KAMCCLARY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KAMCCLARY KAMCCLARY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Counting down to a new tool http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6273008 Eight more days and I will have bariatric surgery-the sleeve. I am doing my pre-op prep now. As I write this my stomach is growling but I am motivated to a new way of nourishing my body-eating to live, not living to eat. I didn't bother with food funerals because in the long run, i am learning how to properly fuel, not excessively overeat, wrong food groups, so so and so on. <BR> <BR> And looking at new fitness gear that I will get into, measuring area for my new treadmill and just be ope... Sun, 27 Nov 2016 21:42:29 EST Thanksgiving 2016 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6271742 Another day to give thanks...everyday in my household is Thanksgiving. I do not need a special holiday to be grateful to move in my right mind, flex my muscles, exercise and use my God given talents and just appreciate life and all those around. <BR> <BR> It is my first Thanksgiving without my Dad, my seventh without my Mom and my first without my Father-in-law. Hubby worked early today and I had purpose to get up and do housework. I slept in and made a small dent in to-do list. Contribu... Thu, 24 Nov 2016 21:46:37 EST Veterans Day 2016 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6265406 Today was a nice day to honor Veterans-including myself for the service to our country. Gotta love the good old USA-we are sometimes like a dysfunctional family, so full of ourselves, forgetting those who fought the fight before us, leaving a child here and there behind and stomping on our fellow man just to get a bigger slice of bread. Then there is the valiant USA-standing shoulder to shoulder in times of crisis, banning together and raising our hands in hope for better, actually helping ... Fri, 11 Nov 2016 20:32:33 EST Election Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6263995 So glad this process is going to be over and counting begins in a couple hours. This has been a stressful election year and very eyeopening. It is unfortunate that subtle racism still exists. I have an union negotiated day off and I really do not want to be pinned to the TV this evening. I tried to use this day to get some things organized, had the poodles groomed and just basic catch up. My Dr's office contacted me for more follow up from one of my test. That didn't sit too well with m... Tue, 8 Nov 2016 19:11:24 EST Day after Mom's new birthday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6258312 Day one of going into eight years of Moma having a new address. I played "A Song for Mama" a lot yesterday, worked and got frustrated with folks and just smiled and sighed when I thought of Moma throughout my "new" normal. <BR> <BR> When I settle in for the evening late last night, I was a bit frustrated that paperwork and processes were not going as planned. Then a quiet voice spoke to me and told me to be patient, read on of the letters Paul wrote in the New Testament on having joy in ... Fri, 28 Oct 2016 08:41:23 EST Moma's New Birthday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6257728 The day I dread and rejoice the most...my Mom's new birthday. I played the Moma song by Boyz to Men on the way home from work. It doesn't get any easier, her presence is felt deep in my heart. I no longer enjoy fall's arrival, just trying to get through this day. <BR> <BR> I am ok. I am on a mission to get healthy, lean, physically fit and share my knowledge with others. I am going to snatch back everything the devil has stolen and overcome evil with good. And I will do I with a smil... Thu, 27 Oct 2016 02:33:46 EST Fall's gentle arrival http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6245280 Thanking God for the lower humidity and finally finishing up September. It was a growing month. Buried my father in law and now hubby and I are just learning to live in our new normal. Is there such a thing? Time will tell. <BR> <BR> I was happy to pay off three bills completely and keep my sight on being debt free. I am still working toward my weight loss goals, with this month being the sixth month of counseling-getting closer to getting a surgery date-thinner thighs I see you on my... Sun, 2 Oct 2016 18:34:27 EST Labor Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6230725 Fifth day of the month, getting ready to return to work tomorrow and I was able to reflect on this Labor Day how far I have come, where I want to go and making a plan to get there. <BR> <BR> I am thankful for the message in yesterday sermon that reminded me of the power of the Holy Spirit, that God left us a comforter and to use Him readily. I don't know why that is such a hard thing to remember. I am diligently reminding myself to lean on Him for everything and not try to do it myself. ... Mon, 5 Sep 2016 20:19:35 EST Father gone... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6229666 I am returning back from Minnesota from the burial of my father-in-law. Another Dad gone, that is both of our dads in an eight month time span. August was by far the hottest, most trying month for me this year. It was just grueling and as I sat at the airport on the last day waiting for my flight to Bemidji-I just said goodbye and good riddance. My hubby is strong and I had to be there for him. We drove home together-almost twelve hours, taking our time and talking. <BR> <BR> If there ... Sat, 3 Sep 2016 20:02:40 EST Forging on... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6216478 Sometimes you just have to jump in with both feet and say a prayer and keep it moving. I am just forging on. Had some tough revelations in the past few days with my family and it hurt some members to the core. I had to process it, step back, exhale and process it throughly. <BR> <BR> What I know now...there are two sides to every coin, communication is vital and can be easily thwarted and sometimes brutal honesty is needed. It may be daunting for some, too powerful and spicy to swallow... Fri, 12 Aug 2016 00:53:26 EST Day of Revelation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6214660 Some days are better than others and I realize now what use to be is not always going to be, I have to get over it, suck it up and move on. <BR> <BR> The sad realization that my hero is not my hero and man will disappoint, but thankfully so, God will never fail. <em>39</em> Tue, 9 Aug 2016 00:44:32 EST Ending July hot and strong.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6209918 This has been one hot long month, even with me only working half of it, I am beat and drained <em>198</em> I am hoping to bring August in strong, with grace and mercy. <BR> <em>218</em> <em>298</em> I am going to start a beach fund <em>464</em> <em>461</em> Sun, 31 Jul 2016 18:25:03 EST Did something different today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6207936 Today before work, I got my hiney up at 5:15 am, squeezed into my fat bathing suit and went did 45 minutes lazy river water walking. My back, hips, legs are sore, but I feel accomplished, I had intention and I was just like Nike and did it. And I will get up in the morning and do it again. <em>84</em> Thu, 28 Jul 2016 00:57:07 EST Dog days of summer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6205640 It has been one long, hot, long and very hot summer...Even though I had the first part of July off, the chaotic shape the world is in with all the cop killings, minority killings has made me paranoid to the point I just do not want to face anybody or anything. Motivation-zilch, nada, nothing. Weight horrible and just feeling blah. I return to work last Monday for six straight days and then off today and then again for a repeat. I am going to drag my tail to the throne of grace to have God... Sun, 24 Jul 2016 01:51:42 EST Goodbye Junebug... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6192738 June came roaring in and out like a beast. What a month. <em>198</em> Six months my Dad transition to his heavenly home and all I can say this has been growing six months, a grieving six months, a learning curve six months. <BR> <BR> I look back and still feel the best thing I did for myself was to go into therapy, start the process for getting certified for weight loss surgery, honing my skills with Integrative Nutrition and stepping back and asking myself is this what I really want ... Fri, 1 Jul 2016 00:50:52 EST Got through http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6187295 I got through Father's Day, ate my emotions. Got through my testing for skilled trades at work and for my studies at IIN. Getting through my father-in-law's illness and attempting to squash these negative feelings and emotions as I continue my journey called life. <BR> <BR> Work is hot and hard, and now I am focusing on what I can do, what I can bring in, avenues of income and keeping hope alive. That is all, taking it one breath at a time. <em>530</em> <em>521</em> Wed, 22 Jun 2016 00:48:49 EST June bug http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6174844 How about that, made it to June. To God be the glory. I must say it has been a rough six months, without Daddy now. Therapy does one good, didn't realize I have been dealing with a lot of anxiety that has gone unchecked in my life. <BR> <BR> Now to turn things around. In the process of being medically supervised nutritionally, but I am challenging myself to make good food choices, cut back on the dairy and get more plant based in me. I started my garden <em>368</em> <em>267</em> ... Thu, 2 Jun 2016 00:57:31 EST Fitbit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6164537 