JULESANA8818's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JULESANA8818 JULESANA8818's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I ate, I sat, I put the weight back on. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5700141 Well that pretty much sums up that last year of my life. It is very frustrating and sad that I gained all my weight back plus some. I had hoped to never be in this place again. The good news is that I have all the tools to lose it again and keep it off for good this time. I have a gym membership at a gym that is very close to my house, Nutrition tracking from sparkpeople, accountability from my sparkfriends and text support from the lovely Michelene Cleary. <BR> <BR> I am really tire... Wed, 21 May 2014 16:09:14 EST First week on my journey back. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5479389 Soooooooooo today I begin my second week on my journey back to healthy. I wanted to start off the week by reviewing last week and looking at things I did well and what I could have done better. <BR> <BR> The one thing I feel like I did not do my best at this week is weights. I wanted to do a weight circuit M W F . I only did it Monday. So to correct this this week I plan on doing it Tuesday and Thursday. Since I don't have to rush off to work on those two days, I won't feel as rushed.... Sun, 8 Sep 2013 10:38:50 EST Looking back and looking forward. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5476770 Hey sparkpeople, <BR> Today I had the house to myself, a true rarity since I am married with 3 sons. I decided to use the quiet to do some reflecting. I joined sparkpeople way back in 2007 but really invested in it in 2009. I lost over 70 lbs. that year. Since then I have gained it back and for a long while completely lost my "spark". I read all my old blogs this morning and remembered the highs and the lows along my journey. It is a journey, a lifelong journey. It is not a diet... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 12:32:09 EST September 2nd. day three of taking it back. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5473345 Weighed in this morning at 237.6. Started on Saturday weighing 240.0. So far I am down 2lbs. I Joined Planet fitness yesterday and will do my first workout there today. The only gym I have ever worked out at is the YMCA. I am nervous about working out somewhere new. But since it is located between home and work, <BR> I have no excuse not to go. Right now my plan is 3o min. on the treadmill M-F and the 30 minute weight circuit Tues. and Thursday. I have my workout playlist loaded in m... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 10:16:27 EST Starting the ten minute challenge today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5232497 I signed up for the 10 minute fitness challenge today. I have committed to do 10 minutes of fitness for the next 60 days. I am so out of shape I am really hoping this the start of something healthy. Fri, 1 Feb 2013 00:19:49 EST Week 1 of getting back on track- a summary. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5030300 I've moaned and complained about gaining my weight back. Now is the time to change. I rebooted my weight loss on 8/19/12- today was my weekly weigh-in. I started at 238 and this morning I weighed 232.8. I ate healthier every day cut out soda and upped my water drinking at least 6 cups every day. I got in extra walking everywhere I could. I only made it to the gym on Friday, but I did walk a trail in the park on Sunday. <BR> <BR> My experience back at the gym was great. I belong to ... Sat, 25 Aug 2012 09:39:38 EST My relationship to the scale ( thanks Michelene for making me think again:) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4665942 My bestie sparkpal Michelene blogged the other day about how we love to hate the scale, this got me thinking. What is my earliest memory of the scale????? I was 8 or 9 and my mom took me for my annual exam at the pediatricians office he mentioned that I was about6 lbs ovewrweight, my mom put me on a diet that summer, I lost 5 pounds. I have included a picture from that summer. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/2/l920286486.jpg"> that is me on the far left. I hated that sc... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 11:11:50 EST Back at square one. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4612210 I am overweight. I am out of energy. Only I can change these sad facts. So I am back at square one. Today I will make better choices. Tomorrow I will wake up eat a healthy breakfast and go for a walk. I will drink more water, drive past the fast food restaurants and eat healthy snacks. This is what I will do now so that next week I will feel a bit better and next month my pants will be loser, and next year I will not be overweight and out of energy. <BR> <BR> That is all. Jules Sun, 4 Dec 2011 19:04:56 EST Week 2 in review. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4490026 Sunday was great, had dinner with in-laws at local Italian restaurant, I ordered a side portion of pasta, then only ate half, boxed up the rest right away. ( they have huge portions). <BR> <BR> Monday was good but I was pmsing and really really tired. Boy did I nap. <BR> <BR> Tuesday was good. I ate right, but did not go walking like I planned. <BR> <BR> Wednesday- took my son to the ER, asthma was flaring up. He is fine. Ate well, and walked 2 miles. <BR> <BR> Thursday, walked ... Sat, 17 Sep 2011 18:37:41 EST My week in review. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4477750 Well as I sit here and slowly sip my nonfat, non whipped Tall Pumpkin spice Latte, I think about this week. It was my kids first week back to school, I made a decision to take advantage of this freedom by going back to the gym. Thanks to sparkpeople I signed up to walk my first 5k in October. Started training this week it helped to motivate me to go to the gym this week. This week I pmsd like mad and still managed to stick pretty much to my nutrition plan. Overall I think I did pretty we... Sat, 10 Sep 2011 20:14:29 EST Forgiving myself, and moving forward. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4469875 I let myself down, I went back to eating in an unhealthy way, I quit moving, gave up and hid. But now, It is time to forgive myself and move on. I have decided that in order to accomplish the healthy goals I have set for myself I have to start looking at the 70 lbs. I lost and then regained in the most positive way I can. Losing that weight taught me that I can lose weight and be a healthy person, and it helped me connect with some wonderful people who have remained a support system thoug... Tue, 6 Sep 2011 16:40:31 EST What I hate about being overweight ( to remind myself why I won't eat that Lasagna:) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4467346 This is day 2 of getting back on track, for reals this time peeps;) And While I still feel somewhat crappy, because I haven't been eating healthy long enough to start feeling good yet, SO to help out the future me that is PMSing or whatever and thinking about going for that entire box of doughnuts, I am going to list all the things that suck about being overweight. Here: <BR> <BR> 1. being so feckin tired all the time, seriously I need a nap to recover from my nap. <BR> <BR> 2. Havin... Mon, 5 Sep 2011 11:50:56 EST My A-Z for the Twilight team challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4465715 My A-Z list for my Twilight Challenge Team Blog <BR> <BR> A. Age: 36 <BR> <BR> B. Bed size: King <BR> <BR> C. Chore you dislike: Cleaning the bathroom, I live with 4 boys, you do the math:) <BR> <BR> D. Dogs:no Dogs, son is allergic <BR> <BR> E. Essential start to your day: some kind of iced coffee beverage, as a of late Hills Bros. fat free caramel Skinny Latte made with 1% milk. yum:) <BR> <BR> F. Favorite color: red <BR> <BR> G. Gold or silver: all silver all the way, or copper l... Sun, 4 Sep 2011 12:18:39 EST the weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4385289 Well I had a very busy week end, still managed to skip all the fast food and drink a whole lot of water, however I really feel that I could have planned better ahead as on Saturday I skipped breakfast. Also had sweet tea at the Restaurant on Sunday, could have saved the calories and just had regular tea and added splenda. Maintained weight over the week end so I still need to lose 3 lbs. by the 31st. Totally doable. Here's to a new week!!!!! Mon, 25 Jul 2011 14:56:58 EST Day 3 of ROJ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4375707 Today went pretty well, had life cereal and 8oz iced coffee made with 1% milk for, had a mini can of chef boyardee ravioli for lunch ( I love it - don't judge:) and went out to dinner with my in-laws and kids at Eat n' park, I researched online ahead of time and ordered breakfast for dinner. 2 eggs over medium, dry english muffin and hashbrowns, then went swimming with the kids. tried to stay moving the entire 2 hrs. came home and had a snack. <BR> <BR> 1265 calories for the day ( goal... Wed, 20 Jul 2011 21:19:06 EST R.O.J. Day 1 of 13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4371418 Well I had this great plan today, I was prepared. Healthy food packed, gym clothes laid out and in bed by 12:00. It was a good plan. Unfortunately my day had other plans -. did not fall asleep until after 3:30 am, rolled with it, got up in time to go to the gym. Did my 34 minutes on the treadmill and drove home to change quick and go to work. Got to work and my sewing instructor was a no show, so 8 little girls were waiting to learn to sew, and there was no teacher. I sew but not often... Mon, 18 Jul 2011 22:58:57 EST The Rest of July..