JULIA_NICOLE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JULIA%5FNICOLE JULIA_NICOLE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Its a mind change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3320297 Losing weight is a mind change. I know that I have done it before... <BR> <BR> I am killing myself. I cant get my head to stop saying "you cant do it" "its impossible" " why even try" <BR> <BR> i'm struggling........ Thu, 10 Jun 2010 09:48:11 EST Defeated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3313155 Every day I feel defeated before I even begin. <BR> I wish I could turn back time and not gain so much when I was pregnant. <BR> I wish I had more money so I could buy better food. <BR> I wish I had more time so I could exercise every day. <BR> I wish I didnt feel like my wishes were excuses. <BR> <BR> So what am I going to do... <BR> I'm going to remember that I want this because <BR> I need to be healthy - I feel like crap <BR> I want to be small enough to play with my daughter when she ge... Tue, 8 Jun 2010 10:56:06 EST Starting over... AGAIN http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3296945 I got lost somewhere. Between giving up and having the baby and not caring. I got lost in this "fat girl's body" I need to start again because I want to be a good example to my baby, I want to be able to play with her and not be too fat for play places, and I want to run a 5k in Put in bay in September 2011 <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l140504267.jpg"> <BR> <BR> That (in the pink) is my reflection - I do not feel like her at all Thu, 3 Jun 2010 13:26:13 EST Feeling renewed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2142928 Week 10 is just about half over and I am feeling better and better. The pregnancy symptoms are becoming manageable and I am ready to get back to exercise! I thought I lost this part of me, but I am finding it again. I am still having trouble managing cravings and my food aversions are so strong. I like nothing now. Nothing it is terrible. Thu, 11 Jun 2009 14:05:43 EST An uodate on me... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2111954 So I am feeling overwhelmed and unmotivated. I am so tired work is kicking my butt. I am trying to get my walks in but at about the 2 mile mark I am pooped. the walk I normally do on lunch is 3 miles. It is hard to get to the gym because I am exhausted after woork all day and I have acquired what I call reverse morning sickness (I am sick at night) I have gained about 5 pounds and I am mad at myself for doing so. I was not careful on vacation with my eating and my nightly icecream habits need... Mon, 1 Jun 2009 10:32:04 EST My fluctuating weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2078968 Warning a TMI blog lol <BR> <BR> So I stopped weighing myself every day because my weight fluctates so much. It is still frustrating seeing the scale go up. I dont think I have gained any fat yet. Well actually I may have gained a pound because ice cream has become my go to food at night and I used to hate ice cream.... Anyway (TMI warning) I am so bloated and constipated that the scale has even showed 240 again! I know I am destined to gain weight lol but I am not used to it yet lol I just ... Wed, 20 May 2009 14:51:41 EST A new challenge to myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2074932 So, the thing that frightened me most was the fact that I felt as if I could not do anything to protect my child. My new challenge to myself is I am going to take as good of care as I can of myself to keep my body healthy. <BR> <BR> I am making sure I eat my fruits and veggies even if I dont like them. It is fun to cut em up and I even buy the pretty ones to make it better. Red and orange peppers instead of green. Adding carrots to my salad. A veggie tray with dip! Salads at lunch even if I ... Tue, 19 May 2009 10:17:25 EST The ultrasound http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2064718 Went in today for an ultrasound. I was think I was close to 6 weeks along. They said I am closer to 5 weeks. All that could be seen on the ultrasound was a gestational sac and a yolk sac. She said everything looks normal and Congrats so I guess thats a good sign. I have to go back in 3 weeks for another ultrasound. They dont want me to make a Dr. apt until after 10 weeks. Seems odd, but I guess they know what they are doing Fri, 15 May 2009 12:13:15 EST Back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2063883 So I found some peace that I needed about my current situation! It is nice. <BR> <BR> Anyway I am getting back on track this week. I missed the gym everynight due to multiple circumstance and being stressed and tired. I still took my daily walks, but I want to get back to the gym to keep my body strong. I also slacked off my eating because I spent my grocery money on HPT's and Dr's appts LOL. I did fairly well, but ate a few junk food things for no reason other than laziness. I am more hungr... Fri, 15 May 2009 07:17:42 EST Worries... very unlike me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2062183 I am not, or maybe I should say was not, a worrier. Whatever happened happened and I could deal. Now that I found out I am pregnant I have so many worries. Am I going to continue to full term? Is there anything going to be wrong with the baby? Am I going to be able to afford day care? <BR> <BR> All the years I imagined finding out I would be pregnant I never imagined worry would be my main new thing. <BR> <BR> ***edited*** <BR> <BR> My ultrasound is tomorrow at 10 so i will update with th... Thu, 14 May 2009 14:35:18 EST I am pregnant!