All around the corner and back, found my regular fitbit charge-after returning the alta (didn't like it) and the charge HR (programming issues) and now I have the Blaze-question is do I keep the Blaze or stick with what works-my old charge???? Hmmm <em>40</em> Tue, 17 May 2016 00:59:35 EST Work Anniversary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6159804 Tomorrow will be sixteen years I have been with my current employer. To God be the glory is the first thing to come to mind. I have to have a made up mind to put in fourteen more years so I can retire at age 67. I have to have a made up mind to get it done, keep my sanity and my health up, strengthen my body to do this...the first thing I realized today was that I need to go to the throne of grace and ask my heavenly Father for strength, wisdom revelation knowledge and peace of mind to get... Tue, 10 May 2016 00:48:59 EST A day in May... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6155731 Moving right along with spring and all the pollen. I return to work without too much stress..I must say this medication keeps me calm and focused. I know what I need to do to accomplish what I want in this life. All the lying around in bed and pulling the covers over my shoulder and moaning and whining will not bring back either of my parents and life must and will go on. I just have to make a decision to get busy living or get busy dying. <BR> <BR> So I take baby steps in getting back... Tue, 3 May 2016 18:27:23 EST Happy Born Day to Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6135851 <em>383</em> <em>389</em> Thank you God for allowing me to reach my 54th, despite my heartache of both my parents now in heaven with you. I am grateful for the roof over my head, the food in the refrigerator, car in the garage, wonderful supportive family, a job and my general health. I do not look at myself as old, just seasoned and I am excited to see what this year will bring <em>410</em> <em>410</em> Tue, 5 Apr 2016 21:04:19 EST Getting back to me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6133547 Well it is April now, allergies full blown, off work for another week for grief therapy and I just want to take time to get back to me. Forget all the pills, all the appointments, all the chatter in my head, I want to get myself back on strong footing to function without having to deal with some crisis or mess in my life. I want to get back to me. <BR> <BR> So along with taking time to go through this outpatient therapy, I also am taking care of the physical me. So I went to a foot doctor... Sat, 2 Apr 2016 21:27:51 EST Spring is here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6131119 I kinda of been stuck in a rabbit hole so to speak these past few weeks. I went out on stress leave through my job to work on my emotions and get a grip on life in general. Tired of feeling sad and emotionless, no zest for living, just living. I think I see my parents sitting on my couch in the wee hours of the night when I get up to get water or use the bathroom. I can't seem to motivate myself which was one of the driving reasons I went down to my benefit office and it was suggested I g... Wed, 30 Mar 2016 16:55:46 EST Mental Flushing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6102535 I took the first step today by sitting down with the behavioral therapist to get some insight on keeping mental balance in life. <BR> <BR> My life has been in a tailspin since I had shoulder surgery last September and my father's passing in December. To have both parents gone is mind boggling and sometimes I think I will wake up from this dream and everyone will yell sike!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> Not gonna happen, I am afraid. There is no magic wizard behind the curtain that is going to gran... Tue, 23 Feb 2016 00:53:46 EST Just thinking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6094735 Just thinking about all of the things I want to accomplish in life and how sometimes its a drag to "be on a diet". I just bought some girl scout cookies, a flavor for hubby and of course my fav-peanut butter patties. Like, I want to devour the whole entire box right now, but I am doing modified Whole 30 and chocolate for me right now is a no no and the season of Lent began two days ago. <BR> <BR> I really am leaning hard on the Holy Spirit to lead and guide me through this strange and s... Sat, 13 Feb 2016 00:55:13 EST Daddy's Eve http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6092353 My Dad turns 86 years young in heaven tomorrow. I have the day off for dental work. I have been thinking how to honor him because all my life he has owned February 10th. In light of what my family has endured with his past illness, we chose to remember him faithfully as the patriarch of our family, despite all. <BR> <BR> A parent's love is unconditional, no matter what. With both of my parents now in their heavenly address, I can pray that I may live out the rest of my natural days at a ... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 00:57:56 EST January done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6084435 This last day in January, a Sunday and I went to work for seven hours. I have been back for a week and what an eyeopener week it has been. This has been an emotional month for me. I have ran the gamut of feelings from A to Z. I had to lean heavily on my faith, my husband and my family. <BR> <BR> I felt so lost and abandoned by my Dad. His death last month has triggered a lot of uneasy feelings and questions that went to the grave with him. Its too late for that last true conversation... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 00:23:20 EST Getting this Whole 30 in... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6062516 Day three, oh boy...my husband says I am biting his head off as I stop eating the whites (sugar, carbs, dairy, beans and legumes). I thought I was going to lose it last night and then I stepped on the scale this morning and I went through Pinterest. I read my Whole30 book, wrote down another grocery list, got some things I didn't know I could have and bookmarked a lot more. <BR> <BR> The five pound lost helped me remember my why...I was so uptight last night and "hangry", I wanted to thro... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 20:55:32 EST Reflections of 2015... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6056314 2015. Didn't expect to end with burying my Dad. Didn't see that coming. I have been on exist mode since his death two weeks ago. I am have thinking about what do I do now, where do I go, what is next in store for me. I look at my own mortality, my husband's, my family... <BR> <BR> New year starts in a few hours and as I sit here and write this, I think of that last moment my Dad drew his last breath. I think about my Mom already in heaven and what she thought of Daddy coming aboard. I... Thu, 31 Dec 2015 19:16:59 EST Christmas Eve http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6052244 My heart is a bit heavy this Christmas eve, both my parents in heaven now and I am just existing, going through the motion, not really in awe and wonder of this precious time of the year. I am sad, but I am glad that both of my parents are free from sickness and disease, they are well with their parents and I do not have to worry about them. Then I second guess myself-am I a disappointment to them, was I a burden at anytime, are they proud of me? <BR> <BR> I know I do not need to beat my... Thu, 24 Dec 2015 20:15:30 EST Living lessons in life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6050399 I have returned to Kansas City after a long week back home honoring my Dad. Its wasn't the outcome I hoped for or expected. I am still numb. As I unpack my suitcase, go through the mail and wander around my home looking at the hurricane the way I left it, I wonder to myself what do I do now? <BR> <BR> I asked myself-who is going to take care of Kelly now? In the quiet stillness, I feel the presence of my parents and I know how well they raised me to do right and not do wrong. My husband... Sun, 20 Dec 2015 21:19:19 EST Heart Health-Losing Daddy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6048073 I lost my Dad today to heart failure. I am at a loss for words. We were hoping that Daddy would come out of it, but not this last hospital stay. It has been touch and go for a long time for Daddy. He fought like hell to be here for all of his daughters. He loved us so much and wanted the world for us. He was able to make the trip last year in June to walk me down the aisle to marry my sweet Lou and give me away. He wanted my every happiness. <BR> <BR> I am flooded with memories and ... Tue, 15 Dec 2015 20:21:50 EST Doing it again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6047636 Never thought I would be writing about a parent transitioning, here I go again. My Dad. He is closing in on the end of his old chapter, awaiting the new. The Doctors have tried all of their cocktails to help his heart and none avail. I flew to Detroit in a rush late Sunday evening to arrive at his bedside and hold his hands and pray, sing, remember and speak words of life. Oh boy, here I go again... Mon, 14 Dec 2015 23:17:11 EST December training http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6044491 I started December off strong by giving myself the best possible Christmas present ever. It is not what is under the tree or in the stores, it is the gift of health and wealth. I contacted and interviewed a financial planner and will get professional help in getting my act together and I paid for my gym membership in full and also met with and purchased 12 training sessions with a personal