JUSTYNA7's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JUSTYNA7 JUSTYNA7's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Update on the Justy-moments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6221354 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/02315909-f5c2-4d00-aa2d-207ba2a0c42e.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Justy-moments seemed to work yesterday... grouping my "self care" "I Matter" activities. eg. water and meds and crunches/core exrcises.... or water and meds and nails (I play harp) and skin care.... or water and go outside and meditation (That vs. a list that I seemed to skip things regularly on. It seemed to revolve around putting a group of things in one room or space. I'll try again t... Sat, 20 Aug 2016 10:12:19 EST Justy-moments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6220759 Listen. That was the message today that I woke up with. I have been thinking a lot and I guess it is time to take a break from that. <BR> <BR> I shared that with my walking meditation buddy this morning and it was amazing how many things kind of fell into place. <BR> <BR> One, I shared that my chiropractor asked me if I have been taking my daily salmon oil supplements to which my mind thought... where ARE those? Then he asked if I have been doing my 3x/week exercises. I wondered when ... Fri, 19 Aug 2016 07:58:53 EST Embracing Imperfection http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6220213 Bare with me... I know I am hovering over this theme. Nice image actually... like a hummingbird sipping out sweet nectar from a flower. Perhaps that is exactly what I am doing. <BR> <BR> Imperfection. It was funny how I reacted to the new Ikea catalogue. At first I was shocked. I don't know if you have seen it but it features a lot of pictures of real life going on in the photos. Like kitchens with dirty dishes piled up in the sink and mismatched ... well, everything. I love the Ike... Thu, 18 Aug 2016 09:18:43 EST I AM http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6218552 I am finished my book "The Gifts of Imperfection" and have spent time between chores typing out a summary. I am hoping that a friend or two will want to discuss it chapter by chapter and I want to be able to refer to parts as well as reread some while I absorb the words. I'm sometimes slow doing that.... reading a word, a phrase or paragraph and letting it slosh about in my brain until it gets osmosed where it is supposed to. I am not sure if it is age... or just that important things take... Mon, 15 Aug 2016 18:04:20 EST A,E,I,O,U,Y http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6217823 A = have I been "A" abstinent today? (However you define that - staying away from self numbing behaviours like alcohol, food, work, computer) <BR> E = have I "E" exercised today? <BR> I = what have "I" I done for myself today? <BR> O = what have I done for "O" others today? <BR> U = am I holding on to "U" unexpressed emotions today? <BR> Y = "Y" Yeah! What is something good that has happened today? <BR> <BR> I'm reading a book called "The gifts of Imperfection": Let Go of Who You Think... Sun, 14 Aug 2016 13:58:57 EST Learning to kick shame out of my head! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6215991 BonnieMargay hit the nail on the head yesterday... relaxing can be really hard! My day of rest yesterday was probably the best thing I could have done for myself. It allowed me to "hear" what I needed to. <BR> <BR> I was given a book and will share more when I have finished it, but it described me and my symptoms of feeling shame perfectly. <BR> <BR> 1. I am all excited about something and then I get scared. I worry I will be judged, not fit in, that things won't go well. My exciteme... Thu, 11 Aug 2016 07:57:01 EST Day of Rest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6215393 I've invited local women to come by to swim and relax and sun... and one who is coming is a spark person! It will help me stay on track as she is low carb (or zero carb, I can't remember) so I have suggested people bring no carb foods to share. <BR> <BR> My meditation buddy is coming over too with a friend so she says she won't "need me" at all which is good This is not about looking after others but about looking after me. She also gave me a book she thinks will help given me current t... Wed, 10 Aug 2016 08:15:10 EST Shame - a rambling blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6214363 The past weekend I had items with sugar or overate at times and my clothes feel snug today. I am over tired after working, partying with family, and canoeing. But... today is also the start of MY weekend as guests have checked out and I have a few days "off". The plan today is to continue doing good things for myself. I have put out an invite for women to drop in to the B&B one day this week as an attempt to keep myself on track. A day of swimming and talking and eating healthy foods and... Mon, 8 Aug 2016 13:24:01 EST The good thing