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4368830 So I was thinking, On august first I'd get back on track and start losing weight again and then I thought, "hey, why not start now, there is still 13 days left this month, 13 days to weigh less then I do right now, 13 days to get back to the gym and start getting into the habit of being healthy again" So I will start today, I will not waste the rest of July, I am taking back my health and life now, Why wait???? <BR> <BR> Goals for tomorrow= <BR> <BR> Eat a healthy breakfast ( and photo bl... Sun, 17 Jul 2011 21:44:10 EST June goals and stuff. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4270601 I need to get back on track so my June goals are: <BR> <BR> Log on to sparkpeople at least 25 days this month. 1 day so far. <BR> <BR> Eat breakfast at least 4 days every week. 1 day so far <BR> <BR> log what I eat everyday, even when I screw up. 1 day so far. <BR> <BR> Wed, 1 Jun 2011 17:07:17 EST My March Manifesto. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4081094 A manifesto is a public declaration of intentions. So what are my intentions for March. <BR> <BR> <BR> Starting this month I have set a new goal for myself. Lose 5 lbs. per month. In one year this will drop me another 60 lbs. It is easy straight forward and completely do-able. No more unreasonable goals this year. <BR> <BR> I will make better choices and strive to fuel my body with the nutrients and water it needs to take care of my family, my job and myself. <BR> <BR> I will go ... Thu, 10 Mar 2011 09:50:44 EST Month of February - week 5 of 2011. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3982106 Quick recap of January. first 2 weeks did great last two weeks got sick, ate terrible and skipped the gym--- January is over on to February. <BR> <BR> Goals for week 5 <BR> <BR> 1. Eat breakfast everyday ( mcodnalds doesn't count) <BR> <BR> 2. Take vitamins everyday. <BR> <BR> 3. 30 minutes of cardio 3 days this week <BR> <BR> 4. Drink 6 cups of water a day. <BR> <BR> 5. Weigh in every day. <BR> <BR> 6. Log into sparkpeople everyday. <BR> <BR> 7. blog atleast 4 days this week... Tue, 1 Feb 2011 21:23:13 EST Week 3 Day 7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3954175 Well, this week was a wash I spent most of it sick in bed. Tomorrow it is back to my goals. Once again they are: <BR> <BR> 1. Eat Breakfast everyday <BR> <BR> 2. Take my vitamin everyday <BR> <BR> 3. 30 minutes of cardio 3 days this week <BR> <BR> 4. drink 6 cups of water per day <BR> <BR> 5. Weigh in everyday <BR> <BR> 6. Log in to sparkpeople everyday <BR> <BR> 7. Blog at least 4 days this week <BR> <BR> 8. Scrapbook at least on layout this week <BR> <BR> 9. Follow flylady ... Sun, 23 Jan 2011 21:11:00 EST Week 2 Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3906362 Since I didn't get a chance to blog last night. I ll start off with a talley of my progress last week. <BR> <BR> 1. Eat Breakfast everyday- COMPLETED <BR> <BR> 2. Take my vitamin everyday - INCOMPLETE only did this 3 of 7 days- and I though this would be an easy one. <BR> <BR> 3. 30 minutes of cardio 3 days this week. COMPLETED I did cardio 4 days this week total of 158 minutes. <BR> <BR> 4. drink 6 cups of water per day INCOMPLETE only made 5 of 7 days. <BR> <BR> 5. Weigh i... Sun, 9 Jan 2011 12:13:54 EST week One Day 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3898544 Day four went well, stayed on track, just too sleepy to blog it and too preoccupied by my hubby actually wanting to read a book with me. ( We are reading The Hunger Games- if that ain't ironic, I don't know what is. If you haven't read it you seriously should. and no it is not my life story.) haha. <BR> <BR> On to day 5: <BR> <BR> This weeks goals are: <BR> <BR> 1. Eat breakfast everyday. DONE (5 down, 2 to go) <BR> <BR> 2. take my vitamin everyday. DONE (4 down, 2 to go - I misse... Thu, 6 Jan 2011 22:05:57 EST Week One Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3890172 Well here is my status for today. <BR> <BR> <BR> This weeks goals are: <BR> <BR> 1. Eat breakfast everyday. DONE <BR> <BR> 2. take my vitamin everyday. DONE <BR> <BR> 3. 30 minutes of cardio 3xs per week DONE 33 minutes. <BR> <BR> 4. drink 6 cups of water everyday ( I have really been slacking on the waterfront) DONE made my 8 today!!!! <BR> <BR> 5. weigh in everyday ( not for everyone, but it helps me stay accountable) DONE <BR> <BR> 6. log in to sparkpeople everyday ( 3 down 4... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 20:34:43 EST Week One Day Two http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3885762 Well here is my status for today. <BR> <BR> <BR> This weeks goals are: <BR> <BR> 1. Eat breakfast everyday. DONE <BR> <BR> 2. take my vitamin everyday. DONE <BR> <BR> 3. 