KARINASOARS's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KARINASOARS KARINASOARS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ And then came the rain. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5348644 I have been having a desert experience with the Lord lately. I felt as if He had left me to deal with so many difficulties and stresses. After praying on Sunday, I decided to thank Him for the dry places and ask Him to grow me while I was here. Today, it rained!!! Today, I received a call from my youngest who told me "Mom, I am ENGAGED" I received the care package I have been waiting almost 2 months for with my personal Bible in it. AND I received the invitation letter needed so that my... Tue, 7 May 2013 13:07:33 EST Is that a light? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5347192 I have been having a really difficult time lately. Yesterday was Easter here in Russia. I spent the first part of the day crying. (My stress level has been through the roof.) But after sitting in church and praying, I feel like I see a light at the end of the tunnel. I have decided to stop looking at the problems in my life and concentrate on doing my best to allow God to work on them. Mon, 6 May 2013 09:40:51 EST So discouraged! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5340266 So frustrated!!!!! <BR> <BR> I have been tracking my food and exercising more, and what happens? I am gaining weight! Yep, gaining!!! <BR> <BR> I can't even tell you how depressed I am about this! <BR> Tue, 30 Apr 2013 02:57:54 EST New blogger - the power of the scale! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5334879 Ok, so I am going to try this. I have been so disappointed by the scale lately and was thrilled to see that todays video from Sparkcoach was just about this. I used to weigh myself every day, but I am trying to weigh myself only twice a week. Last week, I only lost 1.5 pounds and I was soooooooooooooo disappointed. Today I climbed on the scale and it looked the same. I know it is silly to look for quick results after a lifetime (well MANY years at least) of starving myself and gaining a ... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 06:10:05 EST Support a missionary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2870935 Just a quick note to all of my fellow Spark People. <BR> If you are interested in supporting my husband and myself as we get ready to set off into the mission field in June, please let me know. We will be working to spread the Gospel to the lost in Russia. We have worked in Russia on a short term basis for 10 years now, and look forward to going long term now. <BR> <BR> I would be happy to send you any information about our work over there. <BR> We are a 501c3 organization so any funds y... Thu, 11 Feb 2010 16:27:03 EST Setting a new goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2837626 Today I have decided to set my walking goal to 6,000 steps a day and work my way up to 7,500 in the next 2 weeks. <BR> <BR> I am excited because I know I can do this! I have faith in myself and I am finding small ways to walk extra every day. An extra trip to the road side...one for the mail another for the paper, parking further away at the mall, walking the aisles of the grocery store even when I don't need anything in that aisle. I can do. I am confident in my ability! Wed, 3 Feb 2010 21:16:49 EST Why do I do it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2831059 Why is I get frustrated with myself so easily? All it takes for me to get down on myself is to hop on the scale. No matter what I have done, I always see that the numbers go up. I am not really worrying about it...because me clothes are still fitting loose so I can't complain. <BR> <BR> So, while I am tempted to throw my scale out, I will still stick with it. Sigh Tue, 2 Feb 2010 13:52:53 EST Proud of myself... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2825883 If you know me, you know that is an almost unheard of statement in my life. But, I am, I am proud of myself. Yes, I spent the weekend with my husband and daughter....I ate too much....but what I did eat was all much healthier. Little fried foods, while before I would have gorged on french fries and hamburgers. I age veggies! So, while I may have even gained a little weight, I am proud of myself. I am learning! <BR> <BR> Yeah me! Yeah God!!! Mon, 1 Feb 2010 13:49:08 EST Proud of myself... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2825882 If you know me, you know that is an almost unheard of statement in my life. But, I am, I am proud of myself. Yes, I spent the weekend with my husband and daughter....I ate too much....but what I did eat was all much healthier. Little fried foods, while before I would have gorged on french fries and hamburgers. I age veggies! So, while I may have even gained a little weight, I am proud of myself. I am learning! <BR> <BR> Yeah me! Yeah God!!! Mon, 1 Feb 2010 13:49:07 EST I am not alone and neither are you. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2807890 MY PRAYER FOR TODAY <BR> <BR> Lord, I thank You that I am not a spiritual orphan in this world. You didn't abandon me or leave me to figure out everything on my own. You sent the Holy Spirit to be my Teacher and Guide. So right now I open my heart wide to the Holy Spirit, so He can be the Helper You sent Him to be in my life. I give You thanks for sending this divine Helper, and I ask You to teach me how to lean upon Him more and more in the course of my life. <BR> I pray this in Jesus' name... Thu, 28 Jan 2010 08:56:43 EST WE'RE MOVING TO RUSSIA!