JUSTJOSS's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JUSTJOSS JUSTJOSS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ #WhyIClimb http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6410195 On September 11th, 2001, 343 firefighters lost their lives that day. 343 did not go home to their families along with the 2996 people who perished. <BR> <BR> I am the daughter of a life-long fireman. I am a former American Red Cross disaster relief captain who proudly served next to many firemen in Charlotte, NC. <BR> <BR> Needless to say, they hold a special place in my heart. <BR> <BR> This year I wanted to make a difference. Not only did I want to remember the sacrifice those 343 f... Mon, 11 Sep 2017 21:01:10 EST Sweat is fat crying... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6386037 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/b9244fa8-bacf-48bd-95c8-e78d5853d644.png"> <BR> <BR> Recently I was in my local gym & I looked up at a sign that read "sweat is fat crying". I am sure I have read that before but for some reason this time it stuck with me. Maybe it stuck because I have been sweating more in the past 3 months than I have in the past year and a half or maybe because I have shed more tears in the past year and half, who knows. <BR> <BR> I am done crying. At l... Tue, 11 Jul 2017 11:36:10 EST Keep Moving Forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6336497 First, I refuse to ever start over when it comes to weight loss. All you can do is keep moving forward. It is easy to dwell on yesterday, but you can't. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, for the first time in forever, I tracked everything I ate. Everything. I didn't fudge or cheat, I stayed on track and stayed within all my nutrition goals. I am not on a diet so nothing started yesterday. I am a work in progress and yesterday was a huge accomplishment to achieve my goals. <BR> <BR> My goal is no... Tue, 21 Mar 2017 13:33:26 EST The long road back... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6327133 I left Spark People about 3 years ago. It was not because I did not love SP or my wonderful friends here, life just got busy and the reality is, I wasn't important enough to take the time out to be here. <BR> <BR> March 1st marked one year since my first chemo treatment. Yes, chemo. Last January I heard those words no one thinks they will personally hear, you have cancer. I was diagnosed with Stage 2A breast cancer. It was aggressive. There was no sign of cancer on my mammogram in Nove... Fri, 3 Mar 2017 10:24:43 EST Friend Request http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5806651 A very sweet, supportive, caring, fabulous friend requested a picture of my munchkin for Halloween. So this blog is for her. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> My favorite T-Rex... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2056820483.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Okay, one more... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2031752964.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Love this kid. <BR> <em>26</em> Tue, 28 Oct 2014 23:34:25 EST There are days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801166 There are days I don't track every BLT (bite, lick & taste). <BR> There are days I am too tired or more honestly, too lazy to exercise. <BR> There are days I wonder if I am ever going to reach my goal. <BR> There are days I get discouraged. <BR> There are days I think "what's the point". <BR> There are days I make more excuses than progress. <BR> There are days I get mad at the scale knowing full well it only tells half the story. <BR> <BR> But no matter what, no matter what happens at the s... Sun, 19 Oct 2014 23:16:48 EST I Ran http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5800069 Last Saturday I went to a local Color & Glow 5K run with a group of friends. If you are not familiar, it is a run that you do at night, you are sprayed with neon paint along the way, and run under black lights not to mention you wear a bunch of glow necklaces. <BR> <BR> Earlier in the day I texted my 3 lovely friends to say that it might be a good idea for me to sit this one out. My reasoning was that they are runners & I, well, I am a walker and I did not want to hold them back. After al... Fri, 17 Oct 2014 21:03:23 EST Never Let Anyone Steal Your Joy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784994 Life would not be life without a few bumps in the road. Lately I have hit those bumps ... really hard. It is when you hit those bumps, you discover who will walk with you & who will step on your back when you fall. <BR> <BR> I nearly let this person, a person who I called friend, destroy me ... and then I read this: <BR> <BR> I refuse to give you power over my attitude and mood. <BR> I refuse to allow you to dictate my response to you. <BR> I refuse to give you the power to change my ... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 20:20:11 EST Looking for a Miracle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764107 This morning I logged onto Facebook & the top status on my newsfeed was from a high school classmate that I had not seen since the day we graduated. In a few short weeks she is headed to the dreaded DMV to have her license picture taken. She asked how she could lose 50+ lbs by then. Her FB feeling "looking for a miracle". Miracle indeed. <BR> <BR> K, as I will call her was in the band with me in HS. She was a "rifle" in the majorette squad. Very attractive, never had a weight issue. B... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 08:41:05 EST 10:42 pm http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763223 It is 10:42 pm, Tuesday, August 19th. <BR> <BR> I have blogged, made excuses, made a commitment to myself to make this work. I even made an unspoken promise to my child, that he was important enough for me to do this. Nothing has worked. I am disgusted with myself. If I were a drug addict, I would be headed to a rehab. <BR> <BR> I could type every single excuse in the book. I could blame a lot of things. The bottom line ... there is no excuse, there is nothing to blame ... but me.... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 22:51:13 EST Happy Birthday Jake http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761696 So ... according to my last blog, my road detour had finally come to an end. <BR> <BR> Not exactly. <BR> <BR> I did go to WW on Friday. I could not bring myself to weigh in, but I did check in. Also, I went back to my hip/hop class. Although I struggled, I stayed for the whole hour ... a win. <BR> <BR> I keep thinking about a blog I wrote last summer. It was for my "munchkin". My four year old pride and joy, Jake. I know what "they" always say. Whoever "they" are. You have to do th... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 21:59:25 EST End of the Detour, Not End of the Road http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759461 I have come to the end of the detour. Time to get back on the Weight Watchers road and reach my goal. <BR> <BR> The last 2 weeks I have eaten like an unsupervised fat kid. First, we went to visit family at the beach for 4 days. I packed WW friendly food, planned a walk every day, was determined to not let a weekend trip derail me. Then, it rained. For 4 solid days. My sweet munchkin, who could not wait to build a sandcastle, spent almost all 4 days in a condo. He played, went to the... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 08:39:45 EST Meno-WHAT? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5746415 I hate to admit it... but I am pretty sure "the change" is coming my way. From all that I have read, I am thinking that menopause may not be quite as far away as I thought. <BR> <BR> It feels like my body is doing a whole lot of stuff that it did not used to. My sleeping is terrible, I never used to have a problem. I sweat if I look at a treadmill, let alone exercise. Now when I exercise, my head is completely drenched & I am just covered where before I would sweat, but not like this. ... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 13:35:37 EST No Drive Thru Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743288 Last Friday, July 18th, I had 3.4 lb gain at Weight Watchers. I didn't get upset, I didn't wonder why ... I already knew the answer. The drive thru. <BR> <BR> I have no excuse. Last week my munchkin had camp until 1p each day. As a "treat", we would zip thru the Wendy's drive thru to get a Frosty on the way home. Twice I added a single with cheese for lunch (not to mention a few leftover fries). Add Dunk'n Donuts donut holes twice for breakfast & there is no way the WW scale moves in t... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 09:22:36 EST Confessions of a Hip Hop Junkie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742551 I hate to exercise. There I said it. <BR> <BR> I am not a fan of sweating, panting, aching, etc. Walking has become boring. We have a gym membership, but the "dread"mill is well, the dreadmill. Eating well is extremely important, but it is not enough. I know in my heart that exercise is what is going to take me the rest of the way. So what is a girl to do? <BR> <BR> About a month ago I went to a fundraiser for my munchkin's preschool teacher. Long story, but their family is struggl... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 08:04:07 EST I Cried. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5727934 Yesterday I went to Weight Watchers as usual. I had a good week, lots of exercise, had one rough eating day but did not go over my points ... I was optimistic. <BR> <BR> Down .2. Point 2. <BR> <BR> After 1.2 the week before I was completely disgusted. Lori, my fearless leader knew I was struggling with such a low loss & did her very best to tell me how far I have come & how great I look, but all I could do was grab my munchkins hand & get out of there quick. I knew the tears were comi... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 20:18:05 EST Every Moment Counts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719278 I have lost almost 40 lbs. I am 20 lbs from my goal. I never, ever thought I would type those words. <BR> <BR> With weight loss comes the inevitable question: "how did you lose the weight"? The simple answer is Weight Watchers. But really, the answer is so much deeper than that. <BR> <BR> A while back I wrote a blog about the bottle days. Those days that are so special, not because they are a holiday, birthday, anniversary or notable event, they are special because something unexpe... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 17:20:38 EST Faith. It makes all things possible. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5705785 "Listen to yourself and in that quietude you might hear the voice of God." ~ Maya Angelou <BR> <BR> I had to start by paying homage to one of the greatest poets and humanitarians of all time. Peace be with you Dr. Angelou. <BR> <BR> <BR> Faith is all over my sparkpage for one reason ... it is what keeps me on my journey. Finding faith within myself. <BR> <BR> Lately I have wanted to give up more often that I have wanted to move forward. I lost 40 lbs and I got comfortable. I got comf... Thu, 29 May 2014 07:40:33 EST For Shirley... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5693844 Over this past weekend they held a 5K in memory of Shirley. Shirley was diagnosed with Stage 4 breast cancer several years ago. There were no surgical options left so she received chemo to give her more time with her family. <BR> <BR> Sadly, Shirley is no longer with us, but thanks to her daughters, she will not be forgotten nor will she be another cancer statistic. <BR> <BR> On Saturday, May 11th, Shirley's Angels held their 2nd annual "Love Your Headlights" 5k to raise money for res... Tue, 13 May 2014 01:34:31 EST For Me, It is Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5685259 I never start over. I never start over tomorrow, Monday, first of the month, first of the year, the day after a holiday, the day after a weigh in ... I simply refuse. In my mind, starting over on this journey, erases the progress I have made. It minimizes the hard work that I have put in so far. I have a lot of work to do. For me, its about change. I have to change my direction, get back on the road, and move forward. <BR> <BR> So there you have it. Tomorrow I am going to keep going... Thu, 1 May 2014 21:14:26 EST What am I really feeding... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681891 Friday I went to my weekly Weight Watcher meeting and had my biggest scale gain since I started over a year ago, 4.2 pounds. It is no mystery how it happened. Between eating Easter candy, celebrating my anniversary & eating an entire Sara Lee pound cake (over several days, but still a WHOLE pound cake) I am probably lucky it was 4 pounds. <BR> <BR> Did I get back on it after the meeting? No <BR> Did I write it off & start again on Saturday? No <BR> Okay ... did I get my act together on Su... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 20:44:29 EST An Epic Battle: My Heart vs My Head http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5679011 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l463754062.jpg"> <BR> <BR> They say a picture is worth a thousand words. When I came across this picture, it really put things into perspective for me. <BR> <BR> For some, the scale really is just a number. Their journey is more about wellness, feeling great, getting off medications, sleeping better, living longer & healthier. But you see, my body is at war. It has been my entire life. No fancy name for this war like Desert Storm or WW... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 21:52:16 EST I Choose Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677906 A few years ago, pre-munchkin, I went to The Gap for a new pair of jeans. I am tall & knew they carried tall sizes so no worries. Wrong. I went to our local store & as I was looking through the sizes (I wore a 16/18) at the time, the salesgirl very curtly informed me that yes, they did carry tall sizes, but they definitely did not carry up to my size (keep in mind, I did not tell her my size). <BR> <BR> I was hurt & defeated & quietly left. <BR> <BR> A few months ago, after purposely avo... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 12:49:40 EST Just the Two of Us http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677523 Just the two of us, we can make it if we try <BR> Just the two of us, just the two of us <BR> Building castles in the sky <BR> Just the two of us, you and I <BR> <BR> Darling, when the morning comes <BR> And I see the morning sun <BR> I want to be the one with you... <BR> <BR> *Bill Withers - Just The Two Of Us Lyrics | MetroLyrics.com <BR> <BR> Eight years ago today I married my best friend. Like any good marriage we have had our share of laughter, tears, joy, heartbreak and everyt... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 00:43:21 EST A Good Friday... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5675435 It has been so long since my last blog, I am not even sure where to begin... <BR> <BR> I have walked a long road since my last blog in September. I did not technically leave spark, I just needed to figure some things out for myself. I found myself spending so much time tracking WW points, attending WW meetings and coming here that I lost balance. Losing a dear spark friend a few weeks ago was a somber reminder of what I was missing. I am thrilled to have reconnected with some very specia... Sat, 19 Apr 2014 00:23:50 EST 28 & Counting... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5493326 This past May this picture was taken of my munchkin & I on his last day of pre-school... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2009470341.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This picture was taken ... yesterday. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1004005813.jpg"> <BR> <BR> 28 pounds gone & counting. Sure feels good. <BR> <BR> <em>26</em> <BR> <BR> Mon, 23 Sep 2013 00:02:37 EST I remember... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5487632 I remember you every single day. I remember your smile. I remember you stroking my hair when you tucked me into bed. Most of all ... I remember how much you loved me. <BR> <BR> Peace be with you forever mommy. 35 years ago today, a light went out on earth & shined more brightly in heaven. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1328571942.jpg"> <BR> <em>26</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Mon, 16 Sep 2013 20:40:15 EST How to define success... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5484804 How do I define success & weight loss? Until yesterday, I realized I had not really given it much thought. Is success reaching the magic 155 on the scale? Is success finally wearing a size 8? Is success losing a certain amount of inches? <BR> <BR> Yesterday I went to my regular Weight Watchers meeting. It is success week where members are sharing their success on the program. Lori, my fabulous cannot say enough wonderful things about leader, asked if I would get up and speak. I told h... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 17:16:25 EST Today ... We Remember. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5482357 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2125895040.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And four Americans who lost there lives one year ago today. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1038149171.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <em>232</em> <BR> <em>26</em> Wed, 11 Sep 2013 07:16:52 EST The Mirror has two Faces http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5481849 I am writing today because, for the most part, I think I just want to know if I am sane. <BR> <BR> Lately I have looked in the mirror & have seen two different people. I see the girl from 26 pounds ago. Frumpy, overweight, large face, no smile and tree trunks in place of my legs. Then there are days I look and see the progress I have made. My legs look a little leaner, my face is more oval than round (smile included) and my middle is less. <BR> <BR> Also, my clothes. I am down about a ... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 16:12:23 EST A Bottle Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5478649 I call days like this "bottle days". Days that you feel so good, that you wish you could bottle it all up and save it for the days that you don't feel so good. <BR> <BR> This was a challenging week full of ups and downs. I could not wait for Thursday. Thursday is WW weigh in day for me & I was anxious to see if I finally made it below 200. I did. I am now 198.6 lbs. I was so choked up with emotion, that Lori my much-loved meeting leader came out from behind the counter to give me a hug... Sat, 7 Sep 2013 13:06:43 EST STOP the Insanity! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477024 WARNING: This is probably more a rant than a blog, so forgive me ahead of time if you dare to go further. <BR> <BR> I am sick to death of people telling me "muscle weighs more than fat". NO it doesn't. It never has. 5 pounds of anything is 5 pounds of anything. 5 pounds of feathers (yes it would be an extremely large bag) is the same as 5 pounds of muscle. Mass is a whole different ball game. <BR> <BR> The evidence. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1443534240.jp... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 18:17:12 EST Back to Onderland http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5476717 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1740445074.jpg"> <BR> <em>26</em> <BR> <BR> Thu, 5 Sep 2013 11:44:12 EST I Finally Get It. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5473827 I have made a lot of progress in the last 2 months. Almost 25 lbs worth. But the scale is not the only place where I have made progress. I gave this a lot of thought today as I pounded out 3+ miles at the track. Going on a diet is easy. You choose a plan, course of action, and you pursue it. You set a goal and you go for it. <BR> <BR> Changing your life is a whole different story. It goes way deeper than a diet, an exercise regiment or a goal ... it is a commitment for life. <BR> ... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 19:26:02 EST 200.6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5470080 Today I went to Weight Watchers and I was 200.6 pounds. I am so close to Onederland, I can taste it. For so long, I never thought I would get here. I had all but given up. <BR> <BR> As I go on this journey, with the help of WW, I have learned to either remove or not think about words or phrases that sabotage me and keep me from reaching my goals. <BR> <BR> Like... <BR> <BR> DIET: When people ask what diet I am on its simple, I am no longer on one. In my world, D I E T means "temporary... Thu, 29 Aug 2013 16:30:44 EST 10% http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5463297 Today I went to my weekly Weight Watchers weigh in. I was a little apprehensive because I had a pound gain last week. When I went last week I had debuted my new short "do". I had cut about 7" from my hair & joked that I did it to show a loss. Didn't work. I wasn't totally happy with my first cut, so what the heck, I cut it again on Tuesday. So when I went in today, I told her I better show a loss or its going to be spiked next week. The ladies laughed and I hopped on the scale... <BR> ... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 17:02:09 EST The Road Back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5454801 Thursday is my W day. Weigh-in day at Weight Watchers and it is also the start of a new points week on my plan. I have to admit, I am not really looking forward to W day this week. <BR> <BR> Last Wednesday my husband, munchkin and I headed to PA & NY to visit family for my munchkin's 3rd birthday. It was a great opportunity to stay on plan despite traveling but alas, I didn't. Although I did watch what I ate and passed on cake seconds (we had 3 small birthday parties at 3 relative's ho... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 08:36:40 EST Shedding more than the pounds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5443631 About six weeks ago I went to the salon where I get my hair done. Sabrina has been doing my hair for over 6 years now and is as a much a friend as my beautician. I had asked her to cut my hair ... she wouldn't do it. She said I wasn't ready. I said its my face isn't it. She said yes. Little did I know then that what I thought she meant was my weight, but what she really meant was my expression. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I went back for a color. I said, with a smile, "put it on the floor". ... Sat, 3 Aug 2013 22:00:24 EST As I go... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5435044 As I was driving to the Red Cross this morning to donate blood (my second try this week), I glanced in the rear view mirror at the traffic light. It may have been my imagination, but I saw a different face. A face not so literally weighed down by ... weight. My blue eyes looked a little clearer, my chin was more defined, but what I really noticed was the smile. A genuine, beautiful smile. It was not for anyone but me. <BR> <BR> My journey has finally evolved past the pounds, the scales,... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 09:33:30 EST Finally ... I Believe in Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5433812 This morning I took a long power walk. Partly because I was about to weigh in at Weight Watchers, partly because I had eaten at our local Melting Pot with one of my best friends for a special promotion the night before, and partly just to clear my head. <BR> <BR> As I walked I realized that I have been haunted. Haunted by the ghosts of weight gain past. My ghosts are cruel, dehumanizing and they break the human spirit. My ghosts tell me "why bother, you know you'll just quit or put the w... Fri, 26 Jul 2013 01:12:44 EST My Heart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5424773 I do not like going to the gym. I have found that it has little to do with the sweat and hard work and more to do with the people. <BR> <BR> Tonight I gave in & went to our neighborhood gym. Bad storms rolled thru and it was so humid that an air conditioned room with a treadmill seemed a whole lot better than trotting thru our neighborhood streets. For those of you who know me, I call the treadmill, the dreadmill. Long story, but we no longer have a dreadmill at our house. <BR> <BR> S... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 23:40:54 EST Writing My Own Story http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5420522 It is hard to admit, but for years I always hoped deep down that there was some magic, some secret to weight loss to make it easier. Logically I knew it was not true, but it did not stop that hope deep down. <BR> <BR> I have read about every weight loss story, blog, etc. that I have come across. Honestly, I don't read them any more (actually I look at the before/after photo and move on). Not because I am not interested or happy for those who have achieved their goals, but because I have l... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 09:02:30 EST Six Months & Counting... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5415879 I just passed the six month mark at Weight Watchers and I am happy to report, I am still going. Although I cannot always make the meetings, I keep myself accountable by going each week to at least weigh in. I have had a lot of ups & downs over these last six plus months but the important thing is, I did not give up. <BR> <BR> Last week I posted a 4.6 pound loss. My meeting leader asked what made the difference? I confessed that I was finally following the program. I am facing what I eat... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 19:24:21 EST How do I tell him... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5379853 There is going to come a day, could be next week, next year, 10 years or tomorrow when I am going to have to explain to my child that he just wasn't important enough. I am going to have to explain to him that I have high blood pressure, heart disease, diabetes, cancer or any number of ailments or life threatening illnesses because he (and I) were not important to do something about it when I could... <BR> <BR> How do I tell my child that Chik fil e milkshakes, dunkin donuts doughnuts, Steak... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 02:52:31 EST For my mom... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5354307 My mom died on September 16, 1978 at the age of 37. She had a brain tumor. She was diagnosed when I was 5 years old. Given 6 months, she was a fighter & would live for 3 more years. My mom never complained, never asked "why me", her only worry was her "jocie". She was not ready to leave me. My mother probably loved me more in 8 short years than some love their children for many more. <BR> <BR> Last Sunday I turned 43. I have lived almost 6 years beyond my precious "mommy". Thankfully... Sun, 12 May 2013 19:24:38 EST Forget it ... I refuse to give up. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5334413 I could write a long, never-ending, excuse filled blog on how my weight loss train derailed. But I have decided to make it real simple... <BR> <BR> I am here, I am determined, and I am going to get to 150 this year. <BR> <BR> I am not starting over ... I am moving forward. <BR> <BR> <em>26</em> Wed, 24 Apr 2013 17:17:45 EST Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5302235 Greetings to all my fabulous Sparkfriends. I apologize I have not been here. My family is moving into a new home, yay, my allergies are about to kill me, boo, and I have finally started my new job, yay, so time is not on my side these days. <BR> <BR> I am still fighting the good fight, following the road, curves, bumps, detours and all. Also, I am still going to Weight Watchers although I am not following the points lately like I should be. <BR> <BR> Thank you all for the St. Patty's day... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 16:12:59 EST GS Cookies never cured a cold & other randomness... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5261471 I have been taking a bit of a spark break. I did not mean for it to happen, it just kind of did. <BR> <BR> So here is a little randomness. Some stuff I learned, some stuff I have been thinking, some stuff... <BR> <BR> *A sleeve of Girl Scout Thin Mint cookies will not cure a cold/sinus infection. <BR> *I went to my Weight Watchers meeting this week & gained back 2.6 lbs. Again, proof that GS cookies do not cure a cold. <BR> *Despite my weight gain I still had a "win" this week at Weight ... Sat, 23 Feb 2013 21:22:30 EST Detour http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5254547 Nothing can add a detour to the journey like a cold/sinus infection. For 10+ miserable days I have gone from starving my cold (just could not keep food down, did not want to eat) to stuffing my cold. The last 2 days or so all I have wanted to do is eat. <BR> <BR> Throughout it all ... I tracked my points. I may have missed a piece of licorice or 2, but other than that, I tracked the chocolate chip ice cream, the valentine candy that I swiped from the munchkin, and all the other bad foods.... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 09:00:05 EST WW Week 7: My Valentine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5250475 Today is Week 7 on my Weight Watchers journey. Although I did weigh in this morning, I did not make the meeting. For a week I have been battling a cold & sinus infection. My face hurts so bad I feel as though someone took a bike pump & pumped my cheeks beyond capacity so I decided to come home & rest. <BR> <BR> I was not sure what to expect. Not feeling well I have not nearly walked like I did last week, but I have not eaten a whole lot either. I actually had 20+ weekly points leftover.... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 13:54:23 EST