KARENKANDO's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KARENKANDO KARENKANDO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Here I Am. . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6077903 fatter than fat! Been gone too long that's for sure. My last blog entry was in October 2013 and since that time, I have managed to eat my way up to 245. Or thereabouts. I don't really know cause I haven't been on the scale in a minute or two. I'm afraid of the damn thing! I tried returning to Atkins about a month ago and at that time, I was 241. While on the Atkins wagon, I discovered. . . fell in love with. . . bullet proof coffee. Since falling off the Atkins wagon, I have continued... Sun, 24 Jan 2016 14:21:19 EST October 8, 2013 - Day 114 - A Life Worth Living http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5507662 Top of the mornin' to ya sparkers. This girl ain't feeling so sparkly right now. Still fightin' this monster head cold. Ugh! But! I got hope I'm in the home stretch now. Hopefully it won't be long til I'm 100% again. And then I can honestly say, "I did my time" and "I had my turn". Cold cold go away and never come this way again! <BR> <BR> Ok, truth time. . . <BR> <BR> I am an addict! <BR> <BR> I easily addict to anything and everything I love. <BR> <BR> Sugar! <BR> <BR> Fat! <B... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 07:09:01 EST October 4, 2013 - Day 113 - A Life Worth Living http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5504135 Good morning Spark Family. How are each and every one of you on this beautiful fall Friday? Are we all happy, happy, happy that Friday found its way to us once again this week? I know I sure am! It hasn't been a particularly hard week at work, but the hubby and me have had the creepin' crud for over a week now and we are both just exhausted from all the coughing and whatnot. So bring on the weekend where I can lounge around in my jammies or stay in bed all day if that's what I need to do... Fri, 4 Oct 2013 07:34:31 EST October 1, 2013 - Day 112 - A Life Worth Living http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5501860 Hello my favorite Sparkers! How are you all this evening? Excellent? Excellent! <BR> <BR> Let me start by saying, "sorry" for any confusion my last blog might have caused. My garage sale was Friday and Saturday - not Saturday/Sunday. Yeah, just another "senior" moment for Karen! Ugh! And for those of you who concluded I would not be blogging anymore? My apologies for not being clear. I will be blogging - some - I just won't be doing the "gratitude" posts anymore. <BR> <BR> So I wa... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 21:35:35 EST September 29, 2013 - Day 111 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5499437 Happy Sunday to all my Spark Friends. And it IS a happy Sunday, right? Did you remember to be good to yourself today? If not. . . there's still time! It's never too late to be good to yourself and make it a happy day! <BR> <BR> Thank you for all the well wishes regarding my garage sale. Saturday was beautiful! Sun was shining, birds were singing, temperature was in the 70's and 80's, we had lots of customers and sold lots of treasures! Sunday. . .well. . . maybe it's best not to talk a... Sun, 29 Sep 2013 16:26:27 EST September 26, 2013 - Day 110 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 29 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5496554 Good morning sparkly folks! Happy Thursday. I just wanted to let you all know that I'm going to be MIA for a few days. Got the big garage sale happening Friday and Saturday. My mom is coming to town today to help me get everything priced and set up for tomorrow morning. Yeah for moms! I surely couldn't do this without her help. . . really wouldn't even want to cause garage sales for one are. . . well. . . frankly. . . BORING! And! With my memory deficits, I fear I might forget to show... Thu, 26 Sep 2013 06:16:22 EST September 24, 2013 - Day 109 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 28 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5494538 Good morning fellow Sparkers. Another beautiful fall day is upon us and I, for one, am totally diggin' it! Daytime highs in the 70's, night time lows in the 50's. Perfect! Absolutely perfect! <BR> <BR> I'm sitting here thinking all these totally random thoughts. So how 'bout we just make this Random Thoughts Tuesday? I'll give ya mine and then you give me yours. Ok? Ok! <BR> <BR> Random Thought Number One: <BR> <BR> Came home from work last night and found my front door standing wi... