KAMCCLARY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KAMCCLARY KAMCCLARY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ October Through http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5799007 My hubby bought me two yellow roses yesterday-one for me and one for my Mom. This month makes 5 years that God has called her home and He knows I am still grieving some sort of way. He wrote a lovely card letting me know its okay, that although He has never met my Mother, he knows her through me. I was so touched that He wanted to honor my Mom in such a sweet way. <em>146</em> <em>146</em> Thu, 16 Oct 2014 00:40:34 EST Left Behind http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793022 My hubby and I went to see the new movie remake " Left Behind". I enjoyed listening to the audio CD/reading the books when I first hired in at GM many years ago. I have the Kirk Cameron DVD versions and I am glad the remake was re-released to the big screen. It makes you think, what will happen to you when Jesus returns. You ponder that question are you living for Christ, living righteously, living truthfully or are you a pawn for satan? Yes, the movie made me think more about my Christ... Sun, 5 Oct 2014 21:12:26 EST Getting it Right http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5792505 I was supposed to get up and meet with a new group and begin 5k training not too far from my home this morning. I worked until midnight and got home and was in bed by 1:00 am, alarm went off, and the temperatures went down to about 38 degrees this morning and I wasn't going nowhere. Oh well, intentions were good. I guess I better saddle up and hit the pavement myself. This isn't my first rodeo and I can do a Turkey Trot. I never did Ward Parkway and there is also Overland Park so I do ha... Sat, 4 Oct 2014 22:54:52 EST Octoberfest!?!?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5790818 Historically, October has always been my busiest month of the year. I don't know why-it just works out that way. My Mom went to be with the Lord five years ago in October. I finished my first graduate class in October and decided to move to Kansas City five years ago in October. I am still standing. <em>224</em> <em>422</em> Summer has slowed down, outdoor pools have closed, I still haven't made it to the beach-but I did walk down the aisle this year and got married. <em>336</em> ... Thu, 2 Oct 2014 00:53:29 EST 5k Training again?!?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786498 I am going to test the waters and try 5k training again with a new group beginning October 4th, with hopes of doing a 5k on Thanksgiving. <em>521</em> <em>364</em> Oh boy, we shall see how my back and left leg holds out and how far I can go. I am pulling together my Fall outdoor training gear and getting ready to hit the pavement. <BR> <BR> To God be the glory! <em>198</em> <em>363</em> <em>244</em> Thu, 25 Sep 2014 00:54:41 EST Fresh Fall Schedule http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780686 I began my nutrition studies at Integrative Nutrition Institute today. This is my first approach at online/web based learning and I am excited to get these brain cells moving. I am going to use my course of study to better my own health and be the example for my family and friends. I like the good holistic healthy vibe I am getting from the program and I am joining a large group of like minded individuals that want a better lifestyle for themselves and others. I am looking forward to seei... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 00:47:52 EST Moving right along September http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5778287 Remembering this day thirteen years ago...praying for healing of the lost ones and those of us who have to carry on in their good memories. <em>652</em> <em>232</em> <BR> <BR> Getting my Fall schedule into full motion, beginning Health Coach class this coming Monday and beginning a morning bible study of the Holy Spirit at Lenexa Christian next Thursday. There is a crispness in the air as the weather slowly begins to shift. I am looking forward to learning and being my own best can... Fri, 12 Sep 2014 00:40:24 EST September to remember... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773688 Started this month off very busy going to the KC Renaissance Festival and enjoying a delicious home cooked meal by my hubby. It was interesting to say the least. I had a chance to look backwards in time with a Shakespearean theme. <em>221</em> <BR> <BR> As I get my fall schedule in order, I am going to take a social media bath this weekend. I am going to log off my facebook and such, just to take care of the house, get organized, do good old fashioned kneeology to prepare for my upcom... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 00:49:29 EST Another day to get it right http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767069 I thank God for another day to get it right. I had a great training weekend, honing my craft and learning about skin care and facial contouring. I am grateful for the opportunity to learn and develop my skills and become "boss" at marketing my Mary Kay product. I have a lot to learn and ways to go, but with the tools available, the people available that want to teach, I am on my way at becoming more confident, more skilled, to listen more attentively and be on my A game. <em>521</em> <... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 00:50:42 EST August roaring by... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763274 This month has been going by quickly or its just I haven't been paying enough attention. That be the case, I am in full planning my work and working my plan mode getting ready to start Nutrition school next month, working my Mary Kay business like a business and preparing for sleeve time to help mold and shape a better and healthier me. <BR> <BR> Father, in the name of Jesus, I pray for those seeking healing in their bodies, in their minds that they are able the capture the very essence of... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 00:58:19 EST First Week in August 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756665 I was kinda distracted, busy, not feeling the greatest this first week in August. I honored my Mom on August 4th-her 83rd birthday. I bought some graham crackers in her honor, because she liked them to eat as a snack. First time I purchased graham crackers for my household. I am preparing my new journey for weight loss, getting ready for my psych eval and initial testing next week. I am dealing with a touch of asthma and congestion. Normally I just go with the flow, but being a diabetic... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 00:57:47 EST It has been six weeks now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756077 Yes I have been married for six weeks now, what a blessing. I learning Lou and he is learning me. I am learning me also. I am stretching into my own, looking at life with a get out of my way perspective. Slowly, I am pulling pieces of the puzzle together, weaving a simple plan that will yield great success for me. <BR> <BR> Success is what I am after. It is my goal. Small steps lead to big rewards. Small steps, baby steps, thinking out of the box, not looking to keep up with the Jon... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 00:51:58 EST What a difference a month makes... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5750371 Four weeks of wedded bliss, coming into my own, planning my work and working my plan and re-working my plan. All I can say is wow, that there is joy in the journey and to God be the glory. <BR> <BR> I am making plans to start health certification training. It is a small stepping stone to get me back in the classroom so to speak, learn a new interest and to see if I really want to sink thousands of dollars into a master's program and will it pay out. I am also going old school and work ... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 12:22:10 EST Seeing my plan through... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744591 This has been such a busy, fun, learning and growing month. <em>298</em> <em>464</em> I celebrated our nation's birthday at the beginning of this month, basking in the glow of my June 28th marriage (I still have that honeymoon glow), planning my next steps in life, not settling for 2nd best and just keeping it moving. Taking a page from my cousin's wife book, digging deep in my financial peace classes, I am taking on extra hours, streamlining services, clipping more coupons, watchin... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 00:12:56 EST Charting my course http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5733754 I had a great honeymoon week off with my new husband, my new best friend. We had a sort of staycation honeymoon, opting not to go out of town just yet. I stayed busy, stayed productive, relaxed, caught up on sleep, explored different areas with my hubby, smiled, laughed, gave thanks to God, went church, went to discipleship meeting, went to my new gym, ate good, ate real good, finally had my lobster <em>492</em> <em>462</em> , saw two movies, gave thanks to God! <BR> <BR> I am plannin... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 11:18:07 EST July Bang! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5730861 As always I look forward to production shutdown and this time is no different expect I threw a wedding into the mix. Five days now have past since my wedding and I am in wedded bliss. I also am taking this time to discover who I am, where I want to go career wise and how to make my home healthier, happier and cozier. <em>436</em> <em>337</em> <BR> <BR> I hit the ground running...so far I had two phone interviews, talked with a couple school recruiters, in the process of becoming a ... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 21:08:25 EST Wow, I am married now!