier to keep running without stopping than it is to get your heart pumping hard, slow it down walking, and then get it going a... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 11:56:57 EST "Lightning strikes, maybe once, maybe twice, and it all comes down to you" - Fleetwood Mac http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5491844 Yesterday was an amazing reminder in “You can do this!”. <BR> <BR> As I’ve mentioned, it’s been a really stressful few weeks. I tend to live with a fairly high level of stress to begin with due to my job and probably my personality, but this was more than even I’m used to. The result was that I feel like I haven’t slept well over the last few weeks, have gone out to eat a little more than I typically do (healthy choices, but still), and just haven’t felt my best even though I’ve continued ... Sat, 21 Sep 2013 10:45:22 EST "Workin' on a mystery, goin' wherever it leads, runnin' down a dream" - Tom Petty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5488716 I’m constantly telling others on SparkPeople that we can only control what we eat and how we exercise and can’t control the number on the scale. I truly believe that and believe that if we take good care of our bodies, the weight will drop off eventually. <BR> <BR> With that said, I’ve certainly gotten frustrated with my weight remaining stagnant for the last MONTH. <BR> <BR> Until today when I stepped on the scale and had lost 3.4 pounds since last Tuesday! <BR> <BR> I’m happy but not el... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 21:49:14 EST "Every little thing she does is magic, everything she do just turns me on" - The Police http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5486477 My husband sometimes comments that my cooking is “magic”. Last week this was really proven when we were a bit tight on funds, hadn’t grocery shopped due to me being away last weekend, and were down to a seriously bare-bones kitchen. Yet somehow I made some amazing meals out of next to nothing (thank goodness we had frozen peas because I think we ate them every day!). Sometimes you really have to pull together to make something out of nothing. <BR> <BR> Today I decided to bake bread. As I... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 18:49:52 EST "We walk together, we're walking down the street, and I just can't get enough" - Depeche Mode http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5481636 It’s been a really exhausting, emotionally draining several days since my car accident. I’m trying to take care of myself as well as I can in terms of food and exercise routine, but between sharing a car, having to make phone calls to the insurance company, etc. it’s just harder than normal. <BR> <BR> I know I’ve said it before, but it’s particularly important to be kind to oneself when the going gets tough. But even better, it can sometimes help to be kind to others when the going gets to... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 12:29:17 EST "Little Red Corvette, Baby you're much too fast" - Prince http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477610 Life gets hard sometimes. <BR> <BR> We all know this and we know what we *should* do when things get hard – just keep going and stay on-track – but we also know that the reality of this can sometimes look a little different. I say this as I finish a doughnut for breakfast (with grapes, at least!). <BR> <BR> Wednesday night I got in a pretty bad car accident. I was not at-fault (the other driver got a traffic citation and I had the right-of-way and there was a witness) and considering the... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 09:43:27 EST "And I can't fight this feeling anymore, I've forgotten what I'm fighting for." - REO Speedwagon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5470928 I was reading an article earlier about why many people stop practicing yoga or lose their dedication or passion for it. It can raise lots of challenging emotions that people don’t know how to deal with. <BR> <BR> Tonight I went to a class with a new-to-me instructor. My first impression of her was that she was very calm and grounded. My second impression was “OK. It’s yoga – why are we doing 10 minutes of ab work? I don’t want this”. My third impression included thoughts that are probably ag... Fri, 30 Aug 2013 14:00:17 EST "Oh, maybe he's no Romeo, but he's my love and one man show"** - Deniece Williams http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5467884 My morning this morning started in three ways. <BR> <BR> The first is that I stepped on my scale, eager to hit the 50-pounds-lost mark….and found I gained ½ a pound since last week. This was after a “perfect” week. Extra exercise – 2,600 calories burned rather than my targeted 2,000 – and staying within my calorie range daily. Yes, I’m disappointed. But I also know it’s literally mathematically impossible that I truly gained weight so I’ll just keep on keeping on and see what happens. <B... Tue, 27 Aug 2013 12:44:48 EST "Surrender all your dreams to me tonight, they'll come true in the end." - Pat Benatar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5467113 While I often comment to others and reflect to myself that you cannot control the number on the scale and can only control what you eat and your exercise, sometimes the number on the scale does matter to me. <BR> <BR> My next mini-goal is a big one! It will mean being 50 pounds below my highest weight. It will also mean being at least half-way through my weight-loss journey – I think I have somewhere between 30 and 50 to go. While the number on the scale isn’t everything, I’m definitely e... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 19:00:28 EST "Don't you know that other kids are starving in Japan, so just eat it" - Weird Al http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5465011 This morning, against my sane judgment, I set my alarm for 7:00. The weather here hasn’t been cooperating with my plan to walk a good distance in preparation for my half-marathon walk in a few weeks. I’m fine with walking or running in the rain for a bit, but not for 2+ hours. The forecast has been awful for today and we had an epic storm last night, so I was a bit wary when I woke up, before my alarm, and saw totally overcast sky. But I set out. <BR> <BR> It walked around a local lake... Sat, 24 Aug 2013 16:00:14 EST “Keep your head up, movin’ on, hold your head up” - Eurythmics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5459868 At yoga on Friday, at the beginning of class, the instructor (who happens to be one of my favorites) read the following quote: <BR> <BR> “I always wonder why birds choose to stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere on the earth, then I ask myself the same question.” ¯ Harun Yahya <BR> <BR> At the end of a fairly challenging class she reflected on the quote again adding, "You become the person you tell yourself you are." I suddenly had tears in my eyes and had to struggle to catch ... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 12:09:55 EST "I'm so excited and I just can't hide it, I'm about to lose control and I think I like it" - The http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5454931 In my yoga studio, the instructors often talk about letting go of the things that aren’t serving you during your practice. This can include a lot of things – your mind straying to the chores you need to do later, being competitive and ego-driven, thinking negative thoughts about how your body looks in certain postures – and practicing letting go of things that aren’t serving you is incredibly hard on the yoga mat. That is, after all, part of why it’s called “yoga practice.” <BR> <BR> So mu... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 10:40:40 EST "What a feeling, being's believing. I can have it all, now I'm dancing for my life." - Irene Cara http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5454019 So not surprisingly, I really just needed to get some whininess out of my system yesterday when I blogged. I feel like it’s important to document some of the hard days so that when I look back I’ll remember some of the things I did to keep myself on track when things were less easy. <BR> <BR> My husband ended up feeling better last night so I ended up going to yoga. I didn’t get any cardio in, but I have five days (including today) to squeeze in five workouts, so that just means I’m going ... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 13:20:42 EST "Circus life under the big top world, we all need the clowns to make us smile" - Journey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5452755 Sigh. <BR> <BR> If you’ve read my other blog entries, you know I’m pretty upbeat and positive. I mean, the last blog entry I wrote was about choosing happiness and how I’ve found success in that! <BR> <BR> This entry is not that one. Haha. <BR> <BR> I have a few things I’m battling with that I want to process through: <BR> ~For the past few weeks I’ve had a lot of ear discomfort and sinus pressure, following a few dizzy spells a month or so ago. As I mentioned here then, I "don't" get... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 11:23:01 EST "I know it's everybody's sin, you got to lose to know how to win." - Aerosmith http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5450038 This morning I went for a run. I’m counting it toward one of my runs for the week even though I didn’t technically meet my requirement of running 2 miles or doing C25K week 6 or higher. What I did do is ran for about ¾ of a mile straight and then did more running on the beach. Since my overall goal is around endurance and stamina I figure that few minutes of sand running is huge! My heart-rate sure thought so. Anyway… <BR> <BR> I posted a picture on my facebook of a few pelicans chillin... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 14:47:00 EST