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2057884 WOW I never thought this would happen! WOW I am so excited!!!! I hope everything goes ok. I am just to happy for words right now. But I wanted to let everyone know its official I am pregnant. <BR> <BR> And its funny because I am not telling most people in "real life" yet HAHA Wed, 13 May 2009 07:41:12 EST More waiting... UGH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2055990 So the dr said to call in this afternoon for the lab results. I called and and just my luck. The lab has no idea where the report is. They said they will call back in a day or two! How am I supposed to wait! I feel like I can't believe the 4 (yes 4) home pregnancy tests I bought. I need to hear that YES from the doctor... Tue, 12 May 2009 13:58:14 EST My stress lately... I cant take it anymore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2051857 I wasn't going to share this, but I can't take it anymore. I think I am pregnant! I can't tell anyone until I get the for sure answer from my doctor which wont be until tomorrow. I just can't hold it in.... This is so unexpected. I have only known my current bf for 7 months. I am on birth control and on top of it all we were only together once from march 22 - now! I took 3 HPT and they all came back positive. I called my dr. they told me to get off the pill and sent me for bloodwork. I got my... Mon, 11 May 2009 09:33:03 EST The biggest losers and the general idea http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2038051 So once again last night I was watching the biggest loser At the gym. It was going home week and they were recalling week 1. They were talking about how unhappy they were, how they were hiding, how they felt self conscious, all thier weaknesses. I did not like it. Why? Because that is the general idea of most people. If you are fat. And I mean really fat. I'm talking hundred(s) of pounds to lose. The general idea is that you are unhappy. That you feel worthless. That you have no energy. <BR> ... Wed, 6 May 2009 08:39:34 EST Camping this weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2013796 I am so excited I am going camping this weekend! I know I will drink too much, ubt then again when is alcohol ever beneficial??? It will be fun though. I cant wait. We are going to go hiking and just get to be outside! I am excited! We are going to Cook Forest. It is my favorite place ever Tue, 28 Apr 2009 13:28:35 EST This week's goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2010502 Candy has become my vice... Particularly chocolate. I never had a preference one way or the other for sweet but since I took my cannot control snack out - potato chips - I have replaced it with a cannot control candy. This week I am doing what I did with chips to the chocoalte. GETTING RID OF IT! I threw out all the candy in my house. I hid the candy in my office in my bosses desk. I know you need to allow yourself a treat once in a while, but something happened... <BR> My treats became over... Mon, 27 Apr 2009 13:11:49 EST A beautiful heart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1999765 A Beautiful Heart? <BR> <BR> The more hurt and pain you have gone thru in life, the stronger and more <BR> beautiful your heart will be..... <BR> <BR> One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. <BR> <BR> A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young ma... Thu, 23 Apr 2009 13:27:09 EST Its funny how we are... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1999223 So I was doing so well I was enjoying exercises. I was jumping over hurdles left and right. But for the last few days/week and a half I have been caving to candy lacking motivation to workout. Snacking more than I should have... <BR> <BR> <BR> NOW I AM BACK!!!! I am ready to go again. I am ready to skip excessive unhealthy snacks. I am motivated to exercise instead of forcing myself to do it. <BR> <BR> Now I am trying to figure out why I lost motivation for the last week... Lets see what c... Thu, 23 Apr 2009 10:46:16 EST Plateau http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1996032 I feel like I am entering my first plateau. I know it happens and I am going to try not to get discouraged. I only lost 1 pound last week and so far I am holding steady this week. I am used to seeing the lbs melt off. I know that cant continue like that forever, but noone likes a plateau... I will have to see what saturdays weigh in brings me Wed, 22 Apr 2009 10:57:57 EST The weather http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1992628 It is not cooperating with me and I am missing my daily walks. I dont like it! <BR> <BR> Rain Rain go away :) Tue, 21 Apr 2009 11:29:10 EST What are you doing?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1988333 I get asked that question quite often anymore. It is hard to answer because I have lost almost 75 lbs. in less than 4 months. I am not doing anything special. I am not taking diet pills. I am not restricting food. I am not starving... <BR> <BR> So what am I doing? <BR> <BR> For the most part I log what I eat. There are some things I dont log, but not because I dont want people to see them it is because I am lazy lol. When I log my meals and planned snack I am usually around 1200 calories. O... Mon, 20 Apr 2009 08:15:44 EST Me a motivator? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1983807 A few months ago I wouldn't have thought it possible, but in 4 months I have been named a spark motivator. Thanks everyone. Thanks for your votes, your support, your inspiration, and everything! Sat, 18 Apr 2009 12:07:14 EST This week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1980896 So I know this is going to be my week of lowest losses since I started my journey. I will be LUCKY if I lose 2 lbs. this week. Monday, Thursday, and today I did not go to the gym. It was a busy week. I had more candy this weeks. My thanks to the Easter bunny LOL. And Although I did not eat alot I had Easter left overs for a few days. Ham, mashed potatoes, and baked beans do not belong in a diet more than once a week. <BR> <BR> However, I have been running more. I did alot of strength trainin... Fri, 17 Apr 2009 10:01:10 EST I feel beautiful... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1975514 I have always thought I was pretty. I never had a problem with that. But I feel so beautiful. The feeling is coming from the inside too. I feel strong and determined and accomplished and beautiful. It is an amazing feeling Wed, 15 Apr 2009 14:15:00 EST I learned to love running... I thought that was impossible! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1974807 Last night I ran 2 miles in a little over 24 minutes! I am so impressed with myself. Again though I have terrible blisters. But I feel so gooooood!!!!I cant believe I can do this! I never thought I could run let alone 2 miles. I also raised all my weights 5 lbs. yesterday. So I am sore, but its a good sore... I feel so strong after good workouts like that Wed, 15 Apr 2009 10:29:17 EST Even your fearless leader has ad moments LOL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1970860 So last night... What did I do last night.... <BR> <BR> Last night I went to the dentist and I have ALOT of work to get done consisting of getting 6 teeth pulled and about 13 fillings. They started with fillings. Anyway, she told me it would be a better idea if I did not go to the gym last night. So I bought a book and went home to read. I get lost in books like some people or kids get lost in TV shows. Unfortunalty I experienced an episode of mindless eating! My Easter candy jar was on the ... Tue, 14 Apr 2009 07:56:36 EST Do you like challenges? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1967979 I do! Here is a great website. 6-8 week programs to do 100 pushups, 200 situps, or 200 squats. I'll be posting these on my team site as mini challenges. 1st one we are doing is pushups!!! <BR> <BR> <link>hundredpushups.com </link> Mon, 13 Apr 2009 10:27:43 EST My weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1967472 I had such a fun weekend! <BR> <BR> For our 6th month anniversary I gave my bf Saturday as a gift LOL I made a good breakfast, we took a trip to the zoo, we went out to a unique restaurant, and had a relaxing evening at home. <BR> <BR> I woke up Saturday morning and went to the gym for almost 2 hours. I came home showered and made my bf breakfast. He had alot! I had egg beaters 3 sausages and a light english muffin. We then went to the zoo. We walked around the zoo for 4 hours. Thats alot ... Mon, 13 Apr 2009 07:58:19 EST Journal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1960566 I started a community journal to document my progress in addition to my blogs. I will be able to list in more detail what I am doing so I can look back and remember. Yesterday was a good working out day. There is a new piece of "eye candy" at the gym LOL I love my bf and dont want anyone else but it nice to have a good view while you are working out LOL My 20 minute run went good, I wasnt as tired as I normally am. I picked up the pace the last minute to 4.7 mph. My shoes are still giving me ... Fri, 10 Apr 2009 09:53:44 EST New territory... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1954536 I have a strange way of thinking sometimes. Sometimes I picture my life and where I have been like a map on a video game. You know the kind where only the places you have been are lit up and the rest is all black.... <BR> <BR> Anyway I am at a place where I have never been. I have never lived a healthy lifestyle like this. I have never exercised like this. I have never made consistant healthy eating choices. It feels good. I have never seen so much success with weight loss. It is awesome <BR... Wed, 8 Apr 2009 10:37:56 EST I feel strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1950792 So saturday I was so proud of being able to run a mile. Last night I ran for 20 minutes! That a little over a mile and a half. It feels so good to be able to do that. I am going to keep going for 20 minutes until I can push on for longer than that! <BR> I need some running songs.... My favorite is Shake it by Metro station for running. Anyone have any suggestions? Tue, 7 Apr 2009 08:56:53 EST Speaking of busy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1947884 My plans are made WELL in