JUJUFISH's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JUJUFISH JUJUFISH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Trying to get back to normal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5296185 My committee has my thesis. I completed my first practice defense. I have substantial work to do on my presentation and 2 more scheduled practice defenses to go before the real deal next Friday. <BR> <BR> Keeping that in mind, I've decided I need to start focusing on pulling aspects of my life back towards normal. The good news is that I haven't been eating as horribly as I initially thought I would. I managed to only gain about 4 pounds in the last month of chaos. The bad news is that... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 11:55:58 EST What?! Where'd January go?!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230702 I got a couple of nasty surprises today that really shouldn't have been surprises. It's January 30th. That means only ONE more day on January 2013. <BR> <BR> A small piece of me is beyond excited about this because there are so many fabulous adventures coming up this year. The overwhelming majority is doing the giant-cartoon-watching-the-train-hit-you eyes. <BR> <BR> I knew this month was going to go by quickly since I have firm deadline to finish my PhD and time never slows down when yo... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 19:20:58 EST 58 days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5209952 58 days until my thesis is due. <BR> <BR> It's due two months from yesterday. <BR> <BR> GAAAH!! <BR> <BR> I swore up and down I wouldn't let my experiments linger this long. Guess what I did? Some of them are bad luck or rather bad collaborators taking forever and a half to send me samples. I'm going to be in a collaborator's lab all of next week with no access to my other experiments so I'm fighting against time on all fronts right now. <BR> <BR> I'm not dealing well with the stress r... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 11:55:00 EST TV can sit on it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5203651 I'm starting to write up my doctoral thesis, at least I'm supposed to be. I've been an expert procrastinator since before I knew what a deadline was. It doesn't help that the more stressed or anxious I get, the more difficult it is for me to actually start things. I have a couple methods designed for getting me going at the lab (with moderate success). My biggest problem at home is the TV. At the beginning of the year I declared war on TV for TV's sake and vowed to stop wasting my evening... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 13:15:09 EST Dealing with the TV http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5194124 Growing up in an Italian-American household, I used to crave quiet. I vividly remember sitting at the kitchen table trying to do my homework and wishing everyone would just shut-up! Now my apartment is too quiet. I often start to spook myself without the presence of some background noise. The problem is that I've been filling the noise void with television marathons and movies which inevitawbly distract me from whatever I'm supposed to be doing (like blogging). <BR> <BR> I'm entering three... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 23:59:04 EST traveling pitfalls http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5149482 I'm traveling for work for two weeks in a last ditch effort to try to get my PhD to work. I have minimal confidence that any of this is going to work which likely means that I'm "wasting" two weeks of precious time and chunk of grant money. There's maybe a 2% chance that this is all going to work and I won't have to fight tooth and nail to escape this spring. There's a lot of optimism going around right now. <BR> <BR> At least I'm in Toronto. I've been to the city before so I kind of know... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 12:22:38 EST War for the High School jeans: Battle One Won! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5122016 At the end of August I resolved that I wanted to try to wear my high school jeans again. Since then, things have been a little rocky but I finally conquered the first stronghold. <BR> <BR> I buttoned and zipped the darn things!!!! <BR> <BR> September 28, 2012 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1286147880.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1067061042.jpg"> <BR> <BR> November 2, 2012 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/1/... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 23:02:22 EST The week I almost quit my PhD for the 5478721 time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5095590 I am roughly 160 days from defending my PhD in biochemistry. All of my favorite post docs are telling me that I should try to resist counting down but at this point I can't help it. Grad school has been littered with ups and downs so you would think that at this point I'd be used to it. However, looming deadlines that only seem to multiple instead of shrink. I'm going to be working out of a collaborator's lab in Toronto for several weeks leading up to the new year which means that things n... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 18:00:47 EST Hello dehydration, now go away! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5092075 Today I was at the gym and feeling unusually sore after weight training. I blamed it on a weekend of bad sleep thanks to long bartending shifts and an anxiety/depression flare up and decided I was going to fight through it. 7 minutes and 30 seconds into my bike intervals I was so shaky that I could barely keep myself upright so intervals ended abruptly. As I lay on the stretching mat hoping I wouldn't pass out I tried to analyze what the heck was going on. I had slept the night before. I ... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 23:38:09 EST All about attitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5054454 I've had an attitude problem since I was about 7 years old. I hate being told what to do, especially if whatever you want me to do conflicts with previously blocked out as my time. This attitude problem usually gets me in hot water at least once a semester and I'm estimating that will happen sometime in the next week. But that's not the attitude I'm talking about today. <BR> <BR> I've been trying to pull myself together since the new year and while weight has a large piece of the pie, one... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 13:18:56 EST Owning up to pasta and not apologizing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5028622 We had a group luncheon today. Our postdoc from Napoli, Italy is leaving soon so she brought in homemade pasta carbonara and tiramisu. I had giant first and second helpings and had completely used up my calories for the day by 12:30pm. And I'm not feeling guilty about it! Yes, my stomach felt stretched a little too thin this afternoon. Yes, I'm going to try to squeeze in an extra run this weekend. But seriously, how often is someone from Naples going to serve you fresh macaroni with homem... Thu, 23 Aug 2012 23:10:23 EST the battle for high school jeans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5026336 I've been back at boxing for a little over 2 weeks now and I absolutely love it. Ever since I first started boxing 4 years ago I've loved. My balance and form is slowly coming back and with it my speed and power. I've done more push-ups than I had in the previous year and probably triple the crunches. I've been a little less anxious which I'm sure my boyfriend appreciates as much as I do. As icing on the cake I've lost 2 pounds and 3.5 inches off of my frame. <BR> <BR> I'm trying to g... Wed, 22 Aug 2012 12:22:32 EST Back from Spain! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5000605 I recently returned from a 10 day trip to Spain; 5 days in Madrid for a research conference and 5 days in Barcelona with the boyfriend for vacation. The trip was a rollercoaster of activity and emotions that still makes me hesitate for a moment before I tell people we had a great trip. We did have a great trip, and an active one. In both cities my primary form of transportation was walking. Madrid is mostly flat but there are some serious hills and the beach to deal with in Barcelona. We... Sat, 4 Aug 2012 11:19:18 EST One foot in front of the other http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4943198 2012 hasn't been a great year for me. My research is behaving like an unruly two year old and it's only because I've put two years of work into already that I haven't thrown it out the window. I have roughly 6 months to finish up the majority of my research, followed by 5 months of writing my PhD thesis, tying up loose ends, and finding a job. My anxiety/depression began to build up no long after Thanksgiving so I decided to try to nip it in the bud by going back on my medication. After m... Tue, 26 Jun 2012 12:55:44 EST 3 year Spark-a-versary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4881753 Sunday was my 3 year anniversary on Sparkpeople. I am 27 pounds down from my biggest. 21 pounds down from my heaviest spark weight and 7 pounds into my most recent battle of the bulge. I did not think I would still be in this war. I reached my goal weight in Dec. 2009 and stayed there are a little more than almost 6 months. Grad school has been far crueler to my lifestyle than I expected. Lack of regular meal times and a nonexistence sleep schedule.I'm a stress eater with a bad habit of ... Mon, 14 May 2012 23:01:50 EST Runner's high and lows http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4873200 I ran my first 5k in a decade on Sunday with a sparkpeople and real life friend. I was apprehensive about actually running the race to say the least. I ran crosscountry freshman year of high school and had a miserable time of it. Ever since then I've avoided 5k's like the plague. This school year has been a mess exercise-wise. Recently, I've been decent at keeping to my strength and interval training schedule. (Those workouts take the least amount of time.) But I've been slacking on doin... Tue, 8 May 2012 23:30:40 EST Strength training beef with sparkpeople http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4848946 I'm a huge advocate of strength training. I feel better and have fewer injuries when I'm strength training along with whatever cardio thing I've currently trying. I do not like that sparkpeople only counts strength training as "minutes" and not "minutes and calories." I realize that estimating strength training calories correctly is more improbable than correctly estimating cardio calories but it's a little frustrating to end up under my suggested exercise level again and again on days th... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 22:08:03 EST Let's talk about food groups... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4831261 It's Wednesday night. I don't think I've had anything that counts as a real meal since Sunday. This has been one of those weeks where I can barely force myself to get out of bed before I need to run for the door. I'm working till 9pm or later every night so coming home and making lunch for the next day isn't happening. Dinner has really been an assortment of snacks. At least day I was able to pull together some cheese, fruit, and celery sticks from various evening meetings. Monday and T... Thu, 12 Apr 2012 00:52:40 EST Family Support? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4826273 I went home for Easter for the first time in years and remember why holidays with the family drive me crazy. Everyone in my family is on some form of fitness/weight loss journey. From my brother who's trying to become a seal to my grandfather who's been battling with his weight for the last 15 years or so. You cannot go to my grandparents without discussing what races are coming up, what diet someone is trying, or how much weight people have lost. Everyone is really supportive about whate... Sun, 8 Apr 2012 23:25:32 EST Stress Eater http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4811511 I am a stress eater. When things start getting crazy, I reach for the chocolate. And the chips. And the pizza. And any other comfort-type food I crave. I'm a master justify-er. <BR> <BR> "I'm too busy to have a real dinner." "I'll go to the gym when this is over." "It's free (seminar snacks)." And my favorite "all this extra coffee will counteract it." <BR> <BR> I'm not sure which is more ridiculous, the way they look on paper or the way they sound in my head. I know the "tricks" and ... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 23:15:29 EST innocent words can sting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4795978 So I just got back from an awesome beach vacation where we spent days out in the sun and in swimsuits. I swam competitively for years but put me in any type of "fashionable" suit or worse a bikini and I am an insecure mess. In some moment of insanity/boldness I got a legit two piece for this vacation and allowed myself to be persuaded to pack it. I'm still a little bit shocked that I actually put it on and went to the beach. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/7/l87... Mon, 19 Mar 2012 23:18:08 EST Vacation Pounds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4794269 I just got back from my first vacation in two years. I spent a week in Puerto Rico with some of my sorority sisters. We were hardly your typical spring breakers. We went to bed by midnight most days, weren't eating constantly, and barely drank any alcohol. We spent days swimming, traipsing around San Juan, dancing, and kayaking. <BR> <BR> And I still gained five pounds. <BR> <BR> I know I desperately needed that vacation and had tons of fun despite a minor sunburn. I still feel like I... Mon, 19 Mar 2012 01:14:51 EST mystery 5 pounds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4319472 Finals are done. I passed my candidacy exam so I get to stay in grad school for another 2 years. I've been taking Zumba and doing strength training for about two weeks now and feel infinitely better than when I was spending 10 hours a day in front of a computer with a pile of processed food. I've been trying to eat more fruits and vegetables and whole grains. All in all, I think my dietician, doctor, and trainer would be proud of we. The one I don't understand is why I "magically" gained... Fri, 24 Jun 2011 08:25:21 EST Lumpy Legs and a new routine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4118765 In my nearly two years on Spark I'm sure I've complained about this before but it's really irking me just now. I had when you start to loose weight at parts of your body get more lumpy as the shrink. For me the worst is in my hips and upper thighs. I was greeted in the mirror with what appeared to cellulite trench war fare. I've been down this road before and I know the divets, lines, and lumps will fade but they looked so disgusting today. <BR> <BR> On a more positive note, I started a... Fri, 25 Mar 2011 23:08:24 EST In which the scale doesn't work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4111569 So me and my scale have been feuding recently. My roommates and I have done independent studies and figured out that our apartment floor is so wacked that it's like being in a 'weight twilight zone.' Seriously, our weighs can fluctuate by eight or more pounds based on what tile you put the scale on. And even that's not consistent. I got my scale out the other day since I haven't actually weighed myself in months. The scale's verdict this time..."Lo" I'm pretty sure this means that it's ... Wed, 23 Mar 2011 00:20:35 EST 23 years and pounds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4015757 Today I'm turning 23 years old. Not a normal milestone age other than that's how many pounds I need to loose to get to my "ultimate goal weight." I admit I'm a little bit heavier for this birthday than I want to be. I think after floundering around for the first 6 weeks of 2011, I've started to come up with a workout plan that will work for me. I'm taking my Zumba class again. Officially I'm only there one day a week, but my class on the other day usually gets out early so I'm hoping to ... Mon, 14 Feb 2011 01:53:05 EST Resolutions 2011 - first 6 months http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3882385 After a long hiatus and mixed success I'm back on sparkpeople to take control in 2011. I still haven't mastered the long term planning thing so I'm splitting the year in half for my resolutions. The idea here is to have three for the first six months and then, in June, amend or add to my resolutions based on my success. <BR> <BR> Resolution #1) Make weekly gym schedule and stick to it <BR> <BR> Resolution #2) Lose 15lbs by youngest brother's HS graduation in May <BR> <BR> Resolution #3) ... Sun, 2 Jan 2011 22:45:50 EST Happy Halfway http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2498555 It's taken a lot longer than I thought tit would but I'm finally about halfway to my goal weight. Unfortunately as soon as I realized how much weight I'd lost I put myself in neutral and stopped making exercising and eating right a priority. I'm sure there's enough blog entries here with the same basic plot to fill a set of encyclopedias. Hopefully this post will mark the success beginning of the second half of my journey and the kick in the butt to get going on it. Thu, 22 Oct 2009 01:30:32 EST So Progress... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2311325 I thought I would have made more of it by now. Granted in the last two months I've had final exams, moved across an ocean, and then moved across a state. So things have been a little hectic to say the least but I still thought I'd be doing better than this. I'm starting to get into a pretty good routine (just in time for classes to start and change everything) but a consistent exercise program should help me crack this plateau. Here's to perserverance! Thu, 13 Aug 2009 00:18:40 EST New Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2242665 I've been back in the United States for about 3 weeks now. The transition back to living in the US is much harder than I expected. I was physically ill for quite I while when I first arrived back but that didn't stop me from feasting on Grandma's home cooking. I definitely ballooned up quite I bit when I was staying at my grandparents but I think most of it was water weight since I've dropped most of the weight just as easily as I gained it. <BR> <BR> I have two new sources of motivation ... Mon, 20 Jul 2009 00:00:27 EST Stateside http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2199365 I'm back in the United States and jetlag is hitting me much harder than I anticipated. I've been sick and am retaining water and generally feel gross. I've heard that the first five days are the worst and, boy, do I hope they're right. I go back to work on Monday and am hoping that I feel well enough to start regular exercise again. <BR> <BR> Hope everyone has a good weekend! Thu, 2 Jul 2009 23:21:05 EST grocery shopping lessons http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2166643 There is a reason that mom always said never go food shopping when you're hungry. I just tried going shopping without eating lunch first. Horrible. Horrible idea. I bought the things on my list and a whole bunch of junk that just "sounded good." I felt my blood sugar drop on the bus home so I thought I'd have one of the bakery cookies I had just bought. Justifiable. Next I knew most of the pack was gone. So now I feel cruddy from having massive amounts of sugar in my body. Even though... Sat, 20 Jun 2009 12:50:44 EST Damage Control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2162502 I am currently preparing for my last two exams of the year, PMSing, and getting ready to move my life over 3000 miles back to the United States. I'm stressed to put it nicely. I've been exercising regularly since a couple days after I got back from Paris. My eating habits have not been the greatest but I'm tracking the best I can and estimating what I can't locate easily. In the coming week I have at least two BBQs and my going away party. The BBQs I'm going to try to be good eating- and... Thu, 18 Jun 2009 17:56:16 EST French Pastry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2140311 I just got back from 5 days in Paris, France. Very very cool city. We got caught in the rain a little more than I wanted to but we were still able to salvage our rainy days. As a couple of student backpackers in an expensive city like Paris we didn't have the most balanced diet during the trip. Lots of fresh baguettes, some apples, and assorted pastries and crepes. I feel a bit like a puff pastry right now but I know at least part of it is just me retaining water. I think I may have gai... Wed, 10 Jun 2009 16:08:28 EST Numbers for Goal #1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2121791 I made it to my first goal and am now hoping I don't slide all the way back to the beginning while I'm in Paris. As a chemist, numerical results very very important so here are my numbers at my first goal. A small step but a very important one to reaching my future goals. <BR> <BR> Goal #1 168-164 <BR> total weight loss: 4 pounds <BR> <BR> Measurements: <BR> Bust: -2 inches <BR> Tummy: -1.75 inches <BR> Waist: - 1.75 inches <BR> Hips: -1 inch <BR> Arms, Thighs and Ribs refused to change <... Thu, 4 Jun 2009 04:53:32 EST Exams, Goal #1, and Paris http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2119762 In the past two weeks I've had four end of year exams. So not fun. The worst part is that I still have three more to do. I'm an exchange student so I'm taking second and third year courses. The third year exams are done but I still have all of my second year exams to "look forward to". Le Sigh. By some miracle I was able to reach my first goal of 164lbs (4 pounds lost!) which puts me at the highest limit of a normal BMI. I went and bought my trench today. It's pretty plain but I really... Wed, 3 Jun 2009 13:07:46 EST I am hungry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2109312 I am hungry. I am hungry all the time. I knew I was going to get cravings with TOM and exam stress. That I was expecting but those usually just stay in my head. Over the last week I have been hungry almost constantly. What's weird is