about the plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6211009 Having a food plan is really helping me stay on track, so today I made an exercise plan. It was a good idea because had I not committed with people to exercise I likely would have convinced myself not to do it.. or more likely done other things postponing the exercise until it was not viable. Because my neighbour was sure she wanted to walk, I was in my runners, ready to go at 6:00 am at the bottom of her driveway. The "signal" is having the porch light "on" and I could feel my heart sinki... Tue, 2 Aug 2016 13:10:16 EST The Plan to go off sugar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6209642 <em>3</em> Oh I should read blogs every day. I always seem to hear what I need. <BR> <BR> Today my friend SEAGLASS1215 has committed to going off sugar, eating more whole foods. I wrote: "We are talking the SAME language and doing the same thing... so if I can be of ANY support... I am HERE! Going off sugar is hard at the start but not impossible. I think "Easy Does It" is a great motto and I never beat myself up for choosing foods with small amounts of sugar but that is for you to dec... Sun, 31 Jul 2016 09:19:31 EST Naked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6206863 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/22092039-c8c1-4df3-9f18-942ea2525a98.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am a work in progress when it comes to body image. Just when I think "I don't care what people think" I find myself worried that someone will judge me because of a bulge in my clothing. One day I can be excited because my clothes are loose and I have curves.. and the next day my outfit will be smaller and less flattering... but I am still ME. I have not changed. Just the outfit. And ... Tue, 26 Jul 2016 08:09:36 EST Food vs. Junk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6204836 Once again I was reading a Spark Friend's blog and got carried away with my comment... so I have copied it here. I was wondering how tracking of her food is going and realized that we do it differently. There is no right way... just what works for YOU. I had a lot of comments on my last food tracker blog about this tool and how many people depend on it. That does not mean we all do it the same way. Spark People's tracker has many things we can look at. I do find that good/better/best wo... Fri, 22 Jul 2016 10:56:10 EST The "I Matter" Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6203671 I am guilty of neglecting my basic needs and having an "I Matter" list on my fridge helped with two things. When I went off track it was a way for me to do one thing, anything from my list, and get back on track. Second, it was a reminder of what things I can do for myself every day that make me feel healthy and good about myself. <BR> <BR> <BR> A. The challenge for this week is to make an "I Matter" LIst. <BR> <BR> <BR> B. At the end of the list think of one thing you are looking forwa... Wed, 20 Jul 2016 09:45:00 EST Tracking food -thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6203057 I was reading a spark friend's blog about recommitting to tracking and I got a little carried away in my response.. which of course is what support for each other is all about... making us think for ourselves. So here is my response to where she was talking about the time involved in tracking and whether it is really a tool that is even working for her: <BR> <BR> <BR> Oh you are so right! Tracking is a tool to judge our behaviour, not a way to judge ourselves. It is one that we can defin... Tue, 19 Jul 2016 08:55:01 EST I am Loved and Safe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6202450 In Lesson one of Marianne Williamson's Course in Weight loss (my 3rd time working on it) I found myself mesmerized by the line that says we built a wall around ourselves because we were afraid of people. The last times doing this I dealt with a lot of anger "bricks in my wall" but this one about fear seemed less important. <BR> <BR> Thinking about it though I must have grown up afraid of people. By the time I was 14 I had moved 14 times and then stopped counting. New situations, being the... Mon, 18 Jul 2016 09:23:09 EST Compassion vs. Truth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6197990 My brother came by the other day and I asked how he was doing. He had just been to a counselor at a cancer family support clinic and asked for a "tool" he could use when his wife is anxious. He described situations where her anxiety is triggered by something he says or does and how he usually responds (a truth statement) and how the counselor recommended responding (a compassion statement). I listened, nodding my head and noticed my daughter nodding her head and looking at me. Why? I ten... Sun, 10 Jul 2016 10:19:55 EST Remembering who I am http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6196426 Yesterday's meditation: <BR> <BR> Focus not on responsibilities so much as setting an example. I