30 minutes of cardio 3xs per week DONE 33 minutes. <BR> <BR> 4. drink 6 cups of water everyday ( I have really been slacking on the waterfront) DONE <BR> <BR> 5. weigh in everyday ( not for everyone, but it helps me stay accountable) DONE <BR> <BR> 6. log in to sparkpeople everyday ( 1 down 6 to go:) - I need to... Mon, 3 Jan 2011 20:13:23 EST Week one day one. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3879915 So this year I am trying something a little bit different goal wise. I have set weekly, monthly and yearly goals to achieve. I have made a chart - I love charts:) <BR> <BR> these weekly gaols will stay the same for every week this month, I know they are kinda low for January, but I really need to get back to basics and be consistent, I will adjust them for next month and so on. <BR> <BR> This weeks goals are: <BR> <BR> 1. Eat breakfast everyday. <BR> <BR> 2. take my vitamin everyda... Sun, 2 Jan 2011 11:07:45 EST 2010- year in review - http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3874433 2010- what can I say, you were not kind to me. <BR> <BR> number of books read = 23 ( at least) <BR> <BR> promotions at work = 1 <BR> <BR> new hobby acquired= 1 (jewelry making) <BR> <BR> weight = + 41 (that sucks so badly) <BR> <BR> fitness minutes = 2995 <BR> <BR> this was a year of procrastinations and lack of dedication. Tommorrow is a new month, a new year and a new start. <BR> <BR> 2011- we have work to do!!!!!!!! Fri, 31 Dec 2010 14:19:46 EST Blog for today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3843919 Well today was snow day for the kids and and an off day for me. really making an effort today to drink more H2O, because lately I'm not getting anywhere near enough. I am really working toward getting back into onederland this week, I detest being over 200 lbs. Putting up the Christmas tree and organizing my scrapbooking area, keeping those hands out of the cookie jar. Roads are to snow-covered to go to the gym so I will try to sneak in a mini workout at home. <BR> <BR> not ravenously... Tue, 14 Dec 2010 16:18:18 EST My week in review. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3840187 Well this was a decent week, I logged on to spark people 6 out of 7 days this week. I sayed within my calorie range this week5 of 7 days. I dropped 6 lbs. this week so due to my monthly visitor arriving early. And I blogged 5 out of 7 days. I faced down many temptations and overcame them this week. <BR> <BR> My plan for this week is as follows. <BR> <BR> 1. Log in to sparkpeople everyday this week. <BR> <BR> 2. stay in my calorie everyday this week. <BR> <BR> 3. blog everyday ... Sun, 12 Dec 2010 20:57:22 EST Hubby's Birthday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3836983 Today was full of landmines. I had lunch out with the in-laws at at an Italian restaurant, ordered NO PASTA. only had half my sandwich and made them hold the fries and had side salad instead. Then for his birthday my hubby requested homemade stuffed shells. I only ate 2 and no bread, then bypassed the cake altogether( didn't even lick the beaters). Today I feel strong, I even kept the MIL from having cake she is competing with me to see who can lose 15 lbs. first. <BR> <BR> On a happy... Fri, 10 Dec 2010 20:22:57 EST Just a run down of my day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3835203 I am really trying to be a consistent blogger, since I have found that going back and reading my old blogs really motivated me. So here is an account of my day. <BR> <BR> I was off work in the AM so my plan was to go back to bed, but the hubby was also off so he wanted to go out to breakfast....but we got a little uh, distracted (empty house and all :) so we didn't leave the house until lunch time. We went to a local Amish restaurant where I usually eat a openfaced turkey sandwich with ... Thu, 9 Dec 2010 21:59:02 EST I need late day strength. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3832909 Boy, sometimes it seems like nighttime me is really screwing morning me. Morning me is the perfect sparkgirl, she eats breakfast, packs a healthy lunch, takes her vitamin and faces the scale everyday. Evening Julie tends to snack, put off exercising until tomorrow and stay up too late reading really good young adult fiction, even though she is a 36 yr. old mother of three. I want to figure out why, I sabotage myself after dinner, and why my resolve seems to go right out the window. my wil... Wed, 8 Dec 2010 20:46:55 EST Victoria secrets, I miss thee. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3830868 Ok, so today I did something that made me sad, but determined, Since I gained my weight back over the last 6 months, I have out grown a lot of my sexy panties. trust me trying to put on panties that are too small for you is not flattering in any capacity. So, I took all those pretty panties that are currently too small for me along with my skinny jeans and some other clothes that i have "outgrown" and put them in a separate drawer I will earn them back, because gosh darn it I miss them. ... Tue, 7 Dec 2010 21:42:30 EST You take the good, you take the bad...