KAROUSELL46's SparkPeople Blog

Surgery is a NO, too Dangerous

Sat, 19 Nov 2011 15:36:13 EST

I've had this really bad pain in my lower left abdomen for awhile now. I was sent to Seattle to see my surgeon last month and he looked over my CT. He called yesterday and said "Yes you do have another hernia. I won't do surgery on you b/c it's too dangerous. So I have to be very careful with the things I do now. I'm requesting a statement from him the whys and what fors and how comes from him. He's the same one who did my surgery when I was 160 lbs. heavier. So now another hurdle to try and ...

FIRST HALLOWEEN for GRDAUGHTER

Mon, 31 Oct 2011 17:21:36 EST

Karlene Isabelle, 8 months ol' princess

So True.....Don't You think? lol

Thu, 13 Oct 2011 23:11:28 EST

I'M TIRED OF THIS AND AFRAID

Sun, 5 Jun 2011 14:30:59 EST

Maybe it should have read " I'M AFRAID AND TIRED".

I haven't been feeling myself alot lately. Depression, AGAIN. Weight gain, AGAIN. Got in the middle of my dogs fighting, AGAIN. Things seem to be repititious(sp). SS

I went to the dr and had my anti-depressants upped a week ago. I feel like crying and screaming and don't know what to do at times. I find it hard to come on SP when I can't contribute or just don't want to bring anyone else down with my BS. I feel that I ke...

And Even More Grma Pictures

Wed, 23 Mar 2011 14:04:05 EST

Ok, I just had to add a couple more pictures of my new grddaughter, Karlene Isabelle. She turned one month old the 18th and I turned 56 the 18th.

More Grma Pictures

Sat, 19 Feb 2011 12:34:21 EST

My New Grbaby Girl

Sat, 19 Feb 2011 11:33:16 EST

I am a proud grma to another baby girl. My DD, Darcey, had this precious lil' bundle at 7 p.m. last night. Her name is Karlene Isabelle. She weighed 6 lbs. 4 oz. and was 18 3/4 in. long. She is named after my DD that passed away and her middle name is after me.

My Dad-1st time I ever saw him

Thu, 10 Feb 2011 17:36:51 EST

This is a picture of my dad. He was a police chief back in the 70s. I never met him or seen a picture of him til about 2 weeks ago. My new found bro sent me lots of pictures yesterday and this one of them. All I can do is stare at him. And wonder all kinds of thoughts.
This part of my life is quite exciting, actually. I got to reveal a secret and it doesn't matter who knows about me now! I always felt before like so...

I met my Brother

Mon, 31 Jan 2011 15:37:18 EST

My goodness. That first phone call to my bro, Bob, has been quite a---not sure how to explain it. I've talked to him everyday. He lives about 2 hours away from me. Bob called me Friday evening and said he was coming to see me. Talk about emotions. I was thrilled, scared, happy, what's he going to think of me. The old tapes started playing in my head....my weight. I was more worried about that than anything. I always tease everyone and say " to know me is to love me" but to see me, that's a ...

Found My Siblings

Fri, 28 Jan 2011 15:46:30 EST

I have a bro and sister that I have never met. I've known this ever since I was 17 and now I'm in my fifties. My bro is 1 yr younger than I and my sister is 2 yrs younger. Because of several different reasons, I never tried to find them even though I thought about it often. My mom has passed away yrs. ago and so had my real dad and my siblings mom.

I decided to start to deal with this and I found an address on the internet and wrote a letter to my bro and sent it last October. The...

One Flaw In Women

Mon, 17 Jan 2011 12:24:56 EST

One Flaw In Women

Women have strengths that amaze men.....

They bear hardships and they carry burdens,

but they hold happiness, love and joy.

They smile when they want to scream.

They sing when they want to cry.

They cry when they are happy

and laugh when they are nervous.

They fight for what they believe in..

They stand up to injustice.

They don't take "n...