had that thought and it was just a tweak in perspective. I have a lot on my plate at times and I can feel like I have to look after everyone.. but they are adults. It is not my job to make sure they have a good time or get well or use their time well... but it is certainly something I can do for myself and in so doing, I think create a place where others can do the same. I finally have been ab... Thu, 7 Jul 2016 11:04:41 EST Back to the beginning- A course in Weight Loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6194498 I opened up my Marianne Williamson book to the introduction to get inspiration for this morning's walk. She says that what happens in your mind determines your experience of life and I totally agree. At any moment I can look at a situation from many frames of reference and change my experience of it. "That's too bad..".. can become "actually it was fortunate because..." and realizing that sometimes it is not all about me but about someone else.... or just deciding that I am going to en... Mon, 4 Jul 2016 08:54:39 EST I Matter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6194047 I got out my Marianne Williamson book... have not opened it, but at least it is out. <BR> <BR> I did some me things this morning while waiting for guests to get up... like stretches and sorting my meds. I did my chiropractic exercise. And now... I am going to spend a few minutes outdoors before doing some errands. I would list all the things I got done this morning but it would tire people out reading it, lol. What I need to do though is look after myself and I can feeling myself slidi... Sun, 3 Jul 2016 10:58:03 EST Great start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6189275 I've been sharing with some of my spark friends that I am good with exercise but worried about food. The scale says I am exactly where I was when I left.. which is just fine with me. I am doing a 3 mile walk each morning and there is lots to do in the house and garden so I have no concerns about getting my 10,000 steps in... still I put on my spark tracker this morning just to make me feel good about myself. <BR> <BR> Food. What do I want to be eating? Not eating? I need some real tho... Sat, 25 Jun 2016 09:13:15 EST I'm back and ready to go! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6188913 I am back. Back from a wonderful trip that was more like 4 holidays. I have so much to process in my mind about it... but of course it is nearly impossible because my main bathroom has been gutted while I was away and I have a wedding party arriving tomorrow to stay at the B&B. What I did do, because I MATTER, was get up early and go for a walk. I do appreciate living in a lovely town and having a neighbour to walk with. My garden survived in part despite terrible drought and really the ... Fri, 24 Jun 2016 15:00:36 EST Day 66 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6161467 It's a waltze... a box step. A few steps in the wrong direction then a few steps in the right direction. <em>350</em> <BR> <BR> Boy, at times I feel actually graceful because I can relax and know I am doing the right thing. Yesterday was LOVELY. I mowed lawn, pulled weeds and gathered leaves. All slowly and with intention. I walked the dog along the river. I sipped water. I nibbled on chicken and crunched vegetables. Oh... I was sore by the end of the day but in a good healthy w... Thu, 12 May 2016 11:27:23 EST Day 67 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6160222 Hi, my name is Justyna and I am a compulsive eater, addicted to food. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a terrible food day, constant grazing on unhealthy foods and on the go from the time I got up until I finally crawled into my easy chair and watched several shows in a row only getting up to fix myself another unhealthy snack. My DD middlest, observing this, tried her best "Mom, do you need some emotional support?" as she watched me combining pudding and cool whip and topping it wi... Tue, 10 May 2016 15:23:04 EST Day 68 Hurray DH has found a problem with my computer! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6158235 I was telling DH this morning how frustrated I am with "losing blogs" and how my computer seems to crash all the time so he spent some time this morning on it and it seems to be working so much better. Hurray! I lost another blog but will continue to count down from the last one posted. It is going to take a while to do 100 blogs! <BR> <BR> The lost blog though was good so let me see if I can remember the drift of it... <BR> <BR> We are perfect just as we are. I know, I know, a familiar... Sat, 7 May 2016 12:37:53 EST Day 69 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6154873 Yup, I am sure I posted this blog and yet... where is it? Hmm. <BR> <BR> I have been putting steps in - hurray! Lots of walks with the dog and my youngest DD. I was reflecting how lucky we are to have things we enjoy doing together. I am sure going to miss them when they move out