KARAGANDAMAMA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KARAGANDAMAMA KARAGANDAMAMA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Just do it, thanks MFreeland13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5970648 I got dressed grabbed my ipod and worked out my legs and did some cardio. I hit it hard, and was drenched with sweat which is the fat crying on the inside to come out and melt. I also made myself accountable. I asked the Gym owner to find me a work out partner and he said he knows a gal about my age and fitness level that wants to train harder, she too can make the wee early morning hours and I gave him my cell to give her. If I had a gym buddy I find that I am more motivated to go that's jus... Sun, 2 Aug 2015 08:34:40 EST Get moving getting motivated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5970613 I am going to get moving and go to the gym, but snap it can be hard when you just make excuses not to go- not I am stalling when I know I have to just do it. I woke up early enough, had some coffee and now I just need to get dressed and make the 5 min drive to the gym, I know If I do it I will feel better about myself today. I know I have the choice- to go- and now I need to just do it. I feel alone at the ygym but I have to just go- Lets see if I make it there today Sun, 2 Aug 2015 06:48:14 EST Rebooting the machine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5969586 I know its been 2 years since I have been here, I have let myself go and I am darn mad about it. I went through a nasty divorce but I a now remarried. I gave up on making myself a priority and in the meanwhile love and restaurants took over forgetting that it will add up, the things you do in love. I finally woke up and decided to make myself a priority. I finally had enough that my clothes aren't fitting and that I feel like a slug. I moved to Ft. Lauderdale and made some friends and found ... Fri, 31 Jul 2015 06:58:24 EST Now I understand how difficult it is without the right food products http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5037008 Going through this time in my life is hard. I miss the things I could afford at the time I was married, I dont understand how any single mother can survive on child support and I see how the bad choices are so cheap its a vicious cycle. In my area the obesity rate is sky high and the income levels are at the lowest. Of course once I go back into divorce trial I will bring that up but it has been so challenging to buy produce and things that are actually healthy,, instead of overprcocessed che... Thu, 30 Aug 2012 07:36:03 EST Love can add pounds,, stop routines and you have to find that time for you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5035276 I am so greatful for the incredible love I have, but with that I stopped my gym routine and I quit eating as healthy as I should, my boyfriend owns a resturant so needless to say oops its so tempting when were there everyday. I learned to bring protein powder there and munch on salad versus the fried stuff although occasionally I love a sweet pototoe fry and I drink a gallon of water. I have a home gym so I use that but lately I have been running with friends and finally got back into the gym... Tue, 28 Aug 2012 21:31:51 EST Love can add pounds,, stop routines and you have to find that time for you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5035275 I am so greatful for the incredible love I have, but with that I stopped my gym routine and I quit eating as healthy as I should, my boyfriend owns a resturant so needless to say oops its so tempting when were there everyday. I learned to bring protein powder there and munch on salad versus the fried stuff although occasionally I love a sweet pototoe fry and I drink a gallon of water. I have a home gym so I use that but lately I have been running with friends and finally got back into the gym... Tue, 28 Aug 2012 21:31:51 EST What a year it has been, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5003046 Well lets see two years trying to get a divorce but soon soon, when you leave a domestic abuser they never make things easy, the good thing though is that I have my self of worth yes I found love, with myself and my new beau. There are good men out there ladies, . Its been really hard being alone in the country no resources, waiting to get my business back during the divorce and getting so much legal work together that is a full time job right there. but this year it ought to end. My stress l... Mon, 6 Aug 2012 08:41:16 EST Dont quit on yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4384316 You know the divorce trial is ugly, things were ugly and I had my come apart moments with it all, but its almost the beggining to the end here. I met some new friends at the gym, out of the gym and now I have to focus on me which I never do. This is my journey. I learned who I can count on and whom I cant. I can count on myself though. I have to give myself credit about being strong and alone. I learned to fix things alone. I guess that is the hard part. Each day is a new challenge but you go... Mon, 25 Jul 2011 08:40:57 EST When one door closes another one opens,,, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4366227 well I am going through some hanious ugly divorce trial. I use prayer not to be stressed and of course if you know me I am