that I'm not exercising any more than usual. I'm eating balanced and healthy meals....most of the time. But it seems like my stomach is constantly growling for more. I thought I might be misinterpreting sore ab muscles as hunger so I eased up on abs for s... Sun, 31 May 2009 12:14:17 EST Little reason packs a punch http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2091434 Over the last several days I've been in a mood and felt like I had the body composition of the Michelin Man. I couldn't figure out why since I'd been exercising, eating 'ok,' and drinking lots of water. I was getting more and more frustrated with everything and then the reason surfaced. Aunt Flo showed up for her monthly visit. The stress of exams and starting a new exercise regimen must have throw my cycle slightly out of whack. Although I still feel like an oversize marshmallow, I'm re... Mon, 25 May 2009 13:32:11 EST One pound down and stuggling more? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2087420 After several weeks over wondering if perhaps my scale was getting stuck, I finally lost just under 1.5 pounds. Then I went on a day trip to Windsor Castle. The Castle was beautiful, the weather was great, and I was uncomfortable in my own skin. I know my body image is inaccurate. I've never really been able to get a good bead on what I look like in general people terms other than the obvious hair color, eye color type descriptors. Now I just feel big and slightly more awkward than I use... Sat, 23 May 2009 17:29:14 EST The dreaded "Before" pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2085532 Words cannot describe how much I hate these pictures. Not only for the crappy quality but also for the person I see in them. So here they are before I loose me nerve. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/1/7/b17696658.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/4/5/b451743777.jpg"> Fri, 22 May 2009 19:41:23 EST The setting of the Milestones http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2081914 I decided to take Spark's advice and set up a reward system for when I achieve certain weights. I'm thinking of it more as milestones than as goals because I'm not going to put a time frame on it. Especially since most serious exercising is on hold right now because I'm studying like mad for my final exams. I was surprised how hard it was for me to come up with rewards for reaching certain weights; which may be an indication of how much time I spend on myself. <BR> <BR> The idea of pamper... Thu, 21 May 2009 12:53:53 EST Stressing and Food wars http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2075712 I don't like stress. I don't handle it well and don't take very good care of myself while under it. I am trying though. I don't have a perfect batting average but I'm doing a lot better than I have in the past. I know that I won't go searching for sweets if they're not in the flat and have been pretty good (again not perfect) about not buying them of food shopping trips. I may be developing a slight addiction to tea but that's nothing a whitening toothpaste can't fix. <BR> <BR> Lucky th... Tue, 19 May 2009 14:27:51 EST One step forward, two steps back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2067303 Weigh-in results: <BR> Weight: zero change <BR> Measurements: 1.75 inches of jiggle areas gone! <BR> <BR> I'm really hoping that I did those measurements correctly but those almost two inches are the first tangible progress I've had in weeks!!! <BR> <BR> However, true to whatever self-destructive tendencies I've acquired over the years, I seem to be quite keen on undoing said progress. I went to a birthday celebration today and completely reverted to grazing mode and ate almost constantly ... Sat, 16 May 2009 14:43:42 EST Night before Weigh-in Woes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2065077 Tomorrow is my first "official" weigh-in since starting Spark. I joined spark after my mid-week weigh-in showed zero progress after two weeks of butt kicking workouts. I felt like I had lost weight on Wednesday and I still feel thinner than I used be, but the numbers didn't reflect that at all. I swear when I look in the mirror my face looks thinner and there's more definition in my limbs. So where are my decreasing numbers! I don't even want to get on the scale tomorrow. <BR> <BR> In t... Fri, 15 May 2009 14:33:28 EST Round one victory over "exam stress chocolate" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2062230 I'm about to dive head first into my 6 week final exam season. Finals have always been my downfall when it comes to eating healthy. However! I went food shopping today and managed to walk right past all of the chocolates, cakes, and other sweets that would have normally been thrown in the basket next to my celery. Talk about to ends of the spectrum. I know that this was only the first of many trips to the store before my exam-cravings are over but a victory in round one feels pretty good! Thu, 14 May 2009 14:52:45 EST The Self-pity Post http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2059124 This is hardly the correct way to begin on a quest for self-esteem, weight-loss, and a positive attitude, but seeing how most people here are in the same boat, I'm going to take this one post to lament about my current condition. I never would have imagined that I'd be joining a web community in order to try to loose weight and reclaim my self-respect. I finished high school as a solid varsity swimmer and slightly less motivated runner. I was never the ultra-slim Cover-girl but there was n... Wed, 13 May 2009 14:08:21 EST