even though I plan to drop in to check on the dog every afternoon the first week. <BR> <BR> Plans are all coming together for DH's and my trip to Ireland. I think we only have a couple of nights not "booked... Mon, 2 May 2016 14:49:22 EST Day 70 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6152983 You guys are the best... I wish I had the time to visit all your pages and I WILL when things settle down. <BR> <BR> I would not say today has been FUN. I have though spent time outside. I realized there is a hazardous waste drop off Sunday so I started bringing old paint tins and stuff from the back. It has become a little dump beside the shed. Many trips with the wheelbarrow humming and noting the buds and weeds coming up. Then I raked. So many branches down. It amazes me how over t... Fri, 29 Apr 2016 16:43:32 EST Day 71 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6152290 The countdown of blogging continues through difficult times. I am... grateful. On so many levels. I have learned so much about myself and built up a strong.. faith? I had a faith before but this is different. It is a spiritual core that is more grounded and less attached to things at the same time. <BR> <BR> I have continued to cook for ill family members, give advice, listen, cry and share and support. It has been an exhausting time and yet... a lot of connecting going on. A lot of ... Thu, 28 Apr 2016 17:29:53 EST Day 72 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6147946 I read a thread today by a spark friend who sabatoged herself and was asking WHY? <BR> <BR> <BR> It's a good question. When I think of my food dragon escaping and out of control I just think, wow, that is how it used to be ALL the time. The dragon ruled me and my life. My mind chose to stick to the path it knew which was trampled there by the dragon.. but it was clear and easy to follow even though it was the way to the dragon's mouth. <BR> <BR> When I look at my "I Matter" list, th... Fri, 22 Apr 2016 12:05:37 EST Day 73 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6145035 <em>40</em> There is definitely something going on with my blog posts. They are not making it onto my page. So... this is a repeat more or less of yesterday. <BR> <BR> I am very grateful. Good guests over the weekend who really used the facilities and had a super time. My sister is progressing. She has some swelling under her arm but is going to the doctor about it tomorrow. I was to take her son to swimming my our dad has miraculously stepped in and offered to do it. Sometimes bad ... Mon, 18 Apr 2016 14:57:05 EST Day 74 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6142356 Lalalala! I feel pretty good today. <BR> <BR> I sometimes am awed at how a small thing we do can make a big difference. I take no credit except to be open and willing. It has been a big theme of our meditations, of getting outside ourselves, being loving. That when we are doing the right thing, things fall into place. <BR> <BR> Our neighbour's little guy is in hospital and I made food. He is a single father whose wife died 2 years ago of diabetes complications. Having diabetes mys... Thu, 14 Apr 2016 17:23:34 EST Day 75 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6140847 I keep looking and thinking... I posted a blog since then, where did it go? <BR> <BR> Hello friends. I am just back from the Spa Nordik. I crashed yesterday when I finished cooking and dropping off the last of foods to my 2 sisters and their families who are in crisis right now. Yup, came home and could not stop wailing. I went and lay in the hot tub, ate dinner and went straight to bed. Longest I have slept and I could not sleep with DH... just too emotional to bear it. Could not talk... Tue, 12 Apr 2016 16:13:24 EST Day 76 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6139292 Ugh. My clothes feel tight and I feel very very unfit. <BR> <BR> I have been planning meals, shopping, cooking, delivering meals and eating it feels like for weeks. I know it has only been about 10 days. My sister is doing well. Out of bed and managed a walk. Mostly just waiting to hear about the type of cancer she has and the treatment plan which we should know by the end of the week. My sister in law has had worse news. Her brain tumor is inoperable. They will do a biopsy to dete... Sun, 10 Apr 2016 17:50:52 EST Day 77 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6137690 It is my birthday. It is also a very hard day. I shared in a thread and don't want to repeat it all. However people I love are in crisis and I am asking for prayers and love sent to my sisters Mari and Nancy and their families. Cancer is enough to say. Miracles welcome. <BR> <BR> I matter. And I have a role to play of strength and support. I can get through today and make a difference. To be the best I can be I need to eat regularly, eat clean, rest when I can, get exercise when I... Fri, 8 Apr 2016 08:26:53 EST Day 78 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6136591 I have to start with