a positive girl all the way around. <BR> I dont know how thing will change but I do know that there is hope and a plan and I will make that happen. I thank my friends who are there. <BR> I just want to get out of limbo and go. I still go to the gym everyday and I still try my best but I can tell you its harder being a single parent and on a limited income that part suck... Sat, 16 Jul 2011 11:07:27 EST Divorce sucks but my attitude isnt going to steel weights and strong mind http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4095229 Well never in a lifetime would I think i would be going through a divorce but I am I got down to a size four now up to a six a tight six yikes,, I was at a gym but now I am not doing my routine because I cant afford to, and I have to though do it at home Its so hard to eat on a tight budget with a little toddler, how can you buy quality foods and have a life on nothing, until this horrid divorce is over its hard. I am not going to be the only single hard workiing mom out there. <BR> I have ... Wed, 16 Mar 2011 06:20:37 EST I met Jen Hendershott and Tosca Reno who are they you ask,,,,, and where was I http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3143873 I went to the Arnold Classic with my trainer Robert McAdory of Ouch Fitness and his wife and my husband so I check this off my bucket list,, something I always wanted to go to. IT was really really crowded. I spent the last year reading "Clean Eating by Tosca Reno" the family and kids version and I am a big fan of Oxygen magazine which shows real women lifting real weights and that Tosca is over 50 and changed her life at 40 and she is freaking hot,, I have been a fan of Jen Hendershott sinc... Wed, 21 Apr 2010 08:39:18 EST Smile and the world smiles with you,,, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2843401 I love smiling and being happy. I love sharing my enthusiasm with others. I have changed so much for myself. I have made new friends and set up my enviroment to achieve health and support, which before I didn't have. It was a struggle at first to go to the gym, but I made my way and started with trainers, and each day I was stronger and looked foward to working harder. I ran some 5ks- now 3 miles breezed by and 6 miles is more challenging, I don't go to places where I will crumble like buffet... Fri, 5 Feb 2010 06:37:14 EST What am I thinking,,,, oh yeah I can do this its on my bucket list http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2829376 Everyone has that bucket list, the things they want to do before they reach a certain time, age, etc etc,, well for me its a fitness compeition and yes I am 42 which by the way is no different than 29,lol. I have trained so hard for a year now keeping my weight off, making new friends, keeping active and living a lifestyle that surrounds our family with health. Doing a fitness competition is really hard work, the prep diet is really hard, the 2 hours of cardio and of course knowing my effort... Tue, 2 Feb 2010 07:46:06 EST Go spark yourself,, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2530005 I have been gettng frustrated lately, not with myself with comments from others, the ones that call you a perfectionist-this is your new religion- etc etc,, and in my little skinny brain I think" Go spark yourself" which means worry about you not me. SO my new motto is GO SPARK yourself and leave me a lone- why do I want to give my daughter a healthy lifestyle? I am the mean mom who doesnt give her soda, or candy or junk food- " But once in a while is okay?" if everyone gives her or me a once... Tue, 3 Nov 2009 07:31:37 EST Why is it that sometimes people are mean and negative over weight loss? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2462176 Okay I have to vent, sometimes you just want to shove an apple in someones mouth to prevent them from keep talking negative about YOUR weight loss. I have this "friend" she saw me at the grocery store after not seeing me for a while and said Wow you have lost a lot of weight. I said yes I have ( she never met my former thinner self) and then asks me if I used a good diet pill or just dont eat,, and you need more meat on your bones, ( I have pure solid muscles give me a break) I said no just e... Thu, 8 Oct 2009 07:29:55 EST Even the hospitals are freaking clueless about health and nutrition in my area thats sad, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2450537 I had to have a minor outpatient surgery- It was a disaster I woke up half way during procedure my body which for a short girl who weighs 129 is very muscular now so I need more drugs than the average bear, luckily they gave me more-. After I was in recovery for a hour they wanted me to drink soda through a straw,, now I never ever and nor will I drink soda so I said NO , I dont drink that crap can I have some water instead please? The nurse looked at me and said no you have to drink the... Sun, 4 Oct 2009 08:05:43 EST Holidays and New Ways doesnt have to lead to anxiety or to much Pie- ity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2434612 Well This year Thanksgiving is at my house and in the past all the holdiay celebrations make me anxious since I am a former people pleaser and clean plate club eater, now I am a fitness trainer armed with intelligence and solutions. I love gathering with people I truly do but as my first