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2803239 I cannot express to you just how happy I am to be able to make that statement. There are tears running down my cheeks as I write this. <BR> <BR> My husband and I have been short term missionaries to Russia for 10 years. We have been praying about going to Russia for full-time ministry work. We have been working with a particular church for all of these years, and they asked us to come and be a part of their staff there. We will be moving there for 6 months, then back to the US for 3 mo... Wed, 27 Jan 2010 08:56:22 EST Exhausted!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2800667 I am so exhausted. I was able to sleep only 3 hours last night and not all at once. Please keep me in prayer, as I am just plain worn out and when I am this worn out I don't do well as a caregiver. Tue, 26 Jan 2010 16:58:18 EST I am so excited!!!! Praise the Lord!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2778644 I am totally psyched! I have lost almost 20 pounds since November 7th. As my husband pointed out, I did it through the holidays!!!!!! Woot Woot!!! While I only lost 1 pound in December (full of family birthdays and Christmas), I feel very happy about my loss so far. In fact, I am ecstatic, because when I went to the doctor this week my diagnoses was obese.....NOT morbidly obese! <BR> <BR> I am doing it!!! With God ALL things are possible. Thu, 21 Jan 2010 18:58:02 EST Keeping my chin up! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2768738 Well, after much prayer, we have decided to continue to work on our fund-raising and plan to continue all of our plans. <BR> <BR> I also am thrilled to announce that I lost 5#s since I last weighed in 2 weeks ago. <BR> <BR> Tue, 19 Jan 2010 19:01:57 EST Having a tough day!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2763697 Well, I don't even know where to start. My day started with a call from Russia saying that our plans to move there have to be put on hold. We are still welcome to come for short term mission trips, but for now, we cannot move as planned. I cannot tell you just how much this is breaking my heart. <BR> <BR> I have done so much to try and get ready....taking private Russian lessons, "selling" my former business, paying off debts, taking a terrible job and keeping it for too long to earn ex... Mon, 18 Jan 2010 19:07:37 EST Help me to be a doer of the Word http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2748173 Lord, I ask You to help me think of new ways to do the Word of God. You have all the fresh ideas I'll ever need, so I am looking to You to show me how to put the Word into practice in my life. You are full of creative power and fresh ideas, so please open my eyes and show me how I can serve, how I can bless someone else, or any other way I can become obedient to do the Word that has been revealed so powerfully to my life. <BR> I pray this in Jesus' name! <BR> <BR> Fri, 15 Jan 2010 07:18:32 EST Help me to encourage Lord http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2743972 Lord, today I want to be used by You to encourage someone! I ask You to lead me to those You want me to encourage. Show me what to say, how much to say, and when to say it. Teach me to recognize the needs in other people and not to focus only on my own needs. <BR> I pray this in Jesus' name! Thu, 14 Jan 2010 10:03:10 EST When I'm down Lord http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2738769 Lord, I ask You to help me push my flesh and my feelings aside when I am tempted to be down and depressed. Your Word promises that I'll be encouraged if I fellowship with the saints, so I ask You to help me shove my lying emotions out of the way, get out of my house, and stop focusing on my defeat. Give me the strength of will to go attach myself to a band of believers who will encourage me to stand up, stand tall, and fight like someone who has the armor and the power of God working in my li... Wed, 13 Jan 2010 09:32:08 EST Feeling down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2725089 I am having a little bit of a down day today. My youngest daughter left for college again and I am alone again. I just love spending time with her, she is such a joy. <BR> <BR> My eating has been WAY off track the last couple of days. I need to get this habit down as I so often get off track if my schedule changes. I need to learn to be flexible while still being commited to my nutricion goals. Sun, 10 Jan 2010 18:49:39 EST Potatoes here I come! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2713452 In the book The Spark, Chris Downie said to hold a 5 pound of sugar to see just how much you have lost. Well, I am happy to say that I am going to the store to go hold a 10# bag of potatoes. Yep, ten pounds! It has taken me 2 months to lose it, but I am not going to be discouraged. While the weight is slowly coming off, the inches are melting off, as I have lost 8 1/4 inches. Yeah!!!! <BR> <BR> I can do this! It is my sincere prayer that I begin to lose the weight and inches even fast... Fri, 8 Jan 2010 07:54:08 EST Russian Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2711239 Today all of my dearest friends are celebrating Christmas. I hope all of their Christmases were blessed. I pray that next year at this time I will be home in Russia celebrating our Lord's birth bith them. Thu, 7 Jan 2010 19:00:16 EST Leaving it all behind http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2690693 Today...I make a statement....I choose to leave it all behind. I choose to leave the stress of the day at the