KAREN91's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KAREN91 KAREN91's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 40 things about me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6424956 1. Do you like blue cheese? I don't know. I never tried it. <BR> <BR> 2. Have you ever smoked cigarettes? <BR> Yes, I quit 21 years ago. Quitting was the best thing I ever did. Starting was one of the dumbest things I ever did. <BR> <BR> 3. Do you own a gun? <BR> No Guns scare me. I won't let my husband get one and I'm not usually bossy with him. <BR> <BR> 4. What is your favourite sweet drink? <BR> soda pop but I don't drink it any more. <BR> <BR> 5. Do you hold any diploma(s), de... Wed, 25 Oct 2017 13:19:16 EST In memory of My stepdaughter Karen May 23, 1978 - January 29, 2017 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6310911 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5e3c8f95-bd43-4922-9db5-c38a26d3f074.jpg"> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/3abe68fe-f860-448c-adb1-0b0cd4cf29ab.jpg"> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/08466ce9-e8e8-4f56-9e36-69b58c84fab8.jpg"> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ec69fa15-32a9-4723-a6e4-f333bb733012.jpg"> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/37594374-db2f-4847-8a77-2ff12ad3ed28.jpg"> all my girls together! Sat, 4 Feb 2017 21:45:27 EST Missing my step daughter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6307462 Today while I was at work I was told my husband was on call park for me. I picked up right away because he rarely calls me at work. He was crying which he very rarely does. He told me his daughter Karen had passed away. As my mind flooded with memories of her, I started to cry too. I remember when I first started dating her dad and he told me his daughter was also named Karen. When I married her dad our first and last name was the same. We used to joke around about it. I remembered when she v... Sun, 29 Jan 2017 20:35:00 EST Big Decision to make http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6182329 I'm thinking about accepting different work hours at my job. Right now I work 3 8 hour shifts every Friday, Saturday and Sunday 7-3:30. With my job you sometimes get out a hour late depending on the day. I have been thinking about asking for the hours my friend Betty is leaving. Her hours are 7-7:30- 3 12 hour shifts a week but she only works one weekend a month. I would make about the same amount because you get paid more per hour for weekend only package. I would get paid time off and sick ... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 21:25:57 EST Clinical Portfolio http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6173265 I have been working on my portfolio for clinical ladder. I agreed to do it last fall. I only have a couple of weeks left before its done. Its a three ring binder with different categories marked off with tabbed sections with typed labels. The nursing supervisors will decide if what I give them is enough to promote me to clinical nurse level 3. I belong to a nursing committee. I get a point for writing about it and putting it in my portfolio. I give 5 examples of critical nursing intervention... Mon, 30 May 2016 19:22:18 EST Last Sunday Mothers Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6160076 I had a great birthday/ Mothers day last Sunday. My husband gave me sentimental cards, many of them and he made me breakfast and supper that day. He also gave me Roses and he got me a large birthday cake. My son Nick got me a vase of flowers and he came over to see me. My son Jess came by with his family. He gave me 2 cards and a vase of flowers. My son Chris gave me a vase of Roses and he came over too. My son Kyle came over after calling and he gave me a card. My daughter Elizabeth came ove... Tue, 10 May 2016 11:52:43 EST Water heater broken No water! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6118030 Last night I went to take a shower and the water was cold! My husband thought the pilot light was out on the water heater but it was worse then that. All the water had to be turned off because otherwise the broken water heater will leak all over the basement. My husband is going to buy another water heater from Menards. My girls went to a friends house to shower. I recently had surgery so I am home alone with no water. I know I'm spoiled because I feel very sorry for myself with no running wa... Sun, 13 Mar 2016 10:11:07 EST Knitting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6047331 My daughter Melissa (shes 16) is making baby blankets with me. She is a better knitter then I am even though I taught her how to knit. She can do complicated patterns like doing a lot of different directions in the same stitch. She's amazing anyway, works part time at the nursing home and she gets straight As in school. Her older sister Elizabeth has a lot of problems. Elizabeth knits but not very well and not very often. My youngest daughter Cassie wants us to teach her to knit. She is 12. I... Mon, 14 Dec 2015 11:08:40 EST Good and Bad in my life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6017540 Most of the good in my life these days comes from work. I feel like I really help people at work both co workers and patients. I often feel like a failure at home. My oldest daughter has been going through depression. Shes refusing therapy. Shes 18 so I can't make her do anything but shes a senior in high school. She doesn't come home at night anymore. She spends the night at various boys houses. I think shes trying to get self worth from boyfriends. We used to be close but she won't talk to ... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 11:53:56 EST I like filling these out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6005010 This is a copy and paste, I got the idea from a spark friend Claireinparis who got it from one of her spark friends. I like filling these out so I did it! Where is your cell phone? In my purse. Spouse? Yes, here watching tv. We have been married for 24 years and together for 30 years. Your hair? Shoulder length, layered mostly brown with gray streaks. Its never been colored yet. Your mother? Passed away from cancer March 30th 2014 Your father? Passed away Dec 14, 1978, I was only 16 when I ... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 16:20:59 EST Snowstorm last weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5868003 I'm posting pictures of our yard after the big snowstorm for my spark friend snowyoga. She loves snow but doesn't have any. Snow is pretty if you don't have to drive in it. I had to be at the hospital to work yesterday when it was snowing and blowing so much you couldn't see the road. Downtown we have huge piles of snow from all the plowing of the streets. The kids school is closed today because of the snow. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2107282817.jpg"> <img src="... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 15:12:12 EST Almost 4 weeks post op and addicted to walking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862515 I had my surgery 4 weeks ago tomorrow. I see the Dr and the nutritionist tomorrow. I think they will start me on soft foods tomorrow. I have walked outside every day this week. I got 10,000 or more daily steps on my fitbit most of this week. Today I decided I wouldn't go on my walk. I would walk on my treadmill. I had good reasons. It snowed today and it was colder then it was all week. This afternoon my daughter Elizabeth was going to walk to the library. I bundled up and went with her becau... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 21:51:23 EST One week post op http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846964 I'm feeling more like myself again. I haven't needed any medicine for pain or nausea since saturday. I decided to take 4 weeks off work. I'm never hungry but I can get my fluids in without a problem. Its hard to get my protein in. Its too cold here to walk outside and we are supposed to get 7 inches of snow tonight. I will walk on my treadmill even though its boring because I don't like to walk in the cold and snow. I'm going to have to work back up to my previous walking. I went back to Dr ... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 19:42:09 EST Gastric sleeve surgery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830563 I'm trying to think of the best way to tell my nurse manager and my co workers at the hospital about my surgery. My nurse manager knows I'm having surgery but she doesn't know what I'm having done. I don't really want to deal with negative reactions but I think it would be impossible to keep this a secret. I have worked at the hospital for 23 years and almost everyone knows me. The bariatric surgery department just started at Mercy and I will be the first one done there. My hospital stay will... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 23:16:51 EST R.I.P Sunshine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818464 Rest In Peace beautiful baby girl. I can't believe you won't be there when the rest of my kids graduate. I can't believe you'll no longer wait at the bottom of the stairs every morning and won't let us pass till you lick us a lot. I'm going to miss you begging for food and the funny memories of you stealing food, like that entire pizza and you ate it in like 3 min. ( it was a large and everything ) and when my daughter went in the family room and found you laying on the couch and you jumped ... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 18:03:54 EST My dog Sunshine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5815796 About 10-12 days ago we noticed that Sunshine was laying around refusing to eat much. Sunshine is 5 years old. We have had her since she was 8 weeks old. She has always been healthy, playful, and ate everything. Once she ate my sons pizza when he left the room for 5 minutes. So she was acting very unusual for her. A week ago yesterday we took her to the vet. She has kidney failure. She was in the pet hospital with IV fluids and antibiotics but it didn't help. Shes home now but shes not eating... Wed, 12 Nov 2014 21:39:23 EST Going out to eat at Golden Corral Help! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5771195 I have been eating right lately. I have been eating according to my diet plan. We have family here from out of town. We are taking her out to eat at Golden corral. The whole family is looking forward to it. I want to track my food and stay on plan while I'm there. Any advice would be appreciated! Mon, 1 Sep 2014 13:41:39 EST First appointment was yesterday with weight loss surgery DR http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749700 I went to the appointment yesterday. I met with the Dr and the dietician. I'm learning a lot from the process. I have started a more healthy diet and better eating habits. The Dr thinks gastric sleeve would be better then gastric bypass. Less invasive and less time on the OR table would be better for my heart. He thinks weight loss would improve my heart, sleep apnea, and joint pain. He wants me to ask my cardiologist for clearance for surgery. I'm going to ask him at my regular appt next we... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 13:41:51 EST Thinking about weight loss options-surgery ? If so sleeve or bypass? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5747744 I made several healthy choices today. I had 5 glasses of water instead of drinking diet pop. I went on a walk with my daughter after lunch. If I could make healthy choices all the time I wouldn't need surgery. If I did go through the process and have surgery, I'm leaning toward sleeve because it allows your digestion to be more normal and able to digest nutrients. It just makes your stomach smaller and takes away the part of your stomach that produces hunger hormones. The gastric bypass is m... Sun, 27 Jul 2014 20:57:59 EST Excited about new job but weight gain has me considering bariatric surgery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744585 I learned even more about dementia and I am looking forward to using my new knowledge on the job. We learned that verbal is the least effective way to communicate with dementia patients. We should greet them with a smile, shake their hand or hold their hand before we talk to them. As dementia progresses and they lose their words they will communicate with their behavior. We need to look for unmet needs when we see wandering, restlessness, angry outbursts, or yelling out in dementia. I lik... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 00:00:55 EST Depressed and trying to make a come back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720640 I have not made a blog entry or done very much posting for awhile. I have been very depressed and stressed. I have gained weight. I still walk and keep adding steps with fitbit but I eat too much. Its been hard for me since my oldest son is still not speaking to me, I lost my mom to cancer, two of my teens are having problems, finances have been hard because of reduced hours at work due to low patient census. My son Kyle was supposed to graduate last May. Because hes lazy and unmotivated he... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 12:14:02 EST Remembering Mom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660240 My mom passed away at 3:45 AM Eight of my nine children, my husband, and I were with her most of the night. Here are some pictures to remember her last days. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/0/l901816634.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1903859082.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1227989290.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/2/l623166407.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople... Sun, 30 Mar 2014 19:01:43 EST Pictures of mom and family http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5638309 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1148294574.jpg"> <BR> Mom, me, and aunt Jean <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1325995430.jpg"> <BR> mom and aunt Jean Mon, 3 Mar 2014 08:17:43 EST Moms prognosis http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637223 I'm spending a lot of time at the hospital with Mom. Dr says her liver is mostly cancer , her lung has a spot that might be cancer also but we are not going to biopsy it. We are going to get hospice involved and keep her as comfortable as possible until the end. The Dr doesn't think it will be long just months. The Dr and I told her about her cancer this am. She said "I'm going home to heaven soon" We spent most of the day together. My daughter Melissa and I sat in her room visiting with mom ... Sat, 1 Mar 2014 21:52:05 EST Bad news about mom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5636330 I went to work today. My mom is a patient on my floor. I helped her get set up for breakfast then I left to take care of my patients. Her Dr stopped me in the hall before I saw my first patient. He told me that my mom has metastatic liver cancer. She had breast cancer 14 years ago but we thought it was over. He recommended hospice for her. I cried right there in the hallway. My nurse manager was very nice and found another nurse to take my patients. I spent the day with my mom but I haven't t... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 18:45:18 EST Stressed!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5635249 I have had a lot of stress in my life lately. Some of the ways I have dealt with my stress has caused me more stress. I have overate, spent too much money shopping, and bottled up my emotions. My mom is not doing well and her increased confusion has been one source of stress. Shes in the hospital now and I had to miss a class at work while I was taking care of her yesterday. My 18 year old son Kyle is a senior in High School. He failed 3 classes last semester and I am paying $240.00 for credi... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 12:16:27 EST I loved zumba class! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5563193 I loved dancing and moving to the music! It was fun and I didn't notice that I was working out. Everyone was very nice since I don't do much of it right yet. They said it gets easier to get it right with time and I believe them. I will go again on Monday! <em>244</em> Thu, 12 Dec 2013 22:16:19 EST Holiday weight gain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5562101 Recently in October I lost 15 pounds without really trying through more exercise and healthy eating habits. I have been eating more lately- thanksgiving, my anniversary, Christmas brunch with the Bible school ladies etc. I have gained 2 pounds back. I want to get back on track before I am back where I started. I had a healthy reasonable breakfast of 300 calories this am. I'm going to go to Zumba class tomorrow with a friend from Bible study. If I go with her I can try it free and see how I li... Wed, 11 Dec 2013 11:49:58 EST Great weekend off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5560029 I was off this weekend for my anniversary! My husband gave me a vase of Roses and a few other flowers. They were beautiful! We went out for breakfast and we went to a movie in the afternoon. We went out for dinner. Then today we went to church, I love going to church because I'm not off work on Sunday very often so its rare to go. Then tonight I went to Wiltons Christmas window walk! I took my 3 daughters and a little neighbor girl whose parents were too busy to go. The neighbor girl was 8 an... Sun, 8 Dec 2013 20:57:24 EST Terrible weekend at work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5512587 I'm supposed to work 7AM to 3:30 pm with 1/2 hour lunch Fri Sat and Sunday. Friday I had no lunch, no breaks and got off 20 minutes