fitness competition comes up I have to keep the diet the same and the work outs consistant. I have scoured the magazines for some alternatives and found that I can work my meals around everyone elses. This ye... Mon, 28 Sep 2009 08:58:29 EST A gift sometimes is more than a gift http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2430106 I said Melissa had a surprise for me this morning for helping her work out- She made me a t shirt that reads " HOT MAMA" in rhinestones--it was so great. The real gift is meeting on on saturdays and watching someone who never worked out or eat clean devour each and every tidbit we can give her. We gave her a copy of clean eating magazine and she is going crazy with reading it- That is the real gift,giving someone the gift of health and education so they can live a long life-- she asked me w... Sat, 26 Sep 2009 09:17:59 EST When you lead someone might follow,,,It started with a smile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2429917 I have a friend at my gym her name is Melissa she is 26 years old and pre gastric bypass surgery candidate- she needed to loose 30 lbs for the surgery but as of today she has lost 80 lbs and is no longer going the gastric bypass route. One day while on the treadmill next to her I smiled, she told me that I inspired her- ( she watches me in the gym) so I smiled back usally I wear an ipod but that day I forgot it,, so I was telling her yes its hard work but I have lost 35 lbs--and I feel great... Sat, 26 Sep 2009 06:02:41 EST When you lead someone might follow,,,It started with a smile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2429916 I have a friend at my gym her name is Melissa she is 26 years old and pre gastric bypass surgery candidate- she needed to loose 30 lbs for the surgery but as of today she has lost 80 lbs and is no longer going the gastric bypass route. One day while on the treadmill next to her I smiled, she told me that I inspired her- ( she watches me in the gym) so I smiled back usally I wear an ipod but that day I forgot it,, so I was telling her yes its hard work but I have lost 35 lbs--and I feel great... Sat, 26 Sep 2009 06:02:41 EST Fitness experts say women need more iron,,, I pump mine,,, and its changed my life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2410885 Okay I needed iron in my fitness not my diet- I have learned that you need to strength train with heavy weights- Yes I am going for a fitness physique but I wont have ,,umm testicles ever unless there is steriods involved-- I do left heavier than I could of ever done. I started small steps, and now I have arms I get complitments on. Today I was at my dentist he hasnt seen me in a year-- he said, you really hit the gym look at the transformation- Yes I wear a tank type of blouse-- and I told h... Fri, 18 Sep 2009 19:38:22 EST habits are learned take time but once they happen they become a part of what we do http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2400691 I can tell you that I am selfish, thats right I am selfish because I care for me first. I make it point each and every day that I am going to be my best so I have an hour for me. Sometimes this inconviences my dear husband, or a schedule conflict with the house, the laundry. or my friends know I am not going somewhere because right now I am very focused on a fitness competition so places that I may have gone in the past I dont want to go to. I know its not easy to go to places and have a piec... Tue, 15 Sep 2009 06:24:24 EST Learn each day and move on,, readjust those thong panties when needed,, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2365404 Today I lost that 5lbs good for me, I missed those gym days on vacation and honestly I think I was seriously bloated as well. I didnt drink enough water thats for sure drinking enough water is really important. I went to my trainers fitness competition He placed 2nd and his hard work is inspiring because of his nutrition and dedication to the sport, he is the best trainer I have ever had I enjoy his enthusiasm and the fact he is focus driven. My goal next July is to be in a fitness competiti... Tue, 1 Sep 2009 16:37:06 EST During my Vacation,, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2347100 Well we had a nice vacation in Destin Florida except it was too stressfull and didnt really go as I had planned. We brought my MIL she lost her husband a month ago- and I went from wanting to get to a gym daily and maybe bycycling and going to the beach from we went to the beach- since my husband doesnt cook anything and we went to the grocery once we really ate out more than I wanted too- I did the subway salad thing, I tried to eat healthy at some meals and I swam all day and played with ... Wed, 26 Aug 2009 05:16:05 EST I dreamed, I belived, I achieved,, because it was for me. Happy 42 to me!