KAREARMI's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KAREARMI KAREARMI's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Stepped on the scale this morning...such BS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5249037 So I should have known better than to step on the scale weekly. My weight fluctuates a few pounds every day. I only had ONE day really having a cheat - a preportioned slice of cheesecake. I went over my calories yesterday, every other day I was under my caloric intake. <BR> <BR> I was worried this was going to happen again....not being able to lose weight unless by EXTREME measures. By extreme, I mean doing atleast 2 hours of cardio a day. By eating 1000 calories a day. I've struggle... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 11:58:48 EST Yesterday was a hard day to make the right decisions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5245437 It started out by waking up at 2:00am and heading out on the road. My husband and I were driving up the florida panhandle to visit his brother in prison for the first time and he wanted to do it before his deployment. It was a six hour drive and I was wide awake. We stopped off at McDonalds for breakfast - I ended up eating their Oatmeal. At the prison, there isn't much options as far as food goes. It's all microwavable or chips/cookies/crackers. This is where I had a slip and ate a pac... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 18:48:36 EST lose weight or get pregnant http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5242130 I just began my weight loss journey a week ago and my husband is deploying in two weeks. For the past two years we've tried to get pregnant and each year I became pregnant only to miscarry and have an ectopic pregnancy. These past two years, I've put on a solid thirty extra pounds (20 of those pounds since my ectopic ordeal in August) due to the depression of losing two babies. I'm thirty-one now...and if I wait until he returns to try again, I will be 33 and pregnant. Did I also mention ... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 21:23:31 EST First week - 3 lbs down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5239985 This first week was spent making better food decisions. I watched my portions without going off the deep end, I avoided starchy carbs though I did have low carb pasta last night, and I stopped snacking. I lost these three pounds without working out. This is amazing!!!! <BR> <BR> I slept in, weighed myself and decided to go to the park with my husband and doggie for two mile walk. My dog, who his also overweight, has difficulty going any further than that! I have had him on an all organ... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 10:00:56 EST Some things I look forward to http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236032 I look forward to the day when I can take a picture of myself and NOT automatically check to see if I tilted my head just right to avoid a double chin. Maybe I like portraying this mirage to everyone because I couldn't accept my reality. I've been told since I was younger how beautiful I was...if I lost weight. <BR> <BR> I look forward to the day when I can wear a form fitting t-shirt. I will not allow to myself to wear a top that clings to anything except my boobs. I'm very self consc... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 17:50:10 EST Restaurant Nightmare http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5235583 Day two end was approaching. My husband gets a call from our friends asking us out to dinner. I could not say no, afterall, my husband is deploying in three weeks and he wants to spend time with friends and family. We show up at the restaurant and I stumble through the menu looking for something I could feel good about eating. I end up ordering the oven roasted chicken with steamed veggies and a house salad. I went easy on the light ranch on my salad since there was come cheese and eggs ... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 11:01:03 EST Day One http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5234128 So one day conquered and a lifetime left to go. The day went by without incident and surprisingly I wasn't hungry eating just a third of my usual consumption ;) Right next to my work area, fundraisers were having a bake sale, which doesn't excite me because I'm not big on sweets but my heart fluttered hearing they were selling boiled peanuts. Cruel, cruel world...you must flaunt boiled peanuts in front of me when I have to be accountable for my actions and calorie intake!!! <BR> <BR> I dr... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 07:39:03 EST