Dear Daughter Tawny Birthday

Fri, 7 Jan 2011 17:34:55 EST

Tomorrow, the 8th, is my DD Tawny's birthday. She would have been 39. I lost her in 2004. She is my first born. I miss her so much. So does her daughters ages 21(Sammy) and 16 (Savannah). Savannah looks so much like her mommy and she loves the same things her mom did. Sammy sounds alot like her. When I'm in another room talking to Sammy, I forget that it's Sammy I'm talking to.

Life hasn't gotten any easier since that dreadful day. I'm still numb. I just take life sometimes an hour...

Our Spark Team 3D Pumpkin Carving Class

Sat, 23 Oct 2010 17:05:30 EST

We had so much fun meeting today and carving pumpkins. We met at the park and the goblins blew in and was blowing our things around. I met a couple of members for the first time which was really nice. Can't wait to get together again.

So the Dr. said.....

Fri, 18 Dec 2009 19:49:53 EST

My stomach has been hurting again for about a week and was at its worse today. I thought that bacteria (h-pyloria) was back. So I called the dr and went in. She pushed on my stomach and asks "does that hurt" I yelled "YES!" Boy I wanted to hurt her. She says that I don't have that bacteria but not sure what is going on. Maybe my esphogus, lining in my stomach, some other things which I obviously didn't know what she was talking about. I read some on the esphogus and lining before I went went ...

Sad Day in Lakewood WA

Tue, 8 Dec 2009 19:43:29 EST

I don't know how many have heard about our four police officers who were shot and killed 9 days ago in Lakewood, Wa. Three men and one woman. The one who shot and killed them was shot and killed a few days later. Its a big long story and I'm not going to go into details. Their funerals were on tv today. There were 20,000 officers from around the states and Canada that attended. It lasted 8+ hours. At the end of the funeral there was no 21 gun salute. Instead a bell was rung and taps played. T...

Results are back

Fri, 20 Nov 2009 14:59:05 EST

The results are back and I have bacteria in my stomach. So I have to add 3 more pills to my daily list of meds. Except these I have to take twice a day for 2 weeks. Not sure how I got it.

Even though I haven't felt very well, still exercised. I don't want to have to start over with these muscles. They are getting use to being worked.

Everyone have a great weekend Happy Thanksgiving. 247

Under the Weather

Tue, 17 Nov 2009 22:19:39 EST

I wish I was talking about the weather. I'm not feeling to well. My stomach has been hurting for a week and I finally went to the dr today. After answering ??s and him pushing on my tummy, he sent me to the hospital for an x-ray and lab work. The x-ray came back and it was good. The lab work should come back tomorrow. The dr is checking for a bacteria. If it is a bacteria then I have to be put on 3 pills a day for 2 weeks. If not a bacteria then I have to have more test to see if I have the s...

HMMM. REALLY DOES WORK

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 17:52:53 EST

Ok. I'm a believer now. Not that I wasn't before but I didn't have the motivation to get off this booty and exercise. One reason is the osteoarthritis in my knees. Hurts like heck so I don't do alot of walking. Since I went through physical therapy for my back and have been doing some of the things they showed me to do at home, has helped my legs. I actually paid attention this time. So exercise at the gym has paid off.

Today I went to my monthly drs. appt and he said I have lost ...

GREAT DAY

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 15:47:01 EST

My routine seems to be this:

Get up at 5 in the morning
Get grdaughter up for school
Take grd and grsons to school

By this time its 7:45 a.m.
Go to the gym
Back home by 8:45

I never thought in my wildest dreams, my morning would consist of exercising, let alone in the mornings. I use to hate exercising. Now I can't wait to go. I have met some really nice peeps there. People who work there and clients. The workers have said its really nice t...

NO 1...2...3...4...

