JUSTYNA7's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JUSTYNA7 JUSTYNA7's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ A shift http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6092754 Some days I feel like I am battling my demons. Healthy foods look boring and Unhealthy foods look comforting. Overeating just is easy because it tastes soooo good. I was reading this morning that that those "cross messages" might be neurological. Actually embedded in my body's makeup.... but the good news is it can change. <BR> <BR> I've read this book before but sometimes a second look can reveal what we need the second time around... or are ready for. 21 spiritual lessons for surrend... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 13:42:25 EST The Deep Fear of Needing to Diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6084571 Wow, I just read a blog that was very powerful to me. There was a line about having a "deep fear that I will need to diet again, that this healthy life thing is just a phase i am going through". <BR> <BR> Healthy eating is for sure becoming more routine and emotional eating is becoming something I see for what it is. I am not rid of it yet but am more able to recognize it and either distract myself before it happens, stop it when I have succumbed, or pick myself up and go to my "I Matte... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 07:35:47 EST Agent Ruby Luscious Reporting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6077477 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a2a32cb3-b759-40bf-b312-dd016b6d97bc.jpg"> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/f5c5550a-ea69-4cd7-ac20-d8cb6a190edb.jpg"> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/050776d5-73e3-424c-9317-3221322f1316.jpg"> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/38ccd99b-ab88-42a9-a8b1-86de7229128d.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Bond night was fun. I got to flash my gun and DH got to show off his cufflinks he made from bullets. These pictures are... Sat, 23 Jan 2016 23:47:58 EST Bond Night is Here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6077057 Well ladies, this is it! Tonight is my James Bond Casino Night! I just got my hair done and I not only found matching red nail polish but a friend dropped in last night with paint on glossy red lip polish that is a perfect match too. I have some great jewelry.... I am so psyched! Hubby is putting studs on his tuxedo as we speak. Hahahahha! Life is not perfect but I feel perfect today. I even got some healthy snacks to bring because they are serving cupcakes and alcoholic sweet drinks so I'm g... Sat, 23 Jan 2016 13:20:00 EST Success? Repeat! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6074378 Yesterday was a good day. I had a spark friend, Seawave over to chat, swim and lunch. I love her goal of walking the Camino trail, even though right now she is using a walker for any distance. Never say never and take it one step at a time. I know because I was in her "shoes" once. I can be her cheerleader! And it means starting slowly, like walking in the pool, so we did. <BR> <BR> It is amazing what we can do for others what we cannot do for ourselves. I have such a hard time slowin... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 09:32:21 EST Operation "Bond Girl" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6062937 As you know from my last blog, my short term goal is to be a Bond Girl. The James Bond themed Casino Party "date" is January 23 so the countdown is on. <BR> <BR> Mission One: The dress <BR> Yesterday I got my dress finished. I had to adjust it to fit as it fits my middlest DAUGHTER! I had not realized I am closer to her size. For years I have felt like an elephant in a room of people but I guess I am a people now too! <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/d60726fa-bd77-4cc1-... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 09:24:54 EST Bond, James Bond http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6056783 Sometimes I think how nice it would be to pop by and share a cup of tea together, my spark friends... or meet somewhere to talk over how things are going. Ah well... I have not spent as much time on line this month but I've been having those cups of tea with local friends and family and doing some really good things for myself. If you are having a cup of tea soon, think of me being there with you! <BR> <BR> My weight is up but I've been walking and today will start a week of Paleo meals j... Fri, 1 Jan 2016 10:45:22 EST My engine is red! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6053091 Chugga chugga chugga chugga... not the chugging of anything alcoholic but the little engine that could! I think I CAN and I WILL. <BR> <BR> It took a lot of self talk today to get myself in the pool. The water was cold and I just wanted to go find some cozy pajamas and a hot beverage and read a book. It's the holidays, right? But if I don't make the effort I won't live to my potential. I love that slogan "you can only coast downhill". So tonight I can enjoy that book and snuggle into ... Sat, 26 Dec 2015 21:22:11 EST Back to feeling like myself! