KAREBEARCARES's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KAREBEARCARES KAREBEARCARES's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 2 years, 2 5k times. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5618065 AAAAA! <BR> I am SO excited! (if you don't fancy reading this whole entry just jump down to the end for the reason why!) <BR> the long version: <BR> I started this journey just barely less then 2 years ago. 2 years ago I started running twice a week... and by running I mean running for 10 seconds then walking for 5 minutes... I did my first timed 5k a few weeks in and it took me just over an hour.... But I refused to be discouraged and kept on going! <BR> fast forward two years.. <BR> today ... Fri, 7 Feb 2014 17:54:17 EST I got Engaged! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5527827 so this blog is a bit late, but I have been so overwhelmed with excitement and the beginnings of wedding plannings that I never managed to properly share my exciting news. <BR> The man of my dreams, my best friend, the man who fell in love with me when I was 275 pounds , proposed to me last week! <BR> i came home to a trail full of presents and notes along my hallway, and then inside my living room was my dearest! on one knee! with cupcakes! and flowers! and a ring... well at this point I w... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 22:22:31 EST What to do with old clothes? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523707 I went through my ever growing pile of too big clothes today! The pile was out of control (taller then me!) and something had to be done.... Something you should know.. I am a hoarder... not quite should be on a tv show kind of hoarder... but it's not good. And as I am starting to think about moving into my Fiances tiny flat once we are married, I know I need to start to go through all my stuff and get rid of a lot of it. boooo! <BR> So today it all started, with me going through all my old c... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 08:03:37 EST Gym publicity...me!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5500190 So I had a very weird day! <BR> <BR> i work out at the local community gym. it's been quite frustrating the last 8 weeks because it's been shut while they transfer the equipment into the brand new gym! <BR> I was so excited because finally today was the grand opening! <BR> as I walked in a lady grabbed me. She explained that she was taking publicity photos for the new gym and was wondering if she could get a few shots of me using the new equipment. I was mortified at first but then realised... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 10:52:31 EST Greek Yogurt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5495944 Have I mentioned recently how much I LOVE Greek Yogurt? I LOVE the fat free stuff... <BR> so much bang for your buck in terms of protein and yumminess versus calories per serving... <BR> <BR> but this summer I had proper, proper stuff... I had real honest to goodness, full fat, homemade, luxury Greek Yogurt at Pike Place Market when I was home... I still dream about the stuff... I can honestly say I would rather eat that then pretty much anything else for the rest of my life. I can't imagine... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 13:48:53 EST face pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5495817 Sometimes when this whole journey feels unreal I have to remind myself how different I really am... and I was looking at pictures of my face the other day and can't believe the change! <BR> more then anything though It's interesting how my first smile looks fake and my second smile genuine :-) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/3/l835463229.jpg"> <BR> hip hip hurray! Wed, 25 Sep 2013 11:21:17 EST 110 pounds lost! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5487901 boom! that feels good. finally busting through this plateau by changing some things up and here we are at 110 pounds lost!!! <BR> <BR> what a mile stone! I thought 100 was big.. but I am excited that I managed to keep on going! <BR> <BR> for a while I really thought I would be stuck forever at around 100 lost but by cycling calories and changing up workouts in line with calorie cycling everything just seems to suddenly working! <BR> <BR> for now I am playing around with lower and higher c... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 04:35:01 EST feeling good!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5484470 It's been ages since I have blogged! <BR> Basicly it was a MAD rush to hit near my goal weight before I went home for a wedding in July... which would be the first time I saw many of my friends from highschool in 10 years. to cut a long story short due to my 100 pound plateau I was well behind and still 30 pounds away from my goal when July came. <BR> turns out it didn't matter because no one recognised me... AWKWARD... what do you do? reintroduce yourself and make them feel really uncomforta... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 10:36:05 EST keep on swimming through the plateau... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5348478 well it's finally here... I thought I would be immune but I have hit my first plateau! <BR> I hit 100 pounds lost and have been stuck there for about a month! <BR> very frustrating to be working my tail off and see no changes in the scale! <BR> also frustrating that every scale I use seems to be quite temperamental and difficult to get a consistent reading from! <BR> but I know that all that exercising is changing my insides even if I can't see it on the outside at the moment! <BR> for the ... Tue, 7 May 2013 10:40:52 EST Food swaps! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5335425 so lately I have been finding veggies make an awesome swap for pasta.. partially! <BR> <BR> i LOVE pasta, but in a country where you can't find spaghetti squash I feel quite stuck for alternatives. I have tried the ultra low calorie shertaki noodles but don't quite find the texture satisfying. <BR> <BR> lately i've been using half a serving of pasta, and subbing out the other half for either peas or mushrooms. (often both!) <BR> the result is a yummy and filling lower calorie pasta dish! ... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 14:54:12 EST Exercise tip- Get a heart rate monitor! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5335290 seriously! If you don't have one go and get one! <BR> It has been the biggest motivator when it comes to exercise! <BR> it's easy to get discouraged at the gym because you don't always see an improvement day after day. sometimes it's tempting to just take it easy.. <BR> and as I have gotten fitter I have been tempted to continue to work out in the same way (e.g. same time, same difficulty level) <BR> but the thing about the heart rate monitor? there is no cheating!!! <BR> you can't cheat you... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 12:34:32 EST Loving my loose skin http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5324827 the dreaded loose skin issue!... <BR> <BR> well it seems to me that no matter how much you hope and pray and moisturise and massage and strength train.. if you loose over 100 pounds there is going to be some loose skin... there might be a few exceptions.. but for most of us it will be a reality... some people say "don't let it stop you, it's worth it to lose the weight" and I always found that a bit of a hard pill to swallow... the reality that you can work SO hard and end up with a body tha... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 07:19:29 EST I don't recognize myself (the weird freaky psychological side effects of losing weight) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5309302 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1636526231.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This photo was taken today at the top of a mountain. I don't know this girl at all. <BR> it's bizarre and insane because I know I wore those clothes, climbed that mountain and posed for that photo, but my brain can not cope with seeing the person as me. <BR> <BR> It's not a new, or very unusual problem but those who have been on this journey with me for a while will know that I have really struggled with my brain... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 19:47:32 EST running just for fun! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5307056 the gym I work out at is shut for a heart patient workout twice a week for two hours. <BR> It is unfortunate that it happens to be shut during my usual workout times 11-1 so I have to get up early (for a youth minister!) to work out twice a week! they are all so lovely about it, I am not really complaining but sometimes if I am not out of bed fast enough I don't quite feel like I have had enough time at the gym. This morning was one of those mornings! <BR> <BR> my legs just weren't ready to... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 07:02:01 EST 9 minute mile! and some other changes! :-D http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5304659 this has been a CRAZY month for smashing through goals <BR> <BR> 100 pounds lost <BR> finally able to do a push up <BR> suddenly realised I could run a mile in under 10 minutes (always a goal in high school) <BR> and today at the gym I am not sure what happened but I ran a mile in 9:06! <BR> <BR> also today I looked at my arms and there are noticeable muscles! that's pretty exciting! <BR> <BR> does any other gym folks notice weird fluctuations at the gym? I find some days I feel slow, my ... Fri, 29 Mar 2013 18:54:52 EST Thanks for all your encouragement! (and a few shout outs to people I admire!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5303371 Gosh! <BR> I am overwhelmed by all the support and encouragement you guys have offered me! <BR> I feel really really uncomfortable speaking to people in real life about my weight loss <BR> <BR> I guess when people in person make comments I feel like they had already judged me for being the weight I was before, so their comments sting rather then come off as genuine (even though I know that probably most of them are just wanting to be kind) <BR> <BR> <BR> But Spark people are on the same... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 14:59:03 EST 100 Pounds gone! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5299829 Well folks... it's happened! ive lost 100 pounds! <BR> I NEVER could have imagined 13 months ago that this is where I would be today! 2 weeks from my 27th birthday <BR> gone from morbidly obese to overweight <BR> barely fitting size 24 to a size 12 <BR> from being an insomniac to sleeping normally without medication <BR> from being terminally single (and happy about it!) to being in a VERY good relationship <BR> from being anxious about whether ill fit into a chair to curling up cross legged... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 17:55:10 EST Swede/Rutabaga the new potato! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5288198 OH MY GOODNESS <BR> <BR> For anyone who likes to make sweet potato/regular potato fries in the oven you MUST try doing the same with Swede (Rutabaga to you yanks ;-)) <BR> toss them in with a bit of smoky paprika and garlic powder and the result is YUM YUM YUM! <BR> <BR> and for half the calories! (and carbs if you care about that) <BR> check out how they compare nutritionally <BR> http://www.healthaliciousness.com/nutrit<BR>ionfacts/nutrition-comparison.php?o=11<BR>435&t=11352&h=11507&s=... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 21:52:43 EST Full body photo's http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5208560 alright! I did it...I added some full body photo's of me onto my spark page... part of the process of adjusting my own self view... I have a pair of jeans hanging over my wardrobe door in my room that are size 12s... my next size down... and every time I look at them I think.. "I wont EVER be that skinny! it's not possible!" but the reality is that my self image hasn't caught up with what my body looks like now and in about 3-6 weeks ill likely be wearing those size 12s! so i thought if I up... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 14:43:15 EST Getting back on track! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5162471 well.. things have gotten a bit off track the last 2 days. <BR> <BR> I haven't been well for the past 6 weeks or so..exercising hard... have been really run down, really stressed out at work and really haven't been hungry... the result was that I lost a huge amount of weight quite quickly... not on purpose... just how things go sometimes... well I finally realised I wasn't helping myself... so i took a few days of light exercise and bumped my calories up a wee bit and got a lot of sleep... <... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 19:03:02 EST Onderland is here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5151958 Onederland is here! ahead of schedule! <BR> <BR> it's come as a bit of a shock to be honest!!! <BR> hoping to be well under the 200 pound mark in the next few weeks before I go home for the holidays! <BR> good to have a benchmark to work to stay under while I am at home! <BR> a day I never EVER thought would come! <BR> :-D Fri, 30 Nov 2012 18:55:11 EST Weird changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5143610 with weight loss comes some expected changes: <BR> my clothes fit better <BR> My feet hurt less after a long day <BR> my tummy is smaller <BR> <BR> some unexpected changes: <BR> my skin is a bit weird and loose <BR> i don't have to stress out about finding chairs without arms <BR> I like exercise <BR> these massive hard lumps in my skin (AKA Hip bones, Elbows and collar bones!) <BR> <BR> and some really weird changes: <BR> hugging my best friend (our combined weight loss is around 100 pound... Thu, 22 Nov 2012 17:14:19 EST Not an emotional eater... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5141859 it's funny... Everyone always assumes I am an emotional eater... I guess that's just what people do.. they look at you and think... she's overweight so she must be an emotional eater.... <BR> but I have finally realised I am not... at least not in the traditional sense.... <BR> <BR> when I have had a bad day, or something has really upset me or stressed me out, I don't eat... <BR> when I am relaxed and comfortable and happy... then I eat... not huge amounts nothing over the top...but I eat... Tue, 20 Nov 2012 20:16:12 EST food shopping :-) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5139524 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/5/l255977048.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I like being nosy and seeing what other people buy so here is my offering! :-) <BR> <BR> a picture of my bi weekly food shop (ill top up with other bits and pieces as the week goes on.) <BR> <BR> what you are looking at. <BR> <BR> Coke Zero <BR> Roast Potato Seasoning <BR> Light soy Sauce <BR> some naughty little extras that make things work for me :-) <BR> <BR> Skimmed Milk <BR> Fat Free Plain Greek Yogurt <BR... Sun, 18 Nov 2012 17:29:23 EST Nice to feel understood! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5135402 Right... So I don't normally blog... and I always said I would NEVER join a weight loss group like Weight Watchers or Slimming World because I am not keen to talk about my weight loss with other people... and would just feel super awkward etc... <BR> <BR> I have LOVED stalking people on Spark people.... hearing their stories... seeing what they do, watching their progress, and occasionally weighing in.. but mostly spending hours looking and reading about people just like me... <BR> I must s... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 16:52:47 EST Not letting go of old clothes. + slightly out of control shopping...= a bit of an issue! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5128568 I have a hard time letting go of things... clothes in particular! I have so many pieces of clothes that I absolutely love... but they no longer fit be right... and I have to be honest wearing them doesn't make me feel like they used to! most of my wardrobe is bright, vivid colours that I love to mix and match. when I came out of a hard time of life, I wanted to wear clothes the represented the joy I discovered.. so I started buying pink, and purple and turquoise! So I have been a bit stuck.. ... Thu, 8 Nov 2012 14:44:08 EST face time.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5126229 I am struggling to accept that I look any different from when I started... I know of course that 70 pounds and 4 sizes smaller I must look different.. but I am struggling to get it in my brain! uploaded some photos from my journey to see if I can see much of a difference.. but to be perfectly honest I can't really! stupid brain!!! Tue, 6 Nov 2012 13:43:27 EST New adventures! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5094147 I have been home a few weeks from my trip back home to visit friends and family... it was amazing! I put on about 6 pounds, but I would guess a lot of that was water weight from travel, and a little of it was from enjoying being on holiday... I told myself anything under 10 was not a problem... I know some people want to just keep losing, but I know for me I don't want to miss out on anything in life, and because I live in a different country from where I grew up.. i really miss certain food... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 14:33:19 EST people are just mean. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4979398 Sometimes people are just mean. <BR> <BR> ive had a bad week in terms of nasty people... people who are "just trying to be nice" who ask you if you've been on some sort of crash diet... or say "it's nice to see you back at the size you were when i met you" or even.. "good thing because your face had gotten really fat" all of these things are not helpful, are not encouraging and are just plain nasty. <BR> <BR> I appreciate perhaps they are well intended comments. but this is why I don't cho... Fri, 20 Jul 2012 14:56:35 EST out hiking! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4924337 Last week i went hiking with my best friend... <BR> and for once in my life I wasn't the slowest one! <BR> It felt amazing to be in shape and able to go right up the mountain! <BR> <BR> then this week we went to the beach and climbed on some rocks and I realised I am getting stronger! i hadn't noticed until now! <BR> <BR> hurrah for small changes! Wed, 13 Jun 2012 07:32:24 EST Shopping in my closet! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4798721 Hey There! I am pretty sure no one will ever come across this but in case they do.. Hey! <BR> I am kind of too shy to say anything in the forums but thought I would share a wee bit of joy here in the blogsphere! <BR> <BR> I don't really feel comfortable talking to my friends about my dieting habits. it either makes them feel defensive, or I feel judged in some way... So I just don't... the result, I have no one to share my successes with! so I thought I would share a small success here. <BR... Wed, 21 Mar 2012 20:44:08 EST