KADIJAH's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=KADIJAH KADIJAH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ ...and I did not overeat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4038978 today i woke up at 5 am with the decision to find my paternal family if possible. I am adopted and found my maternal side 15 yrs ago. It took me 15 yrs to decide to open the next can of worms. So today went quickly. There is now an organisation starting a search for me as we speak. <BR> In order to prepare for this search to be done I had to go into " the boxes".. you know the ones that hold profound and often moving memories. In this box was the first letter my birth mother ever wrote to me... Tue, 22 Feb 2011 16:15:42 EST wicked proud of me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3005414 Last week I was sick.. so I struggled with whether to work out or save my energy for healing.. so I ended up limiting my workout..and allowing my healing and sure enough I still lost almost 2 lbs last week. The body knows eh. Important to listen to it. I also did my first monthly measurement check and wow.. a difference.. this is all going in the right direction and its ok to rest.. the world doesnt end.. <BR> I will note that the more I rested the more I wanted to graze so I was happy to ge... Tue, 16 Mar 2010 08:10:29 EST when sick.. to work out or not to work out..? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2973566 Hi folks Im sure there is now straight answer for this.. sometimes its good to push and sonetimes to rest and chill. Im feeling sick today..not majorly but Im dragging around a bit. Muscles are sore etc.. So Im compromising.. Ive been doing stuff like laundry vaccuuming and so on but Im not going to work out..I think it would be self punishment. I have to believe its ok to rest when needed. I lost a pound this wek but I was aiming for 2.. oh well.. rest and regenerate and then get back at e... Mon, 8 Mar 2010 13:34:05 EST a growly grumpy day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2962179 I dont know what it is.. I slept long and hard last night.. Im sad today.. a bit lonely.. Probably too much time alone this week. Still sticking to my stuff..might even be overdoing it a bit.. I think right now Im using all this working out and food focus as a distraction from some stuff I have going on. yesterday I was really excited about going to tai chi...but I have a shoulder injury and tai chi was really challenging for my shoulder,, so it wasnt the good feeling I was seeking. This shou... Fri, 5 Mar 2010 12:36:31 EST Enjoying the ride! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2957476 today ...so far so good.. <BR> Had a great but healthy breakfast and did 45 minutes of zumba.. I have on my goals list decreased my calorie intake even though I was having a hard time keeping in my limit with more calories... now if I go over...its still less than I was taking in before.. Oh the games I must play with myself..but its working so shhhh don't tell me, I might catch on.. <BR> Tonight I start tai chi again.. Im looking forward to the spiritual mental and physical of this activit... Thu, 4 Mar 2010 11:09:00 EST How do you deal with being really joyful..and not using food to calm down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2943310 I overate twice this week from joy.. I saw my daughters..and welll Im canadian and watched the olympics closing night.. I found myself usingfood to calm down..nothing unhealthy but I went over my calories.. Anyone got any ideas??? good problem to have but still...a problem. Mon, 1 Mar 2010 13:25:36 EST thanks for the comment left I appreciate it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2943260 Bit of a heavy day emotionally for me.. feel like a good cry but even the furnace bill didn't take me there..lol <BR> <BR> But I am recording my food and I just worked out so thats all good. <BR> I gained .5 lb this week due to my veering off track a bit, but I dont feel terrible about it and Im not feeling perfectionistic or wanting to punish myself...so this is an improvement. The weather is doing the march thing.. in like a lion.. not the best day for dog walking perhaps tomorrow.. How ... Mon, 1 Mar 2010 13:15:59 EST got off track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2937546 gonna start blogging and see if it helps.. I just went off track for 3 days.. saw my daughters in town and celebrated christmas late.. seems when I go on a road trip I give myself. permission to eat what ever... then i went to the health food store and bought gluten free cookies.. I always give myself permission to eat them because I rarely find gluten free yummies.. anyway that lead to 2 more days of eating what I want but slowly reducing calories again.. during those three days tehre was no... Sun, 28 Feb 2010 09:07:02 EST (no title) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=354811 today I joined spark people we will see how this goes Tue, 2 Jan 2007 12:51:11 EST