Lord's feet. I choose to NOT emotionally eat. I choose to leave my worries and concerns by the wayside and walk onward towards my goal. <BR> <BR> Mon, 4 Jan 2010 09:35:52 EST Broken dreams http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2684389 Broken Dreams <BR> <BR> As children bring their broken toys <BR> With tears for us to mend, <BR> I brought my broken dreams to God <BR> Because He was my friend. <BR> But then instead of leaving Him <BR> In peace to work alone, <BR> I hung around and tried to help <BR> With ways that were my own. <BR> <BR> At last I snatched them back and cried, <BR> "How could you be so slow" <BR> "My child," He said, "What could I do? <BR> You never did let go." <BR> <BR> Robert J. Burdette <BR> <BR> <... Sun, 3 Jan 2010 09:36:25 EST Just another day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2679497 Why is it so hard some days to cherish each moment? I have a very stressful job and all of my time, except 24 hours a week, is taken with the job. Because of the stress I am under, I often fail to cherish each moment. <BR> <BR> I was blessed with 3 days and nights off over Christmas and I cannot tell you just how much it meant to me. For 3 whole days, I could breath without feeling stressed. During those days I cherished each moment. Even though I am exhausted from working 144 hours a... Sat, 2 Jan 2010 08:49:38 EST My goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2656437 Part 1: Resolutions for the new year <BR> a. exercise at least 10 minutes every day <BR> b. loss additional 35 pounds by April <BR> c. keep positive to improve life circumstances <BR> d. cook more meals at home <BR> e. be able to walk up 5 flights of stairs without being winded <BR> <BR> Part 2: Make a written plan for how to achieve your resolutions (the daily tasks that get ‘er done!) <BR> a. strength train 30 min 3x a week , Walk at least 10 minutes every day and build up to 5 miles a d... Sat, 26 Dec 2009 09:16:45 EST Is today thansgiving day??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2655116 I think every day should be thanksgiving day! I know for example that today....I am thankful that my husband is here, my son and daughter are home, my other daughters have a roof over their head, my mom and dad are here with me as well, and my grandma has a simple UTI and not anything worse. Fri, 25 Dec 2009 09:46:35 EST Russian through the holidays http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2651026 Many people decide that they want to learn something new every year. For me, this year has been a concentrated effort to learn Russian. It is my deepest hope that I will be moving to Russia with my husband this spring. We have been able to work as short term missionaries for many years there and hope to be able to move there for a year soon. <BR> <BR> So, why am I Russian through the holidays??? December 19th, my birthday, is St Nicholas' Day in the Russian Orthodox Church. December 2... Tue, 22 Dec 2009 20:35:36 EST Best Christmas Present ever!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2648745 Just a short blog to tell one and all how happy I was on this day 21 years ago. For on this day all of those years ago, my wonderful son was born. After 80 hours of labor, my son peeked into the world and stole the hearts of my husband and myself. He was such a miracle, that we gave him the middle name of Michael because it reminded us of the Christmas miracle. Then, he was released from the hospital and came home to stay on Christmas Eve. <BR> <BR> My son is still a miracle in our liv... Mon, 21 Dec 2009 19:06:11 EST One bite at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2645577 After a day of feeling sorry for myself, I am back on track. True, yesterday's birthday is not what I would have hoped for, but I spent it with my husband and youngest daughter. I WAY over ate, but I figure once a year on my birthday is okay. <BR> <BR> Now, I am back on track. I already walked my 1 mile and will do another 1 mile later. I am watching what I eat and will continue to do so. Yes, I know Christmas is coming, but I figure I can handle that (one bite at a time). Sun, 20 Dec 2009 09:04:05 EST Today was supposed to be my birthday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2643874 Today is my birthday and I don't know whether to laugh or cry. I had such wonderful hopes for today. I had hoped to be able to spend the day with my husband and youngest daughter. I had hoped to maybe go see a movie and then cook my favorite dinner. I had hoped to be loved today in a tangible way. <BR> <BR> Instead, I am woken up early by my relief worker calling to say she might now be able to work today, and even if she does, it will be only for awhile. You see, I have a very stress... Sat, 19 Dec 2009 08:36:08 EST Magical moment.