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3828640 today was a mixed bag for me as far as sticking to my plan so I am gonna blog it and forget about it. <BR> <BR> The bad: Bad timing led to a drive thru run. Bad weather led to no time at the gym, ate waffle fries. <BR> <BR> The good: I made a meal plan ahead of time, that I stuck to for breakfast and lunch. I went to chick-fil-a and not mcdonalds. I ordered grilled chicken sandwich instead of breaded, and I did not large size it. Hubby got a bbq chicken dinner with loaded mashed... Mon, 6 Dec 2010 21:35:28 EST A new week ahead and my plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3783614 My plan this week is to make it to the gym M-F. Do better on drinking my water and stay in my calorie range. Goal is to lose 2lbs. this week. Sun, 14 Nov 2010 18:43:55 EST Having a super week. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3778098 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/8/l887054277.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So far I have had a super week. I have had great workouts Mon- Thurs. I have stayed on track nutritionally and have got a lot done at home and at work. I can already feel the energy coming back from taking care of my body the right way. Feeling good right now, hoping to finish the week off strong. Thu, 11 Nov 2010 20:14:10 EST Making progress. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3773597 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/8/l886297775.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I got to add stars to my new chart this week , and I am well on my way. I have ate balanced meals drank much more water and worked out yesterday and today . I am starting to feel better all ready. I will blog again when that chart changes:) Tue, 9 Nov 2010 19:04:28 EST It's a new day, It's a new start. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3757575 OK. I'm not gonna wallow anymore. Starting right now there is a new plan. And here it is. <BR> <BR> Goal A. to relose 20 lbs. by 1/1/11. ( for 50 lbs. total) <BR> Goal B. to lose 40 lbs. by 3/17/11 (or 70lbs. total) <BR> Goal c. to lose 70 lbs by 06/11/11 (or 100 lbs. total ) <BR> <BR> How to get there healthy and exercise. <BR> <BR> more to follow......... <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l984134140.jpg"> Tue, 2 Nov 2010 17:51:21 EST So far this week .... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3714585 Well, let me say that this week is definitely been an improvement form last week. So far i made it to the gym M T and W. Yesterday I really pushed it, it felt good to sweat and keep going even when I wanted to quit. My sis and I are going today. Yesterday at work i finally solved a computer issue that has been diving me a little crazy. I happy danced after that one, and did a couple rounds of "go me"!!! Good thing I have a private office, or they may have carted me away. Food wise I... Thu, 14 Oct 2010 09:04:54 EST no more excuses http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3705308 I let the stress get to me. We just finished a protracted fight with my sons school district about my autistic sons special education plan and after many tears and anxiety attacks, we are victorious. That level of stress is almost paralyzing. but my son is worth it, he will have the best life possible. Autism will not ruin my marriage, my family or my life, and it cannot have my son. He will learn to read, he will learn to write, and he will have a life that makes him happy, because I ... Sun, 10 Oct 2010 11:37:56 EST My goals for this week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3671331 I have decided that right now a weekly goal is more doable. so here is my goal for this week <BR> <BR> 1. follow the slimfast plan- busy week this will make the meals and snacks easier to plan. <BR> <BR> 2. drink atleast 6 glasses of water per day. <BR> <BR> 3. go to the gym tuesday, thursday and friday. and di atleast 35min cardio and 15 min weights. <BR> <BR> That is it this week, I am so far off track that I think this is all I can manage right now. I know if I make it through t... Sun, 26 Sep 2010 11:43:59 EST September goals. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3602458 Well, I know it has been a while since I blogged last, and you know what they say about idle hands, they can't stay out of the fridge:) I have been dealing with some personal stuff in an unhealthy way, bingeing and skipping the gym. Emotinally I am drained right now. I know that when I don't take care of myself, the depressin rears it's ugly head and a viscious cycle ensues. So, I'm going back to the beginning, you'll be hearing from me alot more often, I thrive on structure and accounabi... Fri, 3 Sep 2010 00:40:38 EST Yeah, I ate that. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3445268 Candy bars, Mashed potatoes, Mac and cheese, Salami, cheese and Miracle whip sandwiches, Doritos, Cinnamon Licorice, Ravioli from a can, Mac and cheese from a can, taco bell, Mc Donalds, Burger King........ yeah I ate that this month and oh so much more. I have pretty much imploded, I have waved the white flag, (or was that a Mcdonalds napkin??) The gym forgets what I look like. I have gained 18lbs. back from my lowest weight so far. <BR> <BR> "Is that enough?" I asked the girl in the... Sun, 18 Jul 2010 22:22:52 EST July Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3391932 Well July is here and I am really trying to be slow and consistent this month. I am not going to set unrealistic goals for myself this month. This month I want to lose 5 lbs. and workout 3 days every week, and really try to drink 8 cups of water per day. I think alot of the time when I think I'm hungry, I am actually thirsty. If I lose 5lbs. this month I will be back to my lowest so far ( before the insane 10lb regain of May) It is a matter of doing the basics consistently. Fri, 2 Jul 2010 07:54:16 EST Swimming is so great. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3366967 Well summer is in full effect and My Y has a beautiful and huge outdoor pool. Me and the kids have been practically living there lately. I got a new cute swimsuit and I actually feel pretty in it. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> At the constant harping of my RL accountability partner and best pal Jennis, I have been really working on adding weights back into my workout routine. I can already see and feel the results. Food has been actually a little easier lately, since we are so busy, now if my... Thu, 24 Jun 2010 13:12:23 EST Some good things about this week. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3341547 Well last Friday was my birthday- I turned 35. I spent 1/2 the day crying. I was disappointed in myself, I am about 40lbs. off the 100 goal I set for myself. I felt so fat and defeated and seriously off the wagon. I was crying when my little sister called to wish me a "happy Birthday" . I told her I felt fat and old- she yelled at me to stop crying and said " the other day when Lexi (her former roommate) and I were moving stuff into storage at Mom and Dad's we passed you senior picture ... Wed, 16 Jun 2010 18:13:33 EST Do the hula!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3284647 Last night my hubby and I went to a graduation party of the son of the guy who owns my husband' s gym. He is from Tonga and they had a Hawaiian theme party complete with traditional food and a live hula show. It was so fun and the food was fabulous- Kahlua pork- so fabulous!!!! I only had one cup of Sangria cause I had to drive but it was yummy too. I ate in moderation though - and i think watching the hula girls finally made up my mind to take a zumba class. Plus the Zumba instructor at... Mon, 31 May 2010 10:55:34 EST A year of weight loss, my version. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3273082 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/5/l850151257.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Sunday was my 1 yr weightlossaverary. What motivated me to start this journey. Many things. First I knew I was fat (it might surprise some people to realize this- when you're fat, you know you're fat- I mean you see yourself naked) I was tired- all day long all the time - tired. I ran into an ex-boyfriend's mom and she didn't recognize me. (of course when we dated I weighed like 100 lbs. literally) and my f... Thu, 27 May 2010 09:40:59 EST My friends rock!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3259037 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l464073474.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is a pic of my best girl Jennis. She is my RL accountability partner. Last week when it all went to crap she stayed on the wagon and is helping pull me back up . I am supposed to Email her everyday and post my stats( fitness, calorie count etc. ) I have not been doing that and she called me out and told me in no uncertain term to get my bootee to the gym last night. Then she sent me a fabulous Email Last ... Sun, 23 May 2010 10:22:18 EST Bridget Jones http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3256311 "At times like this, continuing with one's life seems impossible... and eating the entire contents of one's fridge seems inevitable. I have two choices: to give up... or not, and this time i choose not. " <BR> <BR> Thanks Bridget Jones!!!!! <BR> <BR> Well she gets Collin Firth in the end so how wrong can she be?????? Sat, 22 May 2010 09:31:06 EST