JULIERAE41's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JULIERAE41 JULIERAE41's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Long Dark Tunnel.....But seeing the glimmer of light at the end. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5530461 November 2nd 2013 <BR> I am ready to get back on track. I have been off focus far too long. Gained 20 pounds I suppose. I am not bringing the scale back into my life. I have a bad habit of getting caught up in the numbers. This time around I want to try not to get so dang obsessed and self-focused. It's time to finally find balance between healthy and fun. Perhaps the two will merge at some point. I know I need to begin tacking my calories again at some point so I will begin tracking in a cou... Sat, 2 Nov 2013 22:23:17 EST The Facts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5357338 I read this devotional today and heard all of your comments in my head whilst reading it. It really is the word from God I have been waiting to hear. You all said such wise things to me and I needed to hear all of it. Choice indeed. I do love you, Cathy. <BR> I have come to the exact place to which God has led me. My behavior is no different than the people of Israel cowering before the red sea. He has opened a safe passage before me and I can cross over. Like Israel, I despaired just as god... Wed, 15 May 2013 11:21:23 EST Summer Is NOT A Happy Time For Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5356944 I must say off the top that I really dread summer every year. My hours become crazy and I get overwhelmed. I see between 30 and 40 people a week during the summer and work anywhere from 60 to 65 hours a week. I am not griping, really just stating facts. I love my clients and I love my job, but I find zero balance between work and health during the summer. It begins in May and goes until almost October. <BR> <BR> I gave up my scale just over a couple weeks ago and have since fallen apart. My ... Wed, 15 May 2013 01:05:38 EST Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5317301 Today, I promise I will not quit. <BR> I pledge that no matter, how many ups and downs I pass through, I will continue on my journey. <BR> I pledge to make a NEW START today, and forgive myself for my past, and to stop being so critical of myself. <BR> I pledge to take control of myself, to stop making excuses, and stop blaming other people or situations. <BR> I pledge to treat myself as I would my best friend, because that is who I am. <BR> I pledge to stay in the race and to be a WINNE... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 14:43:13 EST Is it really April already? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5316653 April 8th 2013 <BR> Is it really April already? Yes. The past ..............Oh my, can it have been that long? Yes, it has been SEVEN weeks since I got off my plan. In seven weeks I managed to put back all the weight it took me 3 1/2 months to lose. I can honestly say that the small quiet voice that tells me I will try again tomorrow is the only thing that keeps me from giving up. That and all my wonderful friends on the Calorie Watchers team. I did get good news from the doctor that I am no ... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 03:38:32 EST Drill Sergeant VS Cheerleader http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5304637 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/1/l918859705.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Wow. I sure can relate to that! I am really my own worst enemy. I get it into my head that things have to be a certain way and anything but that way is then a total failure. I need to remember that there is more than one way to get to my goal. I have no idea where I got such regimented thinking, but I need to lighten up. <BR> <BR> Today, I did a series of coach Nicole workouts just to make things interesting... Fri, 29 Mar 2013 18:27:31 EST Changed something yesterday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5301084 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/4/l544663114.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I had an interaction with my difficult family member yesterday. I was treated with great disrespect. My normal reaction would be tears followed by some juvenile response but I stopped just long enough to think and called an al-anon member instead. Just talking to someone who already knows everything that goes along with these kinds of situations had me calmed down in five minutes. Then instead of going to the fridg... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 17:43:29 EST DOING something. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5297473 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1611228696.jpg"> <BR> <BR> If I am ever going to get out of this depression, I need to DO something. So, I have reset my Sparkgoals today and wiped the slate clean. I am going to follow the Sparkpeople guidelines instead of setting my own. I feel aimles so I am letting SP give me something to aim for. <BR> <BR> Thanks to Pat for her wonderful blog that put me on the path. Love ya, Lady! Sat, 23 Mar 2013 18:08:40 EST I Am So Fortunate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5295132 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/0/l707388995.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I know my profile picture does not represent me well today so I thought this one looked better. I was looking at my picture and thinking what a genuine smile looks like on me. There is no faking a smile like that. I would like to feel on the inside how that picture looks. Alas, the clouds are blocking me out in my head. The sun is shining outside and I have slept most of the day away. What a waste. <BR> <BR> It i... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 14:29:31 EST Time To Admit It To Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5293123 My depression has returned and I didn't even see it coming. It sort of creeped up on me and now I recognize the feelings that are so bleak and familiar . <BR> <BR> I have two choices. I can do what I have always done which is withdraw, isolate, and gain weight which I have been slipping into doing already. OR I can learn how to fight this feeling of lethargy and disinterest and figure out a way to make myself do what I don't feel like doing. All I feel like doing is sleeping and don't want t... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 00:38:51 EST You CAN teach an old dog new tricks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5287184 <link>vimeo.com/61275290 </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> This is a little 39 second video that really made me laugh tonight. The title is " Paper is Not Dead" <BR> <BR> I am a really old dog when it comes to technology and my husband , bless him, is fine with it. He helps me whenever I am challenged. However, I guess if he were not okay with it I may find my motivation to get more with the times as Emma does. LOL <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Anyway, today was a practice day for me. I d... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 00:09:28 EST Another Good Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5280706 I am so tuckered out. I am getting ready for bed but wanted to gush about what a good day it was today! <BR> <BR> I went to my al-anon meeting and heard some really good things about detachment with love. Who knew? I thought that only came out of anger. I need to learn more about this! <BR> <BR> I went to the gluten free place from last week and got a lasagna slice to share with Jeff and a side salad and a decadent blueberry ricotta cheesecake torte sized dessert. I hit the grocery for prot... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 00:06:41 EST Fortune Cookie Wisdom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5279636 Took My Husband out for sushi tonight because he deserved it, and here is what my uneaten fortune cookie told me.............. <BR> <BR> "Life enrich from seeking, <BR> not from sitting." <BR> <BR> <BR> I chuckled and showed it to Jeff. He chuckled too. We both know that I have been off track lately. We both know that I am earnestly seeking to improve my prayer life and bu... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 01:12:36 EST All or Nothing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5270574 <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> Spark Coach asked me to blog about my all or nothing pitfalls on this journey. As a matter of fact, I am this side of one today. I fell victim to pretty much an "I don't care" attitude. I don't know if this counts as all or nothing But I certainly had the "I'll get back on track tomorrow" thing going on. Pretty soon a week had gone by and I had made nothing but poor choices. <BR> I got back to it on the 1st of March but my body read me the riot act when I did stren... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 01:01:37 EST March Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5268957 I spent some time re-evaluating my goals and have revised them a bit for March. <BR> <BR> 1) Drink 4 of my water glasses daily. 96 oz. total. <BR> 2) Sleep 8 hours a night. This means a bedtime of 11:30. <BR> 3) Five freggies a day. <BR> 4) Stay on plan within calorie and nutrition ranges. <BR> 5) Breakfast daily. No exceptions. <BR> 6) 40 minutes exercise minimum daily except Sundays. Cardio 6 days and strength 4 days. <BR> 7) 7000 steps a day. <BR> 8) Read One Year Bible d... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 19:45:15 EST The Fitness Protection Program http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5265313 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1001514549.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I just saw this picture on a good friend's spark page. I realised it is exactly what I have been doing. Hiding. <BR> <BR> The other thing I figured out , is I have passed the point of no return. I have passed the point where I can slip back into my old life and feel comfortable there. I have changed enough habits that these old ones feel foreign to me even though they are strangely familiar. Suddenly, light daw... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 22:06:18 EST Losing Weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262586 Emotional weight, that is.............. <BR> <BR> <BR> I cannot go into details without saying ugly things about someone close to me. So all I can say is God has provided a way out of a very toxic situation for me. A church friend pointed out today that the only time I ever binge anymore is when this relationship that is so toxic hurts me. I never saw that before but now that my eyes are opened, I am able to seek solutions. I will be able to stop being the payee for this person's finances a... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 21:02:29 EST Hurting Really bad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5248084 I have had my feelings hurt so badly today. I am not about to go into details but have you ever had one of those relationships that is really toxic but you are trapped? I am all this person has and I do everything I am able to in order to help. I also protect myself the way my counselor taught me to by only doing what I should and not what I am manipulated into doing. <BR> <BR> I was treated like a servant today and I am not sure why it hurt me so bad. Perhaps it is because I know this pers... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 18:09:48 EST CAKE!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240328 Chocolate Cake In-a-Mug <BR> <BR> 4T ground flax meal <BR> 4T stevia powder or splenda <BR> 2T unsweet cocoa powder <BR> 1 lg egg <BR> 3T unsweet applesauce <BR> 3T skim milk <BR> splash unsweet vanilla <BR> <BR> Mix all dry ingredients into a big soup mug. Add wet ingredients and mix well. Microwave 3 min uncovered. Turn out onto plate and cool. Top with crushed strawberries or fruit of choice. <BR> (optional) This is very filling and oh so satisfying! I usually call it most of my... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 14:06:46 EST An Itty Bitty Frownie Face http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238095 <BR> I got my Fit Bit weekly report in my e-mail today and had to chuckle. The day I take a break from exercise is Sunday. I look forward to Sundays. So if you get these reports you have no doubt seen the itty bitty frownie. <BR> <BR> I chuckled because I never even thought of calling my rest day a frownie day. If I were the obsessive type this would probably bother me. I am also discovering that OCD and obsessive are very different. I am not really OCD and I do not take lightly the prison... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 00:32:49 EST Impact Tremors http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5232026 Ever since I got my Fit Bit One, I keep thinking about my steps all day. Not so much about how many but making sure they all register. <BR> <BR> Remember the scene in Jurassic Park where Jeff Goldblum's character talks about impact tremors and you can see the water in the cup on the dashboard moving every time the T Rex takes a step? <BR> <BR> Well, that is me recently. I am stomping around a lot making sure that my little fit bit logs all my steps. When I noticed me doing it, I thought o... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 16:50:09 EST Oh, Peanut Butter, How I Love Thee http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220800 <em>245</em> but you have to go away for awhile. <BR> <BR> I am finding that no matter how much I love you, you are getting in the way of my goals. I am not saying this is forever, I am just saying I need a little time to myself right now. I find myself thinking about your smooth buttery creaminess during the day. You are starting to take my eyes off of the prize. <BR> <BR> Today, I chose to spend more time with you than my other pals and Carrotts, Peppers, Berries and Cauliflower misse... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 21:53:34 EST A Week Goes By Fast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5213739 I can't believe it has been a week already since I posted a blog. I really thought it had only been a couple of days. <BR> <BR> This week has been a rocky one. I have had a few days of going over calories a bit and I have been feeling secretly guilty about it and trying to ignore myself. I got sick mid-week and haven't been able to exercise which is really making me feel like a slug. And on top of everything else, I am overdue for my lady's time and I'm holding about 3 pounds of water. <BR> ... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 23:43:10 EST It's Here!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5202541 My Fit Bit One came today! <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>334</em> <em>353</em> <em>354</em> <em>355</em> <em>356</em> Fri, 11 Jan 2013 17:59:10 EST I Deserve To Eat! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5191979 I have recently had quite the time figuring out just how many calories I need to achieve my goals. I think I figured out today what has been my problem. I have been kinda trying to do an algebra problem where part of the question is actually wrong. At least I think so anyway. I am not a math person but it just seems like that to me. <BR> <BR> I used the BMR calculator to figure out my needs and then figure how many calories to cut as well to lose 1-2 pounds a week. Then the scale keeps stall... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 18:18:43 EST Deer ( the lives-in-the-woods-kind) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5187390 <em>315</em> <BR> <BR> While doing my intervals on the treadmill tonight, I looked outside into the front yard and saw a deer. My treadmill sits right in front of the big picture window in our living room. I live in Montana and our house is almost at the base of a mountain. Maybe three football fields away...........there are no emoticons for deer so insert self constructed visualization here. <BR> <BR> I wondered what the deer must be thinking of me while munching the sweet grass beneat... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 01:10:55 EST Truth and Consequences http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5182505 The truth is, I binged. I binged to the tune of almost 6000 calories. I took my eyes off of the goal and focused on the negative. This led to my descision to use my self pity as an excuse to eat myself silly. The consequence is the appearance of 3.6 pounds on the scale. <BR> I also sacrificed a week's worth of progress. <BR> <BR> More truth......This was ONE DAY <BR> <em>56</em> 24 hours of my life. <BR> <BR> I got on my spark team and held myself accountable to my friends and they rece... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 16:26:22 EST 5K Walk/Jog Race Results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5175329 You know that quote about in order to get results you never have you have to do something you've never done? <BR> <BR> I did something today I have never done. I ran my first 5k. I am officially addicted. So awesome to see what this ole bod can do! Thanks SPARKPEOPLE!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> I realy didn't think I could do it and when the 3.1 mark was approaching I was supposed to gear down to a walk but I ran all the way to the finish just to show myself I wasn't toasted yet! <BR> <BR> I give G... Mon, 24 Dec 2012 16:56:55 EST Where Is That Line, Anyway? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5173368 A very dear, sweet client brought me a treat this morning. She was so very excited to bring them to me. They were flourless peanut butter cookies. Now, I have to admit, I love peanut butter cookies. Probably an unhealthy kind of love for them, too. <BR> <BR> I heard myself asking her if they had sugar in them. She said yes. <BR> I also heard myself asking her what kind of peanut butter she uses. She said Adam's. <BR> <BR> I also saw her excitement diminish as I drilled her with these que... Sat, 22 Dec 2012 00:47:15 EST What Not To Do or What I Used To Do http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5171264 Got this from a friend in the e-mail today. Wow. Talk about an eye re-opener. Holiday Warrior to my rescue! Thank-you, Jesus! <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>216</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> HOLIDAY EATING TIPS <BR> >> <BR> >> <BR> >> <BR> >> 1. Avoid carrot sticks. Anyone who puts carrots on a holiday buffet <BR> >> table knows nothing of the Holiday spirit. In fact, if you see carrots, <BR> >> leave immediately. Go next door, where they're serving rum balls. <BR> >> <BR> >> 2. Drink as much eggnog a... Wed, 19 Dec 2012 16:33:48 EST Learning Opportunity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5169655 "Think about the last "mistake" you made that left you feeling upset or off track. Now re-frame that event as a learning opportunity. What did it teach you? How can you be better going forward? Share your insights in a blog post." <BR> <BR> Question posed by Spark Coach. <BR> <BR> Every time I bring a food into the house and find out It is made if crack (ie: too good to resist), I put it on the do-not-bring-into-the-house list. <BR> <BR> On this list............ <BR> <BR> Great Value Ind... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 23:26:50 EST My Dad Inspires Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5167781 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1774395665.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> This is a picture of my Dad enjoying his breakfast at Torrey Pines Pub in Las vegas, Nevada. This Pub used to be in Missoula, Montana (where I live). University of Montana Alums get together there to watch the Grizzlies kick butt. Doesn't my dad look great? <BR> <BR> I am so proud of him! He was diagnosed with diabetes when I was in grade school. I remember him opening his giant sized chocolate bars on Fat... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 01:26:24 EST Writing This Day Off the Books http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5159831 <BR> <em>227</em> <BR> <BR> The blog post that follows is really sad. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Today was yucky. It started off well enough. Saw one of my favorite customers and then headed out to pick up my friend to go to the funeral of one of my favorite church ladies who always sits right behind us in church. When I got there to pick up my friend, she had the days mixed up and couldn't go. So, I headed out to the funeral home by mys... Sat, 8 Dec 2012 01:18:20 EST 5K Your Way week 3 Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5157570 Searching for that inner cheerleader tonight and found her. Thank God! I began my first day of week three tonight on the treadmill. I will NOT call it a failure, but a learning opportunity! Even if I am mad. LOL <BR> <BR> I Got into the third interval after only being able to do 1.5 of the run on the last interval. My feet and calves were horribly cramping tonight. I am in a four hour sleep deficit from the last two days only getting 6 hrs sleep and maybe I didn't get enough water in today ... Wed, 5 Dec 2012 21:52:19 EST My Unwillingness to Be Uncomfortable http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5155477 <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> I remember when I was a teenager that being uncomfortable physically or emotionally was at the very bottom of my list. In fact, it was on the list of things to avoid at all costs. <BR> <BR> Today, I am discovering that a little bit of discomfort will lead to keeping me out of real pain. I feel my body changing. I am becoming stronger physically and mentally. I ran on the treadmill tonight and thought about the discomfort of my lungs and my feet and my legs and bega... Tue, 4 Dec 2012 01:44:05 EST 5K Your way walk/jog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5149611 I have been really frustrated with my training on the treadmill because the track kept jerking every time I jog. I called a health club today and talked to someone and they suggested the belt needed tightened. <BR> <BR> I got in touch with my masculine side and went to work on the thing. Even took the housing for the motor off. It was an easy fix, actually. I found the part needing work at the back under some plastic flappy thing. I tightened the screws and put the thing back together. When... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 14:28:34 EST Self Image Visualization http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5144711 "Today, visualize yourself walking along a beach, wearing a bathing suit and feeling zero discomfort or shyness about showing off your body that you've worked so hard for. Your confidence is high, and you're not even thinking about your body; you're simply enjoying the moment." <BR> <BR> <BR> This was next to impossible for me today. I really have no idea what it is like to not be conscious of myself when I am in public. I cannot think of a time when I wasn't. I tried. I remember as far bac... Sat, 24 Nov 2012 00:58:52 EST 5K Your Way Walk/Jog Training Day One http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5143125 I got off work late tonight and had to go to the grocery store to get forgotten things. I got home around 9:15 and had to feed my fur-kids. The last thing I wanted to do after putting groceries away was begin my training. I told myself I would just withdraw from the race training until after the holiday and begin on Friday. <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> Here is where I began to argue with myself. All of the excuses from the coaching session yesterday began to run through my head and the rebuttals... Thu, 22 Nov 2012 03:38:09 EST Rationalization http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5137684 <em>227</em> <BR> <em>230</em> <BR> THIS BLOG CONTAINS FOOD DESCRIPTIVES THAT MAY CAUSE ONE TO CRAVE SAID FOODS. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Hostess is closing their doors. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> I haven't had a twinkie in probably 20 years. Let alone any of Hostess' other sweet products. Somehow, though, just hearing that they will no longer be available derails my mantra that I can always have one if I want one. Suddenly this is no longer true. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 17:33:58 EST A Crappy Day. Or is it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5134078 <link>www.oprah.com/spirit/Are-You-Good-to<BR>-Yourself-How-Kind-Are-You-to-You </link> <BR> <BR> I have been thinking a whole lot lately about how I talk to myself. I have come to the conclusion that I am not very nice to myself. If I said the things I say to myself to another human being, it would border on abuse! I would probably run away crying if someone I love talked to me the way I talk to myself. <BR> <BR> So, why do I do this? What began my pattern of self-abuse? I have no idea ... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 13:39:51 EST Talk about fun exercise! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5130974 <BR> <BR> <BR> This guy is amazing! Someone mailed me this link today and I was fascinated! It is snowing outside as we speak and I hate winter! But this was very spark worthy! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <link>www.mymodernmet.com/profiles/blogs/s<BR>imon-beck-snow-art </link> Sat, 10 Nov 2012 21:46:10 EST 35 and Over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5125644 <em>227</em> <BR> <BR> " Before beginning any exercise program, consult your physician! This is ESPECIALLY important for persons over age 35 or persons with pre-existing health problems." <BR> <BR> <em>230</em> <BR> <BR> I am just having to laugh at myself tonight. Today is day one of my strength training goal. I want to say up front that I get kudos for getting up, dressing up, and showing up. So there. <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> Beyond that, it gets pretty comical..........First o... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 01:01:39 EST The Emotional Eater (from the Spark personality profile results) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5123024 <em>40</em> <BR> Oh my gosh! This describes me to a T ! I do not mean to plagiarize sparkpeople, but I just had to put this here. Frighteningly accurate. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> "The main problem you face is eating when you're not hungry or eating to satisfy something other than hunger. "Food for your mood" can cause your diet to vary a great deal. Too much of your eating is driven by boredom, stress, or dejection - you might even find yourself in the kitchen, open cookie ... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 22:50:25 EST It Starts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5119230 <em>431</em> <em>429</em> <em>446</em> <em>411</em> <em>26</em> <em>439</em> <em>449</em> <BR> <BR> Here come those blasted holidays! Now, please don't get me wrong. I love the holidays. And everything that goes along with them. TOO MUCH! <BR> <BR> Since I was a little girl, the holidays have revolved around food. Halloween was my favorite time of year because candy was the bestest thing in the whole world and having a whole bag-full to myself was little-Julie NIRVANA!... Wed, 31 Oct 2012 14:47:15 EST Really? A Title? I Am Not THAT Important! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5116257 I really laughed out loud when I saw I had to make a title for this entry. I have never considered myself the type who wants other people to read my deep, dark thoughts. I am the person who is an open book face to face but putting it on paper is another story altogether. If I put these thoughts down on paper, then there is a record that I had them! I do realize that is the whole point of journaling, but blogging means I am exposed. <BR> <BR> I am fully willing to take the advice of all the ... Mon, 29 Oct 2012 01:16:21 EST