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6051137 The roller coaster has finally leveled out and this morning I feel good. Ah... it has been so long since I have had depression and I had forgotten how awful it is. My kids are the best. "Mom, want to come for a walk?" "Mom, want to go for a night time geocache?" "Mom, I'll go get eggs for you". With my post partum depression and then the depression I had after my car accident there was very little support. The kids were young, hubby was working as hard as he could to make ends meet. ... Tue, 22 Dec 2015 09:20:36 EST The cone of shame... and friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6043686 Friends! I NEED them. I was reflecting early this morning that I am envious of one of my friends because she has 4 "grandmothers" in her life. Not biological grandmothers, they are women who have "adopted" her to share their wisdom, stories and guide her. <BR> <BR> I was thinking that I never had that. The "adults" in my life growing up were not to be trusted, inconsistent, made promises that were never kept, and encouraged me in behaviours that were not healthy. I can think of some i... Mon, 7 Dec 2015 09:20:48 EST Finding Humility http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6038506 Our meditation yesterday has stayed in my mind. I have habit of having self deprecating statements balanced with believing somehow I am better than others. Humility is somewhere in the middle and when I pray or meditate humility is the result of seeing that those extremes do me harm. Yet the meditation was about accepting those extremes as essential for finding humility. It is our motivation. I think both feelings are born of fear which breeds judgement. Unconditional love for myself an... Fri, 27 Nov 2015 08:39:20 EST What do I want? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6034165 What do I want? In the shower this morning that was my question to myself, forehead against the tiles and letting the water leak where tears should fall. I'm cried out. My cousin and then my dog. These things come in threes and my daughter had a hard night with vertigo and throwing up so I woke up exhausted but glad to hear the creek of the recliner as she re-positioned herself. I want my daughter's misery to be over... but not like that. No, be careful what you ask for. There may be s... Wed, 18 Nov 2015 10:29:36 EST Marry My Soul http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6033696 Wonderful reading the other day and it has stayed with me so I thought I'd share. <BR> <BR> "Being true to who we are means carrying our spirit like a candle in the center of our darkness" <BR> <BR> "If we are to live without silencing or numbing essential parts of who we are, a vow must be invoked and upheld within oneself. The same commitments we pronounce when embarking on a marriage can be understood internally as a devotion to the care of one's soul: to have and to hold... for better... Tue, 17 Nov 2015 13:05:46 EST Halloween is over but it was fun! Now Nanowrimo? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6025288 Good morning! I don't have a lot to write about. Of course whenever I say that I end up writing tons, lol. Life is good. I lost 2 pounds last week. Of the 14 I gained pose knee replacement that puts me half way to getting back to where I was pre-injury last summer. I have started a new ritual of lying in my bed before I get up and hugging my knees towards my chest, trying to bend them as much as they will, doing a sciatic stretch pulling my knees to one side then the other, and then aft... Mon, 2 Nov 2015 10:08:20 EST Love myself as I would love someone else... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6015766 It's not easy to love myself. I tend to be critical, demanding, impatient. I know that I would not treat someone else that way. <BR> <BR> After the long Thanksgiving weekend, as expected, there were a lot of leftovers. On one hand very nice because I have not had to cook. But temptations around! I decided after a second big meal over the weekend to take the gentle approach with myself. What could I do to treat myself with respect and love? The first step was giving up computer games... Thu, 15 Oct 2015 23:57:15 EST There is NO neutral thought when it comes to food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6014207 I am making progress, however it is very much a fall and get up and move forward then fall again pattern for me. I wrote the following on a team thread and thought it makes a good blog that I can look back on. <BR> <BR> I was doing reading yesterday and here is a line in "A Course in Weight Loss: 21 Spritual lessons to surrender your weight forever" that got me: "There is no neutral thought" When it comes to food. Either a thought originated from a place of LOVE or FEAR. <BR> <BR> When I ... Tue, 13 Oct 2015 08:15:21 EST Scotland and Ireland on the Horizon! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6013287 I just booked my flights to Scotland and Ireland. I want to use this excitement to help motivate me with my goals! I have a few months but I know it will go fast and I am a snail when it comes to making progress. Walking and feeling good in my clothes and having energy are priorities. Lovely day today which also helps. More later.... <BR> <BR> It's Thanksgiving weekend here in Canada so I have to run... but wishing you all the best! <em>428</em> Sun, 11 Oct 2015 17:41:30 EST Play the body in front of you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6009653 This morning on my walk, instead of looking for the sun rise, I focused on how the sun was touching trees and rooftops as it came up. It was brief, these isolated glimmers of brightness and sparkle that had "popped" with those first rays. Before long the sun had snuggled into a cloud sleeping bag for a nap, and those lucky leaves and shingles had already tucked away their splendour like a secret rendezvous and were now looking quite ordinary. But I knew. I had seen them. <BR> <BR> I ... Mon, 5 Oct 2015 10:34:17 EST Hunger.... diabetes and how it is changing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6006650 I would panic at first when my blood sugars got low. Then my body began to trust me. I think I had high blood sugars for so many years that at first when they got "normal" I would feel ill. After a while though I started to feel good when my blood sugars were good and became more sensitive to how the highs made me lethargic, sleepy, cloudy minded. I think exercise, and it triggering the muscles being able to get sugar without insulin puts so much less stress on our bodies as a whole, allo... Wed, 30 Sep 2015 08:20:25 EST Ready for change.. with the moon! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6005157 It's day 80 in my 100 day countdown. So much has happened in 20 days. My canoe trip being top of my list. I am almost done the 31 day walking challenge. I have had some spectacular exercise days. My latest blood work came back all wonderful. I'm actualy looking forward to seeing my doctor to discuss possibly going off my diabetes medication for good! We will see. <BR> <BR> What about my food? Many days I was more attuned with portioning. A few days successful at eating clean the ent... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 21:13:44 EST Which door? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5998433 I was responding to a thread this morning. HALT (don't get too hungry, angry, lonely or tired) is a great tool for helping prevent random eating... and one member has been joking about having that tattooed on her fingers... and even tried magic marker to see if it helped. I found my response really good and want to reread it so have cut and pasted it below: <BR> <BR> <BR> Hahaha! I HAVE a marker.... I tried nail polish and I was wondering about getting another diabetes bracelet. I think ... Wed, 16 Sep 2015 09:15:03 EST You've come a long way Baby! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5995863 Today is day 95 in my countdown. Yesterday was a birthday swim party for my nephew. He and many of his friends have Down's Syndrome. It struck me, just as it does for many aunties watching their nephews and nieces, how grown up they are getting. There was one little guy who was just like my nephew used to be. ALL OVER THE PLACE. So busy. He was into one thing and then another. He seemed to have purpose but such a short attention span. On one hand he was fearless and as he did yet ano... Sat, 12 Sep 2015 07:22:22 EST Rest day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5994927 It is day 97 in my countdown (no blog yesterday) and it has been fantastic! I decided to spend most of it outdoors because it is the BEST place to ground me and help stomp out my cravings. In fact I took on a project spontaneously. I was going to just mow the lawn but as I stepped over the paving bricks for the umteenth time I decided, as I did last week, to set a couple in the ground. Well, I did them all. They are not perfect. I'll bet my husband comes home and levels a couple of them... Thu, 10 Sep 2015 16:39:27 EST New shoes to walk through the door of clean eating! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5993383 Today is day 99 in my countdown to eat clean. It is ... variable. I will get better. <BR> <BR> Yesterday really helped, having an image of my future me in Ireland and doing ladders and off Diabetic meds. I even got excited when I found a new team member from Scotland. I plan to got there a week after Ireland and meet up with my daughter. Wouldn't that be great to meet up with a spark friend there? I always find my meetups with spark people motivating. <BR> <BR> Today I thought about... Tue, 8 Sep 2015 11:43:45 EST Eating clean... motivated! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5992480 I was reading a blog and reminded the writer of a challenge I gave myself a while back to count down from 100 days and how useful that was, not because I was trying to accumulate successive successful days, but because each day I was working towards that goal and reflecting on what was blocking me, triggering me, or happening in my life so that I could clear the way for success. It's easy to say "I'm going to do ____ every day but another to make it happen. Sometimes it is about baby steps,... Mon, 7 Sep 2015 05:53:29 EST I Matter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5991998 One of the most important tools for me has been the "I Matter" list. I don't even remember how it came about. Being the person I am I would get busy and "forget" to do just basic things for myself. But in those days I didn't see how all the little things I did for myself mattered. Nope, it was the all or nothing things. Did I get in a really good workout that made me sweat or my muscles burn? Did I eat all day on my food plan. Did I get everything done on my to do list? Did I get 8 ho... Sun, 6 Sep 2015 10:49:58 EST The Anvil Around My Neck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5990132 The theme for meditation this morning was "the anvil around my neck". It resonated more with me for a few days ago... but the discussion with my meditation buddy was good so I thought i would share. <BR> <BR> I get an idea.... a good idea, an inspired idea... and then it becomes a burden. What happens? One possibility is I start to worry about my "performance" or how it will look to other people. I don't know if it is compensation for neglect or criticism in the distant past... but I beg... Thu, 3 Sep 2015 08:34:11 EST Controlling... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5988642 As many of you know I have been meditating every morning with my neighbour since January. I also did Marianne Williamson's "Course in Weight Loss:21 Spiritual Steps to releasing weight forever". And, a long time ago I was in OA and did the 12 steps. All this has helped when I struggle... and boy I was struggling yesterday. <BR> <BR> I have a great life and am grateful for it. But something was triggering problems. I found myself eating junk yesterday and in the evening warming up left... Tue, 1 Sep 2015 08:50:50 EST Accountability http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5987919 I have been struggling with being consistent at some things. Mostly I am not sure how many times I have walked or eaten clean or worked on other goals. This morning I was reading and it suggested that at the end of each week, at the start of each new week, having a "check in" with myself. I had to do that when I belonged to "Biggest Loser" spark teams because all our activities added up as points for the team. So how does one do that? <BR> <BR> 1. Write down the daily goals <BR> -writi... Mon, 31 Aug 2015 08:59:53 EST Eating Less http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5983622 Well, my Wise Women Retreat went very very well. I think I have worked on so many issues that I did not feel the exhaustion that the others felt by the end. It was emotionally filling for me. A lot of belly laughs and everyone is now a friend/sister to me. We plan to do it again next year. <BR> <BR> Afterwards though I decided to just do laundry and hang out on the computer. Get caught up on emails, browse for a few things on line. I had leftovers... and sandwiches. By night I felt li... Mon, 24 Aug 2015 07:19:07 EST Wise Woman http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5982060 It's been a while since I have blogged. I let SP writing and reading go while I was on holidays and busy with the B&B.... although a couple of teams I have remained active on. There was only a spattering of service while at the cottage.... but I'm back. It was crazy catching up on emails and letters and "work". The house was tidy but not clean and a LOT happened last week so while I was here I wan't if you know what I mean. Today I have some breathing space. Guests have been fed and are... Fri, 21 Aug 2015 12:04:32 EST Food Journal and figuring out how foods make me feel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5972134 I'm starting this thread because today I started some clean eating goals. I am going to try and get to the end of the month without eating complex foods, sugars etc. <BR> <BR> It's not easy, is it? I sat talking to my meditation buddy about it. Fortunately, although she does not have an eating problem she is feeling a little "out of sorts" with her body and wants to treat it better. We talked about diets that we have tried before. There are SO MANY! I have tried. Usually I didn't sti... Tue, 4 Aug 2015 17:25:00 EST Take charge and be present http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5968480 Yesterday was DH's and my 31st wedding anniversary. It was a good day... could have gone bad. I got a "congratulations" phone call from someone who is toxic to me and at first it seemed like a call that would go fine... but eventually words were said and I got off the phone with the conversation on an endless loop in my head. What do you do? Well.... I am learning how to deal with that. The old me would have found excuses to eat. Anniversary? Lots of good reasons I could get DH on boar... Wed, 29 Jul 2015 08:29:18 EST Today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5967536 