KAHLADANIELLE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KAHLADANIELLE KAHLADANIELLE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Back "home" at Sparkpeople http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6089103 I strayed and tried using another site for a couple of years but it lacked the intimacy that SP gives. So... Here's what I've been up to. I'm still taking care of my dad. Since my last post here, I got engaged, got married, and my husband lives with me now. I feel bad saying this but he has made me a worse person. He spends a lot of time sitting the computer so I've become a person who does too and I'm suffering for it. Backstory: I used to be depressed and on the pc 24/7. I broke that hab... Sat, 6 Feb 2016 08:27:46 EST Everyone in the world has been sick! Ahhh! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5280077 My daughter has been sick, my boyfriend, my dad, I've been living off of junk food. One night since my last entry I was in the emergency room with my dad and I LITERALLY HAD COOKIES FOR DINNER. <BR> <BR> I have a kitchen stocked full of fruits and vegetables now though: oranges, pluots, bananas, zucchini, squash, cauliflower, and SANTA CLAUS MELONS! <BR> <BR> I think I should start talking more about what I eat, because it'll keep me more focused on food if I'm posting it here too. Idea fr... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 12:09:23 EST What I've been up to http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5270833 Okay, my boyfriend is a TERRIBLE influence! He knows I'm trying to lose weight, so he comes over and... makes monkey bread. And he craves sweets all the time, so I end up making him cookies, and sharing. And then I make bread, and, and, and "one cheat day" turns into "cooking indulgent food because I still feel the need to impress my boyfriend who practically lives with me and already knows I'm a really good cook." OOPS! <BR> <BR> So, back on track, starting today. Life is pretty ... overwh... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 09:09:03 EST My first cheat day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5243725 I had my first cheat day a few days ago. It was awesome. I don't think I ever even touched sugar, but I probably ate my weight in fried cornbread. Back on track yesterday, and today I can't wait until the girls nap so I can exercise. My boyfriend seems to be loving how my legs are firming up! A few days ago one of my guy friends noticed I had lost a bit of weight, too. Awesome! I'm officially 14 lbs down. Sparkpeople says 13 but I was kidding myself when I put 178 as my starting point! Haha!  Sat, 9 Feb 2013 09:24:04 EST Okay, so... Happy times. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5234429 I just read my last blog entry. It's crazy how defeated I was then. The yoga that I did that became a regular thing, and honestly the first few days I did it, I cried. My back was in agony. But, after a few days, my pain level decreased from a constant seven to a 5... And then a 3... And just a few days ago, I realized that even my sacroiliac joint no longer even hurts, which has been a constant for almost the past 13 years. <BR> <BR> I think this can also be attributed to the fact that my ... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 11:42:11 EST More of the same, blargh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5155861 Haven't been here in a while. My last post said that I had hurt my back. Well, it still isn't better, and frustration over me hurting my back every few months and it hurting for several months before getting better for a couple of months SINCE I WAS THIRTEEN led me to find out I may have something called ankylosing spondylitis which is basically arthritis of the spine and leads to inflammation and the eventual fusion of your spine. <BR> <BR> I've been really, really depressed about this, so... Tue, 4 Dec 2012 11:03:38 EST My scale is broken! And so am I! Haha http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5067658 So, my daughter had a slumber party night before last and at some point during the night, I hurt my back even worse. I've been hurting pretty badly, so still no workouts. :/ <BR> <BR> I've stayed within my calorie limits though, except one day because a neighbor gave me some Pepperidge Farm Pirouettes. o_o Two servings put me at 1700 for that day... oops. So, no working out, but generally within my calorie limits, only healthy food for the most part... <BR> <BR> BUT MY SCALE SAYS I'VE GAIN... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 10:45:36 EST Still on track... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5063281 Except now I've hurt my back, so I'll be missing a few workouts again, in the interest of not aggravating my injury... and being able to walk tomorrow. Crap. <BR> <BR> And I'm sure the weight loss is still going on, I'm still within my calorie limits almost every day, but I'm so bloated right now! Thank you, ovulation. Much like when I'm PMSing, I've got cramps and bloating and ALL that fun stuff. <BR> <BR> Can't decide what I want to make for dinner, either. Salt and pepper tofu with stir... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 13:17:26 EST Um... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5056913 I'm not tracking today's calories... we're just going to pretend it didn't happen... moving on... LOL Wed, 12 Sep 2012 23:09:29 EST Exactly one month later... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5052207 And I'm down 15 pounds! I'm EXCITED. <BR> <BR> What was really awesome is I had an order to make for a friend's daughter's birthday. Two dozen cupcakes.. and I can't deny licking the beaters... but I didn't eat any of the extras! Woo, self control! ;) Mon, 10 Sep 2012 09:31:20 EST Woot! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5049659 Gotten lazy with blogging, but I'm right on target still! Keeping up with workouts and diet, I'm losing a steady 2 lbs a week and I am down 14 lbs! I can't wait until this time next week, when it's 16 lbs! <BR> <BR> Up until this point I hadn't noticed a change in my appearance, only in the way my clothes fit. Yesterday I looked at my pictures on facebook and realized that I do look thinner now! I look different when I look in the mirror. Just slightly thinner so far, but I'm excited. ;) An... Sat, 8 Sep 2012 11:35:05 EST So excited... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5039094 I'm still not back on track with my workouts, but I got myself some new shoes today which will help (my old ones were FALLING APART!) and I'm GETTING TO LEAVE THE HOUSE TONIGHT. The boyfriend and I are heading to Huddle House tonight with some of his work friends after my dad goes to bed. I'm SO EXCITED. This, along with spending some time with my boyfriend, is exactly what I need. I don't often get the chance to get out of the house with my dad's Alzheimer's. Tonight is going to be awesome. ... Fri, 31 Aug 2012 17:03:27 EST 4 workouts missed. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5035781 I'm so disappointed, but it's because I am so consumed with helping my dad. He needs constant, absolutely CONSTANT supervision right now. Before, he would sit on the porch when I did my workouts. Now, if he is sitting on the porch, I have to watch him to make sure that he isn't trying to walk around the yard. He is much less independent now, and he is awake when I wake up and by the time he decides to go to bed (and stay in bed) I am so exhausted that I can't work out. I've been going to bed ... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 09:32:38 EST So I've missed two workouts... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5032806 My dad fell and hurt his knee day before yesterday. He can barely get up and down, and walking is difficult... and he is a very active guy to be 75 and have Alzheimer's, so it's been ROUGH the past few days, especially considering I had work yesterday. So, I missed two workouts. <BR> <BR> I'm not going to let it happen today, but I forsee me spending my workout arguing with my dad over whether or not he should take a walk. He's convinced that walking on it makes it feel better, but he isn't ... Mon, 27 Aug 2012 08:55:32 EST Power 90 day 9 - done. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5028120 I always feel SO much better when I'm finished with my workout. It's a relief to get it done and out of the way! I get sooo bored with the Sweat 1/2 though. I mean, it's still challenging, it's not boring because it's easy by any means... I think my next cardio day will be Zumba or Turbo Jam, followed by Ab Ripper 100 instead. <BR> <BR> Spinach burgers for dinner tonight, I'm very excited. I can't wait to start cooking! Haha. <BR> <BR> I'm in the 160's! I'm 169.5 and I'm VERY excited abou... Thu, 23 Aug 2012 15:26:16 EST 1st week of working out, complete! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5024292 I'm proud of myself. Really super happy with myself right now! Tomorrow is my rest day and I plan to fully enjoy it. I also bought a new shirt and sent my boyfriend a picture and he said that he can tell I've lost weight! I can't wait to see him for real on Wednesday! Tue, 21 Aug 2012 00:42:16 EST WORK! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5020491 Guys, I am SUPER RIDICULOUSLY PUMPED! My niece has agreed to babysit my daughter AND my dad for me to go back to work 1-2 days a week. Now, that's not much at all, but when you've been trapped at home for months, leaving maybe once or twice every couple of weeks, it's going to be such a relief... and the extra cash won't be much, but it'll be enough to treat myself every now and then. I'm SO excited!! <BR> <BR> And also, it won't hurt my waist line this time. I'm NOT going to eat that pizza... Sat, 18 Aug 2012 10:29:33 EST Yay me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5019619 So, I was RIDICULOUSLY sore and tired today... and I made myself do my exercise routine anyway. I'm proud of myself! I wanted to say no so bad. I wanted to put it off. But I didn't! Wooo!! Fri, 17 Aug 2012 14:52:29 EST Hi, abs. Long time no feel. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5018259 I guess I shouldn't be surprised considering I haven't done any ab exercises since giving birth, and pregnancy wreaks havoc on your abs... but considering I always had one of the highest counts of sit ups in school when we did our physical fitness tests, I'm absolutely ashamed at how difficult ab work is for me now. That'll change... but it's gonna SUCK in the mean time!! Thu, 16 Aug 2012 14:54:45 EST Aaaaand I'm back again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5015344 I've been really struggling through life again lately. I haven't experienced crippling anxiety and depression this bad in years, and it has been starting to consume me the way it did when I was younger. I've been put in the position of being the sole caregiver of my father, who has no medicare benefits, and I can't put him into a nursing home without losing our home. I'm unable to work right now because I have absolutely no living family that is able to help out. My family who hasn't passed a... Tue, 14 Aug 2012 15:17:44 EST Blargh! :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4777841 Still eating right, mostly. Got some really bad news that lead to me eating my emotions a few nights ago. Basically, I am the sole caregiver for my dad, my 13 year old niece, and my daughter right now. My dad is 75 and has Alzheimer's. I work Friday, Saturday, and Sunday... I was sharing this with my sister. She was staying with my dad while I worked and I would give her a little bit of money for babysitting and staying with daddy. Well, she is in jail right now, and that makes it increasing... Thu, 8 Mar 2012 17:28:56 EST YAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4025298 As of today I am officially in the normal weight range! It's the first time I've been here in YEARS! I am SOOOO EXCITED!!! And today is a beautiful day. Unfortunately I've been sick for the past few days so I'm probably not going to get out enjoy it, but I'd love to go for a nice walk today with my baby. Oh well, I'm going shopping this weekend and I CANT WAIT to buy smaller clothes!! Thu, 17 Feb 2011 12:47:34 EST Back to actually trying. Woo. :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3990165 So, after my initial streak of weight loss after coming off of my medication, I got knocked up, and got back to my starting weight of 204 lbs. Fortunately, most of it was baby weight. :) I left the hospital at 187 lbs and since then I have been nursing my baby and running around like a maniac trying to keep the house clean and my baby taken care of AND taking care of my dad. Apparently all this running around burns a lot of calories because without even trying I weigh less than I have since I... Fri, 4 Feb 2011 13:10:12 EST Not taking my meds part 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2164813 I am happy again! I'm almost wondering how much of an impact depression has on your metabolism because as of today I am down THIRTY EIGHT POUNDS. A little over two months ago I wrote that I had lost 20 lbs, and well, today I am 18 lbs lighter. Where is it going and how is it coming off? I have absolutely no idea... I'm probably eating around 2500 calories a day! I'm no more active than I was before, no change in diet or exercise, just... not being sad. Woo!!! Fri, 19 Jun 2009 16:00:56 EST I LOVE NOT TAKING MY MEDS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1948249 This does mean I have the occasional breakdown (like Friday night I ruined my cellphone and it was the LAST thing I needed right now so I spent over an hour in the office at work crying!) but... it also means that I've lost 20 lbs without even trying. <BR> <BR> I am back to the weight I was when i started working at Pizza Hut, and that's with no diet or exercise outside of running around at work. I've been eating junk food and drinking soda so I KNOW I've been a bad girl, but the weight is... Mon, 6 Apr 2009 13:07:58 EST So far so good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1597569 I walked to the doctor and back yesterday because of car problems, and it SNOWED on the way there. Not very hard, but a little bit. It was freezing! My appointment was just for a re-check though, but I'm having some bloodwork done to check for thyroid problems (because my mother has had a lot of thyroid problems) and vitamin deficiencies which I shouldn't have because I am pretty anal retentive about taking multivitamins and even my b12 supplement. <BR> <BR> I was proud of myself for going ... Fri, 5 Dec 2008 15:20:04 EST Back again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1594549 I've eaten HORRIBLY the past week! I think I used the holidays as an excuse to binge. Thanksgiving was okay, but the days afterwards? Pfft. <BR> <BR> I've eaten well today so far. I went grocery shopping last night, and complained for the second time to Walmart that they NEED to carry vegetable broth. They literally have chicken broth and turkey broth EVERYWHERE right now because of the holidays, but absolutely no vegetable broth or vegetable bouillon. Grrr. I can't get vegetable broth in A... Wed, 3 Dec 2008 17:54:54 EST Happy Thanksgiving everyone! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1585508 It may be Thanksgiving, and I can tell you now that I will eat until I don't want to eat ever again, but I will make sure to at the very least get my 8 servings of fruits and veggies and 8+ glasses of water. Thu, 27 Nov 2008 16:36:41 EST A case of the diet bipolar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1584791 Depression. Ugh. It'll reek havoc on your diet. When I'm sad I never feel full and I just want to eat and eat and eat. And then I feel worse because I just ate, and so I eat some more. It's a terrible cycle and one of the biggest reasons I gained all the weight the first time around. I should have all this energy from all this food but I'm sooo tired... <BR> <BR> Sometimes, though, I eat so healthy for a couple of days and do everything so right. Last year I wasn't all or nothing, I wish I c... Wed, 26 Nov 2008 21:57:30 EST Are you there, Sparkpeople? It's me, Kahla http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1479840 How I've missed you, Sparkpeople. <BR> <BR> These past few months have been utter chaos and