JUSTJENNA3's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JUSTJENNA3 JUSTJENNA3's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ My Downfall: Calorie Intake http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3336429 <em>15</em> <BR> Ugh, I feel pretty bloated. It's all my fault! I made some poor decisions these last several days of eating whatever I felt like. It is catching up with me! I'm keeping a good mindset though and I'm not going to give up. I have been keeping up with my cardio by walking and playing the wii at lunch, but one thing that I'm not doing now that I was doing before was aerobics class... I stopped going because they didnt' have it for over a month due to the instructor's ... Tue, 15 Jun 2010 11:04:26 EST Depression Free http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3309016 <em>67</em> <BR> I didn't think that I would ever see this day... The day that I realize that I am depression free. If you have ever been depressed, then you know the feeling it causes and the chains that hold on to you. I didn't have the ability to be happy. Yesterday I saw the pictures of when I was born for the very first time in my 24 years of life. They were pictures that my birth mother had. I was born c-section. She looked so happy, yet what she was about to do was the hardest... Mon, 7 Jun 2010 10:27:06 EST Becoming a Habit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3302778 <em>224</em> <em>30</em> <em>244</em> <em>9</em> <em>311</em> <BR> So today is Saturday. I have to work every saturday but one a month. I work from 8-12. So I got up this morning and normally on Saturdays I like to "cheat" on what I eat just because it's Saturday, but today was different. I thought to myself, what am I going to have for breakfast? I could go to McDonalds and get a hash brown and frappe... but then I realized.. I don't want one! I don't want anything bad for me! I... Sat, 5 Jun 2010 09:49:40 EST One Decision at a Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3296647 I'm so glad to read other Sparker's blogs and how they are doing well. It may be as small as resisting a temptation or as big as losing 5 lbs that week. Either way it is all contributed to making one decision at a time. That is what I am learning. It's hard for me to say, "I'm going to cut out blizzards from DQ" or "I will get up early 3 times a week to go on a walk before work". What is getting easier is taking it one step at a time. When my alarm goes off that i set early, I have to m... Thu, 3 Jun 2010 11:59:06 EST Wow I Feel Good! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3288002 Guess what just happened???? I just teared up because I got really excited to blog this morning. What does that even mean: Sometimes when I get really excited, instead of shouting "woohoo" or jumping for joy, my eyes tear up. I haven't done that for a very very very long time! I can't believe that just happened! I AM excited, and I DO have reason to be! I am learning so much from SparkPeople and I am carrying it's principles with me throughout my day. I have finally drilled it into my ... Tue, 1 Jun 2010 10:21:26 EST Doing Good... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3266818 So here is a quick update to my last blog about finding my birth mother: I found her on Facebook and we've been emailing each other back and forth. It's been really great! I didn't know how I felt about it at first... of course there was a ton of emotions and questions going on, but I have put my feelings together and it is good. It is nice to finally see a face of someone who I look like. It's even more awesome to know that my birth mother, suellen, is a good person! We have so much in... Tue, 25 May 2010 13:58:37 EST This is Me.. a little more me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3217687 My emotions are all over the place today. Yesterday I had so much anxiety that I had to take an extra pill. (I take medication for anxiety and depression still.) I am adopted. I was adopted 4 days after I was born. My parents told me when I was in third grade. I never knew anything about my birth parents... until yesterday. I'm now 24 years old. Thats a long time to wonder who you look like. My mom gave me a packet yesterday and a necklace box and said that it was from my birth mothe... Tue, 11 May 2010 10:23:11 EST Looking Up Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3193784 Well, It has been one heck of a rollercoaster these last 4 days! Saturday was our big weekend get a way to St. Louis for our 2 year anniversary. That was good. We did some shopping, some swimming, rode the metro, ate a good meal down at the landing, walked around, spent only like $4 at the casino and made it back to our car just before it started raining. Then in the morning I had a major stomach ache. Oh no! I don't know if it was the 3 day flu that's been going around or if it was due... Tue, 4 May 2010 13:27:09 EST A Better Attitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3162868 I know that I can't dwell on what already happened- that's not going to change it. Thanks to my spark buddies I gathered up some strength and took that with me on my lunch hour. I had a protein shake and a small cup of broccoli and cheese soup. I also did 15 minutes of Steps on my Wii Fit. For the 10 minute free step I was supposed to hit 800 steps... I did 1180! <em>244</em> I am now setting a goal for tonight: Wii Steps with Arm Weights. Oh how I