Gratitude today: My sister is home from her surgery. I'll see her tomorrow (walk the dog and check on her) and find out how it actually went. My sister -in-law is on her way home from hospital. They did a second MRI today to map out the surgery for her brain tumor next week and she is allowed to come home until that happens. Her kids are coming home and everyone can breath for a bit. My little neighbour who is in hospital has been weaned our of his coma and they a... Wed, 6 Apr 2016 19:35:33 EST Day 79 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6134598 Wow! Powerful meditation this morning. We start at 6:00 am and it was at my neighbour's house this morning. I woke up at 6:15 having the weirdest dream of having to wait in lineups to pee at some kind of a "fair" but in a closed Muslim country. Very very weird. And I rarely remember having dreams. I got NINE hours sleep last night and when I did bolt out of bed I was sore, exhausted and feeling very upset with myself for being late. Worried that she would be upset (I have slept through... Mon, 4 Apr 2016 09:36:23 EST Day 80 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6132686 A sugar slip... I changed the recipe for cookies and tasted the dough, made a change, retasted and was putting them in the oven as I thought "now what should I eat that is sugar free?" and realized my blunder. So simple a slip. I had after all never intended to eat the finished product. I wonder how many times I just "taste" something as I am cooking? Oh well, it is what it is and I had kiwi and some old cheddar for my snack and will get on with my day. The irony is I have a full weekend... Fri, 1 Apr 2016 15:46:45 EST Day 81 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6131916 This is my 4th sugar free day - woo hoo! Strange but I am SURE I blogged about my 3rd sugar free day yesterday but perhaps it was a post on a thread somewhere. Or maybe once again I failed to hit the "post" button. Do other people have "lost" blogs? <BR> <BR> I have been happy to have my spark tracker again. Lots of walking - today in the rain. My neck bothers me on and off and I find as soon as I take pain medications I need a nap. Is it the medications or the pain? Not sure but it s... Thu, 31 Mar 2016 17:51:21 EST Day 82 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6129970 I wrote a blog yesterday... where is it? Hmm. Maybe I did not hit the post button. My days seem like that all the time right now. Interrupted and unfinished. I am going from one activity to the next. No crisis... just a lot to do and all the while mindful of my neck and trying to let it heal. <BR> <BR> We have had fantastic guests. I wrote about that... so I will not write again just because I have things to say today. <BR> <BR> I am ready for change. On so many levels. My meditati... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 09:00:45 EST Day 84 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6126511 How did I have so many days without a blog? Certainly I've been busy with the B&B. I've been offering aquafit in the mornings before breakfast so I'm up early so everything is ready for the last minute sautes and toastings while people are changing from their suits. I'm really fortunate because I have a "new" diabetic staying here and of course what happens when you are educating someone? "Oh, that's right... I should be doing that too!". So ten minutes of exercise before meals, more pro... Thu, 24 Mar 2016 08:40:28 EST Day 85 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6123412 You are all so wonderful. I came on and read yesterday's comments and I felt your hugs and caring. THANK YOU! I hope I am there for you too when you need it. Don't forget to drag me to your blogs to read them. Right now I'm not very good at checking all my spark friends' pages. Too busy to browse.. but never too busy to chat with you. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was wonderful. The girls brought 2 friends with us so we had 2 cars and we went to a sugar bush. I was disappointed as the only one... Sun, 20 Mar 2016 09:11:17 EST Day 86 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6122282 Maple syrup may prove to be relevant in Type 2 diabetes management, although the findings must be verified in clinical trials. “We discovered that the polyphenols in maple syrup inhibit enzymes that are involved in the conversion of carbohydrate to sugar,” said Seeram. “In fact, in preliminary studies maple syrup had a greater enzyme-inhibiting effect compared to several other healthy plant foods such as berries, when tested on a dry-weight basis.” <BR> <BR> Timely information although it is... Fri, 18 Mar 2016 14:00:02 EST Day 87 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6119836 I just ate fruit and pecans... with chocolate sauce.... on my cottage cheese. Hmm. <BR> <BR> Have I mentioned my problem with my food relationship? I had made crepes with chocolate sauce and fruit and fresh whip cream (as well as crepes with ham and cheese