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2643231 This moment is pure magic. Though it may seem completely ordinary and without distinction, this moment is surely a miracle. For in this moment, every possibility exists. Right now, in this very moment, you can act to make a difference in your own life, and you can truly change the world... Fri, 18 Dec 2009 19:57:15 EST It seems like such a simple thing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2642040 It seems like such a simple thing to get up each morning and make walking a part of my day, but it is not. My lazy bone has been working overtime and my excuse mindset tries to kick in. But no matter how my lazy bone acts and what my excuse mindset says, I AM GOING TO WALK, AND I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT. <BR> <BR> I cannot tell you just how wonderful it makes me feel to be able to say that. I don't know what clicked in me, but I do know a switch has been thrown and I am ready to do this t... Fri, 18 Dec 2009 08:58:51 EST My cat can sing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2639779 This morning I am busy sitting at my computer and watching my 12 year old cat as he sits by the patio door and chatters to the birds outside. His chattering may not seem like much to some poeple, but to me it is beautiful music. After all of these years, he still makes me smile every day and bring joy to my life. <BR> <BR> I wonder if that is not how the Lord sees me? I know my singing is not much better than my cats and yet I sing because I love the Lord. I cannot tell you how gratef... Thu, 17 Dec 2009 08:43:27 EST A time of reflection http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2637699 Today I am thinking about the future. I guess in a way it just hit me that I will not be seeing any of my children for the Christmas holiday again until 2014. It has been difficult to live so far away from my children already, but knowing that I could see them when I really wanted to always brought me comfort. Now, I know that I will only see my children for a short time every year. That is hard. <BR> <BR> So today, I reflect upon the Christmases of the past. <BR> <BR> Like Alicia's,... Wed, 16 Dec 2009 10:24:13 EST Just plain proud http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2634941 At this time of year more than any other, I find it a good thing to look back and see what the year is made of. This year I look back and I see my two youngest children and want more than anything to tell them how proud I am of them. But they, like their mom, are non comfortable with that. When people compliment me, I shy away from it, or ignore it all together. I am afraid that they do the same. <BR> <BR> So, how do I tell my son that he is my hero? That his courage and honor, strengt... Tue, 15 Dec 2009 08:28:12 EST Starting over.......again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2632569 You know, in a way, I hate that saying. Because, truth be told, I am not starting all over again. I didn't fall off the ladder of successful weight loss, I just slipped down a rung or two. So, I am back on the climb and feeling good about it. <BR> <BR> Yeah Karina! Mon, 14 Dec 2009 10:14:08 EST Why do I do it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2630172 Why do I do it? Why do I submarine myself and totally lose control of my eating at times? I am very frustrated with myself today. Yesterday, I ate and ate and ate. I think I was frustrated because even though I had stayed on track all week, I had gained a litle weight back. So instead of getting a hold of my courage and strength and pushing forward I had 2 eggs for breakfast, then Arby's french dip for lunch, a little bit of movie popcorn with butter at the movies and then ate 1/2 a piz... Sun, 13 Dec 2009 09:48:36 EST Blind Faith http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2616167 I have always been inspired by the Biblical stories of Peter when he walked on the water, and the woman with the issue of blood. I have taught many lessons over the years about each occasion and now it seems I am destined to have my own faith walk. <BR> <BR> In April of this coming year, my husband and I are moving to Russia. This is not a sudden decision, or one made lightly. We have been working as short term missionaries there since 2000. In June of 2008, I was asked by the pastor of ... Mon, 7 Dec 2009 09:51:20 EST WOW http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2613876 I can hardly believe it. I am already down 10.8 pounds since early November. Yes, I have been here before....hundreds of times....but this time feels different. I don't know what it was that has clicked in me. It may be as simple as I finally have a date to begin to fulfill the destiny in my life, or just realizing that I want to be healthy. Whatever it was that triggered this commitment.....Thanks! <BR> <BR> I know there will be many mountains to climb between now and my final goal w... Sun, 6 Dec 2009 10:40:33 EST Keeping on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2610177 I know it sounds like that would be easy, but for me, that is a difficult thing. I have tried and "failed" on so many diets in the past that I held little hope for this newest attempt, but I have stuck to it for over a month and I feel really good about myself. I can hardly wait to get on the scale on Sunday. Weird! At least for me it is. Fri, 4 Dec 2009 14:05:12 EST SO excited!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2546467 Well, it seems that after 9 years, I am finally going to be realising my lifelong dream. In April of 2010, I will be moving with my husband to Russia to work full-time in the mission field. We will be associate pastors at a church with a membership of over 400. Yeah God! Mon, 9 Nov 2009 09:37:42 EST My mission http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1572253 I am a Christian. I am a missionary. I believe that we are all missionaries in our own world. I believe that we are each called to share the word of God with those around us. Whether that be our neighbor, our co-worker, or our own family. We need to plant the seed so that God can reap the harvest. <BR> <BR> I run a non-profit organization called Seeds for the Harvest and I am called to work in Russia. I will be moving to Russia in June of 2009. I work in orphanages, children's hospi... Tue, 18 Nov 2008 15:18:31 EST