miss aerobics!! They will be starti... Mon, 26 Apr 2010 13:10:36 EST Bad Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3162165 <em>15</em> Well this weekend was not good at all. Let's see, Friday I had chinese for lunch and that was not healthy at all. Saturday had junk food including a blizzard. Sunday I ate way too much at the church's potluck including extra desert, snacks, too much supper and another half of a blizzard. Exercise... what exercise? My mood has been pretty down lately. I"m not really for sure why either. Oh I bet it's from the lack of exercise that gives me energy. Dang it! I am reading a... Mon, 26 Apr 2010 10:59:03 EST One Day at a Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3145108 First of all, I really like this background color... it's like a raspberry color.. deep pink, grown up pink... wine color. It makes me think of decadent things. Anyways, I feel good today. I'm happy with myself today. That's something that I haven't been able to say for a couple weeks. <em>41</em> This morning, even though I got up later than what I wanted to, I still managed to get ready for work and fold a load of towels. I walked to work this morning. <em>311</em> For breakfa... Wed, 21 Apr 2010 13:23:47 EST Turn the Beat Around http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3141465 This is going on week 3 of high level stress. I was doing so good at exercising regularly and eating well, until I had a setback with some major stress. Marital issues, job decision issues, family issues,... have all led me to fall off track. I have been eating bad things in bad portions, and my exercise has been slim. Well today my husband brought me some flowers and words of encouragement. I have also spent time getting inspired by some SparkPeople articles and Women's Health Magazine ... Tue, 20 Apr 2010 15:35:26 EST What to do...? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3118911 First of all, I appreciate everyone's comments from my last entry. It's only a day later, so no decisions have been made yet, but I did have the chance to talk to my husband and my mom about it. My husband can understand where I'm coming from with wanting to go part time and he knows that it would even benefit our relationship... but his thinking is, "Let's work hard now while we're still young, get out of debt, then work on (me) going part time and start traveling." Ugh! I tore myself up... Wed, 14 Apr 2010 13:25:33 EST Please SparkPeople... I need you! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3114174 <em>39</em> <BR> I am hurting. I want to work part time instead of full time sooo bad. I like my job a lot, but I also have a 4 year old son that I want to raise and a husband who needs more of me. It seems like I can't ever get housework done, and we eat out so much because I don't have time to cook what I'd like to be able to cook. I was very passionate about this idea last winter and had even drawn up a proposal for my employer, but I never went through with it. The ONLY thing holdi... Tue, 13 Apr 2010 11:36:53 EST Get My Focus Back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3091873 My focus has been interrupted since Saturday. I made a few bad decisions and had to suffer my consequences. Through that I found myself eating whatever I wanted to and my exercise was minimal. I feel horrible. I am tired, I know I'm dehydrated, and I want to get my focus back. I think in order to get my focus back, I need to go grocery shopping and ask my husband to go on a run with me. He got some new running shoes, so that might be something we can do together. We haven't gone grocer... Wed, 7 Apr 2010 14:56:39 EST Week 4 Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3064736 Okay, we got the challenge on Monday and it is now Wednesday. I've been putting this challenge off because I wasn't for sure what my problem was... or maybe I just didn't want to admit it. Here it is... My struggle with my new life style and weight loss is: Sugary Coffee Drinks! LOL... silly, but true! So I was drinking a starbucks vanilla frappacino from the gas station every morning. Although it wasn't that bad, it still wasn't good for me with all the sugar! I tried really hard to cu... Wed, 31 Mar 2010 11:02:38 EST Another Thing to Celebrate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3060365 <em>7</em> <BR> Good Morning! When I was getting dressed I noticed that my bra was surprisingly loose. Normally I wear it on the very last clasp... I had to move it to the middle clasp!!!! This is something awesome for me.. and I'm sure many women can relate! I don't think I've ever been able to say that I couldn't wear my bra on the last clasp because it was too loose! So I am celebrating today in honor of INCHES LOST!!!!! It is just another milestone in this journey of a new life st... Tue, 30 Mar 2010 10:58:54 EST I Feel Amazing...My Story http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3033456 Last year I had hit the peak of my depression. It was really bad. I am a Christian and know what the consequences of suicide is... eternal damnation. And that alone kept me from taking my life. I begged God to take my life so that I could go to Heaven and escape my depression and anxiety. It wasn't my life that was bad... I had everything I could possibly need. But I wasn't happy and didn't know why. I gained weight because I would eat and just sleep and mope around. I didn't care ab... Tue, 23 Mar 2010 10:55:59 EST