Today. I'm not sure what is different about today. But I over the past while I had been struggling to commit to eating less, eating clean and using all the tools at my disposal. I've been writing morning pages and going for walks. I have not been recording my food because I have not wanted to. Not wanted to because I wanted to eat without any responsibility. Then yesterday I not only had a meditation that specifically looked at asking for help with my responsibilities but I read a blog... Mon, 27 Jul 2015 17:23:51 EST Accomplishments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5959948 I need a moment. I need to stamp my feet and have a little whine about my weight. Argh! OK, that's done. Yup, still on this plateau. I have to remind myself that it is not really a plateau because it has been more like a bobble head. It is definitely not how I am going to look at my accomplishments this week but hey, I think I am allowed to have a moment of rolling my eyes at the scale and say, "really, after all this, no change?!?" <BR> <BR> However it really has been a great week of ... Mon, 13 Jul 2015 08:16:37 EST An Ally between the covers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5957935 This week I am meant to use my journal to track food... when I eat and when I want to eat. The reasons, the circumstances, the emotions that begin the search to fill the void and the reaction to when I say no, or have to work at it or how I feel when I comply.... The idea is that words count just as calories do. <BR> <BR> But I also realized in reading the chapter (The Writing Diet chapter 2) that the journal might become my best friend and when I thought about that compared to what I t... Thu, 9 Jul 2015 08:05:19 EST Manure and seeds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5957568 Do you ever feel tired of always having to do this? <BR> <BR> I started my meditation this morning wondering about the part of me that still feels negatively about myself... feels like a sham... feels like I just have not mastered this. I can still see a pile of manure in my core. What is it doing there?!?!? Part of that comes from being in the "gestation phase" of the course in weight loss. I am just waiting, which is hard. I want results, and what if they don't come? Shouldn't I be... Wed, 8 Jul 2015 13:57:54 EST Frozen pie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5954833 This has to be quick... but I am working on learning to love. It means... wearing my heart on my sleeve and really being present. From the Course in weight loss... asking angels to be in my home, in my conversations, in my head... all the time. It is all about love. I had pie last night... frozen pie. Well, it was defrosting over my tea... but it had been a bad day. I was also up too late. Not a good time to do this as I have a super busy schedule for the next week at a pace I'm not u... Fri, 3 Jul 2015 08:53:36 EST Writing diet ... first day of Morning Pages http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5953841 I'm going to cut and paste what I wrote on the team page: <BR> <BR> Wow! I'm proud of myself. The keyboard was not working so I replaced batteries and then changed keyboards. Not bad for technically challenged, lol. <BR> <BR> My writing this morning I used the topic in the discussion and wrote a letter to fat Justyna and then had her write back to me, thin Justyna. It was more like a phone text conversation. A bunch of my doubts surfaced and I kept pushing the gratitudes, positives and... Wed, 1 Jul 2015 10:09:32 EST Life of leisure? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5953420 Today is my second day "on my own". I have a list of chores but am taking time to read between them and am thoroughly enjoying not having to keep to anyone's schedule, cook for anyone but myself, visit with neighbours and sleep on my own schedule. I wish the bugs were not as vicious and the weather today is not as good as yesterday... but I'm not bored yet! <BR> <BR> What occurs to me is how well I am taking care of myself. Good food choices. Good exercise choices. Good sleep choices ... Tue, 30 Jun 2015 15:20:28 EST Compassion for myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5950930 There is something amazing that happens when I help people. At least that is what I have found in OA and spark people and in my meditations and.. so many other places. I say things to them that I need to hear. I remember things I have forgotten. I feel like all the knowledge I have sucked up and stored gets sorted and put in the right places. <BR> <BR> Information changes and emphasis, priorities. But really it all comes down to love, caring, listening. <BR> <BR> I think that 1CRAZYD... Thu, 25 Jun 2015 16:56:55 EST A Ceremony http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5949737 Today was my ceremony. In Marianne Williamson's Course in Weight Loss she is big on ritual and ceremony. It means every chapter has homework. It took a little while to coordinate this one. <BR> <BR> Last night I tidied around where we would do the ceremony. <BR> <BR> I set a beautiful table with things I have collected for other "homework" in the book. It represents the things I love... water, trees and rocks. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/b0d3badf-ed30-4404-a1c5... Tue, 23 Jun 2015 12:12:03 EST Letting go of Anger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5947086 In my meditation today our readings were about feeling our feelings, letting go of emotions and using that new space to allow new things to grow. <BR> <BR> So it was not a surprise when I did my ten minutes of silence that I "went to work". I used the imagery that Marianne Williamson suggests in her first step in A course on weight loss, and pictured anger as bricks in a wall. <BR> <BR> The first brick I went to pick up was large. It was messy, like some kind of goo trying to escape and ... Thu, 18 Jun 2015 08:34:03 EST Listening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5946314 One of the homework assignments in the Course for Weight Loss is to write down my thoughts and really pay attention. Perhaps in the past we were not listened to. OK, that is reality. I often was told "it doesn't matter what YOU think"... and I also was told "You have no idea what you are saying" and "I don't believe you, you are making this all up". <BR> <BR> I had never thought about how those words might affect me then... or becoming an adult. The book says perhaps we have assimilated... Tue, 16 Jun 2015 21:11:58 EST Letting Go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5944888 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/759068cb-313e-419d-a97d-02c3d23fee86.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My homework seems to be a lot about "letting go" and it is amazing to me <BR> 1. How afraid I am <BR> 2. How many tries I have to take at it <BR> 3. How incredibly it works <BR> 4. How much doubt I have that it works <BR> 5. How simple it really is to do once I get past the fear <BR> 6. How much I still am afraid when I go to do it <BR> <BR> I am sure it will come with practice. How... Sun, 14 Jun 2015 10:47:38 EST Touch.... and labels http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943939 This morning's meditation reading, the first one anyway, was pretty hard to figure out. However there was a line that said we need to stop and touch things. I think that the author was talking about slowing down to appreciate them. In our discussion we talked about how easy it is to get caught up in cleaning or repairing or renovating... the crazy upkeep wheel, without stopping to enjoy. Don't just have pretty things behind glass or safely stored in closets, or around to look at, use them... Fri, 12 Jun 2015 10:13:56 EST Rewriting history http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943337 I am part of the Wiriting Diet Team and A Course In Weight Loss Team. This morning in meditation I found myself combining my "homework" with interesting results. <BR> <BR> I know for me I have lots of events in my life, people, experiences that have helped make me the person I am. Yet I have had trouble embracing those fully. Yes, I appreciate that they made me who I am. Yes I have gone back to console the young girl or young woman they happened to to try and see them through different e... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 08:04:21 EST Be happy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5940091 Every once in a while I have an aha moment. This morning it was after meditation. During meditation I had tried to let my mind wander to possibilities and the message clearly kept bringing me back to "finish your weight loss course". I used to be a person who rarely finished things so it made me smile. <BR> <BR> My neighbour though was having a tougher time of it. <BR> <BR> I should.... be walking along the river every day. <BR> I should.... be taking you up to my cottage to swim. <... Fri, 5 Jun 2015 08:16:58 EST A Spiritual Course in Weight Loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5937189 I am starting Marianne Williamson's Course in Weight loss. She is such an inspirational person to read and see in person and I was so surprised when I read the program she she spoke in Ottawa to see she had written this book. Apparently she wrote it for Oprah and Oprah helped her print it as a gift for all of us. That is nice but what I really like is that it is a work book with homework. When Marianne did "the course in Miracles" she lost weight as a side effect which surprised her... but... Sun, 31 May 2015 09:34:01 EST 3rd page of pool exercise notes... walking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5936654 You don't need to work hard in the water to get a good workout and you don't need to swim. <BR> <BR> Water walking is more work than on land without the impact on your hips and knees. If you have an above ground pool it's great because you can walk in a circle, build up a current then turn around and walk against the current. I have been known to read a book while walking in the water. At chest height it is 3x more work than on land.... so a 15 minute walk in the pool is like 45 minutes a... Sat, 30 May 2015 08:19:22 EST