advance here is an example of why my weekends are so busy: <BR> <BR> This weekend 4/11 taking my bf to the zoo (a gift i gave him for our 6th month anniversary) 4/12 easter - visiting family <BR> 4/17-4/18 going to Ohio to visit friends 4/19 surprise party for XXXX (in case he reads lol) <BR> 4/25 taking my dad and his gf out for my dads bday 4/26 helping my bf's mom with yard work <BR> 5/1-5/3 going camping <BR> 5/8 going to ohio 5/9 wedding 5/10 taking sis out (sh... Mon, 6 Apr 2009 11:35:58 EST What I need http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1947133 I need more time LOL dont we all, but this is not a blog about needing more time. <BR> <BR> I wish there were more healthy choices at fast food restaurants. Actually I wish there was a healthy fast food restaurant in general. I know there is subway, but subway has no drive through and there are not alot around. I have no time to eat on the weekends. Now I see why I always ate fast food. I really do not have time to eat. I am busy from 5:30 am until 10pm Monday-Friday. When the weekends roll ... Mon, 6 Apr 2009 08:17:33 EST My ticker now motivates me... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1935948 In the beginning my ticker made me see how far I had to go. Now I am almost half way to my (1st) goal it shows me how far I have come. It amazes me really! I have totally changed my way of thinking and living. I wear a size XL (16/18) now I never dreamed I would get to that size so quickly. I have never been smaller than a 10/12 and most of my high school days I was a 16/18. Now I like looking at my tickker ans seeing my progress instead of seeing how far the goal is. Thu, 2 Apr 2009 08:29:03 EST I am suppossed to be a motivator BUT... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1930024 I feel like I am always supposed to be happy and motivating - never letting on about my hard times. But today I need to vent. I am having a hard day. First bad thing happened this morning. I have some old bad debt following me from my marriage. I found out today I am being sued for $11,000. How am I supposed to deal with that. Anyway spent the day trying to figure that out when I found out a lady here is pregnant. I feel like a really bad person but when I find out someone is pregnant I get s... Tue, 31 Mar 2009 13:34:54 EST I am MOVED! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1925410 Hooray the moving is done! I am excited to be able to get back to the gym every day!!! This weekend was not a very healthy one for me eating wise. I have no microwave and I have no pots and pand AND I now live above a pizza shop LOL. For real though, Friday night I had 2 pieces of pizza (planned). Saturday during moving the guys I had helping me wanted PIZZA (since the shop is right there). Sat night went out to eat had a salad, but did not have light dressing they only had balsamic as a ligh... Mon, 30 Mar 2009 08:55:11 EST WOW... and it only took 3 months lol http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1917261 So I have been doing this for 3 months. I have lost 61 pounds. I can see small differences in my body but since I wasn't really self conscious before it is not a huge difference to me. Actually I am noticing the "flaws" weight loss is causing along with the improvments so it all balances out for me. <BR> <BR> This week however EVERYONE noticed my weightloss. People I work with are amazed. They say I changed overnight. Noone noticed last week, but thiss week they all seemed to see. I wish I ... Fri, 27 Mar 2009 08:07:57 EST Thank You http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1915629 I want to thank all my team members who are continually encouraging me sending me spark goodies and leaving me comments. It means so much to me. Here is my story just so you see why I am pushing so hard. I started gaining weight when I was about 16. My parents were very strict with food (for the money's sake) and when I was 16 I bought my own and ate fast food all the time. I turned 18 and moved out and continued to gain weight because I constantly bought all the junk and treats I never had b... Thu, 26 Mar 2009 15:46:28 EST Something to think about. (Tough Love) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1907582 What has happened since January? In January the message boards were constantly active. The teams were always busy and full of discussion. The fitness minutes were soaring! Every bite was tracked. Why have we stopped? Do we really want this as much as we say we do? Why is it so hard? <BR> <BR> No time. I hear that alot. Well we had time a few months ago - where did it go? You have to make time. This must be a priority. <BR> <BR> I cannot stay motivated... Motivation is from within. Sometime... Tue, 24 Mar 2009 08:22:32 EST This weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1904209 So this weekend my boyfriend took me on a trip for our 6th month anniversary. It was so wonderful. It was a romantic getaway. We went to a place called Foxburg. It is located on the alleghany river in the allegheny notional forest. It wa a beautiful little place and probably the nicest hotel I have ever stayed in. <BR> <BR> Since I have made a lifestyle change I know that during special occasions I can treat myself. Once again Saturday I was too busy for breakfast and lunch. Now I see why I... Mon, 23 Mar 