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 17:34:03 EST

No exercise for me today. My osteoarthritis in my knees are hurting so bad. Could be the cold weather or too much exercise. I'm hoping to go to the gym tomorrow. Kind of breaks up my routine not exercising. I need to listen to this body though. I have a tendancy to overdue things. My OCD. Well, such is life. 247 to everyone & drink your 194

IT'S WORKING

Fri, 16 Oct 2009 13:22:28 EST

It's cold and raining buckets here today. The wind is blowing the leaves all over the roads. Some how I still go outside without a coat. 198 Is it any wonder I'm sick. After I went to the gym, I headed for my drs. office. I couldn't wait another 2 weeks before I weighed again. I walked in and asked "Can I step on the scale?" I've never thought I'd ever ask that ??. I gave the scale an "ok, here I come" look and stepped on.......YES!!!...I lost another 2 lbs. 104 9

EXERCISE--USE TO BE A 4 LETTER WORD

Fri, 9 Oct 2009 15:41:14 EST
Yep. Thats right. I hated to exercise! But now that I've finished physical therapy and go to the gym, I really enjoy working out. I feel like I have accomplished something during the day. I exercise in the mornings. I'm a morning person so that works great for me. I have so much more energy. Not sure though how long my knees are going to last since I have osteoarthritis in both but I'm not letting that stop me for now. Deal with that when the time comes. I might have to slow down but not stop...

HIGH 5 TO MYSELF

Fri, 2 Oct 2009 18:32:00 EST
I weigh only once a month but this month (September) I ended up going to the dr. twice so I weighed twice. I lost 3 lbs. in 2 weeks! So that is 4 lbs in a month. My osteoarthritis has stopped me from doing alot of living. Going to physical therapy has been a life saving experience. The osteoarthritis in my knees is starting to feel better. Getting those muscles in my legs working again. The therapist has shown me how and what to do so I don't injure myself further.

I graduated phy...

WHAT MY LIFE IS ABOUT--CONTROL OF ME

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 16:42:53 EST
Its been awhile since I wrote a blog. I'm almost done with physical therapy, 2 visits left. The treatments seem to be agreeing with this body. I got a tens unit to use when I get to hurting. I really enjoy going b/c I get to workout in thier gym. Never thought I'd ever say this but "I love thier eliptical crosstrainer!". I can get a membership to go to thier gym and am seriously thinking about joining and the therapist make sure I'm doing the exercises properly. Its only a 1/2 block from my ...

VISIT TO DR. IN SEATTLE

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 16:53:32 EST
I am so glad the trip to the neurosurgeon is done and overwith, at least for now. Seattle is about 3 hours away. My DD and I drove to Seattle yesterday for my appt. It was scheduled for 10:15. The dr had an emergency so I could reschedule or wait til 11:30. I opted to wait since it took me over a month to get this appt. DD went to look for a place to get coffee but that hospital is way too big so we just waited and waited.
Around 1:00 I finally got to see him. Took about 10 minutes. I...

I FEEL GUILTY

Thu, 23 Jul 2009 21:29:24 EST
I feel so bad and guilty that I haven't been on too much. I haven't been very much support to my groups or friends. So thankful I have a coleader to my group that I'm a leader of.

I'm still having health problems with my back and can't sit too long to read or reply to my teams I belong to. I have an appt. Aug. 10th with the nuerosurgeon in Seattle.

My daughter and grkids have been alot of help. I know I've gained back a lil' weight. I do upper body exercises but it doe...

I PRAY THIS BE THE LAST

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 14:18:37 EST
Life sure is on a downhill spin right now. My cousin, who was my best friend when we were in elementary school and hung out together when we got older, has lost her fight with cancer on Friday. She and I were the same age. She would have been 54 in August.
Life has to start turning the corner somewhere in my life. I have lost 3 beautiful woman since January. All three to cancer. I pray that more is done to fight this deadly disease.
Please take a moment and pray for my cousin Rho...

