KAIKAI80's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KAIKAI80 KAIKAI80's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Lost Weight...but... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5303026 I woke up this morning ....in deep thought.... there are many hurdles in life that can effect weight loss.... and I think one of the biggest hurdles is just that i take EVERYTHING im dealing with emotionally.....and i surpress it all..... and that has impacted my life in many ways.... ( lol) It's weird because I want the best for m friends and family but I can't solve everyones issues.... I'm at the point today where I'm just focused on me...and slowly trying to exhale alot that i have just s... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 09:52:18 EST Upcoming Wedding...and my progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5266122 Feeling inspired lately... I guess just making better decisions for myself when it comes to food !!!! Im getting married in 8 months and yes i want to look good.... but more importantly I want to FEEL good. Life has been throwing alot of curve balls in my direction lately.....and for once im not solving those issues with food. I went wedding dress shopping on Saturday and i was able to view my body and figure out what I want to work on..... I'm proud today... took me a very long time to get h... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 14:37:43 EST 2013- Giving the New Years Resoultions Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5171017 I'm weighing in at 184 and I'm actually proud of myself... I would like to hit 180 on new years day so I'm going to be concentrating on that number and make it happen... If you look through my pics and look at 2012 compare to 2011 my face looks different and i feel better about myself... I recently got engaged and my wedding is set for 10/19/13 so i basically have around 8-9 months to work my ass off lol !!!!! so to speak ... my wedding goal weight is 165.... so spark buddies wish me ENDURANC... Wed, 19 Dec 2012 11:16:59 EST New Year .. New Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4673893 Life has been very different lately... Not just where weight loss is concerned but how I view myself...and my life... to be honest i've always been a people pleaser . Making sure that other peoples needs were taken care before my own. it's funny sometimes you know that others are using you but you sort of feel responsible because you have condoned the behavior in the past so your not sure how to break the cycle. Not only am i shedding weight within my body but also with friends, family and ha... Wed, 11 Jan 2012 12:58:32 EST Sleep Apnea, PCOS and diabetes knocking down my door http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4066465 so spark i had to blog today because I've been carrying around alot of weight ... no pun intended...lol I've been really tired lately... and recently went to see a specialist.... the visit had me in tears... but tears of joy because i finally found someone who said ...that I wasn't going crazy...because of my pre-conditions he was not surpirsed that any weight loss I had was short lived...I have been surrounded by ppl who exercise and diet and there weight loss has been inspirational..and no ... Fri, 4 Mar 2011 15:08:45 EST my workout goals this week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3029789 So this weeks goals <BR> <BR> I'm committing to 180 min of cardio at the gym <BR> <BR> I am meeting with a Trainer for weight training on Thursday morning @ 6:30am <BR> <BR> Walk on my lunch break three times this week <BR> <BR> Walk home 1.5 miles Monday, Tuesday, Thursday <BR> <BR> and getting up and out of bed so that I can make it to the gym on saturday morning !!!!! <BR> <BR> Mon, 22 Mar 2010 13:38:50 EST My lesson this week with weigh ins http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2855778 So my blog today is in regards to weekly weigh ins.... I worked out hard last week... I watched my food intake...and exspected success once I stepped on the scale friday afternoon for my weekly weigh in. To my surprise i was 2 pounds heavier...and all though i know that this could be muscle gain... the two pounds wreaked havoc on my motivation.... to be honest I couldn't stop thinking about it all weekend. When I first started working out my spark mentor did say that it's not so much about th... Mon, 8 Feb 2010 10:43:08 EST 1 pound at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2771351 Good Morning so every morning for me it's a battle to get up at 5:30 so I can be out the house by 6:15am and be at the gym for 7:00 ( which is conveinently located at my place of employment.... thank God for that) The days I do not make it to the gym.... sleep has won the battle. I've been doing pretty well lately...consistenlty making it to the gym atleast 3x a week.... My NEW attitude is 1 pound at a time. The first week of January I was so upset when I gained 3 pounds over the holidays and... Wed, 20 Jan 2010 10:00:43 EST I'm trying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2650317 I'm tired but I feel alot better I've been trying to take my weight loss 1 pound at a time ...On 10/9/2009 I set my weight loss goal of 23 pounds..... I have nine pounds to go before I