late. Saturday I had no lunch no breaks and got off 1 hour late. Sunday, I had no lunch, no breaks, and I got off 1 1/2 hours late. By the time I got off today my mouth was so dry from not drinking anything from 7 AM to 5 pm. Nursing management would say they encourage us to take our lunch and breaks but you can't get it all done now with no time off! Today one o... Sun, 13 Oct 2013 20:17:32 EST Back procedure tommorrow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5462587 I'm having a Radiofrequency ablation tomorrow for my back pain. I recently had 2 medial branch blocks as diagnostic procedures to see if radiofrequency ablation would help me. The medial branch block gave me short term relief from my back pain both times I had it done. This is their sign that radiofrequency ablation will most likely help, 80-85% chance that it will. The nerves in that area of my back will melt away over the course of the next few weeks after they use electrical charges on th... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 00:00:08 EST We lost Fia Too http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5437814 Fia died last night. The kitten started acting strange that day. She wouldn't walk anymore and acted like her back legs were paralyzed. She was shaking and she wouldn't eat. We donated our unopened cat food and our cat toys, cat bottles etc to the local animal shelter. Elizabeth and I visited all the animals there. We fell in love with one of the kittens and one of the puppies but we aren't ready to adopt any. Elizabeth wants to take their training class so she can volunteer there. I miss Fia... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 20:43:42 EST Fias doing well - Vote on name http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5431619 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1572253594.jpg">Fias lively, climbing all over people and his/her box, purring, snuggling up to stuffed animals and people. We are not totally sure if Fias a girl or a boy. The girls like the name Fia. The boys and their dad like the name Jitterbug because of the kittens high activity. The family wanted my spark friends opinion- Fia or Jitterbug? Wed, 24 Jul 2013 09:28:13 EST Rest in Peace Aussie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5430711 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1485119774.jpg"> We lost Aussie at 1PM. She was my son Nicks favorite. He held her when she died. We only have 1 kitten left now. I hope Fia lives. Tue, 23 Jul 2013 14:18:10 EST I miss my favorite kitten Blackout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5429612 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2059605379.jpg"> We just lost my favorite kitten Blackout. Blackout died on my chest while I was petting him. I hope I made his death more comfortable. I'm still crying as I type this. We are down to 2 kittens now. I'm so afraid that they will die too. Mon, 22 Jul 2013 16:42:57 EST We lost Lilly today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5428524 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1276158248.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1140266414.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/3/l339640020.jpg"> <BR> Lilly died this afternoon in her sleep. My daughter Elizabeth cried and blamed herself. I told all the kids that they do the best they can and its no ones fault. Its hard to raise kittens without their mom. I hope we can raise the other 3-Aussie, Blackout and Fia to be go... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 18:40:10 EST Rest in peace Bee http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5425690 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1405005730.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l122000862.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l698327363.jpg"> <BR> Bee died at 6:16 pm today. We took him to the vet to try to save him but he died anyway. We are washing all the bedding for the others in case it was a virus. The rest still seem lively. We are hoping for the best. The girls cried about Bee. Bee is with his mom now. I pray the... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 19:47:31 EST Picture of Orphan Kittens http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5423692 These are the kittens at one and two weeks old, one-eyes are open, two- eyes are closed. <BR> This is what the kids named the kittens, still not for sure names. <BR> Aussie <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1503401373.jpg"> <BR> Fia <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1557534107.jpg"> <BR> Aussie <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1757287825.jpg"> <BR> Blackout <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/1/l418682320.... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 01:10:41 EST Orphaned newborn kittens http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5410175 My cat Phoebe a stray I took in recently died today. She left behind 5 baby kittens. They will be a week old on Sat. My kids have eyedroppers, baby pet bottles, baby cat formula and plan to try to keep them alive. Phoebe was a outside cat but they brought her orphan baby kittens in the house. Any advice from cat loving spark people would be appreciated. My girls cried because they lost Phoebe I'm hoping they can keep some of the kittens alive. I don't know what happened to Phoebe, she started... Thu, 4 Jul 2013 00:12:20 EST My church is not a building http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5406733 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2076251522.