emotional turmoil. It's so hard to watch what I eat when I'm spending 90% of my time trying to avoid having a nervous breakdown. Fri, 26 Sep 2008 01:51:53 EST June 24th - A realization http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1290962 So I haven't been eating too well lately, but no matter WHAT junk food I eat I make sure to get in atleast five servings of fruits and vegetables a day! <BR> <BR> I had a realization yesterday though. I turn 21 in 11 days. Something I haven't told anyone-- Last year, on my 20th birthday, I was very depressed and suicidal and I told myself that I was so tired of life being this way that if I didn't make a change and at least feel happier and start getting my life on track by the time I turned... Tue, 24 Jun 2008 15:09:45 EST June 18th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1279168 So, I've been meaning to update for a while now, but I have had the flu, and I'm still dealing with the post-flu ickies (I still have a sore throat, constant headache, and cough), but I'm starting to feel better. <BR> <BR> This weekend, I made my first big purchase since getting a job. I BOUGHT A CAR. It's a 1990 mazda mx-6, and while it's kind of an older car... they're apparently *really* good cars. The car itself has quite a few miles on it, but the motor is newer than the rest of it, and... Wed, 18 Jun 2008 20:10:38 EST June 7th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1255154 Work always ruins my good eating habits! <BR> <BR> I've had a migraine since about 6 yesterday. I didn't finish all of my pre-closing server duties and I feel bad, oops. <BR> <BR> I'm going to try and eat better. I really need to get one of those mr. bentos so I can take tasty food from home to work so working doesn't ruin my diet! <BR> <BR> Last night I got what should have been a confidence boost... a man came in and told me I was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen, gave me a $12... Sat, 7 Jun 2008 10:03:07 EST June 3rd http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1246678 Lets seee... time to start over! All of the stuff I had made before this weekend went bad in the fridge during the weekend when I was too busy working to eat any of it! <BR> <BR> Time to go grocery shopping AGAIN. Haha. <BR> <BR> Yesterday at the library I re-checked some cookbooks (and got a new one)! This is what I got <BR> <BR> -Joy of Cooking: I just got this one yesterday, not even REMOTELY vegetarian (stuffed beef heart? guhross!) but basically the cooking bible. I'm positive I'll ... Tue, 3 Jun 2008 11:34:49 EST June 1st http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1242317 I wish I could say the past few days have been a blur of fresh produce, whole grains, and no sugar... but I've spent almost 24 hours at work the past two days and when I did have the time to eat, it was mostly junk! Pizza Hut's chocolate dunkers are my worst enemies, I swear. They sit on the break table, taunting me. It sucks, when we're short handed and we only have two or three people working our butts off, sometimes I don't get to eat or drink anything for a really long time. Once things ... Sun, 1 Jun 2008 16:19:59 EST may 28.5 - random cravings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1235687 Whenever I start eating really well again, I start getting the most bizarre cravings. I'm craving meat really badly, but not even REAL meat or chicken, I'm craving McDonalds Cheeseburgers. Those might as well be slices of cardboard dunked in oil with some cheese and ketchup on top. <BR> <BR> I just yawned and suddenly I'm craving a chicken sandwich from Dairy Queen. <BR> <BR> Hahaha. <BR> Thu, 29 May 2008 03:22:43 EST May 28 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1234201 On the menu today we have: <BR> <BR> breakfast - raspberry smoothie with half a cup of raspberries, one cup soymilk, and a small banana <BR> <BR> lunch: tofu scramble! with lots of mushrooms and spinach <BR> <BR> dinner: chickpea salad in a pita, roasted cauliflower <BR> <BR> later: mujadara <BR> snack: a big salad <BR> <BR> Lets hope now that I can EAT all that. It adds up to <BR> <BR> 1,301 calories <BR> 182 carbs <BR> 45 grams of fat <BR> 57 grams of protein <BR> <BR> Chickpea salad... Wed, 28 May 2008 12:09:15 EST May 27 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1232356 Last night I almost spent $10 on what I thought were jalapeños. Wal-mart was out of jalapeños! What sort of craziness is that? I got serranos instead. Anyway, here's today's food stats! I got the idea to log this in my journal from my friend Sheena. It was a fantastic idea, so I'm stealing it. I like having a place to talk about food! <BR> <BR> Calories: 1,204 <BR> Carbs: 192 <BR> Fat: 32 <BR> Protein: 56 <BR> <BR> So I did perfect on everything except for protein today! I know I got enough... Tue, 27 May 2008 15:19:40 EST Obligatory introduction post http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1232262 Hi, my name is Kahla. <BR> <BR> I have no idea what to write, haha. I guess I'll give you some background information! <BR> <BR> I was always a skinny kid. I was very active and a picky eater so I was underweight until I was about 11 years old. Months before I hit puberty, I started getting really chubby, and my family teased me about it constantly. Okay, teasing is putting it lightly. I constantly struggled with my weight until I was 15. I really lost it in highschool when I was put on me... Tue, 27 May 2008 14:42:28 EST