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2284622 Okay, in a few days I am going to be 42 on August 11th to be excact. For the last oh 4 years I went up down up down, but mostly up,, until I went to a plastic surgeon who is a friend of ours for a tummy tuck- and he told me that I needed obesity managment not a tummy tuck. I said no more excuses to myself this time darn it its for me. This time I am going to spend as much time, money, energy, whatever it takes to get me back where I belong. I hired trainers, I went and had metabolic tests don... Mon, 3 Aug 2009 20:07:38 EST Thank you Thank you Thank Thank you to my village people http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2260056 I am really missing my friends back at my other home in California,, waiting until this winter I am going back while my husband works another project. I dont know why I let myself go so bad when I moved here after two years I put on those ugly 30lbs, I cant even stand looking at fat photos of myself and wonder what was I thinking? Okay the casseroles, the church group food things, the obigations for social eating and lack of excersize. LACK of excersize and all the things I love to do becaus... Sun, 26 Jul 2009 09:11:51 EST The inner diva in me sees the inner diva in you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2216423 My father in law passed so on the airplane we went- my husband and I and his mom (they were married for 58 years). The casseroles and treats were brought over so the I need to eat this guilt kicked in BUT I didnt go there we drove an hour to Enid so my inner Diva could eat her fish, veggies, egg whites and oatmeal and protein shakes. I also ran the high school track daily with my husband for 3 miles in the freaking heat but hey a diva has to do what she has to do- I didnt eat at the wake eit... Thu, 9 Jul 2009 19:24:08 EST You have to just do it regardless of what happens around you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2175572 Me and husband had to drive to Oaklahoma City from TN where we live with our dogs to his parents house because his father is dying. I packed all my foods in a cooler and each day I ran at the high school track in the freaking heat- early am or late night and drank a ton of water and had to drive an hour and a half from there to buy fish and veggies for my meals. <BR> I stuck to the program,, and even though it was a total hassle it was worth it. My husband ran with me each day too. I could... Tue, 23 Jun 2009 21:17:33 EST Research on High Fructose Corn Syrup and no more processed foods in my pantry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2153339 I did all this research on High Fructose Corn Syrup which is banned in Europe, Russian and Kazakhstan where I lived for a few months while adopting my daughter. I ate lot of great food, fresh healthy and lost 2o bs over there only to gain it back here, ( YO-YOed) why?I feel it was the processed chemicals and high fructose Corn Syrup - now that I eat clean its not an issue for me personally but I still feed my hubby and daughter- and after cleaning out the pantry of any High Fructose corn sy... Mon, 15 Jun 2009 17:45:59 EST I did it!!! Woot Woot my fist 5k in 30:27 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2147779 I coulnt sleep last night- tossed and turned- plus we had to get up at 4 am to drive t6:o the registeration- by 6:30 AM. I use an Ipod when I train but I didnt want to use it for my 5k- I knew I couldnt keep up with skinny sister but she came to run with me not for her personal best time- she qualified for Boston Marathon sheeszz, she is a year younger than I so I could only hope to keep a fast enough pace for this first timer-. The course was very hilly and like a cross country track- so th... Sat, 13 Jun 2009 13:53:07 EST Tommorrow is my first 5K I am so excited!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2145264 Tommorrow is my first 5k with my husband and my skinny sister- the one who motivates me to run, She has completed a marathon- and qualified for the boston marathon-. I want to run a marathon before my 45th birthday I will be 42 in couple months. I feel so good about myself and that I have done so well. I dont except to make time just finish. I wanted my BFF to run this but she hurt her knee- maybe the recovery will happen for her soon. From here I am onto muddy buddys with sister although BF... Fri, 12 Jun 2009 11:40:08 EST You must change your old habits to allow new ones to come in,, like old friends that need to be repl http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2136062 Okay, I am going to admit this. I have done very well so far. Why because I work at it daily each day getting stronger, leaner, more educated and I pack my foods in a small cooler and I dont allow others to interfer with my new lifestyle. I have even had to drop a few friends,,eating isnt my social event anymore. I have made new fit friends and a great sparkbuddys. It sounds so rough to a newbie but you cant go to social functions if your not mentally prepared to say no thank you or have you... Tue, 9 Jun 2009 09:41:50 EST I changed my surroundings my lifestyle and emotional OA habits and it works,, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2115251 I have finally changed my envirment around me, the food pantry at my house. I dont eat HFCS and really eat clean. I changed my habits with foods and I have all my support people on my team. When I was in California it was easy, I had a gym down the street, fresh resturants and food choices and friends who lived a fit lifestyle and I lost the first 20lbs there. So we came back to Tennessee where my gym is 45mins away( worth the drive though) and pilates reformer classes are an hour away. I fo... Tue, 2 Jun 2009 08:51:19 EST I am so proud of myself for the lessons I have learned and can share http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2066685 