2009 08:51:03 EST More moving and painting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1897146 I have been working hard on my apartment. Last night I painted for about 3 hours and laid some carpet with my dad. Today I am going to finish up the painting I hope and clean the last 2 rooms. It has been a lot of work moving into this place but it looks 100x better. My bf thought it was trashy when we first looked at it now after only $300 is looks so cute. It is like a rustic cottage inside. I will post pictures when I am all moved in and decorated... <BR> <BR> I cannot wait to decorate! ... Fri, 20 Mar 2009 12:44:58 EST What motivates me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1893970 It seems like lately a lack of motivation is occuring everywhere. I think it is time to reach down inside ourselves and know why we want this... <BR> <BR> So today as I was walking on my lunch break I was thinking why do I want this? Well here is my thought process and maybe it will inspire someone... <BR> <BR> I want to do it all! I want to see it all! I want to go as many places as possible. I love new adventures. My weight and physical condition were stopping me from doing the things my ... Thu, 19 Mar 2009 12:05:19 EST More changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1889886 I believe everything can be enjoyed in moderation. Last night I went to an irish pub for St Patty's Day and my bf's and I 6th month anniversary. I decided to have one of my favorite meals since it is not an everyday occurance that I choose to eat things like this. I ordered the clam strip basket. Fried clams and french fries. The clams did not taste as good as I remember and Ibarely ate any fries. I used to LOVE fries and now they just tasted greasy and not good. It is funny how my tastes hav... Wed, 18 Mar 2009 07:53:07 EST Funny Story http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1887564 O I got this skirt for Christmas about 3 years ago. It never fit. I have been waiting and waiting to wear it. It is so pretty I love it! It is a size 18. Last night I was going through my clothes trying to find something to wear and I said I will try on this skirt! It is too big!!!!!! I missed my opportunity to wear it! I put it on and it falls down to my hips. Guess I better go buy a belt so I can wear it at least once LOL Tue, 17 Mar 2009 12:39:18 EST Amazing Accomplishment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1886957 Today is a very stressful day at work! We are getting auditted and as the admin agent I am getting blamed for many others mistakes! There are donuts, muffins, cookies, candy and juice for the people who are here. They are getting pizza, pasta, and garlic bread brought in for lunch. <BR> <BR> I am fine! I do not need to emotional eat!!! It is a wonderful feeling to not have to grab a donut because I am stressed. WOW I am proud of myself!!!! Tue, 17 Mar 2009 09:48:03 EST So close http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1885838 I am so close to my March goal! Only 5 pounds left to lose to get there! It is exciting to see continual progress. It is strange to me to buy small clothes. My mom was looking around in the "regular" people section!!! I told her dont buy that I cant wear that size. She said Uh you prb can so I tried it on and it fit!!! UMMM when was the last time I shopped in non plus size... It was like high school! WOW. Got some more compliments at the gym today. Its funny every time I grow out of... errr s... Mon, 16 Mar 2009 21:58:48 EST Where was I??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1882297 Of course if you read my blogs I am moving! WOW I have been busy. I have painted, scubbed, cleaned, walked up and down 3 flights of stairs MILLIONS of times lol and I havent even finished or moved the heavy stuff in yet. I apologize I havent been on much but I am here and I will be done moving soon! Sun, 15 Mar 2009 21:39:58 EST To my sparkteam http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1876361 I am so excited about the upcoming getting ready for summer contest. I hope it will get us back in the mode!!!! Fri, 13 Mar 2009 14:24:13 EST Update to worried and moving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1873176 First of all I want to thank everyone for thier support!!! I know I can do it I guess I just had a crazy moment LOL <BR> <BR> But I got the call and I got the apartment. I am going tomorrow to pay the security and rent. And I am going to start cleaning. So I better get a good workout at the gym tonight. But Saturday I will be at my boyfriends and I will be able to make it to the gym. Sunday morning before I go back to the apt I will also be able to make it to the gym. However, next week I wi... Thu, 12 Mar 2009 13:43:39 EST A bit worried http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1872628 As I have blogged before I am apartment hunting and going to be moving. I am worried because I know for a week I will be cleaning and moving and will not be able to go to they gym. I do not want to miss it so long I am afraid I won't want to go back. I know I have changed this time and I am doing well, but I actually feel a bit guilty knowing I am going to choose not to go to the gym for a whole week. I guess I will see what happens.... Just wanted to vent my fears for a minute Thu, 12 Mar 2009 10:48:12 EST