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 07:24:36 EST September 22, 2013 - Day 108 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 27 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5493010 Another beautiful fall day in Kansas City. Sun is shining, birds are still singing and it's a perfect 70 something outside. My sincere hope is that it is beautiful where you are too. Remember, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so it can be found even in the rain, the snow, the humidity, the heat and everything in between. <em>67</em> <em>27</em> <em>444</em> <em>198</em> <em>259</em> <BR> <BR> Yesterday was quite the productive day! I enjoyed a late breakfast <em>49... Sun, 22 Sep 2013 17:51:21 EST September 21, 2013 - Day 107 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 26 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5491781 Good morning Spark Friends. And it IS a good morning! Sun is up, birds are singing, it's a perfect 59 degrees in KC, I'm alive, you're alive and today we get another opportunity to do it all again! What more could we ask for? <BR> <BR> Not long ago, I watched a series of what I can only describe as these "out there", "new age-y", "self-helpish" type videos. The message itself was not so bizarre; rather, it was the messenger that was. . .well. . . frankly. . . a bit "off" somehow. While ... Sat, 21 Sep 2013 09:26:49 EST September 20, 2013 - Day 106 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 25 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5490827 I was reading a spark friend's blog the other day (I do that alot ya know! <em>334</em> ) and she got me to thinking about all the different ways we go about weight loss. Personally, I am of the opinion that the only way to make permanent, lasting change in the weight loss department is: eat less, exercise more. But that's just me. And I ain't about forcing my opinion on anyone else. Live and let live and all that jazz! <BR> <BR> Anyhoo . . . <BR> <BR> I don't rightly know how many s... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 06:52:15 EST September 18, 2013 - Day 105 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 24 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5488980 Thank you all for your considerate, thoughtful comments to my mama-drama from yesterday. You want to know the coolest part? It would have been so easy for each of you to just sit back and shake your collective heads in agreement, in support of the anger I felt. You all could have justified me and my evil thoughts. But you didn't! Instead, you tried to show me another way. A way where anger doesn't take over, a way where solution actually exists, a healthy way to go through what I was go... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 07:27:14 EST September 17, 2013 - Day 104 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 23 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5487961 I am so angry right now I could just scream!!! But I can't because it's 6:00 a.m. and I don't want to wake the neighbors who would likely call the cops who would likely have me committed to a mental institution who would likely petition for guardianship and keep me on lock down for the rest of my life! Today I am grateful that I'm not going to scream, I'm not going to wake the neighbors, I'm not going to encounter the police or end up in a psych ward! <BR> <BR> I am, however, going to tell... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 07:27:08 EST September 15, 2013, Day 103 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 22 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5486410 OMG, OMG, OMG! I was just over reading a new spark friend's blog entries and right there in black and white was an answer. . .THE answer. . . I have long been searching for! <BR> <BR> For years - like 40 of them give or take a few - I have dieted, dieted, dieted. I have tried Weight Watchers, Nutri-System, Slim4Life, Atkins, South Beach, The Grapefruit Diet, SlimFast, The LA Weight Loss Diet, The Biggest Loser diet, Susan Powter's "Stop the Insanity" program, Richard Simmons' "Dancing to... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 17:27:25 EST September 14, 2013 - Day 102 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5485180 Recently, a Spark friend blogged about when and how she became overweight and she explained how she went about setting a weight loss goal for herself. Reading her blog got me to thinking. . . <BR> <BR> When did weight gain happen to you? <BR> <BR> Have you always been overweight . . . <BR> <BR> or did something happen at some point in your life that caused the weight gain? <BR> <BR> Why might this be important? Well. . . if one has always been overweight, will they recognize "healthy"... Sat, 14 Sep 2013 08:52:41 EST September 12, 2013 - Day 101 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 20 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5483388 Why is it do you suppose that we can learn new things or know things intuitively but fail or refuse to act on that knowledge or knowing? I ask because I'm really stumped. I feel stuck somehow. . . unable or unwilling to take even one step forward in the right direction. <BR> <BR> Here's the deal. . . I know how to lose weight. . . how to get fit. . . how to achieve good health. I really do. I've known for years! I've read all the experts' books - or 95% of them anyway - I've applied the... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 07:04:01 EST September 11, 2013 - Day 100 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 19 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5482986 9/11. A hard day for many Americans. So much I could write. . . say. . . about that day . . . 12 years ago. But it wouldn't change anything. So I'll save it. <BR> <BR> A little happiness is in order I think. <BR> <BR> The link below should take you to YouTube . . . to The Staves . . . singing "Mexico". It is beautiful. They are beautiful. Their harmonies? Well, they just leave me breathless, speechless and happy. Yeah, happy. . . as in feel good all over! I'm grateful that music ... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 18:44:04 EST September 10, 2013 - Day 99 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 18 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5481334 Some days I wake up all inspired and full of energy and ready, willing and able to take on my day. Some days I just wake up. Today? I just woke up. <BR> <BR> My mind feels like mush, I don't have anything inspiring, uplifting or encouraging to say. <BR> <BR> I am grateful. I know that I am. But honestly, this morning it would take more effort than I have to think through what I am thankful for and then blog about it. <BR> <BR> Wait. Wait. Wait one sec. Something just occurred to me... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 07:23:38 EST September 9, 2013 - Day 98 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 17 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5480228 Several months ago, a funk set in. I don't know why it happened exactly, it just did. Through the funk, I was able to continue doing some things well or well enough. Other things, however, didn't get done at all. Like my house. My housework. <BR> <BR> I think I was born with "clean" and "orderly" in my blood. If not, my mother taught me about the importance of such things early enough in life that they became ingrained somehow. Where my home was concerned, I was anal. Everything h... Mon, 9 Sep 2013 07:19:47 EST September 8, 2013 - Day 97 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 16 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5479294 Sixteen days ago I started these gratitude blogs. My goal was to blog every day for 30 days about something I'm grateful for. Seems I missed the mark a time or two. Sorry about that. <BR> <BR> Whether I remembered to say it or not, I am and have been grateful - daily - for many, many things. Grateful for things which may seem obvious. . . a job, a home, a loving husband, family, friends, my health. Obvious or not, I don't want to appear ungrateful. So let me correct that now. I am BEY... Sun, 8 Sep 2013 09:08:12 EST September 7, 2013 - Day 96 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5478430 Yesterday one of my spark sister's blogged about commitment. How committed are we to our programs? Are we eating in line with that which we committed to some days, months or years ago? Are our exercise habits or routines reflective of the commitment we made to ourselves when our journey first began? Hmm. Very good questions! <BR> <BR> Truth time. . . <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a day like any other day. I was up at 4:00 a.m. something. I sparked, I facebooked, I emailed, I showered, I ha... Sat, 7 Sep 2013 09:01:23 EST September 6, 2013 - Day 95 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477477 Good morning Sparkers! It's Friday and I'm doing the "happy" dance . . . at least in my mind! <BR> <BR> Speaking of mind. . . I think I've blogged about this before, but it's worth repeating I think. . . <BR> <BR> "Thoughts, , , <BR> <BR> become feelings. . . <BR> <BR> which lead to actions." <BR> <BR> Or something like that. <BR> <BR> A very wise therapist shared that with me once many years ago. Actually, over the years, she said so many insightful things that I should have taken ... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 07:34:55 EST September 5, 2013 - Day 94 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5476456 Where is your "happy" place? Is it a place inside or outside of you? Is it an actual place? Maybe it's in the company of another person. Or hanging out with the family pet. Or a hot spot in the center of your mind where dreams and goals come true instantly! Maybe geography has nothing to do with it. But you have one, right? You have a place that somehow just allows happiness to spill out all over your being. Right? <BR> <BR> I had about a gazillion upsets yesterday. I argued and s... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 07:33:29 EST September 4, 2013, Day 93 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5475364 Have you ever stopped to consider how much money the "diet" industry has made off folks like you and me? Everything from books to DVDs to exercise gizmos and gadgets to herbs and "special" vitamins to pre-packaged meals and shakes and other alien (ahum, cough, cough) "food" sources to hypnosis to psychiatry to therapy to special meetings that only "paid" members can attend to fat farms to . . . what am I forgetting? Have I left anything out? How much? Is it millions? Billions? Trillions... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 06:59:05 EST September 3, 2013 - Day 92 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day 11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5474263 Have you heard? 64 year old Diana Nyad swam 110 miles from Cuba to Florida, accomplishing a goal that had eluded her on four previous attempts. 64. You saw that, right? 64 years old! 110 miles! She didn't make it the first time. She didn't make it the second time. She didn't make it the third or fourth time, when she was younger, stronger, body more resilient. Nope! But she didn't quit. She didn't give up. She did it one more time. A 5th time. And she did it! Which convinces me ... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 07:25:32 EST August 30, 2013 - Day 91 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day Ten http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5470547 Good morning fellow Sparkers and happy, happy Friday! Woo Hoo! Thought it might never get here!!! But it did. . . and I am grateful! <BR> <BR> To celebrate the 3 day weekend, me and the hubby are headed south for some camping, fishing, hiking, biking, swimming, reading, resting and relaxing! This is probably the last time this year, which saddens me a bit cause I do love it so. But! I'm not thinking about what I won't have after this weekend. Instead, my focus is on what I have right... Fri, 30 Aug 2013 06:47:40 EST August 29, 2013 - Day 90 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day Nine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5469587 Believe! Be brave! Be you!!! <BR> <BR> When was the last time you let yourself dream? Really dream? Big? Far off? Grand ideas? Seemingly impossible? <BR> <BR> When was the last time you were brave? Scared to death on the inside; stepping out in faith on the outside? <BR> <BR> When was the last time you. . . were you? <BR> <BR> I don't know about others, but I seem to have lost my youthful dreams somewhere along the way. "Brave" became a word on a page. . . it had no meaning for m... Thu, 29 Aug 2013 07:17:00 EST August 28, 2013, Day 89 - A Life Worth Living - I am Grateful - Day Eight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5468589 Have you ever been so full of angst, anxiety, fear, dread, worry, anger, ______(you fill in the blank), that you snapped? Ever let yourself go to that place where you did or said something "in the moment" to ease that feeling inside, but then immediately realized you were wrong? Ever caused someone else to suffer because you just "had" to get "it" out? <BR> <BR> Ever thought about what the world would be like if forgiveness didn't exist? Yeah, let's just let that one linger for a minute... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 07:28:42 EST August 27, 2013 - Day 88 - A Life Worth Living - I Am Grateful - Day Seven http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5467518 Ok, so check it out. . . about this same time last week, I had an alien take up residency in my body and try to kill me. For 4 full days and nights, I was so sick, I wanted to die! No, I'm not kidding! It was THAT bad. But then, this awesome body of mine did something. It kicked that alien's butt to the curb! It reached homeostasis somehow. While I was writhing in pain and sickness and nothing good, my body was doing its thing, fighting a mighty battle, working around the clock to make... Tue, 27 Aug 2013 06:59:29 EST August 26, 2013, Day 87 - A Life Worth Living. . . I Am Grateful - Day Six http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5466437 Almost two years ago, my husband and me purchased a gym membership. It's a month-to-month contract; meaning we can cancel at any time without penalty. The cost? $25.00 per month. . . for both of us to have unlimited access. I think we've used it twice. Pathetic, right? I can't tell you how many times I thought about canceling. Such a waste of money! <BR> <BR> But I didn't. <BR> <BR> And I'm glad. <BR> <BR> Saturday, I went to the gym and worked out for an hour and a half. 90 full m... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 07:02:03 EST August 25, 2013 - Day 86 - A Life Worth Living. . . I Am Grateful - Day Five http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5465879 When was the last time you stood under the shower-head and really felt the warmth of the water? Did you notice the force? Was it gentle or pulsating? Did it relax or rejuvenate? As your skin absorbed each drop, were you the oasis in the desert noticing each tiny drop or were you more like a mighty ocean. . . water so abundant. . . you hardly noticed? <BR> <BR> Recently, God, the Universe, or some other force in nature - so large, so powerful - that my mind is not and likely never will ... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 15:52:58 EST August 24. 2013, Day 85 - A Life Worth Living. . . I Am Grateful - Day Four http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5464668 I am the result of my choices. No, no, I'm not talking about my eye color or height or who my parents are or the date I was born. Nothing like that. Some things I don't choose. I get that. But! For all the things that really matter? Like morals and values and attitude and opinions and thoughts and feelings and actions. . . yeah, there it is!!!! ACTIONS!!!! - I AM THE RESULT OF MY CHOICES! Quite recently, I forgot that. I forgot that my life is what it is because of choices I made. . ... Sat, 24 Aug 2013 08:10:19 EST August 23, 2013, Day 84 - A Life Worth Living. . . I Am Grateful - Day Three http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5463740 Good morning friends near and far. As you may or may not know, I have been MIA since August 19th. The reason? An alien landed, took over my entire body and tried to kill me. He lost! I'm back! Feeling better, stronger and more determined than ever! <BR> <BR> Thank you so much for all the goodies and uplifting messages. I read every single one of them this morning. To say that I was moved and touched in ways I've never felt before? Yeah, that doesn't come close to describing how I re... Fri, 23 Aug 2013 07:17:20 EST August 19, 2013, Day 80 - A Life Worth Living. . .I Am Grateful - Day Two http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5459525 While this might seem obvious, I'm gonna say it anyway. . . cause, frankly, if I can't show gratitude for the small - obvious stuff, how can I ever be grateful for the big - not so obvious stuff? With that said, I am grateful for my husband, my family, my job and my health. I woke up again this morning. Breathing. Heart beating. Mind a bit foggy but alert enough to know that I had lived to see another day. I am grateful. For any mistakes I have made, I get another chance today to get i... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 06:56:39 EST August 18, 2013, Day 79 - A Life Worth Living. . . A Sunday full of Gratitude! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5458838 For those of you who read my blog yesterday and took the time to comment. . . thank you! I got so much out of reading your thoughts and pondering what each of you had to say. Best of all? The responses were real and daring and honest and personal and from the heart. Healing is happening in my heart largely because of all of you. <BR> <BR> Sunday mornings are my fav. I can stay in bed late as I want. I can get up early - watch the sun come up - and then climb back into bed and take a na... Sun, 18 Aug 2013 12:03:38 EST August 17, 2013, Day 78 - A Life Worth Living. . . Pain Sucks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5457851 At the risk of having the SP language cops show up and berate me for being "foul" in my blog title, I'm going to live on the edge a little - be daring, be outspoken, be brave, be honest and write what's on my mind. No more sunshine and kittens and rose petals and smiles for this girl. Not today anyway. Today I want to address "pain", because my sense is there's an abundance of it out there though it's not always openly acknowledged or easily talked about. Oh sure, I read the occasional "... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 08:24:31 EST August 16, 2013, Day 77 - A Life Worth Living. . . A Life Filled with Fun! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5456833 It's Friday! In an effort to keep from "wishing my life away", I'm not going to say "finally", which is what the old me would typically say when Friday rolled around. But! I am going to be very, very honest and say, I couldn't be any happier about it! How 'bout you? Do you sort of "live for Fridays" too? <BR> <BR> When I think of Friday, I think end of work week, beginning of weekend, time to have "fun". What is fun? I don't know about all of you, but for me fun is all about letting g... Fri, 16 Aug 2013 06:29:33 EST August 15, 2013, Day 76 - A Life Worth Living . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5455779 Yesterday, I challenged all of us to reply, "I am beautiful" when asked by another how we were or how we were doing. I'm happy to report that I was actually able to do it. I didn't think I could, I have to be honest about that. You see my self-esteem lives in the toilet much of the time, and it cripples me. But yesterday was different. Yesterday I was determined somehow. I challenged all of you to try it and I made a commitment that I would try it too. So I did. I was in a group meeti... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 07:22:48 EST August 14, 2013, Day 75 - A Life Worth Living. . .She Said What? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5454710 Yesterday morning I was sitting at work with . . . frankly. . . not much going on. That doesn't happen often, but when it does, I'm usually doomed. Boredom sits in, I find my mind wondering all over hell's half acre looking for mischief, and then when I just can't sit there any longer doing a whole lotta nothing, I get up and go find some trouble. I held out yesterday for as long as I could and then 11:30 hit and I was up and at em. I took a stroll up to the reception area in search of su... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 06:57:01 EST August 13, 2013, Day 74 - A Life Worth Living. . . Unique Us! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5453599 Shhh. Be still. Be very, very still. Hear it? Can you hear your breath? In, out, in, out. How 'bout your heart? Can you hear or feel it beating? Pa pum pa pum pa pum. That breath? That heart beat? Means you are alive! But it means something else I think. It means YOU, ME, HER, HIM, THEY are alive - and in that way - we are all the same. We all have hearts and lungs and minds and skin and bone and eyes and ears. . .but at the same time, we're all different. No two of us is the s... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 07:06:33 EST August 12, 2013, Day 73 - A Life Worth Living . . . Acceptance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5452465 What is “acceptance”? Different things for different folks I suppose, depending on who is involved and what the circumstances are. But I found a definition - or part of a definition - online yesterday that I rather like. It “fits” for my purposes here today, so I’d like to share. <BR> <BR> Acceptance is. . . <BR> <BR> What “is” when we stop struggling to resist. Happy is happy. Sad is sad. Pain is pain. Funny is funny. Hungry is hungry. Full is full. Joy is joy. Fear is fear. D... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 06:59:27 EST August 11, 2013, Day 72 - A Life Worth Living. . . Say It! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5451509 Is there something you've been meaning to say, but haven't? Is something building up inside of you, eating at you, tugging at you, nagging at you? Our minds and mouths and vocal chords are connected for a reason. Like any other body part, if we don't tend to them, exercise them, use them, we might well lose them! Today is all about. . . Just Say It! <BR> <BR> My husband caught me completely off guard yesterday afternoon. We had spent a quiet, lovely day together just lounging around th... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 08:03:10 EST August 10, 2013, Day 71 - A Life Worth Living . . . The Power of YOU http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5450731 Do you know who can. . . <BR> <BR> Climb any mountain? <BR> <BR> Swim any ocean? <BR> <BR> Leap tall buildings in a single bound? <BR> <BR> Smile a smile that will light up the world? <BR> <BR> Survive 40 days and 40 nights in a desert with no food? <BR> <BR> Create masterpieces of art, music, literature, dance and theater? <BR> <BR> Fly to the moon and back again? <BR> <BR> Eradicate poverty and global hunger? <BR> <BR> Put an end to all wars? <BR> <BR> Restore peace and harmony i... Sat, 10 Aug 2013 10:18:42 EST August 9, 2013, Day 70 - A Life Worth Living . . . I Did It and. . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5449595 today, I'm gonna do it again! What's that, you might ask? Why, thinking of you, that's what! If you read my blog entry from yesterday, then you know I vowed to think of each of you at 10, noon and 3. Welp, I did it! And you know what? It was amazing! Instead of being stuck in my day-to-day rut of a routine, my mind lit up with thoughts of. . . <BR> <BR> sipping coffee and tea with friends on the veranda; visiting far away places like Australia, New Zealand, the UK, and Canada . . .he... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 07:20:21 EST August 8, 2013, Day 69 - A Life Worth Living . . . Creature of Habit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5448409 That's me! Totally! Creature of habit! Oh, sure, I love to say that I'm all flexible and bendy and go-with-the-flow. It's actually real easy to say. Problem is, it's total nonsense. I am NOT flexible, and the sooner I get honest about that, the better. <BR> <BR> This diet thing? This exercise thing? This sleeping 7-8 hours a night, drinking 8 glasses of water, journaling, blogging, weighing and measuring? Not so easily done. At least for me. And when I stop and consider the "why... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 06:13:21 EST August 7, 2013, Day 68 - A Life Worth Living . . . A Gift http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5447225 Yesterday was another "ugh, not so great" day. When my adult eyes saw the candy bowl and the homemade chocolate/carmel loaded with chocolate chip brownies one of my co-workers brought in to celebrate another co-worker's birthday, my inner child said, "MINE". And "MINE" it was. Ugh. <BR> <BR> I woke up this morning at 2:30 a.m. Just could not sleep! Probably all that sugar coursing through my system. Anyway, I logged on to Facebook and SparkPeople - my typical morning ritual, and I foun... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 06:00:56 EST August 6, 2013, Day 67 - A Life Worth Living - and then Monday happened. . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5446039 I woke up Monday morning feeling good, feeling empowered, because Sunday had been a success in terms of goals met. And then? Right after writing my blog entry, something happened. . . on the inside. I don't know what exactly, but something changed. Suddenly and without warning, I felt all nostalgic, sad, melancholy. Yeah, that's it - I felt melancholy. Saturday I watched a street performer play his rendition of Bob Dylan's "Lay Lady Lay" (great song - YouTube it if you aren't familiar w... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 06:34:28 EST August 5, 2013, Day 66 - A Life Worth Living . . . It was Raining on the Outside, but . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5444871 not on the inside! Yesterday was a rainy, gloomy, overcast kind of day in Kansas City. Inside, however, the sun was shining bright! I spent my morning purging on SP (see blog entry from 8/4/13), and then I got busy working on my "goals". I ate on plan, I exercised on plan, I drank enough water, I meditated, I slept 8 full hours last night, I wrote a blog entry, I journaled everything I ate and I said a prayer of gratitude. Yeah me! Initially, my plan had been to go to a local park and ... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 07:06:12 EST August 4, 2013, Day 65 - A Life Worth Living. . . I Am Who I Am http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5444091 Yesterday morning I read a blog entry from another sparker who has been a member for a good long while. I cannot recall her name right now, but she was one of the "featured" bloggers, so maybe you read her entry too. It was about "just being me". She wrote about the way others treated her poorly -just for being who she was. She wrote about the way that treatment negatively effected her for many years. And then she wrote about how she is who she is and how that acceptance of herself led h... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 11:13:34 EST August 3, 2013, Day 64 - A Life Worth Living . . . Why they're called "Goals" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5442966 According to Dictionary.com, "Goal" is defined (as it applies here) as follows: "the result or achievement toward which effort is directed; aim; end." So glad I took time to look it up! <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I set 10 goals for myself, 7 of which were day-to-day goals. The other 3 were once a week or once a month goals. Of those 7 daily goals, I managed to meet only 3 of them. I woke up this morning feeling not-so-good about myself because I felt like I had failed. First day out, and I t... Sat, 3 Aug 2013 06:59:34 EST August 2, 2013, Day 63 - A Life Worth Living . . . Keep It Simple Stupid (KISS) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5441869 I read that somewhere years ago. At the time, I thought, "yeah, keep it simple, stupid", I love it, I'll never forget it, wonderful words to live by." And then? I forgot it. I do that alot. Read something or hear something that's like a real "aha" moment, and then a day or two later, I forget it. I guess there's just so much room in my brain and things I'm not living, I tend to forget. Anyway, yesterday, I was reading a book and there it was again. . . "Keep It Simple, Stupid." Years ... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 06:52:01 EST