I have finally lost 22 lbs because I care about me, I did it for me. <BR> 1. I have learned to drink water all day long no matter how many times I have to use the bathroom. <BR> 2. I learned to be honest and admit I have an emotional eating disorder and work on it daily with honesty, integrity and sheer determination. <BR> 3. I have learned to say no to the food pushers of my life and pack my own foods without apologies or feeling as if I cant say No thank you- thats empowering. <BR> 4. I... Sat, 16 May 2009 09:42:46 EST If you want to be healthy you can do it anywhere if you have power from withing and support http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2063985 In my past when I travel or visit people I fall off track- always. We had to drive across country from California to Oaklahoma( visit father in law who had stroke) and drive to our home in TN). I would just go through drives throughs with my hubby who cares we are on the road- but not this time after losing 20lbs- so I went to subway and had spinach salads with veggies and chicken no cheese no dressing-with muscle milk lights- tons of water usually I act like a camel but not this time. We ha... Fri, 15 May 2009 08:21:17 EST UGgg I am leaving California to go home To Tennessee makes me nervous http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2025750 Okay-I have been in California as my hubby has worked here for the last 6 1/2 months where I gained control of my health. It was easy because the gym was 15mins down the road-they had day care there for my 2 year old-and the people here are more active due to the great weather- So now I am going back to grease haven and loss of support systems. Although I have set up some new social situations with a new gym ( its a 45 min drive) but I will drive it. I will not under any circumstances give ... Sat, 2 May 2009 14:37:43 EST My new holiday habits,,, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1967908 I finally stood my ground on what dinner menu I wanted for Easter since I eat clean.I stood my ground by buying enough food for everyone and fresh strawberries for dessert. I drank water all day. I didnt pig out I didnt do my usual give in and eat things I didnt want. In fact didnt want to wait 6 hours to eat dinner and not have lunch so we went and had salads-smart move. For easter we had crab legs and salad-light fare and asparagus. For once I didnt people please or stuff myself with thi... Mon, 13 Apr 2009 10:13:11 EST If you can be really honest with yourself this works,, its hard but it works http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1960519 I know I have had my head in the sand like an ostrich for the past couple of years. I have really been honest with myself about the food= love thing. I grew up in a householdwhere there was tons of food, parties, and my Dad loved sweets. <BR> He passed in 99 of throat cancer from smoking, not a picture of him without a ciggerette in his hand. I miss him. I think I use food the way he was an alcoholic and also that food =love which I know isnt true. I read this article about a woman like m... Fri, 10 Apr 2009 09:35:00 EST One size doesnt fit all what I learned from having my metabolism measured http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1955909 OMG I went and had my metabolism professionally checked with heart rate and goal or fat loss and muscle building. FIRST I NEED 2800 calories a day for my weight loss- YUP I HAVE A HIGH METABOLSIM who wouldof thought that,, I also burn tons of muscle and not enough fat because I over train in the cardio arena-- my mind is boggled. I have raised my metabolism so much from the hard work so doing this right is a life must. I also learned that at 41 I have the great heart of a 29 year old- that... Wed, 8 Apr 2009 18:35:48 EST Setting up my new surroundings once I am back home in Tennessee http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1954290 Today I met with a trainer to go over what I have been doing. my goals, my overall what changed in me to get here and how did I put on the weight to begin with. There is so much confusion out there on diets, too much cardio versus free weights,etc etc, so the last thingI want to do is start wrong so the trainer was worth the cost. I am also going today to have my metabolic rate checked and get A VOX ( oxygen stress test)to meet my heartrate, and nutrition advice for calorie ranges on d... Wed, 8 Apr 2009 09:39:52 EST The easter bunny is going to bite my sister,, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1945099 Yesterday I had to call my sister, she is a size 4 never had a weight issue, runs like crazy, blah blah blah. I asked her what she wants for dinner since she is flying in for my easter at my mothers and its also my mothers birthday. I know she hates b and then I told her will I am having fish with veggies but I could make enough salmon for everyone too, and whatever you and mom decided is between the rest of you. She tells me its not about me, I said BS it is about me, I am not eating anythi... Sun, 5 Apr 2009 14:17:10 EST I actually had to buy small tops and gave my mom my old tops http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1942077 I went into my closet yesterday to get ready to go out shopping with my mom who is naturally thin and she is tall 5 9 I did not inherit her legs,her blonde danish traits