trainer. <em>85</em> <em>231</em> <BR> <BR> I want my bank account to go up and the scale to go ... Tue, 8 Dec 2015 20:12:55 EST Simple Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6039054 Thanksgiving has come and gone, I need to clean out the fridge with all the eats I had in there. I know I am in trouble when I am huffing and puffing to put socks on or trying on coats size 3x and I can't zip them up. No way. I am not going to take this lying down. I am going to use my new exercise gear for real sweat, preparing my body for the rigors of going back to work next month. I refuse to be in a world of hurt, have heart issues, respiratory problems, counter looking like Walgree... Sat, 28 Nov 2015 13:08:58 EST Staying in my lane http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6035708 Well I tried to pass the tax class exam-my figures weren't right on the prepared portion. I am okay with that. I was trying to save cost for getting taxes done next year. But I am more wiser for having taken the course, it didn't cost me because I am a veteran and I am moving on, staying in my lane. Maybe it wasn't for me prepare other folks taxes, getting frustrate4d with being off my a dime....stay in my lane. <BR> <BR> I visited home last weekend after a three year hiatus. I stopped... Sat, 21 Nov 2015 13:31:43 EST Attended another VWise again.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6029419 I attended my second VWise conference that was held here in my backyard in Overland Park over the weekend. I got inspired. I made some new friends. I was frustrated. I was uncomfortable in my own skin. I had a reality check. It was an overwhelming emotional weekend. I had a few come to Jesus moments. <BR> <BR> The hotel, Sheraton, was okay. Nothing spectacular. They fed us well, and my hubby and I stayed overnight. We were uncomfortable in the bed, not as soft and I really wanted... Mon, 9 Nov 2015 18:01:12 EST Let it Pass http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6023286 I didn't feel like blogging on Tuesday, the sixth anniversary of my Mom's passing. I went to physical therapy, went and had wings with my Lou and tried not to cry. I said a prayer, kept Mom in remembrance and kept it moving. I didn't do my business posts on Tuesday, just some pictures of Moma to remember her smiling face that I see so much of me in there. I didn't want to forget not to forget, but I didn't want to make it a sad day. I took the next day, yesterday in stride. Day one of ... Thu, 29 Oct 2015 18:03:55 EST Denying my new norm... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6012600 I use to look forward to getting off Friday night into Saturday morning, crawling home to bed to get up and run around like a crazy person, trying to fit all of my to-do list into one glorious day that I truly enjoyed having off. My weekends were filled with getting stuff done, trying to get stuff done and doing fun stuff all piled up on each other. After working long, hot, tedious hours all summer long, everything came to a screeching halt once I had shoulder surgery a month ago. <BR> <... Sat, 10 Oct 2015 10:41:05 EST Rock October... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6011799 Oh it this month October again...traditionally my busiest month, celebration of my Mom's homogenize and whole bunch of stuff. I am handling it okay. I had a little pity party the other morning, whining about being off work on work comp and ready to go back to work. I have so many home projects and I am in tax preparers school. The good Lord quickly reminded me that He has my full attention and that He will be handling anything that comes up. I had to repent... <BR> <BR> I heard the smal... Thu, 8 Oct 2015 19:46:19 EST Lost another Giant http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6005114 My Missouri Mom made her transition home to be with Jesus this morning. She introduced me to network marketing, always welcomed me in her home and just loved on me. I received a text message from her daughter in July telling me that she was in home hospice, that the Dr's did all they could for her cancer that was in her brain stem. This is her second and ultimately her last bout with this dreaded f&^%$ing disease and when I drove to STL to see her and sit by her bedside she vowed that she ... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 20:11:27 EST What is next... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6000854 Okay I had the surgery September 9th. Oy boy...what a journey its been. Pain ebbs a lot, medication makes me throw up, to counter the strong medication, the other meds keeps me backed up if you know what I mean. I spent the first week with no underwear close to my bathroom. All this for going to work everyday and doing me job...work comp sucks. <em>525</em> <BR> <BR> Thank God for my hubby-he has been my champion. He helps keep me clean, take care of dogs, sees that i get up and move... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 14:26:59 EST Shoulder Sweet Surrender http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5993795 Tomorrow morning I am scheduled to have shoulder surgery. I have run the gamut of emotions-feeling kinda eerie. Not one to be of doom and gloom-I think my nerves are working overtime, the devil is trying to send me into a chaotic tailspin and fill me with doom and gloom. <BR> <BR> I just need to exhale, remember the God I serve and by His will be done. Peace. <em>437</em> <em>88</em> Wed, 9 Sep 2015 00:03:19 EST September Sweet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5991622 Or maybe not so sweet. There is light at the end of the tunnel for me getting off this third shift. The process of training this summer has been slow and tedious , filled with lots of ups and more downs. August was a brutal month-I can't even talk nice about it. That month closed with a deep sigh escaping me and has me still shaking my head. I made it through, thanking God for watching over me. It could have been worse. <BR> <BR> Right after my Mom's birthday in heaven last month-I suf... Sat, 5 Sep 2015 17:02:30 EST Oh my... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5984602 Shoulder surgery. Yes, workplace injury. Waiting for the referred Surgeon to call in order to get the party started. Trying to prepare for the new contract, new paint shop to get up and rolling, organizing my home for Lou and I's comfort and getting my act together and preparing for the Fall workout season. Oh well, when life gives you lemons, make sweet lemonade. <BR> <BR> I am in prayer, praying for a successful surgery, expedited recovery, wisdom revelation knowledge and moving fort... Tue, 25 Aug 2015 15:25:57 EST August Rising http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5978070 Or getting on by with the days. I blinked and it is the middle of the month, oh where does the time go? Flip flopping shifts and start times, feeling the stress and strain of meeting deadlines. Trying to keep the house together and keep the husband happy. Oh the many hats we women wear <em>346</em> <em>342</em> <BR> <BR> I pray to spend what's left of Summer being happy, living life to the fullest and being all that God has created me to be. <em>464</em> <em>462</em> <em>218... Fri, 14 Aug 2015 21:13:56 EST Welcome August http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5970502 The final month of summer to me...summer of lots of rain and lots of garden weeds. No planting this year as I deal with my allergies(finally). Taking a grip on my proper portion control, getting my proper nutrients and keeping my blood sugar in check. Celebrating life one day at a time-because it is precious. <BR> <BR> This is my Mother's birth month. She will be celebrating 84 years young in heaven with Jesus this coming Tuesday. I was talking with my sister earlier who said she feel... Sat, 1 Aug 2015 22:04:27 EST Life is precious http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5970006 Cancer visited my doorstep once again-an unwelcome and uninvited guest. My play Mom Connie has been invaded and ravaged by this disease. I worked a twelve hour shift, came home and changed and had my husband drive me to St. Louis just so I could sit by her bedside and pray with her. Her spirit is fighting and she is determined to beat this beast, despite what the Dr's have told her. <BR> <BR> She told me that she knows that I miss my Mom whom I lost to this beast and she knows my heart.... Fri, 31 Jul 2015 23:44:45 EST Its okay to ask for help... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5960843 I am reminded that it is okay to ask for help. I asked God to help me with finances, preparing for contract negotiations and when helped appeared-I was in disbelief, in fact I shunned it. I asked God for help with this crazy midnight shift overtime, working 12 hour days and trying to complete this four week course-help arrived and I am still a bit scared to believe. <BR> <BR> I learned today even in my chaotic world-God is still God, He hears and will answer my prayers In due season when... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 19:24:46 EST Sometimes we bounce... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5959085 Doing some cleaning and purging in my soon to be book/creative room, I fell out of the chair I was scooting on and bounce on my right side. Yeah sometimes we bounce, I have enough fluff, boy I am going to feel it tonight. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Going into my fourth week in school, second week on midnights and I am in the middle of July. I wish I could attend a few more conferences this summer-that is not going to work. Contract negotiations kick off Monday for the my union and employer ... Sat, 11 Jul 2015 13:23:00 EST