reach my goal...I have an appt with the Reproduction Specialist on 1/22/2010... His primary goal is to make sure that I know how to live a healthy life style seeing that I'd like to start conceiving @ 32 which will put me at high risk. To be honest I wanted to go back to the doctor with some weight loss suc... Tue, 22 Dec 2009 13:12:24 EST I'm fighting for my life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2466249 So today I had a doctors appt with my reproduction specialist ... Since I've gained weight I've kept the number a secret for so long... Its like when you don't have weight issues and then all of a sudden you do there is this shame that I can't describe..... So when I weighed in today ...193 and I could have curled up and died right there. ...I've been depressed because my clothes do not fit the same...every morning is a struggle and I'm not used to that because I love clothes... This is me b... Fri, 9 Oct 2009 15:29:53 EST James Brown... I feeeeel Good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2409756 I feeeeeeeeeeel great... I don't know if I've lost any weight but for the past three weeks I've been trying to eat well, and excercise. I have been so stressed lately with work and things going on in my personal life...but I've been trying to remain positive and to keep tracking my food... Even if it has been a bad day... my new motto is that I am ACCOUNTABLE for everything that i put into my body...and that ownership has me very cautious about my food decisions. I also had to chnage the "die... Fri, 18 Sep 2009 10:38:07 EST So I've relapsed in my journey but i'm backkkkk ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2250092 Hey everyone so I have been MIA for atleast 4 months I wish I could report that I've been on track... No such luck. The worst part about it is that I feel terrible inside forget about how the outside appearance. But today I had a conversation with a friend and fellow "successful" spark sister and I've realized that I need to get back on the ball. I was diagnosed with PCOS in 2001 and I kept it a secret for so long .. I'm now 29 years old and have been having anxiety in regards to not being ab... Wed, 22 Jul 2009 11:08:27 EST dramatic music playing...weigh in thursday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1689861 So I have a doctors appt on 1/15/09....kind of the official weigh in for the beginning of 2009.... I know that the number will probably shock me...but I think thats what I need to get back on the right path.... Someone gave me some great advice they told me it takes 21 days to break a habit... i've reversed it.. I have two habits I need to break...atleast for 21 days (social drinking... capt morgan and coke... and take out) I'm a very social person but i need to start doing more activities th... Mon, 12 Jan 2009 13:00:49 EST Happy Healthy New Year To you... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1635999 So today is December 31st ....The New Year starts tommorrow and I'm extremely excited. My weight is an project for me and one that i tackle on a daily basis. No one day is easier than the next.... This year has been very stressful at times but the good days definately outweighed the bad .. I've realized that we have to enjoy life whether we are where we want to be or not ( GOAL WISE) because the one thing we cannot replace is time.... I've heard friends say ...life will be so great when I los... Wed, 31 Dec 2008 11:49:13 EST over indulging...lead to my guilt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1620579 So this morning I entered all that I consumed this weekend and I felt SHAME...the funny part about it is when I was eating this weekend I knew the damage I was doing yet I still continued to over indulge...Its funny some time our greatest enemy is self... afraid of the possibility of actually obtaining that goal so we sabatoge ourselves... i felt guilt as i ate this weekend and felt worse when I saw the numbers this morning... but Today is what counts I need to just get back on the band wa... Mon, 22 Dec 2008 14:21:15 EST little black dress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1538634 Let me start by saying that the women on this site are nothing short of being awesome.... <BR> I am learning to spend more time with self and doing things that make me happy.. This weekend I went to a fall dance with my parents ... Normally when I have to shop for formal wear I hate it but I recently had a breast reduction (7/09/08) and my body compostion has changed ( due to eliminating fruit juice and pasta) when I tried the dress on it was like a glove to a hand...lately I've had alot of... Wed, 29 Oct 2008 13:20:18 EST unsupportive people http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1528184 It's so funny when ever you try and do something positive in your life there are always people who are quick to tell you why it cannot be accomplished... It's not even with words ...but also actions.. negative attitudes because your trying to do your best...My attitude lately is just to cut toxic people out of my life period...I don't even see myself being cordial...Other people oppinion or even support really dosen't matter to me at this point because I'm on a mission.... Project kai-miko Thu, 23 Oct 2008 11:43:10 EST