JUNEBUGG614's SparkPeople Blog

Battling depression

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 14:39:36 EST

I've been slacking lately, I know.
There is *no* real excuse, I know that, too.

...I have been ignoring my clinical depression for almost 4 years now. I think it started as post pardum, maybe it came when I quit doing drugs, maybe it's just been there all the time...? Whatever it is, lately, it has been hitting me very hard. I eat for comfort, and for the last few years all I've wanted is that feeling I get on a cold night when I am wrapped up in my favorite cashmere shawl, w...

Hiatus...

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 19:00:41 EST

WOW - life got really rough there for a week or so...I'm actually surprised I made it out alive.
No deets necessary...but I didn't stick to my diet, and I think I might have gained. We'll find out tomorrow.

Sigh...

I'm having a rough time finding the motivation to get started again, but I am back in full swing tomorrow.

...like you stole something

Tue, 8 Sep 2009 11:56:15 EST

Happy Tuesday, Sparkers!

I'm quite terrified to announce that I have registered to run the ING Georgia half marathon that is taking place in Atlanta, GA on March 10, 2010!

So - training starts next week. I'm working with a full marathon training system because I figured I would run a full marathon after running the half and getting the hang of it.

I am really looking forward to getting all set up.

Does anyone have any suggestions for running shoe...

Just What the Doctor Ordered -

Sun, 6 Sep 2009 22:46:37 EST

Today was wonderful - we drove about an hour out to have a Labor Day (early) BBQ with some of the boyfriend's family. They're my family, too - I love them so much.

Anyway - today was just the pick me up I needed. A few (ahemfiveahem) glasses of wine with the wisest people that I know. We discussed my future, the job hunt, the kids. . .blah blah blah. And I totally made healthy choices while we were there!...

Thank goodness the week is ending. . .

Sat, 5 Sep 2009 11:50:05 EST

Le'sigh!

Well, I'm bloated, five pounds heavier than I was yesterday, cranky and all I want to do is eat a biiiiiig banana split.

Can you guess what's ailing me this weekend?

I'm not going to weigh myself for another week - this is just too much for me right now. Things on the homefront are so rocky for me right now. Friend drama. Boyfriend drama. Money. . .well, I guess there w...

Gross. . .

Thu, 3 Sep 2009 07:24:12 EST

My parents came over for dinner last night - and even though I was planning on cooking salmon w/ couscous and asparagus - we wound up ordering from Pizza Hut and I really feel like I am paying the price this morning. I feel sluggish and my acid reflux is REALLY bad, it feels like someone is jamming a hot poker into my esophogus.

It's wierd, I hadn't even noticed how much less noticable my reflux has been t...

Headachey. . .

Tue, 1 Sep 2009 16:18:12 EST

THAT, my friends, is five pounds of fat. My body is FOREVER rid of two of those nasty hunks of BLECK!

So! While going for my afternoon snack in the fridge, I decided to step on the scale - and I am unofficially down 10 whole pounds. I hope I can keep this kind of progress up until next Monday when my next recorded weigh-in is. I grabbed a frozen go-gurt (my new favorite 90 calorie snack, BTW) and really fee...

AWESOME day today

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 19:56:36 EST

Ahh ~ the woes of Monday have escaped me today. I woke up this morning ready and raring to go. I got my two oldest kids on the bus, poured myself a cup of coffee, had a breakfast of cottage cheese with peaches, and I got started on my day @ 7 AM - 4 HOURS before I normally do because I'm usually slugging around the house due to staying up waaaaaaay too late the night before. So, already feeling great and productive a...

Week 1 hooping progress

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 16:46:15 EST

Sorry for the crappy quality, but it was raining.

Yesterday was better - today I'll be better than that.

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 11:17:10 EST

Ok. Yesterday was monumentally better than Friday - I found myself really making the right choices with lunch and dinner. I skipped the greasy buttered bun with my hamburger at lunch, covered the patty in veggies, and only ate about 10 french fries. Not too bad of a lunch considering. . .and we had tacos for dinner with lean ground turkey instead of beef - which, I have to say, was DELISH! Still under for my calories ...

feeling like I've failed today...

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 21:12:49 EST

Ugh - today I feel absolutely disgusting. I had Arby's for lunch and then ate some chicken wings for dinner - although, I did peel the skin off of them and ate the lot of carrots and celery first so I was only hungry for 4 chicken wings by the time they came around.

I did, however, pass on the cupcakes that were available - and I only had 1 diet coke and subbed the rest for water. Proud moment...I guess.

I know I am still under my calories for the day - but I feel YUCKY ...

sunny days and such. . .

Wed, 26 Aug 2009 14:26:32 EST

Helloo! I guess I'd just like the chance to share the short version of my story.
For as long as I can remember, I cannot pull one memory of ever having healthy eating habits or excersize routines. I started doing drugs at age 14...serious methamphetamines and ADHD drugs kept me awake through high school, I stopped eating for the most part and worked out for hours a day. I ran track and was in dance...Nobody ever ...