but hopefully her attitude she has always been positive and upbeat person. My blouse was so baggy it was funny. I had implants done several years ago which by the way I regret doing but the fat has shrunk around them so they look much smaller now and even my bra is too big. We went to Macys and my mom is handing me small tops... Sat, 4 Apr 2009 09:59:58 EST changing choices leads to loss and strength I am finally sparked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1936459 I have finally learned that my choices are excatly that my choices. I am the captain of this vessel. Last night we had our anniversary dinner I worked out before we went but this time I I didnt touch that mean old bread basket, and I had half the dinner on my plate ( seafood Risotto) and had the other half removed for my hubbys left over. I really wanted a cannoli but knowing I am a complete sugar addict that will turn into the tansmanian devil wanting more sugar I choose the berry sorbet ins... Thu, 2 Apr 2009 10:54:24 EST I have finally learned to say NO thank you and mean it,,,, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1929490 I have finally learned to say no thank you and mean it. I was with my mother and having dinner at her house when she tells me what she and her friends who have potlucks were mak,, BUT I told her NO I am working out and on a clean eating program so I will go to the store and bake myself some salmon and veggie pack, and she said dont be silly it wont hurt you once,, but for me it will, because once comes too many times a week that is how I got here in the first place. I saw that as a real vict... Tue, 31 Mar 2009 11:10:09 EST I love the work outs I am doing and do I have the nutrition thing right? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1918576 Well I am going to the gym averaging m-f one hour cardio class and strength training different musclc groups. I am eating clean staying at about 1200 calories and then the excersize tracker says I may not be getting enough calories so what to add or how? HMMmm I am stuck here. I have added a muscle milk light protein shake daily to up my protein but its so confusing. I am doing intense training so it worries me about the nutrition I think I will ask my spark buddy Jen since she was once in m... Fri, 27 Mar 2009 15:42:04 EST I have to set my new surroundings to win ,, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1914700 I lost 10lbs,, that is great. I go to a great gym here in California but now that we are getting ready in the next 4 weeks to go back to Tennessee I have freaking worries- first of all I have to drive an hour to a gym which I know for me is worth it, secondly I have no fit friends, they are all overweight except for one friend who is always busy so I dont see her much the rest of them its all about food food food so I need some new friends. I have a full gym in my house I am hoping I use it ... Thu, 26 Mar 2009 10:47:58 EST Small steady change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1909244 Well another good day at the gym, and eating healthy making changes. We went to the zoo yesterday I had a black bean burger but no bun put it on a veggie salad instead- drinking so much water it really works drinking a lot of water. I go the gym. When we go back to TN I am going to miss my Caliornia lifestyle, I am contemplating on if we should move back here because its better for health and vitality to have an LA mentality. I think we will end of moving here. I am proud of me for a change... Tue, 24 Mar 2009 17:03:22 EST 10 LBS the hard way but its gone,, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1907120 I am so pleased with myself that by truly eating healthier, keeping a food tracker, and going to the gym drinking a lot of water I actually lost 10lbs, I felt so proud of myself. I cried when the scale moved down10lbs, becauseI did it for me and stuck to it for me. I didnt allow anyone to feed me things I dont want, I stood up and said no and it paid off because for me I cave around others. I also am so happy to go to this marvelous gym and am going to find a way to do this back when I get ho... Tue, 24 Mar 2009 00:03:19 EST Truth in numbers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1902358 March 23,2009 <BR> <BR> Well I went to the Doctor and he told me what I already knew loose 25 lbs. I have a full gym at my house and I know what to eat its the other part of me the people pleasing cant say no and eat out of bordem and loniliness me. We have been living in California for the last 5 months and I learned how to go to Pilates refomer classes which I love, did kickboxing adn tons of cardio, and yes a few lbs have came off and its noticeable now. BUT for the first time in my life... Sun, 22 Mar 2009 15:24:25 EST One step at a time,, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1272590 I know its hard to wait for results, and its hard not to fall down but at this loose a lb a week is okay to .5 half a lb is okay. I noticed even though I use my ecliptal its not cardio or aerobic enough so I ordered some great videos to use at home. I walk a lot and bought an ipod- now to learn to program that thing surely there is a 6 year old around to help me. I find the support wonderful and I am learning to bring foods not to make apologies just prepare enough for others. I want to win t... Mon, 16 Jun 2008 08:13:32 EST