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2072491139.jpg"> <BR> I went to my first church service since Last Mondays F1 tornado hit my church 11 miles away from my house in Muscatine Iowa. No one can enter the church because its walls are not on its foundation. The walls are unstable because of this. We had a service outside in a huge tent the church rented until we can get back in a building. The sign outside was o... Sun, 30 Jun 2013 21:24:55 EST Walking with my daughters http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380717 I have found a better more healthy family tradition for those drama moments with my girls. Last night my teen girls tried out for next falls cheerleading squad. One girl Melissa made the squad and my older girl Elizabeth didn't. This has been very hard on Elizabeth. When I was her age or younger is when I first turned to food in moments like these. Instead of suggesting comfort food we have been on one long talking walk last night and 2 more today. My daughter and I have become fitter, became... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 20:07:41 EST Random thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5376469 My new plan is working. I'm concentrating on what I should do- Exercise, eating fruits and vegetables, lean proteins, and healthy carbs. Drinking water and getting enough sleep without thinking about what I shouldn't eat and I lost 3 pounds on weigh in day which is today. Today is the last day of school and I'm going to a school assembly in 1 hour. My daughter Melissa is getting awards for honor roll and sports. They are also going to honor school volunteers. I volunteered at the school this ... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 09:05:27 EST My husband http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5370974 I was reading a book that encourages concentrating on the best most positive parts of our lives. I have a great husband and a wonderful marriage. Before you think that I must be a newlywed I'm not. We will be married 22 years next anniversary and we met 28 years ago this month. When I get up at 4:30 AM to go to work he gets up too even though hes retired now. He makes my breakfast, starts my car and in the winter he shovels a path to my car. He takes me to work if he thinks the roads are bad.... Tue, 28 May 2013 23:51:58 EST Depressed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5364523 I'm having a hard day today. I've been thinking about my oldest son, my first born. He hasn't had any contact with me for over 2 months now. He said I'm not his mother anymore. No one can hurt you quite like your kids. He says I've never been there for him but I raised him it's his dad that left when he was 4! He still talks to his dad and he never does this to him! Hes done this to me before, when he was 17 he didn't have any contact with me for 2 years. Now hes 32 and hes doing this again e... Wed, 22 May 2013 11:33:50 EST Protesting school board decision to eliminate German program http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5355428 I'm very nervous about tonight. I'm going to speak at a school board meeting to protest the boards decision to eliminate the German program and the teacher from next years electives. I want this decision reversed very badly or I wouldn't even consider public speaking. The closer it gets to speech time the more nervous I get. Pray that I will do a good job representing my protest against this decision. Mon, 13 May 2013 17:08:59 EST Stray cat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5332162 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/0/l708449731.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1143543214.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/2/l328209877.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is the stray cat that has been hanging around our house. My husband has taken it a few miles away twice because he doesn't want it and its come back both times. I love it and wish I could keep it. Its very sweet and purs when I hold it. It rubs against my legs when I'm out... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 20:25:26 EST Pictures of the pink throw that I knitted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5315093 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1054604978.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1134368175.jpg"> Sun, 7 Apr 2013 21:11:49 EST Making progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5311627 Back pain is improving slowly through exercise of all things. Some of the knitters challenge exercises have been good, the ones suggested by Christine aka Doveseyes have been excellent, and I have been walking more starting out slow. I've also been praying about my sons marriage and helping my daughter in law. I'm leaving the door open for my son to reconnect with me but I know I can't change him. The only thing I can change is myself and the way I react to my stressors. I'm enjoying exercisi... Thu, 4 Apr 2013 15:56:03 EST Struggling with back pain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5303633 I've been going to physical therapy and a chiropracter for my arthritis and degenerative scoliosis in my back. It hurts to walk, it hurts to get out of bed in the AM but it also hurts to sit or stay in one position too long! I'm still working and some days it hurts so much in the AM that I don't think I'll make it through the day. Ibuprophen or naproxen help but my cardiologist doesn't want me to take them. Tylenol doesn't help but they want me to try taking it three times a day. Hydrocodone ... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 19:44:08 EST Family Problems http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5285063 I've been very sad for about a week. Last thursday I found out that my son left his wife of less then a year. He told me and his wife he was leaving because her ex is a jerk and she cant move very far away from their town. It made no sense everything about her ex has been the same while they dated and during their marriage! Why leave now just before their first aniversary and when their baby is only 2 mo old. He started a business in their small town. He has abandoned the business and he has... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 10:19:24 EST