JUNEAU2010's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JUNEAU2010 JUNEAU2010's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I am not ready to be the eldest. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5901804 I can't believe how long it's been since I last blogged. I used to be quite regular about it. Working 7 days a week is taking a toll on me mentally. I come home too tired to string a sentence together. So much is going on. I walked into a glass door with my forehead so hard that I fell backwards and hit the back of my head. Concussion #1 in late February. Just over a week ago, concussion #2: tripped on a crack in the asphalt of the handicapped ramp to the post office. Making a very s... Sun, 29 Mar 2015 16:46:41 EST 2015 Goals, Not Resolutions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843331 MICHCLEARY inspired me. This year, I have several big picture battles to win, some of which won't necessarily be part of my SP journey. But insofar as SP is concerned, I am going to log in every day, if only that, to stay connected and the remind me that this journey is worth taking. <BR> <BR> I am going to do some small and achievable streaks with the goal of getting exercise integrated into my lifestyle. A coworker and I will do some walking! I am blessed to have her in my life! Thu, 1 Jan 2015 21:35:36 EST Pearl Harbor Remembrance Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829274 I don't do anything Christmas related, generally speaking, until after December 7. I was not alive when the event happened, but this day tugs at my heart like no other. Sun, 7 Dec 2014 21:02:29 EST Short Comments and No Blogs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826496 I upgraded to a smartphone and am not feeling very smart. Aside from the differences of the phone itself, this also points to my eye-hand coordination issues and the fact that I have stubby fat fingers. Thus, my recent comments have been exceedingly short. I don't have internet access for my laptop at home - my phone is supposed to be able to "tether", but my bluetooth computer is not cooperating. (I hate technical issues!). <BR> <BR> Trying to do anything on the SP site on my phone is N... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 16:14:41 EST A (Red, White and) Blue Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5815161 Today was Veterans Day - a day I usually take off in remembrance and contemplation. But I will be on "vacation" Thursday and Friday traveling to my beloved Mom Angell's celebration of life service. Tomorrow will be spent at an all day seminar on legal presentations. I don't need the hours credit for my Continuing Legal Education requirements, but it's a chance to learn new things and meet new people. It's put on by the local chapter of Association of Corporate Counsel and, as a paralegal,... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 21:39:13 EST Mom Angell http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801004 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/4/l744695105.jpg"> <BR> Just sharing a picture of her from shortly after my college days. Sun, 19 Oct 2014 17:41:19 EST In Tears - Prayers Requested http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5798769 Home sick today, but that pales in comparison to the email I just received. Mom Angell is failing, is not expected to live more than a few days. I ask for prayers for her, her caregivers and all of the family. <BR> <BR> I am supposed to be at a seminar next week and the delayed anniversary celebration play days with my honey. It's all paid for except for meals and fun. I can't decide what to do. Do I cancel this and go to Missouri for maybe a funeral or wait until they do the memorial i... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 14:11:09 EST An Odd NSV http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5796539 I've been making poor choices with food and with my time lately. But this week, I started to turn things around. Drinking more water, eating somewhat better and at least having a passing familiarity with portion control. <BR> <BR> Today, my slacks felt a bit more loose. I fell during my lunchtime walk. I have not fallen for a while and I had not been doing much walking because I really hurt myself the last time I fell. Today, I did not land fully on my knees and, while I struggled, I ... Sat, 11 Oct 2014 22:02:41 EST I Need to Forgive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5789293 The title might lead you to think this is going to be a long and deeply introspective blog. I could write one of those if I chose. There's at least one in me. But I don't have the mental or emotional energy to approach that right now. <BR> <BR> A manager who works a few doors down from my cube came in last week with a cold and I now have it. I lost pay yesterday since I did not go to either job and will lose overtime this week because of the cold. I do have sick time that I used for tod... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 19:47:29 EST No Corporate Challenge for Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5779942 I spent 4 hours or so at Kaiser today when a chronic and intermittent pain in my foot worsened. It's swollen and sore, spasms of hot pain and feels as if something is broken. <BR> <BR> Tuesday is the corporate challenge walk around AT&T Park where the San Francisco Giants play. My entry fee was paid back in July. The doc today said she wouldn't bar me from going, but she does not recommend it. I fell last year and did not complete it. I really had hoped this year I would cross the finis... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 22:52:09 EST Heart of Maia - I am Heartbroken! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5778261 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1158693806.jpg"> <BR> Maia died on her first birthday. She'd spent most of her year of life in the NICU. Like her older sister, she was born with some pretty awful heart defects. Her older sister lived just over 24 hours. The docs told the parents that the condition was so rare that it was unlikely by some astronomical percentage that it would ever happen with another baby of theirs. Maia's heart was not as damaged as Grace's, but I had... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 23:41:36 EST W-A-A-Y Too Much Going On and Yet, Not Enough http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773637 Here it is almost 2 months since my last blog. I have not been as active on SP. A lot going on, things I could blog about but I have been too tired to string a sentence together. Then, I have been running out of internet access on my data plan before the clock resets. Can't afford the sticker shock of going over, so I have been offline a lot more often. <BR> <BR> For the first time in my life, I am facing the fact that I am afraid of falling. I fell so hard the last time that it took we... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 23:06:29 EST Please Pray for Bill, Carmen and Paul http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734117 I came home from work tonight to learn that the coroner called my partner today to let him know they found his younger brother's body this morning. He died suddenly and the siblings are reeling. They already lost another brother several years ago, right before both of their parents died. Mon, 7 Jul 2014 21:27:33 EST Happy 238! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5732148 <em>652</em> I love this country! Thank you to all who serve in uniform and those who support those who serve. Thanks to all first responders and their families. Thanks to all the teachers, crossing guards... <BR> <BR> Thank you to all who put in an honest day's work. Thanks to those who have the courage and vision to start companies and employ people. <BR> <BR> This great country survives because of all this. I love being on the journey with you. <BR> <BR> Happy birthday to all of u... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 20:38:55 EST Getting to know your Spark neighbor (lifted from ClaireinParis) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731582 1. Chewing gum flavor - I rarely indulge, but it would be cinnamon <BR> 2. Favorite season - spring or fall <BR> 3. Toenail polish color - if I wore it, it would be any color with sparkles <BR> 4. Favorite pie? - Mother's home made cherry (or mince) <BR> 5. First record I ever bought - John Denver's Greatest Hits (first volume) <BR> 6. Current perfume - none, but it would be plumeria or gardenia or rose <BR> 7. Trophies? - apart from SparkPeople, Toastmasters, work-related stuff <BR> 8... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 22:53:38 EST A Happy False Alarm http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5722995 My cell phone rang after I got to work. Usually, it's my partner and he knows I can't take calls at job #2. But it was my beloved stepmother in another time zone. It was early for her, so I said I was at work and she hung up. After a moment, long enough for panic to set in, I called her back. She NEVER calls that early, so what could it be? <BR> <BR> False alarm! Nothing is wrong - she just dialed my number by mistake. So thankful! Sat, 21 Jun 2014 19:57:35 EST "Be Careful What You Wish For" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5707051 Four years ago next month, I graduated summa cum laude with my AA in Paralegal Studies. I am more proud of that than my BA in English that I earned years ago. I put a lot more into this degree and was sure it was my ticket to financial success, career satisfaction etc. <BR> <BR> During the intervening four years, I have changed jobs at the same company several times and have had several bosses. My latest is a fantastic man, a wonderful manager and, from what I can tell, a very good lawy... Fri, 30 May 2014 20:21:10 EST Thank You http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5703618 Memorial Day is not