JUSTYNA7's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JUSTYNA7 JUSTYNA7's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Making it easier to stop eating sugar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5832342 In the writing diet we are discussing clean eating and how hard it is to get off of sugar. <BR> <BR> It's all a learning curve, right? So we can make choices. I think... ignorance is a real excuse but once we know something we realize we have choices. I know that clean eating makes me feel good and the more clean eating I do the more I want to eat that way. It's not easy at first. One small choice at a time. It doesn't have to be overwhelming. Sometimes I can choose yes and sometimes ... Sat, 13 Dec 2014 10:32:57 EST Grouchy bear day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829635 Two steps forward... <BR> <BR> Why is it when things get decluttered everywhere else gets messier? I have yet to decorate my house but my closet is half clean and that is making me feel great, but I seem to be having a tough time dealing with the clutter that has appeared everywhere else. Maybe I'm just noticing it more? <BR> <BR> We have had a few salad nights. I made a chicken taco salad last night with black beans and DD made grilled chicken on salad the night before. Tonight thoug... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 11:20:04 EST So far... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827695 The experiment to do as many of the "good things for me" things is going well so far. A bit of de-cluttering daily, check. Daily meditation, check. Daily exercises, check. Ok, the sugar free did not happen today... I had a lunch with the church seniors who kindly filled my plate with goodies while I was playing harp over dessert for them... and I ate some... but I did not eat them all, no roll, only a few bites of potatoes, no cranberry sauce and LOTS of water. But many good choices like... Thu, 4 Dec 2014 17:00:05 EST I am a Hoola Hooper! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826839 I went to my first hoola hooping class last night and I will definitely go to the last 2 classes of the year. It was a blast. I laughed and was silly. The first thing we learned was the concept of the fabulous fail. Drop your hoop? Instead of a grumble and bend over to retrieve it you make it a fabulous fail and dance into it or take a bow, pick it up with a twirl and swing it around. I was expecting the worse. That I would not be able to do it at all. But I surprised myself. OK, DH ... Wed, 3 Dec 2014 08:25:50 EST Yes... but.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826420 What stops me from doing all the good things I read about and say "I should do that!" <BR> <BR> -meditating every morning <BR> -stretching evrery day <BR> -staying sugar free <BR> -doing my pool exercises <BR> -decluttering <BR> <BR> I was exercising with a friend and talking at the same time (the perfect situation) and she asked me that question. It's a good one. I could look at it from many sides. One was to compare myself to a few years ago and realizing that I do those things more fr... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 13:03:05 EST It's not all about me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5822176 (My birthday is in April but...) On the day I turned 16 my family forgot it was my birthday. Not the first time. I went for a walk and an acquaintance stopped and chatted. When she heard my story she grabbed my hand and dragged me back to her house. My name was added to her mother's birthday cake and we all celebrated together. I will never forget that feeling of being in that room, totally accepted with my name on that cake. <BR> <BR> I had a wonderful weekend. Not the "perfect" typ... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 10:22:34 EST Just one pound http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818158 <em>104</em> <em>102</em> <em>91</em> <em>386</em> <em>318</em> <em>185</em> I step on the scale and am happy because I can see it leaning back towards onederland. I've been very good at the no sugar and trying to do something every day for exercise. But when I look on my start page I still see the tracker at 198. Yup, I did it and I was leaving it there to...know that it is possible? Or because I was ashamed to move it up? <BR> <BR> It's hard feeling like I have let p... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 07:47:37 EST Right attitude and now a goal... I can do this! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814909 I have had this "committment" attitude since my last blog so it has been 2 days without sugar and I've been trying to exercise. I had let sugars sneak in and felt winey about my my knee pain... but I realized that I was treating improving my health like an interest and only working on it when it was convenient. Halloween candies kind of became OK for a couple of days there. I was skipping meals and over eating at meals. Then I wrote that blog and "woke up". I want to lose weight and be ... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 12:48:58 EST Get it done! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813474 "There is a difference between interest and commitment. When you're interested in doing something, you do it only when circumstances permit." <BR> <BR> I printed this out in red to put on my wall. Am I interested in getting healthy? or committed? <BR> How about playing harp? If I want to be able to play for a Christmas concert? <BR> How about finishing my novel? If I want to publish it? <BR> How about my faith and involvement with my community? If I want to make a real difference? <BR> ... Sun, 9 Nov 2014 08:57:38 EST If I could have the perfect day, what would it be? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5812433 I sometimes wake up wishing I did not have a mile long to do list, that I don't have to "work" and look after my family, that I could spend a day totally focused on ME. <BR> <BR> Today was one of those mornings. The thing is, I have a lot of flexibility in my day. I have opportunities. I make choices and have quite a bit of control. So... who is that is stopping me from having my perfect day? <BR> <BR> It comes down to the perfectionist in me. I set such high standards for my perfect d... Fri, 7 Nov 2014 08:37:04 EST Set back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5811474 Hmm. DH was laid off yesterday. It is still sinking in. Last time was terrible. Lots of people laid off, no jobs, and we were in a bad financial place. This time... a bit better. Actually a lot better. He already has 2 interviews for tomorrow. Right now I'm not working so I feel... lots of feelings. It's just that I have had to cancel our mortgage renewal meeting. I don't expect they will be excited if we go in saying we have no income in a few months.... ah.... but a lot can chang... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 17:30:46 EST Turkey spinach apple meatball recipe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808717 These were a big hit while traveling, eaten cold, are good on salads or used as a quick snack. The glaze really makes them even though it adds some prep time. It makes 6 meal size servings so I make double or tripple the recipe for my big family and freeze them in packages of 3 meatballs as a great emergency food for my food sensitive daughters. I use frozen chopped spinache that I cook in the microwave and squeeze all the water from before adding to the mix. It is quite "moist and loose... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 14:03:28 EST No-vember should be renamed No-sugar month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808291 I spent this afternoon shopping and stocking my fridge and pantry with good healthy foods. It is 61 days till the new year and I am hoping to keep eating clean as often as possible till then. <BR> <BR> Today's discussion for the writing diet was about smart snacking and I was surprised to see in the list "no sugar jello and no sugar pudding" as good snacks the author suggests to have on hand. I could feel my forehead crinkle with that thought. <BR> <BR> I have no doubts that smart sna... Fri, 31 Oct 2014 18:04:27 EST Deciding not to get sick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5806306 I read an article today about ways to prevent getting colds and flu this season. As I read through them, nodding my head because I do each one with my new spark wellness goals it made me wonder when the last time I got sick was. <BR> <BR> 1. Sleep 8 hours every night <BR> 2. Eat soluble fiber (oats, apples, nuts and beans) <BR> 3. Know that refined sweeters make your immune system impotent (a new finding about sugar which makes the whte blood cells less able to kill bacteria for at lea... Tue, 28 Oct 2014 11:48:14 EST Unlocking a road block http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802689 Whatever my energy is focused on... gets stronger and more powerful. <BR> <BR> I was thinking that while writing this morning. I was deciding to focus on positive choices and it made me wonder how much the way I approach my "problems" affects how easy the solutions are. I have lots of choices. <BR> <BR> I can say "don't eat junk food"! And after struggling with that for a while think that it is just too wide a goal so narrow it to "don't eat junk food at night" ... and still find it a ... Wed, 22 Oct 2014 09:47:56 EST Scaling back the scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5800365 This week's subject for the writing diet is "Scaling back the scale". <BR> <BR> The scale and I definitely have a warped relationship. I've played the games, wearing less and only weighing first thing in the morning, delighting after being ill and losing weight, dreading a weigh in after a binge. It certainly HAS had too much power. It's hard for me to accept a "plus or minus a few pounds" as acceptable. <BR> <BR> However I'm also not willing to give it up. I have put more emphasis on non ... Sat, 18 Oct 2014 12:27:49 EST 75 days until the New Year! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5799838 This has been a roller coaster week... but I feel grateful. My neighbour came by with a plant to go by the pool. It is a wonderful symbol I think of our growing friendship. <BR> <BR> What am I grateful for today? <BR> -painting one nail purple yesterday to help me remember to stay on track. I chose to buy the nail polish over going to the fast food place or trying one of the pastries in the renovated grocery store that has created a massive display right at the entrance of decadence. M... Fri, 17 Oct 2014 12:03:42 EST Thanksgiving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5798090 It was thanksgiving weekend here in Canada and the first one that all three of my daughters and the 2 boyfriends would be together ... so I planned a full tukey dinner plus 2 more days of meals that we took, by boat, in freezing weather up to the cottage and then we stayed there the long weekend. There were certainly some challenges but everyone took them in stride. My eldest daughter in particular does not like the outdoors and has severe asthma so with woodsmoke and dust and mice, she su... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 13:14:00 EST A talk with myself.... working out the worries. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794680 I hate this... doing so well then I start to fall apart. <BR> <BR> I have my surgery consult this afternoon. I think under my lists of triggers doctors are way up at the top of the list. DH said he would come with me and at the time I thought... no I'll be OK. But as the apt. got closer I started feeling the anxiety growing. <BR> <BR> Why? I am a grown woman and I KNOW I am eligible for surgery. I have been told many times including by this doctor who did my other knee. Yet there is... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 12:53:25 EST Blocks to losing weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5791827 I read a wonderful Spark article today about what might be blocking us from losing weight. I shared it with a few teams and then sat down with my writing to try and determine what things block me. Some things that used to block me no longer do... like insulating myself from being around my father and trying to be invisible. I think that I had some fears about being attractive to the wrong sorts of people and with age, experience and a loving spouse I don't think that is an issue any more. ... Fri, 3 Oct 2014 15:53:32 EST Fighting the snack attack http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5789734 Today marks 5/7 good eating days in my 100 day countdown to the new year. Not bad. Funny how I thought I had not done as well. I'm happy I'm keeping a tab beside my computer. So far the only reward I have claimed has been my "date" with my spark friend. The others are still on my dresser. But I look at them every day and they make me smile. There have been other good things I have chosen that are not in the pile, like playing a game with a daughter or exercising with a neighbour. <BR>... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 12:06:47 EST compassion and moving on... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5788326 The writing diet we were meant to discuss the morning after. Hahaha. I don't think that meant LIVING it, but that's OK. <BR> <BR> I don't try and eat perfectly... just try and make good choices as often as possible. Last night pizza just sounded soooo good, but I knew there would be consequeces. Tired last night... and the "tirgger" to not only want to eat more than 2 slices but to want something sweet. Then this morning the blech feeling in my gut. Gas, full feeling, achy. Well ach... Sun, 28 Sep 2014 09:49:18 EST Panic at the word diet.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787391 I had a great "reward" having a spark friend here for the day to have a clean eating day plus exercise, play the harp, relax and good visiting. Those are the types of good days I need. In my head a "treat" used to mean going out for some tasty meal. Probably overeating. Relaxing used to be hard for me. It still is hard for me to sit still for long before my food dragon begins to sense that I am "slipping" and becoming vulnerable. Definitely sitting in front of the computer or TV for ext... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 12:55:30 EST 100 Days till the new year? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5785692 Apparently, (I have not done the math)... it is 100 days until the new year. I find that inspiring! I love trying to do things for 100 days and it my second day of clean eating today so I think that should be my goal. <BR> <BR> As usual I would like to count backwards so if yesterday was day 100 then today is day 99 in my countdown. Over the years I have realized I am much better at counting down than up. <BR> <BR> And as other challenges have proved, I am better if I make my goal "a... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 19:40:52 EST Getting back in the driver's seat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784596 My Activity tracker has been sent back to SP as it stopped working after I replaced the batteries and did aquafit. I have really missed it. And it cost me quite a bit to send it as I wanted it tracked. Funny, right? Trakcing my tracker? Anyways, I am hopeful that I will get the replacement this week. My kids are in the process of moving in, starting work/school and I need to be patient while they get settled but we also need a family meeting to set up some guidelines for chores, meals e... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 08:41:57 EST Priorities and a muffin top http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5782285 I posted this on several of my teams... but it is where I need to be today. <BR> <BR> Today, and this week... my priorities have been about my daughter still.. and I realized I need to put myself first so I can be better equipped to deal with other's needs. I do think that my "raison d'etre", or reason for being, is to faccilitate others and I get a lot of joy from it... but when I feel like my own needs are not being met, eventually I get grumpy or angry thinking that I incapable of doin... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 11:26:51 EST Clutter triggers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781524 I have a plan for today's food. Been a while since I did that to the point of having the meals ready. No excuses! <BR> <BR> I know what I HAVE to do but the food dragon is pulling and pushing at me all directions to distract me. I have been so tired after getting my DD home and now the house is quite cluttered as she has emptied the room she will be living in with her boyfriend as well as the closet and preparing to move what she wants back in. So far there is a bed and desk and everythi... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 09:32:54 EST The battle continues... with some TLC http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5779034 My food dragon is certainly cunning and baffling and sneaky. I served a cake last night to friends and she said "doesn't this have sugar in it?" and I replied, "yes it does" and she said "and you can eat this?" and I said "yes".... and had this big wave of reality hit. I have been eating a modified paleo diet... I am calling it paleo plus, but the aim is clean eating without whites. But I pulled out this recipe and thought "ah.. no grains and whole oranges... perfect! And totally ignored... Sat, 13 Sep 2014 09:30:46 EST The benefits of Spark Blogging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5775609 I don't know about you but I am very critical of myself. I have a positive side but I have a side that will beat myself up. I can do a dozen things right and my mind will focus on the one thing that I did not succeed at or did not do perfectly. I think it is part of my self sataboging. In the "old days" I could never stick to a diet, I never felt like I had willpower. At the long list of my successes I would always add "yes, but..." <BR> <BR> I am very thankful for my spark friends who ... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 06:40:11 EST Writing to fall in love with myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769977 I am reading the writing diet book and the first chapter about "morning pages" I read more carefully this time through. <BR> <BR> What happens when you are writing each morning? <BR> -the pages are a way to touch base with yourself and see how you are feeling <BR> -as you spend time writing you learn to be more intimate, be honest, and figure out where your problem areas are, blocks, misconceptions... <BR> -and then in that writing process you start to see solutions, possibilities and direc... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 14:12:44 EST Implementing the snack attack plan? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768761 It's a week thinking about the snack attack... yesterday the brainstorming and trying one thing. <BR> <BR> <BR> So I did. More or less. I certainly threw my regular routine out the window. I still got in my writing and my walk in the pool but I cooked up a storm and then ended up driving my daughter downtown, going to a walk for just over a half hour while waiting for her and when I got home I listened to a book on tape CD in the car until it was done. <BR> <BR> The downside was that ... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 13:28:52 EST Snack attacks - "battle on" against the Food Dragon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767883 The theme this week is "snack attacks". Not the snacks that you write into your food plan. Those are fine. And sometimes I need to add a snack in because I am Diabetic and realize I am not going to make it home in time... there are "acceptable" snacks that I have for those situations, even when I am out. It is best to plan them because if I am suddenly low blood sugar I don't always think clearly. <BR> <BR> But that is not the type of snack attack I mean. I mean the evil ones. The o... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 07:58:18 EST No more diets... but there are still too many choices for how to eat! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767395 I have been reading blogs where people are talking about what food plan they are on, foods they hope will help them lose weight, diet groups they belong to. <BR> <BR> There was a time in my life when my struggle was all about which diet to be on. It was always temporary, always with the idea of a quick fix so I could eat what ever I want but as a "thin" person. Ha! It never happened. Thankfully two things occurred. I developed an eating disorder... and then diabetes. I don't know wha... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 13:24:36 EST Changing the "I can't to I can!" and stepping outside the box. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765965 Oh dear! My spark activity tracker is getting low on batteries. I was just thinking it is time to increase my goal from 1,000 steps to 5,000 again. A couple of times this week I got over 10,000 steps! Amazing, right? I have a cane, my walker and my crutches available but at times I feel like I could dance the walking is so easy. Mostly when I am barefoot and in the house. Although it only takes doing one step and suddenly I can't bear weight at all and that can last for hours. Despite... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 10:33:47 EST Why say NO to sugar? To make the DRAGON tremble! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765326 I had sugar Thursday. <BR> It is still in my stystem. <BR> The DRAGON has used it to fuel cravings... but I have not given in. <BR> I see a candy bar in the store, an add on TV, an ingredient on the shelf...the sugar I know clouds my judgement so I forget my goals and out of nowhere the idea will occur to me "it would be nice to have... with my tea" or "I'll just pick up this for the family as a treat", or "I deserve this I just worked hard", or "I have low blood sugars to I better grab this"... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 07:19:10 EST The lurking Food Dragon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764916 So this week is about reviewing the 7 tools of the book. <BR> Yesterday was an impromptu road trip. My daughter's ride to camp fell through and there was another camper who had to be picked up who was coming in to our city by bus to continue the trip. It was ... a little complicated and I would have done things differently... but it all worked out. I made myself a priority in that I did my morning writing, did my 26 min. walk in the pool and picked up a new notebook and binder at the dolla... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 12:00:01 EST Espionage and the Food Dragon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763574 Writing this morning I talked to myself about my food and exercising which is not new... but I sketched out a chart of things I wanted to be able to track and was surprised. I wanted to track the number of Dragon attacks. <BR> <BR> My food dragon, as I have shared before is cunning and baffling and sneaky. It prepares for ambush when I am tired, hungry, lonely, tired or in pain. It likes the nights when I am sitting in my comfy chair in front of the TV. It lures me into forgetting my go... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 12:07:45 EST Starting the Writing Diet again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5762948 I've been accepted as team leader for the Wiring Diet spark page and am pretty excited. I really found this book useful. Last time I committed to trying the Writing Diet for 100 days. I'm not sure I will do a countdown again... but right now I need to organize my thoughts. <BR> <BR> So this week is about reviewing the 7 tools of the book. <BR> 1. Morning pages <BR> 2. Journal <BR> 3. Walking <BR> 4. The 4 questions <BR> 5. The culinary artist's date <BR> 6. HALT <BR> 7. The body b... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 14:02:53 EST Memories of food and looking for creative outlets http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760811 I have FINISHED making 20 meals for my daughter and it is now arrived at her place. All healthy and all things she can eat on her limited diet. My 2 daughters at home have to cook once a week so they opted to go to "Supperworks" yesterday and in 2 hours and ten minutes put together 18 meals. On my credit card... but a good experience in batch cooking. It even allowed them to make gluten free substitutions. We are all curious how they will taste. It is all in the freezer and an easy cho... Sat, 16 Aug 2014 10:56:26 EST Ending the day with gratitudes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759956 PHew! I am amazed at all the food I have cooked... tweaks and changes. DD is now quite sick so chicken stew-p became a priority (is is stew or is it soup... who can tell?). However LOTS of food she can eat and hopefully a bit more tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I have had 2 days of getting more than 10,000 steps! 2 days of .... I can't say pain free but certainly manageable pain in my knee and with all the standing at the stove it is amazing to me. Either it is all the prayer in the pool or mama... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 23:09:48 EST A Whirlwind of a Wednesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758799 <em>244</em> For so many good choices yesterday. Exercise, food, and some good planning. I have been getting excited... which is a sure sign the depression is on the way out. I have some new recipes planned to send to DD this weekend while she moves and helped her problem solve some major issues so her stress is less. I got 10,000 steps and 5 miles yesterday!!!! And today my knee feels pretty good. I think the prayer has really helped! <BR> <BR> OK, so on the serious side, the scale... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 08:59:21 EST An insight to an ended relationship with my father http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758216 I know I have already blogged today but while I was walking and praying I felt a crack open in my vaneer. I felt like I was ready for something. Then when I was reading a blog I read this line" <BR> <BR> "We could not give each other what we did not have. We did not know how to love each other without the past tearing open the old wounds." <BR> <BR> I have ended my relationship with my father because he has the mistaken belief that just because I am family he has the right to direct his o... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 11:16:14 EST Making choices for a good today to keep fighting the dragons http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758090 The dragons are lurking. My food dragon is calling for foods to sedate my fears and worries. The depression dragon is trying to get me to not care, give up, be slothenly and lazy and spend all my day on the computer or watching TV. Ha! I know better! <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> Yesterday I got a bunch of woo hoo's! I did some gardening which is good for my soul. I drank a pitcher of sassy water with mint, ginger and lemons from my garden. I did some research for my writing. I played... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 08:30:33 EST Shaking it up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757176 I have been fighting depression. The combination of my knee injury and pain with not being able to do what I WANT to do has been hammering away at my good moods. So yesterday I worked at gardening. It helped but not enough and I called out for help. Today DH and went to church. The first part was just what I needed with a big focus on change and time that had me writing notes. But... then the second half was kind of a downer. So... when we got home DH and I decided to go kayaking. Put... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 22:19:29 EST Patch Adams and attitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755579 My girlfriend is going to the Guzundeit institute to do a clowning workshop with Patch Adams in West Virginia. I am very envious! <BR> <BR> It is a lovely drive from here and I enjoy road trips. <BR> Clowning is something very precious. I know some people do not like clowns... a few too many creeppy shows have given them a dark side.... but it is a wonderful gift to make people laugh especially when life is scary, tough or overwhelming. <BR> Patch Adams is my youngest daughter's hero. ... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 08:08:00 EST Keep it simple and move forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754985 Water. I have my water bottle filled and made a jug of sassy water for the fridge (lemon, mint, ginger and cucumber) <BR> <BR> Exercise. I started the morning with 100 situ ups/crunches on the ball and am going in the pool today. Also will have a sauna and do some stretches, especially my calves and feet. <BR> <BR> Food. An egg and fiber bread for breakfast with strawberries. I have cucumber and tomatoes and herb cream cheese and will make a wrap for lunch. Dinner will be butter chick... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 09:39:40 EST Balance from a new perspective... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753569 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1396486050.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/7/l877890107.jpg"> <BR> We went to a rock balancing festival. Intrigued? <BR> <BR> It is quite something. <BR> <BR> Along the Ottawa River are rock plateaus and a few years back an "artist" began making piles of rocks, some precariously balanced. He started inviting guest artists from worldwide to come. I spoke to him yesterday and he was disappointed with the turnout. I gu... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 11:09:28 EST What teams to be on? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752217 Over the years I have been on many teams, some more active than others. It's a wonderful community and I've met some amazing people. I would like to decide what teams to be part of for September that will help me meet my goals. <BR> <BR> 1. Inspiring blogs and threads. <BR> 2. Team members should be active. <BR> 3. I should relate. <BR> 4. They encourage me. <BR> 5. They push me outside my comfort zone towards meeting goals. <BR> 6. They help me make goals and find ways to meet th... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 11:56:03 EST The choice to eat well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751615 Never fails... I start commenting on peoples' blogs and hear what I need to hear. <BR> <BR> Today it is about the choice. <BR> <BR> I can choose to eat sugar and crap and whatever. The benefit is that I dull my emotions. I don't have to feel so much and when my world is stressful it is appealing. It's a drug for me so it will crate more cravings and become important in my life, call me and motivate me, and then when my body gets used to it I need more and more and finally it does not g... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 10:51:35 EST ST goal for this week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5750762 The BLC this week is to get in 150-200 minutes of ST so that's my goal. Been a while since I felt like I should work hard at an exercise goal. The cardio was easier last week because I just had to walk or "bike" and although it was slow I was still putting in the minutes. I want to focus on a different body part every day but do some legs, arms and core every day too. I love the feeling of a "burn" and the rush it gives me. <BR> <BR> I have to say part of today I was thrilled. I walke... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 00:22:52 EST