JUSTYNA7's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JUSTYNA7 JUSTYNA7's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ The dragon is asleep.. shhhh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674547 Day 42 in the 77 day countdown. <BR> <BR> It has been a good day. DD25 has had 3 seizures in the past 5 days.. .which is good. A baseline to see how the medications work. She had her hair bleached today so we can dye it electric blue (her colour for the past 10 years) over the weekend. <BR> <BR> I'm on track today thank goodness. I really am grateful to the "I Matter" list on my fridge to keep me doing positive things. Interesting to me that instead of fighting the dragon I let it fe... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 18:11:42 EST Planning a wider path http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673451 Today is day 43 in the 77 day BLC countdown. <BR> <BR> I am about to write back to a guest who is questioning how I decided to raise our rates since his last visit. I know what I am going to write. An answer that he will understand and accept but nothing is ever that straight forward and simple. There are chain reactions. Things are liniked together. When we started here children stayed free. Families appreciated. As the mom of a family I get that. But... I do remember that at the r... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 09:50:42 EST Hmmmm two days in a row... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673188 I have spent another day struggling with food. It's ironic because I read a blog that reminded me that I am powerless over food. There are many stressors going on in my life. I have "reasons" to be stressed. That does not mean I have reasons to eat. Stress is not an excuse. In me are the answers and the ability to let go. I am powerless over the food so I need to turn my life and my will over to my higher power. I need... to pray. Pray for an Aunt who has had a stroke and for my MIL ... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 23:28:36 EST Off track today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672247 For many reasons.. mostly food... I am off track today. Fortunately I gave myself 2 free passes to get back on the train without having to start all over. I just have to breath, drink water, and get to the point I can get back on track tomorrow! For right now I'm referring to my "I Matter" list on the fridge. Just do one good thing... then another... then another... sort of like "I think I can" mantra. <BR> <BR> On the positives I did water jogging this morning and did my shopping for ... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 18:22:06 EST Quick! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671113 Day 46 in the countdown BLC challenge! <BR> <BR> It's a work day so this will be brief. I was able to do 40 minutes in the pool this morning with some really good combined ST and cardio. Guest males were hunting this am and the rest of the family were late in the pool so breakfast is pretty much ready to serve as soon as they come up. I'll type fast, lol (good ST) <BR> <BR> I'm on track (on the train today) when I <BR> Food <BR> -oatmeal and rhubarb compote with coffee <BR> -salad and tu... Sun, 13 Apr 2014 11:25:02 EST Quick blog - plan for staying on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670415 I am on the train, staying on track today when I: <BR> Food <BR> -1.5 fiber bread and 2 eggs, coffee <BR> -pear <BR> -salad with tuna <BR> -yogurt <BR> -BBQ chicken on salad with baked potatoes <BR> -waters, freggies and making sure my carbs are spread out over the day <BR> PORTIONS mindfullness <BR> <BR> Exercise <BR> -just cleaning today and hopefully a chunk of that outside <BR> -short walk (slow pled) with the dog <BR> -minimum 6,050 steps <BR> <BR> Activity <BR> -harp practice <BR> -sh... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 10:37:11 EST Celebrating the efforts of all the BLC members! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669723 Day 48 in the 77 day countdown! The ITC challenge is to visit our team and other team's spark pages and say hello. I decided cheerleading was in order. We are transforming ourselves in so many different ways. For some it is through the gyms, zumba and spin classes and for others it is the home gym workout with weights, a ball, and an elliptical. For others it is walking. Another member is just working on accepting herself today and many many others are struggling with food portions, gett... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 10:09:54 EST Needing patience http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669270 Day 49 in the biggest loser countdown! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I was very fortunate to have a meet up with "real" spark people who, like me are trying to tame their food dragons and get on track. It is not easy this journey, but somehow when you backtrack and take the same path that was working for you before again, it is hard to appreciate the difficulty the first time. I was quite happy to breeze through the book we are using together (The Writing Diet by Julia Cameron). I used it for 100... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 19:06:24 EST Be selfish and Be honest? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668226 Day 50 in the 77 day BLC countdown. What a great number! 50! I did 50 pushups on the ball yesterday. Just enough to feel like I could not possibly do that many... but I did. 50 days journey left with my new team friends. <BR> <BR> I used to be such a loner. I'm not one to enjoy team sports or groups. I didn't like being accountable to anyone. In fact when I was a youth I was compulsive lier. There were things in my life that I was so mortified that people would find out that I cre... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 12:24:35 EST Best gift - Spark People - Thank you! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667173 Thank you spark people, spark friends, spark buddies, spark teams, spark coaches and team leaders. You are the best gift. You help me be a better me. You put me on a pedestal (OK a step or two and repeat) and make me believe I can be the best I can be. You make me accountable. You correct me when I'm wrong. YOu encourage when I'm at my lowest and cheer me when I succeed. You make me laugh and cry and wonder in awe. You surprise me and are my rock. We are partners. We make the world ... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 08:45:14 EST Happy Dance day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666616 (first part cut and pasted from a thread I just responded to as I thought it was a good start) <BR> <BR> Happy Dance! <BR> <BR> Went to the neurologist today and DD25 is starting medications for her seizures as soon as the pharmacy calls and says they have come in (they had to be ordered) which should be tonight. Hopeful and excited! She is going to try and have a normal schedule for the next 3 months. It's huge for us to try this but we are so willing. We had a discussion with him about ta... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 15:01:34 EST Saturday's Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5665092 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_j<BR>ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664234 <BR> <BR> This was the blog of the day I read and found hit the nail on the head to what I have been writing about in my morning pages. <BR> <BR> In a nutshell, when I am stressed FOOD becomes my priority in my mind and this is part of the natural human response. Normal. But successful management under stress means overriding that obsession. <BR> <BR> What I have been writing about has been my dragon ... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 14:26:25 EST Another short blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664086 Day 55 today in the BLC. Boy my arms are sore... hard to type. I was stripping the paint off bathroom tiles that we had painted fish on. Love the fish but not to everyone's taste so I'm going to paint them a neutral colour instead (cover the retro flower pattern). It was really nice because DH and DD played banangrams last night together and let me just have some time to vegetate. I'm glad. I usually try and spend time with her and I love spending time with DH... but some days, especiall... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 08:22:10 EST Be patient food dragon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663351 New Day and New fresh start! Today is day 56 in the 77 day countdown for BLC. <BR> <BR> I feel.. better today! I have a feeling if I put on some hiking shoes and play hookie from housework I will feel better yet. It is sunny out at this moment and the roads are dry. I'm not sure all our solar panels are clear yet of snow but what I can see is. It is generating energy and I want to do that too! <BR> <BR> I have a buddy which is good for me. I can write things and figure out what I'm th... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 10:08:25 EST Just a simple blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662743 I had errands this monring. Late start to writing this morning and I'll keep it brief. I have already got in my steps for today and have lots of heavy housework to do this afternoon to prepare the B&B <BR> <BR> When I'm on the train today (on track) I'm <BR> Food <BR> - toast with PB and jam and coffee <BR> -apple <BR> -tuna and fiber bread with olive oil light mayo and bread/salad <BR> -yogurt <BR> -chicken (we had fish last night) on salad <BR> -chick pea soup <BR> <BR> Exercise <BR> -m... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 14:46:27 EST I am the only one who can determine what foods need warning labels http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661617 Day 58 of the 77 day Biggest Loser Countdown <BR> <BR> I am back to 200 pounds. I have not eaten 100% clean but I think that one pound is more likely muscle gain or other factors like too little sleep. I have had so many good eating days that I am delighted. I will just keep on eating clean and make no changes. <BR> <BR> It has been an "investment" using the food tracker. An investment in time. It used to take a lot of time to read labels and log EVERYTHING. I was able to do some grou... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 10:20:33 EST I am perfect just as I am today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660614 Today is day 59 of the 77 day Biggest Loser Challenge <BR> <BR> It was... an amazing day yesterday responding to comments on my SP success story. I think it's over now and I can get back to having a normal size head, lol. <BR> <BR> Well maybe that is what I should write about this morning for a bit. I just shared a little bit of my world with a whole lot of people and... I wanted them to like me. I wanted approval. From... strangers. The past few days on a spark team we have been discu... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 08:46:46 EST New relationship with the dragon? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658643 My food dragon is anxious. <BR> <BR> You know how your pets are when you start packing up to go on holiday? They start sniffing around the suitcases, watch what you put in. Sometimes they might whine or pace or settle themselves so they are blocking the front door? <BR> <BR> My food dragon knows something is up. It knows I am not hungry, angry, lonely or tired. It sees me exercising more and eating differently than I usually do. It sees the weight loss. I wish it would just trust me... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 12:43:18 EST Saving fat? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655300 It is day 66 of the 77 day BLC countdown! 66 days left on this train trip! <BR> <BR> OK I have a confession. I don't know who I am. The normal me who is very abnormal in so many ways... can't lose weight. I have addressed this in blogs before. I have even briefly believed that this cannot be true... but In my mind I have tried and failed so many times. Losing weight is.... luck, coincidence, one of the great mystic mysteries, a shock, a lie, something that other people do. In my mind ... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 11:11:39 EST Great friends and great advice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654294 Non scale victory! Some of you may know it is snow storming here.. so going out to a concert in a town 45 minutes away was not in my comfort zone last night... but I went and I am so glad I did. The opening group, "Dusty Drifters" from Ottawa were the most remarkable blue grass players I have ever seen. The mandolin player's fingers moved like a hummingbird's wings. The guitar player had lead vocals that were like butter telling stories to hot toast. The base player was consistantly in ... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 01:02:45 EST Adventures in the great white north http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653901 I think you can do ANYTHING listening to the song "Happy" in the background! <BR> <BR> Ottawa may not be that far north but it sure feels like it today! Woke up to a blizzard and despite that took my dog for a walk. DH shoveled a path to the road for us but then we had to stick to the middle of the road so we were not in drifts. Christal has to stay on her leash, walk, not do stairs and not jump until her stitches come out in 2 weeks. But walking along we were both happy. We still hav... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 12:25:48 EST Day 69 of the BLC Indigo challenge countdown http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653118 It occurred to me that I like countdowns <em>55</em> because I want my weight to go down as well. <em>58</em> <BR> <BR> Today is day 69 in my countdown. I just dropped my dog off at the vet to have her lumpectomy. They will call this afternoon with a progress report. She has had difficulty with anesthetics before and is 12.5 yrs old... a few health problems. Reason to eat? NO! I am so grateful that I am accountable for my food because there is no question I WANT to eat. I kee... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 10:22:07 EST Peace and Joy from eating Healthy? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5652291 I woke up this morning with a sense of joy. Second time this week. Peace and joy. <BR> <BR> I have struggled most of my adult life with being able to eat healthy. It did not matter how many times I said I would start fresh, promise myself that I would only eat vegetables and fruit or stick to whatever diet was the flavour of the month. Eventually the word diet would send me to drive throughs, loading my cart with unwanted carbs or searching my cupboards for something to bake. I was a gr... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 10:15:51 EST Day 71 in the 77 day BLC http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651429 I need to do some planning today! Lost 2 pounds so have logged that. Brings me to 201. <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I realized how much time playing a computer game takes. I was doing it to destress for a while between chores but it's not how I want to live my life. Same with watching TV. I find both, although they are mindless which is appealing... tire me out. I lack energy when I spend so much time sitting. So today is about living! Wed, 19 Mar 2014 09:47:22 EST Sabatoge! Day 72 in the 77 day BLC http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5650630 My 3 pound weight loss yesterday made me anxious. I was waiting for sabatoge.. and it came. It started with nibbles of cinnamon buns that I had made for the guests. They kept talking about how amazing they are. I usually don't eat them but make them less often than other things as the aroma kind of