a "Happy Holiday" kind of day. I cringed when I heard someone say that on the radio yesterday. <BR> <BR> My brother is currently on his 2nd tour of duty in Afghanistan, on loan again from the Navy to the Army. The last time he was there, his roommate was killed along with a nurse on the base when a local militia man opened fire. Frank challenged the shooter and is now interred at Arlington. His bride a widow and no children to carry on his name (Frankie Toner III). H... Mon, 26 May 2014 14:51:14 EST Syttende Mai http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5697381 May 17 is Norwegian Constitution Day. I wish I had grown up knowing more about my heritage and my grandfather's native language. By the time I met him, he was forgetting his English and I knew almost no Norwegian. Some of that was the time and the generation. He did not teach his children about their heritage because "we are Americans". He came to the US in the 1920s. <BR> <BR> Dad, as he got older, towards the end of his life, became more Norwegian than I had ever known him to be. Per... Sun, 18 May 2014 00:29:30 EST Thanks for the Lift! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5695221 Thank you to all of you who commented on my previous blog. I really, really appreciate your support. I am taking it all in and continuing to take stock. <BR> <BR> Today was the team-building event which was the baseball game between the Oakland Athletics and the Chicago White Sox. The fact that the As lost was the only downside. We were in a loge suite, so not top drawer, but pretty darn close. Legal and HR went together and we had a good time meeting each other, mixing, eating food and... Wed, 14 May 2014 21:19:42 EST I Need Foundational Help http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694448 The tendonitis is still there, but not bad. I wore different shoes and walked less today and it feels better. I will wear the same shoes to the game tomorrow in the hopes that the concrete won't do me in. No idea about steps tomorrow... <BR> <BR> Today was the first day of our 3-day "Legal Week" which meant sitting all day listening to my coworkers (mostly attorneys) talk about legal issues. Good stuff, but a lot to absorb. <BR> <BR> I have severe self esteem issues and walked away f... Tue, 13 May 2014 21:40:02 EST A Tiny NSV http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5693670 There's a café on campus at work where I can go twice a day for free beverage and a piece of whole fruit. The driveway leading to the back door of the café is a steep walk. The pine needles make it a slick walk down but don't bother me when I am walking back up. <BR> <BR> If someone starts a conversation while I am on the upward slope, I have serious balance issues. I feel as if I will topple either forward or back. <BR> <BR> Today, I had one such conversation and, while my balance was n... Mon, 12 May 2014 20:14:46 EST Moving but Forgetting to Track it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5686030 I sometimes forget to wear my pedometer. It lives in my pocket and has a flash drive attached to it. Sometimes, when I take it out to use it, I forget about it. <BR> <BR> I just realized I've been forgetting to log my steps and distance. I have moved this week, even on the day I was sick, but had not logged everything until now. I won't log today's numbers until tomorrow... <BR> <BR> The NSV is the surprise that I did walk a tiny bit the day I was sick. We had to go to the hardware sto... Fri, 2 May 2014 20:53:49 EST Divine Mercy Sunday: Praying for Ramona and Paul http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681592 I am not Catholic, but I am not unaware of the significance of today. The news is all about the four popes, the canonization of two of them...But those are not my thoughts. <BR> <BR> I read a blog from my Sparkfriend Ramona. She has an elderly cat that is not doing well and, because she is not well, she bit Ramona. That meant a trip to the emergency room and meds to fight the resulting infection. I pray for complete healing for Ramona and a gentle passage over the Rainbow Bridge for her ... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 12:36:46 EST Walks = 2, Falls = 0 I Felt STRONG! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681317 I took a long walk on my lunch break today. It was a perfect day for a walk. The sky was blue, the breeze was blowing and there were ducks and geese about. As I walked, I was very aware of the uneven sidewalks and, as always, wished I could enjoy the walk by looking around instead of down. <BR> <BR> But I felt strong. Not sure why, but I felt sure footed and that, if I tripped, I would not fall. <BR> <BR> This evening, when I got home, due to work in the kitchen, we had to eat out. I ... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 01:35:42 EST Choosing my Hard Was Fun Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678164 Last evening, I decided to give up on trying to get the other driver's insurance company to work with me. I decided to stop waiting for them to return my calls and talked to my carrier. Then I emailed my boss and told him that, if the workload permitted, I would take the afternoon off to deal with the car and to burn some of my vacation time. (I've been at the cap since October meaning that I don't earn any more until I use some time and get back under the cap.) <BR> <BR> Of course, that ... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 20:07:53 EST What a Marvelous Monday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677355 I've never been voted for a popular blog post before and was quite stunned! THANK YOU! I appreciate the comments so much. Today was not a hard day! <BR> <BR> But "Choose your hard" was in my head today and I made better choices today. <BR> <BR> Feeling marvelous for many reasons! Mon, 21 Apr 2014 20:11:34 EST Beginning to Understand “Choose Your Hard” http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5676406 The other day, I read a Sparkfriend’s blog that got me thinking. She has a cat named Houdini and she measures her weight loss in quantities equivalent to Houdini’s weight. Her blog shared the joyous news that she has lost four Houdinis! <BR> <BR> We’re down to one cat now. Juneau is a Maine Coon and weighs about 15 pounds. That’s a daunting amount of weight for me to think about all at once. I used to have a Russian Blue named Bug and he was about 10-12 pounds, still too much all at onc... Sun, 20 Apr 2014 13:57:38 EST My Youngest Nephew Emailed Me Today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667714 My youngest nephew turned 9 this week and emailed me to thank me for his present. We don't live in the same time zone, so I hardly ever get to see him. This was the first email he has ever sent and it was to me! (Mama was over his shoulder). <BR> <BR> Yes, it is the little things in life! I love that little boy! Tue, 8 Apr 2014 21:28:37 EST This Week (Walking for Jack & Other Life Elements) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5648493 Since I decided to do everything I could to improve my chances of being Jack's bone marrow donor, I have logged about 22 miles on my pedometer and started deliberately choosing foods that are said to improve bone marrow production. <BR> <BR> The changes seem to have had a positive impact on my energy level, which is great! I have not been sleeping well, both because of insomnia and getting used to a new neighbor's schedule and noise. <BR> <BR> My walking buddy at work is a few years older t... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 14:50:27 EST A Late Birthday Present to Me Coming in April! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5639767 My company just announced a walking challenge and, for those who join, we get to buy FitBits at a subsidized price. I decided this will be my late birthday present to me. The challenge starts in early April and runs until midJune. My birthday will be almost the end of this month. The money is a bit of a challenge, but there's an extra Saturday this month so that means an extra day of pay. <BR> <BR> Plus, since I am really motivated to drop some tonnage, this is perfect! <BR> <em>244<... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 18:27:54 EST Another Fall - Ticked Off, Not Defeated! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637067 Thursday evening, I walked with BF to Sports Authority intent on getting some new walking shoes. Almost there, I caught my foot in a sidewalk crack and did a dramatic four-point landing.. My lower back was tight above my left leg which is a smidge shorter than the right. <BR> <BR> I felt ok yesterday but for the knee, elbow and hand scrapes. This morning, I was a lot more sore. I was afraid I would have trouble sitting at job #2 all day. Very tired, I considered calling in. But I need ... Sat, 1 Mar 2014 17:42:32 EST Inspired by an Email http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5627513 Yesterday, I read one of the SparkPeople emails that came to my inbox. As I scrolled down the page, I saw one of those hints that people post to share how they succeed. As I read it, I thought, Hey, this is pretty good! To my utter amazement, I wrote it back in the fall of 2010! <BR> <BR> This is what I said: <BR> I have some physical challenges that limit what I can do. For that reason, I don't use the workout generator and cannot do a lot of the daily exercises. Thinking about that is a ... Tue, 18 Feb 2014 16:12:08 EST Nothing to Say! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625037 I thought about writing a blog detailing the past few weeks and realized I have nothing to say. I am not doing what I know I should be doing in any fashion. Getting up, going to work and repeating that ad nauseum. <BR> <BR> I did hear through the grapevine that my part time job will have more hours. When a lady in the office goes out on baby leave, I will come in on Sundays to do her filing. Yes, working 7 days a week. Grateful for the $! I think, if it does not include covering the pho... Sat, 15 Feb 2014 19:44:44 EST Cilantro Crossed the Rainbow Bridge Yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5614397 Cilantro, the little tiny grey cat who ruled our home from the time she was weaned crossed the rainbow bridge yesterday afternoon. She sat on my lap for hours yesterday, something she would not normally do. She had been restless Saturday night. She did not sleep yesterday during the day which is something she would always do. Cilantro's throne was the bed and she allowed us to borrow it at night. <BR> <BR> She did not stay on the bed yesterday and nor did she nap in my lap. She sat up... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 20:56:27 EST Weighing Choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5600577 I've been mulling over how I interact with SparkPeople. When I started, it was fun to try to earn the level trophies. Even after I reached the highest level, I kept going, but it quickly became rote. I am bored by some of the point opportunities. <BR> <BR> Truth is, instead of being on the internet, I should be moving! I should also maximize the elements that should keep me moving in the right direction - interacting with my Sparkfriends, cheering them on, learning from and being inspired... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 20:43:34 EST Almost 4 Years Later http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599100 Before the end of the month, my 4 year Spark anniversary will arrive. Not a day to celebrate in that I am not at all where I thought I would be. I weigh more than I ever have, every time I move, I hurt myself....blah. <BR> <BR> But....my partner has gotten excited about changing to a plant-based diet and I am going to make the change with him. I hope it will encourage him to take better care of himself. I'm reading about it and trying to learn what I can so that we can succeed. <BR> <BR... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 15:30:17 EST I Declare 2014 to be MY Year! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5577524 Three Things to Launch 2014 <BR> <BR> I absolutely will lose 50 pounds this year. I will not be at goal by year’s end, but, I WILL be so much closer! I WILL do this by setting SMART goals and streaks as I have learned in my years on Spark. In a sense, I am starting over. Sure, I could be downcast about this and part of me is, to be honest, but I am resolute. I will not waste 2014 as I did 2013. I start this year with a lot more knowledge than I have ever had about what the life changes ... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 08:56:19 EST Pearl Harbor Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5559088 For many years, I have taken this day off from work as a personal day so I can mourn, pray and remember the events of 12/07/1941. I say "remember" in the honoring sense since I was born years after that dreadful day. I was at the USS Arizona Memorial on December 7 in the 1980s and cried buckets. I cannot look at the pictures or read about the events without crying. On that day, I saw a name on the wall and was stunned to realize it's a name in my family tree on my mother's side. <BR> <BR... Sat, 7 Dec 2013 12:41:37 EST A Lot Going On http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5554686 Thank you, Spark Friends, for your comments and goodies. I have not responded individually, but I am very appreciative. <BR> <BR> I have been going through the motions in terms of lifestyle change in terms of exercise and food choices. It's not that I don't care, I just can't muster the mental, emotional or any other kind of energy to act positively. <BR> <BR> Job #2 keeps changing. I am not sure how long I will have it. Job #1 is about to get very busy. One of my supervising attorneys ... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 00:09:07 EST Thanksgiving at Grandmother's House http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5552306 Most of my childhood Thanksgiving Days were spent at Grandmother's house out in the country. She was my stepfather's mother and my mother always reminded me it was out of Grandmother's goodness that I was allowed to attend. (there were some when I did not, but that's another blog entirely and it was never because of Grandmother). She lived, literally, over the hill and through the woods, and we all loved the drive to Grandmother's! As soon as we crossed the river, we knew it was only a few... Thu, 28 Nov 2013 15:02:59 EST SF Batkid! The headline story in today's paper is a true feel-good story! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5542710 The Make a Wish Foundation and hundreds of volunteers teamed up together yesterday to give a 5 year old boy his super hero sized dream! Check out SF Batkid via any media source. I dare you to read about this young hero and not be inspired and not be in tears! Little Miles Scott has leukemia which is in remission, finally. The local and wider media has been full of this feel good story and it is so refreshing! <BR> <BR> The Foundation, the volunteers and this brave little boy are my newest ... Sat, 16 Nov 2013 13:31:26 EST Food Blowout! However, I am Not Browbeating Myself! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5536111 Sandra, my still-new coworker and I were in the mood to eat out today. Neither one of us has eaten out in months. We ultimately went to Scotty's Seafood. She insisted on fried calamari appetizer. Then there was the chewy wonderful bread. I had salmon tacos and dessert. <BR> Thus, I blew my promise about sugar. <BR> <BR> My promise about soda is still intact. <BR> <BR> I don't know why I am not down on myself - that is not my normal response. <BR> <BR> I have no desire for dinner ton... Fri, 8 Nov 2013 20:58:36 EST A Promise to Keep or Hoisted by my own Petard (or Something!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5535058 I came in to work this morning to find an email from my boss to the team scheduling a very quick meeting in the middle of the day. These are never good meetings - it's always bad news when an almost last-minute meeting is called with no hint about purpose. I get in early, so I had hours to think about what it could be and get anxious. (I can't help it - all the tricks in the book fail me). <BR> <BR> The last time we had a meeting like this, it was to announce that our General Counsel was ... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 16:21:37 EST Derailed & Despondent, but I Still have Reasons to be Grateful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5534248 I have been feeling run down for far too long. Yesterday, I went to work and turned around two hours later. Curled up and slept for nearly four hours. I thought I would be recharged for today, but I still feel wiped out. <BR> <BR> Things seem to have changed at work or are changing. I'm feeling marginalized, but I am also aware that it could be coincidences. There's an all day seminar on Friday and I am not included while most of my team is attending. We're interviewing for a new stude... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 20:04:40 EST I Did Not Make Good Choices Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5532407 All that Halloween candy at work today. Usually, I don't touch it. If I don't, I don't miss it, but sometimes, if I do, I don't stop. <BR> <BR> Today, it was not a binge loss of conscious awareness kind of thing, I was very conscious of the choices I made but I still chose not to do differently. <BR> <BR> This is not how I will achieve my goals. <BR> <BR> I know better! I just have to act on that knowledge. Mon, 4 Nov 2013 22:04:44 EST Gratitude Overflowing! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5530474 Today was the long day working at the dealership. They asked me to do something new today and I was apprehensive about how the new task might impact my ability to do the others. As it turned out, not much. I got everything done with time to spare. I do worry, though, that the call volume (or lack of) may make the owners decide to cut back my hours even further. Actually, worry is not the right word, There's nothing I can do about it, so it's more an occasional thought than a worry. <BR>... Sat, 2 Nov 2013 22:45:35 EST An Awful Day for Many Reasons http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5529537 I have not felt well today. Perhaps it was the post-adrenaline drop from worrying about Bill's needle biopsy. That is the least of the bad news of the day. <BR> <BR> Early in the day came the news of the gun violence at LAX. I learned, however, that none of my coworkers, according to our travel agent, were scheduled to be in that terminal at that time. Still, prayers for the wounded, for the traumatized and for the family of the dead, not to mention for the first responders and other c... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 20:08:46 EST Biopsy and Team Goals and Halloween http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5528702 BF decided, after all, he did not want me there. The VA hospital is minutes by car or by foot from where I work, but he had a friend take him. I guess he thought I'd make a scene because he told me his appointment was at 3 and that I could just head home from work and he would be home around 5. <BR> I got home a few minutes after 3 to find him standing on the porch! He had already gone and come back. It's his prerogative, of course, and I know he has to deal with this in his way, but I do ... Thu, 31 Oct 2013 21:47:11 EST His Biopsy Canceled for Today, May Happen Tomorrow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5527610 Thanks for all the comments on my recent blogs about my BF's upcoming biopsy. The VA canceled today's appointment and it might happen tomorrow... <BR> <BR> Thank you for the continued prayers and good thoughts! I feel your love and really appreciate it! Wed, 30 Oct 2013 17:29:54 EST