and red pepper Indian curry jelly) for my guests this morning. They did not eat any chocolate sauce!!? Was it bad? Something wrong with it? So I tasted it. Nope... devine. Creamy and dark and seductive. Still warm. And before I ... Tue, 15 Mar 2016 12:23:53 EST Day 88 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6117257 Such boring blog titles yet for me it says so much. The passage of time in Spark People is monumental. One day you are thinking you can never get through a single HOUR and the next you are realizing that years have passed with a particular behaviour now a habit. Yet I was dismayed to find my top yesterday fitting tightly and more of a muffin top than I have had for a while with my pants. Something is not "right" and I know it is my food that is the culprit. <BR> <BR> I am doing 24 hour... Sat, 12 Mar 2016 06:45:22 EST Day 89 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6116968 OK, if you can count you will see that I have NOT blogged every day. Ah, between going to emergency for my neck (the doctor decided I would not die immediately so I should see my family doctor... earliest apt. on Monday... to order an MRI...and now I have a soft neck collar and drugs and am trying to continue with my goals. Of course I am on nerve pain meds and my memory is not what it should be... goals? Ah... <BR> <BR> On the positive side I have had a wonderful guest who really filled ... Fri, 11 Mar 2016 17:47:26 EST Day 90 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6114423 Woo hoo, 10 days done! <BR> <BR> Puppy and I went for an hour walk. SP does not account for variables like slush and puddles but it was sunny and a lovely 8 degrees so I did not even wear a winter coat. No sign still of my spark tracker. I think I must have left it at my friend's house when I stayed overnight. <BR> <BR> I have eaten some frogs today... (if you eat the largest frog in the pond each morning nothing worse will happen to you). Today it was getting an open mortgage and t... Tue, 8 Mar 2016 15:02:07 EST Day 91 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6113182 Another skipped day of blogging. I thought about that for a minute and decided that I will continue to just count down in my number of blogs. It is a progression. <BR> <BR> The theme this morning for meditation was aligning myself NOT with the world but with this moment and trying to stay connected with my spiritual side. It was sooo on target because my friend and I had been talking about ADD and not being able to stay on track, of making countless lists of "shoulds and musts" and then ... Mon, 7 Mar 2016 07:25:32 EST Day 92 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6111980 Argh! The dryer broke and do you think ANYWHERE has gas dryers in stock? Nope! Plus all the ones on sale are no longer available. DH and I just spend a couple of hours going from store to store and ended up doing an order by phone... they just called and said the "no interest for 12 months" by putting it on the store card... has a glitch because DH has not used his card in a year so they need us to call credit services... and if it is all not completed in the next half hour it won't be de... Sat, 5 Mar 2016 15:37:21 EST Day 93 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6111285 I missed a day blogging... but that is the wonderful thing about doing this countdown... that is OK! So yesterday was busy. I was taxi driver for my kids and put walking in the pool as a priority and then walked the dog too and then against orders did some shoveling and ended up having to rest my sore back. Thankfully it is better today. It was so cold out but today has turned lovely so I have had the door open despite the deck being snow covered still and the cat and dog have been laying... Fri, 4 Mar 2016 16:15:17 EST Day 94 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6109258 Woo hoo, my first week done! I am loving having some structure in my day. My friend and I were talking about ADHD as she suspects she has a number of the symptoms. It could be menopause. The cotton candy brain where you lose thoughts and panic and feel like you are losing it. ADHD are simply symptoms of something else. Honestly, I think many people who have addictions have ADHD which is what our "dragons" LOVE. It means we can't stick to goals, take on too many things, forget what we a... Wed, 2 Mar 2016 08:30:17 EST Day 95 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6108617 Wow, a break is just what I needed! I had such a good time yesterday. I got done all I had to before I left and the drive was easy. The harp workshop was wonderful and we all learned a Scottish tune to play by ear. I was amazed how the pressure came off when I did not have to sight read or manage my heavy music stand... just listen and play. I can do that! The band (The Outside Track) were great with celtic tunes, fiddle, guitar, accordian, flutes and of course harp. Young and enthusia... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 14:01:54 EST