fills the house. Anyways the next thing that happened was a change in my lunch plan. I had planned a salad but realized I was late for harp lesson so grabbed a chicken sandwich on whole grain... Tue, 18 Mar 2014 09:50:48 EST Progress? Day 73 in the 77 day BLC countdown http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5649902 I stepped on the scale this morning and it said 200 lb. We'll see. That would mean a 3 pound loss. I am skeptical. Not that I have not been working hard but .... like I said we will see. I like to see a number "stick" for a few days before I will change my tracker. <BR> <BR> Guests have checked out so my "weekend" has started. I have a harp lesson this afternoon and am going to a talk on anxiety this evening (although they seemed to have lost my request for seats so said they will ca... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 12:01:18 EST Day 74 in the BLC 77 day countdown http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5649132 <em>244</em> Another (mostly) clean eating day! I was at the art workshop yesterday and when I got coffee I automatically took a cookie to go with it. Home made and oatmeal raisin so could have been worse. Despite doing aquafit yesterday I had to pace around the house to get in my 5500 steps before midnight. I stayed up way too late so tonight's goal again will be early to bed and 8 hours sleep. Sleep is always a deal breaker for me when it comes to losing weight. Not enough and my we... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 12:57:01 EST Day 75 in the 77 day countdown! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5648365 Woo hoo another good food day! I admit it did not all get into my tracker. I'll try and get today's food all logged in there so I can see if I'm missing anything. I made the guests dinner last night and at the last minute threw a peach upside down cake in the oven PLUS our signiture ginger cookies. They ate both... and I ate NEITHER! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I had planned to have some fruit for an evening snack but was OK with just tea. So happy. Yes I was hungry but I did not die.... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 11:31:21 EST Day 76 of the 10 week countdown of BLC http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5647550 Here I am counting down again. I've done 100 day challenges and countdowns just work for me. I'm not sure what it is about my perfectionist mind that feels like I can only count upwards perfectly... miss a day or make a mistake and I feel like I have to start over. A countdown just happens. Like gravity. No matter what I do I will get to day 1. <BR> <BR> That said I have had a successful first day. Things I need to do daily to stay on the train: <BR> I posted on my team page chatter th... Fri, 14 Mar 2014 08:52:00 EST The Countdown Begins! Day 77 of 10 weeks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646875 Crazy start. It snowed yesterday so I was out in -32 windchill shoveling for 45 minutes before breakfast to make enough space for a swimmer to come by this morning. I had to come in and bulk up on mitts and scarf because of the wind. Brrr! But hurray for a good start working out! lol and it is meant to be +4 tomorrow with freezing rain... so lucky to have indoor facilities! <BR> <BR> So today begins a 10 week BLC (Biggest Loser Challenge and I'm very excited. Yesterday I cooked for seve... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 10:50:30 EST Being my own cheerleader http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5645825 I'm am so grateful to the support of my spark friends. <BR> <BR> I struggled but won yesterday. It was a really really good food day. I journaled my food and stuck with the plan. I walked around the store putting BACK items that leapt in of their own accord. I'm making dinner for my guests on Friday and decided it would be nice to have dessert... and thankfully while in the store decided that I will just serve the bedtime snack cookies I always make for guests which I don't eat. I ha... Wed, 12 Mar 2014 00:20:31 EST More Preparations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5645497 Yesterday I made my 4 day menu for Thur/Fri/Sat/Sun. <BR> <BR> Today is clean out the fridge day! I am enjoying homemade chicken soup. <BR> Today is clean off my bulliton board and create the 10 week challenge on it in INDIGO! (I just went to the dollar store for incentives) <BR> Today I reminded DH to top up the water softener so my water tastes better. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is grocery shopping for fresh and frozen veggies according to my menu for the next four days. <BR> Tomorrow is weigh... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 15:47:57 EST Telling people http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644405 (Continueing with my ananolgy of being on a train/staying on track). The Biggest Loser Challenge for 10 weeks starts Thursday so yesteday was about telling people that I will be on board on how to help me stay on board. <BR> <BR> I don't count on people supporting me. I have almost always had to do tough things on my own. I have almost always thought that my weight gain was my fault so it's my responsibility to take the weight off. I have also felt the guilt, the shame, the overwhelming ... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 11:47:35 EST Changing where I go to avoid my "drug of choice" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5643753 DH walked me to Tim Horton's and I bought him a coffee. It was a lovely walk in the sunshine but I was glad of mitts and hat because the wind. <BR> <BR> I was sharing on a thread earlier how my husband used to sabatoge my efforts. Lots of people do that. It's complicated. Sometimes I think they are afraid of you changing. They drag you to your old haunts and places that you had "fun" together because they want to be assured that that is still part of who you are. The thing is, when t... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 16:48:42 EST Fueling the train http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5643027 Gratitudes. I've decided that gratitudes are the fuel for the train. <BR> <BR> -sunshine and melting snow... I can even see the solar panels peaking out which were blanketed under snow since the first snowfall in November! <BR> -my dog... slow but steady she is still with us and while I hoped she could get around the block I was so happy when we managed a couple of blocks together! <BR> -DD had a seizure this morning and I had a lot of guilt and worry... but she just came in and is feelin... Sat, 8 Mar 2014 16:41:18 EST Planning to stay on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640771 Yesterday's blog got some great responses and I truly am loving my analogy of being on a train. <BR> <BR> Which means I am preparing for a train trip with my 10 week biggest loser spark challenge! <BR> <BR> Idea have been flowing. <BR> Do 4 day streaks where at the start of each 4 days I look at the challenges, plan my menus and identify personal challenges to get around. One of my DD's will be cooking a meal each 4 days so I've already got one "on board" to cook according to my meal pl... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 20:35:52 EST Get on board the train! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5639627 Have you ever thought about the expression "getting back on track"? I was thinking I should do that with my routine of food and exercise and had a chuckle when it brought up the image of riding on a train... and then I stopped in my tracks so to speak. <BR> <BR> When you are riding a train you have to know your destination but then ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS STAY ON AND YOU'LL GET THERE! Doesn't that sound absurdly simple? Yet I find myself stepping off the train all the time with no idea wh... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 15:02:23 EST Welcome March! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637723 I think March is going to be a great month. That said I hardly realized it is March so I need a few minutes of quiet time to get grounded and set some goals. Way too little sleep last night. We were up at 3:00 a.m. helping partiers tidy up, making sure those leaving had taxis and that those staying had a place to put their heads. I personally needed to know I'd be walking into a clean kitchen this morning. Then I was up at 6:30 cooking. I had gluten free and regular guests. Only 17 stay... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 13:49:48 EST Saturday - reassuring myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5636711 The old B&B breakfast maker kicked in this morning.... smoked salmon breakfast pie on one half and sausage breakfast pie on the other half... fresh fruit salad with yogurt and granola, homemade kiwi jam and dark chocolate mouse with whip cream in crepes and I'm looking at it wondering if I should serve the maple salmon with a crepe or just on the side and I really should have picked up asparagus..... OMG did I really cook like this all the time? Took me less than 2 hours including setting t... Sat, 1 Mar 2014 08:48:10 EST Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5636122 Today is a swim day! Hurray! And a friend is coming over to swim so double hurray! <BR> <BR> I am feeling stressed but it is all about work at this moment and I know it will pass. I just want to EAT over it so am writing instead and trying to remind myself to play harp, exercise, sleep.... I have good things in my tool box so I just have to USE them. Fri, 28 Feb 2014 13:01:42 EST My food guidelines http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5634325 It was pointed out in a fellow sparker's blog that this is eating disorder awareness week so this is what I came up in response. I thihk the hardest thing for me (diabetic or not, was realizing what NORMAL eating should be. How much and what things. I think I had dieted for so many years and binged on foods for nearly as many so my head was full of lies. The chart really helped me see what people should be eating. All the low carb diets are interesting but I know my brain needs carbs as ... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 11:52:35 EST Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5633880 I am not used to my spark page colours yet and keep wanting to close whosever this page belongs to and find mine, lol <BR> <BR> DH and I sat drinking coffee under the palm tree in the sunshine watching snow fall outside and the reflections of the pool make patterns on the walls. It was lovely. We decided we should have people over. Not B&B guests, but family. We used to do a lot of gatherings here but have not for a long time. I know everyone is busy with their activities and kids' acti... Tue, 25 Feb 2014 23:19:53 EST Cindy Lou Hoo and the Avalanche - Understanding food? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5632725 I'm excited to write but I have to get dinner started too ... so I hope this says what I want. <BR> <BR> The theme of a few blogs lately has been emotional eating and "treats" and food as a consolation. I've been reflecting on how interwoven and complex it all is. Food is such a huge part of North American culture in normal families and I think in some of our families was used in place of healthy affection and nurturing. Lots of people trying to figure out why we eat the way we do. Why w... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 17:13:49 EST Sunday night! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631844 R - recognize my challenges and reduce obstacles. <BR> E - Eliminate excuses...Find A Way! <BR> B - Build an exercise plan and stick to it....small steps everyday. <BR> O - Overcome obstacles by preplanning. <BR> O - Optimize 10-minute breaks...exercise, stretch, clear my mind. <BR> T - Transform my 'wants' into reality. You can make this happen! <BR> <BR> I was doing great, got sick, got better and now? Time for a plan and "reboot". I borrowed this from another sparker but love it. I'm ... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 18:26:42 EST Breaking the dam - what was that trigger moment? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5629029 Had tea with DD this morning and we talked about goals. A spark friend posted that even though she has years of training helping people set goals whe has not been able to successfully get herself to lose weight. It was not until a dream recently where she imagined someone was trying to break into her room and she woke up realizing she was currently not in shape to defend herself that she felt motivated to start exercising. I totally relate. Having 3 small children and a job I HAD to make ... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 09:25:59 EST Day 3 of my 4 day countdown http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628309 Today I finished my 30 day abs challenge <em>244</em> What WILL I do with all that extra time, lol. I already posted on a thread but I am proud to say that today I did a 2 minute plank, 200 crunches, 180 sit-ups, and 65 double leg raises. I have muscles but didn't see any inches lost. Still it feels great to be able to do them compared to how many I could do at the start of the challenge. <BR> <BR> I have decided to sign up for a 10 week biggest loser challenge in March. In the mea... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 12:00:06 EST Four Day Countdown http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5627664 I have a small window in my life. It's not perfect but it is what it is. I decided that I am perfectly capable of 100% clean eating, of getting my minimum steps in and exercise. The weekend will be hectic but if I am constantly looking for a longer "streak" period it won't happen for a few months. So... 4 days doing the BEST that I can. The thing that really inspired me was a blog that said "I remember when I was willing to do ANYTHING to lose the weight". Wow, I remember that feeling. ... Tue, 18 Feb 2014 20:05:34 EST Food journals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5626493 I have tried tracking my food and it was a good experience when I went back and tried to figure out my patterns, where or why I made better choices than others, and used the tracker to plan future meals. <BR> <BR> Lately I have noticed a trend in photo journaling food. It intrigues me. Often I can't remember what I ate earlier in the day. The idea of being able to put all the food out on the table in photo form seems brilliant. It would be very obvious how many portions of veggies or f... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 13:46:55 EST Me and the shovel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625607 I love this analogy and go back to it over and over again. I find myself at different stages... so while you read it think about where you are today. <BR> <BR> Once upon a time I was in a hole. I knew I was in the hole and wanted to get out so I picked up a shovel and started to dig. <BR> <BR> One day I realized that the shovel was not working for me. Yet I didn't know any other way, so whenever I panicked about being in the hole I would pick up the shovel and dig. <BR> <BR> A while l... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 14:28:10 EST Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5624673 I was reading Steph-knee's blog today about the changes she has become aware of and it made me ask myself the same question. What things are different in my attitude about food? <BR> <BR> Old me: <BR> -I want to go for dinner where I will get the MOST for my money. No doggie bags for me... I'll lick the plate clean. <BR> -We HAVE to order a whole large pizza for me. Yes I can eat half in one sitting. I'll probably eat the rest for breakfast. But don't think about having one of my s... Sat, 15 Feb 2014 10:49:32 EST