THANK YOU ALL

Sun, 7 Jun 2009 19:27:12 EST
I would like to thank all my friends who have left such nice things on my blog. I'm sorry I haven't been around to help support my dear friends but I'm sure you understand. My friend's memorial service is tomorrow. I miss her very much.

I've been pretty much in control of my eating so I think. I got my MRI report back. I have something wrong with a disc and a few other things and my dr. wants to send me to a surgeon which I'm not too impressed about and she wants me to get a steroi...

MY FRIEND HAS GONE TO HEAVEN

Sun, 31 May 2009 10:25:55 EST
My friend lost her battle with cancer. She passed away yesterday morning. I have been spending my days with her at the nursing home helping to keep her in bed b/c she was too weak to get up. Making sure she wasn't in any pain. Everyone has told me that they are so glad and appreciated me helping her before and during her stay at the hospital and nursing home. There's no need to tell me b/c she was my friend/neighbor and I would hope others would do the same thing should they have the opportun...

STILL WAITING FOR MRI

Thu, 21 May 2009 02:48:01 EST
I'm still waiting to have my MRI done. I've had to reschedule 2 x's. I've got a cold and to do the MRI I have to lay still for 45 minutes. Can't lay there and not cough so its on hold til my cold is gone.

Since I can't exercise/walk very far, I gained 6 lbs. in 2 weeks. I went to the dr. today and lost 3 of the 6. I'm so happy about the loss.

My depression is part of the weight gain too. My neighbor has cancer and the drs give her 2-4 months to live. We've become good f...

X-RAY REPORT

Wed, 6 May 2009 18:15:38 EST
The x-ray showed a lil' scoliosis(sp), arthritis but nothing to cause the pain in my leg. So now I get to have a MRI. 244 The dr. thinks it is my scydatic(sp) nerve. The only comfort is me laying down. Wouldn't be so bad if I was married or dating! hehehe So I won't be on here to chat with yas too much. 39 I'll be thinking about ya'll. Please say a lil' prayer, just a lil' one for me. I'll let ya know what the MRI says. Hope its done soon. This pain is driving me crazy. I ...

OK, WENT TO DR.

Mon, 4 May 2009 16:59:14 EST
Well, I did go to the dr this a.m. She sent me for x-rays of my lower back. Could be a disc, nerves, not sure. If the x-ray shows nothing then mri. Yippy skippy. So in the mean time, put ice pack and heat on area. DUH Already doing that. I hope its nothing bad. Just when I was just starting to get my groove on and walk & exercise more. Well, this to shall pass. Cross your fingers, eyes or what have ya that this is just something simple to fix. Will write more when I find out. Have a great wee...

UNDER THE WEATHER

Sun, 3 May 2009 00:00:42 EST
I've been feeling yucky for awhile. Could be allergies, could be a cold, I just don't know. Something is going on with my right leg. Hurts like heck! I have osteoarthritis in both knees. This feels like I've sprained my knee or something. Starts at my hip and down to my toes. When I happen to accidently bump my leg, I feel like I could just cry. At times, my toes will tingle. I've put an ice pack on it and a heating pad and nothing seems to help. Its been going on for about a week now. I know...

MY HEARTBREAK

Wed, 22 Apr 2009 17:20:07 EST

My Tawny -- daughter, sister, mother.

Sissy's Song by Alan Jackson

Why did she have to go
So young I just don't know why
Things happen half the time
Without reason without rhyme
Lovely, sweet young woman
Daughter, wife and mother
Makes no sense to me
I just have to believe

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the cl...

NOT DOING MUCH

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 19:08:26 EST
Today I'm not doing much. I've been having problems with my knees and the top of my feet hurting. Thought maybe it was the shoes I was wearing but I've changed shoes 3 times. It hurts to walk barefoot. A friend of mine said her husband had the same thing happen so right now I'm trying to stay off my feet.
So I'm watching a marathon of Star Wars with my grsons. Haven't watched those movies in a long time. Hope everyone is having a good weekend. If not, change it. 48