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5728952 Finally, jumped the broom, was declared man and wife and I let out a big hallelujah! Glory be to God, all praises unto to Him. Louis and I are very much married and very much in love. <em>337</em> <em>288</em> <em>436</em> <BR> <BR> I am just getting around to the land of the living, was running on pure exhaustion for the last two weeks, not sleeping well, handling last minute details. Thankfully and prayerfully, I was able to pull it all together down to the wire and help create... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 09:52:53 EST Entering In.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721784 Getting down to the wire, in a festive frenzy for my June 28th nuptials. I am being tested of my patience at this time in my life that is really shooting my stress level through the roof. My job takes my energy, robs me of my peace and just plain doesn't care. I don't mean chicken soup and hugs kinda of caring, it just doesn't nurture or foster any hope for me right now. I am flatlined when it comes to creativity and feeling good about a day's work done. It is an ends to a mean, it pays ... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 00:57:37 EST 100 Straight Days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715378 Wow, I have logged into Sparkpeople for 100 straight days now. <em>521</em> <em>551</em> <em>189</em> Light bulb moment now. If I can just log onto this website daily-no matter what, what else could I achieve if I put my mind to it? 100 straight days of no fried foods...100 straight days of walking cardio...100 straight days of bible study...100 straight days of furthering my higher education. The list can go on and on. I can no longer use my upcoming wedding as an excuse, my sic... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 00:43:48 EST Getting Ready for a New Chapter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5711006 I am getting ready for a new chapter in my life in about 23 more days, I will take my marriage vows again. Wow, how about that. I am going down the aisle one more time, in a small fashion. I am in full prayer mode to be the Proverbs 31 Woman my future husband deserves and desires, to be everything that God has called me to be, to be bolder in my Christian walk, to flourish in school, to gain vitality and have better health. Yes, I am getting ready for a new chapter in my life. <BR> <BR... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 04:34:58 EST I have gained a little... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5704835 The scale has ticked upward, not much to my liking. I can't let the fact that I am considering weight loss surgery to be an open smorsgasboard for easy eating. I have come too far on my own, to sabotage what I have accomplished so far. <BR> <BR> I gained a little insight on the frustrations I am experiencing dealing with "dumb people" at work. It is not that I feel I am better or smarter than them, I just realized I got too comfortable on my job and didn't bother pushing my self higher, l... Wed, 28 May 2014 00:37:46 EST While working... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5700622 I am on day shift this week and decided to come into the learning center to check on my unemployment check for last week layoff. I figure now is a good time as any to blog my usual mind musings. <BR> <BR> I am taking a beginning jewelry making class tomorrow in order to get me up to speed in making bracelets for my family members as gifts for my wedding. It is better and more sentimental to me to handcraft than to buy my own for gifts. I like the more personal touch. <BR> <BR> I am als... Thu, 22 May 2014 09:38:28 EST I am the Captain of my own ship... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5697162 I get it. Some folks do not, though. I am in charge of what makes me joyous, what is my destiny, plotting my own course, doing the right thing in accordance to the will of God in my life. I am the captain of my own ship. Man can't give it to me, I can't steal it, I can't get weary in doing well, in doing what is right. I have to stay in my lane and do me. Only I can do me and do what is best. <em>340</em> <em>337</em> <em>338</em> Sat, 17 May 2014 17:24:25 EST Listening to God's voice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5695127 The third day of my week off and I have done quite a few things. I am not hugging the bed in a fit of depression. I am focusing and leaning on God for all matters on my life-including my dog, my impending marriage, going back to grad school, work, weight loss...you name it. I am not being selfish. I am learning to be slow to speak, to listen, not to chastise or be harsh just because I am in disobedience. I remember that sermon from Pastor Butler back in 1992-"Obedience is better than sa... Wed, 14 May 2014 18:43:29 EST Getting through... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5692825 My poodle's test results came back with malignant tumors. The Vet and I discussed treatment options for a dog Baka's age. I remember going through this with my Mom, when she was first diagnosed. I prayed last week for clarity of thought and mental focus for the days ahead as I grapple with decisions in regard to what is best for my baby girl. Yes I am heartbroken, yes I am sad, but I still know that Jesus is on the throne, God is still with me and with Baka-no matter what. <em>338</em> ... Sun, 11 May 2014 20:07:58 EST Stressful Sad Vet News http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687028 I took my two poodles in for their annual visit and shots at a new Vet yesterday here locally. Part of PetSmart, Banfield Pet Hospital has a good reputation and I was impressed with the level of care they give animals and the new preventive treatment program I signed both dogs up on. The new Vet was informative and gave a good exam. Unfortunately things have surfaced with my baby girl-Habakkuk and they are running tests for breast cancer. I am still in shock. Cancer rears its ugly head a... Sun, 4 May 2014 09:25:08 EST Sixty Day Window http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5682839 I have 60 days until my wedding, let the countdown begin! <em>243</em> <em>336</em> <em>288</em> I am in prayer mode and really making my lists and checking them twice. <BR> <BR> What a difference a year makes and I wish my Mom could physically be here to enjoy the my convoluted way of preparing for a lifetime with Lou. Yes I am ready to be a happy wife for life again, to partner with a sane partner and travel this road together. To honor God in our marriage is sacred and so very... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 00:55:56 EST Fun Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681963 I had a nice pleasant weekend beginning with the ladies on Saturday with my bridal shower. It was a nice eclectic group of women who took time out of their busy schedule to honor me and I am so grateful for their presence. Food, games and gifts always makes a gal happy! <em>336</em> <em>44</em> <BR> <BR> Finally got the invitations ordered, they will be here next week and I will put in the mail eight weeks in advance. Wow, as I told Lou, it is getting real! <em>214</em> I am hav... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 22:17:23 EST Graduate School http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678327 Easter always brings refresh newness of spring time, new birth, new life. I like to take stock of 2014 so far, this being my birth month and bridal shower month. Wow, what a difference a year makes. As I approach my small, simple wedding nuptials in June, I look forward to beginning a new life married with a partner who loves me for and supports my dreams and for me to support his dreams. I walk hand in hand with him and together we are a strong force. <BR> <BR> I applied to grad school... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 00:42:16 EST Saturday waiting... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5675971 Waiting, for the stone to roll away. Death has lost the victory and the grave has been denied. Jesus lives forever and ever <em>448</em> <em>125</em> <BR> <BR> It is not about the Easter bunny or spending hours in the beauty salon or getting that new dress. It is about Jesus, Son of God dying on the cross for my sins and everyone else's sin and rising up on the third day. Praise God! <BR> <BR> I read an interesting article on line from Today Christian Woman titled "Is Jesus hijack... Sat, 19 Apr 2014 21:50:39 EST It is a Good Friday... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5675403 It's not about Easter eggs and jelly beans, new dresses and honey baked ham. It's not about my aches and pains, my sadness and grief about my Mom in heaven. It is only about God-who loved the world so much that He gave His only begotten Son, who died on the cross for our sins, so we may have eternal life. God loves me that much. <BR> <BR> Amen to the cross. I am thanking God for His abundant blessings! Fri, 18 Apr 2014 23:16:49 EST It is getting real, for real.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672471 Came home from work tonight and I received my first bridal shower/wedding gift in the mail from my parents already and my wedding isn't until June 28th! <em>336</em> <em>224</em> . Wow I was pleasantly surprised and the thought hit me that it is getting real for real. In two months I will be prancing down the aisle, saying my vows to a wonderful man who accepts me for all that I am and my little dogs too! <em>338</em> <em>338</em> Baka still gives him a hard time, but eventually L... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 00:49:52 EST Do something http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670745 Instead of me thinking about it, pining away for it, dreaming about it, I decided to be about it. Do something, get something done. So I empty a box that has been packed for over a year. <em>224</em> Finally, one of my many boxes empty,sorted and thrown away. No, I did not save it, no room for it, I threw it away and got rid of some junk. My sweetie has to put together one more of my cubes and then I will buy two more to organize my stuff. <BR> <BR> #tryingtogetorganizetohavecontrolo... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 21:34:02 EST Stop making excuses... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669856 I had to get my head out of my rear and stop whining about not losing as quickly as I wanted to. Truth be told, I was sabotaging my own efforts again and I realized this and I had get my act together and stop making excuses. <BR> <BR> There are many more folks who face harder and more difficult challenges than I do and I need to face facts, stop whining do the work to get the job done. <BR> <BR> I worked out this morning with my trainer. He showed me machines that will help strengthen my... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 13:45:25 EST Yesterday's Birthdays http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667025 Yesterday was my Aunt Lillie's earthly birthday, a day after my birthday in which we had her homegoing ceremony in Michigan. Today is her daughter's birthday, my cousin. We had a bond for celebrating April 5, 6 and 7th. It was our threesome. I had to welcome my cousin to the "Mothers in Heaven" club, something I do not wish for anyone to have membership. I am reminded by my devotional studies that we are temporal beings, and our home is our heavenly destination with Christ and we are liv... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 00:40:51 EST Happy Birthday to Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5665331 Lord had blessed me to see another year, for that I am truly grateful. My family buried my Aunt today in Michigan, from I have heard it was a moving and loving tribute. Her birthday is tomorrow but today we celebrate her new birthday with fond and loving memories. <BR> <BR> I started my day with a weight loss challenge kick off here. It will run for eleven weeks, with nutrition classes and weekly raffles, biggest loser style. I will be penalized if I gain, $1 a pound and at the end o... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 22:22:15 EST Working within my mojo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662248 Working on me, getting back to being me, getting my sexy back, finding my mojo and keeping it-whatever it takes, by the necessary steps, getting back to basics and returning love to me first, before I can love anyone else. This is my dedication to me in my birth month of April. Making every day count <em>521</em> <em>250</em> <em>383</em> <em>525</em> <em>364</em> <em>327</em> <em>336</em> <em>346</em> Wed, 2 Apr 2014 00:43:56 EST Focusing hard on my why http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660242 I am starting another challenge this week, a Biggest Loser challenge that I will begin on my birthday Saturday and it will run for eleven weeks. Cash prizes will be awarded at the end, weekly weigh ins, nutrition classes and some exercises. I decided to get a jump start on things and get this cardio thing into high gear. So instead of taking my usual church nap, I decided to walk to the park near my home and back. It is the same route I took a couple days ago on a chilly morning. Big diff... Sun, 30 Mar 2014 19:01:54 EST Resting in His Peace-Aunt Lillie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657895 I attended my team member's Mother funeral this morning. It was a somber occasion and she was grateful for my being there. As I was driving to the funeral, I received a text message that my sweet Aunt Lillie went home to be with the Lord, reunited with her husband, her son, her Mom and Dad-my grandparents, her sister-My wonderful Aunt Harriet who we lost last April and her brother-my Uncle Sam who we lost violently in 1974. Aunt Lillie and I were to celebrate next week our birthdays and no... Thu, 27 Mar 2014 14:28:15 EST Attempting to make sense of His plans... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5656658 My team member is burying her mother this Thursday who passed unexpectedly last Saturday. Today I found out my sweet and funny Aunt Lillie-who has been a staple my whole entire life is on life support and the Dr.'s want my cousins to make the decision to pull the plug. If its not one thing or another, I am trying to make sense of it all. I feel emotionally drained. I am at a lost for words to encourage, uplift, help the lost ones, the ones who cry out why God why, the ones who do not have... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 00:43:53 EST Adding to my Why... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655843 I feel so blessed and comforted by the nice words my fellow sparkers write about my musings here on my blog. It is good to know there are still good and decent folks out there and this new way of communicating to people all over the world on this information highway still boggles my mind today. I love the support and encouragement and feedback that I have been receiving for more than five years on this site and I am truly thankful and honored for everyone who takes a moment out of their own... Tue, 25 Mar 2014 00:56:45 EST Understanding my Why... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653942 As I prepare to head out to work for my sixth day this week, I was having some quiet time with the Lord trying to understand why. Why did my Mom have to die of cancer almost five years ago? She should be here giving me advice and helping me with this small wedding. I want so much for her to share in my joy, celebrate here with me, meet Louis and just be Mommy. I sigh, knowing that my Mom is in a better place, she is now cancer free and she feels fine, no aches, no pains. I do not have to... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 13:45:39 EST Facing my fears and not feeding into them... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653626 I came to a realization today that I fear success on the scale, success in organizing my home with my fiancé, fear of failure and just not cutting it. <BR> <BR> I realize that is a tactic of the devil and I need to cheer myself on so loud that I drown him completely out. <BR> <BR> So that is exactly what I am going to do. Not feed my failures and fears, but to embrace my mistakes as learning lessons and move on. <em>521</em> <em>224</em> <em>211</em> Sat, 22 Mar 2014 00:38:23 EST Today was a good day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5652843 After much reflection from my blog yesterday, I continued to talk with God, not knowing what He would further tell me. He just told me ever so gentle that today would be a good day. Nothing extraordinary, nothing planned special, nothing fancy-only that today would be a good day because He said it to be. It was. <BR> <BR> Amazing. I didn't plan anything special, went to work as usual, just grateful for Him waking me up in my right mind, with a roof over my head and food in my fridge. I ... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 00:44:18 EST God told me... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5652035 I was having a little chat with the Lord, something I do everyday and I was having a little pity party about not having enough time to get things done, to sit and do nothing and God told me in His infinite and wonderful way to stop whining. God told me to manage the hours He has blessed me with better and stop whining. God told me that He will not give me more than I can handle, He hears my cry, He knows my concerns, my faults and my strengths and He knows what needs to be accomplished for ... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 00:41:11 EST It is getting busy again around here... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5642569 I am getting close to the 90 window before my wedding and work is getting crazy, trying to find balance with life without pulling my hair out. The Lenten season is upon us, started this past Wednesday and I am already behind in my bible study. No excuses for the piles of mail on my table, post office runs, trying to fit in this new exercise regime with this new personal trainer I have hired. I have to make this a lifestyle, not have a bunch of excuses not to perform at peak level. I keep ... Sat, 8 Mar 2014 00:50:15 EST I haven't sat on the couch yet... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5635714 Busy, busy, busy...need more hours in the day. My fiancé moved his couch to my TV room from his apartment and everyone has enjoyed lounging in comfort on it except for me. I have been up and running all over the place, trying to fit exercise in , working extra hours, going to bible study, going to financial peace class. My house is a wreck and I am screaming for balance and order to be present, an end to the chaos. And I will have it!! <em>521</em> <em>386</em> <em>224</em> Fri, 28 Feb 2014 00:49:56 EST Stop being aggravated... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5626973 I am really focusing on scripture and keeping my attitude in check by not letting other unhappy folk rain on my parade. I can't let their displeasures with life seep over into my own and take up valuable space. I will stop being aggravated and chart my own destiny and do what I need to do in accordance to God's grand scheme in life. Thy will be done. Tue, 18 Feb 2014 00:53:54 EST Taming my Giants http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5620388 This last bout of bronchitis knocked me down for the count. I am slowly getting back to my ways. Let's just say I am changing my ways, slaying the giants in my mind, not just taming them. I get on a roll thinking I will never lose this weight, have a few successful weeks, then it creeps back on. Not anymore. I need to get rid of that mindset and do like I preach to others. Be like Nike and just do it. Bust a move, get a sweat going, embrace my curves, watch my portions and live life to t... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 12:15:22 EST Coming Around http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5614584 I have been battling a bad bout of bronchitis for the last week, which had me down for the count. I am coming out of it, went back to work today, trying to resume a normal schedule. My new normal that is...I sometimes wonder about that. Getting physically fit and planning my simple back yard wedding is not overwhelming yet. I plan on keeping it that way, staying focused, on task and praying in the spirit. To God be the glory! <em>26</em> Tue, 4 Feb 2014 00:43:58 EST