KAREN1035's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KAREN1035 KAREN1035's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 284.6 August 6, 2017 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6396867 Wow. Since my last blog, I've lost 5.8 lbs. Within that month I committed to walking for 25 minutes during my lunch hour and 1 hour of cardio after work. I did this for 3 weeks and only taking 1 day off for rest. I've noticed that I'm feeling better about myself. I do believe that it has finally "clicked" and I will reach my end goal. It may not be tomorrow, next week, next month, but I will reach it. Joining weekly fitbit challenges with co-workers has helped me tremendously. Sun, 6 Aug 2017 23:46:26 EST 290.4 lbs. July 2, 2017 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6382387 What does that number mean to me?  1. Someone who is unhappy.  2. Someone who is unmotivated.  3. Someone who is depressed.  4. Someone who is scared of weighing 300 lbs. How can I change that number?  1. Love myself for who I am.  2. Track my food, the good and the bad.  3. Be my own motivator.  4. Be more active and do things I enjoy.  5. Do not let the define who I am.  Yeatday was the first day of July and I didn't do a dang thing. Sometimes you just need those days. I did tr... Sun, 2 Jul 2017 11:27:25 EST Life happnes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5614038 I only went to the gym one day last week and I know that I should have went more than that. I know exactly what happened and I know that it shouldn't have happened. I let work get the best of me and I'm making a promise to myself that I won't let that happen again. I'm stuck in a position where I believe that the company is just "using me". We had a major transition of my position back in June/July. I was eventually hired to do another job within the company, but 10 months later I haven... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 13:06:14 EST Other weight loss programs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5597379 So I have been thinking about trying other weight loss programs. I'm talking about Weight Watchers, Herbalife, Body by Vi. I know Weight Watchers is all about counting points, just like counting calories. Herbalife and Body by Vi are basically shakes, from what I have seen. My biggest concern is that if I stop using the product, would I put the weight back on? Has anyone tried any of these? Fri, 17 Jan 2014 19:56:26 EST GET OUT OF THE WAY!!!!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5592862 I have to keep telling myself to "GET OUT OF THE WAY!" I went to the gym today and of course it was during the busy hours, right after work. I usually try to go before work or later in the evening. I wrote down some exercises to do that required weights. Well, since it was busy I didn't do those exercises. I felt that I wasn't capable, but I know I am, do to those exercises. My main thing is being over in that section of the gym when it is so busy. I'll feel like everyone is watching me... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 20:53:37 EST Chocolate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5588056 Chocolate is my worst enemy. <BR> <BR> Yesterday a friend had dropped off some homemade candy that his wife had made for the holidays. I do have to say that it was the best chocolate candy I have ever had. It was better than any store bought candy. <BR> <BR> Even though eating those candies put me over my calories for the day, I didn't beat myself up over it. I ate a smaller dinner (instead of a whole steak, only half) and I finished planning out our meal till the 19th. <BR> <BR> Thi... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 12:20:46 EST What I finally realized http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5586160 Early today I was look around on Spark People and noticed that someone had a picture of themselves, what they look like now and what they look like at their goal weight. I decided to to do the site (http://www.modelmydiet.com) to see what I look like. It fits me perfectly. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/2/l529978187.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Looking at the picture makes me realize that I am really overweight and just never seen it like others do. I sit here wondering wh... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 21:15:19 EST New Year for me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5583652 So New Year's Eve, my mom told me that there was a new weight loss competition that was going to be happening in our city. The weight loss competition starts January 6 and ends on April 2. To enter it costs $100.00, but it could be refundable. All I have to do is raise $250.00 and hit my goal and I get the money back and the rest gets donated to a local children's hospital. Who wouldn't want to do this. <BR> <BR> Today I had to go and weigh in and it wasn't pretty. My weight was 282, th... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 22:25:57 EST Just a quick update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5500329 Just to let everyone know, I haven't totally given up or left. Things this past year have just gotten away from me. We were told back in January that our jobs were being transferred to another location within the company. That meant that I had to start looking again since I was just a temp. I managed to land a job within the company doing something totally new. I was only a month into this job and they pulled me back in to help with my old department. Since then I haven't been doing my ... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 12:44:59 EST Lost count of days.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5091912 I haven't been on since the middle of August. I really don't know what happened and I don't like it. Maybe it was the fact that we got a complaint from the apartment below us saying that there was loud and heavy walking. That was on the day that my daughter and I were working out in my room. That kinda bummed me. Or maybe it was the fact that my mom said something about clothes will look better on you once you start losing weight. She didn't say it in a bad way, but it just hit the wron... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 21:34:50 EST Day 18 & 19 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5036711 Well yesterday was day 18 of my journey. I didn't get a change to go for a walk or work out, but I was able to take my girls to their open house at school. This was after I was arguing with their father about me taking them. (Long story short: he has custody, but I'm in the process of going back to court for custody) It was a good thing that I was able to take them. Neither one of them knew where their first class was. In the past year, if I went to a school function for my girls, my ex... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 22:31:43 EST Day 15 & 16 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5033844 Yesterday was my Day 15. It was Sunday and the day I take my girls back to their father. We pretty much just had a lazy day together. They hate being with him and hopefully soon all of that will change. <BR> <BR> Today is Day 16. I just realized that this is my 3rd week into my journey of creating the new me. I was doing great all day until my ex started his bull crap again. He should be informing me of things that goes on with the girls, but he thinks that I don't need to know anything.... Mon, 27 Aug 2012 21:47:10 EST Day 14 - AM http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5030456 Well so far this day has started off great. My youngest daughter fell in love with Nutella last night. She told me that she would make everyone breakfast this morning. My oldest daughter and I had a whole wheat begal with nutella while my youngest and mom had whole wheat bread with nutella. After our breakfast, I wanted to get in my walk before the day really got busy. My oldest went with me on thsi walk. I walked about 1.7 miles while she walked about 1.5. It was great to get out in th... Sat, 25 Aug 2012 11:49:28 EST Day 13 - interesting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5029899 Today was an interesting day. At work we a a meeting right a way. I didn't like that becuase it pushed everything back that I needed to get done. In the meeting we had to say how our training was going (how we were being trained and how we were training). So out of the 5 of us, I have to train 2 people and get get trained by 1. Everyone else is just getting trained by 1 person or just training 1 person. (I know it sounds confusing) Well everyone in my department knows that me and this ... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 22:30:09 EST Day 12-rest day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5028600 By the end of my work day, I was ready to come home and just relax. After work I picked up my girls for the weekend. We came home and had BLT's for dinner. I end up watching a movie with my oldest daughter, while the youngest was on the computer. It felt good to have a rest day, but I feel like I should have done something. Tomorrow is day 3 of my at home workouts from Bob Harper's site. I'm actually looking forward to it. Thu, 23 Aug 2012 22:55:47 EST Day 11 = tried http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5027008 I don't know if I have just been pushing myself too hard or what. As soon as I got home this evening, I was tired. I ate a little dinner and then took about a 20 minute nap. I knew that if I stayed in the chair I wasn't doing anything else tonight. I made myself get up and go for a 40 minute walk. Tonight is going to be an early night for me. Wed, 22 Aug 2012 21:31:11 EST Day 10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5025563 Today was just a strange day. For some odd reason I was tired at work and could not stop eating. I hate days like that. I think that when I have breakfast at home, that is when I feel that way. If I have breakfast at work, I'm fine for the rest of the day. I'm going to test this theory out for the rest of the week. <BR> <BR> Since I'm a member of Bob Harper's website, I decided to print out all of the exercises he has post for the past 21 weeks. That's 3 exercises a week. I told myself... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 22:07:58 EST Day 8 & 9 (since I missed yesterday) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5024056 So yesterday my uncle had a cookout. I haven't seen some of that side of my family in about 3 - 4 years. It was really good to see how everyone was doing. I know I totally went of schedule with all of the different food there. I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I got back on track today and worked out for about 30 minutes. I guess I have had my AH HA moment and realized that I really need to do this for myself. Mon, 20 Aug 2012 21:40:53 EST Day 7....Another great day and a great way to end the week. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5021113 Well I was busy this morning and ended it with a workout. My plans didn't go the way I wanted them. instead of staying home and being lazy, I decided to workout. Did some cardio and a little strength. I'm getting there one day at a time Sat, 18 Aug 2012 21:35:57 EST Friday!!! Day 6...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5020002 I can't believe that this week is almost over. I had a great day at work and accomplished some items that I have been putting off for a couple of weeks now. Not to mention that there was one person off, so their load got pushed on to me. Great work week in all. <BR> <BR> After work I decided to go for a walk around the complex and then on the treadmill at the fitness center and walk back home. I ended up walking on the treadmill for about 20 minutes and walking around the complex and bac... Fri, 17 Aug 2012 21:37:49 EST Day 5...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5018701 So I have about 3 alarms that I set in the morning, 5 am, 5:30 am, and 6 am. I use to get up around 5:15 am or so when my boyfriend would call me on his way to work. After we hung up, I would do one of my many workout DVD's. Since his schedule has changed, I have not been doing any DVD's in the morning. I went for about a 1.5 mile walk yesterday and felt great all day today. I'm sitting here realizing that I could have felt even better if I would have stayed up with that first alarm cloc... Thu, 16 Aug 2012 22:15:39 EST Day 4....Mirror, Mirror http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5017147 Today is day 4 of my journey. I have been pretty good about tracking my food, but I haven't been working out. I need to work on that. <BR> <BR> Today I looked in the mirror and realized that I really don't like looking at myself in the mirror. The most I'll do is look at my face. I have all the confidence in the world until I step out the front door. I really want to have that same confidence when I'm out in the world. I know that we all were brought up to not judge people by how they... Wed, 15 Aug 2012 20:29:43 EST Day 3 of the new journey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5015856 Today is day 3 of my new journey. I have tracked almost all of my food and did pretty good. I know I went over my calories but I didn't eat anything really unhealthy. I had promissed myself that I would walk either every day or every other day. So far the only day I have done that is on Sunday. I am planning on going to a longer walk tomorrow and may if the weather permits, I'll walk on my lunch hour. I know I have all the tools I need, I just have to put them to work. Tue, 14 Aug 2012 22:32:55 EST Starting over....again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5012674 I have decided to try to lose weight again. I keep telling myself that I have to, but I never make that first step to do it. Well, I told myself that I was going to write some goals and share them with everyone I know via Facebook, Twitter, and SparkPeople. Here are my current goals I want to achive: <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l106950372.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I believe that if I share them with everyone, I will actually do them this time. I have lost weight in the past ... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 21:30:14 EST Kinda struggling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4809631 I just weighed myself for the week and I've actually gained pounds. I'm not really mad about it, I figured it would happen. I haven't been keeping track of what I eat and I know that I need to. Sometimes it is just hard to do it. I looked at my calendar this afternoon and noticed that I have been working out a lot this month. (I have star stickers for days I don't smoke and smiley stickers for when I work out) I have worked out about 20 days this month and sometimes 2 times a day. Besid... Wed, 28 Mar 2012 20:56:01 EST Almost the weeked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4800541 I have decided to join the local rec center. I'm planning on going up there on Saturday with my kids, since this is my weekend to have them. When I told them about it, they got all excited about it. I plan on doing some out door activities with them. All they ever want to do it play on the computer. I figure this will be a great was to spend some quality time together. Thu, 22 Mar 2012 22:29:51 EST Where to get the best support???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4798747 I have realized that in this day in age, the best place to get support is within social media. Whether that be SparkPeople, Facebook, Twitter, Myspace, or whatever. (Which I do have a Facebook page and a Twitter acount) Yes I have family and friends, but you can always use more. I believe that it is better to have someone in your corner that is or has gone threw the same things as you. <BR> <BR> Right now I am getting healthy on my own. Yes my mom is here to help with the food, but I need... Wed, 21 Mar 2012 21:00:49 EST It's about me...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4795831 About 2 years ago i decided that I was going to drop the pounds. Well it lasted for about 5 months and I have put every pound back on. I thought back then that if I did lose the weight ,that it would help me in other areas of my life and with the people in my life. Boy was I wrong. It has taken me 2 years to realize that I have to want it for myself, not for anyone else. <BR> <BR> I recently quit smoking and today is the beginning of week 10. I have tried to quit in the past for my kid... Mon, 19 Mar 2012 21:59:37 EST